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Tania Marie: Late August Reflections, Updates & Tips
We’ve been enjoying that late summer afternoon thunderstorm and rain vibe here the last few days. I actually broke out the vegan hot chocolate and cozied up with my blankie shawl for some writing and monthly record keeping.

I love how this ignites warm, golden sunset evenings, glowing through the newly moistened forest.
It won’t be long before gold will kiss everything soon.

Is anyone else looking forward to the Autumn enchantment?
Seasons sure do cycle through quickly.


It’s not always easy for me to feel what day of the week it actually is, but lately this has been extra odd for me.
I really have no idea of time anymore other than when I sit down, focus, and really zero in on it.

The garden is also in its late Summer lush mode.

Autumn blooms will soon be on the way.

It’s so fun how each year it’s always different and I never know what will pop up or how it will look.

Have any of you garden faeries out there also been enjoying the surprise parties your plant babies have been throwing?

This year’s late Summer gifts have me enjoying an abundance of mini crimson roses and lavender, with some sweet little purple catmint and other Autumn colored blossoms dancing in between.
The black-eyed Susans are also just beginning to pop through along with some daisies.

But oh does the lavender smell heavenly each time I walk by.
Our wild rabbit family seems to love it all, as every time I go out to the garden, one of them is sitting in it and we scare each other. Lol!
Speaking of rabbits, I’ve been having quite a few dreams with them recently – some I’ve already mentioned – and continued ones with Astrid, Joy actually made an appearance too, and a very potently healing one with two large white rabbits – one of them was named Amandine.
That last one came on the heels of a very powerfully shifting day involving pivotal, deep, integrative healing that took place in waking life…only to continue in dream time.
Since then, there’s been another increase in profound experiences of alignment, more instant manifestation, and more ease and grace with heart matched intentions due to the clarity created by breaking through the deeper layers of the old core. It’s taken greater vulnerability and self-realization, along with creating compassionate channels to walk in fuller exposure of truth.
I’m encouraged by the things I experience, and what I also hear from others, of what is possible no matter what’s on the larger scene. It’s the little things we each do that make a difference. So rather than get frustrated and discouraged by looking “out there,” focusing “in here” will start creating major waves of tangible change in your every day world.
A couple of days ago we enjoyed one of our favorite walks – one where a lot of magickal little things pop up.

It was the first time these beautiful horses greeted us here.

They are not wild horses, but having them wandering the meadow and forest there was such a gift to see.
Truly a dreamy vision – one I’ve seen in my Pisces imagination.

I went closer to connect and say hi.

These two were males. There was a third in the distance between the trees.

They spoke to me of an energy that I’ve carried since a little girl during years of their spirit being with me to help.

And after having done some deep healing, having them show up was like recognition of that shift and how they STILL are with me guiding and helping.

I love how a pack of coyotes in the rain just went crazy with yipping outside with that last sentence.
Hawk encounters have been ongoing, which I feel is aligned with the upcoming things next month.

Had this one above do a fly over when laying on the beach.
I’ve also discovered we now have a resident red-tailed hawk who made himself known when I was out doing some garden stuff one day. I had actually just been looking to see if we had a hawk’s nest in our large front tree and wondered if one was living here. I looked out from the upper deck and he flew low, right by me, coming to land in a tree just across from me and making softer screeches.
We peered at each other and I thanked him. After acknowledgment was made, he then flew the opposite direction landing in a tree further down. And this went on a couple of times, back and forth with fly-bys. He was communicating quite profoundly. Amazing!
I’ve seen this hawk quite a bit recently. Again, the dramatic hawk fly-bys and other raptors have increased since my Horus statue carved from the Great Pyramid stone was on its way here.
And upon arrival, the messaging and alignments have doubled.
Horus has been hanging out in the garden a bit.
We also had a beautiful osprey encounter at another lake we hiked at with a friend. Dave had just mentioned that an osprey lives at the lake there that we’ve seen, and I secretly was calling to her in my head and heart, and of course these two things between us prompted some high-pitched whistles I recognized immediately, followed by a fly over and circling by none other than Miss Osprey herself.
I’ve been realizing that not only do these messengers show up as a sign of things previously, but also are now showing up when thought of or called upon. Many answer with vocalization too.
There’s a nest the osprey uses that’s just down the path that we eventually reached.
Right after seeing the osprey and nest, I came across this perfect dragon head etched into a fallen tree.

She looks so much like the one tattooed on my left arm who peers over my shoulder.
And just look at how alive her eye looks!

I won’t even go into the dragons here! LOL! Too much to share already about the rest.
Anyway, the sacred raptor messengers continue, but so has ptarmigan’s presence.
We returned to one of our go-to hikes yesterday where I found a ptarmigan and hawk feather the previous time and ptarmigan had showed up crossing the trail in front of us.
Well, Dave had just miraculously found a quarter in the middle of the lush bushes and handed it to me to have because it had a cool crane on the back of it. He told me to keep it, like a feather I might find, since it’s a crane. Literally, right after that I looked down and saw a ptarmigan feather, which came home with me.

And right as I picked it up, sweet ptarmigan herself started clucking again.
We followed her vocalization and found her high up in a tree!

Each time I pick up her feathers, she always appears and seems to say, “Yes, that’s mine. I left it there for you.”
It’s sweet to not only have one-off experiences with these messengers, but to be forming ongoing relationships with them. It’s a new form that connection is taking with the animals that mean so much to me, all made extra possible from the love that I don’t allow to be shut out because of not having my dear ones physically with me anymore.
I continue to love more and welcome in the different ways I am able to share that love and expand into amazing experiences of potential.
As August nears end, Astrid’s now two-year transition anniversary approaches of the 30th. I still can’t believe how fast the years have gone and that I’ve been that long without a physical rabbit companion by my side. It’s so strange.
And yet, life continues to be beautiful and magickal because of the love we share. And in fact, is now more closely resembling the things I believed in as a child.
I’m grateful for how connected I am with my loves who’ve returned to the stars, how much they make themselves known, for the wild rabbits here watching over things and tickling my heart with each appearance, and for all of the other animals that have welcomed me as family .
Many of us have lost, and continue to lose, very dear souls in our lives. Death is ongoing, just as birth is. Every moment either dies or renews. And in between both is the heart that bridges them and allows us to know love. Love never ceases even if the form of something does. Nothing is replaced. A unique creation emerges that offers expansion of love – to know it, ourselves, each other, and all things even more.
So much feels to be full circle right now. Perhaps some of you are experiencing this as well.
There’s a lot of depth being reached, especially when engaged with the desire to be vulnerable and present to what shows up. I can’t explain how almost miraculously life is unwrapping, but simply put it’s how I believed things could be and finally am experiencing little snippets of that. To know this is only the tip of the iceberg is incredible. But it all fuels my wanting to keep singing, “Don’t stop believing”. We have yet to know our potential individually and as a collective.
I’ve been in awe recently of the astounding signs that speak seamlessly in answer to things. The more we are present to these, the more they happen and create other things to show up and fall into place as well.
That can happen in waking and dream life – where the heart bridges these worlds and merges them as one state of being your consciousness travels.
Some of my other key and remembered dreams have involved a secret place I was taken to within an upcoming space I’ve been invited back to – more on that another time – where I engaged in sound alchemy with a mystery school of elders. In that same night’s dream walking, I found myself pregnant, twice, one after another.
The every day increasingly feels fertile to the point I can literally tell when the next “wow” is about to land, as I recognize the subtle frequency shifts that precede it.
Eclipse season is about to ignite again with the upcoming Pisces Full Moon Total Lunar Eclipse of the 7th.
Synchronously, Dave and I have a very full nearly five weeks that kick off beginning that day here. for that reason, early September will be an ending point for blogging for me until sometime later in October. I’ll get in one more send-off blog before heading off.
We are also about to celebrate my dad’s 80th birthday this weekend with a family get-together for a couple of days. We’re going to spend the night with my family and immerse in this biggie birthday!
In celebration of him, I quickly pulled together a few favorite photos. I had in mind a couple of others, but couldn’t find them easily. So for now here’s the ones that did want to show up, in honor of my dad who’s done so much for us all.

My dad shares a love for plants and animals and the beautiful and magickal things in life.
Here he is, below, loving on Cosmo in the Magick Bus (our RV) and you can see him above with Boojum during that same time too. Then some other magickal times including him with the wild horses he and I got to connect with together on a special day, us at the beach on a sunset walk during one of his visits to see me when I was living in Costa Mesa, CA after we went to the LA County Fair together, and on another celebratory day.

Dad enjoying the great outdoors he loves, while visiting Alaska.

And one of my favorites of him and mom on a beach walk with me, getting their bare feets in the sand and water! Weeeee!
I’m grateful he’s here with us and look forward to making more special memories together.

A BIG THANK YOU
I wanted to thank those of you who trusted the call to become guardians to the new crystal skull beings that I was guided to offer recently.
There were some truly sacred, magickal, and moving experiences that unfolded with the two incredible elder beings – the large citrine and cathedral lemurian. Both connections brought chills, tears, and amazing synchronicities and signs that all underscored the message they gave me for their timing of release and their knowing who they were to be with. I know without doubt they are exactly where they were meant to be and the stories shared really spoke to why as well. I love that they went to spots on the Earth grid that are integral to things too. Beyond beautiful.
Just a heads up that there are a couple more special crystal skull beings that have spoken. They will be released some time between today, the 27th, and Friday the 29th. I am listening to when they want to go public, as they know their timing. So just keep an eye out on this page the next couple of days, if you are sensing a nudge already and don’t want to miss them:
As a side note to that, I will only be available to ship out until September 5th. So if you are interested in one and would like them sooner than later, just keep that date in mind. Otherwise, I won’t be able to resume shipping again until later in October.
EMAIL NOTIFICATIONS
One more detail I wanted to mention, concerns email notifications for new blogs I publish.
It’s come to my attention that several people have been missing notifications of blogs I post, who used to always receive them. I can’t conclude that these are the reasons for everyone, but in working with one person we were able to find a backlog of email notifications for my blogs in a folder that her email application had created called “managed subscriptions.”
If you for some reason don’t see email updates from me anymore, and used to AND also would like to continue to, then these are some things you could check and/or do:
- Check your spam, trash, or other folders you might have – email applications may have suddenly designated them in one of these categories, so it’s good to take a look there
- Make sure to unblock wordpress email: donotreply@wordpress.com as this is the email that sends out my updates
- You may want to resign up for email updates too after doing all of this
It’s possible that because my name isn’t evident in the title of the blog, that some email applications deem this spam, automatically categorize them since there’s not a name associated with it, or it’s not easily visible or recognizable to you in your folder and can easily be overlooked.
I had a friend who his very techy and good with this stuff, look at things to see if there was an issue on the end of my blog site, but couldn’t find anything. The same conclusion was found in relation to a couple of people who have said now and then they can’t comment on my blog, when they used to be able to do so.
So along with the above, on my part going forward, I am going to look into adding my name to the titles of the blogs to see if that makes a difference for anyone. This is why you might see that appear suddenly instead of just the title.
Again, this may not be an issue for you, but since a few people had this happen suddenly after receiving email notifications previously, it’s something to keep in mind for any future potential. You can also reach out to me and let me know.
Thank you to everyone for all the support and love. It means so much.
Believe in the Impossible ~ The Portal is Open (Plus New Release & Offerings)
There’s a full spectrum of experiences available to us on this Earth plane and yet much of the time we seem to be presented with only a couple of choices and come to accept these as the only choices.

How can that be if this Universe, alone, is made up of infinite possibilities, and we are but only one Universe within the Multiverses?

How can that be if we are multi-dimensional beings, as diverse as the colors of the rainbow, and our daily options of feeling responses and imagination are just as unlimited?

Are we given ability to be creative only to dream, but never to be the dreams?

These are things to ponder when ever you feel locked in, cornered, or frustrated.

There are always options beyond meets the eye and to believe that there aren’t, just might be the illusion and not your true reality.

I’m constantly in awe of the potentials available when I stretch myself to believe possible, what seems impossible.
And every potential and every version of you in each moment, day, month, or year is a color frequency of vibrational essence that can shift or stay the same, merge and blend, but always emanate brilliantly by your choosing.

You may recall my post What Color Frequency of the Rainbow are You Ambassador of? that shares how we are each artists with the ability to mix colors on our palettes and blend layers of richness together to our desire in order to achieve the most enhanced version of art (life) we want to create and share as our unique portion of harmony within the collective symphony.

If this were limited, or set up to be chosen by others, you would not have an imagination to visualize and create from, feelings to express as the moment moves you, nor a will to choose and act upon.
Think on that whenever someone’s own vibrational will comes on strong with thinking they have the answers for you.
I’ve always had a sensitivity to how what I say might influence others, and while we are not responsible for the way others filter things and we are always in process of fine-tuning how we relate to another with greater integrity, best conscious awareness, and highest potential for mutual empowerment, there will always be just that – a constant refining, to fit the most embracive space we can be in each moment for the highest good. At least that’s my intention.
This is one of the reasons I prefer to be in the role of intuitive “guide” rather than psychic or reader, as for me even the best of intentions with this I feel can have energetic persuasion that affects choices and can be subliminally influential without meaning to be. I am conscious of the vibrational nuances that we can affect each other with through even telepathic means and suggestions. There’s no perfect answer or way except to live as the most aware version of ourselves in each moment and to tune into what is us and what is not us. The way to understand that is to understand your natural frequency so that you can easily detect when something foreign pops up that may affect your decisions.
I like to assist others in getting to answers on their own because I believe that all answers are not out of reach like we believe they are and we simply need seeds as access points of curiosity and intention to hear them. Our consciousness has access to the outer, inner, and here-and-now realms, but simply needs to be engaged and made conscious.

I try my best not to be in a role of persuasion, but I’m also aware that anything we share has a vibrational effect by virtue of its being. I value people’s boundaries and free will. This is underscored by my coming from a no-boundary Pisces who’s finally joyful to know myself within that vast abyss of Everythingness I can easily reside in always.
That native nature can be a double-edged sword if not understood, as it’s easy to know other as self and be blurry on self within relationship to other.
I do love the Everythingness though, and when on my own, I bask in that rainbow light of the ALL.

My garden in full Summer bloom is a perfect reflection of my inner rainbow spectrum.

It demonstrates the unlimited creative potential of consciousness to choose to emanate as.

And right now everything is vibrating loudly in the joy of pure potential and authentic essence – can you hear their songs?

And speaking of songs, I heard the song of my newest crystal skull collective that has long been in the formation process. I thought that perhaps they were done, but recently they told me to spread everyone out on the floor and start anew. This felt reflective of recent fine-tuning I’ve been doing.
It was amazing, how once I did this and embraced a renewing start, they came together in lightning speed. The time was right.
This took place on Tuesday 7/23 and what happened was indeed like lightning in the best and incredulous of ways.
It didn’t take me long to grid the crystals and crystal skulls on my round table. As you may recall, The Speakers are all gridded with crystals on an elongated square – or rectangular table.
The newest table was all complete except for one spot, which was to be for a skull I was awaiting arrival of. And in fact, there were “lightning” aspects included in this grid that added to the “flash” of rapid opening that followed.
That skull came one day early – on this day – and arrived literally minutes after I completed the grid.
I brought her downstairs and placed her in her spot.
This ignited an unfolding of events that signified to me that the grid was not only complete, but the portal was wide open, and it was on high energy activation for clear messaging.
Right after I completed the grid I was messaged by someone asking about an item I had available on a clothing listing I have, which was referring to the color. They wanted to know if the color was what was known as Aster – and indeed it was. Right as I messaged the person confirmation of this I heard a loud crash behind me and shattering.
Both Aster and Astrid have meaning including that of “a star” or being “of the stars.”
I looked behind me and one of my little, two foot faery trees, with ornaments in it that sits on a shelf, had completely toppled over to the ground and ornaments were everywhere. The most bizarre part of this is that it’s been sitting there for several years and never had any issue, nor was it off-balance in any way. And it decides at this moment of grid completion to just fall over.
On top of that, the way it fell was also seemingly impossible. There are small decorative items that sit in front of the tree at the edge of the shelf and none of them had fallen. Just the tree somehow miraculously jumped over them and fell on its own.
I knew right away this was no random act, but that in fact the green light was on full blast for the new portal. I got chills immediately as I knew any veil had been lifted and cosmic communication was streaming through – especially from Queen Astrid whose spirit resides in this room where she transitioned to the stars.
When I went to examine the tree and ornaments on the floor I noted that only two things had broken of the many. One was an ornament mushroom light and the other was an Alice in Wonderland black heart ornament. The “light” mushroom was completely shattered, but the Alice in Wonderland heart had only been broken at the top of one of the curves of the heart around the White Rabbit’s ears on one side. His ears were fully intact, but the area around the ears was opened on the black, which felt like the Rabbit Hole had opened, or the portal to the cosmic abyss or other worlds was inviting me in with no barrier. On the opposite side of the heart is Alice – now with a way through to the Other Side.
To add to that wonder, the saying on that side of the ornament where the White Rabbit stood and was the side laying upright on the ground, was “Why, sometimes I’ve believed as many as six impossible things before breakfast.”
And indeed, this would be one of those impossible things I believe in!
To add to the mystery, wonder, and merriment of magickal manifestations and miraculous activations, just minutes after I understood all of what had happened and had just gone to tell Dave about it, since he heard the crash and was wondering, the power went out.
Dave was already amazed, although said right away (before I told him what happened) that Astrid must have done it. I then went on to describe how impossible this was in other realities, but not in mine.
The power was out for five hours from 4:20 to 9:20 pm – 5 being my other cosmic message from the bunnies in the stars – and when we learned of the issue from the electric company at conclusion of the power outage the text just read, “system issue.” The power was down in the whole neighborhood, as we could hear a couple of neighbors’ generators kick in.
I had just finished saying to Dave how I’d completed the grid and that with everything in my office right now our house could blast off in terms of crystal energy – which included all the quartz I’ve found and gathered, that awaited going out into the garden spiral, and all the rest of the crystals all over my floor in piles for me to organize.
The power went on just as we were headed to bed. We got in bed a bit earlier than usual, as we were going to be packing up and heading out the next morning for another backpacking adventure.
We still haven’t ventured out to other areas yet for this because we so love our spot at Star Lake. We call it our “Summer cabin” getaway, although it’s more like a tiny tent.
We’ll likely go some other places through the rest of Summer and early Autumn, but we’ve been truly feeling rejuvenated and invigorated by our sacred portal that sits awaiting us like a cosmic container for our souls. So, this was our now third camping trip here, along with our first one in Desolation Wilderness – a total of four and I think so far, one trip a week we’ve been doing since we made the decision to start having this experience as part of our lives.
Anyway, we did leave that next morning for the next few days and I noted a lot of alignment and a lot of amped up energy following this portal activation with my crystal and crystal skull grid. (By the way, their name is coming forth and was channeling during our time away, but they will have one just as The Speakers did. We’ll see if they want to be announced or not.)
I’ve also been working on two smaller grids and one other larger one, so in fact there will be five when all is said and done – of course! And unplanned, because I actually thought there’d only be three and one of those split into three itself.
Anyway, back to alignment and amped up energy. I noted that when we parked our car at the trailhead to start, my cell clock said 11:11 am and I of course received the wink from Astrid and took a screenshot of my screensaver with the time to mark it.
Unlike the last time that was hard-going after my cleaning days, and the other times that are just hard because these are tougher hikes especially carrying packs, this time was my strongest by far. This is not an easy hike up no matter which trailhead you take. And the one we do knocks off one mile, but with a 22-23 pound pack on your back, it’s quite the haul.
This time, Dave had me go ahead while he finished getting his gear on and he actually never caught up with me, although we could see each other around the turns and behind or in front from a distance.

When we reached the top summit at 9660 feet, I looked at my cell clock again and it read 1:11 pm!
Again, no random thing there, but another wink from Astrid that all was in alignment. Both Dave and I were amazed at how fast I’d gotten up there, as I made it under 2 hours since by the time we got our packs on and ready, it was 11:19 am when I actually started hiking.
And when we arrived at our campsite we noted that we had made it under 3 hours, which was well under 30 minutes or more of our usual timing it takes. And in fact, on our way out to return home, we concluded our hike to the car in just 3 hours and 10 minutes, which was another wow and still under our norm since usually coming back is harder going because my pack is so much heavier with added mountain spirit crystals. LOL!
You’ll remember the first time it was 45 pounds, the second time 38, and this last time 40. I was amazed by the ease and strength that enabled all of this.
I knew something had shifted and there was increased power and strength being experienced, not to mention support coming in without obstruction.
So, yes, I did get led to a lot of amazing crystals again and was wowed by the continuation of incredible finds I’ve never discovered until these last two trips.
In fact, this amazing-find thing even happened closer to home, as just the day before our leaving, we did a bike ride through the forest and right when I got out of the car to start our ride, my eye spotted a crystal on the side of the slope next to it. I went over and to my delight, it was a crystal point with 3 terminated faces and a self healed back. That felt to me like some amazing things were upcoming for our backpacking and indeed that was truth!
Our first evening’s walk before bed was enchanted feeling. There were different flowers in bloom this time.

This area felt particularly magickal with a lot of Fae presence and light.

During our camping days up top, we each did different day activities before meeting back up together. While Dave did a day hike the opposite direction, I went on a self-guided crystal expedition to see what the Fae had in store.
On our way in the first day, I had actually found a large turkey vulture feather at one point where the quartz field I love starts. I got message this is where they wanted me to begin my explorations, so that is in fact where I went back to, to begin. This underscored my intuition, as before we had even started the hike I got this sense I would begin my explorations a bit further than usual and the feather was exactly where I imagined that would be.
I covered probably only a quarter of a mile area in the total four-hour time I gave myself until lunch, climbing the slopes up and down, just being guided by senses and after about an hour of nothing yet unusual, I then found a hawk feather on the hill.
Now, feathers in this area are not my norm to find. I’ve only found one great horned owl feather a couple of years ago and then the ptarmigan tail feather last time on our way out.

This time it was the giant turkey vulture, hawk, and on our way out, another ptarmigan tail feather – the ptarmigan seems to be my parting messenger with all her symbolism.
The turkey vulture was a marker and the hawk feather was a message – she said, “Keep trusting. Keep going. Keep your hawk eyes about you. You’re on the right track. This is the spot.”
And she was right, as immediately after hawk, began the influx of amazing finds. I just had to stay the course and the vortex would ignite. Isn’t that how all things in life go with processes? Just when you want to give up, is usually right before things are about to pop. Stay the course and enjoy the journey. Then watch how things blossom.
I found a perfect terminated point, many partially terminated points, a bunch of smoky quartz – medium to light this time, citrine, smoky citrine, quartz with smoky and citrine, smoky with pink to peach colored quartz, smoky with golden healer, golden healers, of course pure chunks of clear quartz, elestialated quartz, rosy pink quartz, gorgeous clear and shiny quartz with red (likely hematite), all portions of partially formed crystals, incredible formations and crystal growth, druzy portals, and even two amazing quartz points with thick white jackets!
There was also this incredible dragon head quartz, which doubles as a hawk as well.

Just look at the energy around it, while I took these photos in my garden of it.



I also forgot to mention that there was one “random” piece of obsidian I found. Dave felt it could be remnants from the indigenous of the area long ago from some of their tools.

For all my fellow crystal lovers, here are photos of some of the incredible pieces to enjoy the energy of and to give you an idea of the magick that’s been popping up from the Earth. These babies sure want to do the work, as I’ve never found stuff like this out in the wild just sitting out in the open, ready and waiting! And it’s happening all over, as new crystal finds and crystal skulls seem to be on fire and bursting from Gaia’s seams and flowing through carvers’ hands. It’s a collective celebration of energetic code activations.
Just look at these potent beauties!















And nearly all, again, have incredible rainbows popping and winking. I left so many behind, but only bring home who tells me needs to come.
I’m in constant awe and, yes, I do believe in AT LEAST 6 impossible things every day!

I gave my new crystal friends a bath in the lake upon returning to camp. That’s something I do every time. I take them down to our private beach and give them all a Star Lake baptism and activation. It’s like a purification sacred ritual. This feels to be both in part for them and the lake. And during this process there’s usually quite a few that I learn are not meant to come on – as I explore them in greater detail and energy – but were needed for me to bring back to the lake and throw them in. In this way, activating this alpine lake. Some true beauties went into the water’s depths and now will always remain a part of her crystalline waters to be part of the collective Earth grid.
Alignment just keeps on going, as just yesterday I was on the trail I know to have a small smoky quartz pocket and indeed the deep smokies were on fire – literally. Having been sitting in the direct sun they were super hot to the touch and that made them even more alive and potent! Just look at these beauties. Everything is prepping for a lot of anchoring in gridding in the space here with big energy.

And back to camping – on our first day after setup and lunch, we enjoyed a relaxing time laying in the hammock resting, dreaming, connecting, and reading. This is when I like to feel into and practice things during this “being” time because I’m not a napper. I just rest in high awareness.
So, I close my eyes, but never fall asleep…I’m just in complete surrender and tuning in mode.
Twice I opened my eyes and each time something appeared right at that and only moment. The first time five red-headed merganser ducks floated by through the small opening in the bushes in front of me. There’s that 5 again – my messenger coming through 5 mergansers.
I closed my eyes and then reopened them a few minutes later only to now have an osprey flying by just as I looked.
Continued divine flow, underscored, and direct answers to things I pondered.
Oh, and to tag-team with the 5 mergansers, on our first day back home to have beach integration downtime, I watched as mom merganser and 4 babies came up to our area – yes 5 again!

That same day, I had a sweet and extraordinary thing happen with a tiny baby tree frog. I was on the towel and Dave in a chair under the umbrella when he called me over. This baby tree frog had somehow hopped out of our beach bag and as Dave always does, he calls me when he sees frogs (or any animal for that matter) to come and help them.

He knows they’ll come to me and so he asked me to move the frog because if she got back in the bag she’d probably get squished and die. So, I put my hand out and in she hopped.

She looked like she enjoyed that. I took her to the bushes and trees behind us and let her jump in.

I then went back to lay on my towel. In minutes I felt something jump on the side of my head and I knew right away it was my little frog friend!
I was so tickled by this sweetness overload!
She had hopped all the way back through the bushes, across the sand and right to me! We were both amazed. I told her she needed to stay in the bushes to stay safe. I wondered if she wanted to come home and for a moment we wondered if she’d actually come from home with us, traveling in the bag, as we have a lot of little frogs that like to live in our deck couch and things. So she either came here with us or was from here. I had to find out.
So I told her if she came from home and wanted to go back then she can come back to me, but if she was just saying hi, then she needed to stay safe in her bushes.
I took her back to her safe haven bushes and she didn’t return.
We finished out the weekend with a visit from mom and dad, an evening symphony at the north end of the lake with friends, and a half day of kayaking down the river again with our matching yellow banana kayak gang.
My parents came up for lunch, a visit, and to see my garden – they love flowers too!
And actually dad brought me up some of his amazing lilies, as you can see are perfect in my pretty purple crystal vase they also gave me a while back.

I then added a bunch of my own yellow and orange lilies mixed in with my white stargazer lilies in my butterfly vase to bring in all the vibrant beauty for daily indoor pleasure too.

Such a happy and vibrant bunch of beauties, aren’t they?!
How can you not feel joy seeing nature laugh in such brilliant colors?

We enjoyed a lovely lunch on my decked out table of rabbit decor plates and accessories.

And then took a walk through the faery garden and quartz spiral grid.

Aren’t mom and dad cute in the wild faery forest garden?

And look at mom go! Weeeee!

Mom and I also had fun exploring all my new crystal finds. Her faery heart enjoyed seeing all the sparkly and potent beauties.
Oh, did I mention I finally had enough quartz to make my spiral? Well, I guess I just did. LOL!
I got in some work before my parents came over and completed the first round of our quartz crystal spiral that we decided upon instead of a labyrinth – we do after all have our portable gold painted labyrinth we made.
Dave and I leveled out the area the weekend before last and I felt to start seeing if I had enough crystals to get something going from all of my hauls backpacking and from other hikes here over the years. Dave and I started to actually like the idea of a spiral more, ever since we saw the one up at Star Lake, and that also felt more doable without having to make many more trips hauling down friends from the mountain. Seeing the spiral up at Star Lake also felt like a nudge that this was the direction to go in, instead, and interestingly this last time we were there it appeared that someone had undone the spiral. So it feels to have been a message and then when gone, that ours would manifest here to grid things up there that had begun.
This all felt in the flow of alignment, once again, because when I decided to start working on this, this weekend I received a little, but mighty messenger with a big nudge. Right after I brought all of the quartz out on the deck to look over them and begin the process, I then stood in front of the area to mentally map things out. Right at that very moment a hummingbird appeared out of nowhere and flew directly in front of me at eye level, just a foot from my face. We looked at each other for about thirty seconds, sharing a long gaze wrapped in rapid wing flutters that seemed to anoint the space while also sending vibrational confirmation of the spirit realm of my ancient lineage and beyond. After sharing this gaze and recognition, the hummingbird zipped off over the fence and disappeared into the forest.
Hummingbird is part of the Inca Medicine Wheel that is a spiritual journey through the four directions with hummingbird representing the North. I actually created a personal interpretation of this through my painting A Walk Between Worlds – “Hatun Karpay of the Nagual” (the great initiation of the Nagual – form of very powerful shaman). The interpretation includes that of including the symbolism as reference to the World (#21) Card of the Major Arcana cards of the Tarot. Here’s a larger photo of the painting: A Walk Between Worlds and more info from another very old post.
All of this also confirmed using the ancient spiral as well. The design spirals around three times.

It sits to the right of the side yard when looking down from the living room, with my wild garden to the left of it. It will soon transform into its own sacred rock garden – step by step.

We love how it’s come along and I have ideas for the rest of the area to bring it all together with added enchantment and intention, while keeping it simple without need for any outside help or major cost.
Since taking the first photos the day my parents arrived, I’ve since been guided to add my four large stones that have a layer of incredible deep and icy blue, peachy pink, golden, and clear quartz running through the matrix.

These were stones attuned by Astrid when she was physically here, and now anchor the four tree stump corners.
Here are some close-ups of them.
Mostly they feel like blue quartz and some of the richer blue areas look like little gemstones – sapphires come to mind. Truly magickal! This “blue ray” energy that has been so prevalent and key feels perfect to have as those anchors.
You might also note that within the spiral design I also included five tree rounds that are anchored with large quartz stones atop them. These five represent the elements of fire, air, earth, water, and spirit and make up an elemental star if one were to draw lines through them on the ground.
Along with my magickal additions that are brewing as ideas to add to the area, I will also be adding another tree stump stool to the center to be able to sit on once you do your meditation walk in and before you do your meditation walk out – each direction has its own intention, symbolism, and way to work with it. I thought it would be fun to show it in process so far.
So, this sacred space is a work in progress to be completed before Winter – we’ll see! Or, it will continue to evolve, as the spiral of life does indeed that!
In the meantime, what did finally come together is Part 2 of the last release of crystals and crystal skulls. I finally had the time as the message became also clear, to get the new listings up for the remaining cocreators I have available. These were all originally part of the same group as the Part 1 release that all gratefully found homes, but they wanted to hold off. This worked well, as I’ve had little time recently. It’s just a small group right now, but all are absolute favorites of mine for different reasons, with perfect energies for the now I feel.
So, if you’ve held off, or feel still to add to or complete your own crystal groups and grids, you may find the one here in these four unique beauties. Details on each are at the page link below.
The Portal is Open!
And although the Leo New Moon isn’t until August 4th, I’m still calling this the New Moon Release because the gateway is revving up to that energy and this may be a way to ignite new beginnings in your own life.
We also have the soon-to-follow 8/8/8 Lion’s Gate (August 8, 2+0+2+4) which is always potent.
And that also will conclude the Intuitive Guidance Session special discount I’ve been honoring for a good portion of 2024 so far to help others with this year’s energies.
However, in honor of 8/8/8’s Manifestation Gate, I have decided to open just 3 spaces for the Mentor Muse program I once offered, which is more of an intensive under the guise of inspiration and joy as a mirror to get you going strong with any new intention. I have 5 session and 11 session programs this time (as consistency and practice is key) and they can be found at the same link above for the Intuitive Guidance Sessions.
Whereas Intuitive Guidance Sessions will explore your personal empowerment in any or all areas, these sessions are specifically focused on one area and involve consistent, committed weekly focuses to help to shift into and start manifesting a specific goal in your life – hence the package options rather than one-off sessions. In essence, these are intensives and involve dedication to yourself and your practice in order to manifest what you desire.
These are for people who feel ready to put in the time and focus and ready to put themselves and their goals at the forefront. One’s level of achievement is a choice of commitment. These are weekly, as I feel that consistency is key and the touch-ins of support and inspirational guidance are necessary on a regular basis as well to keep momentum going and move through the ups and downs that can come up. The weekly sessions are also accompanied by any needed email support along the way to encourage and check-in.
If these are of interest, please CONTACT ME so we can discuss if this is a good fit for you.
These are found on the same page as the Intuitive Guidance Sessions – simply scroll down at the link provided here to find them.
Oh, and if you’re on Instagram, I’m sharing an end of July Giveaway for 3 of Mody Ra’s amazing pieces from ancient Egyptian stones. This month’s giveaway (there’s one each month) is a birthday celebration in honor of his son Ali. The giveaway ends at 11:59 pm PST on Friday, August 2nd and the winner will be announced on Saturday, August 3rd during a special live sale Mody and I will be doing together on Instagram at his page at 11 am PST where he’ll be offering a 20% discount on all pieces to add to that celebration. Mody loves his children – Ali and Maya – and likes to do big things for them.
We’ll be away on the East coast soon, visiting Dave’s family mid-August for a week, which will include being gone over the next Aquarius Full Moon of the 19th.
This is the only week I won’t be available to do sessions, but CAN handle email support. I also won’t be able to ship during that week, so if any of the crystals or crystal skulls call to you, please keep that in mind if you have a particular time period you’d like your new friend by. I can ship up until Monday the 12th and then again after the 23rd.

I’d like to end with some beautiful nature landscapes, gifts, and animal encounters to let the essence of these spaces and experiences linger with you. I feel we can use a lot more of these kinds of broadcasts across the globe to help align each of us with the nature of our own vibrational frequencies.
Days continue to be filled with rich nature gifts and wildlife encounters even when not out backpacking – all made possible by a pause and deep presence.

I was tickled to find these Sweet Pea flowers on a hike and took some home to enjoy in a vase, as I knew that would warm Dave’s heart. When I surprised him with them and told him their name his heart melted.

I am also grateful to now have found two eagle feathers and that we just last evening had a black bear visitation.

Dave caught the photo above, as the bear made his way between our house and our neighbor’s house. You can see him at the center by their camper. Apparently dogs were barking in the forest and chasing him. The bear was just trying to escape peacefully.
Other recent wild friend connections have included a collective of frogs and large toads, a big garter snake, Canadian geese, and another bear (briefly seen across a lake on a day outing).

I spend a lot of quiet time with the frogs. I find them so complex and full of personality and wisdom.
Some are more timid and will jump or slip away into the water. Others have no fear at all and will let me softly approach, as they listen to me talk. The more I talk, the more the others reappear and soon everyone’s hanging out like a frog convention to listen to this odd creature who cares to hear what they have to say.

The large garter snake would not have been seen if I hadn’t been in complete presence, as she was very keen on not wanting to be seen by others. Yet, she allowed me into her space and I stayed with her for a good fifteen minutes. Anytime someone walked by, including a group of children, she would slither deeper in the bushes and hide.

Once she felt their vibrations leave, she’d then circle back around and peek out at me to make sure I was still there.
It was during this time I heard a group of kids with their Summer guide call out “bear” across the lake, giving me just a glimpse on the other side of the water where I was with Miss Sssssnake.
There are so many beautiful little encounters and experiences to be had no matter where we are.

It all just takes a desire to want to dance in the gift of each moment and look around at the bigger picture held within one tiny thread.

One of our favorite spots when not backpacking is hanging out under the giant elder Juniper you’ve seen me share about many times.
It’s a peaceful and beautiful spot where sometimes the Canadian geese will come visit us – this last time a family of mom and dad and seven adolescent geese in fact did come graze and lay with us.

The serenity and scene here is picturesque and surreal.



And you feel one with all of life, including the little ones that will come to play.

This last visit the chipmunk you see here, came and sat on my bare foot nestled into the cool grass while I closed my eyes to dream.
It’s a place to surrender and allow Great Great Grandmother Juniper watch over you and remove any worries – replacing them with wisdom she’s come to know about life on Earth. All around her stand her Juniper lineage who someday will take over the storytelling when her presence is called back to the stars.
She is currently in process of being registered as a “Champion Juniper” and is thought to be over 1500 years old. More information is upcoming to be shared with the public after this process.
For now, they’ve finally created a protective fence around her trunk to help her to live another 700 or more years.
We have so much available to us to learn from the elders and wisdom keepers that surround our daily lives in less outspoken ways. If only as much time was spent tuning in to them, as is spent tuning in to everything else.

The more I drop into and harness the elements I embody, the more experiences become seamless and deeply engaging.
May we all experience the natural vitality coursing through our veins and streaming through as spirit in flesh.

Faery Garden Sanctuary Reflecting Embodied Evolution
What’s new here in our Forest Portal garden world? Well, for me who observes, nurtures, and cultivates things more intimately on a regular basis I’d say a lot, but in comparison to other areas, we experience things on a different time table. Although things progress much more slowly here at the higher altitudes of the Sierra Nevadas, things also can go quite fast when their window does open. That’s why I’ve been waiting on garden updates so that I can share the evolution of things over the course of a period of time, which more greatly reflects the changes. That said, I constantly see daily transformations, but these are the kind only a mom or dad appreciates from watching their babies grow up.
I thought that today, July 4th’s Independence and Freedom Day may be fun for sharing one of the pieces of my life that brings me a sense of liberation and independence since it’s my own little world I spend time in away from everything. Rather than celebrate in bursts of colors lighting up the sky, I opt to celebrate more gently in bursts of colors lighting up my garden of life.
Today’s share is a little peak into the evolution of things in garden land here, so far, now that we’re in Summer’s embrace. So much has already come and gone, but so much more is yet to emerge near Summer’s end and Autumn’s appearance.
It’s been fun to watch the transformation take place – some of it being Nature’s own spin of the roulette to see what she’d like to create this season – and some of it being a progression that reflects the shifts in my and our lives here, as things anchor and ground more solidly and peacefully.
I find it interesting that every time I sit down to write a blog, lately, a thunderstorm and drizzles or downpours are taking place, which is happening right now. Feels like Nature supports cozy writing time and it feels extra nurturing for inspiration to flow.
Since last share on May 28th (now over a month ago) a lot of growth has taken place and quite a few new plant babies have joined the family, along with a couple of sweet magick mushrooms and mini gnome with watering can.
I added quite an array, to include mostly all perennials to the garden, yard, and Garden Tower, but also several annuals and experimental plants that I’m testing for other reasons, mostly in planters for now and a few in the Tower. I’m happy to report that with all the fluctuations in weather, I managed to only lose one plant – a cantaloupe – but everything else survived and flourished, including the two tomato plants I was monitoring when they got hit by the frost.
For those of you plant enthusiasts and garden lovers, here’s the long list of what I added since last share:
- 4 dark red lilies
- 3 more yellow lilies
- 5 more Lamb’s Ear
- 3 Salvia Mysty Blue – 2 small and 1 large
- 2 Purple Sage
- 4 Muehlenbeckia creeping wire fine for rock garden
- 3 Ajuga Bugleweed for rock garden
- 1 more African Daisy (4D Harvest Moon)
- 5 more Dahlia – 2 red, 2 golden yellow, 1 peach
- 1 Dianthus
- 6 Italian parsley
- 1 more peppermint
- 2 pineapple sage
- 3 yellow bell pepper
- 2 red bell pepper
- 1 Serrano hot pepper
- 1 Habanero hot pepper
- 1 Cherokee purple heirloom tomato
- 1 Container tomato
- 2 Purple Coneflower (echinacea)
- 2 Clemson spineless green heirloom okra
- 1 Japanese long cucumber
- 3 crimson sweet watermelon
- 1 heirloom Jack-O-Lantern pumpkin
- 2 Wee B Little pumpkin
Weeeeeee indeed! So much fun stuff!
I recently had ordered plant nannies as well – actually right before our silent retreat away – as I felt like they’d be helpful when temperatures are higher or we’re away, to keep the extra thirsty, sweet babies hydrated without having to be out there watering constantly. I haven’t actually used them yet (I’m still waiting on a back-ordered second package as well), as I’m still gathering bottles to use with them and the thunderstorm afternoons have kept things on the cooler side. But I do plan to implement them in the next couple of weeks, as I want to make sure they’re doing their job well before I’ll really need them here shortly.
They are Astrid approved though, as you can see. 🙂
And speaking of Astrid, she’s been a bit more quiet these days from the public eye, but I assure you she’s doing fantastic, got a great, regular vet check-up, and is snuggly fun as ever. She’s just wanting to be behind-the-scenes for a bit, as she’s prepping a lot of things for our focal switch here that’s been underway. But she did want me to send her love and to let you all know she hasn’t dropped the ball on all the collective work she so generously does with her off-Earth friends and those in the unseen realms.
That leads me to one of the things that’s also developed since our own silent retreat away.
Not only has the faery garden continued flourishing in the vein of enchantment, but upon return from that reflective time, our upper, back deck that looks out on the forest has since turned into a serene sanctuary of blooms and mindfulness.
It wasn’t pre-meditated and just happened to align with our silent retreat energy. Dave surprised me with a Buddha and Buddha Bunny statue that arrived when we got back. He ordered them some time before, but that’s when they showed up.
He didn’t know that I had a bunch of plant baby inspirations, wanting to bring more blooms to the deck that we could see both from the deck furniture AND from inside the living room that looks out at it.
I also wanted Dave to have flowers to look at from his office, which is upstairs, since my office looks out on the garden and is abundant with flowery and magickal friend views already.
And so the rest just evolved, creating a peaceful, zen feel and reminded me of the gardens we walked while away on retreat. This is also where I now have a lot of my experimental planters, which are part of a bigger vision I have.
I’ll save that for when it actually does.
In the meantime, my Garden Tower is full and abundant, having provided several harvests for Astrid and us already.
Here’s the latest harvest, mostly for her.
And my sweet bubblegum pink, mini rose bush has been abundantly giving, too.
We’ve enjoyed mini bouquets and I already have a full jar of dried rose petals to use in my faery kitchen creations. My mini, crimson red roses are now making a debut, so soon I’ll have those to add as well.
Every slot in the Garden Tower, though, is full and they’re all doing so well. Again, I’m so grateful that with all of the see-sawing weather surprises and frost still biting that I only lost that one cantaloupe.
Everything else has been doing fantastic. Some plants and flowers have already gone through their cycle for the season and others have yet to dance. The side yard is jumping with happy little wildflower plants galore, but they are going to take time to fully mature. If they follow in the footsteps of my garden, they’ll get to a good place come early to late Autumn, but next year will flourish amazingly, right when Spring warms up.
My garden wildflowers are popping one-by-one…they’ve cycled through one round of oranges and are now on to the array of beautiful pinks, fuschias, purples, lilacs, whites, and crimsons, with so much more to come!
And scattered throughout I have lavender, foxgloves, dahlias, African daisies, salvia and then delphiniums, lilies, and salvia along the walk way.
The one incredible plant that deserves its own mention, however, is my very first yellow lily plant that I got last year.
She started pushing through the snow, as temperatures started rising and hasn’t stopped growing since. I actually go out every single day with a measuring tape to see how much she sprouts each day, as it’s mind-blowing!
As of this post, she is currently 52 inches tall from bottom of stalk at dirt level to the very tippy top of the tallest spire to her four-spire tower. There are a few smaller ones at the bottom as well, but these four are going for it big time! She has been steadily growing about an inch a day, recently, and is going to be amazing once all of the buds open at top with yellow lily stars reaching for the sky!
Interestingly, all of my other lilies, except for one dark red plant, have all cycled through their blooms already. But this towering giant is taking her own sweet time to put on a show.
She sits directly in front of my office and feels very reflective of things for me. I’m excited to see both of our evolutions unfold.
I find the pace of growth in my garden to reflect the changes in my life – sometimes these huge spurts, but mostly just steady, forward movement that takes the perfect time it needs without rush.
I have a feeling she’ll begin blooming just as I shift gears fully.
And like me, my garden and plants don’t try to be like the rest of the world, or other parts of the state or country that move at a different pace. We’re happy creating our own peace process and unfolding in our own uniquely creative ways.
The more embodied I feel, the more fully embodied my garden has become. And vice versa, the more plants blossom, the more I see new ideas and possibilities blossom for me.
Another thing I love is that there are always amazing surprises that my garden will unveil. I have SO many plants and flowers that I never planted and yet they are growing right before my eyes. And even a couple of plants that were here previous to my starting a garden, but never would grow abundantly or even bloom, are now suddenly this year really flourishing and I have flowers on them for the first time.
All of these pointing to me of a new cycle and that what was seeded before is finally able to see the light and come forth now in bigger and newer ways – integrating the old and new into something more than either.
One more beautiful story is that of a tree that sat at the edge of the back deck. It was one that the previous owners had planted, but it just never did well and died this last Winter. I saw it hanging over the deck with lifeless barren branches and felt like it was calling me to remove it and let it go fully.
So, I went out one day and cut it down myself with loppers, which was quite a task, and what do you know? Small new growth popped through the ground right next to the short stumps I wasn’t able to get myself and since then has flourished and is on its way to being a whole new, happy, and healthy tree.
From death, there is life. One door closes and another opens. A chapter ends and a new one begins.
There is never loss, just recreation.
I’m currently awaiting four new super enchanting additions to arrive for the garden world of unseens brought to life. I can’t wait until they do. They will truly add icing on the cake as the perfect mirror reflection of Wonderland, outside, that reflects my office and shared creative portal with Astrid, inside.
In the meantime, I’m still feeling into some expansions and changes we’re looking to do in and around the house, yards, and garden spaces. I have some research to do still and also seeing how my experiments go. But all of it, again, mirroring the inner world of evolving changes in motion that I’m/we’re taking our time to feel into the when’s and what’s of, rather than rushing forth into.
It’s exciting for sure, but since it all points to major change, I’m making sure these are the changes that feel aligned for the next leg of the journey and asking myself if this is truly the direction I want to go?
May you also create your own divine space and timing for yourself and life’s unfoldings.
Allow yourself to deepen into fuller embodiment of what you would like to experience, while allowing sweet surprises to tickle your heart along the way.
If Nature can, so can you.
The Many Faces of My Garden
This Sagittarius Full Super Blood and Flower Moon Total Lunar Eclipse was a doozy and I’m still letting everything settle that has evolved leading up, on and after, as to what if anything I might share upcoming. I’m tuning in to receive that message, but in the mean time, a garden update and musing has been in the works and feels like the creation energy theme to focus on for now under the softer Spring energy of the “Flower” Moon. Later, I might focus more on the “Blood” Moon energy theme in an upcoming post so that we hit the contrasts.
So, here we go.

I’ve noticed that every time I set foot in my garden, I feel a little bit different than the day before. Like the clothes we wear, the colors, things, environment and people we surround ourselves with, and the energies and emotions we move through daily, I’ve seen how garden time shifts something within, draws something out, and a new person reflects back to me in the mirror thereafter.
This happens to me in Nature, period. AND when hanging out with Astrid or when I’m in a creative zone painting, drawing, writing, singing, sounding, and dancing. The places that reflect my nature in some way, bring out the colorful best in me.
I got the idea that while I started documenting the seasonal shifts my garden goes through this year that I would, this time, also include myself within the photo journaling to see what evolution takes place all around. I usually only post photos of the evolution of my plants and garden additions, but I wondered what I might see if I became part of the landscape. So, that’s what I did.
What I noticed when I went through the photos later, is that there is indeed something different that takes place when I spend time in my garden. It’s not just that I step out in an array of varying wardrobe that feels right for what I’m engaging in, but I saw a variance in parts of my essence that showed through as well. And those pieces of essence felt to reveal some of the more tender or deep parts of me.
What it said to me is that these moments I spend in the world of my garden are some of the truest times for me, just like when I’m exploring nature trails, communing with Astrid, sound channeling, creating, or gazing at the stars. I lose myself in the richness of holding and working with tender life essence in my hands and the grace of cultivating beauty from the very core of my being.
I’m sure if someone photographed me while I was doing any of these other activities that we’d see the various faces of my essence revealed, too.
But for now, we’ll focus on my garden, as it’s taken on more of a direct mirroring for me these days and so I’ve experienced a deepening in the connection I have with her.
If the garden is our metaphor for life, we begin to see her start to reflect our unique style in how we design her and we begin to see how we reflect the fundamental foundation we have to work with, of the land she embodies from the start.
We share a symbiotic relationship and I notice that the way I create with my garden is the way I create in my life, in general. Also, the type of yard and garden I have is a mirror of my spirit.
Everyone’s garden is different, just as their lives are and therefore each person decides what they want their garden to be – a vegetable garden, flower garden, rock garden, native garden….a variety of all.
You can learn a lot about a person based on observing their garden and yard, the types of things that they value most, or even how much a person cares for themselves and nurtures certain qualities or values in life by how they cultivate their garden.
You can also see how the person interacts with other variants that are out of their control in the garden and if they find a happy medium, work with the elements, fight the elements, or try to control them anyway. Are they stubborn, domineering, flexible, wild, cultivated, enjoy creating beauty, desire to revive the land, looking to grow all their needs or have specific intents, are tidy or relaxed, tight or flowing, are serious and fully devoted, or simply love an eased approach and enjoy things in balance?
All of this comes through when you view someone’s garden.
And like me, my garden has gone through its own interesting cycles while we’ve teetered back and forth between Winter and Spring. It’s also been going through changes while I navigate the collective landscape and move through the various heavy and challenging energies. I’ve found that I’m actually seeing my garden evolve the most right now, becoming more of what it was meant to be, although I wasn’t clear about that at the start. I just kept moving forward and she revealed herself to me along the way.
I made a promise to the faeries of the land before the house officially became ours, to care for and create what they wanted here and a natural alignment has evolved between us.
I see their joy in how all the animals and plants sing and I feel their approval in the delightful whispers within sparkles of rainbow lights and portal beams they show me.
I’m also understanding my garden better and my relationship to her and what I’d like that to be. AND, where I hadn’t really felt called to expand much before, I have very slowly branched out into other areas and started to work toward bigger visions I have without limiting what I can do, but still doing it within the framework of my personality and desire for balance, flow, ease, beauty, and abundance – one step at a time.
When I’m feeling an ebb, my garden, like our nature activities, is my medicine and shows me what it needs too.
When I’m not sure what to do next or how to do it, I am planting seeds to inspire intention.
When I’m feeling a flow, my garden is sprouting and flourishing.
When I’m challenged in how to create the new, I find myself envisioning bigger garden goals and taking steps toward them.
“To plant a garden is to believe in tomorrow.” ~ Audrey Hepburn
I’ve been capturing photos along the way to document the changes, as I love to see how nature evolves through the seasons of life. Everything is only in the very beginning stages of Spring, as things here in the high altitude mountains run later than average. So blossoms are only just barely starting to pop.
A favorite being these two twin blossom trees that grow together – one on each side of the fence merging in blooms at the top.
I’ve already shared some of the faery friend additions to the garden, including those that are solar lights to create twilight enchantment, but there are a few more new arrivals since, including some that found their way from Wonderland to the Enchanted Garden at the Forest Portal.
These include two glass butterflies, an Om gnome holding two crystal orbs, playful poppa and baby bunny gifted to me by magickal faery sis Laura for my birthday that was in my office until recently, a sweet blossom and bird solar gnome welcome host, two magickal “Dream” and “Love” stones, two Sun and Moon large garden stepping stones I’m using as Cosmic sentries opening a portal to the pathway, a butterfly bird house, a white rabbit from my parents and turtle and rabbit moss topiaries that I’ve all also had in my office until now.
I enjoy having an easy garden and living in the mountains I prefer to have plants that I don’t have to keep replanting. So, after experimentation, I mentally made note to have nearly all perennials with the occasional annuals for some veggie fun in the Garden Tower.
This intuitive nudge was later underscored when I lost my sweet basil plants to one of our surprise frosts several weeks back, even before the recent snow. Luckily I had harvested a bit from them, but they didn’t make it. I took it as the message to stick to as close to 100% perennials with the few, fun veggies that might speak to me that year – at least until I have a greenhouse.
That said, I have been slowly planting new perennial additions, as the store gets in plants that call me. The newbies have been added to the main garden, rock garden, side yard, and Garden Tower while all of my other perennials do their thing.
And do their thing they all have, as everything is just flourishing with joy and my Garden Tower herbs are enjoying the most abundant return yet even before starting to add some friends.
The only exception being two little tomato plants – Sun Gold tomatoes and Husky cherry red tomatoes.
Although I read that tomatoes are technically perennials, they grow as annuals here in the states so are known as “tender” perennials especially with our cold winters and frosts. They were hit hard by our unexpected snow storm and frost last Thursday through Saturday, but they made it! Even though I lost about half or two thirds of each plant, the other percentage stood strong and they are still going. Yay!
Speaking of my Garden Tower, I did get new worm friends for the compost and they’ve been chugging along doing their thing while I feed them all the good faery kitchen scraps they can munch on to their hearts’ content.
The perennial returns I have growing in the Garden Tower include lavender, sweet mint, Italian oregano, bee balm, peppermint, parsley, thyme, strawberries, and wild flower.
The perennial additions I’ve added so far include one purple sage, two rosemary, and one more each of peppermint and Italian oregano. I’m excited to add some more and fill up the tower as the right plants find me.
And for my rock garden the perfect plants did finally find me to add to the three I have already. I can’t remember the name of these previous three, but they create sweet little blue star flowers. Their new friends include three White Fancy Dead Nettle that will bloom in early to mid Summer and three Festuca Blue Fescue Grass that will bloom mid to late Summer. I’m looking to still add three more plants so that they’ll all fill in the area lovely.
For the side yard I decided to go wildflower crazy, seeing how amazing my garden is doing with the perennials returning there and how much the pollinators love them. You can see how thick and abundantly they are growing back this year. Weeeeeeeee!
They’re even bigger since taking this photo and the first orange blossoms have sprung!
So I bought a pound of seeds to add to a bunch of little packets and gifted seeds I was sent from a friend, and seeded the entire little side lawn and then threw the left overs in the beds out in the front yard.
I’m so excited that I already see tons of baby seedlings sprouting everywhere! Yay!
And if they do as well as the ones in my garden, I should have a blanket of wildflowers growing on both sides of the two guardian trees and more out front.
If all goes well, crazy wildflower faery will strike again next year, adding more!
The new additions also to the side yard are berry bushes, which I’m excited about. I planted seven new perennial berry bushes along the little rock terrace at the end of the lawn of wildflower seeds, and next to my mock orange bush.
The new berries include two blueberry, two raspberry, one evergreen huckleberry, one black elderberry, and one Rubus Snowbank Berry aka white blackberry. Some have already grown quite a bit and others were smaller starter plants, but all are doing really really well even after our surprise snow.
First I planted them, then I added wire tunnel hoops, and last I covered them with secured netting.
For now, while they grow, the simple netting structure helps protect them from the little forest creatures plucking the blossoms and berries to come. At first I didn’t have enough pegs, so I used rocks to keep it tight. I’ve since replaced them with pegs all around and just kept a few rocks for extra sturdiness.
As they grow, I’ll adjust the whole set up to make it larger. This is why I opted for easy, since I’ll have to change it over time. I also got a metal butterfly trellis next to the white blackberry bush for when it starts growing, as it likes to climb.
I did get some more perennial flowers too – three rose and one white foxglove, one fireball dahlia, three purple African daisy, and three Lavendula Stoechas aka Spanish Lavender.
I added two of the rose foxglove to my main garden and gave my parents the other rose and the one white foxglove.
The other seven new flowering plants I split between pots on the back deck and lining the walkway in the main garden.
Alongside all the fun new plants, I’ve enjoyed watching some of my favorites return, like the variety of daffodils out front, some new tulips, a few irises, and my blossom trees.
Of course, Nature planted her own beauties, too. So along with returns of my own labor I look forward to, there are always surprises that the wind or forest creatures blow and bring into the yard and garden, as well as the wild and free, like fields of yellow dandelions that I love.
I’m flower crazy in general and so come Fall I plan to put in tons more bulbs of many varieties, seed tons more wildflowers next Spring and continue adding what ever flowers speak to me when they show up at the store. I’m always in the mood for more foxglove and lavender, and am really wild about lilies.
Right now orange and purple seems to be the color therapy scheme and attire of the first round of blossoms to arrive at the Spring dance.
And hats galore seem to be part of my attire always these days, whether in the garden, sun bathing, or out hiking. To dress them up with additions like my garden that reflect my personality, some magickal hat pins have found their way into my life. You already saw this one – Forest Witch – that embodies one layer of my energy.
And these two reflect another layer of my energy.
Here’s a better detailed close-up of what is making me feel as I do in the photo above. A Cosmic Rabbit with Moon and stars dreaming in a bed of lilies and Brigid’s lamb with Celtic Triskelion, Sun at her forehead, and snowdrop flowers.
This weekend I’m hoping to get in the new plant babies awaiting, but due to an eclipse incident I’m needing to lay low and take it easy for a while. I’m sure some garden grounding will likely do me some good when I am able to get back to it.
These are all the newcomers excited to join the party.
I have two Aromatico Blue English Lavender, three French Lavender, two English Lavender, (can you tell I love lavender?), three dalmation purple Foxglove (never too much Foxglove for a faery), one Belleza dark pink Gaura, one Belleza white Gaura, five little Albion strawberry plants, one sweet pepper (tasty green bell), one Italian parsley, one cilantro, one large Sungold tomato, and drumroll……four sweet Lamb’s Ear! All of these except a couple veggies for the Garden Tower are perennials.
I’m SO excited about the Lamb’s Ear, as it’s one of, if not my favorite plant and I have missed mine so much.
I used to have one in Costa Mesa that I grew from a tiny cutting I brought home across the water wrapped in a wet paper towel in a baggy that a woman gave me on Catalina Island because I was complimenting her plant. It flourished into a hugely abundant and gorgeous plant, which I then had to leave behind when we jumped aboard the Magick Bus. We rented our house out and it ended up dying without me to care for it. I was so sad.
Since, I’ve always wanted another, but never found any and then these four – the only ones at the store – appeared. I had been thinking about how I might find some recently and there they were. I, of course, adopted them all.
I’ll continue filling in my Garden Tower as well and implement plans for the side yard, step-by-step. We may even be extending the fence to the side yard, which will give me tons more space to do fun things in eventually. The previous owners never fenced in the actual entire footprint of the land that is connected to our home, but we likely will. Whether this year or another, it’s in the plan, as well as creating a privacy fence on the other side between us and our one neighbor to replace the old cattle looking fence there that tends to have posts fall over with the snow.
For now, a good majority of the side yard is wild, which I do love. I’ve intuited ways to stay in that wild energy while weaving in some creativity and magick.
I have some really fun visions for things, but am taking time to breathe and only do what feels in flow and not taking on too much all at once. That’s been my go-to with things these last few months…more slow motion for balance and recalibration rest. The latter really being underscored since the Full Moon Eclipse.
So there’s a little inside look into the many faces of me and my garden.
Perhaps photos speak more volumes than words.
The relationship we share is similar to her being my inner child – a reflection of that tender part of my imagination, hopes, dreams, and joy.
The relationship between us is also reflective of her being the elder me – a reflection of the serene years of bigger picture wisdom where nothing else matters except weaving alchemy between my silvery crown to those Earthen roots to create harmony and grace of being in every moment of all cycles of expression.
We have become one.
You Are a Garden Worth Tending ~ Spring Growth, Earth Day & Scorpio Full Moon Reflections
You are the first garden you must learn to tend. There is no one else that can do this as well as you. How little or how much you care about this garden, shows. The kinds of things you nourish yourself with, how much you cultivate certain practices as important, and the things you choose to give energy to mentally, emotionally, physically, and spiritually will have an effect on how you show up in the world.
Life used to seem so complicated to me until I realized that I was the only one making it that way. By buying into all of these ideologies that were part of “this or that” ways of believing, I created a lot of nonsensical pressures that had absolutely nothing to do with the essence of me.
And yes, that included the spiritual realms I was drawn to move more into as I journeyed through life.
The bottom line that I learned, is that I never really wanted to belong or feel assured by any particular group or movement. I always had only desired to be contently me – just like Nature and the Cosmos both are.
Everyone has their own journey, but it took completely undoing myself, stripping away all the energetic debris that had brushed off of everyone onto me, in order to do that.
I still fully believe had it not been for jumping into an RV for a year and a half to immerse in nature, I would not be here still. And yet it’s also on that adventure into the unknown that literally the old story me walked out of my body in a river, and a new story walked in.
I would never be the same again, nor could I go back ever again – even if I wanted to.
Ever since then, I’ve been recalibrating what it feels like to be in this body with a fresh soul perspective. It’s taken time to feel things out, explore the possibilities to cultivate, and decide where to go from here.
Kind of like being a child all over again, but having a different level of consciousness.
It’s much like my garden after Winter’s frost and snow.
Everything is fertile, lively, and jubilant to feel the warmth of the Sun, wiggle, stretch, and unfurl every inch of life loose from the soil, see what will be possible in terms of abundant growth, wonder what will bloom or what will wait to gain greater strength for the next season or year, and what just goes all out to create the most incredible burst of life right here and now.
With less than two years until I turn 50, I see what the previous me who was just starting out in body then, had felt all along about this time period of my life. I always experienced things as if I was outside of myself watching myself go through everything and although knew better, relinquished to the feeling of purpose it all had to just go through it. I felt on some level that the real choices and freer me would begin in the latter half of my life.
That earlier life was both a mirage to keep me occupied and undo patterns and illusions, while things in the world were playing out, and also an intricate labyrinthian journey to the center of me.
I was on a complex crash course so I could re-enter the world with simplicity.
Stripping down to the bare me.
And literally unzipping my body suit so that a whole new emanation of myself could slip in upon the old one’s release.
Every time I look at my garden – each season, each day, and several times a day – I see this release taking place in every moment while new life steps in.
There’s reason my garden is just steps outside of my creative space and office. There is a mirroring that takes place every minute I make a new choice.
I find it easier and easier to let go of things and make peace my daily goal. I experience the simplicity of life unfolding as its own work of art at every stage. I finally feel comfortable in my skin in a way that both honors my human expression that I decided to have at this time on Earth AND my Cosmic connection that merges with me daily in gratitude for the opportunity to experience it all and live out the potentials I can contribute with others to create.
It’s as if both the land all around us where we live – the forests, mountains, lakes, and meadows, as well as the land I’m nurturing into a garden and yard while also supporting its wild, raw nature to do as it pleases, have become one with me.
And the more I drop into that deeper connection within, the more I seem to physically change alongside Nature, naturally.
I love to adorn myself like my flowers and join the dance, but I also love to be raw like the soil, rocks, bark, and moist sprouts. I feel whole in any expression, but only walk in expressions that are me in every moment of my wild heart’s resonance – not for anyone else and not to mirror anyone else.
We are each our own flower and plant within the garden of life – no less or more than any other. Yet, what the land, Nature, and Earth teach us, is that great care is needed to support a thriving, harmonious and abundant garden.
Yes, that’s you!
It’s amazing how much of that rainbow and portal energy keeps showing up in photos, as you’ll see below, especially when I’m out being with all of it, standing stronger in my essence, nurturing myself alongside my copartnering outdoor realm, and adding recognition of the magick that is here with little touches of enchanted beings and portals of my own.
I mentioned that I would share some photos of the yard and garden before things really start to emerge and today’s Earth Day felt like the best time to do that, along with messages of tending to our inner and outer gardens as being equally essential and worth the devotional investment.
I like to document the before and after and to see how much things evolve from onset of one season to the next.
I’ve taken these photos in this post over a period of the last two to three weeks, during which several new friends have joined the garden.
Most of them are solar lights, as I truly love the twilight and night magick they create, but some are simply sweet souls who spoke to me. Some I’ve already shared, so I’ll only introduce the new ones.
We have this cute little blossom snail who lives near one of the new solar faery houses at the pathway entrance.

Then there’s these ever-precious ones – a rabbit riding a tortoise. I just HAD to bring them home as they remind me of Joy and Gaia who were best friends and I really was feeling my Russian Tortoise, Gaia, needed to be part of the garden here along with the rabbits and magickal beings. They are so life-like, it’s truly endearing.
Incredibly, but not surprisingly, look at the energy that showed up RIGHT after I placed them by the gnome and faery portal door at the base of one of the guardian trees where there are also crystals laid in the ground as a path in front of the door.
It took me a little while to hear where they wanted to go, but I think they’re happy here, don’t you?
Then there’s this beautiful mushroom blossom solar light that sits to the right, next to the pathway.
It has a monarch and poppy – like the ones that grow in my garden – on top.
And last, this gorgeous, enchanted moon faery with solar light orb. I just love how she’s holding a star and blowing it a kiss.
And of course you already saw these two twin white bunnies who are ever-so wonderfully overseeing the growth of my yellow lilies.
It’s one happy, secret faery garden family! And still growing!
I have many ideas that are incubating like the seeds beneath the soil.
Check out all these happy wildflower babies reaching for the sunshine!
The rainbow energy and portals seem to confirm a Cosmic smile of the harmony being created here too.
And the forest animals are all expressing their happiness as well. Their fountain and bowl are filled regularly with fresh water, which brings every variety of bird in for baths and drinks, along with chipmunks and squirrels enjoying a nice refreshment too. There’s a chickadee couple that loves to visit me when I’m out watering the garden, but it was this Steller’s Jay just two days ago that was the sweetest.
Usually the Steller’s Jay are much louder and like to boldly vocalize their dominion over certain spaces or at least express their boundaries and voices. This one started off talking in similar fashion, but the tone was different and wanted my attention. Then when he knew he had it his voice softened into what would be similar to a cat’s purr. It was a little bit like a sweet cooing that doves and pigeons make, but more. It reminded me of our parakeets that would fluff out and nuzzle into us warmly with affection. This was a cuddly sweet talk that felt like he was so happy and if I’d been on the branch with him, he would have snuggled into me and expressed his joy.
A love song and dance perhaps? He was definitely quite comfy and pleased.
Equally pleased is the yard out front that’s in a dance of yellow daffodils and wild dandelions right now with even more still on the way that are on their own blooming timelines. We have a large tree on the lawn that will be surrounded by blooms soon, which will look like a faery ring. These current daffodils followed my late Winter, pre-Spring, birthday purple irises. And there will be tulips coming soon too. I intend to plant a ton more bulbs come Autumn.
Step-by-step things evolve.
I spent time clearing the yard and garden, tidying old growth up, and planted a ton of wild flower seeds in the garden to add to all the wild growth already sprouting like crazy. Tiny clover is beginning to return on the lawn in patches. I’m looking forward to seeing it all filled in again. For now, this is a transitional time period where the brown and dried remains of Winter turn over, mirroring our own in between phases.

I’m still waiting for my favorite store to get in their herbs, veggies, and flowers, so I can add some things to my Garden Tower and garden. For now, I did find four little sweet basil plants I added to the Tower for Astrid and they smell SO good.
Well, all of what’s already growing back in the Tower does. The sweet basil is doing really well alongside all of the lovely regrowth from last year of mint, lavender, strawberry plants, wild flowers, thyme, parsley, and other herbs. The basil plants are the only new babies I’ve planted so far. Everything else you see everywhere is what’s naturally coming in on its own.
Incredibly, I even have two baby pine trees that have decided to make the Tower their incubation realm. They’ve been growing there since last Spring. I even have a couple more growing in pots. If they actually are able to stay healthy and strong, I’ll likely let them grow a bit more and then try to transplant them. They seem happy for now though with their friends.
Perhaps the tree frog that made the Tower her home last year wanted her own forest here too. 🙂 I hope she’ll return.
Here in the mountains things take a little longer since temperatures are colder longer and more variable, but there are always those plants and blooms who like to do their own thing and just go all out when ever they please – just as I mentioned before.
We actually had a little snow last night that I saw remnants of on the deck railings, rain the night before, and some snow a day or two before that. It all melts immediately, but things are not predictable here.
Every one of these plants and blooms has a little bit of me in them and vice versa. So, too, does the variety of terrain in the mountains that we have. Even the weather mirrors my own shifting waves of energy and wild unpredictability. We share a symbiotic relationship and the more increased time I spend outdoors, which is daily as it is, the more I relax into me.
And the more me I am, the easier it is to ride any energy currents that flow in and out around me.
The more me I am, the more easily I recognize what is me and what is not me.
The more in touch with myself I feel, the more I can handle things that pop up and they aren’t so surprising.
The more I tend to the garden of me, the more peace, flow, vitality, and compassion I experience.
Our Spring Scorpio Full Moon on this coming Monday night of the 26th is going to be a Super Pink Moon – the first Supermoon of the year.
This could be a more difficult and deeply emotional or triggering Moon to navigate through due to the challenging planetary aspects surrounding it that may bring to surface some unexpected things. With Sun in Taurus and Moon in Scorpio right now, we are being prompted to look at the contrasts of form and transformation, personal joy with the simple and sensual aspects of life and the intangible complexities of shared things, building and comfort and destruction and change, and how we can find balance with these.
This is a time for going deeper and exploring our values and the far-reaching effects they have. While we are in a Taurus cycle of grounding spirit in flesh, Scorpio then calls up the mysterious, secretive, and repressed so that we may need to be more vulnerable in order to understand ways of finding peace within ourselves even when the world seems upside down, or when we are being called to deconstruct, let go, and recreate what we thought was the holy grail of our lives.
The more we can tend our inner gardens, the more we understand the Nature of things and how to partner with them more effectively, if in fact we desire seeing a more thriving world and Earth.
Be bold, brave and unafraid to create those massive Cosmic ripples – this was yesterday’s message from Bald Eagle.
This last photo is from yesterday’s bike ride. The day before, while riding along the lake, I had a vision of Bald Eagle flying near, although did not see one with my eyes. This continued when I was sun bathing on the deck later, feeling Bald Eagle close and like he could land on the roof any minute. Little did I know that the next day we would actually have a visit.
When we arrived to the lake we biked to Dave, who didn’t know I had been thinking about Eagle, asked “When was the last time we saw that one Eagle at the lake here?”
At that moment Eagle flew overhead and landed in the tree across the lake. You can catch glimpse of him here with a second Eagle to the left in the shadows.
I love stuff like that.
When we’re in tune with ourselves, everything conspires in unison.
Eagle symbolizes freedom and courage to look ahead, the value of vulnerable truth and revealing honesty, liberation, electrifying inner vision clarity, embody the Spring, dawn, and new life, and to Native Americans are Earthly incarnations of the Thunderbird spirit who shoots lightning bolts from her/his eyes to invoke revitalization, rebirth, creation, and transformative healing. Eagles carry the messages of spirit and are the divine channels to receive these from.
A perfect messenger for this time of year, the upcoming Full Moon, and the unfolding energies on the planet right now.
Happy Earth Day!
Reaching for the Sunshine and a Warm Thank You
Even though we continue to experience days of snow and we are getting out to ski still, Spring is pushing through here in the high mountain altitudes. It’s so exciting to see all my iris, tulip and daffodil bulbs reaching for the sunshine across our yard. They are eager to join the dance in celebration of the Equinox here shortly.
My birthday irises being the first to blossom, as you know, but the others are not far behind. And there’s much more on the way than what I captured here to share with you.
Soon it will be garden time. I have a ton of wildflower seeds ready to join last year’s perennials I planted and I’ll of course pick up some new beauties to add to what will return. My garden and garden tower are already showing signs of returning growth. It’s always fun to see what surprises the Fae of the land have in store.
Every season has so much enchantment, mystery, and gifts to offer – each reflecting our inner landscapes and sharing with us the answers to how we can more effectively align with life.
And speaking of life alignment, I was unable to share this video thank you the last time, but forgot I could upload it to my YouTube Channel. So, I pasted it in below, as it was important to me to connect more personally with each of you here as well, to extend deep gratitude to everyone sharing interest and courage to join this space and invite me to walk with you.
The five month immersives that I refer to can be found here, along with how to move forward with applying:
The Mentor Muse ~ Guiding Inspiration for Life’s Work Alignment
The video was taken last week, right before the New Moon in Pisces and Sunday’s Intuition Class, but the message of gratitude is timeless.
Immersives begin the week of April 12th and March 20th is the last day to turn in applications – that’s now only two days away. I’m processing the last ones I’ve received so far, today and tomorrow, and it looks like two of the three spots are filled currently.
Stay tuned for a little Spring Equinox surprise.
Transitions & Upgrades ~ Shedding New Layers with the Seasonal & Moon Shifts
At the start of this week I focused on printing and sending out all of the Reiki Level 1 certificates to the group that completed their training this past weekend. Even just that process was a big energy shift on top of all the Reiki flowing through the hours of teaching and attuning the last two weekends. It’s equally transformative and recalibrating for the teacher, as it is the students that are receiving, so I’m definitely experiencing my own activation and inner triggers for reflection.
For this reason, and both because I don’t write blogs as often as I used to AND I feel that others are going through a variety of changes right now in more significant and likely conscious ways than they have in the past, I’m sharing a longer post today. It’s a way to thread connection, too.
So, I noticed that as I sealed the envelopes and sent them out in the world it felt like sending out keys to new doorways of potential that feel to be gridding and lighting up more and more on the Earth. In their own way, they are seeding new openings to wider and innovative ways we can move forward for the greatest and highest good.
At least that was the intention I had, as I sent them out with love.
Since this unexpected teaching flow invited me to also expand wider and change the approaches I adapted until now, it ignited a whole level of reinvention on other layers as well. And it definitely amped up energies that have put into motion a domino-effect of shifts to explore.
In a nutshell, I’d say my experience is all about transitions and upgrades right now. And with all the collective change happening simultaneously, it feels aligned with acceleration at large, and needed.
So how are these shifts and upgrades translating for me?
I’ll share some of the ways I’m experiencing this, as a way of demonstrating the varied levels of life that can be affected in a naturally organic way – especially when embraced – as we go through life changes. This may also be helpful to any of my students that read this blog.
This concept of recalibrating, cleansing, upgrading, and realigning, etc. is something we discuss in training, and includes the possibilities of what that could look like.
However, even though I know this shift is getting an added boost from the Reiki teaching, I also feel it was on its way simply as a natural process of transitions – like Nature’s seasons are reflecting currently and even the upcoming Full Moon is heralding in, as it brings to full amplification and illumination the things in your life that no longer serve you.
I ended up having to upgrade to a new, larger, more powerful computer that Dave just helped set up for me (since I’m not a very tech savvy person) at the start of this new week. Interesting timing right after completion of training. Also interesting is that I always used to have very tiny laptops – like notebooks. Then after a series of those and crashing all of them, I adopted Dave’s older, bigger laptop. I’ve had that quite a while, but it finally was starting to poop out. So now I have an extremely heavy-duty, larger, powerhouse laptop that is all my own and can do likely more than I’ll ever need. But that creates space for growth and new because who knows what the future holds, right?
Likely the very near future few months may hold a new cell phone in store too. Mine seems fine, (even after falling into the water, as you may remember – going through its own rebirth), but we may be upgrading together to a different carrier for several reasons and they likely will have different options of phones than this one that goes with their plans. It’s not surprising to have all electronics go through upgrades with big changes so that what ever is coming will be supported.
Luckily, I must have my energy better harnessed or something, as I don’t seem to blowing out things anymore and do have miraculous fixes like the water dunking with no ill effect. One experience that comes to mind was when I taught a large group Reiki retreat in Laguna and my phone literally sizzled and gave me an electrical shock on the morning of Reiki Master Teacher training. That was a full three levels in one weekend teaching, so it wasn’t surprising really.
The more mild experiences I have now might also speak to the more balanced life I’ve created and make a priority, and how I’ve learned to channel my energy more effectively, as well as do a lot of grounding, exercise, and nature things, along with self-care and holding center amidst contrasting dynamics all around me.
I’ve also been in home improvement project mode, which actually started last Friday before classes with working on tile prep in our shower to get it ready for Dave to seal, caulk, and fix grouting. I found myself scrubbing away with great vigor and being that the shower and water energy coincides with Pisces – my native sign, but also the sign the upcoming Full Moon is in – it seems reflective of bringing up deep subconscious and clingy stuff to the surface to observe, integrate, and move out altogether.
Improvement projects continued Saturday after class with me spending a couple of hours in the garden sanding my garden bench and restaining it to prep it for the upcoming seasons. Again, another layering process in motion, much like the shedding of old skin.
The shower tiles and the bench getting a renewed layer by removing the old one, and in effect some of my layers are coming undone too.
And the projects have continued little by little for us to include some minor redecorating in my office (still underway, but soon to be complete) and a little in the master bedroom, outdoor clean-up and fixers with the yard, pine needle removal from the roof, refilling the jacuzzi with new water, and repairing some insulation under the house. We are thinking about some other changes we may make as well, so there’s again that cleansing and renewal energy in motion.
I’ve also been completing a round of side-work projects to free up my time, along with monthly record-keeping I do.
I’m also in clean out mode and getting donation bags ready again – a favorite thing of mine to do whenever I feel change is in the air.
The weekend of teaching saw me physically drop a little weight, as any old load was lightened. And, for the first time in a while I am getting the strong feeling of lightening things with my hair as well. Since the ends of the hair are the oldest parts, it can make sense why the literal cutting away can come at significant periods of change in our lives so that we’re letting go and dropping that time period or part of our life it represents.
I have mostly just been letting it do whatever it wants and so it just consistently grows longer. Yet, I’m sensing there may be a more significant change upcoming instead of just my four-inch trim I’ve been doing every six months or so. Perhaps a more significant new cut is in store? I’m waiting to see if this is in fact the route I’ll take, or if I’m just feeling so much change that it inspires a large gamut of ideas and inspiration to flood through. In some cases like that, I’ll wait a little to see what actually feels to be the new anchoring, or if in fact energy is simply moving and may bring up other things, so it’s not about settling on the first idea that comes through.
Other changes have included seeing the potential for new possibilities with a feeling of greater flexibility I’m opening to that I wouldn’t have before, and allowing exploration in order to find the highest path that aligns with now. I’m finding myself revisiting things from about four years ago and this includes a resurgence of ancient and cosmic timelines merging and choices that were made at that time. It has brought underlying a-ha empowering moments, alongside some sadness.
There’s also been an experience of simultaneous, parallel realities. One carries the strength for the other, while it simply goes forth to explore. One dips into realizing the new challenges ahead of the unknown and is processing the stages of how to get there. At times, already being where the challenges are integrated and yet aware of the journey to get there being a step at a time and that it will ebb and flow. Then moments of the ebbs and flows. 🙂
We’re also starting to make different plans for the upcoming seasons and looking at some travels with the animals to change up energies very soon.
So, yes, there’s a lot of energy transitions taking place – even more than I’m sharing here. These may give you an idea of how when we stay in observational mode and decide to be more conscious of the active role we can also have with changes, the more things become obvious as to the levels of transformation that are actually happening, and the easier they shift.
And speaking of Nature, it’s also interesting to observe how the changes we go through can also be reflected in things like seasonal shifts, the different animals that show up for us, the things that draw our attention when we are outdoors, the types of plants and flowers that speak to us, the weather patterns, and unusual sightings in general.
As I just wrote that, a squirrel got my attention outside who is laying in an unusual rounded-over ball on a limb of the tree outside my office. Looks as if he/she is resting, but then sat up, still maintaining that ball-shape – so much so, the little tummy appears as if pregnant with tail wrapped perfectly up and around the back in a half circle. There’s a feeling of this little one resting and reflecting/pregnant with ideas and energy – and as soon as I said that he/she moved quickly on to the next task, which currently includes rubbing the entire front of its body and belly in the cutest fashion, flat all over another limb, relishing in the feeling. 🙂
But this is just a direct reflection in the moment right now.
Others have included how the smoke from the California fires have been blowing in and out of the region here. At times feeling like a veil thickening and lifting, or a transitioning taking place of transmutation. Smoke in fact is the transition of matter into spirit.
Then there’s been the increase in sightings of garter snakes that either cross my path right in front of me or lay across the path I’m approaching. Sometimes they catch my attention from the corner of my eye, and Dave is amazed I even see them since they are camouflaged in the grass. So much snake energy speaks to that shedding of skin, as layers removing for renewal. Another one was on our path while hiking down to the lake a couple of days ago, as you can see here.




This same day I also found a sweet, little dead mouse laying to the side of the trail, which I stopped to bury.

About a week before this I found a dead bird. In both cases the body was fully in tact and didn’t appear to have injury. Perhaps death by natural causes, but interesting at this time period.
In general, seeing a dead animal can symbolize something coming to an end in our lives through a natural cycle – a major life transition from one thing to another. It can also herald the time for a new direction or choice. It’s not necessarily a literal death upcoming, although could be and is relative to the person seeing it.
Seeing a dead animal can be a message or reiteration that a door is, or needs to be, closing. It can also be a reflection of hope in times of challenge. And depending upon the qualities of the particular animal, this can signify the areas in your life that it is highlighting. For instance, mice tend to small and tedious little things and so this could indicate an end to minor issues no longer bothering you or not allowing fears getting in the way. Could be an end to any shyness or timidity, or perhaps resourcefulness no longer being a challenge.
It’s interesting that alongside seeing snakes a lot, we’ve been humanely trapping and releasing mice under the house quite a bit before fixing the insulation, and now I see the dead mouse. Mice in Ancient Greece were considered sacred because they are associated as food for snakes, which were sacred to the Greeks as holy healers.
One thing that jumps out at me about mice is this description of their symbolism from Avia Venefica, which I shared in my blog about the little mouse named Fiver that was so transformative for me.
“Our ancient ancestors observed their affinity for ground-burrowing, and likened this to mice being ‘one with the Mother’ (Mother Earth, that is). This ground-loving behavior was also seen as a connection to the Underworlds (or Otherworlds, depending upon your source of reference). This kind of connection makes the mouse a kind of mediator between physical life and recycling life (spirit energies in transition). This Earth and Underworld connection continues in western, medieval Europe, where folk superstitions tell of mice possessing the ability to carry souls of humans who have passed from this physical life.
There’s that reference again to energies in transition, similar to the smoke and the general theme I’ve been speaking about.
And this transition has been taking place in both the garden and the entire landscape here as I watch the end of Summer move into hints of Autumn vibes.

I am really enjoying the transitioning energy showing up in different waves of blossoming and shades of colors turning, fading and warming. Especially soul-enriching to me is all of the golden sage blossoms. It speaks to something soulful coming into glowing illumination.

On the same hike down to the lake where I saw the snake and the dead mouse, we enjoyed the beautiful meadows, pond, creek, and forests full of signs that Autumn is approaching.




And even my garden continues to transition, too, with sunflowers going through life cycles (nearly

half of the 30+ buds all in bloom), prolific wildflowers popping up with more on the way, plants both growing rapidly and coming to end, roses on their last leg of flowering, a last batch of mini

strawberries ripening for Astrid, and pollinators doing their thing to ensure next year’s growth, as


well as squirrels and chipmunks beginning to hide their Winter’s stash (in my garden). 😉





I have a really tall, wild thistle plant out front that is in full fuchsia bloom and starting to turn to puffs of white dandelion-like seeds, as their maturity is during late Summer to early Autumn.
With only a few last days of August remaining, we are approaching the upcoming Pisces Full Moon of the 1st/2nd of the month (depending on where you live) and Autumn Equinox on the 22nd.

September feels like it will be a quieter month for me, full of deep exploration, decisions, and a new layer of writing upcoming. It also happens to be Astrid’s birthday month, which I know she’s been prepping for and she has her regular vet check at the start of the month, too, for her to start afresh. I have an eye appointment at the end of the month to see if any prescription updating is in order, this may be the month for hair changes, and I’ll be planting daffodil and tulip bulbs for next year.

The Full Moon means that intuition will be on an all-time high, so listening to it and trusting it will be key to support moving into your true power. It will help you to gain deeper insights and understanding about the seeds you’ve been planting in your garden, the intentions you have for them, and will illuminate what truly is guiding your life so that you have a broader grasp on the creative forces at work and how to harness them.
Establishing and recognizing boundaries will be the theme for well-being and is a lesson for the boundless Pisces energy to understand how to balance in a healthy way.
This is a powerful time for deep soul level closure, to exercise greater compassion rather than judgment, and to practice radical acceptance, which helps you to release suffering. Suffering is a refusal to accept things. It’s time to give up the suffering, do an energy cleanse, and ask how you can make the changes, then engage action to do them.
All of this is speaking to a time of transition with our relationship to things in our life and perhaps creating some kind of ritual or acknowledgment around supporting what is time to release, so that we can more fully step into the life we want, and receive those upgrades.
There is so much beauty in all stages of life.
The shifting environment reflects the shifting within.
When the time comes for change, there are many ways in which we are messaged about how we can support that process to be easier, more efficient, graceful, and peaceful.
It doesn’t feel like the energy is anchoring yet, which makes sense given the transitional stage that even nature reflects.
Yet, we may see and feel the importance of which things speak most heart and soul-fully to us that would like to take root for the season ahead.
Today happens to be my dad’s 75th birthday – so a shout out to my dad with lots of love as I acknowledge how his birthday also signifies a huge shift and transition period in life.
I know as I edge toward 50 here not too far off, these 40’s have been the biggest shifts indeed.

Monday Musings ~ The Writer’s Corner: Magickal Rituals & Tales from the Forest Portal
While I’m immersed in painting portal flow working on an author’s book cover, creative writing has been coming through me in small channeled snippets during a mini novel break. I love how everything interweaves together and supports the other. So, in my own short book hiatus, I’m still very much writing and book focused, with simple musings and artistic inspirations. These are two recent channelings that came through, inspired by the forest and my enchanted garden, which I shared on Instagram and compiled together for my sweet blog friends. I hope you enjoy and/or find your own inspirations from them. One friend called the tree channeling a magickal spell in ritual. In both musings, the words glided through me, but were both me and not me. Enjoy.
INVITATION TO THE GRAND SUMMER BALL

The flower faeries are beginning to appear and invitations to the Grand Summer Ball have gone out.

Some can hardly wait and have thrown on their gowns while they make preparations.

They are the way-showers for all the new faeries of this realm and ensure pollinator guests for when they make their appearance.

The mainstay perennial hosts have returned with vigor and in some cases multiplied with glee. They are cycling in intervals with many yet to bloom and others taking the plunge into early brilliance. They encircle the enchanted garden bed – the ballroom stage for this yearly celebration – awaiting the tiny green shoots newly seeded this year that carpet the realm.

You can’t make them out, but I assure you they sprout with glee to reach the sunshine and join the dance. Sparkling butterfly and dragonfly guardians decided to watch over the garden this year too, and send out beacons to all their family, inviting them to what could likely be the biggest celebration this realm has yet to see.

There’s even been an addition to the serving stations to ensure all forest creatures can easily hydrate during the jubilee. Alongside the larger standing water bowl and bath anchored with a quartz crystal center, there’s now a small sunflower dish with bird hosts watched over by a pair of rabbits with solar succulents that light the way for forest creatures of the in between hours. In this way the ground dwellers like rabbits and mice can sip of its contents, while the birds, chipmunks, squirrels, raccoons, and opposums can continue enjoying the higher water station.




There is much excitement and many whispers throughout the land, calling in the seen and unseen creatures of the forest portal.

Summer Solstice is near and everyone is doing their part to make it a beautiful celebration.
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GREAT TREE

Oh Great Tree your roots carry the whispers of times forgotten, your branches see times yet to come, and yet your strength is in the presence you bear witness to unconditionally.
You are a portal to your Mother, The Cosmic Tree, through which multidimensional experience is woven.
Pressing my heart to yours I remember.
Nature is Helping Me to Embody the New

I thought I’d hop on briefly after being away from blogging the last ten days, just to share some of the beauty, special moments, and reflections I’ve experienced during this time. Maybe you’ve felt similar things or this little burst of nature’s inspiration may be exactly the breath of fresh air for you right now. In any event, I hope that you had a beautiful Summer Solstice, however you chose to welcome it in.
I’m still spending most of my time within the inner landscapes, but that is reflected in an increased deepening with nature and immersing even more in her realm.
This mirrors the time we lived in the Magick Bus exploring nature and National Parks for nearly a year and a half when life called me in a new direction. It’s only now that I’m getting what it all meant and where the embodiment of that change was leading.
It’s almost been like getting my feet wet again in body, from what was a resurrection of sorts from the waters of life – actually most literally. I have needed the last couple of years to reacquaint myself with things from a new perspective, which has had me dipping in and out of some things from before, tried out in the now.
Some clothes just haven’t fit, either feeling too tight or too loose – meaning they were still too tied in with the past and the energy I had completed, or they were so new that I wasn’t sure how I felt about them and hence all the extra room to explore.
It’s been a time of allowing what ever wants to move through, letting go of to-do’s, and softening the reflections so that even my process with things doesn’t mirror how I used to process stuff. Life is a soft and gentle focus now. In this way, not only will what ever the new is that comes through be different than before, but the journey will be too.
I find it important for me that nothing mirrors the past, although can weave in the possibilities it held.
It still feels very fresh and I’m only beginning to immerse, as last week was more about the surrender, continued nurturing, and letting nature guide me.
So, with Solstice ringing in Summer, there’s been a ton of outdoor activity. It started Wednesday of last week while we explored a new hike to Cascade Falls – a shorter one, but climbs technically quite a bit. That felt invigorating and perfect for allowing the flow just like the gushes of water cascading down the mountain. Both the climb and the being with the water were perfect metaphors for things.
That same day we went to Baldwin Beach – another new beach for us. There, a mother duck and her seven ducklings visited and after they explored the higher activity of people down a ways from us, they came to rest in peace in front of our umbrella. Another beautiful reflection.
Thursday was a very special day – the two year anniversary of Astrid’s coming home to me at the gateway of Solstice. That’s what these first three photos celebrate. Since Astrid is such a huge part of this new life journey for me, I felt it important to capture some beautiful moments between us in the forest portal backyard of our house.
She was a surprise to me, but as I navigate this next part of my life, Astrid is my greatest guide. Where I have no example for the new I reinvent, she emulates the potential I most admire.

I love this photo below where she and I look merged as one – almost creating a Yin/Yang effect in how her body curves into mine.

Solstice is a very special time of the year for me ever since three years ago my beloved bunny, Joy, transitioned through its portal on that day in a place very dear to me – Montana. She and Astrid came from the same rabbit rescue and I feel that their entering and exiting at this gateway is significant.
The Mayans celebrated Solstice for spiritual initiation and change, creating ceremony to be in harmony with the Earth and Cosmic energies.
I remember the words from my dear shaman friend Amaru in Peru, “Nokan Inti Kani” – meaning “I am the Sun.”
Solstice extends an invitation to join the Sun’s energy and connect with your Higher Self, follow inspiration and dreams, and tune inside to the alchemy of “as within, so without.”
I find nature to be that gateway for me, as are my rabbit companions, and the Cosmos.
The Solstice gateway gifted me this beautiful golden hawk feather that I’m so grateful for.


So every day since Wednesday, nature time increased with tons of mountain biking, hiking, and beach time, as well as late afternoon/evening gardening time upon returning home from the physical activity.
To say I slept well is an understatement, as the deepening into body and moving a lot of energy in a grounding way was both nourishing and took me through cycles of decharge and recharge.
Solstice saw us in Squaw Valley where I enjoyed an intentional walk in the gorgeous meadows by myself anchoring in that new while Dave enjoyed his last day of skiing on the first day of Summer. You’ll see photos below of how beautiful this area is, reminding me of both the Swiss Alps (where I haven’t yet been, but seen photos of) and adored Iceland, as well as my favorite spots in Montana.
Seventeen miles of biking along the Truckee River that day was a way to move the energy and flow like the river.
Twenty two miles of biking the next day continued moving that energy along more gorgeous vistas.
All the while during each ride, allowing visions, thoughts, and feelings to flow, as my body did the integrating.
Two back-to-back hikes to different lakes Sunday followed by a vegan potluck picnic provided continued anchoring and as I said, each day I’d come home and plop myself in the garden planting perennials to create a low maintenance, inspiring, and beautiful backdrop that blends wild with a little intention.
I promised the Faeries of the land many things when moving here and I’m happy to create a special sanctuary for them to play in.


I’ll share more of the front and side gardens, as things blossom, but for now here are my beautiful Portulaca blooms that I adore!
The forest out back is in early stages of bloom, but as you can see they are already creating a welcome carpet to our home for the Faeries.

I just love how the wildflowers are blooming with joy everywhere – and it’s just the beginning. They feel like a love spell on my heart.
And as you can see from the below photos of Squaw Valley meadows, the Truckee River, and Cascade Falls, there’s been an abundance of inspiration all around from Mother Earth – the best nurturer there is.











As mentioned, I’m just beginning to immerse into a new realm of exploration within, so all of these good nature vibes are very nurturing to the vulnerable parts feeling safe to come through.
Because I feel that I haven’t much example to draw upon for that new, I feel nature provides me the best template and reflection for the journey.
Cultivating the garden is also very supportive, as my heart guides its creation in reflection of me as well – mostly wild, with woven threads of cultivated pockets that create synergy and harmony.
This last Wednesday I went to my third meditation group meeting that ended in a lovely picnic dinner at the beach with everyone who joined, however I feel it will likely be my last time going (at least for now) because I’m clear my work at home is more aligned for me at this time. I did leave the group with a few book recommendations to help with the “self love” topic, so they at least have some tools for any exploration they may decide to embark on past this month’s theme.
I feel called to explore on my own for now, dipping in and out when the moment calls.
The good news is (at least to me), I feel like I’m in greater alignment with the new path I’m creating than I was before. Remember I mentioned those clothes that felt too tight or too big and loose?
Energetically the ones that felt too big are now taking root and feeling more like home.
And on the literal, tangible level, the continued cleansing of, and weeding through, my closet leaves me with what feels to be the perfect essence of a place I now feel comfortable in heading to.
What’s fascinating is that the five Portal Paintings that found their new home, only just departed from Nevada on the Solstice – Yes! The Solstice of all days! Talk about divine alignment. Even though I dropped them off a week and a half earlier, they didn’t get crated and shipped out until then and so that also feels reflective of this anchoring in and clarity beginning.
The whole wild journey to get them to that point has mirrored so much of the changes I’m going through.
I’m excited for them to arrive in their new home across the country in Athens, Georgia with their amazing co-guardian where they will be open to anyone who wants to visit and meditate/work with them. This new home is being created into a form of a mini healing center welcome to people wanting to immerse in a conscious journey. As things evolve with that, I’ll keep you posted. It’s a way that people can experience them and more, and if at some point they are ready to journey on, they will be available via that portal.
I leave you now to return to my garden so I can complete the last planting I didn’t get a chance to finish yet. It feels integral to the next phase beginning.
What I love is that although the future is unknown and the vision is yet to be seen of how things look, the journey is so much more gentle and peaceful. There are those ebbs and flows, but it’s all naturally unfolding if I listen, allow, honor, and observe.
Do you experience reflections in your life that mirror the changes you’re going through?
My guess is we all do and if we stop to observe things, we’ll see it and make those connections.
If not, how might you create intention around something – like a project, gardening, etc. – to embody the potential you’re being guided to?
It will be interesting to see where the journey leads all of us.


























































































































































