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A New Moon & A New You
With today’s New Moon in Capricorn – the last of the year before we welcome in 2017 – I wanted to pause a moment to share how so much has shifted this year for me in terms of the structures and “routines” of my life, which Capricorn energy focuses much upon. While the energies abound also place focus on a time of review, rest, and nurturing of your own inner needs, Capricorn will assist with how to harness these in a responsibly resonant way that reflects who you are and the path of intents you are activating in your life.
This will involve honestly looking at the intricate details of how you’ve been living your life, how you go about your daily processes, your approach to life, and the amount of energy and time you extend to all things including, but most importantly – you.
Who are you?
Are you embodying the “you” you were born to be and share with the collective?
Do you relish in being yourself?
What are you doing to empower yourself and the gifts you were born to cultivate?
Are you ready to unleash your natural talents and release the limiting inhibitions, old patterns, and fears of increasing the magnitude of energy you came here to shine?
Are you willing to reclaim your origins of purity that naturally align you in harmony?
It’s time to hit the reset button, if you haven’t already, to revitalize your experience of life, restore your faith and trust in why you are here and how who you are can make a difference, and it’s an opportune time to do all things self-nurturing and supportive of regeneration and recreation of your life lived most authentically.
All this to mirror Nature with your own innate ability to renew through the cycles of life.
I know this year of 2016 was a challenging one for many and while I didn’t experience it in that way, I did learn what was important and vital to my own “nature” and have been implementing that more than ever.
Although I did see my two bunny loves transition and went through my own literal and profound death experience (allowing purification and a new “more me” to be reborn and step into my body while the old me was released) this year (the things that contributed to the collective #9 year of closure), I was able to maintain my vibration through it all and that came with my commitment to nurturing myself, flowing with the energies and inevitable transmutation that was necessary, listening to my needs, reclaiming parts of me, spending tons of time in Nature, balancing and softening my life, and returning to who I really am.
So, my experience of 2016 was cathartic and deeply nourishing and revitalizing, whereas I could have experienced it in a traumatic way.
And a lot of this, as mentioned, has been in realizing, embracing, and putting into motion the need for self nurturing and retrieving back my power in a personally empowering way that ultimately allows me to be more of a responsible contributor to the collective.
I’ve never nurtured myself and honored my energy as much as I have this year and this has continued to increase.
I saw so many things I desired personally and wanted to heal within myself, truly anchor.
I saw the anxiety and fixations on things disintegrate completely.
And life has become soft, flowing, responsive, and increasingly harmonized. It’s truly something I awe at when I really look at the changes that have taken place over the course of my life and how I feel now versus before. It gets me emotional to realize the difference I feel in comparison to the life I was once living.
And I have seen that when I honor these things within myself that the Universe/All That Is has been conspiring to support it all even more.
This especially so with the self nurturing, as my life has become surrounded with tangible and non-tangible forms of everything nourishing to my mind, body, heart, and soul.
I’ve shifted the way I approach everything I do and have shifted the anxious over-achiever-me into the peacefully flowing, confident, and anchored co-creator.
Even the place we live in currently is such a dream and has everything I could want to support this new cycle in my life to ensure well being and cultivation of what I’m birthing.
From a dream view in a sacred place that I love, which I face daily, a jacuzzi with light therapy and sauna to provide relaxation and purification, a biomat to nourish deeply, and Christmas gifts from my family and ourselves of a shiatsu foot massage with heat I use on my Pisces feet daily, a flameless candle fountain with flowing water energy, LED wax candles that can remotely be programmed for color therapy, daily nature immersions, creative time spent making delicious, healthy, and comforting foods, surrounding myself with reflections of my heart, having the ability to focus on my passions and doing what I love, blessed with incredible friends, family, and spirit guidance….I’m feeling like I live in a dream and day spa round the clock and almost have to pinch myself that this is the experience I manifested through a life of dedication, despite discouraging years of challenge.
To say I’m grateful is a HUGE understatement.
And that goes along with truly being grateful to myself for hanging in there, continuing to forge ahead, and never giving up.
I tormented for so many years in my teens, early twenties, and thirties with why life had been so hard and wondering if ever I would experience what I envisioned possible in feeling.
And it wasn’t until I started integrating all aspects of my life and bringing physical and spiritual together in a sensual merging and honoring of the gift, beauty, and meaning of both being of stardust and living as a human, that life has emerged as such.
Now I’m truly seeing that the hope I held onto was not in vain.
And this is only the beginning…for me, for you, for us all.
I know this year was very hard for everyone and still may feel challenged, but I’ve also seen and heard of so many seeing the cycles of change through and coming out the other side with renewed zest for life and new beginnings emerging from seeing their dreams begin to manifest, realizing what they’ve accomplished, getting clarity on their path and direction in life, new more aligned dream jobs manifesting, engagements, marriages, pregnancies, births, moves to heart home places, dream travels actualized, new life adventures begun (several people jumped in rv’s this year too)….and more.
The end of one era and walking through the door of a new one.
And through it all it’s key to take care of you, as that will ensure all that you desire to do “out there”.
I realize the importance of taking care of me and it’s provided me so much more to give out to others without ever feeling depleted anymore and I’ve learned the most supportive way to be on path for me that will continue to honor myself and others simultaneously.
And this will include continuous self nurturing, reviewing my life to make any necessary adjustments that optimize things, continuing to strengthen my boundaries, creating intents and goals that keep me on point and utilizing more and more productive use of what I have available.
Capricorn energy is a guiding force in my life with it as my ascendant, North Node, and having Mars propelling it in my first house, and it wasn’t until recently that I’ve understood how to harness this energy.
I can only imagine what might be with continued cultivation and paying attention to the responsive integration of its energy in my life.
This New Moon highlights Capricorn essence for us all…and while this may be a cycle currently we’re moving through that can propel you when you harness what it is showing you in your life, I believe that working with all of the signs and energies in their most productive forms, throughout the year, will support us into living as the wholeness we are.
Last Night’s Moon
Last night’s Full Supermoon in Gemini felt super potent…potent enough it woke me several times and I experienced Root Chakra integrative activations that kept me up for a bit with that shifting occurring at my tailbone. I worked with my black Tourmaline – an excellent partner for this and one of the power stones to support this Chakra – which did its magick. And although I was awake in intervals last night, I still woke up earlier than usual at 5:30 am feeling fully rested and amped up to go.
I watched the Moon for a bit during the night, as the whole room was illuminated by Her light since we have windows all around that we keep open since we are so high up.
She appeared both clear in the sky and then surrounded by clouds making Her appear like a blossoming eye peering through the veils.
Since I was up I decided to step out for a moment in the very chilly night air and at one time my camera capturing the Moon appearing to layer Herself with a smaller Moon in the background and larger in the foreground shooting off beams as if She was flying toward me on wings of light. Gemini twin energy in action?
As mentioned, I was wide awake very early at 5:30 am, feeling totally energized and the Moon remained present until 7:30 am just out front of our deck.
I find it interesting synchronicity that I’d been focused on the Moon energy and originations the last two days with my writing, which spread itself out in intervals all on its own and that portion completing on the day of the Full Moon.
I don’t plan these things, but sure do enjoy observing and then connecting the dots of how divine guidance plays out when we flow with what inspiration moves through us.
Needless to say, it felt like a lot of things shifted last night and I’m wondering if others felt it too?
Filters, Perspectives, Boundaries & Discernment
The title of this post I believe speaks for itself, not to mention I feel these are essential for optimal functioning and well-being, but let’s look briefly at these themes in relation to the scope of the environment within our energetic and literal fields of experience.
We have an overload of stimulation coming at us from every angle and this increases with the rise of technology, which has seen more accelerated change in the last century than any previous time period.
And to add to that, we have collective patterns, dynamics, emotional baggage and turmoil, and conditioning deep within our DNA all swirling around in heightened levels of surfacing awareness or manifested triggers.
To top things off, we’re experiencing a spiritual evolution that brings rise to it all in the midst of the every day hurdles, life basics, and dream weaving we all manage and work at bringing forth.
Phew! That’s a lot!
And if you have your own personal manifestations of challenges on any or all levels – physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually – that you struggle to work through, it’s overwhelming to say the least.
It’s no wonder anxiety, stress, depression, and violence are at all-time highs.
We are thrown every kind of pill, therapy, and more mind chatter and visual eye-candy to cope, suppress, deal with, and overload us with.
But there is little to no teaching of how to redefine our relationship to it all, how to strengthen our abilities to overcome things, and how to harness the capabilities we have, but hardly use or ever tap into.
This post isn’t to address how to correct all of these challenges we experience, as there are many ways, modalities, and supportive channels out there that can help you do that, plus would constitute a VERY long blog. I will, however, share a previous blog post below that touches on boundaries some more for those interested.
What I want to just generally focus on is how important I’ve been seeing the themes of learning how to strengthen our abilities to filter out things, see/feel/experience from more expansive compassionate perspectives, strengthen our boundaries, and exercise personal discernment – just as is the title of this post – truly are.
It can help you to navigate the craziness and this wild world of multi-everything we live in.
While removing ourselves from things can help us to do the inner work and rebalance, and recharge, not to mention help you remain in your own field of reality creating and vibrational resonance, there will come a time when you’ll need to re-enter the world and so having ways to maneuver and process what you experience becomes key.
Besides, we are here to integrate physical and spiritual and bring our gifts into active manifestation. So learning ways to support this process, rather than run to one side or the other, might just be important in that evolution.
As the real proof of the work we’ve done in our private life will show when we do actually get confronted with the external world.
Does that peace translate no matter where you are?
Or does the chaos take over and easily skew you out of balance once again and run your show rather than you being the master of your experiences?
Having tools you can pull from to regain that balance will definitely assist, but also really cultivating your process and trying it out in the world and within your relationships to everyone and everything around you, will help you to become masterful at working alchemy instantly, or at least rather quickly.
It takes time, but step-by-step the process becomes much easier, fluid, rapid, and natural.
And this includes training yourself to embrace ways of experiencing things differently than you’ve been accustomed and conditioned to.
And when you do, you’ll learn that there are gifts within all of the experiences around us that new eyes, stronger sense of self, energetic boundaries, and discernment can assist with.
You begin to naturally gravitate to things that match your stronger and clearer vibration, you filter things naturally and easily without charge, you see the things that are different or used to trigger you as having their own purpose but not bothering you or creating judgments and drains on your energy, you feel more peaceful about things being in divine order that don’t need your ego to define them, you create a strong force field cultivated by your greater creative presence and personal power, and your personal discernment navigates you through and on a much clearer course with lots of hidden gifts along the way to integrate rather than eradicate.
I wrote a couple of comments in reply to a friend on my earlier blog on Bilateral Engaging for Brain Expansion which shared a bit about one way I’ve been cultivating boundaries and more parts of my brain to engage fully, which included these:
“Yes, music/sound is very beneficial to the creative, healing, balancing processes…I can get overstimulated too, and am very sensitive, but I’ve learned to utilize these sensitivities to harness my gifts, rather than take away from them. Kind of like finding your peace within chaos, which comes from within. This process may not be the same for everyone. and there are times I prefer complete silence…I guess my main point of the blog was to say that it’s been like a retraining to experience these otherwise perhaps distracting things to utilize all of me and to actually strengthen parts/gifts, use more of the huge percentage of the brain we don’t, exercise boundaries, which are crucial, support each part’s strengths, and more tangibly access that middle way/void area where the alchemy and magick can take place.”
“I struggled hugely with boundaries all my life, and being a Pisces…that’s a huge challenge as we have absolutely none. It wasn’t until the last 2 or 3 years that I’ve really understood how to manage this and continue to cultivate it in stronger ways…It’s an ever-evolving journey, but has made all the difference. I think many healers/empaths/sensitives struggle with boundaries and it’s become a huge theme at the forefront of our journeys into the next phase of our lives.”
And here’s another blog post I shared on boundaries, if you’re particularly in need or interested in that theme that is clearly surfacing collectively:
Bilateral Engaging for Brain Expansion
I shared about this on Facebook and received feedback that there were a few others out there who experience similar to this. I think like with most things, people don’t talk about the unusual parts of their experiences or may be afraid to share that they have qualities and gifts that others might judge them for or think they’re crazy because of it. And that is EXACTLY why I share so much of my experiences, bringing the hidden to the surface, so that others might find that connective and comforting thread to their own experiences and not feel alone.
That said, this is my share that isn’t a new observation for me, but that keeps receiving confirmation and providing affirmation of the results I experience from it.
Over the course of time and more so lately with my writing focus, I’ve seen how I actually write better and receive clearer more fluid inspiration channels when I listen to music through earphones with the volume quite loud – not just having music playing in the background.
Of course it has to be a certain kind of music that I resonate with in terms of listening to it with earphones on, but I find my flow better that way than just playing it as mood music somewhere off in the distance. Feeling the energy penetrate to my cells is activating, but there are other aspects to this I want to address.
I’ve found that my innate bilateral abilities function at heightened levels that way too.
I’ve discovered this with many things and rather than having complete silence and unilateral focus, having more going on around me seems to engage my whole brain, resulting in optimal functioning.
Having other noises/things going on occupies and engages that part of the left brain that works at filtering it out so it stays engaged elsewhere, instead of thinking about how to control things or how things should be in the moment of channeling.
In the case of music I love, it engages (not filters) other parts of the brain that might interfere by harmonizing with it (sometimes even having me sing/sound at the same time I’m auto-writing) or moving my body (like dancing with it from seated position) so that I can allow the true essence to come forth unobstructed, yet enhanced by the sound resonance that works at cellular levels.
But, I’ve also found this to work when someone else is playing music around me that I don’t like, or if they’re on the phone, talking, listening to podcasts or watching movies….anything I’m not interested in or don’t want to hear…In these cases it’s the engagement of creating boundaries by the brain that helps.
There’s definitely an enhancement quality about music I love on my writing, but I think the main thing I’m seeing is about engaging all parts of my brain in varying ways, which allows this void space for uninterrupted clarity to be received.
It also places that part of the left brain on autopilot so that it stays focused with a task while also bringing through/supporting what the right brain is musing by engaging my fingers to type what that is, out.
Manifesting the inspiration.
This feels reflective of putting divine masculine and feminine parts of me/my brain into their perfect partnership roles.
And, this then becomes more like breathing where you don’t consciously think about, but it just still happens – natural!
And lastly, then the part of my right brain that is channeling and imagining can then do its thing without interference, yet is fully and freely supported/nurtured into its fullness in that process.
I feel that this level of engaging, while might seem overstimulating and confusing for some, is actually a way to nourish my brain cells and use more of it that is available, while also expanding its abilities.
Incredible stuff!
The miracle of human BEING and the accelerated integration process of dimensional shifts we’re embodying more of.
Do any of you out there also experience this or similar?
Authentic Spirituality
What feelings does this bring up when you surrender into the depth of its meaning?
“True spirituality is not a high, not a rush, not an altered state. It has been fine to romance it for a while, but our times call for something far more real, grounded, and responsible; something radically alive and naturally integral; something that shakes us to our very core until we stop treating spiritual deepening as something to dabble in here and there.
Authentic spirituality is not some little flicker or buzz of knowingness, not a psychedelic blast-through or a mellow hanging-out on some exalted plane of consciousness, not a bubble of immunity, but a vast fire of liberation, an exquisitely fitting crucible and sanctuary, providing both heat and light for the healing and awakening we need.
Most of the time when we’re immersed in spiritual bypassing, we like the light but not the heat. And when we’re caught up in the grosser forms of spiritual bypassing, we’d usually much rather theorize about the frontiers of consciousness than actually go there, suppressing the fire rather than breathing it even more alive, espousing the ideal of unconditional love but not permitting love to show up in its more challenging, personal dimensions.
To do so would be too hot, too scary, and too out-of-control, bringing things to the surface that we have long disowned or suppressed. But if we really want the light, we cannot afford to flee the heat. As Victor Frankl said, “What gives light must endure burning.” And being with the fire’s heat doesn’t just mean sitting with the difficult stuff in meditation, but also going into it, trekking to its core, facing and entering and getting intimate with whatever is there, however scary or traumatic or sad or raw.”
~Robert Augustus Masters
I’ve shared this quote before, but I feel it’s worth a reshare.
Where We’ve Been ~ Things We’ve Seen: Mirroring the Merging Within Myself
Since I’m not posting on any regular basis anymore, I’ll do my best to share some of the highlights of where we’ve been, the energy shifts that have taken place, and any insights or inspirations that have occurred, as it’s always powerful to share reflections for one another so we can find those connective threads and take this wild ride together.
Amidst this time period we’ve also had some powerful energies that have been either challenging or supportive depending upon the individual journey, but always rich with potential. This has included a very potent Full Moon in a sign I love because it feels very native to me with having my Moon in Sagittarius.
This Full Moon in Sagittarius helps illuminate a deeper desire for embodying purity of heart, unveils with greater clarity, reveals more truth, and urges us on to experience more freedom and balance in our lives.
This has been taking place during the slow down of the retrograde that asks of us to embrace what is before us and shift our perspectives so that all of this can increasingly take root.
That’s exactly what my own experience has been like…a lot of slowing down and clearing while listening to the truth within that reveals to me what is most important and aligned to be doing and how to integrate what comes up to experience a natural freedom and expansion into essence.
We continue to explore some incredible and diverse areas, mirroring the inner landscape of incredible and diverse processes, each so uniquely beautiful and deeply rich with gifts.
Since I last left you we’ve continued our Colorado journey and have been to Montrose where we explored the magick and contrast of light and shadow energies at Black Canyon of the Gunnison National Park. Here I discovered the crystalline rich environment, as every step was filled with sparkly rocks and raw crystals, we were surrounded by frolicking rabbits, ventured into very Faery realms, integrated the value of nature’s cycles of life and death, were in awe by the vertical temple-like walls of this dark canyon – truly my favorite canyon so far, as it was a meeting of light and dark in its finest and so elevating through its shadowy realm of great mystery, and came to greater peace along the river bed where stillness was loudly resounding. The canyon has marbled walls too and its very own dragon naturally painted into its essence. We hiked and biked daily, and even had some fun playing mini golf at our RV park.
Then we were off to the Villa Grove area where we renewed ourselves in the mineral hot springs of Valley View Hot Springs. This is an incredible non-profit owned by the Orient Land Trust that allows you to fully immerse in nature – clothing optional – and discover this rustic diverse and peaceful ecosystem that is like you’re in your own world away from it all. Here we explored the wilderness trails that lead through an old mining town with ruins and artifacts all along the way, as well as take you to the mouths of the mines and one that is a bat cave now where 250,000 male bats migrate to each year. There’s even a raptor preserve to explore. We spent evenings from sunset to starlit night soaking in the natural and pure hot spring ponds, geothermally and hydroectrically heated hot tubs, and enjoyed the sauna, which has its own spring inside to cool off in. My favorite part was right as the sun set each evening and the fireflies would come out at our favorite pond just around the edge of it along the rocks and in the green brush. It was the most magickal thing ever. Faery enchantment indeed within the silence and purifying into essence. We floated in silence, eyes closed, and senses alive, just being. Our site sat atop the hill overlooking the expansive valley and deer would surround the land around us and join us on hikes.
While staying at Valley View Hot Springs we had the opportunity to visit Crestone at the base of the Sangre de Cristo Mountains, which is known as the Shambala of the Rockies and a vortex area of Colorado. It’s a very mystical spiritual center that draws in people on spiritual pilgrimages, as it is home to dozens of spiritual organizations and retreat centers. I’d actually not heard of it until a dear friend of mine told me about it – things show up when the timing is right – and so we decided to explore it for a day. For whatever reason, the day we went it was almost like a ghost town…only one restaurant was open and operating, and it was quiet, which added to feeling like we were in another reality and dimension all of our own. I’d looked into a couple of places to explore, calling around as well, which led us through the town following hand written directions I’d been given. We passed interesting dwellings, some with giant crystals and sacred gardens out front, and came to a spiritual center with labyrinth to walk. Then we went up the mountain to one of the Tibetan Buddhist retreat centers – Karma Thegsum Tashi Gomang, which is the highest end point of centers you’ll pass along the drive up. One after another Tibetan flags will lead the way and you discover these hidden centers nestled in the Sangre de Cristo Mountains. Karma Thegsum Tashi Gomang has a Stupa sitting atop the hill overlooking the valley. We spent time there and walked around it ten times, silently chanting a mantra over and over and being in pure openness, then sat on a bench in front of it setting new intentions. The day was a very odd day with many odd happenings, which added to feeling “in the vortex” and we felt we’d received exactly what was needed in the time spent there and once we were done at the Stupa it began to rain, cleansing and refreshing into the newness as we headed back to our mineral springs home to soak in and integrate the magick.
And lastly, we’ve been in Mosca where we’ve been exploring the Great Sand Dunes National Park. We hiked through Mosca Pass Trail along the creek where butterflies kept dancing around me (disappearing when anyone would approach) and I even discovered a pair mating on the path before me – very potent medicine all around!), along with the most luminous cosmically ethereal cactus blossoms that completely mesmerized me. We also enjoyed the nature trails and many deer once again. Hiked to the enchanting Zapata Falls where we had to balance across rocks in the creek and make our way into the cavern to experience the rushing fresh water alongside icy falls. And climbed over 700 feet of sand dunes receiving a natural exfoliation from the high winds and playing in the dunes racing down them, or in Dave’s case, jumping like a little antelope, throwing himself, and rolling down them. I saw several Peregrine Falcons, one of which came swooping low above me screeching good morning, as I stepped out of the RV – a powerful way to greet the day!
We just arrived in our new home of Pueblo yesterday, where we’ll be just for a few days, and upon arrival went out to visit the incredible and impressive Bishop Castle, which I definitely recommend reading about here, as it’s truly quite a story: Bishop Castle. Love the dream he had and saw through, however the heights and wild stairs, along with the bridges of iron at crazy heights (I think the equivalent of 16 stories) and iron, see-through platform walks around the outside really had me on edge while walking and exploring it. We also hiked part of St. Charles Trail along a creek about 3 miles from the castle and walked Lake Isabel to explore our new surroundings. A welcome visit by a Bald Eagle circling the lake ended our day beautifully.
The experiences are constantly shifting and drastically different from moment to moment. This includes the weather shifts we experience and the last few days have included crazy – and I mean CRAZY – winds that pick up as the evening and night approaches. They were so wild (feeling like 50 mph) it shook our RV like an earthquake and when out in the day in the sand dunes, you’d be covered in sand – my back and back of my calves would feel like they were getting a combo of aggressive acupuncture and deep pebble massage. Lol!
So far, this morning they have ceased.
But I will say, the gritty, Earthiness of it all was very grounding and supported that body consciousness of really being “in-body” while experiencing the raw beauty of the physical.
And the wild winds definitely felt like another sweeping away of more layers into the new after all of the shadow processing, cleansing, and renewal.
It’s a continual journey that mirrors the cycles of Nature and consistently offers new potentials and horizons to explore with every door closed and opened.
During this time I’ve pulled more within, as you know, which has been interesting to see how that reflects.
I’ve received a number of requests recently for some of the services I used to offer like sacred tattoo designs and teaching Reiki, but once again it’s been a mirror of how much I’ve been transforming, as we always call up the things we leave behind, which indicates we are rooting in the new.
It has also been a good gauge of seeing how I feel and respond, as at first it was more challenging internally when you are first letting go of things, to say no and honor what is important for you. Whereas I now see and experience it as a natural process and that is quite empowering, as well as indicative of the changes I’ve integrated. It’s also pretty big stuff for a boundless Pisces to feel at home doing.
I’ve also gotten back to my writing, which has been awesome, to say the least. It’s amazing how good you feel when you’re in your zone and aligning with the energy currently moving through you. Immersing in my creative world is so deeply satisfying and I’m back to having my writing be an extension of me always, as even while I’m hiking I’m receiving inspiration and writing, and when we drive somewhere I’m writing notes in pen on the palms of my hand so I don’t forget. 🙂
And I love how it’s opened my next project, which is an off shoot of it, so that I’m now actively creating two things simultaneously in the process of immersing in one and it’s happened naturally without making it so.
I love that.
There’s no need to manipulate, force, worry about when and how things will happen. When embracing the current energy stream moving through, it just all unfolds seamlessly. And that was interesting to experience happening, as I did actually wonder how it would.
I got my answer in the doing and allowing myself to surrender into what was just here right now.
The more I experience on this journey, the more I can feel and actually see myself transforming.
It shows up in photos taken. It shows up in the experiences reflected.
Violet light has been around and the light within me seems to be emanating more.
There’s been such a great celebration and relief in surrendering into the nature of me.
Feeling so comfortable in my skin and body, in general and with just how it is at all times.
And loving all processes of aging gracefully, as I watch my dear rabbit loves doing so.
I feel like we’re partnering in that dance together and they have affirmed to me and mirrored what a natural and wonderful experience it can be, despite some of the things or challenges that it also brings along, as they teach us of the gift within it all.
I’ve been feeling the mystic quality and peace of settling into ancient me.
So while I’m more alive than ever, feeling the glow, and in more of my childlike wonder and innocence, I’m simultaneously integrating that with embrace of the beauty and life force within my totality of experience as a soul.
This goes back to my loving dichotomies and feeling like a walking dichotomy, which to me is about walking the middle path of duality and understanding the power of that integration….being both maiden and crone at once.
So things like seeing so many silvers emerging on my crown – which is opening so much more these days – feels so beautiful, mirroring of the shifts, and as if I’m lightening into grace and it’s reflecting that lifting of veils and blossoming into a purity of experience beyond definition.
And this makes me happy…and settling into that embodiment feels divine – without personal need to have it be anything different or try to change it, which would feel like a judgment about my unique expression and soul signature at this point in my life.
I love the child me that is playful and easily awed.
I love the ancient me that journeys and visions within the sage caves of eternity.
And they live and emanate in purity, grace, and harmony together within and without.
Earth and Cosmos has never felt more as One.
Merging the Sands of Time ~ Sand Canyon Pueblo
Haunting peace was carried on the wind.
It danced around and within me and floated across the ancient city.
A lone and unknown bird call echoed through the Juniper forest, as watchful eyes pierced my soul from every direction.
I wrapped my knit hood close, keeping the rain-chilled air that dropped 20 degrees within minutes from stinging my neck and ears.
Walking the path that followed the outside wall, which enclosed this vast village, I scanned the now rubble where once stood one of the largest Anasazi settlements within the region.
A village over 800 years old of 420 rooms, 100 kivas, and 14 towers surrounded me and time was bridged between then – the 1200’s – and now, as we became One.
At the Great Kiva I sat to connect, honor, and receive.
Wolf appeared within the fire-lit darkness, becoming the powerful man before me.
Brown skinned, black haired, bright eyed and clad in fur and talismans, Wolf hooded the head of this impressive figure of powerful, primal medicine.
I was privy to this sacred ceremony where the veils of time once again came down and his dance was for me.
A long dark furred cape was offered to me and wrapped around my soul.
I was cloaked in darkness that revealed the true light within.
Visions of pottery pieces flashed in my mind that I was told I would find.
I emerged with direction that led to painted green, white, and fingerprint-etched finds of my clan.
Pieces of my soul once again retrieved within the impressive four-acre ancient city of the 164,000 acres within Canyons of the Ancients.
Deeper embodiment of my thread is enriched with each woven filament that binds me within the collective tapestry.
Sands of time had merged at the neck of the hourglass where the point of power IS.
Canyons of the Ancients
There was something powerfully activated yesterday from our intuitive and rewarding exploration of another incredible area – Canyons of the Ancients National Monument – so much so that the top of my crown chakra felt like it was splitting open. This area is like an “outdoor museum”, but also like a treasure hunt, as most of the archaeological sites are not apparent to the untrained eye and precise locations aren’t publicized.
Canyons of the Ancients contains more than 6000 Anasazi – Ancestral Puebloan and other Native American cultures – archaeological sites and in some place, up to 100 per square mile.
They recommend stopping first at the Anasazi Heritage Center before beginning your exploration, to get maps, guidebooks, orientation, etc., as although the Monument is open to explore on foot, there are few and limited marked foot trails and no indication of where things are or what to look for.
When you arrive there is just a small sign that says Canyons of the Ancients and has a general trail map of the area to choose from.
As I said, we decided to just explore without info and let ourselves be guided. We had a window of about 2 hours, so we also wanted to maximize that.
It proved very rewarding, as the trail routes we took, our spidey senses, and knowing what to look for, since we’ve been exploring so many ruins already, led us to find quite a few sites.
It’s a really remarkable area and less traveled, as we found only about 4 cars parked at the main trailhead, but only came across a guide and one person with him on mules and two mountain bikers, briefly at onset and end.
The rest of the time we were completely on our own in this vast sacred area walking in the ancient footsteps of these people and exploring their dwellings and temples.
I decided to stay more grounded and let Dave do the climbing and upper explorations, while I scanned the cliffs for more sites and directed him to things I could see to go check out from his higher ground.
We found cliff dwellings, what appeared to be walls of surface dwellings on the tops of the rocks, and temple sites.
We also found the perimeter walls of lower dwellings on the ground below the cliff dwellings.
This seemed to be quite the location for so many communities, one after another.
While Dave would climb up, I’d explore below and many lizards came to greet me.
We also had a raven flying into the large cliff dwelling we found, as we were leaving it, and when we came to this most intact dwelling, hummingbird appeared.
I heard a very loud buzzing and felt chills of energy around me, realizing then there was a hummingbird buzzing above my head and circling me.
Then it flew off in the direction of the cliff dwelling.
Right after exploring, we stopped on a nearby rock under the shade of a tree with view of that site, to drink some water and have a snack and two hummingbirds found us. They came buzzing again around us and landing in the tree’s branches above us. They were very intent on finding us and making sure we knew they were there.
The ancient ones were definitely welcoming us. It reminded me of when we were in Peru and arriving at the Sun Temple when a hummingbird appeared to welcome us.
Can you find me in this panoramic shot on the right looking out at the cliff dwelling ruins lining the inside and tops of the cliffs at center?
We really enjoyed our intuitive expedition, not knowing what to expect or what we’d find, but it was perfect. And being that we but scratched the surface of all that is there, we feel we will likely return in the days remaining.
The next time we’ll stop at the Anasazi Heritage Center first since we’ll have more time and it is Southwest Colorado’s premier archaeological museum of the Anasazi and has a ton of things to see and learn about, as well as will provide information on more things we may want to explore at Canyons of the Ancients.
If you have the time and can do both exploration on your own and go to the Center, I’d recommend doing so, as it will give your intuition, presence, and observational skills a good exercise before getting info. My guess is you’ll still be using some tracking and other skills even with info, as nothing is marked except the main trail heads.
As I mentioned at the start, something took place, as when we arrived back home the very top center of my crown chakra started aching.
I don’t get migraines and rarely ever get head aches…usually it’s an energy thing if I feel something.
But OMGoodness did my head hurt and would worsen no matter what I did. I even laid down for a bit and it just increased. I drank water to make sure I was hydrated and it increased. It was literally like my head was being knocked open with a sledge hammer right at center.
I tried Reiki and it increased.
Dave was sitting outside reading and I went to sit with him and told him that I felt like something was happening from the energies. My crown was expanding, shifting, and/or opening.
I told him that I was feeling a shift literally inside tear me open and it was making me very emotional and wanting to cry – and did – and it was not due to the pain, but an activation.
He asked if I wanted him to do Reiki on my crown and I said yes, so he did, as I closed my eyes and tears ran down my face and my legs started shaking, which happens – the shaking that is – when I’m going through something like a kundalini experience, but for me this energy is coming down through the crown now and not up – mirroring what the channeler/reader in Sedona has told me the last two times I visited him there that this would be my new experience from now on of things channeling down through me, not up.
And while I sat there in pain, tears of opening, and shaking in my legs, we heard what sounded like owl hoots in the tree in front of us and I caught glimpse of a bird moving on the branches…then two.
They sounded just like an owl, but as they moved more I saw that they were Mourning Doves cooing in a way that sounded incredibly like hoots.
Their presence seemed symbolic bringing the deepest kind of peace, promise, and purification.
Mourning Doves help us to release any deep traumas stored in the cellular memory, which can be assisted by sound channeling through your voice and body. In this way they are also helping to clear and cleanse so that renewal can take place.
Their melancholy coos remind me of Celtic keening and similar to the sound healing and mourning I shared in my video.
They are also connected to the transitional times of the day’s cycle, as in morning and night – we heard them at nearly 8pm – times when veils between physical and spiritual worlds become thinner. And so they are messengers from other worlds and can help to reveal the hidden energies and provide calming peace and hope with the process.
They seemed to be, for me, helping me to peacefully embrace this shift taking place and to “be” with the growing pains and opening, breathing into them rather than allowing the emotional cleansing to cause anxiety in any way, as it felt at first to be cropping up as, along with frustration and more.
After seeing them, Dave giving me Reiki, and brushing my tears from my cheeks I felt a lot better, but it was first by going through a process of it increasingly getting worse – my crown hurt SO much.
I was then able to go back inside and shower, as well as bathe Cosmo and with the physical cleansing things continued to balance out.
I knew another big change was upon me and I’d be implementing some more major decisions that feel necessary at this time in my life – crucial and timely.
I’m sitting with it for now, but will share more when it settles completely in body.
(Also feeling significant to add, today 5/5, would have been Gaia (my Russian Tortoise’s) 13th birthday and it was also the day that Nestor’s ashes came home to me)
Multidimensional Recalibration ~ Energy Update with Lee Harris
Lee shares a short update on the energetic scene and some quick tips and questions to explore.
Again, remember, this doesn’t have to be any doom or gloom thing, as you can harness these energies in potent ways.
I do agree, and have for some time, on what Lee shares about our moving down (and need to), rather than up, for deep physical and emotional integration.
And I have definitely been out there connecting with Earth, Nature, ancient energies, deep DNA patterning, retrieving parts of myself, and engaged in physical exercise via hiking, climbing, biking, etc. on a consistent, daily basis without fail.
It’s really important to “embody”. I know I mention that word a lot, but it’s because it’s key.
In the video Lee mentions Dana’s energy update on the five retrograde planets, so I’m including the link here for you to check out, as it may answer a lot of things for you.
Dana Mrkich’s energy update: Five Planets Retrograde ~ Time to Clean House and Power Up
The Great Romance
Beauty shows up in the most unlikely of places because the seeds of love are present within all expressions of life.
Depending on how the life force is fertilized, results in varying forms of manifestation.
Since all things start from the same seed, does that make anything separate from the love of All That Is?
The bitter and the sweet are two sides of the same coin.
The only thing separating them is our judgment and attachments, but they both are creative manifestations of free will and inevitable expansion.
They are also varying ways of All That Is making love to itself and experiencing the depths of potentials that live within that romance.
