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The Magick Bus Adventure Takes a New Turn on the Spiral of Life
It will soon be a year that we’ve been living in the Magick Bus – my time flies when you’re soaring through shifts – and during that time much has evolved including some alchemically poignant experiences that were markers for both walking into and creating a new era. I’ve experienced literal near death, the transition of one of my beloveds, ancient remembering, peaceful embodiment, widening perspectives, realization of personal truth, a new level of alchemy initiated, shedding of more layers of skin, danced with cosmic forces of shadow and light, began a new creative path, deepened into sound as my harmonic resonance, heard the call of the sacred areas that align with my soul, and so much more.
It’s been potent indeed!
And as I shared in another recent post, “It’s an ever-flowing evolution of creative execution requiring constant, increasingly conscious presence to hear the voice within.”
Nothing ever “arrives,” but continues to morph in reflection to continued expansion beyond limiting versions of today’s ideas and beyond duality into multi-reality potentials that release definition.
This adventure we’ve been on has had several purposes, but most importantly to literally move energy in a rapid and deep way, which it indeed has.
It’s been a journey of surrender, vulnerability, lifting of veils, stepping into greater personal power, and expansion.
Much more than I have even shared with words and photos via my adventure blogging here that documented the journey, as it’s just not possible.
Things continue to spiral and with shifts embraced, adjustments to mirror and flow with the current streams of energy have, and continue to take place.
I know from what I’m hearing and experiencing from the collective that this is really proving to be a moment-to-moment fluctuation of different energy currents to navigate, which can be unnerving, confusing, knocking off balance, and challenging to say the least.
Or, fun if you’re able to really enjoy learning a new dance partnership with the current energies inviting you and the constant morphing quality to things right now while not getting fixated and attached, as everything rapidly transforms.
While we’re keeping from locking into anything and allowing the energy to move and form naturally to support new opportunities and visions streaming in, I can share some of what is happening in a general and symbolic level.
We are currently heading out of Canada sooner than originally planned (originally traveling another nearly 2 more months through) and will be entering back into the States on the 31st and last day of August (that’s tomorrow and seems symbolic) through North Dakota with the International Peace Garden as our entrance bridge, which feels quite fitting to move through a harmony zone between two “worlds” – Canada and the U.S.
Then we’ll continue traveling and touching down in several states along the way like Minnesota, Wisconsin, etc. getting a taste of this area of the country, and culminating with a very special, private, and intimate Equinox celebration and activation with Laura and her David in a sacred place, immediately heading to where the land has called us to start creating the next phase of our lives, right after.
We’ll of course be exploring what the areas we travel through have to offer along the way to our landing zone, integrating that into the creative manifestation process, no doubt.
We’ll then be focused on creating the next phase of our lives solely.
This will involve purchasing and setting up a new home in one of the places closest to our hearts, which will be an evolving process and may morph and expand into more than we originally thought to incorporate everything desired and necessary to our paths.
And during this time the Magick Bus will be our base until our home is in order, then we will likely be saying goodbye to it.
However, this doesn’t mean our adventure is over. It is simply evolving and taking a new turn on the spiral of life.
We are exploring varying possibilities, which may include things like purchasing a much smaller Magick Bus II and journeying sporadically once we get set up, or simply traveling without a Magick Bus.
The possibilities are endless!
Either way, we would be navigating the landing zones of exploration by very specifically focused areas of intent and calling, rather than everything in between.
This to include some international travel that’s come up, including a long stint in Australia in the Spring of 2017 due to an important event invitation for Dave in relation to his book.
So, there is much evolving and much excitement ahead, not to mention I am looking forward to creating a new sacred haven and sanctuary to continue with my creative projects and new ventures that I envision.
And that’s where my next phase of feeling I need to withdraw external energies comes in, in order to fuel all the things I/we need to create and anchor in.
This may seem abrupt, but I’m going to be offline beginning September 1st – the New Moon Eclipse in Virgo and our first full day back in the States – for a good majority and unknown length of time, and will touch in only if absolutely called, which means the rest of the journey I won’t be documenting anymore.
This means I won’t be updating via Facebook either and newsletters are coming to an end for an unknown period of time.
I may pop up with an update or channeled inspiration, via my blog solely, when you least expect it, but that would be in alignment with what’s already anchored, rather than the process, and I’m not going to place any time frame or limitation on it.
Like with everything, it will organically create itself.
I just wanted to put it out there so that you don’t think something happened to me or that something is wrong, like some people thought the first time I took my 3 month sabbatical, although much IS happening. 😉
This feels more resonant, as things shift way too much and with such speed that it doesn’t make sense, nor supportive all around, to update until things anchor into manifestation more solidly.
Plus, I want this part of my life to be created with as little commingling and energetic interference than we already all share simply by being part of the collective experience unfolding.
And, I also need this time to utilize an early, clear, and focused hibernation for the creation of all of this on a personal, partnered, and collective level.
Thank you so much for all of the loving support and understanding that you share so generously.
Sending out much love and wishing everyone a creatively empowered journey, an alchemically potent New Moon Solar Eclipse tomorrow, Full Moon Lunar Eclipse on the 16th, and Equinox, as well as a peacefully flowing end of 2016.
Embracing the Shapeshifter Within
The cosmic me
Shapeshifting is the ability to change physical form at will – changing one thing into another – or to shift the energy you are emitting from your physical body. This can be a full on transformation or could be an energetic morphing and merging that happens more subtly.
Shamans and medicine women and men are known to shapeshift, often times taking on the spirit or essence of an animal and able to journey into otherworlds.
And many in the otherworlds – the magickal and “unseen” realms – are shapeshifters too, slipping easily into different forms at will to move more easily amidst the worlds or simply to experience other forms, blend into their environment, or to show up in ways that would be of most benefit and support to those who they appear to.
The inner unicorn me – Laura pointed out that I reminded her of the essence of the Chariot Tarot card in the Robin Wood deck that has a black and white unicorn pulling the chariot, as shared below. This photo was “accidentally” snapped when I thought I was recording a video about the “inner unicorn”. The video didn’t show up, but the photo remained.
Robin Wood Chariot Tarot card
True, there are shapeshifters of another kind of energy that you may not resonate with, but simply because an ability that is available to all, if harnessed, doesn’t make it wrong or bad simply because certain beings may utilize it too. It again comes down to intent.
Shapeshifting can have different connotations to people depending on your perspective.
The mermaid/nymph me
Some people may see this as scary or even “evil” and yet if you think about it, since we are part of a collective soul and more than just the person we or others identify us as solely in this lifetime, it would make sense that, at the least, we could have some bleed-through of all of our “selves”.
And thus, anyone could shapeshift and there are many that do, especially if you are living an integration life, as many of us are, or if you are working at deep soul levels in your evolution.
The otherworld Faery me
Shapeshifters, or the ability to shapeshift is about being able to change your energy slightly and sometimes this can happen even unconsciously.
For instance, you may be engaged in something so heart and soulful that it activates a part of your dna and soul remembrance that shifts your energy in the moment to bring out different essence qualities in you that change your appearance, or that draw forth parts of your soul and other power lifetimes where you were utilizing these gifts more seamlessly.
And then you start to morph into what you looked like in that lifetime, or looking like an animal or being you’ve been as well, or taking on those physical traits that closely relate to this energy within you.
The rabbit me and the Egyptian me
So it can be a merging with an animal spirit, non-human spirit (cosmic, devic, angelic, etc), or another form of yourself from another dimensional time period. And this may be a bleed-through or it may be in order for you to do work that your current human form can’t.
You may even become an element, lake, mountain, rock, plant, mineral, or something altogether cosmic, etc. You can merge as anything that exists as consciousness since you are all things.
It’s a way that we move into the limitlessness and expansive eternal essence of our consciousness and step into more of our formless and shapeless selves that are boundless – knowing that we are all of these things.
The animus me (inner masculine) – I actually had a literal shapeshifting photo caught in the midst of shifting into this that was quite freaky cool, but I lost the photo.
Perhaps it could be seen as moving into the sacred “knowing” and collective aspects of self that are aligned with divine will, rather than “time” focused, ego attachment.
And yet, at any moment we can choose to move in and out and identify, at any moment, with which ever parts of that sacredness we desire, simultaneously aware that we are all and none.
I’ve been aware of this shapeshifting quality within myself for a long time, but it has increasingly been showing up, the more I’ve gotten in touch with my most natural, authentic essence and have deepened my integrative work.
The ancient Inca/Mayan/Native American Indian me
And so I find myself morphing in photos, looking different in almost every photo taken of me (sometimes that being quite odd how much I don’t look like the “me” I/you may know and yet looking more the “me’s” that I/we are), and it becoming more visually perceivable, rather than just energetically felt, by others.
I like to think of it as embracing all of my selves and moving more into the boundless experience, while making that a vulnerably revealing process that is natural.
The Sprite me
I’ve shared just a few of the photos that stood out recently revealing different “me’s”, but there have been so many.
Perhaps you have noticed this along the journey of my sharing.
Perhaps you have noticed it within yourself.
The many me’s
Canyons of the Ancients
There was something powerfully activated yesterday from our intuitive and rewarding exploration of another incredible area – Canyons of the Ancients National Monument – so much so that the top of my crown chakra felt like it was splitting open. This area is like an “outdoor museum”, but also like a treasure hunt, as most of the archaeological sites are not apparent to the untrained eye and precise locations aren’t publicized.
Canyons of the Ancients contains more than 6000 Anasazi – Ancestral Puebloan and other Native American cultures – archaeological sites and in some place, up to 100 per square mile.
They recommend stopping first at the Anasazi Heritage Center before beginning your exploration, to get maps, guidebooks, orientation, etc., as although the Monument is open to explore on foot, there are few and limited marked foot trails and no indication of where things are or what to look for.
When you arrive there is just a small sign that says Canyons of the Ancients and has a general trail map of the area to choose from.
As I said, we decided to just explore without info and let ourselves be guided. We had a window of about 2 hours, so we also wanted to maximize that.
It proved very rewarding, as the trail routes we took, our spidey senses, and knowing what to look for, since we’ve been exploring so many ruins already, led us to find quite a few sites.
It’s a really remarkable area and less traveled, as we found only about 4 cars parked at the main trailhead, but only came across a guide and one person with him on mules and two mountain bikers, briefly at onset and end.
The rest of the time we were completely on our own in this vast sacred area walking in the ancient footsteps of these people and exploring their dwellings and temples.
I decided to stay more grounded and let Dave do the climbing and upper explorations, while I scanned the cliffs for more sites and directed him to things I could see to go check out from his higher ground.
We found cliff dwellings, what appeared to be walls of surface dwellings on the tops of the rocks, and temple sites.
We also found the perimeter walls of lower dwellings on the ground below the cliff dwellings.
This seemed to be quite the location for so many communities, one after another.
While Dave would climb up, I’d explore below and many lizards came to greet me.
We also had a raven flying into the large cliff dwelling we found, as we were leaving it, and when we came to this most intact dwelling, hummingbird appeared.
I heard a very loud buzzing and felt chills of energy around me, realizing then there was a hummingbird buzzing above my head and circling me.
Then it flew off in the direction of the cliff dwelling.
Right after exploring, we stopped on a nearby rock under the shade of a tree with view of that site, to drink some water and have a snack and two hummingbirds found us. They came buzzing again around us and landing in the tree’s branches above us. They were very intent on finding us and making sure we knew they were there.
The ancient ones were definitely welcoming us. It reminded me of when we were in Peru and arriving at the Sun Temple when a hummingbird appeared to welcome us.
Can you find me in this panoramic shot on the right looking out at the cliff dwelling ruins lining the inside and tops of the cliffs at center?
We really enjoyed our intuitive expedition, not knowing what to expect or what we’d find, but it was perfect. And being that we but scratched the surface of all that is there, we feel we will likely return in the days remaining.
The next time we’ll stop at the Anasazi Heritage Center first since we’ll have more time and it is Southwest Colorado’s premier archaeological museum of the Anasazi and has a ton of things to see and learn about, as well as will provide information on more things we may want to explore at Canyons of the Ancients.
If you have the time and can do both exploration on your own and go to the Center, I’d recommend doing so, as it will give your intuition, presence, and observational skills a good exercise before getting info. My guess is you’ll still be using some tracking and other skills even with info, as nothing is marked except the main trail heads.
As I mentioned at the start, something took place, as when we arrived back home the very top center of my crown chakra started aching.
I don’t get migraines and rarely ever get head aches…usually it’s an energy thing if I feel something.
But OMGoodness did my head hurt and would worsen no matter what I did. I even laid down for a bit and it just increased. I drank water to make sure I was hydrated and it increased. It was literally like my head was being knocked open with a sledge hammer right at center.
I tried Reiki and it increased.
Dave was sitting outside reading and I went to sit with him and told him that I felt like something was happening from the energies. My crown was expanding, shifting, and/or opening.
I told him that I was feeling a shift literally inside tear me open and it was making me very emotional and wanting to cry – and did – and it was not due to the pain, but an activation.
He asked if I wanted him to do Reiki on my crown and I said yes, so he did, as I closed my eyes and tears ran down my face and my legs started shaking, which happens – the shaking that is – when I’m going through something like a kundalini experience, but for me this energy is coming down through the crown now and not up – mirroring what the channeler/reader in Sedona has told me the last two times I visited him there that this would be my new experience from now on of things channeling down through me, not up.
And while I sat there in pain, tears of opening, and shaking in my legs, we heard what sounded like owl hoots in the tree in front of us and I caught glimpse of a bird moving on the branches…then two.
They sounded just like an owl, but as they moved more I saw that they were Mourning Doves cooing in a way that sounded incredibly like hoots.
Their presence seemed symbolic bringing the deepest kind of peace, promise, and purification.
Mourning Doves help us to release any deep traumas stored in the cellular memory, which can be assisted by sound channeling through your voice and body. In this way they are also helping to clear and cleanse so that renewal can take place.
Their melancholy coos remind me of Celtic keening and similar to the sound healing and mourning I shared in my video.
They are also connected to the transitional times of the day’s cycle, as in morning and night – we heard them at nearly 8pm – times when veils between physical and spiritual worlds become thinner. And so they are messengers from other worlds and can help to reveal the hidden energies and provide calming peace and hope with the process.
They seemed to be, for me, helping me to peacefully embrace this shift taking place and to “be” with the growing pains and opening, breathing into them rather than allowing the emotional cleansing to cause anxiety in any way, as it felt at first to be cropping up as, along with frustration and more.
After seeing them, Dave giving me Reiki, and brushing my tears from my cheeks I felt a lot better, but it was first by going through a process of it increasingly getting worse – my crown hurt SO much.
I was then able to go back inside and shower, as well as bathe Cosmo and with the physical cleansing things continued to balance out.
I knew another big change was upon me and I’d be implementing some more major decisions that feel necessary at this time in my life – crucial and timely.
I’m sitting with it for now, but will share more when it settles completely in body.
(Also feeling significant to add, today 5/5, would have been Gaia (my Russian Tortoise’s) 13th birthday and it was also the day that Nestor’s ashes came home to me)
Embracing My Truth
My last video share from the Sedona area, as we leave Sunday. This expresses a personal shift and how that reflects in more changes I’m implementing.
Details will be upcoming in April’s newsletter and likely also a blog share.
Below the video you’ll find photos of the ruins I spoke of in it (you can see the perimeter of each dwelling), the ancient springs pond that sits behind where I got the massage I just received right before making the video while I sat in the meadow waiting for Dave to receive his after me, and the piece of ancient pottery and perhaps arrowhead or some other sacred object I found, along with a little piece of crystalline, sparkly sweet, cosmic magick I also found on the ground while here in Sedona.
Grateful to be retrieving more parts of myself.
Wishing you peaceful transitions into embodying your own truth that nourishes your essence.
Honoring Your Personal Timing ~ Seeing the Moth in Me
If you remember, when I was in Malibu I became aware of a cocoon hanging from one of my plants – the mint -while I was doing a mini Tarot card reading for myself at our picnic table.
Seeing the cocoon went perfect with the message I had received and how I felt to be in my own cocoon still.
I’ve been caring for the cocoon and the life within it, since, gingerly carrying the pot and making sure that it is safe during travel.
Funny thing is, I thought that it was in process of cocooning, when in fact it was actually in process of emerging!
The black I saw was not the caterpillar, but indeed the Moth inside, slowly awakening to take its first new breath of renewing life.
Just yesterday, as I was tending to my plants, I discovered her.
A beautiful and mysterious little Moth with thick fuzzy body and lovely deep colors that blend with Nature.
She still seems to be in a partial state of slumber, as she adjusts to the world in her new body.
I read that they need to go through a process of eclosion when they emerge from the cocoon, where they hang to properly inflate their wings. This process of inflating, drying, and hardening their wings takes up to about 6 hours.
They may be able to fly before that, but unable to go far because their wings are still too heavy and soft.
This little one has been hanging for a much longer time than that so I began to wonder.
Is she having challenges with the process?
Is the change of environment inducing a different process for her?
Is she confused by being inside where I have my plants right now?
She was moving around, so I gave her Reiki and went out to find her a leaf and held it out for her to climb on to.
She did, and I introduced her slowly to the great outdoors again.
She moved around on the leaf and opened her wings, but did not seem to want to fly.
She seemed to want to stay close near my hand.
I let her acclimate slowly while giving her Reiki and asking the Faeries to assist.
I left her for a little while in a covered area by my shoes to keep her safe and protected, but able to leave if she wants.
She did not.
I started to wonder if she wanted to leave?
Or if she still isn’t quite ready and needs some more time?
Perhaps being like a preemie baby that was eager to set foot in the world and start a new adventure, but still has a few more things to integrate before actually setting off on the journey.
I then saw myself in her.
I felt how eager the creative energy within me has been to erupt forth and yet I still have a few things of my own I’m tying up before I can fully fly on the wings of that new energy.
And so I brought her back inside.
I wanted her safe to do her thing in the timing that she needed.
I held the leaf out to the stems of my arugula plant so she can hang there and continue her process in her own timing – safely and under my care.
My guess is that it may mirror my own, as I’m a couple of weeks away from things fully taking flight in my own life.
Dave said to me this morning, as he kind of shook his head and smiled, “Seems like you now have two special needs children, adding a special needs Moth to your care.”
I laughed and said, “Yeah, well I’m a special needs soul so I kind of ‘get’ them.”
Put One Foot In Front Of The Other ~ Changing the Reflection by Election!
It’s SO NOT Christmas and I SO DON’T care. I sing this song year round, along with many others from my favorite Christmas animations.
It actually has nothing to do with Christmas and isn’t a Christmas song…it just happens to come from a Christmas stop-motion animation where many classics come from that have stuck with me in my life.
I was singing another one yesterday too from Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer, just BECAUSE. I don’t dictate or filter what wants through….I just allow it.
As most people who really know me know, I always use simplistic examples and pull from childhood to demonstrate things, rather than being some big time intellectual.
I don’t try to be something I’m not and so I embrace my child-like heart, as that’s where home is for me.
This one hits home for me too and comes to us from the animated classic, Santa Claus is Coming to Town, and is one I often sing a lot or use as example because well, it beautifully expresses how to embrace the changes we want to make and makes it fun and easy when you sing along!
I actually shared it with a very dear soul this morning to lighten things up for the journey he’s on.
It’s such a wonderful tune to remember and sing each time you feel stuck.
I’ve now been singing it all morning since sharing it with him, so I’m now sharing it with you!
Sing along with me if you know this one, and if you don’t…you’ll likely find it a catchy tune you’ll enjoy singing when needed.
Here are the lyrics to help out while you watch:
Winter: I really am a mean, and despicable creature at heart you know. It’s difficult to [sniff] really change.
Kris: Difficult? [chuckles] Why, why look here, changing from bad to good is as easy as taking your first step.
[Chorus]
Put one foot in front of the other
And soon you’ll be walking ‘cross the floor.
You put one foot in front of the other
And soon you’ll be walking out the door.
You never will get where you’re going
If ya never get up on your feet.
Come on, there’s a good tail wind blowin’
A fast walking man is hard to beat.
[Chorus]
If you want to change your direction,
If your time of life is at hand,
Well, don’t be the rule, be the exception
A good way to start is to stand.
[Chorus]
Winter: If I want to change the reflection
I see in the mirror each morn…
Kris: Oh, you do.
Winter: You mean that it’s just my election?
Kris: Just that.
Winter: To vote for a chance to be reformed? Woo-hoo!
[Chorus 2x]
Put one foot in front of the other
And soon you’ll be walking ‘cross the floor.
You put one foot in front of the other
And soon you’ll be walking out the door.
Much love, ease, and lightness as you take the steps to support your way out of inertia. 😉
Celebrating the Old & the New as One ~ The Natural Cycle of Closure & New Beginnings
In yesterday’s last Reiki workshop I’ll be hosting from this lovely space I’ve called home now for nearly four years, the group of souls that joined and the energy we shared together really provided a beautiful, fun, invigorating, and perfect closure to all that has been cultivated, integrated, shared, received, and grown while living here.
It was definitely a bitter sweet day, which much of the rest of the next almost two months will be before heading out of here into a new adventure of RV living beginning October 15th.
This home has provided a wonderful sanctuary space, which we’ve had privilege to call home.
And I’m happy to share, however, that the spirit of Reiki will live on in this amazing sanctuary home that has provided us peace and support for all the things in our lives we’ve been creating, as the wonderful family/friends renting from us are both trained Reiki Master Teachers that I’ve had honor to teach and will continue teaching from this space. Yay!
And not only that, but this lovely couple and their two sweet and tuned in children will continue with the care-taking of the garden, Garden Tower, and all of the lovely fruit trees, plants, and flowers we’ve nurtured here. Plus will add some more of their own. I hear a pomegranate tree is in the works. 😉
This home has been the sacred container for so much in my life in terms of expansion, deepening, and opening to my most truest nature ever. I can only imagine what will evolve from the next mobile abode.
So while yesterday was a wonderful affirmation for the souls who all came and chose to say “yes” to living a more gracious, magickal, and empowered life, it was also a blessed affirmation of the “yes” I’ve chosen to say to another experience of life on a whole new level myself.
After everyone left yesterday I took a refreshing shower to “cool off” from all the energy and spent the evening until dinner enjoying the backyard and garden.
That’s my favorite grounding and integrating spot after teaching high vibed classes.
Yesterday’s incredible group of people really activated a lot. Our internal furnaces were on fire and everyone left feeling so pumped up.
It’s all so exciting, wonderful, special, connective and yes…magickal to be a part of that journey with people and observe the life-enhancing transformations that take place. I love seeing people’s eyes light up and faces beaming from the light within.
How can you not fall in love with each soul and life itself when you get to see and experience that miracle?
Last evening and this morning I wandered the front and back yard to check on all the new growth taking place.
Alongside the amazing sunflowers out front that have blossomed, I have found so much more that is beginning to really take off, and in some cases also about ready to be enjoyed, including more lovely pickling cucumber blossoms.
It’s like all of the plants are seeing me off with a bang and not only are mirroring the big changes and new beginnings, but also that all things are possible with patient, loving care, nurturing, and unwavering belief.
My Garden Tower is looking amazing and will provide several harvests before I leave. The loquat and persimmon tree are abundant so I’ll see them get close to readiness. The plumeria are all flowering and all of the seeds I planted out front have grown into healthy little plants that will continue on. I just planted some more sunflower seeds to see if they sprout before heading out. (hehe that rhymes!) 😉
The apple tree is LOADED with fruit so much so that the limbs are bowing down to touch the Earth. So it definitely appears I’ll be getting a bunch of apples before moving out of the house.
And another mystery guest made an appearance.
Well hello surprise hidden tangerine #3! I discovered a third totally out-of-season tangerine on our tangerine tree that is also going to be ready to enjoy before moving out. They aren’t supposed to come until February, but like me they are going against the grain and proving anything is possible.
New beginnings are blossoming everywhere. I love seeing the fruits of my labor growing.
And so much is already in gear for when I return from my three month sabbatical, as December is already quite filled with a continuation of work, but also new focuses.
I’m preferring to stay focused on the now however, as things can and will constantly evolve if the flow is followed rather than trying to create against that, or try to jump ahead too fast.
So, one-by-one I’m focused right now on finalizing the rest of my work as I’ve done with my last workshops, finishing out with still a hand full of designs and last coaching sessions. And then focusing on the fun of cleaning out fully (I so love that part), selling and letting go of everything but the essentials, and handling all the details of the move.
Then it’s Tania time!!
I can’t wait to work on my own creative projects, especially my writing, as a story has been channeling through and sitting in my crown’s storage bank for when I can fully immerse in the realm I’ll need to go.
Having the uninterrupted, full focus will provide me the ability to create a lot and write the full book. I’m not sure how many other projects I’ll get through during my time “off” – which simply means not working for others, and only working for myself – as I have a lot of things knocking at my heart’s door. However, without anything else pulling at my energy, I can accomplish quite a bit.
But I have promised and assured myself that I’ll continue with their focus as long as needed. And I’m also being shown glimpses of where I’m to focus thereafter.
It’s been a little bit odd living in two realities at once…one that is ending and one that is beginning, but it’s also been exciting and helpful in fueling it all and finally has become more natural and easy than it was at first.
Peace with the old has fueled invigoration of the new and invigoration of the new has created peace with the old….simultaneously.
While the mind wants to rush through it all and speed up the process, which only creates frustration, it’s been more helpful to allow both realities their fullness as they are one and the same, connected, and necessary to the natural cycles.
Much like nature and the plants and animals innately know….it’s a continuous and fully connected experience that only takes place by journeying the full cycle with embrace and trust in the eternal fluidity of consciousness and new creative sparks of life that always are within every experience.
You Are On The Verge Of Exciting Change
“Turning points announce themselves through a variety of vague symptoms: deep restlessness, a yearning with no name, inexplicable boredom, the feeling of being stuck.” ~Gloria Karpinski
Hitting the Reset Button ~ My Upcoming Move & Sabbatical
Since many of you are not subscribed to receive my monthly newsletter, and this month’s updates seem important to share, I am going to repost June’s newsletter here for all of my blog readers and friends, as it pertains to why you won’t be seeing me online for an extended period of time beginning September 1st, and yet you’ll still know I haven’t fallen off the edge of the Earth (at least not yet 😉 ).
I’ll simply be on a personal sabbatical for several months, which entails my unavailability on all accounts, which will overlap with my moving. So this pertains to services I offer, which you may want to take advantage of before then, otherwise I won’t be able to assist you until I return. I’ll post two separate blogs following this, specific to how this pertains to workshops and sacred tattoo design consultations.
As I replied to a dear friend this morning who was sharing similar experiences and asking how I was:
“I’m doing well…just getting clearer and lighter. And taking advantage of the windows presenting themselves…following where I’m guided and doing what I need to stay true to myself and my path, which ultimately is for the highest good. I’m in a mode of needing to pull back from everything, as my contracts are done and I now am in a place of creating from a clean slate.”
Here’s my newsletter update:
I’m a bit behind on June’s newsletter, as we are already slowly approaching the half-way mark of this month – incredible!
And while there is SO much that has taken place this first half of the year and upcoming, I’m going to keep things as succinct as possible.
Some of what I have to share may come as a surprise, but if you really know me, you should know by now that I’m constantly moving and reinventing myself and don’t intend to stop that ever.
As we approach the Summer Solstice, I am envisioning revitalization for everyone’s current experiences. Remember that this is a time of blossoming, celebrating, embodying self-awareness and your Higher Self, releasing the old patterns of suppression, and recharging the mind, body, and spirit to bring what you desire into your life.
And that only comes if you are willing to release ALL that no longer serves you.
I recently made the declaration out loud in the presence of an intentful, intimate gathering, that I was moving forward and saying goodbye to everything old and hindering in any way. This included creating new aspirations, as even the ones I had just months ago, no longer stand.
I needed to create brand new ones, am continuing to purge everything from my life that doesn’t align with that energy, and am investing in me and only the now-aligned and cherished experiences I choose.
It’s a time of the Divine dance, union, and balance of the Feminine (Earth, Mother, Moon) with the Masculine (Sky, Father, Sun) energies. And this is something experienced WITHIN me.
It’s a time that the Mayans believed to be for spiritual initiation and change, creating ceremony to balance the Earth’s energy – “balance” and “harmony” always definitely being key.
This is an opportune time where we can invite the Sun’s energy to connect with our Higher Self and to follow inspiration and dreams, while tuning inside and realizing the alchemy of “as within, so without”.
Yes, it is time to fully embody yourself as the Sun, the Light, the All That Is – you are the creator creating through the heart and soul of you. When you truly recognize and live this, you will just know.
And if you’re feeling anything similar to what I am, that Light cannot hide any longer, without creating challenge and pains.
So choose wisely and choose from the heart.
This update will contain a bit more of the personal, but I always feel that this enables others to identify with similar experiences and to find comfort and connection through them.
That said, I have been mentioning an upcoming move and while we still do not have the exact date yet – since a huge amount of things are all being orchestrated right now, I’ll be working a lot of energetics, and awaiting windows – our projected timing is October or thereabouts 4 months from now.
At least that gives you a better, more concrete idea, as I’m not sure people have taken me seriously about this, but I assure you I’m quite serious I will not be here in Costa Mesa, CA for much longer and have been saying this is the last Summer here.
People keep asking where we’re moving to – and to that I’ll say, there is no specific place at this time that we are moving to, as we will be moving around for quite a while until/or if a specific place calls to touch down again. Until then, we’ll be exploring like gypsies in an RV.
As mentioned, this has been an incredibly busy year for me and I’ve been traveling nonstop – all with great intention and each trip has been hugely supportive, nurturing, and activating for me. I just returned from Sedona, and Goshen just before that, and between the two of these a ton has shifted like overnight.
Everything is amped up – you might be experiencing the same – instant manifestation, deeper knowing, alignments, divine support, and increased intuition, visions, connection, and energy enhancement.
One of the only challenges that presented themselves were my bunny loves going through some things recently, but that immediately corrected itself when I was reunited back with them. And in the end I now have two special, special needs bunnies – Cosmo with his spinal disability and Joy with one blind eye.
Yet those challenges were so supportive to both them and me in unseen gifted ways. They always know what mom needs and because of them I got in touch even more deeply with myself and integrated a lot. That experience also drove home that I want only to cherish this moment doing and being with what is most important to my heart only.
The other challenge has been that I’ve had email issues for months now, which I believe I’ve addressed. I apologize if you’ve tried to email me and had your emails bounced back, or never heard from me because I never received it, but apparently the Universe was filtering my emails, preparing me likely for the next announcement.
I will be taking a personal sabbatical starting September 1st. Right now I’m being shown that it will be for 3 months, but I’ll be taking heed from Spirit on that and following intuition, as I’m guided.
What this means is that I will not be available for anything during this time. You will not see me online in any format – no social media, no blog articles and posts, no services offered, and not answering questions.
What this looks like for me is that I am going underground for a bit in order to create without any distractions or things pulling at my energy and time. I have some new creative projects I am being guided to work on and the only way I feel this can be done the way I want it, is to fully immerse myself into my “Tania bubble” in order to do so.
I also want to spend personal quality time in ways that I need right now only, and as I shared, am working a lot of energetics for what is being created.
It feels like I’m hitting a reset button in my life on all fronts and I have to say I so LOVE it.
That’s why a lot of things this year have shifted so much and I started seeing the focus that Spirit was directing me, was about self-nurturing, creative cultivation, recharging, and major downloading.
So several events and trips cancelled and have been cancelled, or were shifted into a different focus – all divinely orchestrated. This is why I just embrace things and am not attached to any outcome, as I know there is always a silver lining and amazing reason to discover from changes that take place. And I believe this is why so many things have flowed with a great sense of grace and peace…because I just moved with the energy, not against it.
So, that all said, I’ll still be putting out another two newsletters before I disappear 🙂 and I’ll still be winding down things and available between now and end of August for scheduling and requests.
For more details on these offerings, along with a “Create Your Own Workshop” opportunity, due to this announcement and my being away for a while, please see below.
Wishing everyone an invigorating Summer Solstice! Sending out love and creative magick to all!