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Animal Spirit Guides Looking for Their Cocreators ~ The Messengers Continue Supporting Embodied New Realities
This last Strawberry Full Supermoon was quite something. The energy was definitely strong and I heard similar from others as well, so maybe if you felt something on Thursday the 24th and had forgotten that the energy of this Moon was at hand, it might explain some of what you experienced too.
I didn’t realize until later when looking at my Sports Tracker that we had actually started our hike just one minute before the fullest point of the Full Moon at 11:40 am our time. It became no surprise that I felt a wave of exhaustion rush through that increased over the two hours we hiked to the lake from our house. This exhaustion continued on through the evening. We literally got back inside just minutes before a downpour of rain, as thunder storms loomed and growled overhead quite dramatically on our way home. It was most intense for about three to fours hours then rebalanced after I showered, ate, and cozied into the couch for a bit. Other than the evening after supporting the horse’s transition, I don’t recall exhaustion setting in like that for some time. I noted it to be my body’s way of integrating and balancing out the continued upgrades and initiatory energies.
There’s been a lot of that lately, hasn’t there?
And since then, things have felt strong, grounded, and clear again with continued reserves of energy and feeling refreshed, as well as the presence of many messengers at aligned timing. These messengers have been guiding forces in my life and as way showers they’ve been both comforting and confirming. Most of all, they inspire new landscapes and possibility when there seems none at hand. The more I connect with them, the more I connect with myself.
Guidance has been very deliberate and focused for the path ahead. I love sharing these animal spirit guides, as I know themes run through for many of us and also because I honor their presence and participation in the tapestry of life.
Most recently we had a giant dragonfly visit us on the deck with wing span of 4-5 inches wide, a continued parade of varying butterflies floating ahead down trails and all around us – a giant swallowtail equally matching the dragonfly size was amongst these, and then there was a large garter snake that slithered quickly across the trail in front of us on that Supermoon hike that knocked me out. Each pointing to significant transformational, and in some cases dramatic energy like the thunder and lightning storm.
Saturday’s hike was filled with tons of little blue damselflies that upon close inspection are extremely extraterrestrial looking.
These miniature dragonfly-like beings are delicate, but have these incredibly hybrid-like attributes that appear humanoid and otherworldly – like miniature people.
To me, their electric color and behaviors were a reflection of a merging and eclectic world of consciousness.
Then on Saturday evening, just before heading inside after tending to my garden, something caught my eye and beckoned me back. A cottontail rabbit just arrived in the yard right on queue, as twilight is their exploring time.
I ended up going back in the yard and spent twenty minutes connecting with her. I got the message this was Hope grown up when I saw those deep, soulful windows of hers.
And by the way she listened to me with those big, wondrous eyes, as if remembering my voice from our time together when she was younger.
Seeing her was a sweet gift and confirmed the messages I was hearing on other fronts of my life that I had pondered and asked about.
She also offered an air of extra “hope” to the Earth collective’s evolution at hand – and this was to be imparted to others.
There’s been continued feather treasures that included twice finding osprey feathers – the first time one and the second time two, just two days ago.
I always cherish osprey as the between worlds messenger – the only bird of prey that actually dives into the water where others just pluck from the top of the water. This makes osprey unique in not only navigating the air element, but the watery depths as well. Another beautiful bridge between worlds.
And Sunday’s parade of geese on our beach day concluded recent guidance in the vein of avian support, although I also supported the geese as their guardian once again protecting them from misguided cruelty and unconscious hands.
I have a strong kinship with them as family – but then I’ve always felt that with the souls in the animal kingdom since I was a child.
Bird wisdom has been on high and makes sense, as I see them as guides between worlds and how to merge these. And in fact, our sweet family of robins who nested outside our front door, have left for brighter horizons. That feels symbolic of a new life adventure beginning that is fresh and detached from the comforts of the old. I wish them well on their new adventure and although bitter sweet to see them go, it’s the same kind of feeling I get each time a door closes and opens – like now.
But then there was this big and beautiful crayfish discovered at the edge of the water.
Although no longer Earth bound, the life force was strong and I was instantly reminded of scarab – once again returning to Egyptian energy. Like the mysterious underworld scarab who speaks to immortality, resurrection, creation and renewal, growth, cycles of life and death, protection, healing, and transformation, crayfish is also a symbol of regeneration, underworld energies pointing us to pay attention to our intuition, dreams, and subconscious, growth – helping us shed our old skin, beliefs, and habits to move forward in life, and protection through responsible and appropriate reversal of direction.
This beauty was gorgeous shades of turquoise, aqua, and sea green and as you can see, as large as my hand – the largest I’ve seen so far here.
These jewel-colored crustaceans that graze on algae are actually an invasive species that were introduced here to Marlette Lake that feeds into Lake Tahoe in 1895. There’s an estimated 300 million of them. Their presence has impact on the lake’s clarity because they in fact also stimulate further algae growth. So, that’s an interesting irony to ponder.
And going along with beetle and scarab energy, yesterday I came home from our biking and beach picnic day feeling something crawling on my stomach. I lifted up my shirt to find a black beetle. I noted that this day also involved instant manifestation of thinking of feathers and heart stones and finding them immediately after.
So, it wasn’t a surprise that since I’d been reflecting upon scarab energy, a beetle of my own appeared on my solar plexus. How it got there and manifested is a mystery, but then the Great Mystery is a welcomed friend in my life.
But in terms of Egyptian energy themes continuing to roll through, you’ll recall I mentioned falcon’s rare and mysterious appearance in the last post. So the flash of scarab through crayfish was an echoing whisper drawing me to look again at this strong energy channeling through. Falcon is connected to Horus and I always had a very powerful affinity with him. I connect Horus to The Middle Way, as well as the fox we saw, as it was a gray fox – not black or white, but in between – that showed up.
And then barn owl also spoke recently – she comes through in very rare and deliberate ways – and has been a constant companion for many cosmic experiences over the years. I’ve only had the rare opportunity twice to see one in person, which took place to and from our nine week Winter adventure, but usually this messenger comes in the between times of dreamscapes and portal visions to summon a new era of Cosmic merging that is unfolding and a time of invitation to something more and beyond.
This time she appeared in vision of the merging of worlds and parts of me/us that are at the forefront of importance and whenever she flies into my awareness I know nothing will be the same again. Her presence is otherworldly and if you peer into her eyes you can’t run away from the depths of who you are and of consciousness in totality. When I am in her presence, I see all of me through different eyes and that hauntingly beautiful depth she pierces is one that sticks as reminder while I forge forward.
She and Falcon both brought personal messages of integration to me recently, but also confirmed that the energy and medicine they carry was of support collectively for the evolution we are experiencing.
While I was away on silent retreat, one of the messages that came through in fact involved falcon and barn owl, but due to the emotional waters I also immersed exploration with, narwhal was included. Narwhal is another rare being I have danced with and as the unicorn of the sea, her mystical presence whispers a time of deep renewal at the DNA level that also is one of merging the worlds into embodiment. Hers comes through a watery invitation to reclaim emotional depths and shadowy crevices to bring through majestic being that can move in and out of
I find it no coincidence that as I started writing about narwhal and her invitation to watery depths within that a thunderstorm just started and rain is coming down between the last rays of evening.
I also find it interesting that I “happen” to have three cherished animal guide totems of each of these that have been helping to navigate life in these recent years after our time in the Magick Bus.
The nudge I received, while away, was to offer these most cherished treasures of friends up to the collective. And when each of these animal messengers showed up as they did when I asked for confirmation, each in their own way – through guidance and dream visions – it was done.
This coincides with inner transformation, but also literal transformation that took place in my outer world – particularly my office and shared room with Astrid that acts as a portal embodiment for the paths we navigate. We felt called to focus the energy on a particular leg of the journey we are currently venturing down and in doing so everything got a facelift to match.
In doing so, many things also had to go not just to make room for the new, but to open and close doors that had merged into being and are no longer separate from my daily experience.
That bitter and sweet again of realizing the beauty of where you are and where you journeyed from, but knowing to keep moving forward.
And this leads to the calling these animal messengers are putting out to find their new cocreators.
Falcon, barn owl, and narwhal are three enchanted beings I adore, and because of how much I love them, I asked for confirmation to appease my human heart that was sad to see them go. I always honor what comes through even if at first it seems tough to say goodbye. They always remind me that since the energies are merged, there is never a goodbye. It’s simply an unconditional release of doing what’s for the highest good and remembering that what was received will always be with me.
And since we are all connected, where ever they are called and whom ever they journey with, is a part of me too. And so I celebrate the joy of those connections and openings, just as much as if they were my own.
I’ve never been one to store things away that to me are alive and pulsing with energy. I couldn’t do that with my giant crystals (or any other enchanted beings that have been in my life) when we left in the RV, as it felt wrong. Boxing up their energy was like locking them up in darkness, unable to fulfill their life’s work. I always had to ask myself how I would feel if something stored me away for an unknown time? It would be like caging a butterfly or breaking a wild horse’s spirit.
So like then, when the message that they were ready to move on and not be stored just to “keep” or be attached to them, came to me, the same happened now. I couldn’t bear to store these vital beings and in fact each spirit expressed that’s because they’re ready to move on and support another now.
There is a story that goes with each – both my own personal story and stories shared by their visionary artist who brought them to life. Some of these I’ll share so you can listen to their energy and if they whisper something to your heart. Some of it I can share more intimately if you feel so called to them.
They are each one-of-a-kind, custom, collector’s creations that are quite valuable in more ways than one. They are all hand-crafted by two different artists with intention and love and with very intricate detailing. You’ll notice how alive they are even in photos.
I will make them available only here on my blog to the soul who feels them as their companion for this current walk into a new reality where depths of your parts can merge, heal, and anchor more fully and they can be your muse of inspiration in all that you desire to create here forth. I don’t feel called to post them on social media or in my Etsy shop, as I get the sense that laser focus of energetic alignment will unfold here via my friends who so generously devote time and energy to delve and journey deeper with me through all that I share.
If you’re feeling their call, please CONTACT ME directly – not as a comment on this post – with your intention. I can then further discuss details with you via email.
Serious inquiries only please. ~ UPDATE BARN OWL & FAERY QUEEN & NARWHAL ARE NO LONGER AVAILABLE
Payment plans will be available to support the perfect pairing of soul partnership and alignment. They will be offered at their original value/pricing plus shipping.
If for some reason there is more than one soul feeling called, I’ll go by first response and if for any reason something doesn’t work out with the first person, I’ll let the next person know. This happens a lot where energy shifts, so I’m used to a little energetic shuffling that takes place and always interested how that unfolds.
They will remain available until they find a cocreator. Once the connection has been confirmed, I’ll update this post with that information. So, you may continue to send interest as long as they are available.
Due to the size and delicate nature of the larger pieces, international shipping isn’t a great idea for those. It would be quite costly too, so they will only be available to souls within the U.S. The smaller piece is easier to ship anywhere. That said, if you feel strongly one is meant for you, please email me through the contact form above and we can discuss things to see if it makes sense for you.
Below you’ll find images taken by the artist and some I took myself, along with the stories they wrote in some cases, or little snippets of their essence, and a little insight and a blog I wrote in other cases.
Each will arrive with little details that were originally sent to me and some I added with them and in the case of the barn owl, I will be happy to send the beautiful lichen branch from the forest here that I’ve had with her since her arrival to me that creates a magickal realm for her.
For anyone who might be interested in more than one, please contact me with your intention and we can look at options.
For anyone not called to cocreate with them more intimately or have to have them physically in your space, I hope you enjoy their energy and messages here – perhaps aligning with just what you needed to see, hear, and feel right now. For this reason alone, it feels important to share them here with you.
Barn Owl & Faery Queen ~ NO LONGER AVAILABLE
~ She has a wing span of two feet or more depending on her wing positioning and around 14 inches from talons to faery crown. Detailing is exquisite. In person will blow you away. She is meant to be hung and has string attached to her back to do so, but you could prop her as desired and move her to different spaces in your room or home as needed. She will take your breath away – both barn owl and faery queen – two souls merged as One.
The Dream Weaver by Phoebe
She is the celestial muse, moving between worlds she carries songs of creation, magical insight, knowledge, and the old ways.
Her harp was crafted from a shell brought up to her from the depths of the ocean by Mac Lir.
She is whale song and owl song—deer song, and star song.
Poets and painters know her well, she has moved through them since the first brush laid ochre and charcoal against stone, and the first songs flowed out into the world.
In Ireland they called her Canola. It was she who gifted the very first harp to the people.
Leave offerings to her in the crevice of an old tree, bits of silver, three hairs braided together with three strands of grass, moon-white shells, flower petals—and she will weave her magic, tying strands of inspiration from the otherworld through your dreams.
She is creation.
I have a beautiful branch with lichen that I’ve loved perching above her back when I would hang her from areas of the room to create the effect of descending from the heavens through the night forest canopy to enter into this realm. This can be included to be with her or not. Other details included to be discussed if interested.
Falcon and Faery Rider
~ She is just over nine inches tall and about eleven and a half inches long front tail tip to head. These beauties stand on their own and can be perched anywhere. Again exquisite detailing that will mesmerize you in person. These creations are alive in every sense of the word. Faery Rider has a pouch that she collects acorn caps of the oak tree in. These are real little branches and caps.
Orla and her Merlin by Phoebe (Merlins are small, fierce falcons)
Today I met Orla, who shared with me that her name means ‘golden princess’, which seemed rather fitting as she sat there on the back of her Merlin, shimmering with every shade of gold.
When I asked what they planned to do with all of the caps they had collected they told me that they would be sanded down and used as dishes for their big harvest feast. Orla had gathered a rooster feather as decoration as well. I smiled as they both flew off in search of more acorns, autumn is definitely here, soon the trees will start to change.
Narwhal, Unicorn of the Sea ~ NO LONGER AVAILABLE
~She is about eight and a quarter inches long and about three and a quarter inches wide from fin to fin. Very delicate and endearing, but magickal through and through with glassy beads and a tiny limpet shell upon her back. Her tooth/horn is made from clay and painted with tiny stars shining upon it. She comes with a delicate string attached to her back so she can be hung where ever magick is desired. Or she can sit on any surface as well with ease. This little Narwhal is pure enchantment with the most delicate of features and detailing. She’s a reminder that magick does roam this Earth even in the seen worlds. A sweet friend stepping out of a faery tale come true to help merge worlds into One.
Narwhal by Lucy
‘Below the thick icy drifts where polar bear tread and gull song fills the sky there is another world. You would be forgiven for thinking that nothing could possibly survive beneath but life fills even the harshest places.
The strangest creatures roam the inky blue. Bright eyed seals slip by seamlessly and ghostly belugas cry mournfully for what nobody knows. Selkies and sirens we have come to know through fairytale and folklore but a unicorn? One without hoof or mane.
She is a Narwhal, unicorn of the seas. Her life has been spent adrift the tides and the ocean has kissed her with gleaming barnacles upon her back and limpets that cling tightly. She clicks and chatters amongst her pod, shy to the surface but sociable in the depths. Nobody truly knows why she has her twisted tooth but in my dreams I’ve seen her, on a starbright night she broke through the ice to pierce the stars from the dark and take them below to nurture and grow so that she may build an underwater sky of her very own.’
And here is a link to a dream message I received once where Narwhal visited me, to include some of her symbolism:
Unicorn of the Sea ~ Dream Messages from the Narwhal
Narwhal speaks to me of balance, mystery, depths and freedom.
I haven’t shared all of the medicine and messages that these animal spirit guides represent, as I’ve been steering a bit more away from that, only providing some information when I feel called. In this way, they can speak to the individual as is relevant to each. There are collective themes with messages, but we each receive the energy in different ways. So, I’d prefer you to journey with your animal spirit guides and messengers in the way that feels right to you.
I hope you’ve enjoyed these three magickal beings and another walk through the experience of messengers, as I share of the ones that are guiding the ever-changing path of evolution in my own life.
Perhaps these stories and shares are merging your own experiences with messengers around you into a more seamless and sweet one. You have many friends and much support always by your side.
The messengers seek us out. They find us. We needn’t go searching. Merely open our eyes to the gift of their presence and there they are.
Which messengers have you been working with recently, or maybe for years, that have supported you through the ebbs and flows of life?
I’m always interested to hear who is showing up for others, as it’s very telling of the shifts collectively taking place.
Silent Devotion Anchoring New Depths
Today’s Strawberry Capricorn Full Moon is the last Supermoon in the cycle of three for 2021. The Moon symbolizes your inner emotional world and when she’s full she helps to illuminate the truth for you to see about yourself and your relationship to everything outside of yourself. Know your worth and don’t be afraid to ask for what you deserve. This is a great time to confront the things you have been avoiding or aren’t seeing in all areas of your life. Responsible Capricorn supports a stronger and more cultivated foundation (spiritual roots) to your life expression/purpose and helps you to solidify and identify your priorities and values in productive and balanced ways.
Today felt like the aligned time to share about my experience away last week on silent retreat, as one of the themes that popped up for me during it was that of “devotional living,” which feels Capricorn in essence.
I also wanted to allow the energies to root and integrate more, as in reflection, I can see how much has taken place in a short period that could seem subtle from the outside and yet is quite profound.
That said, I do in fact feel and am experiencing a very profound new reality, in contrast to subtle reality shifts of the past from transformative periods, personally and collectively. Perhaps that might be your experience too.
As always, I am prompted to share things as my vulnerable, transparent part of the collective thread because of the constant confirmations of how this kind of connecting is valuable on layers far greater than meets the eye.
I wasn’t sure how much, or what if anything I was going to share both in words or photos from these deep experiences the last couple of weeks, but as always I listen to what nudges me and support that guidance having purpose and meaning beyond even what I might comprehend.
I’d like to back up to the days right before our going away and then share a summary of the journey that unfolded and continued through Summer Solstice, as it feels like a bookending full cycle took place. And with the previous May 26th’s Sagittarius Full Super Blood and Flower Moon Total Lunar Eclipse head activation, it’s also been a full cycle from one Full Moon to the next of clear anchoring that has taken place of the new from that initiation.
Shifts in consciousness are what take us into the new dimensional realms. What I’ve experienced and heard from others, since May 26th, is confirmation that the actualization of a big shift that’s been in motion has anchored and that the new reality is here and now for walking through new doorways of change and embodiment. Even if we don’t see things yet manifesting on all fronts of reality, the architecture is in place and things are in fact different depending on the person and perspective you’re viewing it from. For me personally, this has ignited the next phase and second half of my life in quite a leap – however long that might physically be.
Recent transformations have set things in motion in new directions and opened the door for a future version of me to step in that has been working behind the scenes until now. This may be hard to comprehend, but there’s definitely been a timeline jump and confirmation of upgrade future self that stepped in since May 26th’s Full Moon Eclipse and what I invited in then. Much the same way that I left an old me in a river up in Canada on our Magick Bus adventure and a future self walked in without an actual physical death needing to take place, once again a different part of my multi-dimensional self has walked in. And so, while still me and my essence, I’m a new version of me that has yet to walk in body this Earth life. There have also been quite a few revelations and confirming messages, of which some came through in the automatic writing I shared in the Solstice post that channeled through while I was away in silence.
After the combination of Cosmic energies, all of the solar flares, eclipses, longest galactic-sourced gamma-ray burst emitted, and Earth reflections like droughts, earthquakes, and other catastrophes, including huge human divide, we also feel a bit of a quiet pause and sense of doorways opening now. And although that sense of relief may feel tempting to sprint out and yell “yippee!” this time is more opportune to reflect and listen for inner direction on how truly you want to be stepping into the new reality in a whole new way that takes into account the wisdom gleaned over the last year and a half of time inside.
The light always finds us even in the darkest recesses of experiences we find ourselves journeying through.
Intensities are turning into gentleness more and more, but it’s still to your benefit to pause with greater awareness before bolting forth into things.
I personally felt a completely different reality anchored after I became adamant about “no more.” I’ve since experienced everything and everyone changing around me too, and where I felt such harsh division, this has been replaced by more softened and promising interactions.
Although I’ve shared through blogs some of the recent unfoldings, I’ve been a bit more quiet overall and taking that pause before each major share in order to both fully integrate the energies and to also share them with greater conscious awareness of how best to weave the key codes into the messages.
The new has supported a deepening of alignment into the expression of why I felt called to be here in this part of Earth history we are writing together. Maybe some of you feel similarly.
Or, perhaps my/our deepening alignment has helped support the new. Or both.
In any event, cosmic transparency, greater path alignment, a timeline jump, and a new version me without need for harsh NDE (near death experience) necessary, has been the daily experience since.
On the Thursday, June 10th Gemini New Moon Solar Eclipse there was the sense of a big energy recalibration and some interesting clicks happening that day, although the energy felt super soft in contrast to May 26th’s Eclipse. I also received a text from a dear friend who asked if I was open to being present to help support her and her soulmate in horse body through his transition that was going to take place the next morning. I immediately knew the importance of this event so beautifully navigated by such a masterful soul in horse body and that I was meant to be there.
So, early the morning of Friday, June 11th just a day after the Eclipse, but still in the prime and potent portal of its energy that is experienced for months, I made my way to physically be present for this. I assisted my own animal companions in person, as well as energetically assisted other people’s animal companions from afar in their transitions, but this was the first time for me doing so in person for one other than my own.
Being a huge black horse – such a massive, mystical, and powerful figure – made the experience even more profound.
And the fact that it was a horse – my favorite kind of horse that I identify with as well – given my life-long connection with them since I was a little girl and my past life connections with them and as them, was very profound and full circle of the life transition I was experiencing from this latest shift. It also felt like a major collective reflection. I’ve written about my horse connection before, so for now I’ll just say that not only did they help me through my childhood sensitivity challenges that led to an inability to eat every night without being hand-fed by my mom around 10-13 years of age and stomach aches every night that were only appeased by inviting horses into my visions and dreams (when I knew nothing of meditation at the time), alongside my mom comforting me through the night, but they also were connected to my way of life shifting from a work and race horse-driven conditioning to a wild and free mustang.
Without going into the personal details of the experience that are not mine to share, I’ll just say that it was hugely profound in both inner and outer experience to hold the space for this incredible being and his beloved soulmate, which literally manifested in seen ways. It was my path to act as a bridge to support peaceful journeying from this world to the next and I also took photos that day for my friend to have, which revealed incredible rainbow light across both of them, an amazing energy orb with a cross in it within his massive shadow, other energies, a rabbit that showed up and stayed the entire time to reflect that my dear ones I asked to assist from the other side were there to guide him home and assist me, and a physical experience I had right when he transitioned that I’ll also never forget that reflected the shift was real – the shift had anchored.
When this soul transitioned I was standing back a bit to be out of the way, but still in the space and suddenly I saw with my physical eyes everything wave out from him. It’s like in movies (think The Matrix) where the reality of the energetic field suddenly is seen and experienced when the veils drop. The field of reality before me moved in waves all around me like rolling energy and the landscape became fluid. I knew it was real, but blinked several times to make sure I wasn’t seeing things or dizzy, but it continued with everything pulsing in waves that revealed the fluidity of it all around us and of the realms opening and merging, as he moved out, through, and expanded. It was like reality breathing and pulsing and I became part of that breath and pulse. It was both slightly disorienting at first and then completely natural. Usually I see things like this only in dreams, visions, meditations, or blips, but it was profoundly obvious and physically and consciously an awakened, literal experience – the reality of reality and Cosmic and Earth as One.
I expounded a bit more on this experience leading up to the silent retreat, as it feels extremely important, timely, and necessary of the anchored new. It also felt profoundly key right before dropping into silence.
That afternoon, evening, and night I became physically exhausted in a way I haven’t been. It was not surprising given the experience and further recalibration of new energies physically taking root from the other realms that have been separate until now.
The weekend continued in a softened experience, although profound, and it mirrored the gentle transition this soul in horse body also went through. There continued to be Cosmic conversations pervading around me with people that were now on a new level and on the morning before we left on retreat, my very first yellow lily bloomed as a send-off and confirmation. That didn’t feel random at all.
And then we were off.
Thursday, June 14th was an integration day where we spent the first part of the day slowly easing into silence and at 5:05 pm (an unplanned, but perfect time) we commenced. This trip also happened to be right before our one year wedding anniversary, so it became a lovely way for us to deepen in connection and celebrate in a grace filled way. We actually discussed the possibility of this becoming a tradition for us, but definitely wanting to do it more regularly. It was my first fully silent retreat, although I’m silent a lot as it is. 😉 It was Dave’s second, as he went a couple of months earlier on his own since it was something he’d always wanted to do and now had opportunity to do so, being retired.
We decided to stop on our way and do a lovely new hike that took us to some emerald pools along the river.
This, and every hike we did while away, were very serene and always solitary or with limited crossing of anyone else more than once. I found an incredibly beautiful stone and my first feather on this hike, kicking off many gifts and messengers to come in the following days.
We also stopped for a lovely Thai lunch in an outdoor garden sanctuary setting with beautiful lush blooms surrounding us, then set off for our retreat cabin set secluded away from everyone on the edge of the forest with every single room looking out on the trees and night skies.
It was perfection with our cabin being named, “Devotion.”
And after settling in, the silent devotion began, which I found easy and comforting, with everything else becoming louder and more profound in a beautiful way. I wasn’t sure what the days following would look and feel like, as I didn’t go with an agenda or plan. I just allowed the energy to guide me and what I noticed is that my journey with this was very different than Dave’s.
I found that rather than a schedule of meditation in any certain vein, I was being shown that this experience would be more organic. After first sitting in meditation to see what would happen, I discovered that the energy didn’t want this to be any strict practice, but to be about receiving and giving to myself. So, it became a very self-nurturing time where I had nothing on the agenda at all to do but rest, be, receive, let go, and ground into the new – all about integrating the initiations and upgrades that was very much needed.
I found myself several times a day laying down by the window overlooking the forest by day and stars by night, giving self-Reiki, which was an act of surrender and allowing the Universal Life Force, and much more, to come through. I also just looked out the window, allowed visions and messages to channel, did an automatic writing, wrote down inspirations, and also began a new flow of exercise I thoroughly enjoyed and plan to continue to implement with my nature activities we already do.
This involved going out amidst the trees just outside the cabin in the forest and doing a combination of movement – similar to Qigong (a couple movements I remember from it), but mostly just my own inspired flow exercises with isometric exercises I used to do to create a whole fluid, balanced, and grounded experience for about a half an hour.
It was very invigorating, opening, and anchoring. I would choose a particular place and then eventually moved around the perimeter of the cabin creating an energetic grid with my anchoring.
Each night, Dave and I would sit out on the deck under the stars and do our own meditative Cosmic connecting and sit in silence to receive. On the first night subtle lights would move and disappear across the stars and gentle noises would move in the trees and bushes on the breeze. Another night involved what appeared as a shooting star, but what in fact it was might be another story.
On that first evening before our starry time under the tree tops, we explored the garden grounds and the first visitor appeared – a giant bull frog at the edge of the koi pond.
That first night I also had another of my bear dreams – yes that themed saga is ongoing and always at precisely potent times. This night the dream involved four bears. All of this having meaning for me, including integration of what I felt had come through from everything recently for my individual journey. (Oh wow! As I just wrote that the clock right now says 4:44 – UH HUH!)
That concluded our first day, and every morning we’d spend a couple of hours doing our own processes, concluding with a big huge bowl of fresh fruit and vegan scones or croissants and coffee out on the deck, followed by more morning integrations, my flow movements, and then onto lunch provided for us.
Then we’d head out on a daily hike Dave had lined up for us, pre-trip. Everything always in silence, although the energy was tangible and understood, even in the midst of no verbal communication.
Each hike always involved forest and water – river and reservoir lake – and always a ton of butterfly varieties floating around and down the trails along with us.
This second day, 6/15, had another beautiful visitor. After lunch, I was walking back to the car and my eye caught a little garden sign hidden behind the branch of a bush.
As soon as I saw it, I knew Joy was with us, which made sense since the Summer Solstice of 6/21, five years ago, was when she passed and my sweet soul family always shows up for me around their special days and portals. This was confirmed when we were driving to our hike and suddenly a large jack rabbit jumped out on the dirt road ahead of us.
She stopped to look at us and then slowly made her way down the road. She would stop and wait to see that we were following, then continued.
She went off to the side and waited under a bush, then came back down and beckoned us to follow her some more. This went on for about a half a mile until finally she disappeared in the side forest.
I knew right away, after seeing the sign and thinking of Joy, that this was her way of making an official appearance. When I said this again to Dave, who was equally excited and curious by the way this jack rabbit wanted us to follow her and not at all concerned about running away and hiding, I noticed the car clock said 1:11 on it – and therefore confirming Joy had slipped through worlds to see us.
Each evening after our last afternoon snack time outdoors and some down time, we’d take another walk around the grounds before more resting, meditative, nurturing and starry night connecting time.
Then on the morning of 6/16 at about 9:30 am it was fox that made an appearance.
We’ve had encounters with black, red, and now gray fox – all at very integral time periods in our life when things were shifting hugely. This time was no exception and the fact I was standing right at the window looking when she passed by, was no mere coincidence.
While gray foxes are the most common of foxes, they are elusive and rare to spot in the wild, especially because they are primarily nocturnal.
It’s interesting that all of the foxes we’ve seen have been in daylight hours, as the black fox was in the late afternoon, the red fox was in the afternoon, and now this gray beauty was edging into the later part of the morning.
She had a dark stripe down her huge bushy long tail.
A shapeshifter fox is a powerful guide to help you navigate your spiritual journey and to bridge the Earth and spirit worlds.
The messengers continued this day with my finding the sweetest and most intricate bird’s nest I’ve ever seen. It was incredibly beautiful and like a complex weaving of the Cosmic tapestry. I don’t think the photos do it any justice at all.
It was miniature and perfect, made out of the finest of threaded nature and one golden thread that appeared to be from humans woven into it and then lined with soft down feathers.
It’s now part of my nest mobile in our bedroom, which has grown into quite the work of nature art full of beautiful nests and portions of nests/hives from a variety of birds, wasps and bees.
Then deer appeared, reminding me somewhat of the cosmic ones I saw in Montana after Joy’s passing, as we headed on our next hike of the journey and the evening ended with a very curious raccoon who seemed to want to talk with us, making himself very known as he stood up on his feet to mirror us.
On that evening’s hike I decided to silently run, twirl and dance my way through the giant manzanita forest portal. With unspoken acknowledgment, Dave captured the moments that moved more ethereally in the twilight hours than photos we’d taken before for the Solstice spell I shared previously.
I then captured Dave, as he walked ahead of me down the path and connected with the incredible manzanita tree spirits.
I noted that the moon was sitting directly above the manzanita grove and upon our return back through the portal, as darkness was approaching, I snapped a few shots.
All of these felt to reflect the dance of light and shadow merging within and as I mentioned in my Solstice blog these photos feel to “visually reveal these sacred energies more literally of greater human embodiment transmuted by embrace of light and shadow……Faeries walk between worlds and dimensions, as Cosmic embodiments. It’s time for these worlds to merge and not be separated, just as it’s time for all of us to merge through the heart and overcome conditioned divisions on all fronts of life experience on Earth.”
Then, the confirmation of this alchemy appeared as bats galore circled around – too tiny and fast to capture on camera, although I did take a video of the giant manzanita forest portal, while I journeyed through it, where you can see them zipping by near the end. The video is too challenging to upload here, but I hope you do enjoy the photo montage to accompany my storyline of events.
I shared some highlights and key points and messengers that paint the overall energy of things. I find that a lot of times particular themes, animal spirit guides, and experiences are mirrored by what others message me about after they read these shares, and act as collective confirmations.
The rest of what unfolded is more personal and continues to evolve as the next steps I’m being guided to take. But in totality, it all spoke to me of a deeper, devotional way of living with greater clarity on my next focal points that will take shape shortly.
I mentioned finding my first feather on day one of this journey, but each day had a new feather or two for me as well. In all, I had a small collection of all different feathers and some beautiful treasures that now are in my garden, my office, and on the mobile I mentioned.
I’m especially grateful for the three large pieces of giant manzanita trunks I was gifted from the grounds where we stayed. They have to do fire clearing over time and these three beauties I got to take home.
For now, they line the deck by the rock garden outside my office and I just love their energy.
I’ve had an extra resonance with manzanitas recently, as you remember my making manzanita blossom jelly and syrup this year, and now to be with these giant manzanita beings felt like these spirits are strongly guiding and protecting me along the new path.
We stopped to do another hike on the way home on 6/17 and upon arrival I found that more yellow lilies had bloomed, now to be accompanied by my first dark red lilies, too, as a welcome home. In fact, my whole garden had evolved and bloomed some more, but I’ll save a garden update for an upcoming post.
Friday 6/18, the next full day back, we enjoyed a hike from the house to enjoy lunch and outdoor music. And on this hike we encountered falcon greeting us back. This was a first very up close and potent encounter with falcon we’ve had. The falcon was sitting on a branch to our right not far from the trail and just looked at us without moving for 20 or 30 seconds. He was very near and we could see all the details of his beautiful feathers and clear eyes. He then took off to the left and we continued on hiking. This ignited Egyptian memories and reflections of my two journeys there back in 2007. I was thinking about particular incidences where Horus, the Falcon God, had showed up for me and other pivotal things that were ignited during those trips that have come full circle now. It also reminded me of the message I received while away about things I was being shown to offer to others soon – one directly connected to falcon.
Then, as if to confirm my thoughts, the falcon appeared again on a branch to our left this time. He had gone ahead on the path and awaited us. The path was dense and mysterious, and not having heard him flying or seen his shadow above, made it more mysterious that he suddenly was there again. Once we saw him and I told Dave about what I’d been thinking about and that he seemed to be confirming my thoughts, he then took off and didn’t return.
When we returned home Dave called me to say that our beautiful coyote friend had just passed again by his office.
Sunday, June 20th was then our Summer Solstice anniversary and we were called to do one of our favorite hikes that we now call our anniversary hike given we’ve been drawn to it for celebrating.
I noted how we’d gone on this hike for our 11 year anniversary of first dating two years ago, for the day after our wedding one year ago, and now for our one year wedding anniversary this year.
I made us a Solstice cake to celebrate, which was a vegan dark chocolate cake frosted in vanilla that I then created a simple flower and fruit mandala on. I used strawberries, blueberries, and dried sunflower and rose petals and lavender that I harvested from my garden last year to add sweet faery touches.
Later that afternoon another full circle experience hit home really hard with a mixed bag of emotions that went from pain to release. I went out into the garden that evening, after returning from our hike, to water and check on all the plant babies. There I discovered a sweet little chipmunk who had transitioned. She was not there earlier and she still looked so fresh, as if just asleep, so I knew it had taken place recently that day.
I don’t want to go into details of her surmise and the direct connections to my Nestor, Cosmo, and Joy, but the reflections were too close for comfort to ignore. The only solace I took was in seeing how beautiful and peaceful she looked and how masterfully this dear soul in chipmunk body had navigated her transition on the Solstice portal, just as the powerful horse I assisted did in the Eclipse window, and each of my dear animal companions had chosen portal days – especially mirroring Joy who had journeyed on the Solstice of five years ago.
Tears flowed, as I sat holding the chipmunk in my hands for quite some time, sending lots of energy to her time of passing for peace and ease with her journeying. I listened for the messages and received, once again. I felt as if she was still alive and might sit up and open her eyes to look at me, as I gently caressed her head and body and reflected on all that had taken place these last weeks and how poignant this was as remembrance of Joy choosing Solstice as her day of returning to the stars just as this little one had.
I sat listening to where she wanted to be buried and finally this was the place.
I knew it was the right place because upon digging a hole my hand shovel hit something. I pulled it up and found a perfect heart rock. It became part of the burial stone mandala I created and then placed my very first bubble gum pink rose that had just bloomed atop this sacred ground.
It was also poignant in reflection to what I’ve known of my own journey and how old parts of me had died, only to be replaced by the ones relevant for now.
How Summer Solstice has become such a huge marker in for me of life transitions.
It spoke to a journey’s end and a new one beginning.
It reflected the fragility of life and how every moment is precious and not to be taken for granted.
It sang the song of stars that constantly whisper their calling to my heart.
It confirmed that the new has anchored and the old had retreated in place of a new reality forging its way.
And it’s a deeper and more devotional experience of living from spirit merged through heart into body as One.
Litha Doorways of Initiation ~ Titania’s Midsummer Eve Visual Spell
Litha, known as Midsummer or the Summer Solstice Sabbat, honors the longest day and shortest night of the year. Summer Solstice was called Midsummer’s Eve – a time of magick and mystery – and this day is one of inner power and true brightness that comes from an alchemical dance that harmonizes the light and dark forces in your life and throughout the Cosmos.
Summer Solstice is a reminder of the source within you that mirrors that of the Great Central Sun and to feel your way to knowing your full potential as the Cosmic light that you are.
This is a time of blossoming, celebrating, embodying self-awareness and your higher self, releasing old patterns of suppression, and recharging mind, body, and spirit to bring what you desire into your life with greater fullness.
This is a time of the Sacred dance, union, and balance of the Feminine (Earth, Mother, Moon) with the Masculine (Sky, Father, Sun) energies.
A time the Mayans believed to be for spiritual initiation and change and for creating ceremony to balance the Earth’s energy.
This is an opportune time to invite the Sun’s energy to connect with our Higher Self and to follow inspiration and dreams while tuning inside and realizing the alchemy of “as within, so without.”
As our gardens illuminate in full bloom and forests burst with lush growth, so too do we see our greatest abundance reflected in this pause to honor all that we have manifested and brought to maturity in our lives to this point.
This is a time to emanate the warmth of love and beam it brightly to all you encounter, including the being who looks back at you in the mirror.
And even if you don’t feel that you have certain ideas of abundance you’d like to see or have limited your scope of the brilliance you do embody right here and now, take a moment to celebrate your spirit in flesh here with each of us at this incredibly potent time on Earth.
Today, for me, holds many layers of celebration to include the above, but is also threefold in anniversaries. Today I celebrate my one year wedding anniversary, the four year anniversary of Astrid coming home to me, and the five year anniversary of sweet Joy who departed on Summer Solstice (that year it was on 6/21). Today is also Father’s Day and so it’s a celebration of the Sacred Masculine figures in our lives who hold that Sun source for our hearts – a sweet partnering to all these feminine figures for me on this day and honoring of my own dad who has helped make so much possible in my evolution.
This will always be a very special portal in my life and although I love the magick of all seasons, I have always been a Sun lover and resonated with the Sun card in Tarot.
As you know, I just returned from silent retreat away, but will share about that in a separate blog that will piggy-back this visual spell that we captured at onset of arriving to our destination before officially beginning the silence.
The landscape of what I found awaiting me there inspired embrace of the moment for this, as I was so taken by the magick all around – especially the magickal manzanita forests and portal I’ll share more of in the next blog too.
Oak trees, garden beauties, dreamy waters, and lush faery realms were my surroundings, of which some I’ll share with you today.
It immediately spoke to me to not only walk, dance, and breathe in this visual spell in fullness of personal experience, but to share the potency of energy, collectively, for Summer Solstice as well.
This actually became the perfect segue to our silent retreat experience, as it literally journeyed me more fully into the new reality that had been initiated through the Eclipses and my crown activation.
As I mentioned in my Winter Solstice Visual Spell, “The root of my name, Tania, comes from Titania – The Faery Queen…From the essence of which I was named and that I be, I drop into my heart and spread love and harmony throughout the land.”
And in my most recent disclosure and share about the crown activation initiated, “I will continue forth, more fully embodying my Cosmic star essence that walked into this human body from birth, as this is where my true freedom lies…I carry the seeds of Unity like each of you do. And I’m engaged in a form of Cosmic gardening, to cultivate, nurture, and activate those seeds into the blossoming of expanding and inclusive awareness, creative potential, and Cosmic love.”
Faeries walk between worlds and dimensions, as Cosmic embodiments.
It’s time for these worlds to merge and not be separated, just as it’s time for all of us to merge through the heart and overcome conditioned divisions on all fronts of life experience on Earth.
Perhaps you’ll see, or at least feel, the essence of this journey I felt take root from one world or dimension to another, as the giant, magickal manzanita forest doorway ignited that alchemical dance in the eve just days before Solstice.
It felt like a celebration of enchanted twilight mirroring the next phase of my years in similar vein of fuller embodied enchantment merging the light and dark.
And so, the next blog will visually reveal these sacred energies more literally of greater human embodiment transmuted by embrace of light and shadow, but for today we focus on the lush garden and forest abundance blossoming within and without.
We also observe the transition from mythical being to human form embodiment, while we celebrate the liberation of the same potential within each of us and of conscious awareness in totality.
May these images create windows into your own spirit liberation and remind you of the fullness of your royal and sacred being right here and now.
You are a Cosmic blossom of pure possibility and boundless creativity.
A new reality has anchored and you can choose what role you’d like to participate as, in its unfolding.
You can also choose how much you’d like to shine.
Let today be a reminder that your brilliance is far greater than you’ve been able to experience or even know as of yet.
I hope you enjoy this simple, little Litha Prayer from WytchWood:
LITHA PRAYER TO THE SUN
The sun is high above us
shining down upon the land and sea,
making things grow and bloom.
Great and powerful sun,
we honor you this day
and thank you for your gifts.
Ra, Helios, Sol Invictus, Aten, Svarog,
you are known by many names.
You are the light over the crops,
the heat that warms the Earth,
the hope that springs eternal,
the bringer of life.
We welcome you, and we honor you this day,
celebrating your light,
as we begin our journey once more into the
darkness.
And, now, here’s an automatic writing I channeled fluidly within just minutes (unedited) while on silent retreat that I was told to share as a message and today feels ripe to do so:
Do you see the unfolding glory of all around you?
If you stop and listen there is so much that has changed.
Can you let it be that all things are as they need be?
There’s time for you to do anything you want and no time for all that you want.
Please let go of trying to force anything.
We hear you and are working with and through you to assist the change.
If there is anything we can tell you it’s to just love and let be.
If you desire to do something then open your heart wider – that’s all you need do.
Everything else is a choice and you will not miss out on the path because your being is always on path.
Have you lost your way? No.
We would say you’ve merely lost sight of the important things and when you listen to what is singing to you then you will understand your way.
Your way is part of the sacred unfolding of all ways meeting in the heart. There, there is no distinction, separation, or need to define – do you understand?
When you are being you, everyone can too.
Drop the pretenses and merge yourself with everything around you.
See how your notes are perfect to the notes of others.
It’s cliché to say, but it’s true – you all create a divine symphony, but you fight over which note is better rather than knowing they all are of value and necessity.
Drop into the melody more often and you will hear its grace reverberate.
Enchanted Solstice Blessings
New Moon Eclipse, Messengers & Soft Transitions
With Mercury still retrograde and our journeying through this year’s intense Eclipse season, we are indeed going through some major recalibrating shifts on the worldwide scene in terms of all that we’re dealing with collectively. As usual, the way we navigate our inner world will have both an effect on altering things in the outer word AND on how we personally experience it all. Like I wrote as a comment on Laura’s recent blog post (here are snippets):
“….the Eclipses and things like these are individual experiences and that’s only known by the individual and their experience, so pay attention to your own energy signature and what your chosen role in things are….the importance of intention and setting parameters so that you’re fully conscious, aware and proactively cocreating your and the collective’s experience. Manifesting is easy these days so be VERY clear what you do and don’t want to manifest….Know thyself, as they say. Lots of love and harmonious balancing to everyone through these deep reveals and openings still yet to come. We’re all here together to buffer the journey as One.”
We are being taught something of value during all of this intensity and with this Gemini New Moon Eclipse it will come through channels of communication and information with reveals happening left and right either by accountable disclosure or surprising reveal. I’ve not only been seeing this play out in the world in stages (soon to be more and more largely all-encompassing), but have been hearing individual stories of huge surprising reveals that in some cases have shattered people’s lives and hearts. Yet, overall, the message has been clear to me….while devastating or disturbing for some to experience for now, the reveals are hidden gifts supporting the highest good for all that we have yet to see within the healing process of the fresh traumas.
I suspect that all things hidden in the individual and collective mirroring fields of experience, even if the individual or group has convinced themselves that having it hidden is for the best, will come to surface sooner or later in these “cracking open” times because separation can’t live on forever.
With emphasis in North Node energies highlighted, things we glean from now or through experiences that unfold during this Eclipse will have impact on our future self.
It can be helpful to make sure you are embodying as pure of energy as you are able to, relative to your frequency expression on Earth. No one is some idea of “perfect” and to be human involves evolution, but we can still do our most conscious best in each moment.
This is an opportune time to set clear, strong boundaries, to take pause, reflect, and receive.
After my dipping into things a bit recently to collectively assist and opening the boundaries a bit to work even more deliberately, I’ve gone back to erecting the boundaries. I am still deeply involved in the same focuses, but the transformational impact was enough to set things in motion in new directions and for another future version of me to step in.
It’s best not to try to force anything during these Eclipse periods, but instead to allow the Universe to move through you and guide the way.
Synchronous with the energies, short distance travel is ruled by Gemini – the sign that the New Moon Solar Eclipse is in early this morning – and come the 14th I’ll be away on a short journey only about two and a half to three hours from here, through the 17th. This also happens to be a self-induced silent retreat (interesting given Gemini rules communication) that Dave and I are sharing in a remote sanctuary area. Because of this, I’ll likely not blog again until I return.
I’m curious what will be gleaned, received, and activated from it. The timing wasn’t planned, but what was available, yet it happens to feel significant right before our threefold anniversary on Summer Solstice of the 20th and since it starts on the day Saturn squares Uranus.
In the meantime, I continue to receive visitors sharing their support and guidance – on and off Earth – and having multitudes of dream visions. Some of these messengers in Earth animal bodies include coyote, snake, a tiny brown bird, ladybug, a special chipmunk, hawks, wild mustangs, and lots of geese.
The coyote is the very same one that keeps crossing my path – our beautiful resident coyote who uses our house as her pathway into the forest. I always just “happen” to be by the window when she crosses and she makes it a point to stop and give me a long look at her, enough so to see her gorgeous creamy fur with speckled hints of darker pattern. She came through recently with a deliberate, long pause.
Then garter snake decided to slither on by across the driveway in front of me, as I got in the car that same day.
The tiny brown bird – no more than 3 inches long from head to tail – felt like a direct mirror. We heard a bang on the window and I went outside to see if a bird hit it and fell. It’s nearly a miracle I saw her, but of course she drew me to her, as she matched the soil she was laying in under a bush in the shade. I wasn’t sure if she was hurt or stunned, but decided to support her with Reiki and other energy work. She just looked at me super calmly and listened. Then when I got up she flew off onto the limb of a nearby tree. I was happy she was fine and she reflected to me my head hit and transformational opening from it, but that all was well.
Then there was ladybug who sat on my hand at the beach for about 20 minutes and two days of geese at the beach as well – one day a group of 10 and then mainly 2 from a smaller group on another day that were coming right up to us and connecting. The geese always feel like family and they always get close enough to share long soulful eye communication with me.
On both days I found a bunch of large geese feathers – 10 on the first day and 13 the next. The second day the feathers actually floated to me while I was wading in the water.
Large flocks of geese showed up yesterday on our hike, returning to their nesting grounds for the season. We sat on the bench watching and connecting with them. There were at least a hundred.
Hawk continues to show up at punctuated times, including right before I visited my parents two days ago. I’d just seen the wild mustangs roaming by the lake in the valley – always a treat when they show up, given my horse connection since I was a little girl and their powerful meaning to my life transitions.
It was a very windy day and right as I was turning to head toward the road to their home, one was playing in the strong wind, just soaring in place with wings spread wide so I could see all the details of his feathers. After other recent hawk encounters, I felt hawk feathers were going to come to me at some point, as the feeling was strong every time I thought of them or saw one. I would actually see the feathers in my mind’s eye. Then when I got to my parent’s house after seeing the soaring, stunning hawk, my mom handed me two feathers she recently found and knew to keep for me.
One was the gorgeous, large hawk feather you see in the photo with me above. I love how it matches the leaf print on the right shoulder of my dress creating the effect of two wings from my shoulders.
And then there was a special chipmunk that showed up. I realized and received that this was our sweet Strawberry returning and the timing was uncanny!
You might recall the story of Strawberry the chipmunk I saved who got stuck in our wet cement epoxy in the garage, which took place on June 8th, 2018. Well, nearly three years later on June 5th of 2021 we made contact again. Typically chipmunks are known to live 2-5 years, but as many as 8. Strawberry was grown now and much larger, from the time of that experience as a youngster, but her fur showed evidence of not having fully come back right in all places. She did have a lot of fur, otherwise, but there were areas missing that plushness and her tail as well was thinned. Overall, she looked healthy in terms of eating well and obviously still being alive after all this time, but she was older and moved differently. I could tell her eyes were aged and the fur around her face and ears were scruffy and showing signs of aging too. But she was drinking out of the bird bath I have out for the forest animals in my garden and then jumped to my garden bench and slowly got up on the fence to lay in the sun. It took a little effort to jump across and up on it, but she made it and let me come close while I talked to her. She just layed in the sunshine absorbing the healing rays and listened to me until I was done and started back to my watering and then she jumped up into the nearby tree.
That encounter was very dear to my heart and felt full circle, much like the recent events between Eclipses and so much more.
Dave and I had seen her around not long after the first incident, and you may recall that lots of little creatures were coming by after that to learn of me and Astrid who helped, fed, and gave her Reiki and crystal energy inside the Wonderland room. They were curious about what life was like in the house on the forest where a faery and rabbit queen lived.
I actually had noticed a chipmunk around the house recently with what looked like mottled fur and wondered if it was her, but I was never close enough to get a good look and she would be off and about quickly. Until five days ago when we connected once again in close encounter that allowed me a good look at her fur and face and to feel into her energy and eyes, after our first meeting where I held her gingerly in my hands to clean and care for her after the incident.
Every encounter has been such a gift, but seeing Strawberry feels very deep for me and not only meaningful on so many layers, but also very personally reflective of me like the tiny brown bird. Strawberry’s life feels connected to mine in a way I can’t explain yet. We are growing older and making life transitions together, stronger through the trials, and living in peace amidst it all. I love that she stayed to make this her home.
I’m so grateful for these messengers and this window of peaceful ease and grace with all of the transitions evolving. I’ve felt a softening to energy again and even the scab on my head is completely healed and gone, with only remnants of a superficial scar I’ll get to wear on my crown along with others.
It’s not always an easy time out there right now, but when we listen and intend with full consciousness, we can experience things a bit softer and without surprise. We can also be there for one another to support the changes now and upcoming.
My days since my head Eclipse experience have been about soaking up rays of sunshine, immersing in the magickal and activating Tahoe waters enjoying beach days, lots of garden time, clearing the way for new things in my life, relaxing and baking, reflection and intention, very limited work hours, and short walks we’ve worked up to about 2 1/2 miles now for Dave’s knee recovery, which like my head is going extremely well.
Paying attention to the ways in which energy doesn’t feel balanced in your life on any level, and making adjustments or intentions to change that, makes a huge difference.
I also just happened to have a hair trim appointment come up, which felt perfectly unplanned in timing for today’s energy. A New Moon Eclipse refresh helped shift energies in the direction of releasing the old and softening things even more for the next phase of life transitions.
This was just two days ago after the renewing crown energy, which was also perfect like a rebirth from the head wound that I did in fact feel take place.
When my stylist asked how I wanted her to style it after the refresh, I told her, “I’ll let you choose.” She chose a soft loose wave. 😉 Perfect alignment with the softening energy in motion.
May we all ride these new waves of transition in softer ways, but with all of our hearts.
Intuition Nurtures the Parts of Us We Have Yet to Understand
I’m constantly reminded how important nurturing and supporting intuition is, the more convoluted the energetic landscape around me gets. There are SO many voices literally and subconsciously barking at us from all corners that it can become extremely challenging to navigate anything without wondering which voice is running the show. The more the world turns upside down and tries to play tug-of-war with me, the more I turn within, as the only voice that speaks my truth the best, is MY voice…the one that whispers softly to me through the vortex of my heart.
If we don’t practice listening though, then we’ll never learn how to distinguish it from the rest. Listening to intuition is the way to your truest heart calling. It’s the bridge to greater peace and strength, even when chaos is swirling all around.
The last few days have continued to be filled with messengers and sign posts of support and upcoming change that I’ll share about likely in another post, as I listen to where to focus my energy next. My head healed rather quickly, but not surprisingly, given what I know about its origins and the work I’ve been focused on. There only remains a single 3/4 of an inch long scab that is already starting to come off naturally. I still to date have had no repercussions in physical challenges, including no dizziness or pain. Very grateful for all of that.
And through it all I’ve continued to take pause when anything arises that doesn’t feel resonant, so that I can stay centered and wait for the spirit connected part of me to respond from the highest place within, rather than get caught up in any momentary ego trigger. This is how I stay in control and work with my energies in a balanced way.
Your intuition is a master navigator. So, if we can learn to take pause, listen, and feel for it before we start running on old programming and ego battles, then we can save ourselves and others a lot of unnecessary challenges.
Listening to that subtle or not so subtle inner nudge, voice, vision, or feeling you have that doesn’t always make sense, is your support system that keeps you in alignment and always has your back. We don’t need to know the why or how. That only comes through experience, once you trust the innate wisdom you DO already have within.
Intuition is always speaking to us, but we may need to retrain ourselves to pause, listen and back it up. The more we do, the easier it gets and eventually will become a seamless experience.
We are intuitive beings by nature. We just have a lot of noise in the way of believing that.
If I feel something heavy coming at me or in me, I stop to reframe things and support energy to move rather than keep me down by listening to intuition and what it is telling me in that moment to do, even if it doesn’t make sense. Sometimes intuition might tell you to do something completely opposite or seemingly random than you think you feel like doing, but if you stretch yourself for a moment to just be curious about that voice and explore a little courage to follow it, you will find yourself likely feeling a whole lot better even if you don’t have the meaning of life or even the vision yet of what the end result will be of your current quandary.
It’s perfect to go through every kind of feeling. It’s when things get stuck that having a natural guiding system can be helpful to see you through so energy keeps moving.
It’s not necessarily that you arrive at answers, but you become able to feel more balanced, hopeful, and refreshed to try things from another perspective.
Over the course of my life I’ve had a lot of intuitional voices run through me. Some I ignored and others I didn’t. The latter being my more consistent experience these days, which I’m grateful for as the ignoring didn’t make things easier.
One of the big hits I received through the voice of intuition has to do with where I currently reside.
I’ll use it as an example for what I’ve been sharing so far, to give you an idea of how something rather “random” seeming and that makes no sense at all, came to unfold for me. I remembered something I was shown years before it happened, but I tucked it away because I knew it was meaningful.
Sometimes intuition can tell us how to navigate something immediately, or it may come beforehand to help prepare the way and remind you when the time is aligned.
The healing waters of Tahoe have always been activating for me, but I never knew anything about this lake – at least not the current me. This lake and area carry ancient memories from times long ago and these were in my DNA to awaken at the perfect timing they would be needed.
This lake called to my soul long before I even knew of her. Back in my mid 20’s during one of my biggest and most profound healing transformations while I lived in Sedona, part of my studies and inner work led me to a map and intuitive hit that pointed to Lake Tahoe. One of the things I was exploring as part of the big shifts I was undergoing at the time, was where would be most supportive for me to live.
I didn’t know anything about Lake Tahoe other than my parents mentioning they’d been there when I was growing up, nor was it ever on my conscious radar in any way. I received then the vision I was to live there. The when was unknown. I was told of a vortex and given nothing else, but a knowing around a place I had personally never even visited.
I tucked it away and forgot about it, as the timing obviously wasn’t aligned yet.
At 33, life took me there in my previous marriage to look for a house over a long weekend’s first-ever visit, knowing I was to be here even without exploring the area.
I hadn’t been comfortable living where we were in Washington state on Puget Sound, although we had a dream location on the water and a private beach with a view of Seattle. What you think you might love, doesn’t always pan out the way you’d think, as experiencing the energy of something is completely different than simply idealizing something.
We discussed this and in wanting to find that balance, even though I didn’t want to live in his home state and house, I also didn’t feel it right to live in mine or anything familiar for me either.
We decided we needed a place that was not of his or my family past…a new beginning. I remembered the strong intuitive nudge about Lake Tahoe and mentioned it to him as a possible idea. He proceeded to say, with a surprise in his eyes that I would bring it up since I’d never even been there, that he loved Tahoe, as he had visited it before and spent time skiing and working there for a Winter. It was an instant click and we made plans to explore it for a long weekend.
The intuitive hit I had was supported the moment we got to Tahoe, feeling so good to me, and within two days we were in contract to buy the perfect home overlooking the lake. We moved immediately from the Seattle area, traveling with my then twin soul rabbit, Nestor, who was a large part of navigating my life.
And so, Tahoe would come to be the place of my next transformative journey, but my intuition had been right.
It ended up being where I got a divorce, but also where I met my now husband after that happened.
I lived in Tahoe 3 years before moving away, but I constantly felt her pull. My life took many twists and turns on every front, but I always thought of and missed Tahoe, and I found my way back to her where we’ve been for the last nearly 5 years.
There is much more to the story, but the bottom line is…these waters, mountains, forests and land speak to what I have energetically needed and match my essence. My intuition knew more about me and the future me I would become, then I knew of myself in the moments I simply was wondering where would be most supportive for me to live.
And since then, I integrated into being more myself than ever on all fronts – spiritually, physically, mentally, and emotionally. I began my biggest ventures onto my path in Tahoe. I became my own person – independent and empowered in Tahoe.
I learned how to balance my astrological energies in Tahoe. I discovered how to heal many things in Tahoe.
I became an avid hiker, biker, and skier in Tahoe. The nature girl I always had been within, but never put into motion, got activated into being, right here. I’ve met the key people in my life in Tahoe, or while living in Tahoe. All of my most influential animal companions have lived in, come to me in, and visited Tahoe. And so much more.
I learned, through many adventures and explorations around the area that Lake Tahoe has the best of all the worlds I personally love, in one place – mountains, forests, meadows, wetlands, lakes galore, rivers, creeks, beaches, tropical colored waters like the ocean, stone outcroppings, desert-like areas, places that remind me of the surface of the Moon or another planet and some of my other favorite exotic areas of the world, and has the four seasons to mirror life cycles.
I also discovered that I thrive at high altitudes and it suits my essence so well.
“Although I deeply love oceans, deserts and other wild landscapes, it is only mountains that beckon me with that sort of painful magnetic pull to walk deeper and deeper into their beauty. They keep me continuously wanting to know more, feel more, see more.” ~Viktoria Erickson
I trusted an insight without seeing, simply because my soul knew something beyond explanation and it’s proven accurate.
There are other places I enjoy in the world, but only a few fingers counting of where my soul loves and knows to be resonant enough for living- I keep them close to heart and listen in case they ever call like Tahoe has in her own divine timing.
I have learned to trust my intuition even when it doesn’t make sense because it’s always proven to nurture and care for me. Intuition is not out to hurt us, even if the things it tells us equate to massive unknown changes. There is a meaning we don’t need to understand. That’s simply our minds trying to work it out. I had no idea how I would come to be here, but here I am once and again.
This isn’t a post about Tahoe, but about following intuition, and one of the ways I have around the subject of where to live, which I know can oftentimes be a big one for people.
Intuition will guide you best, not only doing research about an area (or anything for that matter), alone, as there is no cookie-cutter place that is better than any other place on the planet for EVERYONE. There is only the place that resonates, aligns, and is most supportive for YOU at any GIVEN TIME in your life, as this can evolve based on what is best for your evolution.
I have spent time in places that others love and are also considered high-energy, vortex, and super nature-stunning places that very spiritual and in-tune people feel drawn to, support more eco-conscious and Earth-based living, as well as places that artisans love and reside in, and I found them to not work for me at all.
I am not one to name places or bad-mouth anything, as I don’t like to create biases and blanket statements or opinions that are merely from my own experience. All I know is that I’ve experienced non-harmonious, low energy, not great feelings, and heavier, denser spaces where others don’t and vice versa.
I also know that my own state of being plays a huge part in what I experience. Therefore when someone shares all the negativity they are experiencing by living somewhere, this isn’t everyone’s experience necessarily. Our own experience can cloud perspective since we will continue to magnetize or draw in things that support our beliefs and feelings adopted or support a message we may not be listening to. This could come in the form of telling you that a move would be most supportive, or you might think a move is supportive, but in actuality the place you live is activating parts of you that are needing to change and be active in new ways you have been neglecting or pushing aside.
Places can be transformational springboards for us to help us to shift and stay, or shift and move on.
And there’s nothing wrong with that, as perhaps that’s the way to move you forward. I just know that we carry ourselves where ever we go and even if we find a place that feels right, the current state we are in can magnetize more of that outwardly simply as a messaging system to view our lives through and make different choices at every moment.
I’ve only focused on intuition navigating me to where I currently am, but I’ll continue to use intuition to let me know if at any given point things change with that, but also with any part of my life in general.
There’s so much emphasis on analyzing things, but when we partner both sides of our brain together – left AND right – and infuse the heart as the mediator for that partnership, then we get led to more aligned experiences.
It’s not “just” about intuition, but indeed the better we get at listening to intuition we will find that it is the part of us that “knows” what all parts of us use their own language system to try to tell us. Each part has their own way of going about things and it can get kind of exhausting at times to appease them. They’re there for a reason to understand the power of each, yet they also simply exist within a marriage of unity.
Intuition merges gut feelings with higher self guidance and already knows the details of our analyzing side of the brain, but in a snapshot of innate inner knowing and wisdom.
Fear, doubt, expectations, misconceptions, pressure, ego, and beliefs can all be some of the stumbling blocks to hearing, trusting, supporting, and acting upon intuition. They all make it harder to receive information from spiritual sources. Intuition isn’t as dramatic of an experience as we think it’s supposed to be, or hear it to be maybe from others who experience it that way.
Don’t discount the subtle things. When I was looking at where would be best for me to live, it wasn’t this big dramatic scene that played out with lightning bolts and an angel landing in front of me speaking the words, “Lake Tahoe” and tapping my head and having a clear movie vision of myself there with rainbow lights and trumpets playing.
It was like a treasure hunt that kept unfolding and leading me to clues along the way that I kept following in the moment that seemed random and having nothing to do with a place to live. I was having a fun time exploring the dots in each moment that led me to Lake Tahoe on a map and then the feeling I had arrived at the treasure chest, but in a subtle resonance of peace and comfort. I then trusted to make mental and physical note of this to see how it would unfold since there was nothing in sight of how at the time for it making any sense to my analytical brain. I just knew somewhere within me that felt alignment with it.
If you put too much pressure on yourself and try to force things it shuts you down or you become unclear. This can be a form of self-sabotage to keep yourself small.
You doubt yourself because you weren’t supported in trusting from the time you were a child, so you have to practice to create a new support system with this and back yourself up.
Intuition nurtures the part of us we have yet to understand and I believe that the process of trusting that voice is our way of unraveling the pieces in order to return us back to it – all things are part of the whole. Intuition already has the answers of clarity without separation. Just one more of the divisions we are working toward uniting so the war within our parts no longer has to play out in the world around us.
When we learn to listen more to our intuition, we begin to experience what it truly is to live our best life yet.
Walking Through the Doorway of Balance ~ A Transparent Share & Vulnerable Disclosure
I alluded to the intensity of May 26th’s Sagittarius Full Super Blood and Flower Moon Total Lunar Eclipse in my last post entitled “The Many Faces of My Garden” and after a week of integration and receiving guidance, I’ve decided to share some of what unfolded and the meaning for me. I don’t share this for any other reason than to be of collective support in any way that it might be, and however it is received or discarded is unimportant.
What I know is that we are One, regardless if we understand what that really means and believe it or not. And therefore, everything we individually do, since we each have within us the entire blueprints of the Cosmos folded within the portal of our core essence, creates a catalytic consciousness ripple through encoded frequencies of what we say, do, think, feel, create, how we act, and simply as extension of our being in totality.
As I shared, I was called to focus on the softer Spring energy of the “Flower” Moon in that last post, but via private messages I learned that several of you were able to feel into the layers through the photos of myself I posted and understood there was a complexity of energies being journeyed through that as a whole created the eminence of what was felt, even if not seen. I also heard from others that were experiencing their own versions of what I felt and did.
Today, I will present some of those layers and complexities that were encapsulated within the other part of this particular Moon’s name – the Blood Moon – including a couple of photos from the energy of that day, as I experienced it all.
I have intentionally been engaged extra in Cosmic collective undertakings, as what is being experienced on Earth has brought things to a head in a way that I feel is catapulting mass awakening in the likes that we haven’t experienced yet. It’s not that anything is out of place, since there is a natural unfolding at work always in direct line to mass consciousness, however there has been an extreme amount of tightening and infringing interventions that are giving every last effort to fight and hold on without the highest good of the whole at heart. This, leaving a collective sense of vast division and heaviness felt by everyone from the super-sensitive to the less energy-focused individual, even if you’re in a place of peace within your individual experience.
It is precisely this that I’ve felt as a knock on my door lately in a way that ignited the part of me that came in for this Earth dance, and that everything before now has been preparation for. I know as I write this that many of you are nodding your head or feeling a tug at your core in resonance with your presence here and now.
Life still is simple to me….be the purity of my energy signature no matter what I do. That can be living as a hermit by myself on the top of a mountain, holding a nondescript job to pay the bills, spending my time gardening, in nature, or creating, having a highly visible position, being in contact with many people or no one…. all while simply being and emanating the purity of my frequency. That heart and soul alignment, void of any parameters it needs to look like, has mass effect at quantum levels of consciousness.
And that’s true for every single one of us.
Yet, the here and now presented me some choices and because of what my soul signature wants to help create in the world, the outside folded me within like a collapsing sacred geometrical origami grid and I reached out across the Cosmos for assistance and guidance on how I might participate in something deeper that can assist the whole – not any one particular segment of the world or side, but the whole.
I felt the exhaustion running rampant in the world of the game of tug-of-war and how information is always one-sided while still full of half truths. I know many of you would also love to see great reveals that carry the energy signature of highest good for the whole rather than fueling further divide.
You may remember, I’ve often declared I am not about black and white. I never was and I never will be. I am committed to the Middle Way and for much of the bigger things right now in the world I haven’t seen any clear Middle Way. So what I knew from this is that ever-more creative and vulnerable depths would need to be traversed in order to explore possibilities unseen at present.
In recent months I’ve opened myself in limited funnels to the collective more than awareness alone, even though I had erected healthy boundaries in order to more fully embody my own frequency, which was important to do being a Pisces without boundaries and to do in order to hold and impart a certain energy within the collective web. Even just that little opening has been enough to ignite greater catalytic momentum within me, as it demonstrated a tipping point of pain in the collective body, mind, heart, and soul that was being pulled tighter and tighter at each end. This indicated potential of volcanic proportions without much softening. Was there another more effective way, or is this truly where the collective is wanting to go? I’m always looking at all the possibilities and reviewing potential probabilities from each of them, as one way there simply is not.
And it is just this that took me through the vulnerable levels of processing, much like mourning. So while in conversation with my Cosmic family and powers that be, I talked very openly and transparently about what I was seeing and feeling with the collective energies. I allowed both human perspective and bigger picture one to come forth and voice the nature of experience unfolding.
I allowed expression of frustration in not yet understanding the next step on how to address everything, while remaining curious to the subtle seeds I could sense lived within every choice and experience, still yet untapped. And this then took me through my sensitive heart concerns at the human level, which allowed the anger to move through with responsible admission, accountability, and declaration of truly needing assistance to transmute the current situation we are all in, as although it’s being chosen, it also feels limited simply because we haven’t yet tapped into potential.
Cosmic beings, or what I refer to as Star family, or to some light beings, Galactic Federation, God, Goddess, the Universe, etc. of higher multi-dimensionality do not interfere with things. We must ask and invite the help. We must also step up and be ready and willing to do what is necessary to align with that help.
A lot unfolded over the course of weeks, as I worked toward releasing more old collective energies and trauma and focusing on stepping more fully into the new the best I could, and then culminated again the day of the 25th – the day before the Full Moon Total Eclipse. I’d been working toward readiness to go the next level, to receive insight, and to declare it was time. Time for a big “reveal”. Time for a big “upshake” (these were literal words I used) and with everything I intended, asked for help with, and invited, I always, always laid parameters in place of what I was willing to have experienced in order for any or all of this to happen.
I am no longer out of control or unaware of what could take place if I don’t make clear intentions because I’ve learned that from the past. Ask and you will receive, but if you don’t say how you don’t want to receive it, then you have no idea how that will unfold.
So, what happened next was not a surprise and I knew I’d be okay because of this. So, what I’m sharing is not in need of, or to gain, sympathy. It’s shared only in transparency of my experience and understanding, as I feel it’s ever-more important these days to share the full gamut of the journey so that we embrace the layers and complexities as part of the wholeness of experience. Moving through energies is natural. Trying to block, deny, or judge them is unnatural.
To premise things, it’s likely also because of my commitment I spoke of to the middle and balanced way and how much I’ve devoted these last several years to creating balance and staying grounded and embodied, that I did not experience what likely would have been experienced given any other time period in my life previous to having implemented these things. I’ve made it my focus to integrate spirit in body more fully in the understanding of the miracle that we truly are and merging my star/Cosmic self with the human expression of that.
Before, I was an uncomfortable, floaty, perhaps clumsy emanation and seeping energy vehicle of that Cosmic being in human body and I’ve been learning progressively over the course of my life to activate the responsible empowerment that this partnership can truly be. I’m still learning. 🙂
So back to the evening of the 25th, last Tuesday. I was immersed in finalizing a lot of house projects and a deep cleaning of the house while home alone for the week. It was around 7 pm that night that I was just finishing the very last room to mop, which would complete the entire house and all of my intended goals while Dave was away. I was mopping in the kitchen area and saw a piece of white fur on the ground from our female cat since our fur babies are shedding. I bent down to pick it up and when I stood up quickly to return to mopping, the top left of my crown came in direct contact with the extreme edge of our granite island countertop. It was hard and it was fast. It immediately hurt a lot, jolted quite the energy through, and instinctively, I immediately placed my left hand over the place of impact to administer Reiki and Cosmic healing. I held it there a minute or so and then removed my hand.
I didn’t expect to see that my palm was fully covered in blood. It immediately put me in what felt like an out-of-body experience in order to handle the situation, as normally if I see blood or have a very bad physical trauma, or even see the same happen to someone else close to me, I get very faint, white, and nearly pass out. In talking to a dear Cosmic friend of mine who experiences the same, she shared this is likely because we’re still not used to blood, as our light bodies are more resonant. That finally made a lot of sense to me.
Anyway, none of these usual reactions took place, even though my mind scanned through all the possibilities quickly in order to assess things. I knew I needed to stop the blood and I was exploring the possibility of skull fracture, as well as running through what to do. I went immediately for a clean towel and ice pack and got both of them on my head, continuing Reiki and checking on it after a bit to monitor the blood amount.
I knew that head injuries can cause a lot of blood regardless of the depth of laceration, so I had to feel into anything else. I called my parents right after sitting myself down on the couch to stay calm and keep the cloth and ice on. I wanted to make sure someone knew about what happened in the event of anything unforeseen, and also to get their insights on anything I might not be aware of to physically do. They only live an hour away so if necessary they could come help. After talking with them for a bit I noticed the blood was slowing down and faster than I thought. By the end of our talking I was only seeing a small impression on the clean side of the cloth that was in the shape of the laceration – about 3/4 of an inch.
I could tell I didn’t need stitches, nor any medical assistance, and by examining my head I didn’t feel it to be a fracture. Of course there was a lot of swelling and tenderness, and many sensations and twinges going on, but no real pain other than the initial contact. I, of course, had many messages and thoughts flooding through as well and the sensation of energy downloads.
I expressed immediate gratitude on many levels to my Cosmic family and the Universe, for the direct message, confirmation of our work together, and for overseeing my ultimate protection within the parameters I laid out.
Long story short, for the next three nights I slept upright in bed to keep my head raised, especially so the first night in case of anymore bleeding, and then continued in that vein because it felt better than laying flat. It’s not that there was pain, but the sensations and pressure made me intuitively feel it wasn’t good to lay down yet and so I didn’t.
That night was right before the Eclipse, which took place at around 4:18 am our time here. So, this was in the window of the hours and energies leading right up to it. That night I also couldn’t go to sleep for a long time. Not because of pain and not because of discomfort in how I was sitting upright, as I didn’t have either, but because I was wide awake and super alert. The two cats were on both sides of me and I kept hearing things and feeling energies and even our male cat would quickly turn his head at the same time I would sense or hear something. I could feel a lot of extraterrestrial/Cosmic energies, which made sense given things I’d been engaged with.
I finally did get to sleep and the only dream I remember that night was one based in the present where I had the head injury and was slowly walking around to make sure I didn’t fall or get dizzy. I had presences around me that I was communicating with and they handed me a walking stick to make sure to help keep me balanced while I was healing. But this was no simple walking stick. The walking stick had a dragon on it. The dragon felt to be alive or enchanted with magick, as the head moved on the top of the stick. This, I would be walking with from here on. That’s all I remember.
I’ve known that head injuries are a literal and symbolic rewiring. The left side of the head is connected to the collective mind of logic and intellect and all that we’re dealing with out in the world right now is playing with these old thought waves and fears that have gotten stuck in a continuously spinning circle and methodically robotic state. It’s not the intuitive right brain side that flows in creativity, feeling, and just “knows” without proof, but is the fear and the analyzing, the black and white, aggression and old male side that I “cracked” open. The very energy I have been trying to navigate so much these past months.
I have found that like Earth releases steam through earthquakes, as I believe I mentioned before, that this experience also was like that…a way of releasing collective steam and trauma, as I’ve always played out collective things more consciously than going through motions of it automatically just being connected as everything and everyone just IS. Part of this being because I’m a Pisces and part of it we’ll just say is my energy signature. Synchronously, my sense of this “letting off steam” like earthquakes do, literally unfolded later too, as I’ll share shortly.
The blood is a form of old energy release and transformation and the totality of this experience became an activation of an upgrade recalibration from old to new that I’ve been trying to navigate a way for as my part, to assist the collective. It also made a poignant point of access for downloads of information to stream through, for heightened awareness and altered perception, preparation for the next phase of me, and a lead point to assist in deciding what role I’m willing to continue taking in the bigger picture here.
I will mention that I do have a natal Sagittarius Moon like the Full Moon was in that day and some transit aspects with the Eclipse, as well as have Mars in the first house which funnels how my enormous amounts of energy will channel through me – the head and face being directly impacted. I’ve been learning to put into effect my Mars powered by Capricorn to temper what could be reckless, impulsive, raw, and wild energy into more effective energy. So, while this was still a very Mars-like experience, there were many layers of Capricorn tempering that softened the blow from that literal and energetic “sharp edge.”
Yet, as I’ve been messaged and see this, these energies merely directed my personal role and expression within the collective field, the timing, and an igniting of things within my DNA that haven’t been ready to be released yet. We all have things express through, relative to each of us and our energy signatures and set-up. I do tend to have dramatic things and with a strongly placed Mars in the first house a head activation is right on course with possibilities. Yet, as I mentioned, rather than this actually turning into a more horrendous experience had I not been prepared energetically or consciously, it was one both myself and my Cosmic co-creators knew I could handle.
This is about collective stuff I personally invited for literal recalibrating, as I was ready for bigger and felt “enough is enough”….”it’s time.” I decided to step forth and stretch my neck into just a bit of growth discomfort to engage change.
And as mentioned, because of my Middle Way and balance commitment and anchoring, this led to not having any dizziness, vertigo, nausea, headaches, or pain other than initial impact, still to this day, and in fact the laceration began its scabbing process within a day and is in the itchy healing mode now. The swelling is pretty much gone and the sensitivity at the site is very minimal. I have had interesting sensations moving up and down the left side and even in my ear, warmth, twinges, etc. It’s felt like a snake at times in Cosmic embryonic fluid moving and swirling inside. Something incubating and evolving in preparation for birth through the opening/doorway created.
And, something kept me strong to handle this on my own without anyone to help me in person.
To put into context, I’ve had now about four major head traumas or hits that I can recall in my life, beginning at age three. The last one was when I got the side of my car hit while I was at my very last office job in my late 20’s. Needless to say, it told me what I knew – it was time to quit and move forward with my life. But my brain was sloshed around hard in my skull from that and I did in fact have vertigo for a few days after. The first day being the worst where I was standing in my kitchen and my head literally pulled and dropped me down fully to my left (left again) and I fell on the floor “just” missing the kitchen counter.
And here I was without that, to date, even though my brain received a huge blow moving everything from crown to base and even activating the jaw at onset of the initial impact. I remember sharing with my parents that I felt like a click in the jaw with the weight of the blow compressing everything between crown and jaw.
Definitely a personal evolution demonstrating the miraculous way our bodies can handle things in reflection to how we manage energies. Not that we have to experience things in certain ways, but with greater conscious intent, we can navigate and integrate things much differently and heal rather quickly. I’ve been taking it easy each day and being conscious of going slow and being deliberate, just in case. I don’t take anything for granted or assume, as every day is a new day to navigate by the energies of the moment revealing themselves and then aligning the best we can to meet with them rather than push against them.
I’d like to now back-track slightly to give a little sequential rundown of things leading up to and unfolding after the “impactful” threshold was crossed into a point of no return.
On 5/24, while hiking down to the post office and UPS store from the house through the forest and onto the street, I noticed the clouds in the sky were unusually expansive and radiating looking – different than what I’d seen in the sky recently. I saw this both as I approached the street, beaming up and out from above the lake, and also through the tree tops of the forest right before getting back to the house.
On the way I also noticed a bear statue I hadn’t remembered seeing – likely because I don’t walk that way usually – and for some reason I was told to get a photo with it, so I did. I later realized why, as it foreshadowed what I was about to find and to understand its energy very clearly as the messenger it was.
Not more than fifteen minutes after that, on the way back I noticed these layered doorways – tree limbs creating portals upon portals like inter-dimensional gateways folded into one another (much more profound in person):
And right after that I found this:
A giant sacrum bone, which I understood right away to be from bear. I’ve mentioned before how I always get led to bones, transitioned animals, fur or feathers of wild animals, and find unusual things in general. But this sacrum bone from bear was quite potent. I know the sacrum to be a sacred bone and portal, as I’ve researched and written about it due to my injuries in the tailbone and sacrum in the past, and residual activations in the form of pulsing deep pain that take place there when energetic things are shifting. In the text link above, you might also, like myself, find this interesting:
“Sacredness of this bone is also related to a belief found in various parts of the globe that the sacrum is the ‘resurrection bone’ from which residual raw material remaining after death a person will be reborn, presumably by attracting the spirit residing within.”
Then this:
“…the sacrum as a focal part of the pelvic girdle represents a metaphor for the cosmic portal linking this world with the Otherworld while emphasizing the generative or (pro)creative aspect of the life cycle, just as the jawbone as a focal part of the skull represents another metaphor for the cosmic portal, but one emphasizing the analytical or destructive aspect of the cosmic cycle.”
And this:
“…If the human body can be said to have “portals” or loci of transformative power where the body’s interior is connected with the external world, and perhaps also with the Otherworld, the sacrum in the pelvic girdle is likely one of these, while the jawbone in the skull constitutes the other.”
Interesting in relation to my finding the sacrum/sacred bone portal and having the crown to jaw activation with the impact the day after. A full book-ended portal circuitry:
“…If the body can be viewed as a microcosm, then its form is either a template for or a reflection of other cosmic levels, and its form is our only guide to the appearance and operation of these other levels, incomplete as this guidance may be. The body has two ends regulating the passage between the inside the body and outside of it, and at these two ends are portals. One end has the mouth; on the other end are the anus and the water producing urethral orifice (and in females there is also the entrance to the birth canal). Concentration of power is in the bony appurtenances surrounding these portals, and most focally these bones are the lower jaw and the sacrum (sometimes including the coccyx). On a slightly more inclusive scale, these bones are the upper skull and the lower ‘inverted skull.’ “
And I’ve mentioned before how much bear messengers have been visiting me more than any other over the course of the last year and a half or so and their Arcturian connection.
A couple of minutes after discovering the bone in the meadow grass, this heart stone led the way home (the heart being the bridge and portal to Unity):
That night I’m led to a documentary film that contains messaging exactly reflective of and in response to my Cosmic conversations, confirming and assuring things are in motion.
On the evening of 5/25 I hit and activated my head. I had texted Dave a photo of me since he was away, as he wanted to see how I looked. This is what I sent him below.
As you can see, Sweet Pea was nestled behind my head to the left, very relaxed and without stress and what you can’t see is Boojum nestled to my right on the couch next to me in the same comfortable positioning. I’m sharing this photo because it captures a transitional energy between human and spirit. You can obviously see the trauma impact on the physical including my disheveled hair I parted to care for the wound, but what I noticed was the clarity and lightness of my eyes that seemed to be transcending the experience. My eyes tend to lighten when my energy shifts.
There was no scream or cry of pain when it happened, nor tears. I immediately went into caretaker mode of myself while also reviewing the incredulous way instant manifestation was at work.
That night I slept upright, as I said, and placed a white cloth around my head in case of any more blood seeping through in the night. I noticed that I ended up looking like a nun and when I woke in the morning this is the photo I sent Dave, as he wanted to see how I was feeling/looking. I didn’t move from my position all through the night, nor did the cats on both of my sides, as you can see their fur left and right.
Again, I noted a transcendent kind of look in the photo and for someone who had gone through what I had, I looked quite at peace and almost refreshed.
The early morning of 5/26 was the Eclipse, which I didn’t see because I was sleeping, but also was being very self-nurturing and careful, so I wasn’t going to get up and move without need, nor would I set an alarm to disrupt healing rest.
Dave returned home late that night. He came back two days earlier than originally planned because the best date for a surgery he wanted was on 5/27. He tore his meniscus back in late Fall, and although was still able to ski, bike and hike, there was still a level of discomfort and pain during some of the activities – mostly hiking – that made him decide to go ahead with surgery to clean up the meniscus, which should lead to alleviation of this.
Ironically, I became his caretaker even though I was still doing my own healing, waking early that morning to get him into surgery and picking up things he/we needed and then taking care of things while he rested that day. I had a giggle at myself and the situation when I was sitting in the hospital waiting for him to be released. Here I was coming to pick him up as his guardian, while unbeknownst to them I had just had a head injury and was sitting there with matted dried blood under my hat. LOL!
I hadn’t wanted to wash my head and hair while it was sensitive, so as not to disturb the cut from healing and scabbing, so I had only opted to gently clean it up the night of the incident, spraying hydrogen peroxide onto my scalp to saturate the area and tenderly dabbing it with cotton pads.
On the morning of 5/28 the “upshake” I asked for and letting off of steam continued from my intentions and personal embodied release, or blood-letting. I woke up at 5 am and as soon as I opened my eyes an earthquake hit. Again, in all the time we’ve lived in Tahoe the years previous to our return to Southern California and the years following our Magick Bus adventure, I don’t recall feeling any quakes here. I mentioned in a recent post how several had been popping up around the perimeter of the area (as recently as April and May) – nearly all on the California side (we live on the Nevada side of the lake) – and were connected with energetics I felt moving through or something I was engaged in thinking through.
Well, on this morning of 5/28, not one, but SIX earthquakes all centered in the same area of the northwest California side all hit. The first at 5 am and continued through late morning. We felt four of them, but the earthquake records I tune into showed in fact six took place. The epicenter was apparently near the middle of the lake 8 kilometers from a town on the California shore. The middle of the lake being interesting since the lake is split in two sides – one half in California and the other half in Nevada. What also seemed unusual is that they grew in size from the first one. I believe the first was 2.7 and the second came in at 4.2, then one at 3.1 then 2.8 or 2.9, and I don’t recall the others, but in the upper 2 range I believe.
I’m grateful for the energy releases that take place personally and Earth-connected, as I believe these help to diffuse things without major explosions or greater trauma. There felt to be no coincidence that these came within the energy of the Eclipse days, things on the collective scene, and my own personal work and experience, since everything is connected.
That same day I had already planned to do some yard work and did end up removing a dead tree and some dead bushes from the previous owner – out with the old. I had been taking the days easy to make sure to support healing from the head hit, only walking out in my garden for grounding, so I continued to do things slowly even with this activity, but it did feel good to move out in nature and literally move out old energy.
On this day I also found a partially formed nest in the rocks on the side of the house where one year I found a fully formed nest that is now part of my mobile I made for our bedroom of a variety of abandoned old nests I’ve found. This partial nest feeling like the trials of life in process along the journey.
And besides waking to the earthquakes, I had also seen momma Robin at onset of the morning in her nest above our front door entrance, likely incubating her eggs. She doesn’t leave the nest while doing so and dad comes to visit throughout the day – a lovely sign of rebirth and hope, but also of that nurturing and mothering energy I was cradled in both by myself and in softened after effects from my hit, courtesy of reflective Cosmic energies.
On this day we also saw the return of our first tree frog who suddenly appeared.
He was so cute listening to me talk and then he turned toward the impression of what looked like a doorway in the wood siding, as if to say he’d come through this little portal and that there are other realms all around us to slip in and out of if we so desire too.
Look at him touching his nose to it, head fully engaged with the round etched doorway.
A pure and open heart can lead the way.
On 5/29 I felt ready to plant all the new friends I shared in my last post and did – in with the new.
On 5/30 I saw a starship above me while sun bathing – each day I’d been sitting out in the sunshine, as it is so nourishing to me and the Sun’s rays activate healing – and while looking up there it was maneuvering in and then made a backwards motion and zipped right back through the dimensional doorway disappearing. Just like frog seemed to indicate.
Residual flickering crafts or energy particles all around the area showed up right after, but only with a softened gaze that would not have been detected by the eye otherwise. Following that, our first beautiful yellow swallowtail made an appearance, enjoying our blossom tree and fluttering across the deck where we sat.
Indeed a contrast of events, but painting a visual story of messengers imparting the transformation of energy in motion and rebirthing hope on the way.
I also learned that on May 26th at the exact time of the Eclipse, a dense solar flare hit Earth’s magnetic field.
“On May 22nd sunspot AR2824 unleashed a sequence of solar flares and one of these struck Earth’s magnetic field on May 26 producing a G-2 Class Geomagnetic Storm and auroras. The solar storm took place at the precise moment that a super blood moon total eclipse became visible across much of the globe.” The text link here will take you to a YouTube video about it if interested.
So, yes, if you felt this Eclipse as big too, this underscores things some more.
If you read this far, thank you for listening. I was told to share this experience and more around my role as I know and experience it, so I’m leaning into trusting there’s reason for that. I’ve always been forward about my experiences and Cosmic connection. I’m being told the time for more of that reveal is now.
What is the take away from all of this and what does it mean?
Maybe it means nothing at all.
Maybe it means everything.
Maybe all that I share is some kind of invitation down The Rabbit Hole simply to play in Wonderland, as a break from the world you live in, and the nonsensical is my little girl desiring some playmates.
Or, maybe what I and others share might possibly be true on some or all levels.
Curiouser and curiouser indeed, the world we live in and what we’re experiencing is.
Experience is the only way I’ve learned that makes the biggest impact. Disclosure merely opens the doorway for exploration of possibilities you’ve not yet ventured into. Yet, within the words, feelings, thoughts, visuals, and energies we share, the frequency seeds are available and recoding each of us daily.
It’s one of the reasons I try to keep my vibration as pure as possible and erect boundaries or make certain kinds of choices that help me stay aligned. I came in with innocence and I intend to leave the same way I came.
As a Pisces and by nature of my Cosmic emanation on Earth that I am in this particular human body carrying the signature frequency I do, I’m always very actively experiencing collective things as conscious personal expressions and personal things as conscious collective expressions. We all do, regardless of whether we know we are or not because of Unity consciousness. I am just one of many who experience this in a more sensory and literal way, so it makes it much more every-day-profound, or normal, depending on your perception. Everything I do and experience is a simultaneous act and knowing of this full gamut of existence in the here and now. It all sounds much more complicated when I have to write things out, but it’s instantaneous in my daily experience.
There’s so much more to this, as with any experience, and the layers are beyond words to weave. So, I rely on the encodings within my words and energy shared, as everything we put out has a frequency and since the purity of frequency is so key, I do my best to share that alignment.
Part of what I received from this is that this created an access point that not only cracked the old layer to allow increasing release, but that the next phase of more reveal in the collective also involves shifting me, and each of us, into greater embodiment of the original signature I and we carried into Earth this time around, but wasn’t time for yet.
Leading up to and since this event, there’s been an increase in my Cosmic experiences and even the kinds of conversations, openings, and activities happening with people around me that hadn’t before, and what’s being facilitated has all shifted like a light switch from off to on.
So, the great divide we are experiencing, has sped up the emergence of voicing this – almost like a tectonic shift where the Earth’s tectonic plates move toward or away from one another – creating earthquakes or volcanic eruptions. Tectonic shifting has huge impact on the planet. The plates move slowly always, but friction causes the edges to get stuck and as the edges overcome that friction, an earthquake releases the energy. And when the plates move away from each other a volcano (formed by a tectonic plate moving under another) can erupt to release magma to fill the crack.
Earth naturally releases and reheals, just as our miraculous human bodies do. And I feel collective energies running through my veins in much the same way, releasing and reweaving, activating, and anchoring. I have an agreement to share these in more seamless experience, rather than as a separate observation or understanding.
Division is inherent within wholeness and vice versa. Yet, when we only focus on division, we forget the natural state of Oneness that never left us even though we only chose to feed one side.
Whenever we divide, we weaken.
Division can’t go on forever, before something erupts from the core to heal the separation. Just as magma rises to fill in the crack, something new will need to rise to return our focus and understanding of consciousness back to a unified field of experience.
No layer is better or worse, but the key to how to return to that experience and knowing of Unity is hidden within each. The division may be needed to crack things open to the next phase, so that something new can emerge.
One question is, how much suffering are we willing to go through until we meet in the Middle Way? Another asks, is there a way to transmute the pain of division even while divide continues?
True, we can stand amidst it all and be the peace ourselves. This moves mountains for us and others when we come to know that space that exists within all spaces.
Yet, I feel that some of that also is asking each of us to stand more in the truth of who we really are and not being afraid of truth in general – to be ready for reveals on all fronts, as there will be many and we will need many of you to help others through them. You have prepared for this even if you think you don’t know how or are afraid of what others might think when you actually step forward into the light.
It’s hard to do, but we have each other and there are many others doing it too, I assure you.
It only takes 1% of the Earth collective to create the shift needed.
Only 1%.
I will continue forth, more fully embodying my Cosmic star essence that walked into this human body from birth, as this is where my true freedom lies. The profound experiences all throughout my life from child to adult have never waivered. Yet what used to only be behind closed doors has and will continue to step fully into light. I didn’t understand it back then, but I do now.
As I said, walking in the purity of my frequency, no matter what, is what I intend to continue doing. How that will look, I have not yet chosen, but I am reviewing things from all angles, including revisiting the invitation I received several years ago. For now, this disclosure is key to that promise of energy signature emanation I embodied as.
I’ve shared this before and I’ll share it again.
Yes, I’m a Bridge Creator for the Middle Way, but I am also a Cosmic Ambassador of harmony between all forms of consciousness on and off Earth, throughout the Cosmos and various Star Systems and Galaxies. That is who I truly am as an expression of All That Is. And it’s been both an incredible and challenging journey to contain, integrate, and walk that within human form, but, like many of you likely also feel who love with all of who you are, is worth the commitment.
I carry the seeds of Unity like each of you do. And I’m engaged in a form of Cosmic gardening, to cultivate, nurture, and activate those seeds into the blossoming of expanding and inclusive awareness, creative potential, and Cosmic love.
Forget what you think you remember, and remember what you’ve always known.
Regardless of what others think of me or anything I share, the truth is I TRULY care.
I love you.
What ever or who ever I am, let that truth sink into your heart. Lean into it.
From One to One, I love you.
June Energy Update with Lee
We welcome in June today and edge closer to nearly half way through 2021 already. I read this morning how the Earth is spinning at a faster rate than it has in the last 50 years and with the increase in everything, things are actually being sped up even though it feels like dragging your feet in the mud at times.
This is a big month for me personally, with some key things hitting mid-month and a threefold anniversary on the upcoming Summer Solstice, as well as a big life shift birthing that will begin come end of the month I sense, but as you’ll see from Lee’s update, it’s also energetically big for the collective.
I’m no longer surprised when I listen to Lee’s updates about the nearly exact synchronicity of themes and wording used to describe current energies and experiences that I have either just shared in a blog, have come through as messages and revelations in my personal life, or that I was about to share. We are all connected and share the web of energy waves. Whether we’re conscious of that or not, it’s happening and the echoes are confirmations to that unified field.
I think you’ll see what I mean in the upcoming blog I post, which I’ve been piecing together as it channels through over the last few days. There’s a lot involved with it and I’ve been told to take my time with it, as the frequency of anything put out is very key, especially these days.
The rest of what I add here is a summary in either exact or paraphrased words from Lee’s beautiful share, just in case you don’t listen to it.
I’ve added a few photos from recently, of the trail out back in the forest I journey often. They felt like the perfect reflection of June energy emerging and I particularly loved the dance of light and shadow playing together, as well as the rainbow lining the path below.
A rainbow bridge connecting the two in harmony.
Here begins info included in Lee’s share:
None of us are here to do this alone, as he says. “We’re all taking care of our patch of the garden…we’re all a whole group of gardeners creating a very different garden together.” – That felt like an echo to my last blog, The Many Faces of My Garden.
Pressure around restrictions has been felt, but we’re going to start feeling ease and see restrictions crumble faster because of the wave of people gathering together to do this.
Density is being lessened as far as its hold on people, partially because of our exhaustion with it all and being done with it – more people will be breaking out of the chrysalis and cocoon. Heart power is coming back out in a bigger way.
Revelations and things being revealed that have been lied about, the shadow that’s been hidden and misused will continue to come to light in the next few years. Things you thought or were told are going to have a hanged man result in showing you a whole other perspective you had hidden from you.
Lean into balancing yourself while revelation and reckoning continues on for the next few years.
Different beliefs over things is what’s caused war against others. You can still love one another and have different beliefs. This is where we need to focus and be with these feelings to make greater peace with the fact that different realities will be experienced by everyone and different layers of experience will be all around you the next few years. We need to reckon with how we feel and react, as that is going to play a huge part in it.
Most of you will be here now to birth the new, not to clean up or battle the old world. You need to create and have a creative practice in some way even if just behind closed doors.
Emergence of higher mind and clarity is on the rise around what you do and don’t resonate with and then taking action on that clarity. June presents support for visionary ideas on new things this month and activating forward direction and momentum.
Energy spikes will be lively and on the rise collectively with heightened experiencing. Lee recommends waiting out the spikes before rearranging your life. The amplified energy can feel like a super power in the moment, but let it settle so you have greater clarity from a more peaceful space where things will be smoother and cleaner when you do take action. Your body is slower than your soul to move, so let things settle and integrate, while you tend to your inner garden and allow a more natural mergence to flow.
Deep internal healing is leading to group awakening. More tenderness and vulnerability is awakening within people, taking us away from autopilot and robotic experiencing. It’s like relearning a whole new way of being like fresh curious children emerging from the cocoon womb.
Unification is on the rise even though we see and experience division. The awareness of feeling of the division indicates the process of change is in motion for group awakening.
The integration is happening from the inside out and life reviewing may be more prevalent right now to support new life directions. Upgrades will continue to be presented, so don’t be desperate to take the first offering.
Many of these themes I’ll be expounding on in my own personal share soon. But for now, here’s Lee:
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