Monthly Archives: February 2023
Until I’m on the Other Side ~ Last Post Until March & Offerings are Ready!
Another storm system just blew through yesterday and appears it will be ongoing through early March, to include being a special birthday gift to this Winter baby. This certainly has been the biggest snow levels we’ve seen in ages and I’m grateful for the enchantment it is adding to my big shift day, for the water to ease our droughts, and for the best snow I’ve ever skied in that helped me to make the huge strides I have with my skiing.
I’m still in awe of the timing for my bold evolution on the slopes that made for a perfect send off from my 40’s into a decade of number 5 beginning years – my favorite!
We experienced a very contrasting few days to the cold of this storm, as almost balmy winter temps surrounded us until yesterday.
This made for a perfect lakefront walk with expansive vistas like the ones scattered through this short post. My favorite is the first one, which made me feel both like I was walking on another planet and that there was pure, limitless potentials ahead.
I also love the icy colors, so resonant to my Pisces heart.
Walking along my favorite lake is always so nurturing and nourishing. It was a great way to breathe in the changes blowing through and continue to release anything I don’t want to carry forth into this new decade and second half of my life.
I may have more words after I get on the other side of my birthday, but for now I’m sitting with the vibration I want to embody here forth and how best I can strengthen that frequency and fully commit to the harmonic notes of my new song. I sense that I’ll be living with greater clarity and conviction as part of this shift.
This will be my last post until the beginning of March and after my birthday, as I have a long weekend of birthday celebrations igniting on Friday, and a sweet friend arriving as part of my birthday surprises.
Now that I’ve cleaned my plate, I plan to spend the first few weeks, after my birthday, immersed in the new frequencies, deep in receptive meditation, and communing with Astrid, my crystals, and Cosmic friends. I feel a ton of downloads ready to pour through that will take my focus. We also have a tropical journey upcoming, which will support this new expanse, so March may be a bit more quiet on my end while I really stretch my legs, arms, fins, and wings into this new cycle.
Synchronously, I’ve been receiving energy from a couple of super high-vibed lightning strike crystals that were recently joined with a powerhouse queen sister whose melted zig-zag lightning strike is nearly 4 inches long. So, the energies here are gently explosive since they don’t have that turn your world upside down in a surprising Tower card energy way. No, these are very different energies that are fifth dimensional and beyond.
This is the kind of shift that places the hugest a-ha within you about your manifestation abilities, your merely needing to allow rather than work hard, and the wholeness of you being right here and now – as well as the rest around you, if you can see with heart perspective. I’ve also been having lightning clarity and exact flashes of info I couldn’t have known. This feels like riding the telepathic streams and what would seem as psychic insights, but are merely about stepping into the stream rather than standing on the bank looking at it and trying to fish out pieces of info that float by.
I look forward to this becoming more consistent and fluid and wish for all of us to continue in that kind of alignment.
So with that, I continue to put one foot in front of the other and boldly move into each step with all of me.
And if you are interested in any new friends joining the path you’re walking, as promised the crystal offerings are up and ready here:
Buds A-Blooming Birthday Bash ~ 2/22 Crystal Offering
And I swear I did NOT plan this, but right after I uploaded that page, I noted there were 22 offerings! Another “accidentally on purpose!” LOL! (Update: 9 still looking for their home)
Sending you a wave of love!
See you on the other side!
Accidentally on Purpose ~ Crystals Who Know What We Can Only Trust
Tonight’s Super New Moon in Pisces (here anyway on PST and in the wee hours of the 20th for EST and the rest of the time zones) felt like the perfect doorway to share a small window look at one of our favorite things – crystals. With the intentional landscape of a New Moon coupled with Pisces season, this also adds to that expansive potential crystals so beautifully support us with on every level we may desire, along with how to bring that through the physical.
And coupled with Saturn moving into Pisces on March 7th, you may be preparing for a new personal, as well as collective era, that guides you to find strength in your vulnerability while also establishing more committed and disciplined structures to your creative and spiritual practices…in essence, grounding and integrating spirit into flesh and really living, embodying, and being able to manifest all of those wonderful dreams and inspirations. Yay!
Self care and self ritual, relative to you, will become key if not already established as vital in your life. Astrid knows how important good rest, healthy sustenance, exercise, and play are.
Staying on the surface is no longer a luxury, but you can bring forth your depths to the surface and this is actually quite needed – walking the walk of your sacred path.
Thinking of new aspects of your life you want to embark upon, heal and integrate at greater depths, anchor more solidly, or change?
Crystal beings can be your best friends and guides for the journey. Although not for everyone, more people are discovering how life can experience an upleveling when these amazing beings step into it.
From observations I’ve made, I’m seeing that many of us are feeling their call more than ever these days – even if we don’t yet know why. For some of us, their voice has never grown dim, and yet if you’re like me – you may have been experiencing a fresh wave of crystal friends joining your team in recent years, because they and we (our higher selves that is) knew what was coming and what would be needed.
There’s been a huge uptick in incredible synchronicities like never before that are taking place where crystal and human meet. The stories I hear and have been experiencing are no short of being wild – even for those of us who already have wild experiences. Some magnificent and truly enchanting crystals are coming to the forefront, asking to find their keepers like…now, calling out with laser-like megaphones (HELLOOO), and literally feel like they’re unearthing themselves because the time is here.
So many of us have crystal partnerships as part of our soul signature across the ages. Whether we specifically remember or not, their presence long outdoes our own, at least in human form. On other levels, we’re all made of stardust. And being that they literally draw upon both Earth and Cosmic energies, what splendid bridges they are to the very heart of the matter – how to integrate spirit and flesh at the clearest of frequencies possible in each moment.
They can be direct, tricky, humorous, playful, courageous, regal, impish, and undefinable….we’ve barely scratched the surface of many of them, and rightfully so, as we’re on a pilgrimage to navigate unchartered dimensional landscapes. It’s best, in my opinion, to break down the boundaries of one’s mind and never try to stick a crystal, or anything for that matter, into a box, as you’ll have your mind blown every time you do.
We have many support systems around us to assist with these changes on Earth and the transmutation of consciousness as we know it for the human race. Crystals are beacons for the coming New Age, as their wisdom is timeless and helps bridge the gap between past and future in the present. They speak to our origins and provide a stream to navigate our way back to that, and beyond that!
Wow, think of that! Beyond our origins?! Now that’s flipping the paradigms and inviting in true creative potential.
Astrid and I have been focused on and gearing up for a lot of potent journeying here, as new and old crystal friends have been emerging in our lives in a fresh way and finally have come to settle in their gridded places so the fun can begin. Some arrivals (and departures) have been both anticipated and surprising, but the crystal beings always know, even when we don’t. I recommend leaning into trusting those inner heart fluctuations and tiny voices, as they whisper of higher self guidance that the crystal family reflects like the clearest of mirrors.
We’ve been enjoying the integration process for quite some time, allowing the crystal family to discuss things together, reacquaint themselves, figure out their teams and positioning themselves for timely unveiling while we did our own personal work and preparation for the next leg of the adventure. It’s no wonder I’ve been mirroring some of the crystal beings in my newer embodiment and behaviors – for example several of my “dragon” crystals have truly inspired the fire within to take on big things with a grounded courage like never before.
Some of the preparation has also included finally being ready to reveal their names to me, which will continue in streams of downloads quite quickly I sense. The first already touched down on 2/11 in announcing herself, which I feel was the introduction we were all waiting for before everyone else would fall suit.
I saw her only briefly during a scan of a large table of crystals and her imprint remained on my heart. Like with most things these days, it was a familiar surprise, but it only took that moment to see her to create a boundary to all others from the group except her. I waited, confirmed, checked in with Astrid, and we became as one, even though I didn’t really know how that would happen. There was no accident to my seeing just her, as her heart light was on purpose to ignite my own. And the rest did in fact work itself out, as it always does.
She arrived on 2/8 and the next day I heard a whisper that told me her name would begin with an “E”. At the time, I was receiving a hint of a shorter name, but it felt like how you try to tune an old radio by playing with the dial. I was getting a snippet, but hadn’t landed on the clear channel yet. Later, I realized this also indicated her nickname was shorter too. Then on 2/11 it came in loud and clear while I was engaged in things around the house, allowing my mind to become an antennae. I find that when our minds are at rest, rather than “trying,” or the left brain is focused on a task, then the right brain is free to wander the ethers. At least that’s how my bilateral operating works.
Esmeralda came through “crystal” clear in the middle of no thought about a name.
I knew right away it was her sending me her name like an arrow through my heart. I didn’t know for certain that the meaning was what I thought it might be, so I looked it up to confirm and get clarity.
Of course! Esmeralda means emerald and although she isn’t a literal emerald, she IS a magnificent, giant (about 8 pound), green chlorite phantom (with layers upon layers of phantoms in fact) Lemurian from Diamantina, MG, Brazil.
In my book, her energy is quite regal and it’s not surprising she would identify as an emerald. We all know how I constantly write about the heart chakra being the Emerald Bridge – which I received as the name that encapsulated my work/path many years ago. She has rainbows (one massive one, in fact, that winked at me when we first met), a huge time link, is self healed and her bottom is fully elestialated, creating a rocket ship effect (weeeeee!) both literally and energetically, and making her spectacular no matter which way you hold her. And as I shared with her midwife and previous guardian, Lisa, whom her giant sister resides with, “…but really which way is up or down? As above so below.”
Even though she’s polished, her deep, deep Lemurian lines still come through. And I love how she shifts so much in different lighting, revealing new worlds at every turn.
Peering into her is like traveling dimensions, space, and time.
Her sister, Constellina (aka Radar), the giant green phantom Lemurian Mother of all green chlorite phantoms, resides with Lisa and weighs in at 121 pounds. She is a huge, otherworldly cluster beyond words, who has many babies and incredible ties to a load of potent crystals in one way or another. I’m just humbled and honored that her sister Esmeralda has come home to me. I’ve known her for ages and the time was now for the next leg of the journey. Lisa released the babies from Constellina’s pocket recently, and Esmeralda was part of that. Lisa actually refers to her as a sister to Constellina, which feels right to me too. Esmeralda looks just like Constellina, but instead of having many points, she is one giant point.
I’ve since learned that Esmeralda also loves the nickname Emma.
Emma, I learned by looking it up, just happens to mean “whole,” “universal,” or “all containing” and reflects the regal energy Esmeralda emanates, as it has “royal roots that for centuries was synonymous with regal figures”. She was very specific about her nickname only being Emma and not Esme or Emmy, or any celestial type of name.
Even though she’s a heart bridge between Earth and Cosmos, she’s very clear on having a more Earth-based name that reflects her high frequency, but maintains grounding. This is because she holds the vibrational keys for creating a New Earth – hence assists in both personal and collective work.
Anyway, there you have her – well, just a start to her, that is. She deserved a larger introduction, although we’ve but only cracked open the door to our partnership and work together. She’s busy preparing the space and working with everyone here to set up the next steps. Her place is directly to the right of where I sit at my desk, so we can see each other and work together daily in partnership, while my other cocreator, Astrid, lays by my feet. Together, we create a Trinity.
I introduced her to Astrid after I made my first connection with her. Astrid had been napping and when she saw Esmeralda, she immediately welcomed her, but then took steps back and stood for a while in reverent silence. Two powerhouses re-meeting, and both sharing their respect for one another, giving each other the space needed. You can see that in the photos and short video below.
Astrid has been very, very active recently in telling me what crystals she/we need here and tuning in very specifically. Because of this, I have to take my time checking in and communicating to understand clearly who is to join. I don’t always know why, well most of the time I don’t lol! But Astrid is the navigator of the unknown and I’m to trust in her and what I feel from the crystals, despite not being given details. I’m on a need to know basis only.
The same recently happened with a smoky elestial amethyst that arrived on Winter Solstice, accidentally on purpose. This was her Solstice gift from me and she absolutely LOVED her new friend, as you can see in the photos.
Astrid is a master crystal worker so I listen to her guidance and desires on what crystals to bring into our lives, how to work with them, and which ones she particularly wants to work with. And as you can see she didn’t miss a beat beginning immediate work with her new friend. This crystal is amazing and in the form of a pyramid – one of Astrid’s favorite shapes – well both of ours!
I placed it on the ground and she came over right away, ending up spending a half an hour in deep communing and integration with it. She especially enjoyed having it placed on her crown to commence the ritual ahead. She laid her head with chin nuzzled over it as you can see, moved it in place and eventually laid with it tucked under her. Eventually she was laying flat like a bunny loaf and stayed there chattering her teeth and purring while she worked.
I shared a video of it on Instagram, but didn’t save it to add here. The photos, above, I think demonstrate well enough.
Astrid the master alchemist has been holding space with her crystal family for the changes moving through our lives and tweaking the fine threads that hold it all together. She works energy like no other and I learn so much by tuning into the tendril frequencies that run between us. I love her silver-tipped twinkle toes from which the energy she runs through her is evident in her presence. Reinvention is at hand indeed.
These are just some recent snaps I’ve taken of Queen Astrid with her crystal brethren. It’s an amazing thing to experience with her in person. Just as it’s always been to be in the presence of my soul family in rabbit and tortoise bodies over the years. Their masterful ways are incredible and never fail to produce chills in me.
And that brings me to the last crystal story I briefly wanted to share, for now. We have so much unfolding here with the crystal collective as well as new downloads, doorways finally opening, stepping stones like a yellow brick road appearing, birthday preparations, and so forth that just a few highlights were jumping forth to share as a way to help frame the transformations at hand and perhaps reflect something simultaneously for you.
So this next share is about the transformative adventure of an incredible singing Lemurian laser wand. Again, this being was so meant to be with me, and held on until I could find her – clearing a path that only made her seen to me. She’s an 11 inch long, rainbow filled, super clear pristine beauty that feels to have a collective of faeries living inside her.
Anyway, this beauty made her journey to me, and as soon as I saw the package I just knew something had happened, even though she was so well and lovingly wrapped inside. Actually, truth be told, I had a feeling something might happen so it wasn’t surprising upon learning that reality. When I opened the box, I discovered she had broken in half on her travels.
Now, if you’ve been following along for a while you may recall my post from 2012 – When Crystals Have Accidents – which happens to be one of the two top blog posts of all time here, generating nearly 200 comments over the years, many private emails, and blog reposts.
The gist of the post is that crystals, like us, go through growth spurts, transformations, and shifts and that life is about the experience. We have an idea of perfection in our minds, but perfection is however the experience unfolds.
Because of my experience with crystals over the years going through changes with chips, new growths, breakage altogether and so on, I learned what this meant and to embrace what ever the experience was showing me – then applied the same to myself. I also learned that every situation was different and therefore, tuning in was the way to receive answers.
So, when I discovered my amazing new singing Lemurian laser wand had broken in half, while there was some human mourning, there was also a seamlessly simultaneous celebration – like a death and rebirth all at once. I just knew there was a reason this happened and that she had purpose to her experience. The major break also felt to mirror the ending and beginning taking place in my own life, and that reinvention at hand.
This Lemurian was so closely connected to me, there was no doubt she and I were going through the same experience and this is also why this was the only wand of several sisters that had waited to be claimed. Our energy signatures were a match.
Fast-forward, I wasn’t sure what was to happen next, but was going to wait until she told me, or I received the answer.
Was she wanting to remain in two pieces for the journey forward?
Or, did she in fact want to be pieced together into a new form?
Her break had been nearly perfect with only the tiniest little slivers that chipped near the break. So there was a pretty clean cut that severed old and new for sure.
I decided not to do anything for a while and to see what would come to me without trying.
And it did, through Astrid.
I placed the two wand parts on the floor next to her (actually with them at a 90 degree angle to each other), feeling she would have an answer for me, and Astrid immediately started tuning in. And then the next thing that took place was wild.
It was evident what she was trying to do, in the only way her rabbit body was able to. The clear message came through her intentions and actions.
Astrid started to push the tip with her nose, grabbed the point with her teeth, and began to move them back into place, the best she could. I got huge chills, as I could hear her saying, “We need to put her together. She wants to go back now.”
Astrid did an energy shake of her head, which I caught in motion, above – confirming it was alright to help her and it was up to my human hands to now do the rest of the mending for her rebirth.
I knew I got my answer, but I still waited quite a while before I actually DID do that. Normally I wouldn’t have, but this was different. Each experience has its own journey and can’t be contained in a box of interpretation until explored individually. I then received in answer that she had deliberately done this both to break from the old version of herself to create a new one, AND because there was purpose to her harmony that the break would support.
Now, I can’t remember having heard her sing or what her tone was before her coming home to me (although I knew she did) and we weren’t sure when she broke, if she would in fact sing anymore, but I heard her say there would be depth to her song with the new form, and having cracked open, she was able to let go of the old and rigid energies, and breathe in new life with greater expansion.
So, I finally took her two wholes – as I didn’t feel she was broken, but now had two perfect whole aspects of herself we would be uniting to make a third – and mended away.
And guess what? When I struck her with my other smaller sister Lemurian singing wands, I heard at least three distinct tones.
Did she have only one before? Two? I don’t know, but my sense is one or two of these were newly created BECAUSE of her willingness to let go and recreate. She took what others would have seen as damage and redefined beauty and harmony BECAUSE of her willingness to experience life, and be okay with humbling herself into a space of embryotic renewal where leaving her mastery behind meant new mastery awaited!
Her breaking at her heart center allowed expansive depth to pour through and recreate a new and limitless love. Much like what I’ve been writing about recently and also demonstrates how the peaks and valleys of life are what enrich our lives. To know both the light and the dark is invaluable. Sometimes you have to be okay with deconstructing in order to recreate and build something more resilient.
She is singing a new song that helps one to journey through true creative potential, accidentally on purpose.
And this was a repeating theme, as I also had another powerful and balancing energy crystal recently rebirth too…in the case of this one it was a mother and child crystal and the baby literally just slid off into my hands when I picked her up. She’d been intact upon receiving her and for a while, and then one day – perhaps and likely mirroring my own rebirthing time at hand – she released with ease into the world.
Maybe one of these stories, crystal beings, relationships, or life experiences speak to you in some way. We’d love to hear any thoughts or comments you’d like to share.
And if this is your first time exploring the possibilities of crystals and new perspectives on personal growth, then we thank you for sticking around and entertaining the potential that there just might be more than you thought was going on through the little experiences in your every day life – perhaps unfolding accidentally on purpose with beauty and grace of their own.
May we honor all beings in all forms, as they are ALL powerful souls…not just the human ones.
A little heads up:
On 2/22 I will be posting/offering some special, enchanting, supportive, and potent crystal friends at our Creations & Crystal Closet page. I plan to announce it again, but just in case, you’ll know ahead. These will include a grouping of both personal releases and personally curated crystals that I have been guided to offer and only now have had time to put things together for you – well, I’ll get up what I can in time for now. In part, they are in response to requests from people who have been wanting some magickal friends and support for things they’re going through, and who in general just would like some extra magick in their lives and sacred space.
People often reach out that they’re not quite sure where to look, where to start, or so sweetly have shared their trust in pieces that come through me. There will be standalone pieces and sweet little bundles that I felt you’d love and hold some gentle, but powerful energies – I always try to find a broad range to serve different purposes and budgets – some truly faery-filled, some powerful cocreators, and others great for gridding too. You’ll see! There will also be a small collection of crystal pendants/necklaces that are also both personal releases and personally curated for you. The curated ones are some favorite stones of mine that I myself wear a lot of and thought they would be supportive to offer. The personals are out of this world, but just as with some crystals, these crystal pendants are ready to move on and continue their work where they are most needed.
There will, as always, be some amazing, little, surprise gifts included in every order and I may even offer a surprise bundle. We’ll see! I never know what’s coming through, but it was clear over the last several months from messages and nudges, that I would open briefly during timely windows to being a bridge for my friends – that’s the crystals AND you!
Also, there will be payment plans available if needed, as I always like to support intentions when the call is heard. So, if you do see/feel something that speaks to you when they become available, don’t be afraid to reach out so that I can reserve something that is meant for you.
And now I would like to end with a moment of silence in honor of Dave’s stepdad who transitioned, making his way back to the stars on 2/15…..
I’m grateful we got to spend some fun family vacations with him over the years – including some ski trips. Both Dave and I had some incredible connections with his stepdad on the day he passed. Mine was empathic through my body, which messaged he would be passing that day…and Dave’s was a beautiful connection that I believe helped him to pass with ease.
Holding the good memories at the forefront and feeling the continued wave of interconnected energies as souls move on these days to places where they can better support the shifts. It’s not easy, but the more we connect through our hearts, the more we can help one another through it. We’re grateful he was at peace in his transition, surrounded with family and in the place he loved with those he loved.
Feeling the bridge strengthen between the opening veils ever-more strongly these days.
The Peaks & Valleys of the Creative Process
The video below is from a talk given by the multi-talented singer, songwriter, record producer, and actress Lauryn Hill to high school students back in 2000 that journeys through creativity and spirituality in its themes. It’s a great talk in its entirety, if you ever want to listen, of which I’m sharing this just over 10 minute clip from. The whole 10:26 minutes is really wonderful, but I was particularly taken by what she shares in response to the question at 5:30 because it mirrored so much of what my take-aways have been recently from the skiing journey I’ve been using as a metaphor in my own life. It also speaks to why creativity at its best, is not to be rushed, as the in between phases are truly where the magick lies.
There’s no randomness to why this clip found me yesterday, and so I thought to share the alignment of that synchronicity in a blog today, as Lauryn so eloquently and simply expresses the concept I had shared in my own way in a recent blog. It feels like a supportive message to reiterate, as it speaks to the places we find ourselves descontructing and reinventing as individuals and a collective right now.
Again, the whole video is great, but if you want to skip to this part, you’ll see what I mean. The question is at 5:30 and the actual answer is around 6:00 minutes.
In those last four plus minutes she describes the creative process and how it needs to include experiences that teach you.
Given my mountain ski experiences, I especially resonate with her metaphor of life as peaks (mastership) and valleys (learning/study) – getting to the top of a mountain with mastery, but that once you’re on top you have to go down again, which is the learning or studying experience. Staying at the top of the mountain, or trying to hold onto the mastership there, will get you stuck. You can’t stay there forever and have fresh substance and depth to your creativity, so you will need to descend with trust and let go of everything you know, which brings you to the foot of another hill or mountain that you then learn how to navigate differently, ascend, master, and so on.
These are the excerpts from my blog post that her eloquence mirrored in my own way of expressing it:
Skiing has become a metaphor for so much and a guiding force for the fresh path I want to carve.
For me, growth isn’t about the climb up the mountain, but how to get down. This equates to the deconstructing process in order to rebuild. There are fears and unknowns to journey through when you are removing the comforts of what you’ve always known. The steps aren’t clear, therefore the way down is one turn at a time.
To go further asks for a total flip of perspective on progression. Rather than finding the positions of accomplishment to be defined by “higher,” they are simply new positions that might also require going “deeper.”…
I face the downhill with the same patience and presence the uphill climb involves, taking it in stride, with no pressure or time frame to fly at top speed. The snow makes the terrain a fresh journey layered over an old one, and this is how evolution looks – integrating old and new on a whole new level.
Love is…A Page from My Journal of the Heart
Another Love Day floats upon snowflakes into our hearts this Winter season and again reminds us that every single day and moment is an invitation to open our hearts wider, share more love, and deepen into the vortex of feeling – the space where transmutational potential lies.
I thought I’d share a few of the things that love stirs up in me and that of course includes my loves! They deserve an extra mention on this day, as just one sweet way I can highlight Love Day, which in my book is every…single…day…I’m alive.
To give love, feel love, share love, spread love, experience love, is the breath of life, in my book, and any way we do that – be it with others, through our passions and gifts, with the Earth at large, or with ourselves, love is always something we can never have enough of and thank goodness there’s never any limit to it either.
So here are the loves in my daily life sharing a little love celebration of togetherness, fun, synchronicity and potent energies in recent days, helping to make today’s share a little bit of a gratitude journal for them being a part of my journey and daily experiences.
Of course, I have many other loves – including extended blood and heart family, friends, creative passions of my own, and things at large in the world that span all of the elements too! Know that you are all receiving a love bomb from my heart! I see you and am grateful for each and every one of you, and each and every experience made possible because my heart beats.
Here’s cutie number one. Dave.
Although we really do our best to embrace each day, Dave and I decided to have an early Valentine’s celebration on Sunday with a date lunch and outing. Check out that sweet little “Love” gnome connecting our hearts and stealing the spotlight!
We also enjoyed some delicious giant, vegan, Belgium chocolate covered strawberries I found us to indulge on. Mmmmm! Strawberry love bombs indeed!
After a yummy Thai lunch, we thought we were headed to our local symphony performance, but discovered the date had been changed when we arrived at an empty parking lot. Lol! No worries, we water signs adapt, so we’ll head to the rescheduled event next Sunday and decided to replace the symphony with a movie at our local theater.
We haven’t been to the movies in several years, and were really happy we waited to watch the new Avatar movie – The Way of Water in 3D, as we both loved it. There were only four other people in the theater, so we felt like we were in our own special viewing. It couldn’t have been more perfect for this “Water Rabbit” year, two water signs, the Winter season, and to underscore some collective messaging it held. The movie is three hours and nearly 15 minutes long, but neither of us felt we were there that long, as the entire movie just “flowed”.
We didn’t know we’d be watching this movie, but I just happened to be wearing my sparkly “water and forest nymph” inspired earrings a friend custom made for me and was draped in shades of mermaid colors. The earrings were the perfect blend of energy for the movie since the characters move from being forest dwellers to water dwellers.
It was a simple day out, but all really enjoyable and made for another day of gratitude.
And we concluded our day watching another movie back at the house with our sweet little family – this threesome who awaits our return home and LOVES family time.
Valentine’s Day wouldn’t be complete without mentioning the love and bond shared with our fur babies and best friends. They are no different to us than human children and friends, and in fact are the greatest guides in my life.
And since I haven’t shared photos of Sweet Pea and me together, I decided she should get a spotlight being loved on by mom. We took these together before Dave and I headed out for our early V-Day.
She’s a complex little one, who is very thoughtful and tuned in, sensitive, and a nurturer. She’ll pretend not to care, but she cares A LOT!
Then we all know the infamous Boojum for his wild and wacky ways and the love affair he has with his momma! He’s never too far, always wanting to be right under everything I’m involved in – including breakfast!
“How could anything be more important than me?” he says.
And of course there’s this girl…the one and only Queen Astrid.
Ta-da! This picture speaks for itself.
I’ve shared before how “Astrid demonstrates the importance of leaning into love and how you can never have enough of it. I agree wholeheartedly and have seen this work wonders in my own life. While she is a strong force who stands in her power, she knows that her true power comes from opening more to love.
I can’t express how much she’s offered her vulnerable heart to me since first this became her home. Yet now she seeks me out to both give and receive love, knowing how softening into being nurtured means our bond creates a stronger light and life force. It is also the alchemy for transformation on so many levels.
She knows that love is strength and we are only weak when we cut off the heart’s desire to merge with mission. Together this creates wisdom and grace.”
And of course, she and I share a love and alchemical bond with our crystal family, and they’ve been helping to navigate this new, expansive terrain of heart and mission merged. A perfect highlight for days filled with love!
So I’ll end for now with this photo taken just a little over a week ago at my parent’s house.
This is me and Chamuel, the Master Lemurian that resides at their home – one I gifted her years back. This amazing one channels Archangel Chamuel whose name came through my mom upon working with him. He is the last of my giant crystals still with us.
He truly helps you drop into the power of your heart, the peace and harmony possible, and how to be a bridge for unconditional love through all relationships you have – including other and self.
I hope you can feel the love beaming from his heart and mine – together! And that you will take a moment to acknowledge and share gratitude for the things in your life that stir your heart to love even more – even if that is simply and powerfully YOU!
Chamuel feels like the perfect way to end today’s share, but segue to the next blog installment that I sense will feature Astrid, crystals, and some crystal offerings from our hearts to yours.
May you feel the love that you are and know that it is present in everything within and around you – whether you can see it or not.
Where you are triggered, love is the voice crying out from that pain.
Where you feel warmth, love is the voice asking for more kindle to that flame.
Whimsical Wednesdays Dragons & Mythical Beings: Releasing Primal Patterns & Revealing Dreamscapes – Part 3
I found it quite synchronous that I stumbled upon this post today, just two years and ONE day later. How’s that for timing? When I reread the dream at the beginning I got the strong nudge to reblog it for its collective messaging – not just my own. There’s so much in it that I feel reflects so much currently taking place and some supportive words toward that. It was also interesting that Faery sis Laura had reblogged a post herself today titled Synchronicity and Inner Guidance, to which I immediately texted her because the opening paragragh dream tidbits directly reflected things in my own life that were too ironically funny not to share. In any event, I feel the underscoring of paying attention to signs, messages, intuitive nudges, and also to the thoughts and feelings you are carrying and speaking moment-to-moment.
Today’s blog post concludes the intuitively guided series of connected dreamscapes that felt important to share, as they are layered with coded messages beyond what I’m even reflecting in interpretation. I’ve been sharing them after having integration time and letting them process behind the scenes, so in fact today’s dream is actually one I had on the night of Tuesday 2/2/21 of last week. You can read or revisit Part 1 and Part 2 at the links provided.
This dream is a little bit different and also connects my most recent sacred tattoo design project I’ve been working on, as you’ll see – I love how everything is always interconnected and aligned in timing.
On 2/2 the dream took me through a sequence of really big magick happening. I can’t even begin to describe what all was unfolding, but it was layered and all-encompassing, spanning across the Earth collective, but…
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The Black Rabbit Made Me Do It
Holy rabbit cannoli!
This was me on 2/7 (my brother’s birthday) and day 33 of skiing for the season – the biggest day of my skiing journey yet!
To say that it being the 33rd day was auspicious enough, and on my brother’s special day after I had just talked to him – the person who’s encouraged my Mars energy for years, this day also took place after adorning my ski helmet for the first time with stickers, on a day I was on my own, and just 19 days away from my BIG birthday.
Again, this share is for all of you who have ever had a fear, are in process of learning something new, have felt frustrated with an endeavor, or simply are in transition from one phase of life to another.
While Dave was recently away on his heli-skiing adventure, I was having a helluva ski adventure of my own – a milestone to reflect my milestone birthday.
I didn’t have it planned, nor did I ever even think this day would happen, as I’ve been just flowing with being in my zone and with the occasional uptick in exploration. Well, Monday kicked in the start of the biggest stretch of that pilgrim-of-the-Cosmos within me, which then took it to Capricorn new heights Tuesday.
I already shared about the initial shifts with my skiing journey that I now realized started on 1/31 – my mom’s birthday! Must be something about us edging toward the Pluto in Aquarius energies in March that we get to experience before full blown transformative Aquarian years of the same, because both my mom and brother are Aquarius and I have two planets in Aquarius including Jupiter. So fortunate things come through Aquarius energy for me.
That’s a lot of stuff, which in simple terms speaks to an opportune alignment of beneficial energies in my world.
There was also something about this Leo Full Moon on the 5th that added extra oomph to things. We had another snow storm here that started the night before the 5th, but kicked in full gear in the wee hours and first half of the day of the Full Moon itself.
At the house we got another nine inches and there was like two feet at the highest elevations.
I read somewhere that the Sierra snow pack is currently the highest it’s been in thirty years. So, we’re definitely having quite a Winter, which has been supportive for my skiing evolution, since the good snow supports the leaps I’ve been taking.
I took these next photos on the night of the Full Moon, just before bed. Everything outside was aglow. It was so beautiful I went to different windows to snap shots at back, on the side, and front of the house. Our neighbors across the street have lights on their home, so there was a feeling of Christmas still, but the sky was just so – something! I love how the light makes these look like black and white photos. These were taken without flash – that’s just how bright the Moon is on a snowy landscape.
Dave had taken off on Friday the 3rd and taking him to the airport meant time at my family’s house so we could have an early birthday celebration for my brother.
On the way to the airport I saw the bald eagle for a second time, which I’d mentioned in an earlier post just days before. This time Dave got to see him too. I am familiar with his tree and have seen a pair perched there before. I was happy Dave got to see him too, feeling to me a confirmation of a great trip for him.
I told my parents about the bald eagle and the pair I’ve seen on that tree on drives to and from Reno. Upon leaving their house I said to them, “I wonder if I’ll see the pair again on the way home.”
And of course, what do you think happened?
The pair was in the same tree where hours before Dave and I had seen the one.
I also saw my wild mustang friends and twelve hawks, as well as an amazing pyramidal eye sky portal.
I only managed to safely get the above photos, but I felt so supported into the days following that I would have to myself.
After a deep clean, refresh of the entire house and reorganization and rehoming of my crystals, which involved gridding them and placing them where they could do their best work, I got a lot of good time to myself to ignite things.
The fresh energies and what has been created here with my crystal family is out of this world. We – Astrid and I – are ready to blast off! Everything has been kicked up ten notches and the feeling is potent beyond anything I’ve experienced yet.
And then, the beginning of what I started this post off with began.
Monday, I decided to go skiing on my own and went up for just an hour. There’s something about getting out on the lifts and mountain that is refreshing and peace-inducing to set the tone for the day, and then there’s the independence factor of going out doing something less familiar, with bravery riding along in my pocket.
It was a perfect day of sunshine, no wind, great temperature and awesome new powder. These factors, along with my feeling really good, everything working in unison, and the energy on the mountain being peaceful, aligned to kick in day one of stretching my rabbit legs.
Oh! I forgot to mention that on Thursday I decided to remove the manufacturer stickers on my helmet and the long-time Ace of Spades on the front that people have come to know me by. I remembered I had some rabbit stickers and so I placed three of them on the helmet in front and on both sides, and on the back top I put a Moon with ferns sticker (not shown).
The rabbit in the red scarf on front is from a friend I met on Instagram and fellow rescue rabbit mom and artist – who used to be a tattoo artist – Kate Davies whom I also have a couple of precious rabbit prints from that are framed in my and Astrid’s room.
Anyway, this seemed to go along with my colorful new ski apparel – some of which have rabbits riding along on the inner tags – as well as my courage to be seen out on the slopes as myself.
It hit me later, how perfect it was that the black rabbit was front center, being that we’re in the Year of the Black Water Rabbit!
So, here I am on Monday feeling good wearing my rabbit helmit for the very first time and my pants with rabbits on the back. And as I approach a run I’ve only seen from the lift, I wonder.
Could THIS be the day I try it?
It actually looks pretty wild even from the lift and many times isn’t groomed, but on this day it was groomed and the snow was great….and T was feeling great.
I stood at the edge looking down. Standing tall, with composure, and taking in everything around me with all of my senses like the black rabbit at the helm of my forehead. The name of the run includes “Chute” and it really is just that. It narrows and funnels along these rolls of steep hills, one after another, and kind of shoots you out. It’s a Blue (intermediate run), but an advanced one, which I would say parts of it are Blue/Black.
Needless to say, away I went and did it!
I hadn’t ever tried it before and never with Dave. I always thought it just wasn’t for me. It was an unknown, but I went for it.
And guess what? I made it just fine. No falls, without fear, and actually enjoyed it.
When I got to the bottom of the run it meets at a junction to a Black run right next to it. I took this photo to show Dave so he could see what I did.
You can’t actually see the crazy run I did because it’s hidden by the trees to the left. The one to the right is the bottom of the Black run. But I knew Dave would know where I was and could only have gotten there by doing one or the other. LOL!
While I stood there, I eyed the Black run on the right – of which again that’s just part of it – and placed the thought in my back rabbit pocket.
But boy was I proud of myself and wondered about the rabbits on my helmet upon my head – the part of my body associated with Mars energy. That black rabbit, standing tall and leading the way, with her scarf flying in the wind.
Had she planted the seeds of thought in my head, grateful for taking her out to play in the fortunate Black Rabbit energies of the year?
Once again, I had surpassed my latest achievement of the most advanced Blue run I did with Dave AND on my own just days before.
I returned the next day, Tuesday, for another jaunt out on the mountain wearing my ski thumpers and rabbit attire.
As usual, I allowed the day’s energy to dictate my flow, feeling into everything within and without. The snow was still in great condition from our weekend storm and my heart felt so too.
I did a couple of runs to see how everything was working and how the energy of the mountain felt.
I then decided I would just take a peak at that Black Diamond run that conjuncts at the bottom with the one I did the day before. This is actually one of Dave’s favorite runs that he does all of the time.
I told myself, “I will just go look and see what it’s like and how I feel standing there. I can always turn around.”
This was the view.
It’s quite different looking at these runs in person from the top and bottom – photos seem to skew the depth, but you get an idea.
Black runs are considered the most demanding and for more experienced skiers….OR those who dare.
I guess I dared that day. Or the Black Rabbit in me did.
I stood there for a few minutes with my rabbit senses on full blast and then I saw myself slowly flowing down the top of the run.
I knew once I let go, there was no turning back. I had established the path was forward and one way or another I would need to figure out a way through it. It was a leap of faith – of ultimate trust in myself that I had my own back and would get myself down.
I got about a third of the way down and stopped to snap the first photo this blog kicked off with, as I just HAD to document the unprecedented event. I was a bit nervous to take it, as standing on such a slanted edge and bracing myself with just my skis is kind of not the norm feeling. LOL! But there we are (in the photo) – me and my Black Rabbit companion, navigating the way from the cockpit of my third eye.
Then I continued on.
So far so good. This isn’t so bad, I thought. Wow, I’m doing it.
I got about half way where it plateaued a bit and you can’t see over the edge unless you’re standing at it.
Well, that’s where things changed.
Up until that point, I could see the terrain I was navigating, but this terrain ahead was one I could not see…until now.
Since I had never done this run before, Dave had never told me about it since I never thought I’d be doing it, and you can’t really tell from the lift what it’s like – even though you better believe I scoped it out on the way up JUST in case this rabbit girl decided to do something REALLY out of the ordinary, I didn’t know how it flowed.
Now I did.
At this point where I stood looking over the edge, it was REALLY steep. Not that the rest of it hadn’t been, as the past me would never have wanted down any of what I just came through.
Okay, this is what Black Diamond means. The next section I had to get down, to me, seemed as if it was nearly vertical.
Now, if this had been me at any other moment but this day, especially the me from before this season or even a few weeks ago, this is the kind of run I would have either sat down and cried about, refused to do and taken my skis off and shimmied down, or would have had a few unpleasant, terrifying falls from – all the while being petrified even to move. So all that I just said may have just played out in my mind like a horror movie while I remained frozen.
Not only was I standing at this crazy edge, but I was without Dave near by in case I fell and needed help up – as falling on steep runs is REALLY hard to get up from on your own.
But, the Black Rabbit was with me or perhaps WAS me. The Water Rabbit who rules this realm and knows just how to flow with it.
It just so happened that nobody came down this hard part while I was facing it and so it was like a time-out-of-time present that opened up just to encapsulate me in this momentous experience.
I didn’t stand there for more than a minute and away I went, as I knew if I overthought it, that wasn’t going to help me. I had to lean into trusting myself.
But I was not without a racing rabbit heart going faster than ever before and some really hard breathing. I instinctively got low like a rabbit and tucked into my turns, finding myself moving through them pretty fluidly. I wasn’t able to go the really slow speed I usually like to do, because of the steepness, so I had to just keep going, staying on high alert with all parts of me in synchronized coordination, and…trust.
My heart raced faster and faster…the fastest I’ve ever felt it…and I knew I really was a rabbit in these moments. I was feeling that rush of adrenaline that rabbits do when the fight or flight hormone kicks in and increases their heart rate like crazy.
But I kept going and even though fear was acknowledged to be hanging out, my higher self took over and held fear’s hand. Rather than fear leading, another part of me took over the reins and said, “not this time – I got this.”
Who was that? It was an unfamiliar voice and presence. Very different than even the one that has gotten me through other things in the past. This voice had a power, but grace…ungraspable, yet oddly grounded, and almost hovering in the in between.
I felt buoyant on the snow, like it was keeping me afloat, and not once did my skis catch a falter. Tuck and turn, tuck and turn. My heart continuing to race at a rate that seemed inhuman or at least not capable of being sustained in a human body. It was rapid like the speed of light pulsing through me and that IS me.
I thought I might have gone out of body during this part of the experience, but in fact I now feel that a switch was flipped into the next phase of me – my Capricorn North Node light went on and it took over like cruise control while my racing heart became the catalyst.
It went so fast, like I might die from how fast, that it actually tripped a switch and made this moment, THE time.
I leapt into the vortex of the unknown and came out the black hole into a whole new world or what felt like one, looking through new eyes. I literally felt like I had traveled through a near death experience, similar to one I’ve already had, where a new me emerges from the experience.
I got to the bottom of that super steep part and stopped to the side, while other skiers and boarders came down behind me. I felt strange, in a good way. Not myself, but more myself. My heart was still racing and my body was integrating what took place. I actually stood there on my skis for a good five minutes before moving again. I kept looking at the run I’d just come down, feeling what this world felt like with all of my new parts, as if I’d just landed here from another planet.
I acknowledged the present and voiced deep gratitude.
This was my view of the bottom part of that run with violet light streaming through the trees. Again, a much more skewed perspective than what it really is.
There was an almost shock-like peace within me, unable to comprehend what just happened, but also knew explanation would pale to the actual experience. I just kept standing there, breathing and allowing my heart to return to a more normal pace, integrating the energy that had fully emerged from the birth canal and was feeling out the landscape of this new capsule it arrived in, and continuing to look at the run behind me – where I left an old piece of myself.
It all sounds kind of dramatic for what is quite a normal experience for many people, but things some take for granted can be life-shifting for others – it’s all relative and any moment can be a hinge-point to someone when things are in alignment.
I can’t really explain what happened on the mountain that day, but whether one understands what took place for me or not, there’s a bottom line to what I do know and that is, I got down the hardest, steepest run of my life without incident – a Black Diamond.
I had only once done a Black Diamond when we were on our ski safari in Colorado, but it was considered an easy Black that was more Blue (the reason I did it). And I didn’t get down it quite like I did now.
That was the ending to my day, as I felt no more need to do more. I simply kept breathing in the reality of what took place.
I’d gone up the mountain one person, and came down the mountain quite another person.
When I shared what I’d done with Dave he was wowed and expressed how proud he was of me – big time! He even mentioned that he couldn’t believe I got down that bottom part. He told me that even when he gets to that part, he’ll stop to make sure others aren’t around and that he changes the way he skis between the first part and the end, as the steepness calls for a different approach.
That all spoke to what my rabbit instincts had kicked in to do on their own.
When messaging with my sweet Capricorn friend KC who has been my Cappy hand-holder – she’s the one who got me up and down the Grand Canyon steep ledges – I said:
“Holy cecotropes!” – (for those of you who aren’t rabbit parents or know about this, these are cecal pellets or partially digested food/nutrient-packed dietary items that rabbit’s pass to eat and are essential to good health – they look like poop/feces, but aren’t) 😉 And continued to share what I did, to which she responded in part with:
“Oh my gosh who even are you?!! Wow! Good freaking job T!!! Lucky rabbit year!! Woot woot!!”
And she was right, who was this person who just did that?!
A new T indeed.
And how auspicious to have this take place just before I step into my 50th year.
Black Rabbit Birthday Bonanza indeed!
Taking things to a whole new level….again….and getting my Cappy ON!
So much keeps coming together seamlessly, including the matching energy of things here at home to create the space supportive of my new home I’ve landed in within.
My office/shared Wonderland room with Astrid has shifted a lot with the new gridding of crystals and especially a new INCREDIBLE addition to the family who sits to my right (I may share about her another time), while Astrid sits by my feet – where they both are as I type this. I’m awaiting the arrival of some special crystal babies that have appeared in dreams for my birthday to share with Astrid and the rest of our little family here to support this new cycle.
Interestingly, the day after my leap down the mountain, quite the visitor leapt into my experience.
On the morning of 2/8 I was enjoying breakfast when I heard Boojum, our black cat, making odd howls and chirps behind me. I turned and found him sitting by the window, looking down. I knew he was seeing something, so I got up to look at what it might be.
When I peered down at the snow covered yard I found a very plush and healthy looking messenger. She looked half fox and half coyote, so it was hard for me to tell at first which she was. Even that tail of hers was so fox, but I’m pretty sure it was a coyote although love that she felt like a hybrid. Her coat had a lot of tawny red in it and then smaller areas of tannish gray. I did read that coyotes can be strawberry blond and this one was definitely that. But it wasn’t only the way she looked, but the way she acted that REALLY got my attention.
She looked up and saw me, then almost like a little elf, she immediately turned with glee and literally bounced with joyful and graceful leaps, as if the snow underneath her was a cloud she pranced upon. I have never seen a coyote do this. She bounced in big strides with all fours touching the snow at once, just like you see deer prance and bounce along a field or a rabbit binky effortlessly. It was as if her feet barely touched the snow before she sprang up and out again. And she continued this for yards upon yards with no change in her gait.
It was quite the sight and so rare, because not only have I not seen this, but never seen a coyote in our yard since we have a fence. But the snow level is so high that there’s only inches to a foot between the levels on either side of the fence. So this coyote literally bounced her way in and out.
She was light as a feather and buoyant as can be, as I watched her bounce her way across the yard, then over the fence, and continue bouncing all the way into the forest. There was so much lightness, softness, and yet power in her energy. She had the presence of a shapeshifter who was much more than meets the eye and used Boojum to alert me of her arrival.
I only wish I had videoed it because it was fantastic! And it was like a living experience that mirrored the exuberant golden bear of my dream who wanted to share that powerful, alchemical joy with everyone. Wow!
Coyotes, of course, do symbolize playfulness in life, fluidity, and even sudden changes. I’ve read that they appear when you’re being initiated into the next phase of spiritual growth.
I later noticed that she had visited my office, and perhaps looked in on Astrid, as her paw prints led to our room.
I managed to grab my phone as she made it to the edge of the forest. And once she was hidden in the trees, she stopped her bouncing. You can catch a glimpse of her in the distance below.
She actually turned back before disappearing altogether, as if to make sure I got the message.
Later that night, as I drove down the mountain to pick up Dave at the airport, I saw another odd sighting. It was a small mouse running across the highway to the other side in the dark cold. She literally shot across and my headlights lit her up nearly like an apparition, as she safely reached the snow.
The sense I got was that from the dark abyss of pure innocence, something new and fresh was springing forth. It may seem small at first, but the impact potential was fertile and rich.
And all of these recent experiences feel to echo what I wrote about the heart chakra and love in a recent blog post:
Love always awaits our presence. And it’s not a fluffy kind of love, but a unifying cosmic force that both hovers in a space in between and dances like crystalline snowflakes all around the energy field – potent, but untethered, grounded, but mutable, still, but boldly all-encompassing even in the tiniest of reflections.
I found this heart in the snow a few days ago on our deck – a grounded heart made out of pure, mutable, frozen water. It also happens to mirror the energy of a dream, and a nearly exact looking crystal that’s on its way to me through some wild synchronicities.
Life definitely keeps reflecting the infinite potentials available, even when we think there couldn’t possibly be more, that there isn’t another way, or that something seems impossible.
A Message That Will Change Your Life
As I sit here enjoying a nourishing breakfast and looking out on the sunlit, newly blanketed snowscape from our storm this weekend, a White-Headed Woodpecker taps out his morning message on the large pine tree and I finally have the uninterrupted opportunity to immerse in the video you find below. I received it just before the weekend, but I knew to save it until after my deep clean, refresh of the house was done so I was an open and clear slate to receive all of the beauty I sensed was in it.
My sweet friend, Lynne, from beautiful Astoria sent me this video and I wanted to share it here with all of you.
If you watch only one video, this is the one I recommend.
I’ll let it speak for itself.
Get the tissues ready.
February 2023 Energy Update with Lee Harris: Releasing Old Identities
Just a quick post to share Lee’s new Energy Update for the month of February. The main and first theme, of course, is spot-on for me – although not just a “February thing”.
Wonder which, if any, of the following themes he shares about might feel resonant for you?
Here are the themes of the month with timestamps included so you can easily get to one that jumps out at you or reference it later for revisiting:
- Resignation from old roles, identities, and behaviors (01:59)
- This is the very beginning of new stories on Earth and in your life (05:18)
- Global control energy and density being uprooted due to ongoing disclosure + collective clarity (08:07)
- A Focus on True Health (Health is healing) (11:31)
- Energy conservation is a superpower (Gratitude and Peace reside there) (15:04)
- February energy will support the creation of new actions and directions (17:18)
- Making either the big changes or the little changes (inner and outer are always dancing) (18:53)
- When in change – remember; The Process will show you the way. (21:49)
Facing New Terrain Head On & Ready to Shine On
Today I sense a more fuller share flowing through, as I keep feeling like I’m being called away and never know for sure how long of a break it might be until the next time I pop on. As I edge closer to my big shift birthday the feeling of my presence being guided elsewhere for some ungiven time, feels more imminent. Time will tell.
There’s a strong “reinvention” energy that continues to echo persistently in my heart and inviting stronger commitment from me. It’s a deepening experience that repetitively whispers, “things have come to a natural ending” and with that letting go, surrendering, and allowing deconstruction to ensue, is what I embrace.
I can’t tell you the countless ways I walk in spaces that reflect this message and offer me opportunity to strengthen my conviction and sense of knowing that “it’s okay” and “I’m in alignment” with what I understand. There have been, what I feel to be, little tests and great teaching experiences to all help me to feel solid with the release and to give myself permission to not only feel relief, but to know I deserve to move on and truly enjoy this terrain I’ve worked toward and landed in.
I experience days flying by like liquid lightning more than ever. It seems like I hardly do much in the 3D world and it’s already bedtime. However, I do know that so much is taking place in the other realms, as I cherish my sleep for that refresh from it all. That said, dreamland is always quite active, so although my body is recharged by morning, I feel my crown in overdrive. It’s not an overbearing experience, but more of a constant motion that breaks through the partitions to become more fluid – hence a bit of mushy mind takes place while I drop details in favor of an overall essence feel of things.
Speaking of dreams, I did in fact have yet another bear dream several days ago. I’ve lost track of how many bear dreams I’ve been having over the last couple of years, but it’s wild! This last one had a group of large brown bears (grizzlies) that seemed to be occupied with something on the side of a road, gathered together in a huddle and very focused while working on it. However, when I drove by in a car, one of them immediately broke free from the group and made a dash toward me to get me to stop the car and redirect my attention away from just driving in the direction of the road I was on. It was evident that he did not want me to leave without acknowledgment and in fact wanted me to stop, redirect, and join them in this new terrain. He definitely got my attention and I feel I understand his message.
Anyway, some super cool and magickal things have been popping up around the bear energy – including a wild synchronicity that brought through some rare, golden bear crystals (and more) that mirror my Golden Bears Dream through my amazing friend Lisa I’ve mentioned before whom I’m constantly tuned in with (excited to see how that unfolds). And of course, bears always link me with Arcturian energy. So, there is both an Earth and Cosmos essence that they embody and connect very much with messages regarding highest path/potentials. Just like rabbits connect me to various planets, including Orion, these planetary connections speak to the Cosmic multi-dimensional aspects within my being – and that we all encompass. I like to be aware of the layers that are streaming through and not just focus on one particular point of reference, as that feels to me like missing the bigger picture potential.
Where was I going with all of this? Not sure, other than to relay pieces of the ever-unfolding and interwoven tapestry that may speak to some of your own current experiences. So, in that vein, let’s see what else wants through.
My life is becoming increasingly organic and seamless in terms of stuff just happening and flowing without these hard returns between synchronous experiences and connections. It’s only when I stop to share something that certain threads pop out like when you pull something tight and the pieces sometimes go “boing,” but otherwise remain fluid and smooth if the balance is maintained.
I know it may not seem so, but I actually experience things much more simply than it sounds, as it’s only when I stop to write something that the details come out like this. Things happen really quick and like a telepathic snapshot that encompasses a lot in just one feeling. When I decide to relay that in communication, whether verbally or written, I then have to unwind it all and find many words to express that one blast of energy.
That said, I feel like the majority of my life is rolling along and isn’t caught up in details so as to support a smoother and more open channel for things. In that way, also, balancing out a part of my life that IS needing ultra focus and detail even more soon. Being on high with all of one way just isn’t healthy for me at all times, so there’s a definite partnering going on of flow and focus – perfect, considering my personal, astrological placements. It took me some time to figure out how to embody these in partnership, but I’m getting it!
Living in new terrain takes a bit of an adjustment period, especially when you’ve spent most of the memories you consciously recall, being in a similar role over and over that varied only by small degrees. So, I’ve been embracing being okay with enjoying the in between and nurturing the things that feel good to me – even if that is the golden state of pure enjoyment alone.
Creating peaceful harmony as one’s life purpose is purpose enough! 🙂
Synchronously, we are edging toward the Leo Full “Snow” Moon of the 5th – 5’s have been showing up on all-time high for me, even more so than they already do in repetition – and there’s a nudge toward owning that sparkly energy within and having fun with things that make you feel like the special person you really are. It’s not about shrinking back, but arising and feeling a surge of confidence in what ever decision, direction, and stand you feel reflects your authenticity, as that dynamic powerfully supports others to do the same. There’s a dynamic creative surge that you may feel ignite and help to motivate and direct the momentum of your desires, passions, and as a result, your highest path.
Personal integrity has enriched, collective impact.
That bold, forward-moving, and courageous energy has been prevalent and I’ve seen it reflected even in my chestnut plant babies, as well as my skiing realm.
I now have an eleven inch miracle, mini chestnut tree that has just taken off with the encouragement of the others to shine and reach! It looked like all four were actually going for it for a while, but some twists and turns took place bringing some to what appears may be the end to their greatest potential, and may result in only have one or two going strong in the end. Time will tell!
Some had shorter life paths, while others would go on much longer – each doing the best they could for the time they had. In many ways they also feel to be supporting the greater good, knowing who had the most resiliency and courage, while the others nurtured that. And overall, all of them encouraging each other to simply “do the best they could for as long as they felt was in them to do.” Rather than take away from others, they would give their best to the ones who could reach to new heights for them all. No competition, simply mutual cheerleading in recognition that “other” means “me” and vice versa.
And on the skiing front, I’ve noticed a giant leap take place this season – most recently in the last couple of weeks.
It all started at the onset of this year’s skiing adventures. I found myself suddenly wanting to upgrade my ski attire to more colorful and bright clothing. This was a totally new thing for me in this realm, as I’ve had more muted ski clothes and matching pant and jacket outfits. So much so, that I kind of blended into the white, grays, and icy blues of the landscape. I made no conscious connection to it all until recently.
Ski clothes can be quite pricy, so I opted for second-hand, nearly new or never, or hardly worn, pre-owned pieces I found at huge discount at one of my favorite online shopping platforms. In this way I was actually able to get a bunch of pieces for nearly the price of one outfit that could be cross-matched to other pieces to fit my mood or the temperatures of the day.
But more so, I was able to match my ski clothes to who I really am – someone who enjoys creative, bright colors and sharing her individuality and sunshiny outlook.
It made sense why the shift happened – I was becoming comfortable in this new “ski skin” and anchored in who I was with greater confidence. In no way did it mean I’d become an expert skier – NOT AT ALL! LOL! But it meant I had established a happy zone with who I was on the slopes, felt confident in my ability to navigate things, and wasn’t afraid to shine my unique way even if it wasn’t like others on the mountain, as I have developed my own style of skiing that simply works for me. I’m sure it will continue to evolve, but it’s a recognizable “T” way.
It made me realize that in my process, I had actually shied away and hadn’t wanted to bring attention to myself in the beginning. Now I had built myself up from the inside out with a lot of diligent, committed, repetitive practice, to assure myself the hurdle of this new terrain and innate fear were no longer insurmountable. I had arrived to a new comfort zone and therefore ready to shine on within this new realm for the first time.
It was a huge realization I had recently and an empowered embodiment I was grateful to integrate.
And so, some colorful, more fun ski apparel found their way to my days. I also like the fact that the bright hues make me “more seen” on other levels too, as I feel it adds to safer skiing to have people “see” me. I know far too well how my ability to be invisible has been both an effective and not so effective thing, as I used to have extremes of this in my past to the point of people not even seeing me in my car driving and wanting into my lane. If not for my awareness, many an accident may have happened.
I so don’t want that on the slopes, so this is a good change on many fronts.
It also brought bunny support and magick to me too!
Well, a couple of the pieces I picked out “just happened” to have rabbit energy in them. What more perfect way to kick off the Year of the Rabbit AND to know that bunnies ALWAYS “have my back.” The latter now being literal, as the back of one jacket and the back of one pair of pants have bunnies “on the back” – MY back! See what I mean?
LOL! I mean, “come on!!!” Uni (my loving name for the Universe) sure has a cute sense of humor. You can imagine my face when these pieces arrived and I saw these tags.
It’s like the rabbit collective wanted to make sure I knew I was covered and had “bunny senses” keeping a keen eye, ear, nose, thumper, whiskers, and instinct to what’s going on behind and all around me so that I could feel supported with my broadening ski horizons.
And that’s exactly what I in fact also do on the slopes…I turn into a rabbit and all of my senses go on all-time high. I never skip a beat between starting the ski adventure off with a full Reiki and Cosmic energy ritual, and then making sure I’m on highest awareness alert within and without, always checking in with myself and always activating both parts of my brain. I also maintain full, conscious coordination of my parts working together, since it’s not second-nature yet, because if I for an instant don’t, I can see how I could easily lose it. This is likely why by the end of the day I’m really ready for a deep sleep, as I’m exercising ALL of me and am “ON” for the entire time I’m skiing.
Not everyone may be like that, but it’s how I operate in the ski world to keep safe and to help myself gain that courage, ability, and make something that is not second nature, become more normal. When you don’t grow up skiing, it’s definitely been my experience that it takes more effort.
Anyway, I was floored by the rabbit energy showing up in my clothes and I’ve been amazed at myself for the pioneering energy this season has brought into my ski experience. I still only stick to intermediate blue runs or more advanced green ones, but I now follow my intuition and flow each day, as to which runs and just what I might find myself doing. I tap into the energy of the snow, the landscape at large, the energy of the people that day, the weather, how I’m feeling, and how my body, heart, soul, and mind are working in unison that day. Then, moment-to-moment, I let that guide me to which slopes I ride. I used to just stick to one section that encompassed three different runs. Now, I started exploring, adventuring, braving, and even “weeing” myself through runs and terrain that once were scary to me. I even do it on my own and get around half a mountain if the moment moves me.
I like to tell Dave, “I’m a freak without warning!” (like the line from 2 Live Crew’s song from the 80’s, but meant in a silly and endearing way – we actually say our cat Boojum is the same lol) because I just randomly show up, go places, switch gears, and do things not in my usual protocol – minute-by-minute. Dave will see me popping up all over the mountain and be surprised when I do. I’m no longer predictable. 😉
Nothing extraordinary to any seasoned skier, but HUGE to someone who had to work through fears.
The amazing snow powder this year – best we’ve had in years – has also been a huge partner in my expansion, as really amazing snow supports my flow. I have a perfect partnership with the snow, knowing when it’s in the space I’m in or not, and I make my decisions accordingly.
I’ve even found myself recently in situations that again have me helping others who are just beginning and have fear. Divine alignment places me in the right space where we come together and I’ve been able to offer my support to help get them through the hurdle of facing a steep slope and getting down safely. I recognize and understand fear, therefore I am able to say and do what is needed most in those moments. It humbles me greatly to be there with them, as I know what it would mean to me.
I do have to say how proud I am of myself and that’s all that matters. I don’t think anyone else would recognize the growth in this department, which is much more than skiing itself.
To face a steeper slope without trepidation.
To feel myself filled with courage in knowing I can manage the unknowns.
To actually try something new on my own without need of support.
To repeat harder, perhaps even ungroomed runs with moguls (piles/bumps of snow on the slope) and still say “wee” when I go around them.
Yeah. Did I say this is, “HUGE” ???
It’s all brought me to a new level and navigating new terrain.
Skiing has become a metaphor for so much and a guiding force for the fresh path I want to carve.
For me, growth isn’t about the climb up the mountain, but how to get down. This equates to the deconstructing process in order to rebuild. There are fears and unknowns to journey through when you are removing the comforts of what you’ve always known. The steps aren’t clear, therefore the way down is one turn at a time.
To go further asks for a total flip of perspective on progression. Rather than finding the positions of accomplishment to be defined by “higher,” they are simply new positions that might also require going “deeper.”
How you work alchemy is not always in a straight line, but just might be found on a parallel one, operating on a different frequency level of experience you get the opportunity to tweak.
Climbing to heights hasn’t been the challenge for me, as I’m really good at nose-to-the-grind and chipping away, a step at a time with patience and perseverance.
It’s about the exploration of new experiences that I can only get to by finding a solid way of maintaining equilibrium, exercising full awareness potentials, intentionally bringing every element together to work cohesively, and self trust, while still finding joy in each step regardless if I never have before – all reminding me of the Magician Tarot Card in a way.
I do that by flipping the usual track I travel upside down so that the familiar landscape is now made anew, challenging my brain to approach it differently, my senses to operate fully, and to understand that it only seems hard because those muscles haven’t been used in this way. But the muscles were always there to exercise and the track only changes in relation to the vibration we hold at any given moment.
Up. Down. Left. Right. Which ever you’re used to will make the others more foreign, but they’re all simply directional doorways the one heart within holds all the keys for.
I face the downhill with the same patience and presence the uphill climb involves, taking it in stride, with no pressure or time frame to fly at top speed. The snow makes the terrain a fresh journey layered over an old one, and this is how evolution looks – integrating old and new on a whole new level.
I continue to explore new runs on my own and even when I’m met with a surprise, I find myself with complete composure, knowing I can get down anything. Like what I experienced yesterday when going down a lesser known, steeper run on my own and discovering it wasn’t groomed, but I conquered it! And when Dave took me on what he called “one of the steepest runs of my career” that same day. That’s me, below, coming down the slope. I didn’t know he was taking a photo.
I just faced it head on, and knew I could do it. He actually told me I did great and that he was proud of me, as I would never have voluntarily gone down that in the past without freaking out the whole way.
I still may not look like a seasoned skier getting down, but I can get down and trust myself in knowing I can do it safely. In his words, he said I’m 25% better than I was 2-3 years ago. That’s saying a lot coming from him, as he’s such a good skier, but also was a confirmation of what I have felt for myself.
I no longer carry that fear when I look over the edge. Those edges used to create a very long pause for me. Now I just go, once I do a quick check in with myself. And so, other areas of new terrain can be met the same – with trust in myself I can carry myself through it.
I share this in hopes that it helps even just one person with their own fear journey. If you want to move through something it IS possible to learn how to manage your feelings, retrain yourself, and take back being the director of your life. And once you do start putting things into motion within one realm of your life, you’ll be able to exercise those skills and apply them to any others that pop up, as other opportunities are part of natural evolution.
I’m seeing this for myself and why skiing is so much more for me, especially at this time. The huge leaps I’ve made this season are timely to help me draw upon for the leaps upcoming in other offshoots of my reinvented life.
These days everything feels to be making a flip. In my own life, Dave and I reflect that perfectly, as our North Nodes are complete and perfect, complimentary opposites. What I’m leaving, he’s walking into. What he’s leaving, I’m walking into. It’s become SO clear recently, now that energies have anchored more for each of us. We are switching path roles and because I can see this, it helps me to let go even more and face the “down” slopes with greater confidence and anchoring of heart.
In other news, Winter keeps going strong here and temperatures have dropped to minus degrees at night, which hasn’t been experienced in years. I don’t mind it at all because we live in an area that gets so much sunshine even in the Winter, which is part of why we love it here and what makes this area unusual.
The snowy winterscapes invite my soul to embrace more, dream big, and believe it’s all possible.
On the recent New Moon, just the day before the Lunar New Year of the Rabbit, we were at the top of one of our favorite places with expansive views and Jack Frost’s realms all around us. It’s here that we stopped for a snack and I molded a little snow bunny in celebration of the fresh cycle igniting.
It was also here that my sweet chickadee friends were enjoying the warm sunlight and singing away. I so loved having them come sit upon my finger again. It’s such a gift when they decide to visit me on their own accord. I didn’t get any photos of them perched on my finger, but you can see them on the ground foraging for Nature’s yummies in between courageous and flirty fly-by’s and sweet encounters.
I am always so moved by these brave little, resilient beings and to feel their delicate feet and feather-light weight on my finger is testament to how hardy they are and that the only limitations that exist are the ones we believe in.
Perhaps I see a little bit of me in them and a little bit of them in me.
And speaking of celebrations, 2023’s have already begun, as we just concluded my mom’s big 80th with a sweet gathering of the family for a symphony performance, fun meal, and dad’s delicious birthday carrot cake creation.
My mom is a literal Earth Angel whose limitless heart, endless giving, childlike exuberance, astounding strength, and angelic grace is a gift to this world. I’m grateful for the resiliency she’s modeled so beautifully, helping me to know there’s nothing I can’t overcome.
Like the sweet chickadees I love, my mom is mighty in a tiny five foot three inch body. I love that we get to celebrate both of our milestones in the same year, less than a month apart – 80 and 50 twin powers activate!
A couple of my dear friends have also just journeyed around the Sun this past month of January, my brother’s birthday hits in less than a week, and mine not too far off – as we share a month.
And of course today – the first of February – marks the birthday of my beloved twin soul in rabbit body, Nestor. I can hardly believe that she would have been 20 years old if she were still on Earth. Oh, the changes she helped to be a catalyst in my life for. I honor her deeply, as she, too, was a powerhouse in a fragile body – it’s still a mystery how one so powerful can squeeze into such a tiny form. I love that she follows my mom with their birthdays just a day apart and both of them in that window of Imbolc celebrated between 1/31 and 2/2 – the midway point between Winter Solstice and Spring Equinox that denotes a time of change.
February just happens to also be “national adopt a rescued rabbit month” – again, how aligned is it that my birthday falls in this month too?
This is a full and exciting month for sure, including Dave about to go off on his own little adventure and my learning of a special surprise visitor heading this way for my big 50.
I’m not a party person, as I like more low-key things, so I’m only just starting to lean into some sweet ways I might want to enjoy my birthday weekend.
That said, I’m also taking a rain check on a trip for later in the year, although we put together a tropical escapade for March that definitely will provide some birthday energy activation to kick off the fresh cycle, since it just so happens to fall over the New Moon and Spring Equinox.
One day at a time though, just like I’ve been taking one turn at a time down the new terrain of my mountain voyage.
Everything is fresh when viewed through the heart.