Days continue to be laced with much more than usual, which feels aligned with the buzzing of Spring both above and below the Earth’s soil right now. That’s how it feels – things rapidly happening in the outer world and richly happening in the inner one, simultaneously. Although it hasn’t quite been two weeks since the last, fuller update, it feels like months of events have taken place in that short window. This to include dream time and all of the in between percolation.

Having a lot going on definitely keeps my mind and energy focused on what’s only presently in front of me, rather than drifting off to the future or past. That’s not to say I don’t still dance in the realms of visions that tickle my heart, but I don’t have the bandwidth to replay anything old, nor give away energy worrying over what might be. I’m on ultra awareness of not trickling energy into mind chatter repetition of stories that are over because I’ve seen how the present rewrites and rewires all of it when I embody the new with alignment.

There’s only here and now and that’s just fine with me.

I’m curious how others are experiencing this new season in what I’ve heard many have been calling a “big” and pivotal year energetically?

Personally, I feel that the more I stay my own course and bring forth more fullness, the less any kind of matrix framework hovers in my experience. There’s no resonance for any of that to attach to, and therefore creative liberation can spark toward a wide open field of potential.

And I know I say it a lot, but I do believe strongly in the value and power of being more playful, staying soft and flowing in my approach, and walking through life with curiosity and wonder. That helps me hugely.

This simply feels to be a reminder of how there are always other ways or approaches for each of us, depending on how we feel currently about our lives. Exploring what you may not have yet – which could be a more playful attitude or simply something different than your norm – could be the other side of the coin that would help open up possibilities where doors feel closed or things feel frustrating.

Yes, I hear you that this can be challenging to do in the face of contrasts, yet this is exactly why these things are so integral and needed.

The point is, if you find yourself unhappy about things, curiosity might lead to a different choice that could bring a different feeling. And that choice is one you are the navigator of – not anyone else.

It’s all about discovering whether or not we as individuals feel good about our experience of life and building from that inquiry’s answer in the way and timing that is ours alone to unravel. It’s not about trying to imitate someone else, nor control others to bend to our individual ways and needs.

One of my hopes has always been that each of us could truly accept one another, recognize the value of variety, and be kind in the face of differences.

We all have different paths, trajectories, and purposes we’re here experiencing. Each a puzzle piece to the other. So to think that there is only one way for everyone doesn’t make sense to my heart. Does it to yours? My feeling is that if someone chooses to experience their version of embodiment that is contrasting to mine and isn’t asking or wanting to change, that doesn’t make them wrong. It simply confirms our uniqueness and underscores compassion because without the contrasts we may not know of any personal, evolutionary path we’d like to embark upon.

This is one of the big reasons why I don’t feel guided to provide straight readings for people because I don’t believe in taking the power out of someone’s hands to choose, in any way. I know how influential a reading can be, even though a person DOES always still have a choice, because it can feed ego thoughts and bypass higher self. I support self sovereignty and have come to believe that every choice is for the highest. I have loved that about The Speakers as well. That their messages are guide posts for self discovery. I mirror their trajectory in feeling detached guidance to be my personal path.

So my blog posts have, over time, shifted a lot energetically with my own personal evolution – preferring to share a more personal journey and adding to the pool of inspiration and possibility in the world where and how I can because it just so happens that this is the guiding star to my heart compass.

There’s just so much we each have to share, which can be simply and potently in emanating a frequency all on our own through our embodiment as example even if we don’t ever talk to others about it. I do know that many of you experience rich layers in your life and are finding these days to be full of synchronicities. I also know many of you may think you aren’t experiencing things and yet you are surrounded by so much love and support, as well as reflections of your heart. It doesn’t matter how things show up, the fact that you’re showing up here on Earth right now speaks to a soul courage and value that is recognized even if challenges don’t make it easy to see yourself.

So, thank you for that.

For being you and being here.

There’s no particular way that needs to be.

Only the way you feel to be in each moment.

That is and will always be enough.

This brings me to share some of how I have been experiencing things and showing up in this small corner of our wide world and because I haven’t posted for about two weeks and likely won’t for another week or more, this will be a longer read.

Perhaps you will find threads of reflections, synchronous connections, an inspiration to see with your heart more, or simply enjoy a break from the every day of it all with some story shares.

I feel to highlight some of the standouts since last I wrote that have included both waking and dream time. Sharing in this way provides a glimpse into how one might journey through life noticing what could otherwise seem subtle or disconnected. Yet, with a pause, a lot of messaging and confirmations we wonder about can come through everyday experiences. And some of it (even if I don’t draw inference to what they fully mean) just highlights the things that are personally important to me and what have supported the wholeness and wellness I make a commitment to so I can continue to show up in the ways I desire.

I’d say that the themes have been a lot of outdoor activity, community (as in friends near and far), animal guides, dreams, closure, and new groundwork.

Do any of these themes overlap with you in some way?

I noticed things ramping up on the 15th. We have jumped into hiking and biking mode here with Spring anchoring, although it takes a little more time in the mountains to fully shift seasons. This means we will stick to biking, since the paths are usually clear for that at lake level, and look for hikes where we don’t have to do a lot of sludging through old snow melt-off. That usually means that we’ll also go down to the valley, just a half hour’s drive, to hit some completely dry trails.

The beauty of living here, at least for me, is the variety we have so close of options and that we can experience both alpine and high desert landscapes. That also gives us options to embrace and make the most of during in between times.

So we did just that on the 15th – went down to high desert terrain and met up with a friend of ours who lives there for quite the hike! It started at the same trailhead we have often done, but being that she used to be a professional mountain climber, she took us a different route – straight up!

Although the hike wasn’t super long – 1.68 miles each way – it was very steep (climbing roughly 1500+ feet in elevation) and the climb was through deep sand on top of that. It was equally a feat in both up and down directions because of the sand and pitch to the trail. We definitely got a great workout for deep breathing lungs and all-over lower body muscles.

And as we climbed up I was finding some cool smaller raw quartz and then discovered part of the jaw bone of a wild animal with sharp teeth. I’ve found a couple of jaw bones before, but this was a different one.

Our end point was a beautiful area with views all around that felt like a vortex – small and protected by granite rocks.

On the way down, I found a perfect, dead Painted Lady butterfly.

That, along with conversations of the day, felt potent.

The next two days I followed through with my intention to clear our yards of Winter’s past. And the theme continued, as upon just heading outside to begin my Spring yard cleanup on the first of those days, I discovered a perfect and peaceful dead mouse. Following having had two dead birds at our home around Boojum’s passing and the previous day’s finds all felt underscoring of rebirthing cycles.

I buried the mouse next to the two birds in my garden animal sanctuary before starting my work.

Not long after I was into my first day of raking, I also came upon a tuft of Frith’s fur in one of his favorite spots he hangs out in, along with a very tiny feather. I loved finding this little gift of his magickal essence and rabbit medicine.

I had some really good muscle soreness from the previous day’s hike in places that were new from the type of climb we did, and coupled with two days’ of yard work, I was feeling really physically activated in a great way.

I actually love raking – it’s a great way to get exercise outdoors, but is also instantly rewarding with immediate results that tickle my Capricorn placements.

I also love nurturing the land and helping to support my blossoms and plants to shine on a new clean stage.

You might remember that last year I did the yardwork while Dave was away on a 12 day silent meditation, so I did the raking, loading up of bags, and hauling them out front on my own. This year, Dave helped with the bagging and hauling, while I made and left piles all around for him. It went pretty fast even with a half acre that gets dumped with heavy loads of pine needles, branches, and pine cones because of living on the National Forest. I put in about 4 1/2 hours on the first day and another 3 or so hours the second day doing the back, side, and front yards.

We ended up with 19, thirty-three gallon bags this year. Last year I had 21, thirty-two gallon bags.

It felt SO good! Team work rocks! And a clean, season’s slate really amplified both closure and readiness.

On the night of the 19th, we headed back down with friends to the high desert valley to do the more regular, long trail in the same area we were at with our mountain climbing friend.

It was a gorgeous day, and going along our usual route provided glimpses of some of the Spring desert wild flowers just starting to bloom.

It was a sunshiny day of vast vistas. We love this hike because you get the best of both worlds – starting in the high desert and then working your way up into the forests of the mountains.

You also get to see both the mountains where we live, the farm pastures in the valley, and high desert rocky areas in between. And there’s a lot of things for my faery heart to explore and discover along the way!

Always a fun adventure!

That night while we were driving home and I saw a very large doe on the side of the highway munching on some grass in the dark. She felt kind of ethereal and shape shifting. Dave didn’t see her, but I can still see her face and eyes that peered into my own.

It was around that night, too, that the bear dreams started all over again.

The first dream was about a bear that kept showing up everywhere I turned, over and over. The bear seemed to be following me, but there wasn’t a feeling of any threat. And the interesting part was that the bear kept biting my hands, over and over too. And each time, I would stitch them back up, over and over. There wasn’t any threatening, bad or painful energies around this and when I woke, I felt like there was something being imbued into my hands and blood stream…like an infusion of sorts. And then I was fixed back up, but different each time. Something energetic was being activated. Since I use my hands for healing work so much, directing energy, and even communicating, this felt important. It also felt to be both cosmic and primordial in essence.

This same night I also had another potent dream that involved a dear and magickal friend of mine. I shared it with her and this is a summary of it:

My friend was organizing or cleaning out in a big house and I walked in with another friend and then we started talking about something and my attention turned to just her. My friend was telling me something, but it seemed I wasn’t to remember the conversation. What I DO remember, however, is that while she talked, I touched my left eyebrow and felt the hairs there. They were uneven. Some were really long near the inner part of the brow toward my nose. I pulled on them gently and two giant brown feathers came out. This reminded me of the dream I shared from a couple of months ago, or so, where I ran my fingers through my hair and feathers were sprouting from my crown. Anyway, I looked at the two feathers and the top of them were shaped like ankhs and even had the subtle design of an ankh on the inside – kind of like the design inside the top of a peacock feather. I knew that we were both meant to have one of these feathers and it was in response to what we talked about. That’s all I remember.

I thought it was interesting the brown feathers came from my eyebrow and left eye…the one that symbolizes healing, wisdom, protection, magick, and creativity. This eye is also connected with Thoth – another who has been coming up a lot more recently – he was the one who restored and healed this eye in the Ancient Egyptian stories of Horus.

I had felt the Eye of Horus connection immediately upon waking and wondered if the feather represented a gift or activation, or was representative of being bearers, bridges, guardians, and ambassadors of the knowledge they hold.

There’s also connection with the feather of truth – Thoth presided over the weighing of a feather of truth to a person’s heart when they moved between worlds. Were we being granted passage to the next unfolding? And not needing to pass to the afterlife to do this, but could do so in now time?

The next day, on the 20th, we explored a hike nearer to us to see how the trail was doing in terms of snow.

It still had more snow than we thought, so we knew that anything higher than this is still a bit of time away until we can hike it.

A great way to get our hike, or bike, a day goals in, plus a great pause to the day.

It was on this hike that we also had a grouse make itself known – not visually – but very loudly. It made its signature drumming sound and this felt in line with my dream the previous night of some kind of sacred and initiatory experience. It was the loudest we’ve heard a grouse, which means we were literally so close to it, but it remained hidden. If you haven’t heard this sound it starts like deep thumping and then it builds into drumming. Apparently they make the noise with their wings, by rapidly rotating them back and forth. Sound frequencies being pulsed into our field.

Grouse initiated the next day, which was full of potent bird messengers.

The 21st brought great blue heron doing a determined follow-your-heart-and-truth fly-by, four white egrets standing as anchors of the elements and four directions, and a bald eagle that peacefully sat atop a fence overlooking the landscape with bigger picture vision of how it all connected.

That same night, bears dropped into dream time again. I don’t remember the full dream…just that a momma bear and younger yearling were in it and when they saw me they walked the same direction with me. We were walking together, in a way, with them following me. We all stopped and I noticed a big hole in the ground and stairs leading down. I realized there was a deep underground tunnel and inner caves that could be explored. It was fully dark so I decided to enter and use my cell phone’s flashlight to see my way. There was some kind of tour that had just closed, but I went to explore what I could for now and knew I’d return later to go deeper when it reopened. Unless, I somehow found a way to explore it on my own and might find a way past the barriers to keep people out. I just remember starting to explore this possibility and don’t recall anymore.

So, yes, bears are my constant companions into new layers of alchemy.

I’d like to finish out with the animal messengers before diving into the other paralleling themes…so this takes me to Earth Day on the 22nd. That morning I was laying in bed, readying to get up when a Steller’s Jay did a fly-by from the left, down the corridor across our deck and knocked our sliding door to our room. I was there alone, as Dave had gotten up already. He hit with the side of his body and right wing shoulder, but was fine. It wasn’t a super hard knock, but enough to get my attention. He kind of bounced off and then flew to a tree. I think hitting with his plush body helped, rather than straight on with his head and neck. We had already put the reflective stickers on the two areas the birds had hit to their demise, but this was a new area. We’ll be doing the same here too now, but this bird alert is certainly getting my awareness up. I feel the connections to transformational ends and starts with literal and symbolic death cycles, as well as an invitation from spirit of break-through potential. The other two birds had been smaller song birds…this one (more connected to just me) was the crested Steller’s Jay and he did resiliently survive.

Then, wouldn’t you know it…Frith made two more appearances. You may recall that he showed up on the morning of the potent Aries New Moon Total Solar Eclipse.

Well, on the day I completed the yard cleanup, I went in to shower and relax and then felt called to look out the sliding door to our room and there he was sitting upright and looking straight at me. I noticed a big light orb in the corner, show up later when I looked at the photo.

As usual, he wasn’t scared of my presence and let me open the door and come closer and talk to him, while he nibbled on the now-cleared grass. I imagine he was watching my whole raking show and was quite happy that all the goodies were now easy for him to access – a thumper’s up from Frith on a job well done!

And then his second appearance was on 4/23’s Scorpio Full Moon. Dave had just gone out to begin work on our dripline system – we were getting it ready that day for the season – and Frith showed up in the same spot he had for me, overseeing things. He really likes to be a part of the activity. And the rest of that day proved to be a productive and potent one, as we did finalize dripline preparation. All made it through the Winter and the only repair Dave had to do was on one area of our back deck where some little forest friend had decided to chew threw a big section. That was post-Winter though, so overall everything continues to maintain and hold up well.

I’ll circle back to that day, as the story I want to share feels like a good one to end this post with.

But I did finalize all the Spring prep outdoors I had intended, with a few transplanting and new potting projects on the 25th and returning more delicate statue friends back to the garden after taking a Winter’s nap indoors. And adding in a few new ones including this sweet sleeping baby dragon with a cosmic orb, a hanging bear to keep my bunny bunch company, and a group of new faery mushroom houses, and mushrooms.

This included three new indoor and four new outdoor plants.

I’m really excited about my gardenia plants especially, as it is my favorite fragrant flower other than lavender and star jasmine.

Everything’s ready to go, and everything’s already starting to bloom!

Once I see how all of the perennials do upon return, I shouldn’t have anymore big garden/yard projects except if I add some new plants to thicken in some areas. So, that all feels good!

So, there’s been a lot of outdoor activity indeed – great exercise for the body, heart, mind, and soul – because garden work is quite the workout, as you gardeners out there well know! And of course, is quite rewarding too.

But the physical activity hasn’t stopped there. As the seasons shift, that means a shift in our choice of nature exercise and an uptick in the levels of intensity. Hiking and biking are in full swing, as I started off sharing, with that big climbing hike on the 15th.

As mentioned, we do have to pick and choose during the in between window of Winter melt-off at higher elevations. But at lake level things are ready and, of course, down in the valley in the high desert terrains it’s clear and free for the exploring too. We’ve also enjoyed exploring the food terrain too, finding new restaurants to sample, including an all vegan one!

Longer hikes and bike rides are a favorite of mine and always make me feel so refreshed and invigorated. We’ve done quite a few already with friends and on our own, as well as biking down to the lake and back from our house.

Biking has increasingly become a favorite, as I’m big on both moving my body, challenging my stamina, expanding my lungs, and being in motion while letting thoughts and visions flow. I personally need higher amounts of physical exertion than most people and I do balance it out with downtime, self nurturing, and things like infrared sauna and massage chair time.

During our couple of weeks away last Fall, Dave and I were on our first-ever bike tour in Europe, celebrating his birthday, where we biked nearly 250 miles in six days.

It was something neither of us had ever done, although Dave does hardcore and technical mountain bike rides, whereas I stick to the paths and easier, lower elevation trails. The most we’d biked together in one day is around 34 miles and on that Fall trip it was 40 – 45 miles average most days with a couple of 35ish mile days and one over 50 mile day in between. I had no idea what it would be like, but knowing my Capricorn and Mars placements, I knew I could do it, as I always say that my abilities are all about a mind set. What I am determined and committed to accomplishing, I will. I won’t say it was easy, as it was quite demanding. But the point being I did it and better than I thought was possible, without giving up or opting out for a chaser van ride, and accomplishing that definitely increased my abilities for the things we do around here.

It’s one of those experiences that drive home how the things we think we can’t do, are sometimes only a belief away, or a shift of stories that we allow to run the show.

So, the uphill bike ride home from the lake here was sprinkled with more ease because of having gone through that week of challenge-made-into-accomplishment.

Hikes have been lovely though, in the Spring warmth and mix of still-cool partly clouded days. Sun at high altitude always penetrates more, so even lower temps can make it tank top and bathing suit weather. I did actually have one day of deck sun time to soak in vitamin D. I love me some high altitudes!

One of the things we love on the hike or bike ride we do from our house to the lake is exploring how the new wetlands habitat is reshaping itself by the resident beaver family there.

It’s incredible how they’ve transformed the area and we always find fresh new beaver evidence that means they were just there at the previous dusk hours, working away.

Snow melt-off is creating a lot of waterfalls and running water everywhere, which is beautiful to experience that pure and fresh alpine flow, along with the music of the element that reflects my native sun sign.

We even had quite the swing shift day in weather yesterday going from rain, to snow, to everything covered in a light white blanket, back to sunshine and blue skies, fully melted away ground, then rain, wet snow, and sticking snow again!

Mountain weather is unpredictable, which is one of the things I enjoy about it…the surprise, variety, and contrasts all inhabiting a space and time at once.

Amidst it all I’ve been working quite a bit too and laying the groundwork for upcoming things – some of which I can feel, but don’t see yet and others that I know, but the details are an organic unfolding.

It’s kind of like prepping a garden and planting seeds, before you see any results. Yet, the process is at hand and the manifestation is contained in the tiny foundations that will yield a transformative harvest.

I did fill up with Intuitive Guidance Sessions, but am now able to open up two more spots again. I’m still feeling led to offer the hugely discounted sessions, so if in need and this resonates, you’ll find that offering here:

Intuitive Guidance Sessions

I’ve also been quite busy with rabbit foster/adoption trainings, doing 1-2 a week and in fact this last week I had 3!

And enjoying an upswing in making some healthy yummies like these medjool date rolls made by blending dates, pecans, coconut, cacao powder, vanilla extract, vanilla protein powder, a little water for moisture to form, and rolling in more coconut.

They make great hiking and any time snacks, as well as a healthy dessert. Dave’s gotten into making his own whole wheat bread with a bread making machine, so he’s experimenting with different varieties and tasty blends too.

I haven’t had a lot of extra time to JUST specifically tune in with my crystal skulls and crystals, but they are assisting me on a daily basis with everything, nonetheless, and being increasingly a natural part of everything I do for the time being. For example, I will feel guided to have one sit with me in my lap or next to me while I’m working, sleeping, or just feel I need to touch one or take them outside for a few minutes in the sunlight for a break. There’s a lot of movement happening behind-the-scenes with them, as they all as a collective tell me when it’s time to record a new episode for Talks With Crystal Skulls.

And speaking of crystal skulls, I did want to mention that I spent time updating the page of listings to reflect what’s currently available. I removed all sold and reserved pieces to make it easier to navigate. I also added links to metaphysical properties because so many people ask about these.

Although a couple more have moved on since last I shared about these, there are still 5 skulls remaining – 4 plus 1 that was reserved that is now back to being available again. As happens sometimes, the person who claimed the white feldspar and light smoky skull and dragon pair ended up letting it go. So, if you were one of the people that had been interested in this beauty and reached out, perhaps it was meant for you all along and as it goes, energies rearrange themselves as is reflective of the hearts who call and divine timing and readiness.

I also updated the page below with two short videos at the top that show the five skulls that are left, before you explore the individual listings for each.

AND, not only are all five (update 2 left) offered with a discount, but a few of them have been majorly price-cut to help home these cocreators. There’s one in particular I’m shocked is still hanging around. Here’s the link:

Crystals & Crystal Skulls

And that leads me to the last little story I wanted to close out with, returning back to 4/23 that I promised to get back to.

This was the day of the Scorpio Full Moon and as it turned out, that day was a special one for our little family here on the Forest Portal.

I mentioned before how Sweet Pea is doing really well considering her condition and enjoying her time with us both, while receiving all the spoiling she deserves. I’d recently been telling Dave that I felt both that we could do some short trips with her, which might be nice to change up the energy, and that I think she would do well on short hikes too.

She was never a huge fan of her harness and leash in the past, like her brother was, but I got the sense that being our only child and her loving to be with us all the time now, that she may have a different idea about this now. I told Dave that I thought we should try out some short hikes out back in the forest with her and see how she does and if she did well, we could look at taking her on some, a bit more regularly and also think about a road trip now and then.

Well, on the Full Moon Dave said he felt called to take some of Boojum’s ashes and bury them in a special place we hike to out back with view of the lake and we thought it was the perfect time to give this a go, as having our whole little family together for this felt important.

So, I found my cute forest friends backpack, lined it with plastic (for any potential accidents) and then a towel over it for comfort, and strapped it on backwards so I’d be able to talk to and pet her. Then we got Sweet Pea in her little pink harness and loaded her in and off we went!

This is a two mile round trip hike and she did amazing!

Not a peep from her of complaint or discomfort. She either had her head poked out the side watching the sights and dad upfront, rested on my arm, or cuddled up inside around her. We took her out once on the way to the lookout spot and let her try a little exploring on leash. Not bad.

She’s still hesitant and prefers sticking close to us, but this was the best she’s ever done. Normally she just sits in a corner and won’t move.

We then got to our spot and when we reached it we were pleasantly surprised to find daffodils blooming in bunches all over the little area where Dave had intended to bury some of Boojum’s ashes and special things.

We had never seen daffodils growing here before and any earlier or later, we may have missed them.

This, along with it being the Scorpio Full Moon all felt to be supportive confirmation of Dave’s feeling to do this on that day and of Boojum smiling down upon us. Dave didn’t know it was the Full Moon – he happens to be a Scorpio – and the perfection of it all was just a beautiful experience that made it all extra special and sprinkled with magick.

Sweet Pea really liked the spot too and explored the daffodils, the manzanita, trees, and then enjoyed sitting on each of our laps as we had a little ceremony and spent some time there together talking about Boojum.

Dave has had a challenging time with this, and this was a way he thought would help create more closure and assist the grieving process for him.

I thought that was perfect and beautiful.

Sweet Pea did too.

And the place where Dave chose for Boojum was equally perfect – a place we can visit and look out at the vast landscape we love and all dream together.

We were so pleased with the experience and how well Sweet Pea did.

She seemed proud of herself that she was a big girl going on hikes with mom and dad now.

She was so good, didn’t even have any potty accidents, and really felt to be enjoying herself.

Upon returning, Dave ordered an official kitty carrier for hiking and we plan to take her out on short ones like this, now and then, so we can continue to immerse in creating special memories together.

We’re making every moment count.

That feels, to me, what life’s about.

And speaking of memories…today happens to mark the anniversary of Nestor’s return to the stars 16 years ago – she is my twin soul that was with me in rabbit form for five Earth years. That was a year of profound life changes for me when she departed in 2008. My soul family in bunny bodies sure know how to aid my personal evolution.

Today also marks Dave’s 16 year vegan anniversary. Big markers of personal growth all around indeed.

Our little family is going to be away for a short little trip, actually, beginning the 30th – but will return on the 3rd. So, if you do in fact find a crystal skull calling, just know that any claims made this weekend will go out this Monday, the 29th. Otherwise, I’ll get back to shipping on the following Monday. I’ll also be taking a work break for these few days, too, and will return to things soon.

Until then, now, later, and in between…here’s to making every moment count.