Monthly Archives: April 2016

Spruce Tree House, Petroglyphs & Wild Horses ~ Ancient Potency Hits Me Physically


20160429_182119_resized_1.jpgIt rained most of the day yesterday, but stopped just as we began our explorative hike we chose for the day to see the petroglyph wall in Mesa Verde National Park and to get a look at Spruce Tree House cliff dwelling ruins. It was our intro to the amazing ancient energy and history here, which we took to great heights today – more on that in the next day or so, as it’s a lot of potent energy to let sink in.

But our time yesterday got us prepared, as we first took a walk through the museum to see and learn about the peoples and the land of this sacred area and then made our way down to the trailhead where we were able to get a look at the amazing Spruce Tree House – the third largest cliff dwelling.

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The ancient peoples of this village lived there 700 years. It has 114 rooms and thought to have housed 100 – 150 people.

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This is a well preserved ancient cliff dwelling of the Ancestral Puebloans (also referred to as the Anasazi – a Navajo word that has been translated as “the ancient ones”) who are said to have occupied the Four Corners from approximately A.D. 1 to A.D. 1300 -some say as early as 100 B.C. The earliest inhabitants were nomadic peoples who lived here from at least 10,000 B.C.

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You can’t visit this cliff dwelling right now, as there has been falling rock that makes it too dangerous, so it is blocked off, but you can still feel the amazing energy from it and the area, which whispers of this civilization throughout this ancient land and echos through the cliff dwellings and petroglyphs still standing the test of time.

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The hike is quite wonderful and skirts around the canyon and up and down stone steps cut into the trail, as well as narrow rock passages.

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You see wonderful views.

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Pass other ruins and sacred areas.

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Get to see the amazing petroglyph wall that speaks of the different clans that passed through.

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See indentations from where they sharpened their arrows and axes.

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And with the interpretative trail guide, you learn of the vegetation and more in this area.

I have been a bit obsessed with flowers on our hikes and found many lovely little ones along the way.

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Also some incredible large cocoon houses filled with caterpillars inside and some still entering, which I have never seen before. They were laced throughout the bushes in this one area….little caterpillar dwellings I imagine will transform into a bunch of beautiful butterflies. Incredible!

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There is just such deep, rich symbolism and reflections everywhere!

Interestingly, which I wonder if it was the energy there that affected me, I got a touch of my hypo-glycemia symptoms, which I can get at times, but haven’t in a while. So I was a bit shaky and depleted, unsure how well I’d do on the hike, but yet still managed to do the whole thing.

However, it did put me in an odd state, a bit wobbly at times, and in a different in between vision place.

At one moment we were going through a narrow rock pass and I saw something/someone pass quickly in the opening ahead. There were no other hikers around.

And as we arrived at the petroglyph wall, I stood at the edge of a rock to get a full view and suddenly felt knocked back and started falling back…luckily I had the thought to reach out and grab Dave’s jacket, or I would have fallen. I did not feel faint, so again, was it just the energy here I was experiencing strongly that was affecting me physically?

The trail loops around and back to the museum where you start and not a drop of rain came down while we explored.

On our way back through the park to our home site we saw a Peregrine Falcon fly in front of the car and then were stopped by a wild horse in the middle of the road, drinking the little bits of rain water in the cracks on the pavement she could find.

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Her herd was to the right and this was a welcome surprise, but also felt to give me back my strength again in seeing and connecting with them since horse medicine is powerfully intimate and potent for me.

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I later googled about the wild horses in the park and learned some disheartening information about them and how they are labeled as “trespass livestock” that have been banned from the park since 1908. Or at least that’s what this article described along with labeling them as feral instead of wild: Mesa Verde Wants Feral Horses, Cattle Out

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“The animals are legally considered feral because they’ve eluded domestication and, therefore, do not qualify for protections under the Wild Free-Roaming Horse and Burro Act, which designates an area for the Spring Creek herd in Disappointment Valley.”

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Seems there’s a bit of controversy around the wild horses and you can draw your own conclusions and opinions from the article.

To me, they were wonderful to see and experience, and being that they’ve been there for over a century, they are part of the history and natural landscape. I’m glad there are people pushing to protect them…and apparently that was just to be our introduction, as today we saw the same herd of seven again, three more times.

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Tomorrow will also be another day of visiting ancient ruins, as the last two have been, so there’s a lot of energy integration that is taking place and I felt myself doing some sound channeling a bit today.

Grateful for the rain that continues on and off, as it feels to be softening the energy, letting it flow, and also working on the deep watery feeling level, which is the trickiest, but most potent when worked through for shifting things fully.

The Beauty of Mourning ~ The Gift of Life AND Death


On April 27th I celebrated the 8th anniversary of my beloved Nestor’s passing and during my time communing with her on our last day in Moab, Utah while hiking to Morning Glory Natural Bridge I asked for a message from her to share with others. This is what came through our connection via message and sound channeling, which was my way of honoring her, as well as sharing the profound wholeness our connection and the experience of physically losing her has gifted me. It’s our hope in some way it will be of support and help you with your own integrative journey through the experience of loss, sadness, and pain.

I first shared this earlier today via my May Newsletter, but given today’s experiences and some messages I received, I felt guided to post it tonight here.

It felt very vulnerable in sharing it and still does, but here it is.

How Do You Define Success?


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Do you find yourself always in pursuit of striving to ascend into what society or others have conditioned you to believe success “should” look and feel like?

To me, peace and passion is the essence of success.

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If I am embodying and living those qualities and they run vigorously through my veins in any given situation and moment, then my life is in harmonious flow and I feel I’m living in alignment.

Alignment is the new “success”.

Getting Acquainted with Colorado


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As you know, if you’ve been following along, we are now in Colorado – one of the states we intuitively feel called to as a potential landing spot at the end of this journey.

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Since this journey is about moving the energy in our lives in a big way, exploring the beauty of North America, doing sacred work where ever we land, deepening into our essence, focusing on new projects and creative endeavors for the next phase of our lives, AND finding our next home, we also spend time feeling out the energy, receiving, and literally looking at the areas, land, and homes to see where we’re drawn to most.

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And yesterday, as is done each time we land somewhere new, we spent our time getting acquainted to and settling in at our new spot.

Since it’s a travel day and there’s time needed for that, setting up, and then getting a handle on things to explore, we just had enough leisurely space to take in a quick two mile hike inside Mesa Verde National Park, which is basically our new home since our home sits directly across from it with an expansive view of both Mesa Verde and surrounding green hills and trees all around, as seen below.

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When I went to check in, which is my role when we arrive while Dave unhooks our tow car, I was so warmly greeted at Ancient Cedars (love the name!) and they ended up moving us around and giving us the best, private, and premier view spot in the park.

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It’s quite a contrasting environment from the stunning high desert sculpted rocks of Utah that we’ve called home for the last six weeks. And we are very excited to be in the mountains and trees again, reminding us of Lake Tahoe where we met and bringing us into the environment that we love in terms of a full time home.

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We’re currently at around 7100 elevation at our home grounding spot (higher when we ascend into the National Park) – we love us high altitudes! So it is also crisp and colder here right now, but oh so refreshing.

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I could literally feel the energy shift and got butterflies in my tummy of excitement about all we have to explore here, as there is so much amazingness!!

We were given a bunch of helpful brochures at check-in and then also went to the visitor center right away so we could get some more and make a special tour reservation to see one of the ancient Pueblo cliff dwelling ruins that you can only do by reservation and it just opened for the season. More on that after we visit it Saturday!

Here’s a cool sculpture that is very symbolic and sits out front of the large visitor center.

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But there are incredible sacred sites, cliff dwellings, ruins – from 600 AD to 1300 AD in age – some of the most notable and best-preserved in the U.S. here that I can’t wait to explore. I’ve already been downloading some ancient sound channeling that I’m sure will emerge during our time here.

Good thing we’re here for 10 days, as there’s so much to see and experience between hikes, mountain biking trails, ancient sites, Mesa Verde National Park, Canyon of the Ancients National Monument, Aztec Ruins (only by name, but really Pueblo), Anasazi Heritage Center, cool towns like Durango where the railroad is, and lots of history….

As always we like to just touch in with the area and energy to make our introductions upon first arrival, so we had time after getting everything settled to do a short hike with beautiful vistas. 

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It was called Knife Edge trail, which leads to breathtaking views of the Montezuma Valley and was loaded with different fresh deer tracks following our path.

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It is an interpretative hike with 32 markers to teach you about the vegetation, the large sandstone boulders, which were once under the ocean and had evidence of a special type of shrimp that created the crevices in the rocks, and also pointed out things in the vistas before us.

We even saw Rabbitbrush. 😉 Although it and many of the plants here haven’t bloomed yet – seems they are on a bit of Winter delay still with the colder temperatures.

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So only a few little blooms were found.

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One of my photos captures a black area, which my sweet friend Dawn pointed out (after I had shared it on Facebook) looks like an animal or something other than a shadow, which we both first thought it must be. It could still be, however, it’s so oddly placed and when I look at it on my full screen and zoom in, it looks as if it has velvety texture. I don’t know, but it’s just kind of strange.

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But something I DID find a lot of along the path was sparklies!! My Faery eyes always pick up this kind of stuff and was drawn to the crystalline sparkles in some of the rocks lining the path that sparked a glint in my eyes.

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I felt welcomed and embraced into this new land when a sweet little Cottontail showed up in front of me on the way back down the path to the car.

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Being the day after Nestor’s 8th anniversary of transition, this also felt very symbolic – especially given the video message I’d recorded on that day.

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This little Cottontail was incredibly sweet and alert, but not afraid. She wanted to connect and be seen and actually came closer and was curious.

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The more I talked to her, the more she moved in.

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She reminded me of Joy and Nestor. The Cottontails are much more like them and the Jackrabbits are much more like Cosmo.

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Anyway, I was so delighted by this enchanting little rabbit who had quite a soulful look.

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And so we hung out for ten minutes, as I talked and she listened. I snapped a few photos and took a quick video for myself right before she left altogether, realizing we were leaving ourselves.

I’d say that was a beautiful blessing of our being here and feel a lot of magick awaits and is afoot.

And to end the first day off beautifully, we enjoyed this wonderful sunset view from the Magick Bus last evening all around us with soft bursts of apricot splendor.

Life continues to unfold magickally.

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We’ve finalized our travel path between now and August 7th, so I’ll likely share that shortly in case it aligns to connect with any of my friends in the areas for a hike or meal while we journey through.

Light of Foot & Faery Free ~ Crossing the Stream to Morning Glory


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Yesterday we concluded our time here in Moab and in Utah altogether with a lovely four mile round trip hike to Morning Glory Natural Bridge – the sixth largest natural bridge in the U.S spanning 243 feet.

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Just the name brings up visions that entice a Faery, and the trail did not disappoint.

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This trail takes you through a beautiful canyon cut into the Navajo sandstone and winds along a small perennial stream that you will need to cross several times (symbolic of purifying renewal and crossing new emotional cycles), and which creates a gorgeous, Faery filled oasis of cottonwood, willow trees, and varieties of plants, cactus, and wild flowers.

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The stream rippled along gently and at times was very still, with a few tiny falls over rocks.

This felt symbolic of my emotional journey, gained wisdom, and peace that I’ve traversed through my experiences with Nestor and so much since her passing.

There is also a lot of poison ivy in this canyon to be wary of and a few uphill climbs, so the journey is always an adventure.

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At the bridge you can hear the water flowing from the rock wall from an underground spring.

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Truly a gorgeous hike and some of the most lushness we’ve seen in a while.

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The energy was light and I felt light of foot, as we wandered along and across the stream.

Definitely felt in the Faery zone and Dave never fails with his candid shots I find out later he’s taking.

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And this felt like a perfect hike to end our time here with and to transition into Colorado. Not to mention, provided a great and supportive backdrop for my communing with Nestor on the day of her passing, eight years ago.

Rather than say too much, I’ll just allow you to wander along yourself, via the photos of the journey.

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Perhaps you’ll find yourself experiencing the energy of the Faeries, smelling the freshness and flowers in the air, and feeling cleansed.

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We did have an interesting evening and night, as after we returned home, I was guided to shoot a video message for May’s newsletter and not long after the rain started again.

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After dinner one of our alarms inside kept going off for no reason so we had to unhook it after exploring there was no danger, the rain came pouring down all through the night, and the electricity went out AGAIN in the middle of the night – the third time in five days.

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Our time here is definitely done and we are ready to move on and forward through a new door.

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The Great Romance


20160423_153340_resized.jpgBeauty shows up in the most unlikely of places because the seeds of love are present within all expressions of life.

Depending on how the life force is fertilized, results in varying forms of manifestation.

Since all things start from the same seed, does that make anything separate from the love of All That Is?

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The bitter and the sweet are two sides of the same coin.

The only thing separating them is our judgment and attachments, but they both are creative manifestations of free will and inevitable expansion.

They are also varying ways of All That Is making love to itself and experiencing the depths of potentials that live within that romance.

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Rainbow Portal ~ Gateway to Embodying Harmonic Light


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Last evening the rain stopped right before sunset and a rainbow appeared directly out front of the Magick Bus, shooting up and out from Arches National Park where all the portals are. Only one side of the rainbow appeared from Earth’s crust, while the other end came through an opening of light in the rain cloud laden sky. It was a perfect symbol to end the last few days with and our time in Utah.

This was quite synchronous with its appearance at Arches, since rainbows are symbolic of bridges and arches, or archways.

And since arches, as we know, are portals, gateways, doors, and openings, then rainbows are portals into other worldly or cosmic realms and heightened awareness or transcendent experience. They also indicate choice and initiation, as well as opportunity for transformation, maybe transition, or illumination and embodied harmonic light.

This morning we woke to sunlit, clear skies, and stillness…no more wind or rain in sight.

It feels as though an initiation has been completed here, readying us for the next phase.

And so we will take advantage of this beautiful day to welcome in our last hike of the area, which will take us along a stream to Morning Glory Natural Bridge where a pool lies beneath the bridge and we’ll find waterfalls along the way – another gift Nature has provided, as several waterfalls are present after a rain, which we just had all day yesterday. 🙂

That feels like a perfect closure to our time in Utah and to celebrate today, as not only did the rainbow open a new portal and clear the air for fresh beginnings, promise, hope, and harmony, but it also created a bridge to my dear Nestor.

Today is the 8th anniversary of her transition over the Rainbow Bridge and so I will be in deep communion with her as we journey and be reminded of all that she taught me, but most importantly about pure, boundless love – of All That Is within me that she reflects and of living from the heart as hugely as possible, since today may be my last.

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Two bubbles found they had rainbows on their curves. They flickered out saying: “It was worth being a bubble, just to have held that rainbow thirty seconds.” ~Carl Sandburg

“Dare to love yourself as if you were a rainbow with gold at both ends.” ~Aberjhani

Breaking Through & Bending Our Way to New Realities


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As we sipped hot tea and listened to the sound of pouring rain this morning (which we’re doing again right now), I peered out from my desk and saw a blanket of fog between us and Arches National Park, just revealing the silhouette of the rocks, but covering the portal arches from sight – a veil between worlds emerged to allow only inner sight to lead us through to a new reality.

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The power went out again this morning – the second time in three days – and the raging winds of change have turned to downpours of cleansing sky tears mirroring a time for more unplugging, reviewing, releasing, and readying for new actions.

At times it has felt like things weren’t happening, but a lot has been in very deep ways with old programming getting an upgrade.

One must come to terms with letting go AND letting in, not just in idea and theory, but actualization.

Times of breakthroughs to the other side of the portals of experience rather than needing to make literal breaks are here, as we realize that not only have we changed immensely, but our processes do not resemble the old ones any longer either.

We can bend time and reality, and we can transmute through our flexibility and embrace.

Today has been another more quiet day with less outward doing, but more downtime to let the realizations of change take root.

Our last days in Utah are proving to be integrative, readying us for the journey forward into Colorado.

We’ve been in Utah for six weeks of deep exploration and the winds, rain, and electrical outages seem to be mirroring a complete rewiring and recharge, as we will literally be moving from one energetic realm to another and crossing the state lines into a different reality.

Yesterday was filled with symbolism too on the three mile Corona Arch Trail.

It’s set atop a stunning slickrock setting and you get two arches for the price of one hike, as you get to also see Bowtie Arch, which sits adjacent to it.

There’s an old ladder harnessed to the rocks at one point to help you climb up the pour-off and metal ropes in a couple of areas to help you climb up and not slide off the slickrock.

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On topographical maps Corona Arch is often times called Little Rainbow Bridge. You can see why in the photos of it and this name felt more resonant with its energy to me.

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It feels so alive and almost like the cliff has extended its leg and taken a step forward, anchoring it on the Earth to create a bridge to the other side.

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Both arches were pretty amazing, creating two gateways to enter.

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The first more like a cave into the sky with a visible opening sitting atop a mirroring, but cave-like indentation that would seem impassable, but that’s merely what the physical eyes would have you think.

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It’s almost like a male and female counterpart of portals at Bowtie Arch where two portals stand in unison, connected at center and are both accessible if you know the key.

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One might seem more obvious, but my sense is to get through it, you must understand them both.

So, the obvious becomes the deep mystery of alchemy and knowing how to work both of your parts together.

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I was wearing my braided pig tails, so I decided to have some fun with them at this arch.

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While these energies are potent and yes, at times takes some serious reflection and commitment, it’s important to also have fun with it all.

Each of the arches we’ve seen have felt initiatory.

And these were no exception.

There are active train tracks you must pass on the hike and are warned to do so with extreme caution.

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Dave made sure that our passing was safe, literally listening for the vibrations. Hehe!

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You also pass this field of cairns, which is super cool. I’ve never seen so many in one place. From tiny to large, people have built cairns here from the broken rubble of fallen rock from the canyon cliffs.

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Some of them made into mini arches too. It was like a miniature Faeryland.

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On this hike I also saw more wild flower varieties than I’d seen in any one place at one time. I didn’t photograph them all, but there were varieties in each of the colors of pink, purple, white, yellow, and orange.

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That felt very richly fertile for new opportunities and growth emerging and the ability to choose from many possibilities – or doorways.

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On the way back, after our time at the arches we passed a blind man hiking with his wife. He had two poles he felt along the ground with and she was ahead letting him know what was coming.

That was really potent and reiterated the power of our inner eye to guide us, rather than only looking at the surface of things.

We could all do a little more “feeling” of our way through life than we are currently.

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On our drive back, we stopped at two petroglyph walls that sit along the Colorado River. These were incredible with much more intricate depictions than we’d seen, and a variety of new images.

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The petroglyphs have increased in detail along our journey and these were quite elaborate, and also so well defined.

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They included a very large Bear (I intuited it was a bear right away and after we saw a sign that confirmed this feeling), which was pretty cool given the Bear symbolism I’ve had over the months.

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The Bear was drawn showing all five toes on each foot, which is pretty detail specific. I placed my hand in them and it was an exact fit, as if they’d been molded after mine.

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There were some other cool markings as you can see, different animal depictions, energy movement, and things like tracks, calendars, or pathways.

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We then came across two wild turkeys after the petroglyphs, which ended off the day.

Turkeys symbolize abundance, connection with and honor of Mother Earth, harvesting the fruits of your labor, being nourished and satisfied with life, blessings from Earth, revealing your true self, endings, and beginnings.

Although we still have tomorrow before leaving, yesterday felt like a preparation of closure and bringing all things together. Today grounding that, as we’ve been more quiet and allowing action to take place on the inside while the rain clears way with our intents of release.

And after the hike yesterday I spoke with my parents on the phone to see how they are and what they shared went along with the symbolism of the turkeys and the abundance of flowers I’d seen.

They shared that they have started their own veggie garden.

A man they knew was getting rid of crates and they took a few of the two-by-two crates, filled them with soil and planted three varieties of tomatoes, red, green and yellow peppers, different lettuces, and strawberries.

I thought that was very cool that they were going to start growing their own food. They’ve also gotten a sun oven since I told them about mine and they do a lot to be self sufficient if needed, not to mention have been doing their own explorations and journeying to discover new places, as well as taking more time to do things they love.

The more we integrate and embody the changes, the more others around us will also start making changes and doing new things relative to their experience.

And so I continue on this journey with open arms and steady foot to greet the new with humbling honor and to step forward with deliberate and intentional action.

 

Growth Involves Contraction & Expansion


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Our choices and growth cycles come with times of contraction, in order to create huge spurts of expansion.

Within the contracting may be pains, discomfort, facing fears, and feeling the challenges to their depths, but then that naturally comes with the counterparts to all of these, as we partner in the dance of life and make leaps forward, sideways, and ALL ways.

And this natural pulsing of going within, then emanates more largely with each cycle, as it begins to remember and experience the fullness of All That Is while still enjoying every unique expression within that Source field.

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I’ve come to a place of vulnerability and being okay with making fumbles, stumbling, looking awkward as I grow, or saying something that makes no sense in my spiraling efforts to keep moving energy in order to flow into the next phase of my growth expansion and experience.

And while I do this, I also do my best to support others to do the same and remind myself that they are merely spiraling along their own contractions and expansions to embrace more of their own pulsing hearts.

Robert Wilkinson:

“As Eternals, we’ve seen many things fall apart across many lifetimes. It’s a very human experience. And every loss creates the space for something new to come at exactly the right time…

“Just keep in mind that if it actually IS a time of many things fracturing, don’t be impatient for the new to present itself before the fracturing is done. We need a clean slate if we’re going to write a new symphony (and it’s hard to write one when the ground is shaking!)”

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Quiet Days ~ Loud Reflections


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Love this shot Dave took that really reflects the depth of meaning and energy right now for me. He did it as a panoramic shot from one end of inside of Longbow Arch to the other where I stood (the arch actually extends from both sides of the ground up and around me like a rainbow). The result is expansive – stretching beyond what is known and comfortable that change is asking of me/us.

It’s been an internal weekend, which is why I’ve been mostly offline and also more quiet, both not writing or speaking that much. Sometimes that’s just needed especially when processing changes in life.

We also decided to spend time on the Colorado River this weekend, so we took two tours – one on Saturday night called Canyonlands by Night and one yesterday afternoon white water rafting with Canyon Voyages Adventure Co.

These lazy river days provided relaxation, refreshing energy – as we’ve been in the high desert for nearly six weeks, so getting on the water felt invigorating – and mirrored just being and flowing with the changes that we’ve so rapidly and powerfully been experiencing.

Saturday we had huge winds roaring through like crazy. So much so that it took down the power for a while – so we had no electric or water for a couple of hours.

That felt pretty symbolic after the Full Moon energy – a complete unplug and recharge – and it also is when I started feeling quiet.

We started the day with a mountain bike ride, but when we first started I immediately didn’t feel like I did a couple of days ago where I was looking like a seasoned mountain bike rider.

Something was off and the winds were making me feel unstable, as they were pushing me around and sand was coming at me. Due to the instability, I fell, no more than two minutes in – my left elbow hitting the slickrock (major change blasting through my life) – and I immediately knew I was not to bike that day and told Dave to go ahead while I went back to the car and waited.

This older man showed up right when I did out of no where, with a walking staff of sorts, silvery white hair and beard, and an accent I couldn’t make out. The words exchanged solidified my choice to not continue and then he disappeared quite quickly. I hadn’t waited but two or three minutes while telling Dave to go on before I went back on the trail to the car.

He wasn’t on the trail, nor in the parking lot.

Odd, as he appeared like a Druid out of nowhere and was gone.

Nobody else was hiking the trail, as it’s mostly mountain bike riders.

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This trail was established in late 2015 so it’s only been around a short time and we found ourselves alone on it, which mirrored the quiet internalized feeling running through.

This freshly-minted trail goes to Longbow Arch and starts at Poison Spider 4×4 trailhead.

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At the beginning of the trail you come to the amazing Potash Road dinosaur tracks and petroglyph walls and rocks. The best we’ve seen.

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They seem to depict perhaps a hunting scene rock art panel…lots of animals and interesting figures – some not looking human.

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Then you continue to Longbow Arch climbing a steeper pour-off opening into a high desert landscape, through dirt, sand, and slickrock, as you skirt a series of Navajo sandstone fins and domes, and then into a side canyon where you climb up and under the arch itself where you get a view of the canyon.

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You also have a view of the Colorado River at the start and end of the trail, which mirrored the rest of our River time.

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Longbow Arch itself and its hidden, less traveled location, was quite an experience, as it felt very expansive, opening, and revealing of what can come when you take the road less traveled and face your fears.

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After we enjoyed dinner at a Mexican restaurant in town we headed to our night trip on the jetboat.

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This tour takes you along the river, as you learn about the geology and history, get to see the unique formations that our guide Dee pointed out (like E.T. below), and just take in the sights and feelings of the river and the canyons.

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We got to see a Beaver as we made our way down and a lovely sunset behind us.

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And once it gets dark the light show begins where they illuminate the canyon walls and you listen to stories and music that accompanies your float back.

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We got “lucky” we had front row seats some how. It was quite chilly so the blankets they provided made it a cozy, snuggle up experience that is really unique and beautiful.

I only took one photo during the light and sound show, as the light illuminated a unicorn on the rock wall of the canyon. Very hard to depict in this photo, but it was clear as if it were day, in person – well to me. 😉

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If you let yourself immerse in just being with everything around you, you will feel yourself become one with the mystery and magnificence. And more and more reveals itself to you.

Yesterday we did our half day water rafting trip, which included a stop at one of the sandy beaches along the river for lunch. No photos to share, as we wanted to be without any gadgets.

This was our day exploration of the river, both floating down and enjoying the fun of the whitewater rapids. We saw Great Blue Heron and River Otters along the way, which was cool.

There are a lot of ways you can experience nature’s beauty here, which mirror your own journey and processes.

Serenity and flow filled our time and I’m still feeling the need for quiet, although it doesn’t feel quiet on the inside at all, nor in terms of the reflections that are constantly in front of me.

Some things came to me to reflect on and review my feelings about. I’m  listening and will be making the adjustments necessary.

It’s so interesting, as although I’ve taken off from the services I once offered, I feel like I’m doing so much more life work right now and it’s become evident why I had to take a break..

Energetically I’m fully immersed and constantly involved in processes and channeling – in wake and dream time. My path has become life simply unfolding.

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Living in constant presence (stopping to smell the flowers of life) and awareness IS astoundingly rich, hugely demanding, and deeply rewarding.

Not always easy, but then it wouldn’t be as incredible if it were.