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Tania Marie: When the Earth Moves, So Do We
I’m just dropping in briefly to send a wave of energetic support. From the conversations I’ve been having and what I’m witnessing, things feel especially intense right now—and you may be feeling that too.
If you’re curious about the astrological layer of what’s unfolding, Laura shared a thoughtful post on the April 17th New Moon in Aries. She dives into the rare alignment of a seven-planet stellium in Aries, along with other unusual influences that may resonate with something you’ve been sensing, questioning, or trying to understand.
Whether it brings confirmation or simply reflection, one thing feels clear—these are deeply transformational times (capital “T,” and yes, a little pun intended).
Interestingly, the external world has been mirroring that intensity. Just before this New Moon, we experienced a sudden two-day storm that dropped a surprising amount of snow right in the middle of warming spring weather. At our elevation, we received around 16–18 inches, with three to four feet in higher areas—something that extended the ski season a bit longer and brought some unexpected joy to those still on the slopes.
Then, the very next day, a 5.7 earthquake struck about 54 miles away. We felt it strongly, especially with the way our home is positioned, though thankfully there was no damage. Still, it served as a powerful reminder: shifts are happening—both around us and within us.
So yes, the idea of “literal and personal earthquakes” isn’t just metaphorical right now.
But as I shared with Laura, these shifts don’t have to dismantle everything. They can arrive in manageable ways—acting as meaningful markers that invite us to pause, recalibrate, and move energy through us with awareness.
And as I’ve reflected with a friend, returning to gratitude for what is—and trusting that life is ultimately working in our favor, even when it doesn’t appear that way—can shift our state more quickly than we might expect.
We’re all moving through this together. The more each of us can consciously work with what’s arising in our own lives, the more grounded and supportive we can be for one another.
If you feel called, take a moment to explore the three reflection questions at the end of Laura’s post—even if astrology itself isn’t something you usually resonate with.
At its core, this energy is about new beginnings. It opens a bold, initiating doorway—encouraging you to bring your desires into form, stand firmly in your individuality, and release patterns that no longer align. With the strong Aries influence, there’s a call toward honesty, courage, and forward movement—an invitation to trust yourself, speak your truth, and take aligned action toward what you feel deeply guided to create.
For me, this is showing up in very real ways—I’m literally stepping into a new journey in a few short days, while also navigating entirely new inner terrain.
So I’ll leave you with this:
Where in your life are you being called to move, shift, or begin again?
And if you’re feeling called to crystal support, there are still companions available from the release. Nine of the twelve have been homed—the partnership always aligns at the right time, place, and frequency. Orders available only until 4/19 if you want them before June.
Tania Marie: New Crystal Companions Release
As promised, I’ve listed the new release of Crystal Companions to share.
This collection includes twelve offerings, each intuitively time-released. After my journey through Egypt, I realized that every piece carries an essence of what I experienced and received—on many layers and levels.
It’s no surprise how deeply the echoes of my sacred temple and desert journey are energetically woven into these creations. Subtle impressions, openings, integrated healing, expansion, and moments of enrichment, realization, and integration gathered along the way live within their frequency to discover.
The collection features some of my longtime go-to crystals, a few newer favorites, and several rare offerings. You’ll find a mix of pendants and a variety of skulls—travelers, magickal child, shamans—with unique carvings including starseeds and even a bear.
Twelve in total, with something for everyone, and price points ranging from $40–$449.
Some may even make great gifts for loved ones.
My blog friends will get to feel into them first, as I’ll share them on other channels after a few days.
Please take a moment to read the section at the beginning of the link below for payment options. If you need any assistance, feel free to reach out.
Crystals & Crystal Skulls Available
A quick note: I’ll be leaving for five weeks soon. If you feel called to bring a piece home before I go, please place your order by 4/19 so I have time to wrap and ship it. Otherwise, shipping will resume in early June once I return.
I’ll see you then—wishing you a heart-expanding rest of April and May.
Tania Marie: Desert Heart ~ Woven Between Earth and Ether
It’s been a while since my last post, and while I don’t share in depth very often these days due to my recent blogging shift, I feel deeply called to reflect on my recent transformative journey through Egypt.
Especially now—when the collective noise feels loud and unrelenting—I’m reminded how powerful lived experience can be in showing us what else is possible.
And so, I offer this reflection from a place of emboldened embodiment.
This trip aligned in ways I couldn’t have planned. I left on a Pisces New Moon, arrived on the final night of Ramadan, stepped into my first full day on the Spring Equinox, and departed on a Libra Full Moon—a quiet wink from the universe, showing what unfolds when we listen.
And everything flowed from there. Every flight—three legs each way—arrived and departed early. Pathways opened. There was no trace of the conflict so many feared—only peace, warmth, and a deep sense of being held. When we are in the right place, at the right time, in the right energetic alignment, there is a grace that carries us.
I trusted that. I knew this journey was written long before I took the first step—and nothing was going to stop it short of true divine intervention.
I’m eternally grateful to Dave for supporting me in following my heart callings and path. When you communicate and support one another’s growth in relationships, then you open the doorway for unified evolution and deepening enrichment.
I continue to unwrap all that this spiritual journey has to offer and know I’ve only scratched the surface so far, since things are moment-to-moment these days because the path is an unknown gift awaiting us to accept and create.
The experience unfolded in two parts.
The first wove business and connection—time with Mody, whom I’ve talked about already in previous posts, weaving together shared work and intention.
What was meant to be just us, expanded effortlessly when Dara entered in perfect timing.
Though they had been online friends for over 20 years, she and Mody met for the first time on this trip, as she completed a two-month certification program in Egypt.
With our original retreat postponed, everything reorganized naturally into guiding an intimate private experience customized for her and combined with some key things I was hoping to experience and explore – the two merged perfectly, as I knew what would match her needs and desires.
Nothing forced—everything aligned.
That included Dara being vegan and sharing many aspects of spiritual service to others.
We were also joined by the quiet and protective soul of Mohammed, Mody’s dear friend, driver, and our faithful companion for our spiritual pilgrimage.
During this first half, we moved with the rhythm of Ramadan— sharing in Mody’s family, crossing seven hours of desert on a road trip to Luxor and onward to Aswan and Qena, wandering through the temples of Karnak, Dendera, Mut, and Isis—old and relocated – with deeply integrated personal and collective intention.
Museums, parks, cafés, city streets—threads of life woven with conversation, curiosity, and quiet work.
No itinerary to stick to, no urgency—just flow.
And in that openness, doors appeared: private moments, hidden spaces, and even rare permission for special access to closed areas to enter, heal, and meditate wherever I felt called.
I was recognized without words—seen by knowing eyes that reflected something ancient in me.
I was invited into sacred spaces not meant for everyone, where I received energy work that gently guided me back to myself—back home.
Although I didn’t go inside the Great Pyramid on this trip, I found something just as meaningful in simply being near it.
The pyramids of Giza became a quiet backdrop to several of my evenings and mornings—present during moments of stillness, reflection, and even meals.
There was something grounding about not needing to do anything but sit, soak them in, and connect. In their presence, I felt a calm, steady awareness that reminded me of my own sacred and divine nature—a quiet reflection of the great mystery within my own heart waiting to be discovered.
The second part softened into something more personal—an opening into receiving, presence, and being held by the experience itself.
Guided by a dear friend who had been our Egyptologist and spiritual guide last Fall, along with another two in our newly created family – our meal, logistics, camp, and safari driver team who added warmth, laughter, storytelling and cultural enrichment to the immersion, it became not just a personal spiritual journey, but created a sense of family and deepening connection.
We shared stories of our lives and families—I learned about their wives and children back home and heard plenty of funny tour tales.
There was laughter, music and dancing, rock and fossil hounding, sunrise and sunset fires, reflection, and a quiet sense of adventure as we explored each moment, traversing the vast sand dunes of time.
This second half dissolved into desert alone.
Fayoum Oasis—part retreat, part wild immersion.
Camping beneath vast skies, walking through ruins, caves, and shifting dunes.
Breathing in the lakes and waterfalls, while water baptized my feet and cleansed my soul.
Among fossils of ancient 35-40 million year old whales—remnants of a time when desert was ocean—I felt time stretch and fold.
There was even a mermaid fossil, blurring the line between worlds, and ancient shark’s teeth to be found—talismans of resilience, strength, power, and protection for the path ahead.
Desert foxes crossed my path.
Wind spoke.
Silence deepened.
The desert held me in its ancient sands, each grain a quiet reminder of the stardust I’m made of—fragments of something vast, something whole.
Time felt less like a line and more like a breath, this life just a brief shimmer within something infinite.
As the sand moved, it felt as though it was moving through me too—sifting through my veins, awakening a rhythm older than memory.
And in that pulse, steady and vast, my desert heart remembered how to beat in time with everything.
There were meditations, sound, energy shared and received (the latter being something rare for me and this was like no other)—and something softer, deeper: a return to presence. To the elements. To stillness. To the quiet that is somehow loud with life.
I experienced the depth of true living—rich connection, elemental presence, and a sense of timeless vastness. My senses sharpened, my body fully alive, as ancient energies moved through a profound resonance.
A remembering—of what it is to be fully here.
A remembering—of how precious this gift of life is as a divine blessing so often taken for granted.
Where others projected worry, I chose trust. I stayed rooted in my own knowing. This journey reaffirmed something simple but profound: what we’re shown is never the whole story—truth is something we feel, explore, and come into relationship with ourselves.
Egypt met me in grace—in beauty, rhythm, and presence. Not a single moment of fear or doubt touched my experience.
There were unexpected turns, quiet magick, and even a rare storm—rain, thunder, lightning, turning to hail—sweeping through Egypt and leaving behind a double rainbow.
Gone as quickly as it came, like a quiet reminder – life responds when we are in flow with it.
And then there was the three consecutive nights of orbs around the desert moon sky.
I could say so much more about the details I saturated my presence into, but what remains is this—
When we trust what calls us, and follow it fully, life opens in ways we could never force… only receive.
I returned from an extraordinary journey that can be summed up in feeling with one word for me: alive
For me, feeling alive is a merging.
It’s the quiet electricity in my veins after returning from something that changed me in ways I can’t fully name—only feel. A journey that didn’t just take me somewhere new, but returned me to myself. If I had to gather it all into one word, it would be this: alive.
Not as a concept, not as a status—but as a sensation that hums beneath the surface of everything.
There are those who move through life anchored almost entirely in the physical. They chase sensation, experience, achievement—touching, tasting, building, consuming. And there is beauty in that, in honoring the body and the world it can perceive. But when the physical becomes everything, something essential is missed: the unseen current, the deeper meaning, the quiet knowing that life is not just happening to us, but through us.
And then there are those who drift to the other extreme—seeking only the spiritual, as if transcendence requires escape. They reach upward, inward, beyond… sometimes forgetting the miracle of being here at all. The body becomes secondary, even burdensome, instead of the exquisite instrument it is. The senses dull. The richness of touch, of flavor, of creation—of being human—gets left behind in pursuit of something “higher.”
But alive—truly alive—is neither of these in isolation.
It is the meeting point.
It is spirit, embodied.
It is breath filling lungs that belong to both flesh and something infinite.
It is awareness moving through a body that can feel the sun, taste sweetness, create beauty, and still recognize that all of it carries meaning beyond the surface.
To feel alive is to let the physical world be sacred. To let the spiritual world be tangible. To stand in the center and say yes to both.
After this journey, I don’t feel split between realms. I feel woven together. Like something in me has remembered that I am not meant to choose between earth and ether—I am meant to be the place where they meet.
In the heart bridge.
And in that remembering, there is a fullness.
A presence.
A kind of joy that doesn’t need explanation.
Just one word.
Alive.
And all of this is stirring something vast within me—an evolution I can’t ignore, an invitation to expand beyond the edges I once called home.
It brushes up against everything familiar, every place I’ve grown comfortable, every truth I thought I had already arrived at. It can feel unsettling—like something is being undone.
But maybe it’s not a threat at all.
Maybe it’s an invitation.
Because growth and change can feel scary—like they’re asking us to leave something behind. But change is natural… it arrives whether we open the door or not. And it doesn’t come to take—it comes to give.
To enrich what already is, to deepen it, to sweeten it into something more.
We fear the unknown—but if we could see what waits on the other side, we wouldn’t hesitate so much – we’d want to walk toward it.
Or maybe even leap into the unknown.
Trusting our wings will carry us safely.
And yet… that fear has a purpose.
It stretches us.
It opens us.
It creates the space for wisdom to emerge and for the heart to expand beyond what it once believed it could hold.
So maybe this is what’s really happening—An invitation to rise into the highest path my own frequency has been quietly holding space for.
To step into what has been waiting for me to meet it.
To return home—to something deeper, truer, whole.
To complete cycles.
To soften old patterns.
To heal.
Because healing doesn’t begin in force—it begins in permission.
Permission to choose peace.
And peace…it doesn’t live somewhere out there.
It begins within—in the heart, in the soul, in the quiet spaces we often avoid.
But if we let it—that quiet doesn’t empty us…it makes us whole.
And somewhere within that stillness, we begin to understand grace—not as something given, but as something we learn to embody in our own way.
Thank you for being here during this time of evolution on Earth.
Thank you for the courage you contribute to our collective spirit.
And thank you for taking the time to journey with me—listening, feeling, deepening, and expanding together through the energies available to us all.
Dave and I are about to embark on a five-week travel adventure in just over a week. Before we head out, a beautiful group of crystal offerings will be released that have messaged this is their time amidst the current collective energy stream. This unfolds Monday, 4/13—stay tuned.
Tania Marie: There’s Beauty in all Phases of the Journey
We’re just about to embark again – duration unknown – to do some caretaking. We’ll be making a road trip out of it and breaking up our drive with an overnight in Mammoth to hike before continuing on to my birth place of Southern California. We’ll return before or by Thanksgiving.
Leading up to this we’ve been able to enjoy some walks down Summer’s lane, as the weather provided us wonderful opportunities to immerse in our beloved activities.
Weather has continued to swing back and forth, providing us extended days filled with hiking, biking, and even a perfect kayaking day.
Just look at these amazing conditions on the crystalline waters of Lake Tahoe.
In between it all we’ve been handed some reminders of the actual season we’re in, mixed with cold, rain, frost, and even snow at the mountain tops.
Temperatures seem to be dipping just as we leave and looks like a more pre-winter chill will be in the air upon return.
It’s all brought up the mushrooms and even this field of giant white beauties.
As I, and all of us, go through our own unique and profound transitions, so, too, does our Earth Mother.
Leaving behind the warmth and brilliant bosom of blooms, she embraces the mysterious darkness and elegant cloaks of fallen wisdom, making way for frosted shawls of wintry wonder.
Seasons change and so do we.
There is much to both let go of and to remember.
The light of day fast surrenders to the dark of night so that we experience more connection to the rhythms of Earth and Cosmos in harmony.
This is a celestial event of spirit in flesh, where deepening sacredness overflows from the cauldron of our hearts.
It can be illuminating when we surrender and have the courage to retrieve what’s been forgotten.
Our vulnerability is empowering and clarifying.
Yesterday, we came upon a sight that stopped my heart in its tracks. I did take a photo to remember it, but won’t share it since it would be emotionally traumatizing for some.
We found a perfect wild cottontail rabbit body on the side of the trail, without her head. There was no blood, no signs of anything except a clean cut of a missing head. I picked her up and buried her, totally mesmerized by her beauty and perfection, and the feeling of her sweet fur, thumpers, and tail. It has been a while since I’ve held a rabbit and of course I identify with them.
Without going into personal details of this, I’ll simply state that it reflected to me a renewal of self and transformation of identity.
Later, I was curious to look this up and had my feelings confirmed, along with these symbolisms: death of the old self (way of thinking/being), a “silent” beginning (one that is embodied rather than spoken), living even more from intuition/instinct/feeling rather than intellect/overthinking, and even a sacrifice for the new self.
Autumn Equinox brought equanimity within and without and of all opposites that light and dark might reflect to each of us.
And when things stand with conscious awareness of this reflection, the sweet intricacy of every thread becomes as valued as the whole web of All That Is.
It is a most miraculous and beautiful thing to exist indeed.
Every day I feel immense gratitude for the air I breathe and the beauty all around me. I don’t take for granted that there are varying experiences across the globe and that what I am able to see, feel, and immerse in is an astounding gift.
It is this very reason I share these gifts, so that they might touch, inspire, or bring some level of hope and belief in some way to whom ever needs it in the moment they see these windows or read my words.
We are bridges for one another and that is most beautifully made possible through the vortex of our hearts – the gateway to harmonic convergence and our multidimensional potential.
Enjoy these reflective windows into my garden of life ~ our days here in the alpine region of the Sierra Nevada Mountains, our recent Taurus Full Supermoon, a harvest of some Autumn blooms (I’ll be harvesting a ton of lavender soon), and the bed of plants and blooms in their transition.
There’s beauty in all phases of the journey.
And here’s a sweet peak at two new, magickal crystal beings that are now available:
Crystal Friends for All Seasons
Tania Marie: Deep like the Ocean & Light as a Feather ~ A Transformative Journey In Egypt
While the golden womb of Autumn cradles my body and soul upon laying my feet back in the alpine realms once again, I feel held in the perfect embrace of patient unfolding.
Not more than five days of being back and seasons are already shifting with our first snow falling on the 14th of last week.
This is the earliest we can remember receiving so much snow, bringing six inches overnight to our 6600 elevation and waking the next morning to a stark contrast from the desert sands of Egypt we just returned from.
Nature helps you to know your own resiliency and surrender in full presence to the fleeting moment, which is all we ever really have.
It’s been an incredible several weeks and these golden masterpieces of enchanted nature artistry, mirror the alchemy in my meditations since returning, as golden light energy has been a continued theme pouring through me.
Even my garden has turned up the volume on Autumn magick with abundant roses, lavender, echinacea, and carnations greeting me home.
That is, until the snow hit, but weather is swinging back to Autumn once again, while the white mountaintops hold the anchor for the future we walk toward.
Alongside settling in and taking my time to unwrap all that has happened, we’ve returned to hiking our familiar routes to breathe in the crisp air of fresh starts.
I went to the mountaintop with questions and what I found was everything I brought within me already. Answers are in our own hands.
I’ve been receiving an increase of more light and frequency codes since returning and tuning in with threads woven anew in my heart. These I can feel pulse through and the experience is an expansion and DNA shifts rearranging within.
Twice, I was given vision of key codes that slowly materialized in front of me as very intricate golden symbols, one piece at a time coming together to form them. They are almost like cosmic sigils holding light and sound that instantly recalibrate.
But I get ahead of myself, as a short rewind is in order to unpack some of the sacred journey a group of us gathered for in Egypt at the turn of seasons bookended by a New Moon Solar Eclipse and a Full Moon.
And before doing that, I wanted to send a huge thank you to all of you who were anchoring energies back in your own sacred spaces. We could feel you all weaving and holding this powerful gridded tapestry united with us and in fact heard from some people about exact alignments and visions that were unfolding at the same time as our group was going through things.
As you likely have guessed, this will be a long share even though I’m not sharing everything, which includes a lot of photo captures since some of you are more visual and they’ll tell the story even if you never read the words. It’s hard to place limits on things like photos, or even an expression, as that just doesn’t feel to be my path. Plus, being this is one of my most favorite places on Earth, I can’t keep a lid on the magick. And since I know some of you are thinking about visiting Egypt, and/or may never have the chance, this is a way to share the energy and you can travel there through your heart and meditations.
So, if you’re interested in the journey, you might want to grab your favorite beverage and wait until you have a moment to sit with this or skim it the way your heart guides.
I’ve been wondering how to convey things about this experience, but trusted that the way would organically show up once I was ready to sit down and the energy was ready to be written. What I know is that it’s being guided as coded weavings, rather than a detailing of everything that happened. The same goes for the photos I’ll be sharing, as you can imagine that three weeks with an artist’s eye and an energy guided heart would result in a thousand or so captures.
The result is an energy snapshot that pulls together the essence of this trip from my perspective. I also hope to impart some helpful information that might be supportive to anyone who I know is also wanting to experience Egypt at some point. Perhaps the shares will mirror and/or underscore things you were/are going through in coinciding, energetic expressions relative to your life and path during the same time.
It’s been a while since I last shared, but before we headed off to Egypt you might recall that Dave and I went camping with three of his high school buddies, one of our mutual friends, and four dogs – this equating to me hanging with five guys, three male dogs, and one female dog for four nights and three full days.
We were originally planning to backpack the backcountry here in the Tahoe area, but rapid weather shifts had us camping in Sequoia National Park in communion with Earth’s guardians and wisdom keepers instead.
This turned out to be a potent change and our last minute resiliency aligned us with some very grounded, ancient energies of the elder Giants that would support the journey ahead.
Embracing change is always key, as our higher selves know what is most harmonious for us.
This trip was relaxing, energizing, deepening, and mysterious with back-to-back long, climbing hikes of 7 to 8 mile treks each day, lots of nature gifts including feathers, quartz, and even finding some potent charm symbols left behind (see photo below) that were buried in the dirt of our campground that was literally a giant graveyard of up to 3000 year old Sequoia stumps rooted in the Earth (they were logged many years ago). Gathering around campfires every morning and night were our ritual, and look at the perfect phoenix and dragon that showed up in the flames one night (see photo below).
The energy and wisdom was still lingering from the energetic footprints left behind from these once towering masters. We were in a more remote area of the park and one of the hikes we did is the home of the highest elevation grove of Sequoias still remaining that are around 1500+ years old.
We were visited by a doe and two fawns one morning, a doe on one of the hikes, and experienced the strangest eerie animal calls and cries in the night that I researched may have been a small family of foxes or a pair of them. I was also visited by what I feel was likely a fox in the night that came by my side sniffing me out and pushing their head under the tent toward me. On our way home, I saw a beautiful dead fox on the road and this for me felt like a confirmation. So much fox energy was interesting and telling of magickal transformations at hand.
Our time with the Sequoias kicked off on the morning of the Pisces Full Blood Moon Total Lunar Eclipse, which added to the full circle of Egypt’s trip ending on the Aries Full Harvest Moon.
I had a few days relaxing at my parent’s house after the ancient Sequoias where Chamuel (the master Lemurian resides that I gave my mom years ago to anchor a grid between us) and then we were off to continue in the vein of that energy – returning to my ancient roots in Egypt.
I did keep a short journal of my experiences and thoughts, but I am only going to highlight some things, along with the main takeaways from it all.
As mentioned, the first two weeks would be a tour-led, larger group that combined people I knew with new connections and the last week with a smaller, closer knit group that journeyed with my dear friend Mody. In each case, the adventure bringing me in heart connection with sisters and brothers that made the journey rich.
This trip was very different from my previous two in 2007. Those two were at a different time in terms of world scene dynamics, and my personal spiritual growth journey.
In particular contrast, my first trip to Egypt was mostly private, which included a group of only five and pretty much experiencing every site with a private entrance free of anyone outside the group, or nearly no other tourists. I also went through the biggest physical and internal shifts, as a first trip can have the ability to ignite in a place like this.
The focuses on this trip also had a different lean that supported all of that for the people that joined, which wove together a mix of some private entrances with the colorful tapestry.
This trip was very actively “collective,” which I sensed from the get-go when accepting the invitation. There were a lot of group dynamics that were always shifting and morphing, and a lot of outside influences as well with greater contact with others.
All perfectly suited to what is currently needed and where my next steps are headed, and aligned with what I know to be my forte to work with. An active classroom for embodying peace within chaos at times, which we are all being provided opportunity to harness. This is true empowerment, as we will always be moving in and out of different experiences in life and the defining piece of that is how you navigate and reflect a resonance of your highest desire and intention within it.
This is the shift point.
Your power.
Your choice.
And what you choose and embody acts as an anchor and bridge for others.
So, while this trip was different than 2007’s journeys, the common thread for me underscored what I already knew – how Egypt is a heart center holding some of the greatest keys of awakening and empowerment for me in this lifetime in terms of supporting what I came here for.
And all that I can say is that I always feel my most powerful while I’m there, and after returning with codes I retrieved, these continue to infuse my days and life with that same power, where ever I am. It’s also one of the key spots where I know I continue to have roles with direct facilitating in collective ways.
We each have power spots and heart land areas across the globe that speak to us in unique ways. They hold frequencies that activate and initiate something within us when we merge our resonance within these soul ley lines. It is like a spark that ignites and transcends time and space, bringing us back into the wholeness and remembrance of who we are, layer by layer.
In returning to Egypt, I continue to receive new initiations into different and deeper personal gifts.
Egypt is not my only resonance, but I’ve experienced it as the most dramatic in vibrational frequency for my personal evolution and where my soul feels greatly cradled in familiarity and harmonic convergence. Hence, it’s no wonder I return so much and know I will again.
Places like Egypt hold an extremely heightened vibrational frequency that will touch each person who visits in a different way. The energy is that of an awakening on all levels, but this isn’t always experienced in the way our minds would like to dictate it.
It stirs everything within you to crack open and pour forth, both shadow and light, without filters as a means of helping you to embody greater wholeness. And it asks of us to be most vulnerable and embracive to all of that, experiencing it with greatest compassion, integrity, and humbleness – but always expressed in ways that you are ready for and that you, alone, choose how deeply you want to dance with.
Everyone’s experience will be different.
For some it works on subtle levels and small shifts that will likely go unnoticed unless deep presence is nurtured around your days to those changes that occur during and after your time in an area like Egypt.
For some it may manifest as physical symptoms, like a purge and cleanse while things are recalibrating and can be more intense based on filters or fight, or how deeply the energy has reached in your healing and integration evolution.
For some it may manifest as outward projections playing out, emotional outbursts or flows, irritability, or mental, emotional, and/or physical discomfort, as energy heightens the areas in need of most love and compassion within us.
For some it may manifest as ecstatic bliss, heightened euphoric feelings and senses, and overall increase in heart opening.
For some it may manifest as a kundalini awakening, opening of spiritual gifts, feeling new sensations or seeing visions, sudden epiphanies, out of body experiences, a deepened relationship to your higher self and the All/Source/God, etc.
There is no one or right way and it could be a combination of many of these or a variety of other things altogether.
All this to say, everyone’s experience is different in accordance to what each person is in agreement to accept, and where you can release attachment and judgment around how it needs to be, not compare it to someone else’s experience, and simply surrender to the hidden gifts however they manifest, the more you can support your unique experience to provide the most benefit for you.
I saw all of these variations play out during this trip and instantly for me I experienced this as a giant reflection of the collective world scene.
How perfect and not surprising.
And not surprising to me, also, why each of us were there.
My own role became clear immediately.
I also saw reflections of this energy dynamic on the road, which included the experience of driving and traffic, which is quite the feat there – the only other place I’ve seen as a wilder ride in that regard is Bangkok, Thailand.
I noticed how even my nervous system and initial reactions the first couple of days to the highways completely shifted into a place of surrender, peace, and equilibrium, as I worked with the energies consciously.
For me, I use what shows up as a way to both understand the bigger picture, as well as train myself how to put into practice tools that can support greater consciousness around how to shift energies. It’s an apprenticeship of spirit in body learning how to merge the gifts of each in every moment.
It takes practice, presence, and patience. And it’s not without challenge, but it does get easier with conscious intention brought to each moment. In such a power spot on the globe, like Egypt, everything can be heightened with extra clarity and extra potential, providing exact insights and opportunities for how we as individuals have the ability to work energetic dynamics that can ripple out.
Much of my experience on this trip was holding and shifting energies with intense presence. And interestingly, despite a very full, on-the-go, and decreased level of my usual sleep preferences, I was alert, found myself refreshed after smaller windows of rest, and able to sustain high levels of energy on a constant basis that I used both for myself and toward collective workings.
After sleeping just an hour or two, I would often wake thinking that I’d slept a full night, only to be surprised I still had more hours to sleep. Time was skewed for me throughout the journey, and I had no idea what day it was either.
I did have my own personal things, aside from the group-oriented energies, that I was tuning into and processing as well. And I figured out a way to manage both, which took a lot of focus.
We were all engaged in both individual and collective work on this trip, whether known or not, but many of us realized how key it was JUST being there with the frequency we embodied, with specific souls and their frequencies, and in the specific sacred sites with their frequencies at this particular time.
Sometimes we overthink things and think there’s all these specifics we should be doing, when the mere fact of showing up and saying “yes” to a time and place and partnership, can in and of itself be the courageous shift point and key code for change. This may be the only, and yet most potent, reason for your being called there – to Egypt, or any other power spot on the globe or particular experience in a specific place, time, and group of people.
I’m grateful for all who showed up on this journey with the myriad of gifts and resonance they reflected and embodied. Each piece, integral to the rest. Each with an important mission and role. Each bringing forth exactly the ingredients that made alchemy possible.
We don’t all have the same trajectory, mission, desire, or intention. So, I only speak for myself always as to how I experience something. Every creative expression is valuable in how it is chosen to be experienced and my truth is that alone. The key is being able to flow the energy through and let go of judgement.
I experienced many incredible visions during meditations, messages, reveals, and what I would call active initiations into my next level path.
There were many miraculous things that unfolded along the days and some extraordinary insights, openings, and “downloads,” not to mention some beautiful and powerful connections made.
That is the other thing that happens for me in Egypt. I always encounter some of the most powerful soul connections I have with others and they always awaken something bigger as a takeaway for the next part of my journey.
I’m continuing to unwrap this and especially one in particular that has revealed things about myself that beautifully challenge me to new levels of honing my gifts and how that expresses outwardly.
But more simply stated, there was so much we got to experience together on this trip over three weeks, which included a journey of the human myriad of experiences with opportunities to alchemize empowerment, a reflection of who we really are and what we’re capable of to embrace through each other, and an extensive breadth of touching in at a multitude of sacred sites that assisted these hinge points from unconscious to conscious embodiment.
Even if time was short at some places, the mere fact we stood in the timeless sands of these multi-dimensional doorways put the code into the key of life.
I saw all of the places I did the first two trips to Egypt, but so many more new ones I never had. And I know that is by divine design that some footsteps should be retraced and others newly made.
But all of this set us up for very full days that called for high presence with all of the energies, as you’ll see below from some of the things we immersed in – rich indeed.
Dave and I arrived a couple of days earlier than the rest of the group, which gave us opportunity to immerse in some cool excursions that our leader put together last minute.
This included some secret expeditions to places off limits to others like the Mysterious Staircase and Caves (with only one other traveler and our tour leader whom we assisted with some sacred geometry measurements) where the energies were potent and discoveries were telling, as well as getting to ride ATVs (my first time) through the desert to see the Lost Pyramids.
At the Mysterious Staircase that we gained secret access to, Dave took a photo from above of me and our guide, Larry, descending the steps to the bottom and although he could see us in the camera lens when snapping the photo, we were not present in the actual photo that was taken. Mysterious indeed!
I didn’t add that photo, as you wouldn’t be able to compare it to what was actually seen through the camera lens by Dave, but this blew his mind – not something easy to do.
And while in the caves exploring, I heard a rustle and felt a presence in one of the dark caverns that sent chills (receiving a vision about this as well) and later found an incredibly beautiful and translucent piece of flint I may make into a pendant.
Similar oddness took place at another off limits area where the Khufu Causeway is, just after I’d been led to a secret pyramid reflection (from no obvious source) through a doorway that only showed up with precise sun rays casting shadow. Then would disappear as you can see from the second photo of me on the stairway where the pyramid would come and go on the slanted support wall of the stairs.
I felt immediately that something was hidden there (two others confirmed the feeling) and not long after the three of us went into the area I was led to, did we get shooed off by guards.
Larry was always getting us into secret places and having adventures you just don’t normally get a chance to do. Like this walk through the alabaster field, escorted by police on camels who didn’t get the memo that we had permission to be there. All was well…it was just a fun and wild experience from start to end.
Other excursion surprises that were firsts for me, too, included an oh-so-magickal, sunrise hot air balloon ride over Luxor’s sugarcane fields with views of the Valley of the Kings and Colossi of Memnon.
And swimming in the Nile at the original site of the Isis temple ruins still standing, to immerse in the powerful sacred feminine energies.
Most of us just jumped right in with all of our clothes on and spent time connecting with the doorways of magick felt in the stone, waters, and the energetic field here. The water isn’t always this high here, but we got to experience it as a full immersion rather than just walking out to them at ankle’s depth.
Both were some of the major highlights for me and deserve extra photo showcasing.
The following summary will also receive a more extensive photo montage to give you a flavor for the energies experienced.
We also climbed inside and tuned into the energies of other pyramids besides the Great Pyramid this time that I hadn’t before (Step, Bent, Red, Menkaure Pyramids), visited a bunch of new-to-me tombs at various locations, several tombs in the Valley of the Kings, multiple temples along the Nile, the Unfinished Obelisk, mystical and amazing Serapeum of Saqqara that induced a journeying for me, spent lots of time exploring and discovering all around the Giza Plateau in great depth over three different days (including an impromptu sound healing I was asked to do in a tomb), walked the alabaster field through the desert around the Plateau with special permission (from Ashraf, Director of the Giza Plateau whom we had opportunity to meet and hear a talk from) after the Plateau closed, tuned in to the energy within many mosques (including the oldest) I never explored before, visited a special Coptic church where Joseph, Mary and Jesus stayed during their journey through Egypt where several of us had heart deepening experiences, enjoyed two authentic, made-with-love Egyptian meals shared at home with Mody’s and Mohamed’s families, a day in Alexandria visiting Kom El Shoqafa Catacombs (considered one of the 7th Wonders of the Middle Ages), Serapeum and its underground tunnels including a healing sanctuary and library (this Daughter Library is said to once hold books from the original Great Library of Alexandria), and Citadel of Qaitbay, visited the old Egyptian Museum of Cairo, National Museum of Egyptian Civilization (with incredible 22 royal mummies featuring the most well known ancient kings and queens of Egypt), the new Grand Egyptian Museum (GEM), visited the Pharaonic Village (a living museum created on the Nile to exhibit ancient Egyptian life), took a gondolier boat on Ain el-Sira Lake at sunset, spent a full day at a private resort in El Soukna on the Red Sea, enjoyed meals on Nile dinner boats (including a private one that Mody secured for us – we did two Instagram Lives from atop the decks), relaxed a few days on a Nile Cruise to explore temples, visited markets (two of us were graciously treated there by a sweet family and enjoyed their warm Egyptian hospitality – the wife had lived in Texas!), went to Mody’s workplace, and even visited some places twice. Mody was incredible at getting us into places and having them open just for us everywhere with his connections, but we surprised him with an early birthday party complete with mini cakes and a gift extravaganza to kick off the last week.
Side note: There were cross-overs of Mary and Mary Magdalene energy that came through and tied into a lot of the energies woven throughout our time in Egypt at some of the sites. I had a vision at the healing sanctuary of the Serapeum of Alexandria of Mary coming through there, for example. And of course the Coptic church was strongly streaming her energies for several of us who experienced a rush of emotions through heart activations.
And there was more, of course. The reason I mention this briefly is because there felt to be a full circle to all of the energy I experienced on the ten week trip Dave and I had in Europe this past Spring where so much of the same energy and visions had been experienced. Like with our Sequoia trip with the Giant elders there, our trip in Europe was also an integral part of what culminated in Egypt and laid the groundwork for the work. This even included the crossover of immersing by the Mediterranean Sea, which we got to do both there and in Alexandria.
There is no way to ever share everything and even if I did, they are my experiences alone. But I touch on some things because I know they will resonate with others and the energy you are working with or have been experiencing at the same time. We are all connected and doing this together. The energies are connected as well and not separate or isolated by any humanmade division.
As mentioned, we did get some wonderful private times in some places, which I was grateful for. This included two hours in the Great Pyramid, inside the Bent Pyramid after it closed where Mody got us in, inside various tombs, in a special room of the Temple of Abydos to meditate, and by divine design (like in the chamber of the Red Pyramid, a short window at closing of Dendera, and other rooms within temples) – people cleared out leaving us alone in several other locations when it was needed. Not to mention, Mody was the “king” getting us into places everywhere and even opening up places that were closed just for us, including a huge Nile dinner boat for our group alone when it wasn’t open, and a room and spot at a private beach resort on the Red Sea all to ourselves.
My soul relished in our full beach day immersing in the sea, sand, and sun.
Can you say “revitalize?!”
It was a way to cleanse and relax from all the energy work over the past weeks and fill my cup, along with quenching my mermaid heart with warm liquid silk, crystalline waters.
Mmmmmmm, it felt so good.
We were spoiled indeed.
And so, this trip had elements of balance weaving some alone times between all of the very active times.
And speaking of active energy, another thing I want to mention for people interested in exploring Egypt for the first time, besides the various ways that energy can be experienced individually, is that if you do venture into the pyramids be prepared for what could be challenging situations for some.
There are long shafts you need to climb down and up for long durations in some case. Some pyramids are quite rigorous in the inner system of tunnels where you will be bent over the whole way going forward or backward (your choice), and in some cases crawling, and other cases ascending and descending many steps, and enduring heat and sweating along with the physical stamina needed and passing people up and down, if it’s not a private entrance. It’s totally doable, but some people might have claustrophobia or physical challenges to take into account that may make it harder, not as enjoyable, or not an option.
Most people came out of the first day’s experience in the Great Pyramid with extremely sore muscles for several days in their quads and hamstrings from the climbing. You also need to be mindful of your head the whole way too.
There were some people who opted out of going into the other pyramids after having done one or two because it was too much for them.
It’s an individual experience and even the energies moving through you or that day, can have an effect. This can also be true, actually, for any of the sites you visit since the energies are potent and affect everyone differently and can show up at different times even if you feel great one day.
It’s not just physical challenges that can present themselves, but one might also be challenged with facing shadow aspects within. Light and dark are connected experiences. In order to journey upward, you must also journey downward.
Darkness illuminates the light.
Light casts a radiance on the dark.
On our trip there were times when some people listened to their own inner guidance and opted out of certain experiences the group was doing, or desired other experiences depending on how they felt or what they believed was more aligned for them. So exercising your own inner compass to navigate the experience is always your choice.
For me personally, I felt invigorated and moved through the pyramid shafts quickly. With our alpine hiking at high elevation and ascending inclines daily, this provides us with training that makes these kinds of experiences a lot easier. But I find the whole thing very exciting and integral to my process and the journey it takes to receive the pieces I need, so I already start off with a motivational drive. They are home for me, the same way I absolutely thrive in higher alpine elevations where not everyone else experiences that same kind of ease. I absolutely love it. And even though I can have claustrophobic tendencies with some things, this doesn’t play out in these spaces for me. I would take on any of the pyramids or challenging obstacles (which may even include areas saturated in deep, root, shadow energy) because of the enlivened vitality I felt and because of the opportunity to work with energies at a level here that you normally don’t have opportunity to experience. That said, I did sweat like crazy (as if I was in my own sauna) and even more so probably than others because of the amount of energy I move, along with the physical exertion, but this also felt like a part of the initiation and purifying for me. You’ll know what’s right for you.
But what definitely seemed to be right for our group, was how all of this trip lined up without anyone planning it.
The night of the Virgo New Moon partial Solar Eclipse was our private two hour entrance into the Great Pyramid, which was at the start of this trip rather than being the conclusion of it like it was on my first two trips.
This felt to really crack everyone open from the get-go.
And, we explored the Giza Plateau for the second time and entered Menkaure Pyramid on the Autumn Equinox the following day – the first time being on the 20th and a third time in the last week before leaving just after the Aries Full Moon.
Before entering Khufu’s Pyramid for our private two hour entrance between 7 and 9pm, we noted a large bird hovering over the top of the pyramid. This instantly brought back the experience from my second trip when the people standing outside the entrance said they saw Horus hovering over the top of the Great Pyramid while we were doing our healing ceremonies inside for 9-9-9.
On this trip, we got to explore the King’s and Queen’s Chambers within the Great Pyramid, as well as the subterranean chamber – the latter being a first for me and so potent. I feel this subterranean chamber connecting so deeply with the collective root energies and shadow aspects to retrieve and transmute. Again, this being a perfect reflection in my opinion, of how this trip was so collectively focused in terms of what showed up and even the places we found ourselves in that represented much needed energies we were there to work with.
Being in the Great Pyramid is always pivotal for me and this time was no exception. I won’t go into all details, but I had another of my profound experiences doing a sound channeling while laying in the sarcophagus – receiving at the same time energy and sound from our amazing spiritual guide, Sam.
I never know what is going to show up and I don’t go into anything with expectations or intentions…I simply allow and follow the guidance that shows up in the moment.
The lead up had been sacred – including supporting others as they laid in the sarcophagus and my assisting another young lady in the group with her first sound channeling (I had prepped her the day before for this), which was hugely opening for her as it had been for me the first time. I also joined with Dave as he, too, went through an initiatory experience in this alchemical space. Dave and I noted, later, how we had a moment where our tones hit the same note/harmonic at a given point in his chanting and sound healing.
Side note: I always paid attention to how I was guided with sound when assisting others or in any of the temples and not simply follow what others were doing. I would receive messaging as to when to keep silent and hold the frequency via embodiment alone, when to tone softly, loudly, and whether or not to join someone. (I’ll get back to a message around this that I received in Abydos later.) I was always conscious around being supportive and not overpowering…aligning my frequencies or energy in a way that assisted the highest to come forth from others.
For example, with the young lady I mentioned, I remained silent, but held her hands before she started and I stood at her feet holding a supportive, grounded point (I get chills sharing that) channeling all of the energy flow that could be assistive to her feeling her own empowerment and trusting that. And she did beautifully! I hugged her after and shared how proud I was of her. She teared up from the experience. With Dave, I wanted to support his own voice in this power chamber, and yet also felt it key to join a little to be in partnership, as well as to add healing frequencies. Every moment, I was tuning in to what was of highest good.
Also, at times, sacred areas we visited would give me message that sound was not required and this made sense, as I would drop into seeing parallel realities happening there at the same time we stood in the place. The boundaries between timelines disappeared and I would witness what was taking place in these areas, in real time, and the figures I saw would acknowledge me and invite me, yet would also let me know when something was not needed.
But back to the Great Pyramid on the night of the New Moon Eclipse…This is a brief summary of one part of my experience there….I ended up being the last person to receive and share from this space of laying in the sarcophagus and it was very different from my first time moving sound through me. Sam was facilitating the healing session, first starting off with adding his own toning and energy work to shine a guiding light and then allowing each person to do as they were called while he supported and chimed in with that.
The first time I shared my sound channeling in the King’s Chamber had been a very angelic-like resonance that reverberated. This time a profound power was unleashed from the very depths of my essence, but carried more than just my own, as a channeling of light codes came through. This came after a lead-up of things I had been guided to do within the chamber and after seeing what I call the “Eyes of God or the All” on the chamber walls and breathing as One with them where I sat meditating at the foot of the sarcophagus.
The frequencies that came through me were a culmination of collective parts of the whole I had been guided to retrieve from within the chamber’s “time” capsule by walking barefoot around the perimeter in the dark and touching all directions and corners of the inner space, collective parts retrieved from all who was within the space itself, and this included myself – light and shadow all transmuted within the codes that moved through from my higher heart. The top of the pyramid opened as I laid there holding my labradorite over this same energy chakra – the very one I held the first time in Egypt, along with my Nestor crystal rabbit from then too – and stars dripped golden codes into my higher heart and this emanated forth from my heart and throat and out through a sound channeling.
I would like to add a note here about another way that being in our essence can shift things. My physical body alone has always had a more shallow way of breathing, I breathe quickly when exercising, and breathing exercises have always been different for me than others. However, when I am purely channeling sound, my lung capacity breaks all physical barriers and I am able to hold very long notes with sustained power behind it – a feat that can only be reckoned to being in essence and something miraculous happening when dropping into that seat of power within that we all have awaiting our embrace.
And hence, this experience on the eve of the New Moon in the King’s Chamber was incredibly electric and revitalizing…everything was moved through the sound at decibels that would seem uncharacteristic for me.
To kick off the trip with this, definitely laid the groundwork for unfolding experiences.
What I received as message later, at one of my favorite spots – the powerful Temple of Abydos -where the above famous hieroglyphs reside (check them out) and the magickal Osirion (also above) stands – during my walking meditation through the inner rooms there, was this: “You are the music” and I reflected that, “I am the music”. (I also had some other powerful realizations and training that took place while in Abydos – a very resonant and key temple for me)
This was an instant activation or inner recalibration, as I felt a huge click take place and my heart had an emotional response to the new landing of this truth in embodiment.
So going back to what I was sharing before, this speaks to me of how whether or not I actually move sound through my throat chakra, the frequencies are still exuded by presence of embodiment and purity of intention. A cosmic song is held within our energetic field and shines louder as we drop resistance and barriers of fear. Silence is both golden and loud.
Sound healing is a major component for Ancient Egyptians in terms of healing and spiritual balance. Ancient practices centered on vibrational frequencies, energy, and consciousness held in these mysteriously constructed pyramids, temples, and spaces that act as gateways between realms. The Great Pyramid and the King’s Chamber have extraordinary acoustic properties and some suggest the possibility of structures like this having even been built with sound.
There’s no surprise then, why sound healing can be highly transformative when done in this space…not to mention so many other unknown, but felt reasons to experience being in this extraordinary place that can be profound.
Sound channeling through my own vehicle has been, for me, the most profound for evolution, integration, transmutation, and empowered embodiment.
I was so happy to be able to share it all with Dave and have him experience, firsthand, why for me this is such a power spot and has been important in my life.
Egypt is a clear access point for me to my fuller self and the All.
This is not something that has to be done in a specific place, as it is always within us to understand anywhere we are, but there are elements and frequencies that can come together to create greater alignment for this.
Egypt provides this support for me.
Dave saw and experienced me light up in the ways that I do there and I got to see him shine in new ways as well and him take lead and follow his own inner guidance with things that proved profound in their own ways.
I also saw how others appreciated his presence and anchoring energy.
I also enjoyed seeing him in this space and watching his gifts flourish, as he took lead on things and followed his intuition.
I have noted since returning home, how his senses have amplified and his resonance to alignment has increased in awareness – all beautiful things.
Everyone has their own timing and journey with things, and to support the beautiful unfolding of that relative to each is the gift we can give each other.
Like anyone, he discovered the pieces that resonated and those that didn’t in Egypt, and he went through his own transformative experiences that I feel will continue to unfold over the days and months.
Just like we all will go through from this trip.
He also got to understand how this experience can be curated to match those resonances and he puts that in my hands to create for any future explorations he would be open to join.
It’s exciting to see where the journey will take us.
And he also supports my own callings back to this ancient land when that takes place.
This trip was one that had been presented to me/us, rather than one I would actively have put feelers out for…and in that way, felt divinely guided as a mission. I can conclude, in fact that is what unfolded because of the people that showed up. Alongside that, had I not been there I wouldn’t have met key people that will play into the upcoming days and years. One in particular has already ignited a change in the way I view myself and will be moving forward.
The entire journey was jam packed with richness all around and we definitely got time to also immerse in Egyptian life outside of the tourist areas and enjoy many meals all over the city.
And yet, breathing in the essence of this ancient land has still only been barely scratched.
Each trip keeps increasing and deepening the breadth of experiences and still there’s so much more I’ve learned about and feel called to explore, as well as return to some of the key places for me in a different way.
I’m grateful for the connections that this trip brought together to unpack and anchor things in this life and also that will make future guided immersions possible and curated just the way my heart feels called.
The interesting twist to saying that is I, and another one of my dear friends from the trip who was doing a lot of energy work with me, had both felt before going that there was the potential of this being her first and last trip, and perhaps closing things for me. However, we both walked away from the trip getting messages about the specific work we did together this time having concluded, and that there was different work ahead. Hence, our guidance was that there’s more to come both together, but also in individual ways and at different times.
That said, I’m also so grateful for the beautiful friendships that were nurtured because of the opportunity to get to know online connections in person. We instantly felt where the bonds ran deepest and where some bonds were only meant as a precise key point in time, on the map of star-crossing alignments for a greater good.
And it was such a gift to also meet and deepen the bond with Mody of course. Being together only reiterated our connection and demonstrated how family is recognized not by blood, but by the open heart you share with others. We trusted the connection the moment we communicated online close to almost three years ago, and it translated exactly as was felt, in the flesh. Dave also felt that instant bond with Mody and that connection was one of the main take-aways for him that he was grateful for.
Dave caught this sweet moment of Mody and me on our last evening before leaving Egypt, after we shared a little goodbye dance.
It was particularly fun to be able to visit Mody’s workplace and see all the raw stones and carvings in person. This also gave us opportunity to connect with Mody’s giant skull and dragon carvings – some of the largest of their kind in the world brought to life from Egyptian alabaster and temple stones.
His workplace hosts a resident pigeon’s home that they made for these sweethearts. The pigeons watch over Mody as he works and he and his workers care for them. Ahmed, one of the sweet souls I got to connect and nurture a bond with, who is guardian of these sweet pigeons, felt my connection to them and my role.
He brought me over the two babies that they have been caring for and placed them in my hands. I was overwhelmed with love and showered them with energy and nurturing. They nestled into my hands and absorbed it all.
Speaking of animals – there are feral cats and dogs everywhere in Egypt and at the temple sites. We would always stop and share love with them all and they with us.
Some of our group would bring left overs from meals and feed the animals along our routes. One of the women who had been in Egypt back in February and was returning, connected deeply with one of the sickly dogs back then that had a giant heart pattern on his fur and through a very long process actually ended up adopting him. He became a part of her fur baby family back in the states.
Check out who’s watching us girls while we seized the moment to enjoy a refreshment and snack to watch the sunset before the evening’s festivities began.
We encountered a lot of bats hanging out in sacred areas of temples and pyramids – adding their sonar frequencies to our sound healing – geckos on temple walls, great blue herons, egrets, a variety of other birds, fish, of course camels, horses, donkeys, cattle, and even mummified crocodiles.
The Nile is rich in many ways, as is the experience on the Mediterranean and Red Seas. I hope to immerse more in all of these.
But back to Mody’s friends and business associates – they were a gift to us during the last week we spent in Egypt outside of the tour. They so generously gave of their time to drive and take care of us throughout our days with them and immediately became family for me.
Naser and Sayied became my brothers, just as Mody has been and now they always will be.
Mody’s blood family also welcomed us as their own, hosting us graciously, nourishing both our bodies with great food and our souls with love, as this is the way for Egyptians.
We are One family. Bonds that transcend time and space and speak to the heart of true compassion, kindness, and love.
I learned even more about Egyptians, being with Mody in these days and listening and feeling into the hearts of others I connected with, as well, on this trip. And I think others also had their perceptions shifted in the days spent immersing, especially when they truly listened with the heart to people’s experiences rooted in love.
An appreciation for each person’s differences and yet not seeing those differences is the Egyptian way.
There was so much deepening on both a human and spiritual level that I experienced – once again.
It’s always amazing how much more the heart can expand.
I welcome opportunities to crack it open wider – and that comes both through the bitter and sweet. The depths and contrasts to emotions as well as the experiences that take us on wild and even sometimes tumultuous rides is all part of the alchemy of love.
I’m always ready to embrace the depths of the journey.
I’m looking forward to how things continue to evolve, as it will take a little time to let the new energies settle and organically land.
Although I didn’t share everything about this sacred journey and the weeks of very deep work, I think you can feel how much was woven into the experiences and the photos help convey the energy that speaks louder than words.
And even though I didn’t write about it all, this is still a long share, as I just can’t see any other way around it – other than not sharing at all. But that isn’t my path.
As a bridge, I embrace the parts I can share, as a form of its own activation of remembrance.
Egypt is a homecoming for me…for many.
A window into ancient origins.
A place that can open doorways within to much more than what we think we know.
An access point to transcend reality as we think we know it and all linear timelines and dimensions to more than what lies in Egypt alone…the grains of sand whisper wisdom and divulge mysteries to the courageous hearts.
A portal to the heart of origins – Earth and Cosmos.
Since being back there’s been a continuation of dimensional separation dropping and journeying through the cosmic gateways, (deep like the ocean and light as a feather, as a dear soul told me), like my experiences at certain sites of Egypt and in meditations there.
This has been accompanied by animal encounters with deer, coyote, and hawk messengers making a point of connecting and acknowledging this expanded experience.
On yesterday’s New Moon I found a collection of raw smoky quartz and was visited by three does when I was guided to sit off-trail and discovered they were there grazing.
The day we drove home from Egypt and were just down the road from our house, a beautiful, large coyote ran up to the sidewalk and peered at us with her soulful eyes piercing ours. A wonderful way to be greeted upon return. She is one of the resident coyotes who then showed up again the morning of the 16th just off our back deck in the forest, as you can see.
And the very next day, on a walk with our friends, another lovely coyote walked by the trail as we stopped to watch.
Hawk greeted us the first day’s hike back down to the lake, accompanied by mallard and my geese friends.
The evening before the last coyote sighting, our resident, guardian red tailed hawk greeted me back home just before sunset. He landed on the tree out back and sat there for several minutes connecting. My new camera is wonderful at capturing gorgeous images and crisp detailing when the light is right. Just look at him!
Horus has been in my meditations a lot – no surprise there for me. He guides me daily.
And for now, that guidance will assist as the year winds down and we enjoy the rest of Autumn before officially welcoming in the onset of Winter that this early snow sent a preview of.
I’ll use the rest of October to get everything in order and caught up, then immerse fully in fresh energies the month of November. We have Dave’s mom visiting then, but a quieter rest of the month after that for my project immersions and curating plans for 2026.
We’ll be away in December and again in February – travels in a different vein that will aid my personal projects and new directions. And some other surprises in store.
I’ll share along the way, as inspired by collective energies and nudges of inspiration.
Until then, I have been guided to share a small group of new crystal cocreators who ask to be seen.
While in Egypt I was led to some very beautiful and powerful stones along my walks in and around temples, pyramids, and the desert landscapes. These include raw alabaster crystals, flint, golden mica quartz, quartz, and other unknown beauties carrying ancient energy. I also have with me beautiful colored desert glass from Nubia – these are similar material to Andaras, but charged with Nile River, Isis Temple, and Moon energies. I have a couple of small carvings from Mody I brought back as well – with a large group of carvings that will be shipped to me at a later date. But all of the pieces I just mentioned bringing back have been added to my Egyptian grid and are being used to charge current pieces that are being released at this time.
I will be adding a small group of crystal skulls by tomorrow 10/23. I shared a peak of a couple of them before heading out to Egypt on Instagram, as they were stating their connection to the energies of this power spot. Some people picked up on that and the giant master skull was called home.
If any call to you and you need assistance, please let me know. Details can be found tomorrow on the page link below.
Until then, and always, may your days be filled with love, peace, and wisdom.
Tania Marie: Coming Full Circle & Last Update Until Late October
September begins and in a few short weeks we’ll be ushering in a new season.
We have the Autumn Equinox and Eclipses of the 7th and 21st upcoming, which will prove to make this month pivotally and potently transformative, as well as a coming full circle activation.
We’re making the most of Tahoe’s quieter shoulder season right now with hikes, bike rides, and a couple of beach days sprinkled in before our favorite beach closes for this year. We’ve slowed things down a bit to honor what shows up each day and going with the flow of energy, rather than pushing things.
It’s been beautiful and peaceful and I’ve been able to work on getting the things done that I wanted to before this next busy period begins.
This included a nice family celebration for my dad’s 80th this weekend with an overnight at my parent’s house and dinner out where the restaurant surprised him with a huge piece of cake.
This made for double celebrations, as we continued the birthday fun back home with a cake extravaganza my dad made for us all to include his favorites – this three layer vegan chocolate, almond, cherry cake. Mmmmm!
We had a great time celebrating this jubilee and it concluded with a new cycle for us too.
Both Dave and I got a new cell phone upgrade underway and, simultaneously, I just got a new battery for my computer. What a difference they both make!
We had our phones for five plus years, so it’s a nice refresh – more so for me because mine was not optimal anymore. So, if I missed any messages from anyone over this weekend that might be why, as there was a lot of converting going on.
Things like this always feel like an overall upgrade is being reflected for our lives, especially if our things start to show signs of not keeping up with current energies we’ve shifted into.
It’s that letting go of old, to make way for new symbolism and things do usually start to break down, slow down, or altogether blow up, when we create major changes in our lives. This seems to happen more rapidly these days than the longer year periods they may have taken in the past.
As these new things take root, we’re gearing up for a lot of activity and excitement. So, there’s this interesting mix of both slowing some things down, endings, and then revving things up, and beginnings – all at once.
Currently, I have plans to embark on another five day backpacking journey on the 7th’s Pisces Full Moon Total Lunar Eclipse with five guys and four dogs! Dave has some old high school buddies coming up to experience Lake Tahoe’s back country and a Tahoe friend is going to be joining. It’s a first for many of them to do a trip like this and so I helped Dave, as the trail leader and tracker I’ve come to be known as (hehe!), in mapping the course to make it hiker-friendly for the group. There’s been a lot of gear and prep talk with everyone and it proves to be a fun time.
I say currently I have plans to join, as I’m going to finalize my decision the night before due to some other things I’m considering.
After that, it’s going to continue full and busy, as Dave has a short trip while I stay with my family, and not long after he returns, we’re off on a long awaited and exciting adventure. Once we return from that, Dave’s mom and boyfriend will be coming out for a visit for a few days.
This is why after this post, I’ll not be sharing again until late October.
So until then, I wanted to leave you with the energy of what IS about to ignite, as it’s extremely meaningful to me on many levels and does connect to collective.
Without going into all the backstory on how this came to be, which has been a relatively quick, very organic, synchronous, and aligned journey so far, I’m about to return to a heart home for the third time, this life.
I am returning to Egypt.
This is part of my own coming full circle activation I mentioned at the start of this blog.
It’s a soul calling and path embracing.
The last two times I was there, was back in 2007.
I went in April and May that first time and then returned in September of that very same year because I couldn’t stay away.
The photos I’m sharing are from that first trip mostly, with one group photo from the second trip, that profoundly transformed me and when the power of sound healing first ignited in my life and for the first time through my voice.
The energy is tangible in these sacred temples and sites.
You can literally hear the humming and the cosmic music and it awakens pieces of who you are.
I went through a massive rebirthing like no other that involved a unique, and only-ever-time-for-me, kundalini experience on the full day and eve before visiting the Temple of Isis on my first trip.
I then awoke the next morning completed rebirthed and upon entering the sacred grounds of Isis, this Egyptian cat ran up to me to greet me.
I did massive integrative healing and retrieval of past lives for self and others I knew, along with collective work of the same on that trip. I was also able to receive support from my family when I needed them the most.
Here’s some photos of me and mom and me and dad.
I then was able to assist in energy work to support the group of travelers on the second trip, which was made possible by my having integrated the energies of this powerful, sacred spot on Earth, on the first trip.
And this third one feels like it will take all of this and merge it with something more, to a new level.
The first trip was a very small, nearly private trip with two leaders – a channeler and a sound healer. There were only five of us outside of them – four being my family (mom, dad, me, and my ex-husband).
Look at all those orbs around us inside the King’s Chamber of the Great Pyramid – that’s me at center.
Egypt is actually the only place that I cried from leaving and felt somewhat depressed for a while to be away from. So when the same woman who led that journey talked about putting together a special 9-9-9 trip (this concluded with a private ceremony inside the Great Pyramid on 9/9/2007 that she received guidance on being important for collective energy shifts) just a few months after the first one, I didn’t hesitate for a second to say, “yes.”
This second trip had sixteen of us plus the same channeler leader – so 17 total.
There’s always an Egyptologist that joins each group, as well, and any other Egyptian handlers necessary for what the individual tour involves. The man on the right is the dear and amazing soul, Mohamed Nazmy, who has since transitioned.
This September we have a similar group size returning with 13 voyagers plus 2 leaders (15) for the first part of the tour and 14 voyagers plus 2 leaders (16) for the second part of the tour.
We’ll be there for three weeks total – the first two weeks with the tour group and a second week with a smaller group of 9 of us that are staying on and joining up with my sweet friend, Mody Ra who so graciously has welcomed us with open heart and home to show us the magick of Egypt through his eyes.
This smaller group is made up of people who know each other and Mody online only, but will be meeting for the first time in person. We know, however, that this coming together was written long ago for the work we will be doing there with this particular soul family frequency returning once again.
For me and Mody, it’s an extra fun, heart-warming, and meaningful moment we’re both looking forward to.
The front end of our time in Egypt will be following nearly exact footsteps as my two previous trips, with a few new additions. And the last week with Mody will be a more local’s experience and adventuring to new places altogether.
We have a lot of fun surprises in store during that last week, but overall the whole journey will be a wonderful surprise of energetic amazingness – of that I’m sure.
To say I’m excited, is an understatement. I’m especially excited to share it with Dave because it’s his first time ever experiencing Egypt. I know it will be pivotal.
I’ve been taking things one day at a time though, and listening to the messages for any energetic preparations, as well as am being in receiving mode as to what key and important things I’ll be guided to do at each sacred site and along the way.
For this, and other reasons, I’ve been more removed lately while I tune in and connect in other needed ways right now. So, just a heads up that I’m in a different space right now until after I return.
On the past trips to Egypt I’ve done a lot of self-guided processes, alongside the group things we initiated together, and I know this time will be similar. I know I’ll be guided to share some things with the group when the moment moves me too.
There’s a lot of bookended collective energies and alignments that have all happened without planning them, although we know how that goes on other levels. There is significance to the timing with collective rippling woven in, as these things always have.
We get in a few days earlier to get anchored, but things will ignite on the Virgo New Moon partial Solar Eclipse on 9/21 (which will involve private time inside of the Great Pyramid again) and come full circle with the Aries Full Moon on 10/7, Egypt morning time. We’ll also be there for the Autumn Equinox on the 9/22.
Given what took place during and after my last two trips, I can’t even fathom what’s about to activate.
All I can say is that I’m hugely grateful things came together in such a supportive way to make this trip possible and I trust what will unfold, as there has never, personally, been the levels of energy and astounding experiences than the times when I’ve been in Egypt.
For now, it’s one day at a time with complete trust in cosmic perfection.
In the meantime, I hope that each of you continue unwrapping the golden threads of your own cosmic perfection.
There’s so much support around us in all forms to receive and amazing doorways of opportunity for alchemy to be woven into your own elixir of life.
What we each do is connected for all.
There are always so many possibilities.
As, I sign off until October, here’s a last update on crystal offerings.
The most recent large crystal skull beings were lovingly homed and we couldn’t be more grateful. Again, I’m always taken back at how they clearly know when they want to be shown and whom they want to be with. It’s pure magick to help bridge these beautiful connections.
After listing these, a few little magickal beings spoke up that they were ready to fly, so I offered three Starseeds that are more affordable yet potent pocket, travel, dreamtime, and altar companions. I shared all of their information at the link below, so please read their story to learn about them and how they specifically asked to be bridged to you.
And don’t forget that if one of these sweet beings calls to you and you’d like to start working with them, my last shipping date is September 5th. Otherwise, I will resume shipping in late October.
There’s nothing too far out of reach, so keep dreaming, believing, and moving forward, one step at a time!
See you in Autumn, as we near Samhain!
Tania Marie: Late August Reflections, Updates & Tips
We’ve been enjoying that late summer afternoon thunderstorm and rain vibe here the last few days. I actually broke out the vegan hot chocolate and cozied up with my blankie shawl for some writing and monthly record keeping.
I love how this ignites warm, golden sunset evenings, glowing through the newly moistened forest.
It won’t be long before gold will kiss everything soon.
Is anyone else looking forward to the Autumn enchantment?
Seasons sure do cycle through quickly.
It’s not always easy for me to feel what day of the week it actually is, but lately this has been extra odd for me.
I really have no idea of time anymore other than when I sit down, focus, and really zero in on it.
The garden is also in its late Summer lush mode.
Autumn blooms will soon be on the way.
It’s so fun how each year it’s always different and I never know what will pop up or how it will look.
Have any of you garden faeries out there also been enjoying the surprise parties your plant babies have been throwing?
This year’s late Summer gifts have me enjoying an abundance of mini crimson roses and lavender, with some sweet little purple catmint and other Autumn colored blossoms dancing in between.
The black-eyed Susans are also just beginning to pop through along with some daisies.
But oh does the lavender smell heavenly each time I walk by.
Our wild rabbit family seems to love it all, as every time I go out to the garden, one of them is sitting in it and we scare each other. Lol!
Speaking of rabbits, I’ve been having quite a few dreams with them recently – some I’ve already mentioned – and continued ones with Astrid, Joy actually made an appearance too, and a very potently healing one with two large white rabbits – one of them was named Amandine.
That last one came on the heels of a very powerfully shifting day involving pivotal, deep, integrative healing that took place in waking life…only to continue in dream time.
Since then, there’s been another increase in profound experiences of alignment, more instant manifestation, and more ease and grace with heart matched intentions due to the clarity created by breaking through the deeper layers of the old core. It’s taken greater vulnerability and self-realization, along with creating compassionate channels to walk in fuller exposure of truth.
I’m encouraged by the things I experience, and what I also hear from others, of what is possible no matter what’s on the larger scene. It’s the little things we each do that make a difference. So rather than get frustrated and discouraged by looking “out there,” focusing “in here” will start creating major waves of tangible change in your every day world.
A couple of days ago we enjoyed one of our favorite walks – one where a lot of magickal little things pop up.
It was the first time these beautiful horses greeted us here.
They are not wild horses, but having them wandering the meadow and forest there was such a gift to see.
Truly a dreamy vision – one I’ve seen in my Pisces imagination.
I went closer to connect and say hi.
These two were males. There was a third in the distance between the trees.
They spoke to me of an energy that I’ve carried since a little girl during years of their spirit being with me to help.
And after having done some deep healing, having them show up was like recognition of that shift and how they STILL are with me guiding and helping.
I love how a pack of coyotes in the rain just went crazy with yipping outside with that last sentence.
Hawk encounters have been ongoing, which I feel is aligned with the upcoming things next month.
Had this one above do a fly over when laying on the beach.
I’ve also discovered we now have a resident red-tailed hawk who made himself known when I was out doing some garden stuff one day. I had actually just been looking to see if we had a hawk’s nest in our large front tree and wondered if one was living here. I looked out from the upper deck and he flew low, right by me, coming to land in a tree just across from me and making softer screeches.
We peered at each other and I thanked him. After acknowledgment was made, he then flew the opposite direction landing in a tree further down. And this went on a couple of times, back and forth with fly-bys. He was communicating quite profoundly. Amazing!
I’ve seen this hawk quite a bit recently. Again, the dramatic hawk fly-bys and other raptors have increased since my Horus statue carved from the Great Pyramid stone was on its way here.
And upon arrival, the messaging and alignments have doubled.
Horus has been hanging out in the garden a bit.
We also had a beautiful osprey encounter at another lake we hiked at with a friend. Dave had just mentioned that an osprey lives at the lake there that we’ve seen, and I secretly was calling to her in my head and heart, and of course these two things between us prompted some high-pitched whistles I recognized immediately, followed by a fly over and circling by none other than Miss Osprey herself.
I’ve been realizing that not only do these messengers show up as a sign of things previously, but also are now showing up when thought of or called upon. Many answer with vocalization too.
There’s a nest the osprey uses that’s just down the path that we eventually reached.
Right after seeing the osprey and nest, I came across this perfect dragon head etched into a fallen tree.
She looks so much like the one tattooed on my left arm who peers over my shoulder.
And just look at how alive her eye looks!
I won’t even go into the dragons here! LOL! Too much to share already about the rest.
Anyway, the sacred raptor messengers continue, but so has ptarmigan’s presence.
We returned to one of our go-to hikes yesterday where I found a ptarmigan and hawk feather the previous time and ptarmigan had showed up crossing the trail in front of us.
Well, Dave had just miraculously found a quarter in the middle of the lush bushes and handed it to me to have because it had a cool crane on the back of it. He told me to keep it, like a feather I might find, since it’s a crane. Literally, right after that I looked down and saw a ptarmigan feather, which came home with me.
And right as I picked it up, sweet ptarmigan herself started clucking again.
We followed her vocalization and found her high up in a tree!
Each time I pick up her feathers, she always appears and seems to say, “Yes, that’s mine. I left it there for you.”
It’s sweet to not only have one-off experiences with these messengers, but to be forming ongoing relationships with them. It’s a new form that connection is taking with the animals that mean so much to me, all made extra possible from the love that I don’t allow to be shut out because of not having my dear ones physically with me anymore.
I continue to love more and welcome in the different ways I am able to share that love and expand into amazing experiences of potential.
As August nears end, Astrid’s now two-year transition anniversary approaches of the 30th. I still can’t believe how fast the years have gone and that I’ve been that long without a physical rabbit companion by my side. It’s so strange.
And yet, life continues to be beautiful and magickal because of the love we share. And in fact, is now more closely resembling the things I believed in as a child.
I’m grateful for how connected I am with my loves who’ve returned to the stars, how much they make themselves known, for the wild rabbits here watching over things and tickling my heart with each appearance, and for all of the other animals that have welcomed me as family .
Many of us have lost, and continue to lose, very dear souls in our lives. Death is ongoing, just as birth is. Every moment either dies or renews. And in between both is the heart that bridges them and allows us to know love. Love never ceases even if the form of something does. Nothing is replaced. A unique creation emerges that offers expansion of love – to know it, ourselves, each other, and all things even more.
So much feels to be full circle right now. Perhaps some of you are experiencing this as well.
There’s a lot of depth being reached, especially when engaged with the desire to be vulnerable and present to what shows up. I can’t explain how almost miraculously life is unwrapping, but simply put it’s how I believed things could be and finally am experiencing little snippets of that. To know this is only the tip of the iceberg is incredible. But it all fuels my wanting to keep singing, “Don’t stop believing”. We have yet to know our potential individually and as a collective.
I’ve been in awe recently of the astounding signs that speak seamlessly in answer to things. The more we are present to these, the more they happen and create other things to show up and fall into place as well.
That can happen in waking and dream life – where the heart bridges these worlds and merges them as one state of being your consciousness travels.
Some of my other key and remembered dreams have involved a secret place I was taken to within an upcoming space I’ve been invited back to – more on that another time – where I engaged in sound alchemy with a mystery school of elders. In that same night’s dream walking, I found myself pregnant, twice, one after another.
The every day increasingly feels fertile to the point I can literally tell when the next “wow” is about to land, as I recognize the subtle frequency shifts that precede it.
Eclipse season is about to ignite again with the upcoming Pisces Full Moon Total Lunar Eclipse of the 7th.
Synchronously, Dave and I have a very full nearly five weeks that kick off beginning that day here. for that reason, early September will be an ending point for blogging for me until sometime later in October. I’ll get in one more send-off blog before heading off.
We are also about to celebrate my dad’s 80th birthday this weekend with a family get-together for a couple of days. We’re going to spend the night with my family and immerse in this biggie birthday!
In celebration of him, I quickly pulled together a few favorite photos. I had in mind a couple of others, but couldn’t find them easily. So for now here’s the ones that did want to show up, in honor of my dad who’s done so much for us all.
My dad shares a love for plants and animals and the beautiful and magickal things in life.
Here he is, below, loving on Cosmo in the Magick Bus (our RV) and you can see him above with Boojum during that same time too. Then some other magickal times including him with the wild horses he and I got to connect with together on a special day, us at the beach on a sunset walk during one of his visits to see me when I was living in Costa Mesa, CA after we went to the LA County Fair together, and on another celebratory day.
Dad enjoying the great outdoors he loves, while visiting Alaska.
And one of my favorites of him and mom on a beach walk with me, getting their bare feets in the sand and water! Weeeee!
I’m grateful he’s here with us and look forward to making more special memories together.
A BIG THANK YOU
I wanted to thank those of you who trusted the call to become guardians to the new crystal skull beings that I was guided to offer recently.
There were some truly sacred, magickal, and moving experiences that unfolded with the two incredible elder beings – the large citrine and cathedral lemurian. Both connections brought chills, tears, and amazing synchronicities and signs that all underscored the message they gave me for their timing of release and their knowing who they were to be with. I know without doubt they are exactly where they were meant to be and the stories shared really spoke to why as well. I love that they went to spots on the Earth grid that are integral to things too. Beyond beautiful.
Just a heads up that there are a couple more special crystal skull beings that have spoken. They will be released some time between today, the 27th, and Friday the 29th. I am listening to when they want to go public, as they know their timing. So just keep an eye out on this page the next couple of days, if you are sensing a nudge already and don’t want to miss them:
As a side note to that, I will only be available to ship out until September 5th. So if you are interested in one and would like them sooner than later, just keep that date in mind. Otherwise, I won’t be able to resume shipping again until later in October.
EMAIL NOTIFICATIONS
One more detail I wanted to mention, concerns email notifications for new blogs I publish.
It’s come to my attention that several people have been missing notifications of blogs I post, who used to always receive them. I can’t conclude that these are the reasons for everyone, but in working with one person we were able to find a backlog of email notifications for my blogs in a folder that her email application had created called “managed subscriptions.”
If you for some reason don’t see email updates from me anymore, and used to AND also would like to continue to, then these are some things you could check and/or do:
- Check your spam, trash, or other folders you might have – email applications may have suddenly designated them in one of these categories, so it’s good to take a look there
- Make sure to unblock wordpress email: donotreply@wordpress.com as this is the email that sends out my updates
- You may want to resign up for email updates too after doing all of this
It’s possible that because my name isn’t evident in the title of the blog, that some email applications deem this spam, automatically categorize them since there’s not a name associated with it, or it’s not easily visible or recognizable to you in your folder and can easily be overlooked.
I had a friend who his very techy and good with this stuff, look at things to see if there was an issue on the end of my blog site, but couldn’t find anything. The same conclusion was found in relation to a couple of people who have said now and then they can’t comment on my blog, when they used to be able to do so.
So along with the above, on my part going forward, I am going to look into adding my name to the titles of the blogs to see if that makes a difference for anyone. This is why you might see that appear suddenly instead of just the title.
Again, this may not be an issue for you, but since a few people had this happen suddenly after receiving email notifications previously, it’s something to keep in mind for any future potential. You can also reach out to me and let me know.
Thank you to everyone for all the support and love. It means so much.
A Potent Equinox Widening the Field of Potential
Which ever way your path leads, what ever form your beliefs take, and what ever channel you find to be the clearest match to your heart – embrace that wholeheartedly and try not to worry about what others are doing or what they say about what you’re doing, as the only gauge is how alignment is flowing in your own life.
There’s enough judgment and division in the world, so finding your own inner balance of wholeness is what is going to make a difference both for you and what evolves as a result from the individual process you each choose to embody. Conscious or unconscious, your frequency of experience cocreates a collective reflection.
The greater harmony or disharmony the individual experiences within, has direct effect on the creative evolution that responds in like.
Align your parts and watch as you close the gap of fight between yourself and All That Is.
I don’t feel things to be a test, nor a game…it’s consciousness in motion within the Cosmic laws – laws that we have ability to access for the creation of more expansive experiences we might be interested in choosing.
Understand the laws and you find yourself maneuvering much differently.
This has been my personal experience with operating in the field of potential. I am unable to put it into words, but there’s been a consistent uptick over the last year or so in cracking codes – that’s the only way I can explain it.
The gaps in between these experiences are getting shorter too, and they’re part of the reason for my increased optimism.
And now that we’re on the other side of the Equinox gateway, these feelings continue to bloom.
I wonder if anyone else felt or experienced some unusual or defining things on the 20th?
Besides the literal things that took place that day, I felt another layer of opening and release energetically.
That actual day was jam packed for us here when Spring ignited officially.
It started out with us heading to a late morning appointment for Dave, when we were rerouted by a highway closure. The main way we go was closed due to an accident, so our whole day shifted around when we had to take a different road to our destination.
We embraced the change.
We called right away and they rescheduled him for early midafternoon. That provided us time to go back home for a short while, before we headed out again to take advantage of the window of opportunity presented.
We decided to do an impromptu hike in the valley where there isn’t any snow, before hitting some errands.
If we hadn’t, then none of the rest of this would have taken place. If the road closure also hadn’t been, then the day would have unfolded differently.
Timing and choice is everything. Change may be a way of realigning us for the highest good.
Instead of the usual trail, we opted for the trail on the opposite side of the highway that I’d been remarking on for a while that looked like it might be interesting.
It ended up being a great hike with expansive views of the valley framed by our snow-capped mountain home in the background.
We saw evidence of mini faery flowers starting to pop, but the meandering trail was a fresh change and perfect to welcome a new season.
There were a lot of interesting metamorphic rocks along the path to explore..
As we hiked I got this strong feeling that something special might be found because of it being the Equinox…I rattled off possibilities in my head of deer antlers, bones, feathers, quartz, etc.
I’m not sure why I thought of deer antlers, but realized that this is the time of the year of their shedding these.
Not long after, I started to find a few sparkly quartz, including a mini smoky quartz cluster and Dave suddenly remarked that he thought this could be a good area for finding shed deer antlers.
That was interesting since I had thought of this silently in my head. I told him so and how I sensed that now that we both were feeling this, there was a good chance of it happening.
Not long after, we started to notice the vegetation that deer like to feed on, wildlife trails, and lots of deer poop. In fact my tracking instincts led me to deer poop feeding areas over and over.
We both started exploring off-path a little, while following the main trail. I just knew something was coming.
I did remind Dave that it’s possible to find them even near the hiking trail because the two other antlers I found in Montana had been by sighting from the main trail.
I stopped for a moment to do my soft pause, centering, and heart connection with hand over my heart. Something I also do when I feel crystal finds are waiting to be discovered. I felt an antler in my field and trusted in divine guidance joining us.
We followed along back on the main trail for a while and at one point stopped to say something. While we were talking, my eye caught something to my right and I turned. In the same breath I was answering Dave with I said, “I found a deer antler” and walked right to it.
He said, “You did?!”
I brought it to him and handed it over. “Yep.”
He said, “I guess that confirms what we felt about this area.”
I recognized it right away and it all became very matter-of-factly without surprise while I could feel my parts merging. I didn’t want to sound ungrateful, as I was hugely so, but at the same time I realized that by doing too much of that as an extension outside of myself, this would place a separation from my own abilities. The gratitude became more of one around the process I felt I was teaching myself in these experiential fields of potential.
It’s a shorter forked antler likely from a younger buck and the two points were worn down where tips once were likely more sharp at one time.
I can’t explain how I felt – a combination of immense gratitude, amazement, knowing, and empowerment.
I couldn’t say I was surprised, as I felt in my bones the alignment with this happening. Yet, there was still that meeting of wonder and delight with solid self-realization and cocreatorship.
It’s an experience of not knowing the difference between psychic vision and conscious manifestation.
Are we actually “seeing” what’s coming, which produces the feeling of knowing? Or have we actually put in motion a melding of elements to produce by creative will?
I shared this with Dave and he said, “I think that it was meant for just you to find that one.”
It wasn’t the first time an experience like this has taken place. It’s been happening a lot in various areas of my life.
They are very deliberate and boundary-breaking unfoldings that take me out of the smaller me and into a multi-dimensional consciousness that defies what we think we know as reality.
I feel like the unlocking of cosmic codes is continuing to happen for us all and will continue to become a consistent process, as well as a more conscious and intentional process. The invitations and doorways are all around us.
An experience of really communing with All That Is.
I felt myself expand. That’s the best way I can explain it.
We continued back to the car and next it was bones that caught my eye. They looked to be part of leg bones and also felt like deer. One had the two pieces still connected.
We went on to do some errands after our spontaneous and potent Spring hike – one of which included my ordering new glasses.
I hadn’t been to the eye doctor for two years, but could feel that the astigmatism was more noticeable now in terms of near vision. Up to this point I have only had one pair of glasses, which I got back in 2019 – 5 years ago. I still absolutely love those frames and plan to keep them for potential future prescriptions. I had them just to wear if I wanted to, but didn’t need to and still at this point don’t need to for distant stuff. I mostly wore them just to change things up.
I had a few pairs of over-the-counter readers that I would grab for extensive close-up reading, but now that the astigmatism has increased, it makes it so that having prescription glasses on hand is much more useful and replaces the over-the-counter ones.
So, I opted to get a new pair with progressive lenses that handle both near and far sight. That way I only have to use one and will basically get rid of the rest. They are a super fun color and style that Dave actually picked out and we both loved.
This felt like a fun upgrade in new Spring energy, new vision, and a fine-tuning of clarity and balance. Kind of coinciding with my antler experience, which of course was simultaneously such a perfect find for the Equinox, energetically and symbolically.
I should get them in a couple of weeks. Perfect timing before heading off on our travels next month too.
I will likely wear these a lot more, although don’t need them for my outdoor activities, as I still have hawk eyes when it comes to seeing and finding things.
We continued on after that to Dave’s eye check-up appointment, lunch, and some more errands before heading home.
On our drive back the sky was filled with unusual clouds that appeared like hovering spacecrafts moving above.
There was even one that to me was a clear image of a beluga whale emerging from a sky ship.
A friend later told me that she, too, had been seeing the same kind of clouds throughout that day and felt wild and chaotic energy.
I wouldn’t say I felt chaotic energy, but the energies were very strong, clear, and purposeful with a lot going on, yet with precision and opening.
Our Equinox ended with some bitter added to the sweet, as we came upon an injured Canadian goose on the last stretch home.
She was laying on the road like she was nesting there and we saw her partner looking very distraught by her side. We stopped the car and saw her try to get up.
Her leg was broken, bleeding, and potentially also the wing broken on the same side. It was apparent she’d been hit by a car.
Our hearts bled with her…it was extremely heart-breaking. Dave wondered if he might be able to gather her in a blanket, but she was very scared and went off into the drainage water by the field where the other geese were when he approached. I sent energy to her with love and support.
I told him we should drop a pin on a map and call the wildlife rescue to let them know. We knew it was a longshot, but felt we had to do something. We left a message about her and shared the location, but they were closed for the night.
That night my heart ached when I went to bed, so I tuned in with her.
That’s where I’m so grateful to have the ability to use the gifts we all have available to us to send energy and intention. Between Reiki and other forms of communication and energetic support, I tuned in with her, sent energy to subdue the pain, put a protective bubble around her, sent calm and love to her and her partner, and the intention that if she can’t make it through the night or a predator finds her, that she passes peacefully.
I trust that.
The next morning we followed up to remind the wildlife place about our message, as we wanted to do what we could. They said they would be getting a volunteer to go down and look for her in the area we sent them. We released it all to the highest good.
Spring Equinox was filled with endings and beginnings and symbolism of the sacred cycles always in motion.
And indeed parts of us will fade away and come to an ending all together, but simultaneously regeneration and renewal is always at hand.
We tend to focus only on one or the other – death or birth – but to see the truth of wholeness with clarity is realizing their threaded continuum.
Just as this sunset last night seamlessly shifted in gorgeous colors.
I’m already seeing all of my bulbs – old and new – pushing through the ground.
I don’t know if I’ll get to see my Spring blooms this year, which I’ll miss while we’re away. But I will at least see their growth spurt that mirrors my own.
What things in your own life are you hoping to grow stronger, more of, or perhaps for the first time?
UPDATE: There’s just one crystal remaining – a beautiful Ocean Jasper freeform – that will be available only through March 31st. It’s bursting with colorful new life and potential too.
White Dreams & Visions Revisited – Part 2
Getting back to the dream theme reblogs, today’s share comes from September of 2014, just three days after Part 1’s White Dream and just weeks after my return from Alaska in August of 2014.
As you can see, a lot was triggered by the timing of that trip and it was interesting that the dream journeys took on a “white” theme symbolically after that.
Today’s dream share was particularly potent to me, as it felt to be the end of a mission I had up until that point in life where I was reporting back the depths of experiences and things learned thus far, while reviewing it all from a different and detached space of consciousness.
Perhaps some of the reason this dream feels important to share again is because of the significance of yet another of these milestones not only I feel to be crossing now, but the collective feels to be going through as well. And with the completion of my portal painting this week and birthday celebrations in gear, there’s really powerful energies I can feel observing this new transition.
I love the comment on this post from faery sis Laura in 2014 sharing “It also reminds me of that Star People book, with some of the people reporting back to the Space Brothers.”
Indeed.
If you were sitting in front of a Cosmic Council of beings from far-off planets, what would you want to tell them?
And if you knew you were at the end of a mission or purpose with the freedom to begin anew, what would you choose and why?
Bunnies, Birthdays & Beginnings Have Begun ~ Portal Painting Magick as a Marker of Spiraling Change
This is an interlude before the next reblog of White Dreams & Visions Revisited so that I can share some updates including a very important full circle closure AND opening for me that has to do with a portal.
But before that, I just want to extend extra love, healing, and grace of flow to everyone and especially those of you who may find yourself going through some very rough patches. I have heard in the last couple of weeks from several people I know that are themselves going through major health challenges to include various forms of stage four cancer and aggressive lymphoma, or their loved ones are going through the same.
Many people are moving through big changes in various areas of their lives, not just health, and even if ultimately they are for the highest good, things may feel uncomfortable or unclear right now. So let’s take some deep breaths together and remember all the things we have already made it through. One step at a time.
There also continues to be a wide gap between contrasting experiences that can be triggering or add strain on things so, again, it’s helpful to try to find that connective bridge of kindness toward self and others, understanding how everyone is going through their own stuff. The breath and pause with curiosity around the moment unfolding can help to curtail creating a domino effect of explosions. Anything you can do to nourish and support yourself, anchor into the conscious present, listen to and act upon inner messaging, or maybe even reach out to others would be of great benefit as things are changing rapidly and will inevitably continue to unearth reveals and invite more of us on board in the coming days and months.
Although I know it’s a given that collective connection is our innate experience, I have intention that any breakthroughs, uplifting, inspiring, successful, and peaceful energies I experience are shared in the collective pool with others. The way we each move through life creates doorways for the collective.
I’ll share some of the changes and updates that have taken place this month in case they speak to energy shifts and similar kinds of things that you’ve been going through as well. This month has felt like the year’s energy is really starting to clarify and anchor new momentum.
As you know, I’ve been transitioning my own life focuses to put closure to a cycle and prepare for a new one. I felt this energy guidance even before I remembered the actuality of it taking place with my birthday kicking in the essence of #1 numerologically this year. So of course it was a huge a-ha click to why everything was happening. And this #1 energy inevitably gives me a lot of oomph behind the drive I feel compelled to act upon.
I’m so happy to report that I have been able to accomplish this goal of completions and have already removed several pages from this website for offerings that are no longer. I will continue to remove pages in the days ahead leading to my birthday, and eventually will begin updating pages with fresh energy and clear slates.
During the past few weeks I also discovered a weird thing with my gmail acount that is too complicated to explain, but basically showed me another door I would be closing and opening with kind of an “identity” themed focus. Somehow we (Dave and I) had set up two gmail accounts for me when first I created one and unknowingly everything had been operating through one that I don’t use including my YouTube channel, all saved contacts, photos, etc. Of course, I just happened to discover this right now and we took measures to move everything over to the right account, which was quite the project – especially YouTube – and then deleted the nonused account. Needless to say, it’s all fixed and that felt like a reflection of new identity and fresh starts too – kind of like the old account was this in between place holder of a me that would only be temporary.
During the last month or so of completions I also found myself not using my office and Wonderland room I shared with Astrid and the crystal family. I’ve had a temporary setup with my important things on the kitchen island and have been working from the couch in the main living area. I wondered why that was, but then this clicked in as well that it must have been my sensing the energy of transition and not wanting to anchor in that in between within my special space. That space is a container for new energies building, and interestingly during this transition I have been welcoming in and moving around a few last crystals and crystal skulls.
The only thing I have been doing in my Wonderland room is painting, which I just started on 2/11 and completed on the evening of 2/17.
This is one of the important completion projects that has haunted me for a while – to finalize my giant 5 foot x 5 foot portal painting titled Once in a Blue Moon. It makes sense why I haven’t completed it until now, and with everything off my slate I was able to paint the final keys to this doorway of new experience.
I first channeled the painting in 2012 with Nestor (who had already transitioned) and Joy (who was still with me at the time) anchoring it. This is a professional photo of the painting that captures colors differently.
I had no idea then that Cosmo and Astrid would be coming, but I must have intuitively had an idea because the painting was very simple and empty, as if also being a place holder for more.
Over the years of having Cosmo and Astrid, I knew that I wanted to eventually add them to the painting, but also Gaia who is connected to all of them – especially Joy and Nestor – and in fact was Joy’s companion until Cosmo came – as well as Twinkie who was my first bunny when I was twelve years old and whom I feel came back to me as Cosmo. Five rabbits in all and their comrade the Russian tortoise.
It was a project that I kept saying I wanted to do and could have done with the passing of each of them, but it wasn’t until now that I finally felt the energy was ready and of course I created the time for it with clearing out things.
It seems like the perfect marker from old to new with a magickal celebration of everyone together to support what’s to come. And, in fact, also a celebration for my birthday new cycle. I knew it would be done before that and in fact I did it with nine days to spare.
Here it is taken just outside my office door in the sunlight – I had to move away the snow.
I wish I could photograph it as well as the professional one of the original.
It’s SO hard to capture the colors properly – some lighting washes things out and makes everything more blue – other lighting makes things have a yellow undertone. The painting in person has a lot of variation in colors especially where all the detail is, and in person the bunnies are all the proper colors they should be.
But I think the photos will give you an energetic idea of the magick – including their favorite amethyst crystals and special symbolism, bridging details, earth and cosmic landscapes (check out Gaia’s Himalayan terrain), and star codes.
These next photos of Cosmo show you how the lighting shifts the colors – you can see in his fur and the flowers.
I’m excited to see what ignites by its completion and hanging in my Wonderland room where Astrid transitioned.
I already saw one acknowledgment – this sunset took place the evening of the 17th when I completed the painting. This was the second confirmation.
Then on Valentine’s evening 2/14 I finished painting Astrid and took this photo, which showed energy all around her.
I basically painted one of my companions each day since I started on 2/11 and Astrid was to be the last. The background took me two days. Well, the very next morning of the 15th, the first confirmation came after I woke earlier than usual to see the Moon through the forest.
Frith showed up.
I haven’t seen Frith in ages, but there he was.
He ran across our upper deck and then down the stairs to the spiral garden.
This is where I first discovered Frith, before I had the spiral quartz garden, when he was just a baby and would flop himself near the bushes there and act like a domesticated rabbit. That’s when Astrid took him under her wing and they became great friends.
Well, that morning he sat looking at us watching him through the upper picture windows of our living room and I remarked at how much he looked like Astrid in my painting – the same stance.
He’s grown so much!
And he’s still his frisky, sweet self, as he dashed about the spiral garden now covered in snow from our last and biggest storm yet. Then off he disappeared under our deck.
I felt he was Astrid’s acknowledgment and joy of the portal being activated with her coming alive on the painting. They were both happy!
In fact, last night’s dream was graced by Astrid who was full of joy and bursting exuberance. In my dream she got out through the door and was zooming and springing about outside, dashing here and there in the snow. She mirrored Frith. She would leap and twist and turn and move like a flash with great energy bubbling from within. That warmed my heart.
I know this to be an actual portal, as when I first painted it and hung it in my office in Costa Mesa, Southern California, I experienced the magick. I woke in the middle of the night one day and because I could see the painting in my office through both room doorways from my side of the bed, I saw why it woke me up. I saw the painting open and all of these magickal beings came jumping out of it and running across the floor – gnomes, elves, fairies, and other devic creatures.
I wonder what else will happen now that I’ve completed and hung the painting back on the wall of Wonderland over a couch that houses stuffies of all of my sweet rabbit companions with Astrid’s crystal grid in front of it?
Well, I’ll tell you what happened next.
After photographing the painting yesterday morning before going out skiing, I hung it back up in its place on the wall.
Later, after we got home and had lunch, I went downstairs thinking I might get better lighting now to photograph the painting because the morning light made everything blue.
As soon as I walked in my office I was amazed to see the painting down on the floor behind the couch. When I went over to it I realized that the wire broke in half, sending the painting straight down to the floor. Luckily the couch is in front of it, as it would have toppled over onto my table of crystals.
That said, I knew the portal was activated. Just like when I had gridded the crystals on Astrid’s table and she flung my lighted ornament tree onto the ground behind me to tell me it was done and ready to go.
I told Dave that the painting fell and that made three things already happening since painting it.
He said to me, “It’s been hanging on the wall all of these years since we moved in. Nothing’s changed. It’s not like it got heavier.”
I laughed and said, “The whole painting image changed! That’s exactly it. Nothing changed to the canvas itself except the portal is now activated with everyone on it.”
His eyes bugged out and we both laughed. I showed him the wire on the back of the painting and we both said it looked like Astrid chewed right through it. LOL!
“Take that!” Dave said as stand-in for her.
The very strong metal hook on the wall was completely bent from an upright position to a horizontal one. That took me longer to bend back into place than stringing a much stronger, thicker wire across the back, doubling it around the broken one. But it’s all super secure now – unless something else decides to take place.
So, indeed the portal has ignited.
A lot of acknowledgments continue to roll in, including the clock numbers. We all see the repetitive numbers a lot these days, but sometimes the experience is heightened. That’s been the case the last couple of weeks where I’m seeing the numbers like crazy every single day and multiple times a day. This includes seeing my birthday 2:26 on the clock all the time – both during the day and waking up to seeing it during the night.
And speaking of night and sleep, I had another incredible bear dream the night of the Leo Full Moon of the the 12th. This time it had both cubs and momma bear in it.
There were two larger sized cubs that were following me and wanting in the house that I was in, in the dream. Every time I opened the door, they snuck in and wanted to play. I couldn’t keep them out. They always discovered the door I opened and would get in. The cubs were relentless about wanting to be with me.
I thought momma bear must be close and kept looking for her, as I didn’t want to upset her that the cubs were with me. Then I saw mom appear from the woods, but to my surprise she was human – although I knew she was bear in essence. A shapeshifter perhaps.
She carried in her arms a smaller, third cub and I noticed that when she stepped forward in view by the trees that she had a very pregnant belly underneath a long gown. She reminded me of the Empress card in Tarot, which is interesting since I’m a three in numerology by birth number and that is associated with this card. Momma bear had three cubs and one on the way.
She brought the little cub into the house and laid him snug inside an open dresser drawer lined with soft material to sleep.
That’s all I remember, but it was so clear and stayed with me.
I told Dave about my dream and even he said, “Wow you are constantly dreaming of bears.”
Yes indeed!
I’ve also been in a pattern again of dreaming about so many people I know, even if I’m not in contact with them regularly, like a collective streaming of communication and connection happening seamlessly.
And speaking of connection, we got to enjoy a beautiful celebration weekend with my family for my brother’s 55th birthday at the beginning of this month. We also celebrated an early one for me since we wouldn’t be down again until early March.
We ended up spending two nights with them because a snow storm was starting and we didn’t want to get caught on the roads in the event it got as bad as they were predicting.
It didn’t end up being that big, but we were happy we followed our intuition and it gave us more family time to enjoy.
Going down early provided a window to hit one of our favorite fun spots in Reno for lunch, try a new place with vegan baked goods, enjoy a short walk by the river, and do an errand.
I finally got a photo with my favorite momma and baby whale sculpture downtown too!
Snow by us, meant rain down in the valley and that produced this beautiful rainbow when we arrived at my parent’s house.
This was the view from the front door.
Game nights, talks, and yummies are all a part of family fun time. In fact, two of the gifts we brought my brother were new games, which we all played together.
On the morning of my brother’s birthday we woke to this gorgeous, shifting sunrise view through the blinds and windows that looked like a celebration from the heavens!
This was the amazing vegan cake my dad made for my brother that we enjoyed in the beautifully decked out dining room after mom’s delicious meal.
Dave and I even hit the gym at the clubhouse by my parent’s house on both days and I had my usual deep and shifting talks with my brother. This one was a timely, major breakthrough talk perfectly aligned with the changes and my birthday.
On our way home on the 8th, we saw three coyotes following each other in a perfect line, in a field near our house.
And that first night back home, after the powerfully shifting talks with my brother I had another powerful dream.
In the dream I was receiving a blood transfusion in a place that felt different than here. There were actually a couple of other people also receiving a transfusion, but what I realized is that mine was different. They were each receiving human blood and I was receiving rabbit blood. And the interesting way that this was being given to me was by tubes in my mouth that made it so that I needed to swallow the blood.
Interesting given this took place before I started my painting and after talks that involved discussions including my rabbit companions and missions.
Anyway, while that storm of the 6th didn’t end up as big as they thought, the second one did and we were grateful for that.
On the 12th and 13th, just before Valentine’s Day, we got our biggest storm of the season that brought 16 fresh new inches of snow at our house and 28 inches to the ski mountain above us.
We’re very happy about that, as we haven’t had a very big Winter this year so far.
This brought enough for us to have some good snow shoeing this past weekend too, which was perfect to do with our friends who invited us over to do an early birthday celebration for me.
This included the outdoor fun, relaxing, a meal and birthday cake they made for me, game time, and a two-round sound healing session by the guys before we hit the sack for a fun overnighter.
After walks and snowless beach days, we’re back to Winter enchantment, more skiing, and snow is hanging around finally at the house.
February seems to be the new month for Winter Wonderlands to kick in, which adds to birthday fun and magick.
Birthday celebrations have definitely begun and I love that the bunnies are in full and high gear along with me!
I’m looking forward to what’s up ahead, but am feeling super grateful for all that’s here now.