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Tania Marie: What’s Ours Is Already Written
There is a softer way of moving through life that I’ve learned to trust more deeply.
One that doesn’t require reaching for every answer, forcing clarity before it arrives, or running toward what we fear we might somehow miss.
There is peace in remembering that what is ours does not need to be chased.
This past weekend, while staying at my parents’ home, an intricate, large web appeared stretched across the sky above the house, suspended between the upper and lower rooflines and revealed only because the sunlight caught its delicate threads. Something about seeing it there, held between different levels of a place woven so deeply into my own beginnings, felt especially meaningful. It was a beautiful reflection of the unseen—something already woven and held in place before the light allowed me to see it.
There are threads being woven beyond what we can presently see. Some things are already making their way toward us while we are still wondering where the path leads.
What’s ours is already written.
Not as something that removes our choice or participation, but as a deeper trust that what truly belongs within the unfolding of our lives has its own way of finding us.
Closed doors can gently turn us toward openings we couldn’t yet see.
No’s can become protection.
Pauses can become breaths that expand the promise rather than interrupt it.
Silence can hold answers we would have drowned out by searching too hard for them.
And what appears to be nothing happening may be life quietly rearranging itself beyond our sight.
The natural world seems to understand this without effort.
A butterfly doesn’t rush its becoming. Autumn doesn’t pull the gold from the trees before they are ready. The Moon moves through darkness and fullness without questioning the timing of either.
Even this morning, pink clouds opened across the sunrise around a perfect blue heart—as though the sky itself had briefly made room for what was already there.
Lately, I have needed more of that spaciousness myself.
More rest. More quiet. More sleep. Less reaching outward for answers and more willingness to let what is moving beneath the surface move without my interference.
This weekend’s golden Harvest Full Moon felt especially potent for me in that way. I could feel so much working behind the scenes, while something within me simply wanted to become very still.
I am preparing now for my return to Egypt, and this journey already feels unlike any that have come before it. I can feel the magnitude of a new season of my life gathering around its edges, and rather than trying to understand what it will mean before I live it, I want to meet it from the quiet.
To listen.
To receive.
To sleep when my body asks for sleep.
To allow what is ending to fall away like autumn leaves, and what is becoming to remain unseen for as long as it needs.
So this may be my last little note here until I return in early November. I feel called to give this time before I leave the spaciousness it is asking for—to prepare quietly, replenish deeply, and arrive open enough to receive whatever may already be written there for me.
There will be time to share what Egypt opens, changes, reveals, and leaves quietly settling within me when I am home again. For now, I feel called to make room for the experience itself.
The trees are beginning to turn gold here.
The butterfly is still visiting the autumn flowers.
The web is already woven.
The Moon continues on her way.
And somewhere within all of this, life reminds me that I don’t have to run toward what belongs to me.
What’s meant for us has been moving toward us, too.
Tania Marie: When Life Is Moving Where We Cannot See
I had been doing things in the garage last Thursday when I heard the unmistakable sound of wings against glass.
At the window was a tortoiseshell butterfly, fluttering again and again, trying desperately to find her way outside. The weather had suddenly turned cold and autumn-like, and she seemed exhausted by the effort.
Then I noticed another butterfly nearby.
She was lying completely motionless on her side.
Her wings were folded flat against one another. There was no movement that I could see.
I thought she was dead.
Something in me wasn’t quite ready to leave either of them there, so I carried them both into the warmth of the house.
I began giving Reiki to the butterfly who was still visibly struggling. I placed the other gently on the counter beside me, close enough that I could tend to them both.
For several minutes, nothing suggested that I had been wrong about her.
And then she moved.
Within moments, the butterfly I had believed was dead was not merely alive.
She was flying.
There was an exuberance to her that astonished me, especially because only moments before there had been no visible indication of life at all.
Soon both butterflies were flying toward the window.
I held out my hand and they climbed onto me. The butterfly I had thought was gone was now so full of life that I gently cupped my other hand around her to keep her safe, while the second remained freely on my hand.
I carried them both outside.
The moment I opened my hand, the butterfly I had thought was gone launched herself into the sky with extraordinary gusto.
And then came the second surprise.
The butterfly who had been fighting so hard to escape the garage didn’t leave.
She remained with me.
Eventually I placed her gently on a flower. She stayed there for a long while before moving deeper into the plant, nestling herself into its protection.
When I finally walked away and left her to whatever she needed, I noticed the time.
1:11.
I returned later.
She had flown, too.
What We Cannot See
The reversal of those two butterflies remained with me all day.
The one who appeared finished contained an exuberance I couldn’t see.
The one who had been fighting so hard to move forward needed stillness.
Neither one’s outward appearance revealed what was actually happening within.
And something about witnessing them together felt profoundly connected to what has been moving through my own life.
I’ve been walking myself through possibilities lately that feel both immense and not yet fully visible. I’ve been praying for guidance. Asking for signs. Listening closely while allowing questions to remain questions longer than my mind sometimes prefers.
And the responses have been coming.
Not as one enormous answer.
Piece by piece.
A convergence of six bears surrounding the recent eclipse.
Dreams.
Synchronicities.
Unexpected encounters.
A piece of obsidian that unmistakably mirrored an ancient arrowhead.
Moments of knowing that arrive before I can explain what I know.
And now, two butterflies.
The very next day, another unexpected presence joined this unfolding tapestry. For the first time, I encountered a Western toad—a magnificent little being, large enough to fill the palm of my hand, who I discovered had quietly made his home beneath our deck.
There was something beautifully fitting about finding yet another life that had been there beyond my awareness.
After everything that has been moving alongside me, I began to recognize a deeper thread running through it all.
Transformation. Resilience. Grounding. Renewal.
But beneath even these was something more profound:
The unseen is not the same as the absent.
Life can be gathering, forming, healing, and becoming in places beyond our perception. Something can be profoundly alive before we have any evidence of its existence.
And sometimes what appears suddenly before us has not suddenly begun at all.
We have simply arrived at the moment when we are finally able to see it.
And then, on the third day, came another bear.
The seventh I had encountered in only ten days—something unprecedented in my experience.
He appeared unexpectedly as we were finishing a hike, only to become frightened by passing cars and run desperately across the road. For a moment he took refuge on the lawn of a nearby home before becoming frightened again and running back toward the forest.
Even when his path brought him remarkably close to people, he seemed hardly aware of them. His attention was entirely on finding safety.
The animal we so often imagine ourselves fearing was himself afraid, interested only in finding his way back to peace.
Once again, what appeared on the surface told only a fraction of the story.
Three days.
Three encounters.
Each quietly overturning what the surface seemed to say.
The butterfly who appeared dead contained extraordinary aliveness.
The toad who appeared suddenly had been quietly living beneath my everyday world all along.
The bear we might instinctively fear was himself moving through fear.
I don’t experience these things as instructions telling me exactly what to do. They feel more like an ongoing conversation teaching me something about trust itself.
Not necessarily telling me what will happen, but repeatedly reminding me not to mistake what I can presently see for the entirety of what is happening.
The guidance isn’t giving me a map.
It is changing the way I walk without one.
The Present Appearance Is Not the Whole Story
These encounters have been changing the way I think about what is visible.
We are so accustomed to reading what we can see.
Moving means progress.
Stillness means nothing is happening.
An open door means possibility.
A closed one means no.
Evidence means something is real.
Its absence means it isn’t.
Yet life continually reveals how incomplete these conclusions can be.
A seed beneath the Earth does not look like a flower.
A butterfly lying motionless on her side did not look like something that would soon burst into flight.
And something within our own lives can be moving toward expression long before we have anything visible to prove that movement exists.
Trust, then, becomes something very different.
It isn’t convincing ourselves that a particular outcome will happen.
It isn’t pretending to know what we cannot know.
It is recognizing how little the present appearance can tell us about what is still possible.
That distinction feels important to me.
Because there are places in my own life where I can feel something moving before I can see its form.
Possibilities that feel alive without yet being tangible.
Potentials I am learning not to dismiss simply because I cannot point to evidence of what they will become.
And increasingly, the signs arriving around me don’t seem interested in telling me the ending.
They keep returning me to the relationship I am building with the unknown.
Life Knew What to Do
There is another part of Thursday’s encounter I keep returning to.
I didn’t know how to make either butterfly fly.
I couldn’t know whether the one I thought was dead would live or whether the struggling one would recover.
All I could do was offer what was mine to offer.
Warmth.
Reiki.
My hand.
A flower.
Time.
And then allow life to do what I could not do for it.
There is something here I want to remember.
We can care deeply without controlling what happens next.
We can create loving conditions without demanding an outcome.
We can participate wholeheartedly while leaving room for mysteries that don’t belong to us to manage.
One butterfly needed warmth and then immediately took to the sky.
The other needed warmth, a hand, a flower, and more time.
Neither was behind.
Neither needed to follow the other’s timing.
Each contained an intelligence I couldn’t see from the outside.
And when each was ready, she flew.
This feels like one of the miracles I am being asked to recognize right now.
Not simply that something I believed was dead came alive before my eyes.
But that life can be moving most powerfully in the very places where I cannot yet see its next movement.
I don’t need every answer in order to meet that mystery.
I can offer what is mine.
Listen.
Love.
Participate.
Trust.
And leave enough room for life to astonish me.
May this Virgo New Moon nurture the quiet seeds within you, creating fertile ground for what is ready to take root, grow, and reveal itself in its own perfect timing.
Ask Astrid ~ The Rabbit’s Corner: Walk in Confidence & Crystals that Care
Today Astrid wants to speak to the voice of doubt within everyone – that little voice that finds ways to hurt you, says you’re a failure and never will amount to anything, the voice that never feels good enough, and the voice that cuts you down even when you make a step forward.
“Enough is enough,” she says. “There is only one you and you would not be here if there wasn’t something special you have to share.”
This made me think of the documentary “Won’t You Be My Neighbor” we watched a couple of nights ago on Spring Equinox about Mister Rogers – you know, Fred Rogers of Mister Rogers Neighborhood. I had no idea his birthday was March 20, 1928 and here we were being drawn to watch this documentary on the eve of what would have been his birthday 91 years ago.
That felt like a rebirthing in itself, as there’s so much of how Fred Rogers is that mirrors myself. And as I walk forward on a new path, I know that feeling confident about exactly who I am at heart is what will carry me forward into unknown territory once again.
Perhaps Astrid felt how much I loved this documentary and tuned in deeper to the underlying messages around it, knowing how important they are to the heart of everyone.
I did turn to Dave several times in the movie saying “oh my gosh, he’s so like me and the things I do daily from the moment I wake up!” and he giggled back in agreement.
So often I’ve felt that people think I’m naive or too “pollyanna” about life and that my simplistic and innocent ways of viewing things, the magick and wonder I see, and the love I feel that underlies everything is just silliness and I can feel (even if they don’t say it) that they wished I’d “grow up”.
Many have wished I’d immerse myself more into the drama playing out in the world or be more like them as activists and taking stands on things like politics and such.
And it’s not that I don’t understand what is going on, but I see it all through different eyes and heart, have my own way of working with that, my own way of embodied activism, and my own way of desiring to find that bridge between all people, species, and life.
I’ve always loved Mister Rogers and remember watching it when my brother and I were growing up.
Last night I made so many connections and in hearing his story more, it deepened my belief in the way I approach life and that there’s a very valuable and much needed place for that level of sweetness, simplicity, innocence, and love, as a bridge.
Not that I haven’t always felt that, but it was a very loud message that solidified things and connects with Astrid’s message that I know she is sharing from the heart and wanting each and every one of us to really, REALLY understand and take to heart.
Many of you have probably watched the clip where Fred Rogers addresses the U.S. Senate using emotional intelligence, speaking from his child-like heart and in just six minutes convinces the Senator from Rhode Island not to cut $20 million for PBS.
If you haven’t seen this here it is:
You’d think you’d have to be some kind of genius, attorney, or whatever definition of someone you think has the power to persuade and talk a good talk, but in fact it was someone with innocence and love, who spoke a language everyone could feel, that won $20 million dollars.
“Being you from the heart is the most powerful thing you can do,” says Astrid. “Don’t ever be less than who you are. Don’t ever let anyone or those voices in your head persuade you otherwise. There is something special inside of you and when you express it vulnerably, you create a clearer and better world for everyone.”
That reminds me of the song, You are Special by Fred Rogers, 1968. Here are the simple lyrics:
You are my friend
You are special
You are my friend
You’re special to me.
You are the only one like you.
Like you, my friend, I like you.
In the daytime
In the nighttime
Any time that you feel’s the right time
For a friendship with me, you see
F-R-I-E-N-D special
You are my friend
You’re special to me.
There’s only one in this wonderful world
You are special.
Practice having more confidence and belief in yourself more everyday.
Take steps to push pass discomforts one at a time and feeling okay with it.
Stick to doing something new even when the voices emerge, and learn to trust yourself more with each time, creating a new habit.
Experiment and learn that with each attempt you are stronger and more capable than you imagine – more resilient of discomfort and are better for it.
Learn that even if something doesn’t work out as you hoped, that you can be okay with that and the feeling of going past what you thought were your limits during the process, is the success.
Astrid always knows what’s needed and where to direct me.
I hope you find a little pearl of wisdom that speaks to you in today’s share.
Astrid is encouraging me to speak a bit more about things I’m working on, including my new book.
I don’t talk much about it, but with my focus returned to it, I feel her encouragement.
I think she brings this up for this post, because she knows that the story I’ve written is very much who I am at the heart of me and it comes from a place of innocence I’m putting out in a much bigger way.
Another reason is that one part of the story ties into the offerings below.
I’ve shared that the main characters are rabbits and one of the pivotal elements in the story centers around a very special crystal and what might unfold if it were to get into the wrong hands.
I wasn’t going to post these until Easter, however, Astrid and the bunnies prompted me that people may want to bring the energies home to enjoy now and actually have to work with and ignite energies with the dawning of Spring. Plus, they know they will need the right alignment to match energies with their new guardian and friend.
They are crystals that care – here to support you into your highest truth, support the collective through your gifts, and align energies to reflect the heart of you.
So, these incredible offerings will be looking for their sacred partners later today in our Magick Rabbit Etsy Shop. UPDATE – now posted and ready for adoption.
They will include the following three items that have some of my own personal collection, amazing crystals included – these are just quick sneak peaks of the entire basket as a whole, as the listings will have close-ups of each beauty included in the baskets.
Two Ultimate Magick Rabbit Easter Baskets:
Cosmic Basket – includes rabbit basket, faerytale spiral moss, mushroom, Celestite open egg with rainbows, large Sunstone egg, medium Moonstone egg, and Alice in Wonderland natural vegetable soap in Vanilla Frosting scent. Two small silver stands included in case you want to display your Sunstone and Moonstone eggs separately.
Enchanted Forest Basket – includes rabbit basket, faerytale spiral moss, mushroom, large Ametrine (Amethyst and Citrine) Spirit/Faery Quartz plate, sparkly Amethyst cluster, Goldstone Butterfly, sweet little handmade rabbit decked out for Spring, and Alice in Wonderland natural vegetable soap in Tea for Two scent (sweet blend of freshly baked butter cookies sweetened with a dollup of tart, ripe blackberry jam)
UPDATE SOLD : And The Rabbit Faery’s Wing/Ear – one of the large pieces of the giant Amethyst Geode Rabbit that made its way back home to me. We discovered that this one was only to be worked with for a short while and that part of that was to include Astrid being able to activate energies with her and reprogram her to be ready to find her sacred partner.
We love you!!
Just a quick note: We’ll be away on a surprise last minute vacation starting Sunday and back next Saturday, so there won’t be any posts next week. I’ll be back the week after with more from Astrid and any inspirations and messages we have to share.
Understanding Symbolism is a Journey of Personal Discovery & Empowerment
With the Pisces Full Moon’s heightened intuitive energy today and people looking into the meaning of things more and more, along with inquiries about signs, messages, and symbolism I receive consistently, and a recent request for a source on interpreting symbolism, especially things like animal totems, I felt to share one of my favorite websites from Avia Venefica who shares insightful cultural and archetypal meanings of symbolism across the board. Her website is one of the most diverse sources (check out the menu of topics in the top, left hand corner) I think you’ll find helpful with learning to understand the deeper meaning of things and how to harness that for both personal and collective implementation and awareness.
Here is her site:
Behind the Signs: Avia Venefica
I also recommend tuning in and meditating on the symbolism in question, asking for its message directly and how it applies to you, as although there is universal symbolism, how and when something shows up for you can have its own meaning and interpretation, which can only truly be understood or accessed by you. And I truly believe that if you spend the time you will discover the meaning and make those connections to what is going on in your life that brings purpose to what has shown up.
Teaching yourself to engage your own inner wisdom and using things as aids and tools to access that, will help not only to empower yourself, but also strengthen your gifts and open up more doors within you that have been hidden, conditioned out of conscious reach, or repressed.
You can also simply go online and google key words to bring up associated links to what is in question and trust what shows up or what you’re drawn to, as there is always meaning to why that particular message has been brought to your attention. The same goes for a book you might see in a book store, or one you have that you pick up and open up to, finding the perfect message right before your eyes.
Also, stay very aware, present, and observant to things that happen, you hear, someone says, etc., at the time of the sign, just before, just after, and pay attention to recurring themes taking place in your life currently that are trying to get you to pay notice and either make changes, adjustments, are aiding inspiration, or simply are reiterating you’re on the right track and being supported.
Then be open and willing to accept the messages you receive, as if you have a pattern of denial this is the very reason the messages or reiterating signs keep showing up.
Much of interpretation is relative to you, and although things can be guides or someone else can tell you what they think, these are simply keys to help access those closed doors within YOU that has the answers and that you can then run with and discover whole new worlds of possibilities once you engage them with curiosity and trust.
Enjoy the journey!
(Photos of the mystical Pisces Full Moon aglow in rose gold above Lake Tahoe at 6 am this morning and Astrid Moon gazing along with mom. At 6:45 am it disappeared behind the mountain, and she stayed there the entire time, in zen mode, until it did)
Trust, Abundance & Balance ~ A Message to Leave You With
As shared, I’ll be away from blogging for a while after today, as I have a personal goal to meet with completing my book’s first draft before leaving for Australia on May 10th and away for 19 days. I’ll be joining Dave who will already have been touring for two weeks speaking about his book Meatonomics, and then we’ll be leaving for a week to Austin, Texas less than two weeks after our return. Alongside this full plate I am also energetically preparing for a new addition to my life coming in once we fully return from all the travels, which is the focus of this short blog before I head off.
The short story, which I will fully share when it happens, is that a new bunny love will be joining me in partnership and it’s all divinely aligned itself in incredible potency on the upcoming Summer Solstice portal. It’s all truly a magickal story and timing that I know my beloved rabbits have set up as such.
Without going into detail, a special rabbit has made connection with me the second I became ready and made my own realizations and commitments and we are in relationship telepathically until we can be together.
I felt that since I will be away so much, this was not conducive to bringing the bunny love into my life, as my priority is establishing a stable and supportive experience for the physical bonding, and it is not responsible of me to just up and leave bunny love with a pet sitter.
So, once again, I am being asked to trust with all of my heart and walk fully in that trust of knowing that if it is meant to be this little love will be there when I return to adopt on the appointment date that has been set upon my arrival home.
I explored with the rabbit rescue my options and this was the only one that made most sense to everyone, but also asked of me to be in that trust given that anyone could come along and connect and want to take this love home during the two months of waiting.
I believe with all of me that we will be together, and that these two months are preparation, as well as standing in the truth of my trust. I know that if we change and shift together over what takes place these two months then when I go to pick this love up, all will unfold as set in motion.
But either way, what has been set in motion is that a bunny love will be coming home with me nonetheless on that day, and if we both shift differently, it is because another has taken place of the new alignment created.
However, this little love has a special story and needs, I’ve already received the name, and we have connected in dream time indicating a bond that no matter what takes place is already playing out.
It’s such a beautiful connection I can’t wait to share, but for now the reason of my sharing is simply to reiterate the message of trust.
There is no reason to act out of desperation with anything. There is no reason to worry or do things that would not be responsible simply because we don’t want to lose out on something or are trying to control a situation and outcome that needs the freedom of choice, growth, and natural transformation to take place.
As mentioned before, abundant beings recognize the unlimited way abundance plays out when we trust and that there’s no need to attach to any one idea because more will show up.
And also, when you stand in the truth of who you are and trust with your heart, that’s all the confirmation you need.
So, there is much preparing for birth in the next two months for me with the first draft of my book completing (still have a long way to go, but that’s the biggest step), some transformative travels, and preparing myself for a new co-creative partnership that is going to support the next phase of my life.
All of this to balance things out and remain true to my spirit.
And the need to pull back from writing blogs right now is to conserve my inspiration and creative writing, as well as devote my time where it is most needed.
So I’ll not be posting until that goal is met, or if I do feel a strong guidance would only share a very short channeled message or reblog an important theme.
And as mentioned, I’ll only be sharing via Instagram/Facebook during this time if you happen to be on those platforms (although may be limited in interaction), since they are quick ways to still stay in touch and share some daily inspiration and beauty with you, while creating that healthy balance for me as well.
So I’m not completely retracting, just continually tempering that perfect support that ensures optimal well being, creative output, and resonance for the highest good.
Wishing you all a beautifully transformative Spring, rich in abundant expressions of your creative spirit and loving trust.
The Path I’ve Been Walking
This was part of May’s newsletter message I shared and today with things I’m processing, I felt to share it via my blog as well.
This month I’m feeling the increased importance of embracing the entire journey – both bitter and sweet, of loving the light AND the dark, of walking the middle path, and more deeply embodying harmonic resonance.
My own journey the previous six weeks through Utah’s National Parks has been one of rich exploration that has taken me to the depths of ancient Mother Earth womb energy, and catapulted me through portals of expansiveness.
I’ve been daring to go further and at times feel pulled back like an arrow in order to shoot forward with focused intent. This has also activated the very cells within my body and the latent DNA strands that we all have awaiting our unlocking.
It hasn’t all been easy, as greater levels of vulnerable courage have been needed to expose myself, to reveal the essence of pure, unabridged energy at the well of my essence, and to be okay with holding the energy of misinterpreted darkness for others to reflect and throw energetic arrows at, while I stood in my truth as the only deflection – a deflection that courageously allows the arrows to penetrate the core so they can be alchemized before returning.
I have humbly walked the path of the Ancients, receiving their guiding wisdom for the new and unknown journey ahead, and have assisted with the release and integration of energies through sound channeling.
I have felt the loud silence within and without that can be deafening and also beautifully penetrating.
I’ve communed with the harsh realization of collective belief systems and conditioning residing in my own DNA and made better friends with them.
I’ve stumbled and I’ve gotten back up.
I’ve spoken the truth of my own fear of not being able to do justice to the message I’m being guided to channel through my own expressive embodiment.
I’ve seen the other side of blind faith, as I’ve walked through doorways, bent time and reality, and made new breakthroughs that were miraculous in nature.
I’ve received the gift and messages of so many animal spirit guide encounters and of Spirit itself within the elements and every living part of Earth I come in contact with.
I’ve channeled new expressions of creative energy – always and only when inspired and guided to do so.
And I’d like to add, which was not in my newsletter, I’ve unearthed grief and known both tiredness and freshness with life – realizing the power in all of it and how every emotion is potential alchemy.
And all of this is a continuous journey that will further unfold as we continue traveling in the Magick Bus and I open to the energies each place reveals and draws forth.
I don’t know what I’m doing or how I’m going to do it anymore, until I do it.
Perhaps many of you can relate with that.
Life is all about the eternally present NOW unfolding and being willing to experience it as such with faith and humbleness of learning all things from a clean slate where nothing applies that you once did or knew.
To add another element that was not in my newsletter, there’s simply nothing more powerful to do in challenging situations than to trust, as no level of anxiety and worry will see us through. Trust in the highest good for all always unfolding, regardless of how that ends up looking. Remember that we are conditioned to judge the human condition, but there is always a bigger picture at play that we can believe in beyond reasoning. Our resilient hearts will understand, when our limiting thoughts step out of the control seat.
I am holding the vision of your wholeness and do all that I do with intent of the highest good of all concerned always at the forefront of my fullest possible expressions of personal embodiment in each moment that I can embrace.
Catching the Sunrise of Your Life
You never know what gifts or opportunities await you in each moment unless you are open, ready, and willing to embrace them when they show up.
Life can be scary at times when you dance with the unknown, but riding that edge of wonder and fear is a sweet spot where courage of the heart can rise up and draw in rich experiences because of those moments you took the leap and said yes, I deserve this.
These are photos captured of this morning’s brief, but richly fertile sunrise that was gone within moments, leaving no trace to those awakening later.
Shifting Roles Supporting You Into Your Empowerment ~ Reminders on Services I No Longer Offer & Why
After I posted this on Facebook this morning, it continued a dialogue and reiteration of things that I felt called to share and expound upon here.
I’ll reshare what I wrote there first, and then add what feels important to impart in addition.
Here is my original post:
I am so touched by all of the messages I receive of interest in wanting to work with me on sacred tattoo designs, however I am not taking on new clients and feel I should reiterate this, as I continue receiving a lot of requests.
I’ve also had several people message me with long shares about themselves and wanting me to at least help with the idea and how to come up with the design, asking me to tell them how to do that.
I hope that others can understand and honor that that is a huge part of the work that I did with this, which involves a big investment of time and energy on my part and is actually half of the process when I am working with someone.
That process involves people writing me about themselves and the essence of what they want to see in the design and I take the time to review all that they share, tune in, channel the energy, vision, images, inspiration and guidance and then begin the designing.
But the first leg of the journey is as much work as the designing, if not more crucial and energetically involved.
The interesting thing I find is that these people are so intuitive and within their messages are the answers.
My desire is that people come to trust their intuition and feel the empowerment of that process.
I know you can tap into the vision and then take the time to find the right tattoo artist that understands you and can take your vision and bring it to life.
The more you embody and trust the energy you are feeling, the more easily you’ll align with the perfect tattoo artist.
Just have patience and believe in yourself.
Part of why I think I’ve been guided right now to move away from this, besides supporting the energy I know I need to follow, is to empower others in trusting and empowering themselves.
It’s the same reason why I’ve moved away from other things as well and why the things I AM focused on are very deliberate in supporting just that.
This is one of my the biggest focuses of everything I do and am moved to do involves – to help others see that they have what they seek within them.
I believe in you.
After I posted this, a dialogue continued and while I didn’t share the extent of what this all meant in my post, my dear friend Dawn picked up on it and what we exchanged felt important to add here in a bit more detail.
Dawn mentioned how Lee Harris has announced his stopping his monthly energy forecasts and will now only share short updates as he’s moved to. She noted a recurring theme around trusting ourselves and listening, with hopes people will invest the energy and time into that for themselves.
I chimed in with agreement and that I’d seen about Lee Harris’ announcement, finding it synchronous to how I’ve shifted things and feel moved to only share as I’m inspired and guided to and to only focus on what is most resonant to my heart and essence, knowing that is collectively connected to what is also most needed at this time.
Another friend, Jayn, also chimed in with reiterating messages without seeing our comment thread and made a point that we resonate with those that are growing with us.
I have felt myself for some time now feeling very pulled into new directions and ways of sharing my individual gifts, and that has been a process to work through the feelings of responsibility and what that TRULY means, while aligning with the right timing on this that felt most supportive to my own and the collective’s process.
This has been why, little by little, I’ve moved away from things and released things that I once offered because it no longer aligned with what I felt the path now for me and my role was/is.
We all have different parts to play and we are all on different legs of the journey…none better or worse than anyone else’s part…but all integral and necessary.
Yet, my part has shown me I will often be forging new energetic territory where the guidance will only come from within and often may not always be understood, or embraced by only a few.
And that is perfectly alright for me, as I am clear on who I am now.
So, in order to align with who I am, and what best I have to offer the collective by embodying that more fully every day, I have had to make boundaries, take stands, support what I feel, and ground the new.
This has led to certain services being released for now, or for good, and new ones developing, as well as fine-tuning what remains to really focus on the energy signature I’m supporting from my piece of the collective tapestry.
This has included sharing videos that channel what is coming through me in inspiration at the moment and feel important to impart, or writing a blog about a current experience, reflection, and learning that is time relevant, or rather than certain kinds of ongoing support, creating very specific types of support for specific types of souls that will feel called to them to make those empowered leaps in their lives.
It has also included focusing on new channels of creativity and inspiration.
All this created and shared, rather than offering things people rely on – much like how Lee Harris is not doing his “scheduled monthly energy forecast” but touch-ins instead.
I feel like everyone is shifting their roles right now and some things we used to do will be taken over by others moving into that leg of their journey, while we move into another, and those that were in our new roles can now be released to move into a new one too.
I know for myself, I don’t want to enable people, but to empower them and I’m very clear on how that looks, as to my role shifting.
I feel that there is definitely a huge shift taking place that asks us all to step up into our power. And this is not going to be done in the way it used to where you may have more leeway, but rather will really engage and trigger you in the ways that light a fire under your feet in order for you to choose where you want to step next with greater personal power that knows how to utilize that fire alchemically rather than being burned by it.
I love you more than you may know and everything I’m guided to do is from that unconditional and cosmic love that only sees your wholeness and will meet you there.
Making Dreams Into Realities ~ My Nearly 3 Year RV Dream Manifests
It’s a dream no more.
I’ve held a dream about living and traveling in an RV now for quite a while – somewhere between 2 1/2 – 3 years. And it is finally happening, but all in perfectly divine and aligned timing, just as I had posted it would back on May 17, 2013 in this blog, when I saw an interesting all white RV parked across the street where I could see it directly in view from my office:
It’s always fun to look back at how things have evolved. I actually didn’t realize it had been that long, as time flies, but at the same time I’ve kept myself focused on moving forward as if it already was, patiently awaiting the alignment to light up.
The more I’ve connected with my essence and heard the truth in my heart, the more I’ve connected with what that looks like for me in terms of my life callings.
I have a deep desire as a soul to explore, forge into unknown territory, create beauty, imagine expansively, flow naturally, live freely, simply, and with ecstatic softness, and love boundlessly. I’m a soul, that much like my dear Twin Soul, Nestor, cannot be confined, contained, nor bound.
Ideas come to me without some long analyzed process…I get the idea as a spark of inspiration and knowing first…and then I start working out the details, looking at the angles of how that looks, and exploring possibilities after.
This is what took place when I first got the RV inspiration. It just came to me. I knew it was right. And little by little, things started showing me and messaging me that my guidance was on point for my life with this. I knew I was meant to move on from California at this time. I’ve lived here nearly all my life, except for 7 of my 42 years, which were spread between Seattle, Sedona, Lake Tahoe, and Reno.
And I knew there was a timing on this. It wasn’t until I returned from Alaska last August of 2014, that I knew with all of me I had fully moved into a new embodiment and was living in the new reality, which was no longer in California. It would just take time for the rest to align. From the moment I arrived home everything felt so unreal to me and like a parallel reality to my own. And since then, I’ve upped my energetic work and movement forward to create what I knew was needing to be done.
I know that as long as I listen to the nudges I will always be supported, safe, and taken care of – in the right place at the right time. And there was a time limit on when this needed to take place, how long I knew I would be able to wait, but this would also coincide with an opening that had to be taken at the precise moment it was offered.
I think people didn’t take things seriously when I said a move and RV living was coming, since people operate only on the tangible things they see and experience. So, I just worked toward it, not mentioning it much, as it wasn’t important others were consciously in on it with me or not.
I operate in the intangible, as that’s where the tangible is created. So yes, for most of the time I may look like The Fool Card in the Tarot, but that’s where I live with great peace.
That used to be a big challenge, especially when I was much younger, and now I relish in it. It doesn’t much matter to me if people don’t believe what I share about experiencing, seeing, and knowing. If I’m happy and experiencing magickal things, plus doing no one harm in the process, I think that’s all that really matters, right?
I just know that I’m needing to move around right now and not root at this time, although will plant many roots along the way, and seed much on the journey, while also doing energetic work for the collective since all of my travels are intentional for the highest good of all concerned while I’m guided by my heart.
It will be interesting to see what evolves and where the journey leads. I have some visions of things that may culminate along the way, as well as potentials for what may happen at some end point of the journey, which has no time limit. It will be as long or as short as it’s meant to be. Until I KNOW with all of me, like I did with this first step, I’ll just be following the path unfolding one step at a time.
But once I fully embodied the truth that this was actually going to happen, things have just continued to unfold to open the pathway there very clearly.
And synchronously I’ve been calling up a lot of RV energy over the year. And even on my visit to Indiana to see Laura, little did I know until she told me, that Elkhart County, Indiana was the birth place of about 90% of RV’s in the country. So there is a good chance mine could have come from there.
And another fun thing was just after word came that things were a green light with the RV last week, I pulled out of my driveway to do some errands and a large RV came down the street, ending up in front of me and leading me out to the main road. AND, on my way back home, the same EXACT RV was coming back at the same EXACT time, turning back onto my street just as I was.
When you’re in the zone, you call up a lot of synchronized alignments and reflective experiences.
So, while it may seem overnight to some people, since it’s something that I’ve been working on behind-the-scenes, it has been a process of continued belief, dedication, and moving forward without letting anything deter me from knowing what is in my heart would happen.
It’s not necessary that I dictate the timing, as that would go against natural flow and divine alignments. It was only necessary to gently (like a soft, but potent gaze) hold the energetic connection, relax, and realize that I was to be patient for what was on the threshold working itself out to bring it all together in the most supportive way for the highest good of all concerned.
In the meantime, fully embodying the new, not holding my life back, putting anything on hold, or stopping life until it happened, but continuing to cultivate things and live in abundant creation, which helps keep the energy moving and manifesting the pieces into place, one step at a time.
It’s a balance of intention without attachment or expectation, full embodiment of the new even though it isn’t here yet, flowing with the energy rather than forcing it, not allowing setbacks to deter you or discourage you, realizing the perfection of what shows up, and then courageously leaping when there’s a green light. Plus, don’t forget to intend everything for the highest good of all concerned to create the most harmonious and love-centered experience for everyone involved.
The Universe then supports you tenfold.
And although the next steps are not seen yet, I will be living and cultivating the life I want, while I await the next green light.
So, moving out of the house and into an RV park here locally, until the next leg of the journey comes together and reveals itself will be beneficial on many accounts.
It will help get things settled, integrate the new lifestyle, get the animal companions all situated, and work out any kinks, while also getting to live waterfront on the beach, which will be amazing and creatively supportive for my sabbatical projects I’ll be channeling.
I don’t know how the next thing is going to happen, but I do know that it will.
The new baby that has birthed into manifestation – A 39 foot Fleetwood Discovery with the absolutely perfect inside layout needed and desired, with 3 slide-outs for quite an off-grid home on wheels
A sneak peak of the main living salon with slide-outs out….pretty nice even before clean-detailing it and making it home.
This Sunday, two days after the Aquarius Full Blue Moon, and one day after the celebration of Lammas – “first harvest” – the RV arrived home at 6pm on the nose (all the way from Arizona), just as I finished in the garden.
I had been tending to my garden tower, tinkering around because I like to make all the plants pretty and give them attention, pruning, watering, harvesting, and also planting a few new plants. And lately, whenever I go out to the garden to check on my plants and do any work, it never fails that a white butterfly comes to greet me and will flutter around me with such loving grace, ecstatic softness, and gentle support. This day was no exception.
I also made the rounds in the yard checking out all of the fruit trees and flowers – seeing the abundance of Fall fruits that are getting ready including apples and persimmons, and finding my two out-of-season, surprise tangerines getting really close to being ready too!
They aren’t supposed to be harvested until February, but low and behold, just like me, a couple of them had to buck things and prove that “anything is possible”. Perhaps they’ll be ready, just like my two sunflowers out front, to harvest and bloom right at onset of embarking.
It was a most lovely and perfect timing to be out planting and cultivating, only to then have the “fruits of my labor” (both literally in present time and symbolically in terms of a few years of work) manifest at the exact timing of coming in from the garden.
There’s a lot to do between now and October, both with the RV, the house, my work, and all preparations, but I know it will all get done, as it always does.
Right now the RV is going to be getting an upgrade, making sure everything is functioning properly, fixing any little things to have it move-in ready, detailing it so it is fresh and clean, adding in a new washer/dryer to the hookups already there, getting a new mattress, adding solar panels to the roof, installing the towing kit so it’s ready for hook up to the car, etc…and then of course a nice little ceremony to activate her and energetically surround her in a new frequency of experience she’ll be supporting.
I love her model name, “Discovery” and I love that she “just so happens to be” mostly green with some gray, but the gray shifts color in the light and next to the green, so that it becomes a green/blue.
“Coincidentally”, the house we live in is also green – the only green house in the neighborhood with an address that numerologically holds the essence of #6, which is all about harmony, love, home, balance, family, groups, friends, truth, sincerity, peace, calm, beauty, responsibility, and service.
The reason the green color is so significant is because that’s the color of the Heart Chakra and the focus of my work at “Emerald Bridge”.
Emerald Bridge was created to be a compassionately conscious business that fuses visionary services and creations focused on a journey of the heart.
And that’s just what this adventure ahead in the RV will be – a journey of the heart.
I’m excited to see what gets created from this new abode, and look forward to exploring the entire U.S., Canada, and Mexico. I’ve traveled a lot abroad, but now I get to explore all of North America and areas surrounding.
Everyone has their own path, but it seems collectively, as Lee shared in his August Energy Forecast, that it’s a time for going within for a recalibration and redefining of how you want your life to be and allowing fire into your life to move through you to create growth.
For some that inner depth focus might reflect as deepening roots where they are and cultivating things locally. And for some, like myself, that inner depth focus is about deepening the roots within (home is where the heart is) that can be carried where ever we go, spreading and cultivating connection, community, and love around.
I look forward to being able to connect with people I know all over the country, but have never met in person, and I also look forward to meeting new people and having new adventures. I’ll be able to offer things locally, where ever I am, making it easier for people since I’ll be accessible to any locale I’m at.
I especially look forward to all of the beautiful nature and peace, inspiration, and expansiveness that I’ll immerse in, and how that channels through my work.
All I know is that we each need to follow the inner guidings we each have.
For me, right now I know this is what I am to do, and I’ll see where it leads and where I end up. Part of the journey is about exploring where I may end up wanting to root after this adventure.
But for now it’s simply about the journey…no end goal in mind. Seeing where it all leads and listening along the way to the promptings of Earth and Cosmic messages that will alert me.
(P.S. – before I added this end note and the two photo captions the whole share was 2222 words 😉 )