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Breaking Through & Bending Our Way to New Realities


As we sipped hot tea and listened to the sound of pouring rain this morning (which we’re doing again right now), I peered out from my desk and saw a blanket of fog between us and Arches National Park, just revealing the silhouette of the rocks, but covering the portal arches from sight – a veil between worlds emerged to allow only inner sight to lead us through to a new reality.


The power went out again this morning – the second time in three days – and the raging winds of change have turned to downpours of cleansing sky tears mirroring a time for more unplugging, reviewing, releasing, and readying for new actions.

At times it has felt like things weren’t happening, but a lot has been in very deep ways with old programming getting an upgrade.

One must come to terms with letting go AND letting in, not just in idea and theory, but actualization.

Times of breakthroughs to the other side of the portals of experience rather than needing to make literal breaks are here, as we realize that not only have we changed immensely, but our processes do not resemble the old ones any longer either.

We can bend time and reality, and we can transmute through our flexibility and embrace.

Today has been another more quiet day with less outward doing, but more downtime to let the realizations of change take root.

Our last days in Utah are proving to be integrative, readying us for the journey forward into Colorado.

We’ve been in Utah for six weeks of deep exploration and the winds, rain, and electrical outages seem to be mirroring a complete rewiring and recharge, as we will literally be moving from one energetic realm to another and crossing the state lines into a different reality.

Yesterday was filled with symbolism too on the three mile Corona Arch Trail.

It’s set atop a stunning slickrock setting and you get two arches for the price of one hike, as you get to also see Bowtie Arch, which sits adjacent to it.

There’s an old ladder harnessed to the rocks at one point to help you climb up the pour-off and metal ropes in a couple of areas to help you climb up and not slide off the slickrock.


On topographical maps Corona Arch is often times called Little Rainbow Bridge. You can see why in the photos of it and this name felt more resonant with its energy to me.


It feels so alive and almost like the cliff has extended its leg and taken a step forward, anchoring it on the Earth to create a bridge to the other side.



Both arches were pretty amazing, creating two gateways to enter.


The first more like a cave into the sky with a visible opening sitting atop a mirroring, but cave-like indentation that would seem impassable, but that’s merely what the physical eyes would have you think.


It’s almost like a male and female counterpart of portals at Bowtie Arch where two portals stand in unison, connected at center and are both accessible if you know the key.


One might seem more obvious, but my sense is to get through it, you must understand them both.

So, the obvious becomes the deep mystery of alchemy and knowing how to work both of your parts together.


I was wearing my braided pig tails, so I decided to have some fun with them at this arch.


While these energies are potent and yes, at times takes some serious reflection and commitment, it’s important to also have fun with it all.

Each of the arches we’ve seen have felt initiatory.

And these were no exception.

There are active train tracks you must pass on the hike and are warned to do so with extreme caution.


Dave made sure that our passing was safe, literally listening for the vibrations. Hehe!


You also pass this field of cairns, which is super cool. I’ve never seen so many in one place. From tiny to large, people have built cairns here from the broken rubble of fallen rock from the canyon cliffs.


Some of them made into mini arches too. It was like a miniature Faeryland.


On this hike I also saw more wild flower varieties than I’d seen in any one place at one time. I didn’t photograph them all, but there were varieties in each of the colors of pink, purple, white, yellow, and orange.


That felt very richly fertile for new opportunities and growth emerging and the ability to choose from many possibilities – or doorways.


On the way back, after our time at the arches we passed a blind man hiking with his wife. He had two poles he felt along the ground with and she was ahead letting him know what was coming.

That was really potent and reiterated the power of our inner eye to guide us, rather than only looking at the surface of things.

We could all do a little more “feeling” of our way through life than we are currently.


On our drive back, we stopped at two petroglyph walls that sit along the Colorado River. These were incredible with much more intricate depictions than we’d seen, and a variety of new images.


The petroglyphs have increased in detail along our journey and these were quite elaborate, and also so well defined.


They included a very large Bear (I intuited it was a bear right away and after we saw a sign that confirmed this feeling), which was pretty cool given the Bear symbolism I’ve had over the months.


The Bear was drawn showing all five toes on each foot, which is pretty detail specific. I placed my hand in them and it was an exact fit, as if they’d been molded after mine.


There were some other cool markings as you can see, different animal depictions, energy movement, and things like tracks, calendars, or pathways.


We then came across two wild turkeys after the petroglyphs, which ended off the day.

Turkeys symbolize abundance, connection with and honor of Mother Earth, harvesting the fruits of your labor, being nourished and satisfied with life, blessings from Earth, revealing your true self, endings, and beginnings.

Although we still have tomorrow before leaving, yesterday felt like a preparation of closure and bringing all things together. Today grounding that, as we’ve been more quiet and allowing action to take place on the inside while the rain clears way with our intents of release.

And after the hike yesterday I spoke with my parents on the phone to see how they are and what they shared went along with the symbolism of the turkeys and the abundance of flowers I’d seen.

They shared that they have started their own veggie garden.

A man they knew was getting rid of crates and they took a few of the two-by-two crates, filled them with soil and planted three varieties of tomatoes, red, green and yellow peppers, different lettuces, and strawberries.

I thought that was very cool that they were going to start growing their own food. They’ve also gotten a sun oven since I told them about mine and they do a lot to be self sufficient if needed, not to mention have been doing their own explorations and journeying to discover new places, as well as taking more time to do things they love.

The more we integrate and embody the changes, the more others around us will also start making changes and doing new things relative to their experience.

And so I continue on this journey with open arms and steady foot to greet the new with humbling honor and to step forward with deliberate and intentional action.


Quiet Days ~ Loud Reflections


Love this shot Dave took that really reflects the depth of meaning and energy right now for me. He did it as a panoramic shot from one end of inside of Longbow Arch to the other where I stood (the arch actually extends from both sides of the ground up and around me like a rainbow). The result is expansive – stretching beyond what is known and comfortable that change is asking of me/us.

It’s been an internal weekend, which is why I’ve been mostly offline and also more quiet, both not writing or speaking that much. Sometimes that’s just needed especially when processing changes in life.

We also decided to spend time on the Colorado River this weekend, so we took two tours – one on Saturday night called Canyonlands by Night and one yesterday afternoon white water rafting with Canyon Voyages Adventure Co.

These lazy river days provided relaxation, refreshing energy – as we’ve been in the high desert for nearly six weeks, so getting on the water felt invigorating – and mirrored just being and flowing with the changes that we’ve so rapidly and powerfully been experiencing.

Saturday we had huge winds roaring through like crazy. So much so that it took down the power for a while – so we had no electric or water for a couple of hours.

That felt pretty symbolic after the Full Moon energy – a complete unplug and recharge – and it also is when I started feeling quiet.

We started the day with a mountain bike ride, but when we first started I immediately didn’t feel like I did a couple of days ago where I was looking like a seasoned mountain bike rider.

Something was off and the winds were making me feel unstable, as they were pushing me around and sand was coming at me. Due to the instability, I fell, no more than two minutes in – my left elbow hitting the slickrock (major change blasting through my life) – and I immediately knew I was not to bike that day and told Dave to go ahead while I went back to the car and waited.

This older man showed up right when I did out of no where, with a walking staff of sorts, silvery white hair and beard, and an accent I couldn’t make out. The words exchanged solidified my choice to not continue and then he disappeared quite quickly. I hadn’t waited but two or three minutes while telling Dave to go on before I went back on the trail to the car.

He wasn’t on the trail, nor in the parking lot.

Odd, as he appeared like a Druid out of nowhere and was gone.

Nobody else was hiking the trail, as it’s mostly mountain bike riders.

20160423_152710_001.jpgAnyway, we later did a short hike after lunch (still in my biking wear) on a newer two and a half mile roundtrip trail to a rarely visited arch.


This trail was established in late 2015 so it’s only been around a short time and we found ourselves alone on it, which mirrored the quiet internalized feeling running through.

This freshly-minted trail goes to Longbow Arch and starts at Poison Spider 4×4 trailhead.


At the beginning of the trail you come to the amazing Potash Road dinosaur tracks and petroglyph walls and rocks. The best we’ve seen.


They seem to depict perhaps a hunting scene rock art panel…lots of animals and interesting figures – some not looking human.


Then you continue to Longbow Arch climbing a steeper pour-off opening into a high desert landscape, through dirt, sand, and slickrock, as you skirt a series of Navajo sandstone fins and domes, and then into a side canyon where you climb up and under the arch itself where you get a view of the canyon.


You also have a view of the Colorado River at the start and end of the trail, which mirrored the rest of our River time.


Longbow Arch itself and its hidden, less traveled location, was quite an experience, as it felt very expansive, opening, and revealing of what can come when you take the road less traveled and face your fears.


After we enjoyed dinner at a Mexican restaurant in town we headed to our night trip on the jetboat.


This tour takes you along the river, as you learn about the geology and history, get to see the unique formations that our guide Dee pointed out (like E.T. below), and just take in the sights and feelings of the river and the canyons.


We got to see a Beaver as we made our way down and a lovely sunset behind us.


And once it gets dark the light show begins where they illuminate the canyon walls and you listen to stories and music that accompanies your float back.


We got “lucky” we had front row seats some how. It was quite chilly so the blankets they provided made it a cozy, snuggle up experience that is really unique and beautiful.

I only took one photo during the light and sound show, as the light illuminated a unicorn on the rock wall of the canyon. Very hard to depict in this photo, but it was clear as if it were day, in person – well to me. 😉


If you let yourself immerse in just being with everything around you, you will feel yourself become one with the mystery and magnificence. And more and more reveals itself to you.

Yesterday we did our half day water rafting trip, which included a stop at one of the sandy beaches along the river for lunch. No photos to share, as we wanted to be without any gadgets.

This was our day exploration of the river, both floating down and enjoying the fun of the whitewater rapids. We saw Great Blue Heron and River Otters along the way, which was cool.

There are a lot of ways you can experience nature’s beauty here, which mirror your own journey and processes.

Serenity and flow filled our time and I’m still feeling the need for quiet, although it doesn’t feel quiet on the inside at all, nor in terms of the reflections that are constantly in front of me.

Some things came to me to reflect on and review my feelings about. I’m  listening and will be making the adjustments necessary.

It’s so interesting, as although I’ve taken off from the services I once offered, I feel like I’m doing so much more life work right now and it’s become evident why I had to take a break..

Energetically I’m fully immersed and constantly involved in processes and channeling – in wake and dream time. My path has become life simply unfolding.


Living in constant presence (stopping to smell the flowers of life) and awareness IS astoundingly rich, hugely demanding, and deeply rewarding.

Not always easy, but then it wouldn’t be as incredible if it were.

On the River of Life

20160228_140231_resizedRivers are symbolic of the passage of time, are metaphors for life, convey fertility, embody the power of nature, and also symbolize passageways, as well as boundaries and continuous change.


view out the front of rv

They are constantly flowing so moving through life with greater ease is a part of their reflection for us that is available as our experience.


beautiful mountain ranges on both left and right from our site

Rivers are wellsprings of ancient wisdom indeed and help direct and clarify your path if you are ready to listen.


view out the front of rv

This is the symbolism I will be sitting with this week and having reflected, as we landed on the Colorado River in Blythe yesterday.

An unassuming, but extremely peaceful spot right on the rapidly flowing water.

There are tons of varieties of birds here, one particular kind loving to congregate in the tree to our right chirping away their songs.

And we continuously have seen a couple hundred white cattle egret flocking through, which is an incredible sight and sound as they swirl in circles before landing then rise up again and swirl some more.


you can see how our rv basically is parked just feet from the edge where it drops off down below the bench to the river


Last evening while we relaxed outside on our chairs with refreshments, a large group of coyotes greeted us with their ancient howls, followed by a Burrowing Owl hooting nearby.



view from bed

The crickets and frogs were chirping away throughout all of this, creating a symphony of Nature’s voices and us as her guests, listening to the evening unfold its magick.

river (1)This morning we were greeted by our first beautiful sunrise here and again the flocks of cattle egret spiraling about.

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I love the individual ducks that joyfully take a ride on the fast flowing current down the river. They, too, slowly spiraling like a spinning tea cup ride, as they glide by.

Makes me giggle, as that would be me indeed.

river (4).jpgThere are many reflections here for me to receive and the flowing peacefulness will be a great nurturing for my projects and inspirations this week.

Everywhere we turn there are guiding posts, messages, and support.

I hope you take time to notice the ones in front of you as well, where ever you are.

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