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Rainbow Portal ~ Gateway to Embodying Harmonic Light


Last evening the rain stopped right before sunset and a rainbow appeared directly out front of the Magick Bus, shooting up and out from Arches National Park where all the portals are. Only one side of the rainbow appeared from Earth’s crust, while the other end came through an opening of light in the rain cloud laden sky. It was a perfect symbol to end the last few days with and our time in Utah.

This was quite synchronous with its appearance at Arches, since rainbows are symbolic of bridges and arches, or archways.

And since arches, as we know, are portals, gateways, doors, and openings, then rainbows are portals into other worldly or cosmic realms and heightened awareness or transcendent experience. They also indicate choice and initiation, as well as opportunity for transformation, maybe transition, or illumination and embodied harmonic light.

This morning we woke to sunlit, clear skies, and stillness…no more wind or rain in sight.

It feels as though an initiation has been completed here, readying us for the next phase.

And so we will take advantage of this beautiful day to welcome in our last hike of the area, which will take us along a stream to Morning Glory Natural Bridge where a pool lies beneath the bridge and we’ll find waterfalls along the way – another gift Nature has provided, as several waterfalls are present after a rain, which we just had all day yesterday. 🙂

That feels like a perfect closure to our time in Utah and to celebrate today, as not only did the rainbow open a new portal and clear the air for fresh beginnings, promise, hope, and harmony, but it also created a bridge to my dear Nestor.

Today is the 8th anniversary of her transition over the Rainbow Bridge and so I will be in deep communion with her as we journey and be reminded of all that she taught me, but most importantly about pure, boundless love – of All That Is within me that she reflects and of living from the heart as hugely as possible, since today may be my last.


Two bubbles found they had rainbows on their curves. They flickered out saying: “It was worth being a bubble, just to have held that rainbow thirty seconds.” ~Carl Sandburg

“Dare to love yourself as if you were a rainbow with gold at both ends.” ~Aberjhani

Now We Are Free – Sister Spirits Soar in Bimini & Beyond

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Double arc rainbow greeting our first evening

Another sacred journey comes full circle on the spiral adventure of life and it never ceases to amaze me how every experience exponentially expands and deepens things to a whole new level. Having been on so many journeys both on my own and with groups (always focused on personal and collective work simultaneously) I remain in awe of the magick that divinely aligns and unfolds. There are never the words to explain and capture the feelings and experiences that take place, but the truth of it all remains a part of the heart and soul to take away with you every day.

20140725_104215_resizedAnd one thing that I’d been intuitively receiving was nudged more clearly during this week, which is that I would be getting back to more of my vortex and sacred journeys for Earth grid work like I was doing prolifically before. Hence, why I’ve been putting together the upcoming Peru journey, after receiving the guidance on that. I’ve continued my travels and on every trip I focus on energy work, but specific grid work is speaking loudly again, whether it’s personal trips or group collaborated. It was no surprise Jenny had also received the same nudge and we were already discussing future trips with the same common mission focuses.

As with anything I do, but especially so with meaningful trips like this past week’s, I devote a couple of days to write about the adventures and gather together the photos. Some people keep personal journals and I publicly journal my personal experiences and thoughts. It wasn’t always that way, but I’ve discovered how valuable it is to share things with others and many people have expressed how much they look forward to these stories so that they can feel a part of things and also share that it helps them feel not so alone because they see their experiences mirrored through the vulnerable sharing I put out there.

20140725_104325_resizedSo, as part of the process of personal integration, to tie in the journey for those that attended, to share the moments I captured in photos, as well as to share the energy and possibilities available for all others to be a part of these collective experiences, I am always drawn to express a recount of the stories as I saw them unfolding and what was taken away from the adventure. I never know what will come forth as I sit down to write, but I sense a lot wants through on this one.

Each journey is so unique and whatever shows up is exactly what was needed. I LOVE embracing the flow because it provides the highest possible outcomes.

Having experienced the immense transformational shifts from these sacred journeys, and observing the same in others, there is simply no denying, in my opinion, what is possible when we are nurtured in all the loving and supportive ways.

IMG_6326This last week in Bimini was another unique shared experience that was able to unfold in beautiful and powerful ways, because we all entered without attached expectations. When you let you go of the need to control or force things, and you release attachment to outcomes and expectations, you align with life. You then find that the things you desire from the core essence of you, are what life conspires to bring to you in more beautiful ways than ever imagined.

LET things COME to YOU and indeed they will.

IMG_6329I never enter any retreat or sacred journey (or any venture for that matter) with any expectations and this has allowed truly the most divine experiences to take place. I let go and let love take over and then I sit back and watch the amazing things that happen as a result. I always tell everyone, I have no idea who will end up showing up for things until the actual day “of”, as there is always this dance of energies that rolls in and out, while I allow life to conspire in alignment with the energies most needed for the highest good of all concerned.

And that IS exactly what happens.


The ARC and The ARC’s boat

The people that end up showing up, are always the perfect blend of energy that is supportive to the highest good of everyone who’s timing is aligned to join AND what is perfect for the collective since everything we personally work through affects and trickles outward to the collective.

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Our daily favorite beach at sunrise

So, this journey evolved into an intimate soul sister group of Divine Feminine energy that was lovingly conducive to every single person’s needs and the individual journeys everyone was on, while creating a collective group energy that was in total synergy with each other. And my intuitive hunches on this quickly were demonstrated, as we came to see the importance of that group dynamic from the get-go.

I cherished my “girly connecting time” and truly loved each of the girls who joined, bringing something perfect not only to the group, but also perfect to a piece of me that was reflected in each of them. I had so much fun pajama slumber partying it up, having long talks over tea, dessert, and nap time curled up like little girls…not growing up with a sister it’s just so valuable to me to spend quality time with women just being ourselves. I had the opportunity to deepen my “already” friendships to new heights and to make special new ones. Did I mention I love these women?

And I always see the empowering symbolism and messages in every little experience. As usual, this trip was full of them around every corner.

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Rainbow gift on our last morning before departing

Our week was filled with blessings including, as Jenny shared, weather that “played us around” with wild thunder storms and lightening and an “alpha and omega” double arc and single rainbows (the beginning and the end or eternal), gentle feminine “girl time”, an elder bottlenose dolphin messenger, five sea turtles, a baby shark, starfish, a cosmic sting ray that glided to greet us the first day out front of The ARC, night land crab fun that had a couple of us squealing from it charging forth at us (lol!), tons of fun lizards daily, visions at the Atlantis Stones/Bimini Road, a light being visitor in our first session of the week, crystal activations, exploring our “true voice” through sound healing, inviting greater vulnerability and trust, releasing old patterns and emotions to shine more naturally and make way for new beginnings, nourishing our souls from the inside out with vibrant food, yoga, and allowance of rest and relaxation, strolling down memory lane with story-telling time that inspired and healed, and acceleration, rejuvenation, and renewal.


Raw vegan tacos

YES, it was a full week of full days and moments that felt both to have a deliberate slowness that allowed every moment to be absorbed fully, and yet in a flash it was also simultaneously like a blip in time.

And the magick and integration continues to unfold upon return.

But more on that as the story unfolds.


Jenny and me 2009 when we first reconnected – also when I first got my aquamarine and citrine necklace with mermaid necklace she made (she had shared she knew she created it for someone special)

Many of you may remember how Jenny and I “re”connected in Bimini back in 2009 in this life. I attended my own personal sacred journey in Bimini to do some healing and activation on a retreat she was hosting…and the rest was history since then. We’ve co-hosted three retreats since, from the onset of her opening The ARC. I had the extreme honor of being able to officially help baptize her new center on a journey over 12/21/12, which to date was the largest gathering there making it quite special in the way we were all able to anchor collective energies and help kick-start the amazing journey of healing and transformation that The ARC was founded upon and successfully is supporting week after week, guest after guest.


Me currently wearing the same necklace, 5 years later, on our last evening in Bimini – definite transformation since then

What I do is a soul mission and calling and I’ve known from the get-go that part of that included being a part of the energy at The ARC. Jenny and I share an amazing cosmic connection that keeps us bonded and energetically aligned. I respect her greatly and have cherished being able to do this work with her. We share a mutual honor and soul mission recognition. It’s always amazing to see how we parallel our lives and teachings, even without speaking much. There’s just this knowingness between us that speaks volumes of the telepathic connection, and I have come to see the times we are physically together to be these check-in points that are energetic activations, in and of themselves, simply by merging at specific aligned times. I believe this happens, not just with grid areas on the globe, but also with certain souls when they come together.


Chris smiling big even when she continually was soaked with waves from the rougher waters

That has become clear to me, especially from this trip. So I’m grateful for Jenny showing up and being the courageous soul that she is and for my own courage to embrace showing up along with her.

And I was happy that the other women got to experience Jenny’s amazing strength, confidence, and magick, as we sat many evenings listening to her awe-inspiring stories of manifestation. It was just the bit of hope and belief each of the women needed for what they are heading into creating in their own lives so bravely.


On the boat for our first day on the ocean with our Rasta captain, Alamo

Yet, the thing that moves me most and continues to fuel what I do, is the courage I see from every guest – turned lifelong friend – that shows up for themselves. This brave embrace trickles out to the collective when they make the decision to follow their heart, move through the transformational shifts, and join on one of these adventures. It’s really moving to see those transformations literally take place from one day to the next, as people arrive one way, but leave completely different, more open, and definitely more shining and free.


In total joy at my favorite place front of the boat

This week was a true joy for me as well, as I had the opportunity to share some new things, in a closer-to-home and organic way, that would also ask of my own vulnerability and truth to step up several notches. I always see everyone as my own teachers and that committing to the role I have is about vulnerably speaking my truth out loud, being willing to learn in the moment, talk the shifting processes out loud while sharing, embrace my weaknesses, and make all the human “mistakes” with an audience. It’s been one of the greatest growth processes for me and I have to thank this wonderful group of women for embracing me, and being who they are that made my own processes so gentle and so much easier.


Me being the silly, playful girl getting rolled around by the surf on the shore laughing the whole time!

To me, it’s simply about showing up to life with what I/we have to offer. And when we gather like this, while I or someone else may initiate that, hold the space for, help guide, and anchor things, I feel it’s more about friends gathering and creating the supportive space so that everyone is filling their role equally as the stunning souls that they are. Everyone is listened to whether they outwardly or inwardly are speaking, everyone is honored and respected, and everyone has something of value to share and to teach.


Melissa having tons of fun, fun, fun! as the light that she is

One of the themes of the week, was vulnerability, but also sweet synergy of supportive alignment we all were energetically for each other and the individual needs brought to the space. We all honored, without skipping a beat, what ever came up and what ever anyone wanted to do or not do. We shared those magickal moments of silence together many times, without any discomfort and need to fill the space, realizing how powerful that silence was and how powerful it was that we each unspokenly honored it. So much happens and is communicated in silence and it is such a breath of fresh air to be with others who get that. There was never a need to explain ourselves and never a need to ask…we were just in “flow” together, as the individuals that we are.


Janet exuding her inner child, girly innocence, tenderness, and purity

There were tears shed, breakthrough moments shared, laughter and play, silent peace, and new awareness.

I flowed with what felt to be showing up energetically each day and session, and also infused what I believed to be of great support for each of us to go to the next level into who we really are, activating latent parts of us and inner knowledge, and to bring greater wholeness to the journey of ascension. We got to explore our own “voice” through sound healing and explored our cosmic essence and multi-dimensional beingness. We ventured into newer realms and were introduced to new ways to really shift ourselves into our natural and most powerful frequency.


Chris emanating the light and strength of her truth

I’ve come to learn how just being open to exploring new perspectives, or simply to be present to hearing and discussing new things, instantly and naturally awakens those parts of the wisdom of our DNA in subtle, yet powerful ways.


Our first sunrise with a red heart-shaped orb illuminating the cairns on the dock

Not always do things have to be these huge big bangs to activate us into shifting. Most things are subtle and the more we practice them, the more they deepen and become natural to us, once again. I believe we all experienced how this takes place through our week together, whether fully realized at the time or not. And it was no wonder that everyone who was present, were all ready to move to a whole new level in life. We all came together in that transitional phase or needed that extra boost to make the changes, find greater clarity, realize the dreams residing within the heart that are now ready to blossom.


A fresh new day – sunrise from The ARC

And ready is what came out of the messages to all…yes we are all ready and will be supported on the next leg of the journey. Whatever your heart desires you can create. Just ask what it is you really want and when you listen to your body’s messages – ask it how it feels and tune in to the subtle energetic frequencies that are always alerting you – you will find your answers, which will always reflect your truth.

Whatever the body/feelings share, is the reflection of what your journey will be if you travel down the road you are asking about. It does not matter what the outcome is – release attachment to that and it unfolds for the greatest and highest good. But if your body reflects peace when you ask it something, you will experience peace the whole journey through. If it reflects joy, you will experience joy. If you feel it reflecting confusion and tenseness, you will experience a challenged path. If you feel fear or anger, then the path will mirror this.


Melissa and Heather – Heather is an awesome yoga teacher and an amazing and inspiring young woman who is so courageous and conscious. It was truly a joy to have her beautiful spirit with us, brightening each day.

We can all tend to get too “heady’ and our focus this retreat was on “feeling” and being “natural”. I felt it so important to discuss ways to embody personal truth, greater balance and empowerment, and harmony from the inside out. And we also had opportunity to venture down discussions of cosmic/extraterrestrial origin (one of my favs) and into embracing and becoming more of our Galactic Human Beingness.

And a “Galactic” visitor graced us in our first session in the yoga room. One of the guests shared how she’d been distracted a while, as I was sharing this cosmic information, because she was seeing a being of light in the room in front of her that kept moving and growing taller. She said it was listening in and seemed to be observing us/me and supporting what I was sharing, at one time moving to my side and turning toward me as I spoke. I definitely was in a zone and had shared information I did not go into that day having on my “agenda”, but something guided me to go there and so I was just drawing forth with whatever wanted to consciously channel through, trusting that the information was important and timely to impart as the initiatory phase of the week, that everyone was ready to hear it regardless of whether or not I thought I should or shouldn’t share it or how it may or may not be embraced.

IMG_6440After she told me and the others that, at the end of my sharing, I was not at all surprised and it made the energetics of what I’d been feeling, have a reiterating reflection.

We spent time also delving into “human origins” and our cosmic legacy that is within the inner library recesses of our ancient DNA. And interestingly, the first night that I returned home from the week in Bimini (which was also the first night I was remembering something from dreamtime, as I was very deep in Bimini) the one thing I woke up remembering was the words “Popol Vuh” repeating over and over in my head.


Egyptian papyrus art that synchronously hung across from my bed on the wall of my room

I remembered this from Mayan connections and research I had done many, many years back at onset of my ancient explorations, which opened up a whole new world and led me to where I am today. It was also part of the inspiration behind my painting titled “Cosmic Tree ~ Heart of Sky: Mayan Cosmology of Creation”. The Popol Vuh, or “Council Book” is the creation story/myth and most important sacred book of the Maya. The first part shares of creator, Heart of Sky, attempting to create the first human inhabitants, which finally resulted in creating the “true people” from maize.

I found this fascinating to be speaking through my dreamtime, given what I’d been sharing with the others and also how it linked to my Mayan pendant that I wore every day of the last week, until the last day (more on that below).

I’m still piecing together a lot of what has come through and was activated from the journey, but I also know that it will continue to reveal itself each day with new pieces to the puzzle unraveling.

me beamsThese are some of the things we discussed in order to assist each person with the choices they are facing and the new they are embarking upon, or desiring to experience. Some of it planting seeds several steps ahead  that will blossom when the time is right and provide the space to grow into. I am a big believer in not being complacent and always being steps ahead of myself to allow the energetic percolating to take place along the journey.

And every moment and day was exactly conducive to the needs that would support this process. Because none of us had any expectations, we were able to move freely through the experiences and find what ever showed up or didn’t, to be magickal.

We discovered so many layers of synchronicities that we all shared and it was fun to see some of these that included how we all had tattoos, we all were extreme empaths/sensitives, we were all Reiki attuned to some level or another, we all had a lot of parallel challenges in life, we were all around similar time periods in life, and we were all ready for a very large and life-transformational shift.

IMG_6375Another theme that showed up, as mentioned, was that of rainbows and I found this extremely magickal. It’s the first time I’ve seen rainbows down there in Bimini and Jenny said it was the first time a rainbow arc, let alone a DOUBLE rainbow arc, showed up in front of The ARC. And how symbolic and amazing to have it show up on our very first evening together?!

We were seated enjoying one of the “yummy” meals Jenny so lovingly prepared for us and as we looked out the opened doors at the end of our dining table, there appeared our greeting – a double arc rainbow was emerging directly in front of us across the water! Needless to say that sent chills through me knowing we were receiving such a confirmational gift and blessing from the Earth and beyond.

And at the very tail end of our week, as we gathered for some impromptu Kundalini Yoga on our favorite beach that we’d shared sunrise and sunset swims on every day, there appeared a small rainbow emerging between the clouds!


Rainbow that appeared in sky at home this weekend on Crystal Cove Beach

Interestingly, I spent this weekend at my favorite beach here – Crystal Cove – gently flowing back into things and saw a rainbow emerge from out of nowhere in the clouds just infront and above our spot on the beach from where I sat under the umbrella. That is the most rainbows in the shortest period of time I’ve ever seen, and so beautifully aligned in timing. AND, to top it off, I just spoke to Melissa today who stayed in Florida for a few days after visiting with loved ones, and she said that when she was flying in the plane to come home, she saw a full circle, luminous rainbow halo in the sky from her window! Uh huh 😉

And to add to the magick, the rainbows showing up is also aligned with a new project, as I had also been recently commissioned to paint a sacred painting of Rainbow Lorikeets by a fellow soul visionary, as an extension to my series, Universal ARKitecture – yes another ARK/ARC. 😉

Of course I recognized some of the symbolism and received messages from this, but also delved into seeing what other information on rainbows there was out there to discover. They hold some powerful symbolism including ascension, expansion, initiation, transformation, enlightenment, creation, promise, hope, good luck, divinity, potential, choice, opportunities, and harmony – all so perfectly mirroring for our group!

Rainbows are a unification of light in perfect harmonic vibrational frequency and embody a full color spectrum. They herald a period of fresh outlooks and perspectives, seeing multi-dimensionally so that you recognize the spectrum of options possible – not just one, transitions from one way of life to another, reviewing if we are honoring the promises and commitments we came into life with, what our relationship and connection to that higher source and self is, and being initiated into a new dimensional awareness and way of living – all things, by the way, that were discussed during our week. 🙂

Arches, which the rainbows create, are symbolic of gateways, portals, and doorways opening to something new and heightened awareness. So that double rainbow on onset was a doozy of a message that set the tone for what was ahead that week that we’d gathered together for. It may not fully have hit everyone consciously, as to what took place, but I kept sharing with them that A LOT was indeed and simply our talking about what we did and being in openness to the experience, was working its thing on deep levels.

Rainbows of course are also symbolic of “bridges” – we’ve all heard of the Rainbow Bridge where souls transition. It connects Earth and Sky and transports us to an integrated experience of unity and enlightenment between the two, as well as unites our eternal beingness.

Many ancient cultures and teachings also share the “rainbow body” as the achievement of the highest meditative state or ultimate oneness and ascension reached as a body of light. The rainbow has also been seen as a double-headed dragon that communicates thoughts and prayers to the heavens from Earth and as a rainbow serpent that when ridden provides illuminated guidance from the Spirit world – I happen to have as one of my spirit guides, Rainbow Serpent Teacher, who of course is Mayan connected 😉

IMG_6430So indeed I was, and remain, very grateful for these reflective blessings and gifts that graced us. It is a humbling and deeply honoring experience, like so many magickal symbolisms are that we receive on a daily basis, but perhaps go unnoticed and respected as such.

But a week like this couldn’t be complete without one of my electronic blow outs though, right? 😉 Yes, that did happen. One evening we were sitting and I went to shoot a photo and “pow” we all heard quite the electrical burst from my camera that scared us and a lot of charged crackling that I could also feel, which continued a bit as I held it. The flash blew out spontaneously and the camera increasingly was dying thereafter, until not more than a couple of days later it was fully put to rest by a wave on the boat. That same wave took out another’s cell phone as well and of course when I left, I left behind my cell phone charger in my room and was without a cell phone until today.

The fun and also symbolic thing I didn’t discover until I got home, was the number of photos on my camera’s little memory card, which to my delight were preserved. I was happy to discover that my photos were in tact, despite all else being so NOT with it. And when I placed the card in my computer to retrieve the photos I’d taken up until then, I discovered there were exactly 111. No more or less. Hmmmm….yes quite symbolic I feel. 😉

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Me at the beach wearing my special pendant necklace, which I wore every day never taking off, until the last day when I released it

Another thing I left behind was some very important and symbolic pendants on a necklace that I had. I was intuitively guided the morning I packed to embark on this trip to take this necklace I had with three special pendants hanging on it. Each one spanned ancient culture timelines from my “past” and collective soul that have been very meaningful in my life and part of the integration to wholeness I’ve worked on personally and through actual sacred travels I took. There was a pendant I got in Egypt, one in Cancun Mexico at a Mayan ruin, and one from Ireland. Each pendant was silver (the Egyptian one had some gold) and they each were engraved with my name in sacred language. The Egyptian one in hieroglyphs, the Cancun one in Mayan Sacred Glyphs, and the Ireland was Celtic in old Ogham Tree Alphabet.

(Synchronously, the room I stayed in was the only room that had an Egyptian piece of art on papyrus that faced the bed where I slept each night)

Some of my personal work on this journey was to leave this necklace in the energetic Atlantean waters of Bimini, and to leave a piece of the old me behind in her healing and transformative embrace. Since these lives and what they represent collectively, hold very charged times for all, I did an intentional sacred meditation for healing integration globally through this release, as well as for my own closure of these times, so that I/we can move forward completely free and new, infused with the wisdom and empowerment only, of those integrated lives. But all else would be lovingly left behind and the waters would be the alchemy to that closure.


Melissa and me – we always showed up with the same colored bathing suit themes each day

It was an emotional little experience I had and I was grateful for the loving support of my dear friend Melissa, who held my hand through it, as tears rolled down my cheeks. I can feel that part of me left behind and it was indeed and feels indeed, like a mourning that has taken place, but the empty space within me that at first felt sad, I know has made room for the joy and newness to fill it.

I made it light at the end, as we had been talking about the movie Titanic and feeling like these free “Queens of the world” on the front of that boat, by sharing how the old woman at the end had climbed up on the rails of the boat and so gently, child-like, and freely took out that necklace she carried with her for her lifetime since the sinking, and made a little faery-like “uhh” as she tossed it effortlessly over and into the waters back from where it came.

I turned to Melissa and said, that’s how I will do this…light, fun, and with gentle ease (the way I intend and desire my processes to be)…and so I placed it in my palm and gently tossed it with my own faery-like “uhh” – very freeing indeed.

And every day did become more freeing it seemed, as the week moved along.

IMG_6380I watched other’s faces shift moment to moment into deeper relaxation and openness. Everyone’s energetic vibrations went through a complete transformation. And each day I had us pulling Tarot cards from two of our favorite decks Jenny has in her library (a Mermaid and Atlantis deck of course!), to see a reflection of what our daily energy and messages were, how we were evolving over the course of the week, and what we would take away into our journeys back home at the end. They were always SO on point and told such an incredible journey of what was taking place for us all. A few times I would draw the same card for a couple of us, and always everyone’s cards seemed relevant to and revealing things for us all that were helpful. So it was a lot of fun to not only pull them, but we’d read them out loud and share about how that was reflecting for us and how we each could benefit from the messages. By end of the week, we were in a state of renewed opportunity and with so much love and support from all around for the choices we were each going to be making and fulfilling.

IMG_6348I also enjoyed our Yogi tea messages and my very first one was SO perfect for me and this week’s focuses. So much so I took a photo of it and it’s message, “Sing from your heart”. And sing from my heart I did, and shared with the others, and we all journeyed down the discovery of our voice and personal frequency through sound. On the last night of the journey I also pulled a card about harmony and musical harmony/sound, which was just so reflective, not to mention another full circle spiral from onset to closure.

quartz2We also had some Crystal friends that joined us for the week, as I brought along large Brazilian Quartz Crystals for everyone as gifts, which I charged and activated, to have with them throughout our adventures. I encouraged them to come into each day’s session with their Crystal friend, so that they would absorb the energies to take back home, and be there to support the process. I also shared how powerful it would be to bring them into the waters with us, and so everyone did, to really charge their friends with that beautiful crystalline energy of the ocean there. We all slept with or near our Crystals and when we napped/rested, several of us laid with them on us and woah!!! Activations were taking place in wild ways!

I had my Lapis Lazuli with me as my friend from the week and one of the stormy days Melissa and I rested together after talking on her bed, and some crazy things were going on. I never actually fell asleep, which I’ll get back to in a bit, but Melissa did while I went into a very relaxed half trance, but fully conscious and awake place. Thunder and lightning rolled outside as she slept with her crystal on her Solar Plexus and I with mine on my Third Eye. The day before she had slept with it on her Heart Chakra and she emerged from nap time saying some wild activations that she’d never experienced before were happening.

But this continued on this second day with my experiencing it along with her. Suddenly, I felt like someone had zapped me in the Third Eye with an energetic blow and it jolted my head back into the pillow and to the side as if someone gave me an electrical shock or was using a defibrillator on my Third Eye. And not long after, I felt the bed shake, as Melissa’s whole body jolted and twitched much the same.

I put the Lapis back center on my Third Eye – it hadn’t knocked off, but I wanted to ensure it was securely anchored. And not too long after the same energetic blow and jolt zapped my Third Eye back and to the side.

I figured after that I’d move it to my Throat Chakra, just in case it knocked off on to the floor, as the jolts were getting pretty powerful. And not long after the same thing happened, but to my Throat. I left it there and continued to relax, feeling like something quite powerful had just happened. And when Melissa woke up, she explained having felt it again while she slept and was happy I had been there to actually witness and feel it, as she was wondering if she’d imagined it.

20140724_202007_resizedEvery aspect of what unfolded during the weekend was so conducive to what was going on and intricately connected. Those thunder rolls and lightning bolts were the same energetic surges zapping through our Crystals and I found it so fascinating that the first days unfolded as such, providing a lot of nurturing rest time for everyone. Most of the others didn’t realize how much they needed and wanted to rest and shared that they normally don’t nap or are tired, and yet it was as if a self-induced, aligned with Source, trance was being implemented in order for everyone to receive what they truly needed, which included downloads galore! Weeeeeeeeeee!

And to also put everyone in a place of complete surrender to the inner processes of healing, cleansing, releasing, and integration that their bodies and souls were needing. Not to mention, putting everyone in a more open place to receive the energetic activation support.

20140724_065335_resizedAs mentioned, I never actually fell asleep any of the days I laid down to rest, but this also seemed to be the theme for the week in general when I went to sleep at night. I barely slept and wasn’t able to. It wasn’t in a negative way, but I felt so literally charged up/activated that it was a challenge to get to sleep. I’d lay there resting in the dark with my eyes closed, but sometimes it would take three or more hours to fall asleep with all the energy running through me, and then I’d only get like three hours of intermittent, actual sleep with waking up in between. This carried on through the week and continued upon my first night back home as well.

Finally, just two nights ago I seemed to have hit my “I’m ready to sleep point”, which also indicates to me that all of the new energy activations have been integrated into my body, and I was able to do so for a nice long night.

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Raw vegan peach melba cheezecake

raw pizza fresh from dehydrator

Raw vegan pizza fresh out of the dehydrator

There was definitely A LOT of energetic stuff happening and it was all being supported by every beautiful detail of the week from the delicious, love-infused, high-vibed raw vegan delights, to the raw feelings and shares, cleansing swims, soul-massaging laughter with some really funny stuff that flew out of some of our mouths, and conscious conversations. Every where we turned was some mesmerizing or soul-captivating experience that none of us took for granted. We remarked on all the little and large magick and embraced each moment fully. I believe this is what actually felt extending to “time” and the fullness and richness to each day, because we were fully “being” in each moment with awareness.

And even for those that went through emotional cleansing that brought up sadness and confusion at times, what a beautiful and powerful reflection of their willingness to feel, acknowledge, and release those feelings. The natural process of flow and integrative healing was being supported simply by courageously showing up.

20140724_201429_resizedWith beautiful tropical storms playing with us, it still allowed us some amazing beach sunrise and sunset walks and swims, gorgeous meditative sunrise and star gazing (the first night seeing what was either a shooting star or UFO), while keeping the weather beautifully cooler – mirroring a cooling down/cleansing of things for everyone on onset to clear the way – as well as creating some amazing colors and clouded skies. It also provided us stillness and slowing down, as well as time to venture over to the Dolphin House and visit with the amazing visionary and Pisces soul brother, Ashley Saunders, as well as created two amazingly fun days out on and in the ocean for snorkeling, super gorgeous and ultra fun boat time – all while receiving activations from the powerful energies in the waters of this Atlantis vortex.

The ARC itself is in the ley lines of this energy vortex on the global grid, so no matter where you go, even if you remain in your own bed or sit out on the lounges facing the bay at the dock behind The ARC, you are receiving some powerful stuff!

20140724_075734_resizedWe saw a lot of sea life including a baby shark and one really quirky, long gray fish that was following us on one of our snorkels. It seemed to be a little messenger to one of our guests, as apparently it appeared and followed her after a vision message she had at the Atlantis Stones and then came all around each of the group of us, wanting to hang out and did. On the last day’s morning swim a school of gorgeous fish swarmed out of nowhere around and in between Melissa and I and then disappeared – the first time fish had come around on the beach itself, which was as if they were saying goodbye and creating an energetic bubble of energy around us to take home.


One of many gorgeous varieties of lizards we saw daily – our favorite were the ones that curled their tails up behind them

The sea turtles were awesome and, as mentioned, the most I’d seen on one trip – five. I pondered on their showing up so much perhaps being connected to my sweet Gaia, who is still M.I.A. and now I’m not too sure whether she will be returning this time. She was once a giant sea turtle in Atlantis and she has messaged me through showing up on previous Bimini trips as a sea turtle to let me know she was there with me to support my journey. Seeing five sea turtles seems also connected to her because her birthday is 5/5. Could this have been a message of her transition back to the cosmos?

Sea turtles symbolize protection, wisdom, strength, Mother Earth, femininity, knowledge, longevity, independence, and freedom. Creation myths of Native American tribes share about Great Spirit creating their homeland by place Earth on the back of a sea turtle – another interesting and synchronous link to the “creation” discussion we had in sessions.

Other Ancient myths believe turtles brought about the creation of the Universe from its parts, which are said to depict a map of the stars and sacred writings: the shell symbolic of the heavens and used in divination readings, the body symbolic of the Earth, and its undershell symbolic of the underworld. This cosmic order they represent, coupled with the magical ability to support us in uniting heaven and earth within our lives, supports our experience of life as “heaven on earth.”

IMG_6457And the waters in this part of the Earth globe we were in after the storms, on our days out on the boat, were quite something. One day brought rougher waters, which for me was a natural high and Pisces dream ride at the front of the boat getting sprayed and being lifted weightlessly. The rougher water supported one of our guests to work through and embrace her fears and feeling out of control, which she did so beautifully and came through more empowered. I was so proud of her.  And our last day was like glass at times and felt like flying across the every-shade-of-aquas-greens-blues-waters.

Jenny now has her own boat at The ARC (another magickal story on its manifestation), which is wonderful for the intimate groups that come and it speeds along with great power and zip that again, a little Pisces as myself so appreciated. Everyone had the most magickal, fun time on the boat. And much of the time we just soaked it all in, in silence together, receiving the energy that just being on it provided. A lot of internal processing, integrating and activation was taking place on our boat time. It was just beautiful!

And the underwater sea fans, especially the purple ones that swayed so gracefully and ethereally, were “mesmerizing”, as Melissa put it. They also seemed to mirror the expansion and flexibility of our consciousness and awareness.


Janet floating in surrendered bliss, as Melissa readies herself for a invigorating plunge

It was great fun to just float and see all the underwater magick move under and around us. And at times, just soak in the energy and do nothing except “be”.

Storms draw the dolphins deeper in their underwater homes and so we were so lucky to have a bottle nose dolphin emissary show up for us. We had shut down the boat to snack on luscious fruit when he appeared and kept swimming around and near us for a bit, making his presence known. The bottle nose are the elders and not as interactive with humans like the spotted dolphin are. It was beautiful watching him surface and dive down and glide by the boat a bit. We discussed the symbolism later of his appearance/presence, which was twofold.

IMG_6439First off, I felt how appropriate that the dolphins go deeper during these stormy times, as we were all ALSO going deeper within ourselves and into our feelings, which the ocean symbolizes. Embracing more of our shadow, and acknowledging our patterns and things we want to release. I shared how beautiful and powerful it was to have this elder dolphin show up, as we also discussed during the week about the release of expectations to outcomes and simply to follow the feelings in our body, which would lead us to our greatest joy, love, and/or peace. Since the elder dolphin showed up at the end, to me that felt representative of us coming into our spiritual maturity more through the week and a reflection of how we create our own magick regardless of what shows up externally. All of that is icing on the cake, but when you reach that place of inner comfort and self love, you no longer “need” things or outside validation. You simply continue and consistently find every moment to be filled with the grace and beauty of divinely reflected perfection and realize that the energetic activations are taking place when you align with yourself as Source.

The second part of the symbolism of this dolphin showing up was connected to a friend of Jenny’s who was simultaneously in Peru Iinterestingly) at the time and had lost her husband there while they were in search of a cure for his cancer. It was a very challenged time with her in another country and yet she was so powerfully and beautifully embracing the experience with grace and peace, having been told by her husband before his transition that he would always be with her. This fueled a trust and peace within her during a very taxing time. She was challenged in getting back, having had some financial issues come up along the way, but Jenny had just sent off some money to assist her from our week’s offering to The ARC for the retreat, which came about due to the time storms kept us land based. AND, the same exact time/day she was traveling on her way to transport her husband and journey home, one single dolphin showed up alongside the boat she was traveling upon and she felt it was a sign from her husband that she was being watched over and supported. Jenny came to share this story with us as we sat gazing at the stars our last night, and we were all so touched and grateful we could assist with helping with her travels financially, as well as felt that the one single dolphin showing up for us was her husband’s way of showing us gratitude and sending us a message.

Yes, a lot of chills and love ran through us. We are all SO connected! And it also mirrored our session discussions on true service, which involves a consistent way of being no matter what you are doing or the job that you have, without expectation of anything whatsoever in return. If you want to be of service, you live daily in that vibrational frequency with whomever you meet. I’m grateful that by living in our truths, we were able to be of service to this woman.


Jenny’s amazing dog companion, Ralph McDuff in his pink life vest that makes his fur pink, who is officially obsessed with dolphins. It’s all anyone can do to hold him back when they show up or you mention the word “dolphins” around him. I love my nephew on the other side of ocean!

And dolphins just have this magickal way of touching our lives whether we directly “physically” interact with them or not.  The cetaceans are cosmic beings that are caretakers of the Earth and bridges between us and the Cosmos. They work on a species-by-species basis (with specific individuals or specific species on land, as well as in the oceans) to help maintain their life essences and biofield energies.

I remember many days of sitting on rocks overlooking the ocean and seeing and hearing the underwater magick taking place all around me, with my inner eye and heart. There is much that is unseen by our physical eyes that are locked into 3D viewing, but be assured there is SO very much going on all around you at all times whether you see it or not.

I have dolphins show up in dreams, they work alongside me in Reiki sessions with their sonar, I tune in with them in meditation, and I have experienced swimming with them on several trips, as well as having them show up at the beach and waters here at home. I can share that even the times I am in my room, just sitting by the ocean or am above it on a boat, I can feel their powerful energy tuning in and energetically supporting me. When you ask and invite the presence and support of others in, you will receive it, but you must ask, as this is a free will zone.


The very handsome and soulful Ralph McDuff post life vest, sporting a vibrant pink heart chakra!

And no matter the way they show up, just like with anything, the experience is the same magickal experience across the board. It’s simply our ego minds that perceive and reason something different.

That brings me back to Ashley and the Dolphin House, as it is because of his connection and experience with dolphins that his life’s mission is what it is today. He shared with us that he will never be able to equal what they have gifted him, but with all of his heart he passionately creates the vision he received to do in homage to them and the magick of life his heart was touched with through them.

IMG_6418I’d visited the Dolphin House each time I’ve been to Bimini, but this was actually the first time we had unlimited time with him and I heard the in depth story and detail of his life and how the Dolphin House came to be. Listening to him and being in his presence is truly magickal and he reminded me of the Pisces essence of myself, as I got lost in his eyes and stories that reflected the passions, love, dreams, service, and magick of his explorative and visionary heart that is ahead of his time and in a world of his own. His love and honor for Bimini, Atlantis, and the Dolphins exudes from every fiber of his being.

I couldn’t help but give him a huge hug when we parted. A separate blog would need to be written on him and his creation of this amazing House built solely from a vision, without blueprints and with his own two, unassisted hands from all of the treasures he found in the ocean and that had washed up on the beach over the 21 years he has literally been building his dream. The entire house is laced with mosaics of sea shells, conch shells, sea glass, and sea treasures – a one of a kind that is so solidly built it is the only building on the island that has withstood 6 hurricanes without a single touch of damage.

20140724_194004_resizedInspiring to say the least, which each of the women of our group were equally in their own unique way. I came away from the week with a full heart and reverence for the journey of the soul every one is traveling.

And speaking of sea treasures, each trip to Bimini I have brought home with me a special conch, but this trip the sea treasures that wanted to come home were four beautiful pieces of sea glass – one clear that has been formed into a fan and has some sand trapped in the folds, two emerald green, and one beautiful aqua piece. They now reside on my altar placed around my extraordinary Atlantean Crystal scepter-like healing wand. The colors all represent energies of the heart, higher heart, and the highest, innate vibratory frequency/expression of elevated consciousness – something we discussed in sessions during the week as well.

IMG_6334How wonderfully aligned it was to have the first day of the retreat to be on the full direct flow of Mercury from its Retrograde, as well as to have our last day in the building energy and light of the New Moon in Leo that would illuminate our new beginnings on our integration back the next day. This all really framed the experience in a supportive bubble. Again, divine perfection all around.

IMG_6455One thing I was drawn to do on this trip was to take a bunch of photos of each individual who joined, to capture their transformation and reveal to them the beauty of their true essence. It was a lot of fun having these essence photo shoots 🙂 which no one had ever done before. IMG_6393I felt it would be empowering and energetically accompany the work we were focused on in coming more into our authenticity and natural frequency. You see some of those photos interlaced into the photo story here – great reminders of that new beginning we are all embarking upon and the creative self expression into a more dynamic self.

20140724_074304_resizedI observed and experienced how faces relaxed, lit up, body postures changes, eye brightened, conversations loosened, sharing deepened, and more freedom was embraced. What a gift – the best gift I could ask for truly.

I love this sharing that really does capture the essence of the week. It comes from one of the beautiful guests who shared,

IMG_6343“Bimini was the answer to my prayers. A blessing that sums up how I have been feeling and how this trip has changed that: A New Beginning by Jonathan O’Donohue”:

In out of the way places of the heart, Where your thoughts never think to wander, The beginning has been quietly forming, waiting until you were ready to emerge. For a long time it has watched your desire, feeling the emptiness growing inside you, Noticing how you willed yourself on, Still unable to leave what you had outgrown. It watched you play with the seduction of safety and the gray promises that sameness whispered, Heard the waves of turmoil rise and relent, Wondered would you always live like this. Then the delight, when your courage kindled, and out you stepped onto new ground, Your eyes young again with energy and dream, a path of plenitude opening before you. Though your destination is not yet clear, you can trust the promise of this opening; Unfurl yourself into the grace of beginning that is at one with your life’s desire. Awaken Your Spirit To adventure; Hold nothing back, learn to find ease in risk; Soon you will be home in a new rhythm, for your soul senses the world that awaits you.

In our last session of the week, I played this song below (the visuals in the video are so reflective of the essence of our discussions and experience), which also captured the energetic focus of the week, some of the sound teachings, the new beginning expressed above, and the new found freedom we all came to embrace and embody a little bit more. I share it here so you can soar along in the freeing shifts that I know, you too, are experiencing. I was listening to this song over and over, as I wrote and put this share together as well. Felt perfect to support the energy I wanted to try to pull into words.


Soaring across the Bimini waters to the eternal beyond, on another adventure of the soul…the journey is always just beginning

And, to my soul sisters I thank you from my heart to yours for who you are and for choosing to open your hearts to me and this experience. Together we soar, taking with us the experiences shared in Bimini to the Beyond, infusing our lives with the enrichment embraced and accelerating us into new levels of being.

There are no limitations to what you can do and create, nor to where you can go. So aim high and put your entire heart and soul into whatever it is you choose. Remember, it’s simply a choice we have to make. The rest will come together once you take the first step.

Yes, Now We Are Free – we always have been, but now we know more of that truth available within us.

I hope this story inspires and infuses the same to anyone else who has been drawn to it. May you walk in the power of your free will, and bask in the light of love and magick always.

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