Monthly Archives: December 2015
Music Was My Reminder
If ever I feel in a momentary funk, stuck, or unclear in any way, music is the answer.
That can be listening to music that resonates.
That can be singing or making music of my own.
That can be expressing myself through whatever sound that moves through me.
It is all to me, a form of sound healing.
It all acts as a way of igniting my vibration into its nature of origin.
When I couple that experience with my bunnies or being in nature it simply amplifies it all.
And it moves the energy through me, may spark physical movement, but in general, creates flow once again.
So it’s no wonder that when I pulled one of my “Healing with the Fairies Oracle Cards” today that I was reminded of this fundamental need in my life that nourishes my soul and makes the work I do possible.
And indeed it worked.
Sometimes we think the answer to things has to be something profound in an amazing package, when in fact the profound is a simple reminder of what you already know.
What is your reminder that helps you to flow again?
If you feel stuck, think about the things that make you feel free, inspired, and that move you.
Then DO that!
Inspiration from Crystal Cove
It’s been a while since I’ve shared beach beauty from Crystal Cove here – which has been a favorite sanctuary of mine and one of the main things I’ll miss about living in this area, although I know I’ll find many enchanted places along our journeys.
Anyway, since my days are counted – only 27 days remaining until lift-off! – I thought I’d share some photos of the ocean inspiration and treasures I found on yesterday’s beautiful sunset walk we took at Crystal Cove after our long day of errands and more RV upgrades. Getting everything on the Magick Bus in tip-top shape before heading out!
It’s as if this little piece of peace at ocean’s edge knows I’ll be leaving soon and wants to see me off with love, as it just happened to be low tide, my eye caught crevasses where these beauties hid awaiting me, and we just arrived before the sun set, so the skies lit up in softness and golden splendor. 4:44 pm, nonetheless! What a blessing!
It all tickled my inner child and was exactly the little infusion of magick and energetic boost needed to kick off this week and the rest of the 27 days here, which promise to be very full.
Hope they bring you into greater connection with your passions and spark an inspirational fire to fuel them.
Bearing Your Heart & Soul ~ Bear Messages to Support Your Journey in Life
I mentioned in my return post about how bears had shown up a lot near the end of my sabbatical, beginning with a dream and then culminating with seeing two in person while in Sequoia National Park, and one I felt and saw in my vision while listening for any messages in the forest.
I haven’t had a whole lot of visitation from bear spirit in the past, although has come through before as animal spirit guides in sessions I was doing for clients.
The one time I had the most amazing experience with them was in Alaska last year where we went bear viewing – one of my all-time favorite experiences (you can scroll through that post for the amazing photos of the brown bears I captured).
It was there that we had opportunity to see both black and brown bears….the brown bears up very close and personal, walking among many of them and having the chance to experience these awesome beings in their domain going about life. The black bears we saw were farther in the distance, snacking on berries on the tundra we were hiking.
But when bear showed up in succession of several days in a row for me at the end of November, I had thought to reflect more on that.
I always seem to have a theme of one or a few animal spirit guides around and showing up for me to take notice of, as I’m very animal connected. However, I believe they are always around us and showing up at opportune times, but we just likely aren’t paying attention to it and passing it off as “just part of life without significance.”
When they show up for me, this always reflects the energy I’m working with currently and/or need to integrate. And so they appear as reminder of the message and to let me know they are there to assist me, as well as empower the energies and medicine they carry.
Anyway, since I promised writing a bit about bear – black bear in particular – since that is specifically the one I kept experiencing recently, I’ll just share a bit of what I take away from the symbolism of them showing up for me, personally, and some of the collective meanings that are possible with these beings presenting themselves to you.
Like with all things, there is indeed collective symbolism that you can draw from in terms of what the meaning of anything is for you.
And yet, there are many ways to interpret things and so using your intuitive guidance and nudges will help you to discern the meaning better for yourself and how it translates relative to you and your current experiences.
For sake of this share, I’m focusing on animals – bears in particular – and some clues to help you piece things together for yourself when they show up for you in waking life or dream time.
I’ll show you how I walked through my own experiences to draw forth my personal messages from them.
As mentioned, for myself I had dreamed of black bear cubs and their mom…or at least that’s what they felt to be in the dream. There were quite a few of them and they were not babies, but young adolescents. They were in no way ferocious or on the attack and I was completely not in fear. They were simply standing there sporadically around me, as I walked through them. And Dave had blown something magickally that put them into a slumber, as I continued walking among them.
I took away several things from this, given my personal circumstances at the time and currently.
The first thing that came to me was how mother bears are so nurturing and protective of their cubs and how she was at peace with me walking through and they all just continued to go about their things. She didn’t feel threatened or the need to attack to protect her children.
So it felt like I was in a time period of self-nurturing and nurturing, what I’ve been calling – my “babies” – which are the projects I’ve been working on, as well as caring for my rabbits.
There was nothing threatening me in the dream for need of protection, but instead I felt there was something I needed to preserve, which to me was a piece of me.
And since black bears usually hibernate, especially if moms have given birth, this was speaking to me as my need to continue to remain inward, although out of my sabbatical, and to finish out the winter focused on my “babies” and nurturing the things that I need right now.
The fact they were put into a magickal slumber, was speaking to the fact that this was important despite anything else presenting itself or that I might “think” I need to be doing otherwise. Call it divine timing, cosmic alignment, a soul path nudge….something beyond myself would see to it that I maintain this magickal bubble to continue what I’m being inspired and guided to do and that I am able to do so easily, if I don’t fight it.
Some facts about black bears, which are the smallest of the bear species in North America…and thoughts for myself:
They don’t attack or anger unless vehemently provoked ~ I am not easily provoked either, as it takes a lot for me to anger as well, and since the bears were calm in the dream this felt like I will find peace by continuing in the vein of what I’m doing and honoring my nature within. They were also fully focused in their own thing in the dream, and not at all distracted by me, preferring to focus on their task at hand, which seemed to be eating. This speaks to my preferring to focus on my personal endeavors at this time, rather than worrying about anything going on in the outside environment and that I have the capability to dedicate myself deeply to an intent or task until it is achieved because of how entranced I am in my work. It takes a lot to pull me away when I commit. And so commitment is needed to ensure completion.
They tend to sit around, sleep, and walk aimlessly until hungry ~ I tend to naturally like to flow and be in peace, allowing how I feel to guide me, and so I’m not to get caught up in things that can create anxiety, over-stimulation, and sensitivity, which I found myself a few days ago feeling by being overly immersed in other things and losing time for myself and my projects.
They have anywhere from 1 – 6 cubs, although 2 is most common ~ my dream showed quite a few, so it was closer to the 6, which feels like fertile energy and ultra abundance is available right now…this is a richly creative and fertile time for my projects to take advantage of.
They are extremely adaptable, although primarily found in forests with thick ground vegetation with an abundance of fruits, nuts, and vegetation – places like the tundra, where I saw them in Alaska. They forage in fields or meadows, and in general can live in a variation of habitat types. They are also a symbol of living off the land and being resourceful ~ I, too, am very flexible and adaptable, like a chameleon and can be resourceful in many regards. So this speaks to my needing to stay open to the possibilities, knowing when to harness timeliness and what is being presented, as well as may be speaking to how we are about to begin our travels in the RV to many different and varied places. Honing in on my resources available will also support my endeavors and the simple life we’ve chosen, which will be following seasons more for travel and having me/us even more self-sufficient and living with Nature and her cycles.
They mostly are found traveling high in the mountains and symbolize living off the land ~ as mentioned this speaks to my ability to be resourceful, which this lifestyle now is emphasizing, but also speaks to my ideal and most personally nurturing location of living as well, which I have finally understood for myself as being in the high altitudes of the mountains, in forested areas near water like a lake or river – so much like these bears. And that while we are on our RV adventure, will be looking for that ideal place to later settle and that brings together the other aspects of my personal dreams and project focuses.
They tend to be solitary animals and forage alone with exception of mothers with their cubs and foraging in groups if the habitat is very abundant in an area where they then tolerate each other ~ I tend to also be a solitary person and enjoy my time to myself and the much needed away space to recharge, be able to live and create most optimally, and to give in the ways that I do in the areas of service.
They mostly hibernate depending on local weather and food availability during winter, yet will leave dens from time to time during the season. Females usually give birth and stay denned during the winter, however. ~ I’ve become much more attuned to the seasons over time and the natural rhythms of nature, so this wintering or self-hibernation feels especially nurturing and productive to honor at this time. Remaining inward and partially in retreat, venturing out from time to time, as the bears might, feels healthy and nurturing right now for me.
Their being black also, to me, signifies the shadow aspects and the ultra sacred feminine energy for me to deepen into and integrate further. This includes a connection with the Moon, which I/we just so happen to continue aligning with when we make big moves. The ancients understood the connection of the Moon and the bear, due to their hibernation patterns. It also includes introspection and the subconscious, as well as dreaming and sleep. I’ve not only been sleeping deeply and dreaming profusely and clearly, but I’m seeing the continual layers reveal themselves and with willingness to face these pieces they easily integrate and fuel greater strength and possibilities. Not only may I be understanding parts of myself even better now, and releasing and cleansing out more, but am having a stronger, clearer connection to my deepest passions and the compass directing my heart and soul.
In many ways I am identifying much with black bear at this point in my life, in general, and can see how it may be with me for quite some time.
The black bears just kind of doing their own thing and wandering around me in the dream feels to speak to my own experience and journey toward greater and continual peace, patience, and presence. So, it’s important to be mindful of not turning that into a quest, rather than allowing it to just unfold, as a quest for patience can intensify impatience and provide a block to reaching that goal. True patience waits for it.
And so I embrace the journey.
These were the things I took away in terms of black bear showing up in my dream time and waking life, but here are just a few general additions about bear symbolism that I can also draw from and receive in messages, and perhaps if bear has shown up for you, you will as well.
See how any of these things may apply in your own life.
Bears are solitary creatures, capable of living and thriving alone. They can challenge your feelings, beliefs, and conditioned ideas about being independent or may empower them.
They are not threatening as many movies and ideas would otherwise have you believe. So look at the context in which they show up for you in a dream, meditation, or the way you feel if you see them in person. This will speak to something going on in your life and if you feel threatened or they are attacking, then where are you experiencing this, feeling fear, feeling controlled or overpowered, and not being able to stand your own ground?
Phrases like bearing your soul or being over-bearing may come to mind and you can see how those relate to what would be most supportive for you at this time.
Since many tend to hibernate, look at where you may need to withdraw for a while in your own life, or if it’s time for you to take action and harness your own resourcefulness with intents you’re trying to manifest.
Bears carry both yin and yang energy since they have both hibernation and active periods of life. This is symbolic of your own inner feminine and masculine energies and balancing them in your life. There are times for retreat and nurturing, and there is a timely alignment for action.
Bears symbolize strength, personal and raw power, peace, sovereignty, duality, mother energy, nurturing, courage, fearlessness, teaches us about respect and boundaries, vulnerability and honesty – as bear doesn’t hide intentions, being inward to reflect, being comfortable with yourself and being alone, stillness and meditation, protection, dream time, and vision quests.
If bear shows up for you, pay attention to what your dreams are sharing with you, as messages will be revealed there. Also, be aware of your environment when awake and what is calling to your attention. You have the ability to harness both worlds of inner and outer, since bear represents both in balance.
Bear protects you as you walk through the journey called life and is there to help you connect more deeply with your natural rhythms, as connected and in alignment with the rhythms of nature. You’ll understand where you need to go and the travels ahead on the path, as you acquire the resources along the way that you will need to support you. You’ll also learn how to rest, recharge, and retreat when necessary to conserve your resources and energy for optimal use and action, when called for.
And she encourages you to enjoy the sweetness along the way.
Bear may be sharing that now is the time to unleash the essence of your inner power, along with your gifts and greatest strengths. You have the ability, with patience and nurturing, to confidently move forward with authority in your chosen path, knowing you have everything you need and will be protected always.
The bear may be inviting you to discover the calling within your heart and soul, much as she is doing for me.
These Moments
are everything to me.
So many of the experiences I’ve chosen to follow recently, in response to guidance received, embody all the things I find important in life, teach me those things, and draw forth, as well as deepen them for me.
Of course that’s to go without saying this includes my relationship with my rabbit companions and their presence in my life.
I’ve mentioned before how they consciously assist me on a daily basis, and I them.
Yet, it is in the moments where I sit in silence with them, giving and receiving, that simply are the key to everything for me.
They remind me of who I am and what the core essence of my existence and individual expression are.
Nothing else matters that is going on anywhere and especially not anything that may have been bothering me in any way before that moment.
I know the innocence of my energy. I know the purity of my soul.
And I am no different than the precious being held in my arms.
Those of you with animal loves likely understand what I mean when I say that my rabbits ARE my children. I feel it in every sense, including the physical.
I become one of them and they become me.
I am one of the rabbits in the warren. We are family.
I peer through eyes that feel as if they are looking through a rabbit’s body.
And yet the rabbits also become human.
We morph through the love that disintegrates all veils and perceived boundaries.
There is only the precious experience of the moment shared, as One.
We are stardust.
There are times I hold them individually.
There are times we snuggle as a threesome when they are entwined with each other on the ground and I join them at center.
There are no words.
Just a few nights ago I was holding Cosmo, as I often do. He was laying against my chest. His legs cradled in my arms. His body and front paws pressed against my heart. And his little head flattened to my throat, just under my chin.
We sat in silence, as I gently and tenderly stroked his body and head and he fell asleep, feeling safe and nurtured.
Every now and then he slightly stirred and gently licked my throat and area just below, near my higher heart.
Then he drifted back to sleep again.
This could go on for hours if I let it.
And it’s always the same, although more special each time.
This night I was extra absorbed in this experience and how it felt like I’d returned home with my newborn baby I was cradling in my arms.
I gently rubbed his little feet and he spread his toes from the tickle.
Just as a baby would.
And yet he slept nuzzled in to me.
How blessed am I to be gifted this precious and powerful soul, I thought.
In a body so fragile and delicate, it makes the experience, his love, and trust for me all the more beautiful.
Everything that means anything to me is wrapped up in that moment and this tiny, incredible, and magnificent miracle of All That Is, expressing itself through this being.
When I peer into Cosmo’s eyes I see All That Is peering back at me…I see who this soul really is…I see myself…I understand.
These moments are EVERYTHING to me.
Last Local Workshop Opportunities
We’re now at T-Minus 30 days before we head on out of here and begin our RV adventure on the New Moon of January 10th.
That’s just one month from today’s New Moon, which is a powerful one!
By request, the workshops you’ll find below have now been scheduled and have some space still available.
Unfortunately, my weekends are now completely filled until I leave, which means I can only schedule a workshop on a week day, if you’re flexible and the workshop dates below don’t work for you or are not the workshops you desire.
That said, my weeks are quite full as well, and so I have very limited availability. If you are hoping for a workshop before I leave, please let me know before I’ve capped off my schedule completely.
Also, due to my new location, there is a smaller limit to the amount of students I can accommodate comfortably.
My time here is at closure and it’s wonderful to know that there are so many amazing practitioners and teachers here that I’ve had the pleasure and honor of supporting and seeing them come into their own, as they pursue their chosen paths and continue to cultivate their practices, whether professionally or in their personal lives.
So, if the timing doesn’t work out for catching me before I leave, I have a lot of people I can recommend as a teacher for your Reiki training in the area that match your energy and fit your needs.
I’ll be teaching only by request from now on, while I’m living in the RV, in the areas I travel to, which you can set up if you see me in your area, or you would like to put together a Private Immersive Retreat.
Here are the two scheduled workshops to be taught here in Newport Beach before I leave and how many people I could still potentially welcome at max.
- Sunday, December 27th: Crystal Magick Workshop – depending upon the weather, this workshop may be held outdoors on the beach by the lagoon, as I’m feeling called to combine it in Nature if possible (2 spaces available) – this will be in the wake of Christmas Day’s Full Moon just 2 days after!
- Sunday, January 3rd: Reiki 3 Master Teacher Workshop – (1 space available) – this will be in the build-up to the New Moon of the 10th and kicking off 2016!
Remember that past students are welcome to join for review. So if you want to get a refresher or feel you’ll be teaching soon, this is your chance.
You can contact me here if you have questions or would like to register: Tania Marie
Good Fortune Isn’t Only About Finding The Four Leaf Clover
Image I took on the grounds of Sequoia RV Ranch
Sometimes we spend so much time searching for that four leaf clover that we miss all the magick around us in each of the clover we overlook on our way to trying to find it.
We think that only that one thing will get us what we desire, that we haven’t “arrived” unless we obtain it, and we end up feeling like a failure or overcome with disappointment that we haven’t found the magickal fix.
Every single piece of the journey is integral to your evolution and can each be an amazing gift if you are present enough to receive it.
ALL of the clover in the field have value and hold enrichment for those able to see with their heart.
Don’t put off your life or dreams because you haven’t found the four leaf clover.
There is much to enjoy in each three leaf clover you discover on your path.
Sometimes the four leaf clover is simply a distraction to see who will be easily swayed away from the heart of the matter.
The alchemy is in being able to turn each three leaf clover into a four leaf clover.
That is the true magick and will lead you to experiencing good fortune throughout your life.
Never Underestimate the Power of a Rabbit
And boy do I know the reality of that statement!
Having now had the honor of experiencing three magickal rabbits grace my life (well, four including little Twinkie who was only with me for a Summer when I was 12), I have seen first hand how these amazing beings can touch and change your life.
Not to mention have helped me to do all the things I do with greater power behind it, as together is more powerful than alone.
It’s almost not believable, the way my rabbits communicate with me and the things I’ve seen with my own eyes that were incredible. Nestor was a master Magician and was able to move objects and also relocate herself in her rabbit form.
Everything hugely magickal, including the major shifts into more of my essence and path in life, ALL took place when she arrived and has continued with Joy and Cosmo too. Each of them have infused a different kind of energy into my life and assisted me in opening aspects and depths of myself only they could help reach.
I’m not forgetting you Gaia – you incredible powerhouse! But we know how tortoises and rabbits are connected. 😉
If you remember, while I was in Iceland this past Winter for my birthday, I had a very synchronous and powerful connection happen while watching the Northern Lights.
Actually the lights appeared after I connected in with Nestor to assist in making it possible to see them, which happened directly after. And following that I got back on the bus to return to my apartment and a young woman sitting ahead of me who I didn’t notice before, just so happened to be wearing a sweatshirt that said,
“Never Underestimate the Power of a Woman With a Rabbit”
Needless to say, I now also own and wear my own sweatshirt like this, which I wore nearly every day while writing during my sabbatical.
Somehow, and I can’t remember how, I then got led to this old blog post from 2012 by writer Kimberly A. Cook, at very opportune timing and it unraveled some very cool synchronicities and messages for me. You can imagine my eyes widening just at the title:
Never Underestimate the Power of a Rabbit
And widening more because she linked this statement, which when you read the short little post goes with the statement on my sweatshirt, but I had also recently had synchronous run-ins with Peter Rabbit myself.
Not only had I recently, while on sabbatical, purchased an inexpensive vintage – early 1960’s dress (my now fav) made with 1950’s material that is similar to bark cloth but probably calico cotton (as you see me wearing here), but I had also visited the Sherman Library and Gardens just less than five minutes from where we’re living right now.
Why was that significant?
Well, they just so happened to have a display of original Peter Rabbit items from Beatrix Potter in the Library – actually a whole room of things!
I had never actually seen the 2006 movie, “Miss Potter,” but all of this synchronicity had me watching it during my time off. Again, lots of parallels in there on symbolic levels and stuff that had come through for me recently. (Loved this movie, btw – much fun and inspires the dreamer within)
Then to find Kimberly’s blog.
And, most recently I received a very cool holiday gift package in the mail from my Faery sis, Laura of some magickal things, but what do you know?
It included this amazingly awesome, awesome and enchanted protector statue of Peter Rabbit!
He can either go in the house or in the garden (as he comes with a screw-in metal stake that helps his little buns become securely grounded in ground or pot! Will be great for where ever we’re stationed, to enchant a bubble around our tiny house on wheels, which so happens to be home to two bunnies and also watched out for by Nestor from the other realms.
I love what Laura said to me, “Every home needs a gnome, but the Magick Bus needs a rabbit!”
And so it is that Peter Rabbit seems to be a prominent presence in my life.
It also just so happens that Joy just recently attuned Cosmo to Reiki Master Teacher and the three of them (Joy, Cosmo, and Nestor all worked together in helping another dog in need). So I now have three magick bunny Reiki Master Teachers aiding mom.
I guess I need to change my sweatshirt to read,
“Never Underestimate the Power of a Woman With Three Magick Rabbits”
There’s a lot of bunny magick going around, helping mom with her projects and the things I’ve been working on manifesting.
I can’t tell you the difference it makes when we are working together and how literally Joy and Cosmo will tune in and come near me when I’m working on the things dearest to my heart.
They’ve been amazing at helping to channel my book as well and truly get excited to be a part of the process, which I always make sure to invite them into and prepare them to know I’ll be working on things soon, so get ready for fun time!
I merely allow what wants through and they are assisting the message.
I’ll share more about my projects and a potential long-term idea that has come into my field during my sabbatical, as they come together more.
For now, I’m enjoying having something that is just “my baby,” as I share so much of my life publicly, and incubating it all with these magickal beings.
But what I can say is that Kimberly is right.
Indeed a little rabbit CAN change the world!
Well, at least that’s so in my world x 3!
Partnering With Me To Optimize Your Life ~ December Session Specials
For the month of December don’t forget that anyone who schedules either a Five-Week Intensive of Intuitive Energy Guidance Sessions or a Clarity & Guidance Package of sessions you will receive a complimentary 1/2 hour session you can either use for yourself or gift to someone else (worth $111 or $94 depending on which package you choose).
And just added, the next person who schedules a Five-Week Intensive will also receive the 20″ x 20″ with 2″ border set of prints from my In Lak’ech series, I was offering in the Holiday Crazy Blow-Out Art Sale (the only pieces remaining). This includes Earth, Water, and Air! (Originally valued at $199 each)
Both of these Guidance session options, as I prefer to call them (others may refer to them as Coaching sessions) include unlimited email support during our time together.
All sessions and packages that I offer are available as gift certificates to others as well.
Details can be find here about how these can assist you with your life:
Intuitive Energy Guidance/Coaching
And here I am sharing about these from a more personal level, so you can get a feel for me better and how I work with each individual. I thought this especially helpful for those of you who haven’t worked with me or don’t know me and are thinking about exploring this kind of partnership:
The spiritually guided process that I provide in partnership with each individual helps to unlock and ignite your own personal empowerment for conscious integration, and a return to the creative power and essence of who you really are.
If you’re interested in making big shifts and are tired of getting in your own way, you can contact me to see how I may be of assistance with any of your needs at this time.
After working with people over the years, I’ve come to know my strengths and gifts and how they are best optimized to reflect for others their own.
If you have any questions and would like to explore the potential of this partnering process with me, you can contact me here: Tania Marie
E.T. Kitties
Just for fun I’m sharing this, as I thought it was pretty funny.
We’ve been doing upgrades in the RV and the latest project was refinishing sinks and shower, which has been a juggling process of things – finally done today, thank goodness! Yay!
Anyway, while the kitchen sink is finishing I have a bunch of things from the counter and under the sink on the couch, one of which is the dish rack with a towel in it.
It took them a couple of days to discover this, but when the kitties (Boojum and Sweet Pea) finally did, they of course made themselves at home in the dish rack, one by one.
They were so cute that I couldn’t help by snap a photo of them each.
It was in the evening and night so I had to use a flash.
When each of them turned to me, their big eyes of course caught the light of the flash, but I’ve been giggling at how each of them, although both having yellow eyes, ended up emanating a different color from their eyes from the flash, which usually creates red.
They look like little E.T. kitties!! lol!! lol!!!
Hope you enjoy their E.T. photos and their kitties-in-disguise photos.