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Ice Kingdom
Yesterday we went on a hike that took us through the realm of the ice Faeries where ice castles, ice crystals, and ice beings dwell. I even found a beautiful Sun-lit Nature’s Christmas tree – all to enjoy in solitude, as no one was around. It was fantastical. It was magickal. It was my home. I hope you enjoy a stroll through the icy world we discovered and that enchanted this Winter baby a little bit more. Keep believing!
Pink Skies
Every morning provides you the opportunity to begin again…to face the day, your life, with an even more open heart and to breathe from the sacred seat of your soul. The sky is swathed in blankets of pink around your inner child’s most cherished dreams…dreams that expand before you and breathe with innocent wonder, inviting your nurtured embrace into the field of possibilities. Come dance in the realm of imagination and dream your wishes alive.
Magickal Alignments & Manifestations
We’ve officially moved into our new place this past Sunday 11/6 and it’s been quite a busy several days both leading up to the move and since, with still more to go as we not only complete the full transition, but get the Magick Bus prepped for storage and selling. It’s amazing how easy it is, on an emotional and mental level, to transition from home to home for us, which mirrors the ease and joy we experienced waking up in new cities, states, and national parks over the last year. Fluidity has become our way of life and change continues to be my best friend.
So many beautiful alignments have shown up, making us know that we’re in the right place, that the guidance and message I received to come here were loud and clear, and that all things are aligned, not to mention reflect a continuation of magickal manifestation ramping up increasingly.
More and more I’m seeing that all of the hard work I’ve invested over the years and beyond is coming full circle in beautiful blessings.
It was hard for so long to have only belief fueling my journey, but that consistent commitment to knowing within myself that everything I was doing was in fact part of the beauty of life, regardless of where I found myself along the way in process, has changed the perspective of that journey to enjoyment and brought me to a place of creating with greater ease and flow….Gifts in abundance for my patience and willingness to implement new processes with the growth I embraced.
This included a beautiful email message the day before we moved in from our new landlord, which carried the energy of the way I speak and was so full of light, not to mention, mirrors just what I had felt from the place.
Here’s the message:
“I am confident you will both enjoy your winter stay at the le Chateaux Dans le Ceil! There is a lot of magic, beauty and positive energy here. Namaste, Brian”
It made me feel that we had a lot more in common than we knew and that proved true when on the day of our move and meeting with him again he shared with me that on our first meeting he felt I looked so familiar.
I thought, perhaps a past life bleed through (which I still in fact feel), but he mentioned then that after he thought he knew me from somewhere that he’d looked on Facebook and saw that we were in fact friends there with many shared friends.
He further continued to say that he and his wife were also Reiki Masters and studied under William Lee Rand.
Hehe! Talk about magickal manifestations…not only to be in this beautiful home, but to attract such positive energy.
He went on to say that he had Reiki’d the whole place…Yes, that’s why Dave and I both immediately felt good and inspired right away from first seeing it. I had in fact known it was the one for us and felt the energy just from the photos online.
We also discovered how the owner and I both had the same little art travel case, both loved Ankhs (he saw my Ankh ring tattoo, which opened that dialogue), and both were creatives and far from techy people.
He and his wife had built and decorated the place to be like a Santorini cliff house all in white with touches of aquas and with underwater sea life paintings throughout, which is perfect for this Pisces and both Dave and I being Water signs, not to mention I’ve been to Santorini and loved it, of course the all-white has mirrored dream and cosmic journey sequences for me I’ve had that were profound, and the aqua is my favorite color.
They also had created this place to be very relaxing with everything you’d need to live a truly nurtured and inspired life all self-contained to include things like an outdoor jacuzzi on the deck and an indoor sauna – all great for after ski, hiking, or simply wanting to soak in life.
There’s even a wonderful gas fireplace as the main heating element for the cozy 1000 square feet that’s on a thermostat so now and then, including in the night and morning, the lovely flames will go on and added to the views from every window and open floor plan, it really is incredible.
Anyway, we got to enjoy our first night and morning in our new retreat home on Sunday, which came after a big day of moving ourselves in.
There are 105 (yes I counted them) steps to reach our little “castle in the sky”, which is also like a wonderful tree house in the clouds surrounded by tree spirits at nearly 7500 elevation.
I guess I must be in shape as we’ve now done nearing 3 d0zen trips up and down, so far, carrying heavy loads and boxes, but it is so worth it.
And we took advantage of the jacuzzi on our first night after dinner I made overlooking the city lights around the lake and viewing the moon and stars.
I knew that Cosmo, although not physically with us, was and has been so present in this whole process, along with my other loves, in helping to bring this all together and were in the stars twinkling at us from above.
How I’ve missed him nonetheless, wishing he could have physically experienced our new home, but I know in every way he is with us enjoying it in a more expansive way and is my angel presiding over the magick in my life with Joy, Nestor, and Gaia. I am just so grateful I had the chance to take him to the lake, as I promised him so he could take it all in.
Every time I look out at the lake, he is with me, as all my loves are, since we’ve all shared this place and these views together at one time or another.
I don’t think we’re going to get tired of the view here in our new sanctuary, nor all of the nurturing things this beautiful home has to offer us, and i feel so excited to get settled and jump back into my writing once we’re fully settled. Oh, how my imagination is flying!
We also have my friend Janet coming out to Lake Tahoe this Friday for the weekend on her way back home to visit and spend some time exploring and hiking the area with us, which is new to her and her sweet little dog, Daisy. You may remember that she traveled with us for several weeks during our time in Wyoming and Montana. Then she went to my friend Hillary’s new ranch where she’s been since July helping out with things there.
Anyway, this is the perfect place for me to hibernate surrounded in inspiration for the next 6 months and I’ll soon be fully immersed in my new life of which we are so grateful for.
Our lives have been such a gift in every way, and especially magickal since the day we said goodbye to our home and way of life in Orange County and jumped in the Magick Bus.
Indeed it is a “Magick Bus”, as its brought so much incredible beauty and richness to our lives and opened us to unlimited and expansive possibilities, where we are constantly updating our thinking and aligning more with our feelings and essence.
Creating Unlimited Possibilities: The Ever-Evolving Journey Continues
Today felt like the perfect day to share these announcements with the rain coming down, which is what you hear in the video, cleansing all that has come before and making way for the new we are creating. Our Magick Bus journey has come to full circle closure, but the journey has just begun and is expanding into greater and unlimited possibilities, all anchored in the imagination of our hearts, as is aligned with the cosmic flow abound. We’ll be nesting in for the winter where I’ll be finishing my book in the inspiration of our “chateaux dans le ciel” (as its owners named it) – “castle in the sky” new home for the next 6 months while the rest of our visions unfold. I couldn’t imagine a more perfect place to create our next dreams. We’ll miss the Magick Bus and her nurturing guardianship, as well as her ability to provide opportunity to see with new eyes, and we wish for her to find the perfect soul/s whom she can help bring their dreams into manifestation too.
Please excuse the breaks, as my recorder kept stopping and I tried to just pick right back up.
Happy Leo New Moon
Dave pulling up in the Magick Bus to our home from his long drive in Arizona, one year ago today on August 2nd, 2015
New Moon in Leo magickal blessings to all! One year ago today our rv traveling home, the Magick Bus, arrived at our driveway from Arizona and our dream journey officially became real kicking off in full gear on 10/13/15 after upgrades and house move. This is a time to rekindle the fire within and direct your creative power toward bringing forth your dreams and deepest desires with childlike faith, optimism, and playful lightness, allowing yourself to expand and light up with soul vitality that can propel you through challenge, revitalize your strength, belief, and purpose, and fill you with new creative inspiration. Keep believing and dreaming big everyone!! It’s all possible!
The Labyrinth of Change ~ Dreaming New Realities into Being
This is the view from the bedroom and what I’ve been waking up to the last few mornings.
I’m constantly in gratitude for the changing environment I find myself in and especially for Nature’s beauty in all of Her splendor that has nurtured a stronger sense of embodiment within my experience.
It’s like a dream each day, but one made into reality and this ever-changing “dreamy” scene that greets me in the morning reminds me of where I’ve come from and how much has changed because of my willingness to believe, dream big, and not allow anything to tell me that I can’t do something.
Well, they can tell me, but I know that’s not my story and that I carry the power within me to create my own version of reality, even if that were to potentially place me on a different, but parallel plane immersed in my own visionary ideals.
Change continues to rapidly strike like lightning in my life, and I know the same is true for others.
Some big change is on the horizon and unfolding in the next few months here for me/us and for now I’m keeping it within our experience, so as to really marinate in the energy and allow it to organically evolve from within the new reality birthing. But I will share it soon.
For now, I am just really sinking into how much I find the process of change to be a gentle and oh-so-enjoyable one.
I used to go through difficulties, or more prolonged periods of integrative time with change. But mostly I found that that challenge wasn’t really about how I processed change, but how I used to experience the challenge of utilizing my energy to make others okay with my changes, rather than just fully enjoying them and using that energy to fuel the new showing up.
I no longer do that. I no longer worry and I don’t have guilt around the fact that change comes easy for me.
I also find that we aren’t supposed to “see” what is ahead, but only given the ability to “know” of the moment and to trust what is in the heart and that any choice made from here will always be the most harmonious and supported one for the highest good of all concerned.
I am trusting whole-heartedly in what I know in my heart I feel to choose and I see magick unfold, reiterate, and support that constantly when I do.
I recently had shared this with a dear friend that every moment is shifting into a new one based on creative and heart-joy choice alone and that life is a constant labyrinth in creation. You choose to go one direction and the whole labyrinth shifts in that moment….passages close, paths move, new passages open…and it’s all actually quite phenomenal and fun when you get out of your head and sink into your essence.
I have noticed that the more I shift, the more I notice dynamics deepening in terms of a very pronounced canyon between experiences people are having.
This in part is simply the showing up of change truly taking form, as the stronger you are within your understanding and experience of life, you call up, see, or hear of anything and everything different to that lighting up big time on the other spectrum.
The stronger new things get, the more pronounced old paradigms are fighting for survival.
This isn’t indication of you’re having done something wrong, that the world is about to explode, or that you aren’t in the new…it is simply the way of energy working itself out within that labyrinth.
So continue moving in the flow of the change you’re creating, with love, compassion, and understanding for where you’ve come from and what is part of the whole for embracing into the alchemy of your new reality for empowerment.
It May Not Happen Overnight, but it DOES Happen
Any time someone tells me that they can’t do something, I don’t hear the excuse, but what I do see is their light diminishing a little more with each answer they come up with.
Their life force and spark dimming at the loss of passion flowing through.
Why I don’t hear the excuse is because I don’t believe it.
Anyone whether it has been someone learning how to paint with their toes or mouth because they have no hands, or who has discovered and invented something that ends up helping everyone’s lives that others thought was a crazy idea in the first place, or the single mother who creates a seven-figure at-home business while caring for her children and working part time jobs, the addict who becomes sober and inspires others to do the same while they start over back in college and land an amazing job, the high school drop out that becomes a brilliant entrepreneur and leads others to do the same, the retiree with a love for animals who opens his home to care for the neglected and homeless dogs, the woman told she has three months to live due to cancer and has gone on to live 20 years past that timeline and still going strong, the orphan who makes her way and later opens a home to other girls like her…..
They all do what they do and achieve what they have because they, too, don’t believe in anything others have to say and don’t listen to the roadblocks their sabotaging egos would otherwise have them believe.
When they get frustrated they continue on.
When they cry themselves dry those tears become the force behind their momentum.
When they reach an impasse, they build a bridge.
When a door closes, they knock on another.
When they hit rock bottom, they choose to rise again, and again, and again….
You CAN do the things you want to do and you CAN start doing them today.
Or maybe the way you think it needs to look or be is limiting you and opening to the possibilities can bring in the perfect way.
What lies before you is not a deterrent, but a stepping stone.
Nothing is a sentence…it is all just a message that with shifts and new choices made can be an empowering thing.
And as I mentioned in a previous post a couple of days ago about the pioneering spirit:
Lift yourself up and discover how incredibly more powerful, able, resourceful, resilient, and creative you are than you think.
You don’t need to know how.
The road doesn’t need to be clear.
You simply need to allow your heart to fuel your mind with passion that is food to the creative will.
A Gift From Baby Unicorn
So, on the last day and our last nature outing of the Private Immersive Retreat over the first weekend in February, my eye caught a sparkly glimpse of this baby Unicorn nestled on top of the pine needles lining the forest floor.
As you can see, she is a perfectly and naturally sculpted specimen shed from the bark of a tree, awaiting me to see her.
We marveled at the bark of these trees that looked like perfect puzzle pieces or a mosaic of symbolic images patterned across their trunks.
But when I saw this baby Unicorn, I was so excited and filled with gratitude for the reflective gift at such divinely aligned timing.
Perfection at work once again!
She now is part of my mini traveling garden – or “greens on wheels”, as my dear friend Kelly called it – as I have started adding special gifts from Nature to the soil atop each potted plant, to infuse magick from our travels into my plant spirit friends.
Magickal baby Unicorn sits amidst my Kale. 🙂
As you can clearly see in the photo, Nature and the Faeries have lovingly enchanted this piece of tree bark with the essence and life force of a precious Unicorn.
You can see her all-seeing wondrous eye, her sweet curved ear, her newly grown wild main, gracefully curved neck, finely forming nose and chin of her delicate face, and her sprouting enchanted horn that is even coated in white star dust.
What a gift! And so symbolic for the new journey I am on that is all about remembering my purity and innocence and more fully embodying that energy signature in the new life transitions and creative expressions I am now embracing to bring forth.
This baby Unicorn is me.
And she is also the guiding Spirit for my path ahead…leading the way and reminding me of my soul’s essence.
Synchronously that message was first reflected to me by my sweet friend Hillary’s white mare, Tareena, who happens to be a Unicorn in disguise.
Here are excerpts from my experiences with her and Unicorns that I shared last year – all heralding my current journey I knew was coming, which was all about returning to my innocence and purity of my heart’s joy:
“Out in the field I met the others including Tareena, the White Unicorn – and when I say that I literally mean she is a Unicorn. She came over and we shared a special hello. She had come to me in a meditation previous to my being there, so we had already created a bond. She welcomed me with a hug around my head, as she cupped hers to both sides of mine, one after another, with sweet embrace. Any time I spent with her put me right into my most magickal embodiment, where nothing else existed but a Faery playing with her Unicorn friend.”
“Hillary asked me the last evening if I’d ventured back to the Faery tree realm again, which I hadn’t with all that we’d been doing. She made mention I should before I leave, as the Faeries have a gift they wanted to give me. Since we went to bed late again, I decided to wake early and go out in the morning before she took me to the airport to catch my flight back home. That night I did dream, however, that I went there. What I saw in the dream was a headpiece/crown sitting in a thicket of grass, left as a gift for me. It was lovely with threaded twigs, leaves, and metals of some sort. So the next morning I got ready and packed up and went out in the yard out front just around/before 6 am and entered the tree circle. Right as I neared, I immediately started singing a melody, as a song came through the sound resonance I do. I stayed there about 20 minutes, standing between the two largest trees, as I closed my eyes to be and receive, as well as give my love in return. I received some messages and a Unicorn also came through. Then I was told to look down. As I did, I saw a tiny moth at my toes and right next to it was a tiny dandelion, which was not growing from the ground, but was just sitting there already cut. It was only the very top, with just enough stem to hold between my fingertips, but it was very delicate and there were no others around like that. I saw one or two a little away, but they were on long stems still growing from the ground and were not perfect like this one. This felt like a deliberate gift that had been picked by the Faeries for me. The message I received was that they wanted me to make wishes while I was there amidst the Faery trees in this portal and that they would grant them. So I did…I wished for all the things that came to heart. And then I blew the dream seeds into the wind. I gave them my song, and a promise. And they reminded me that I can now be the “not of this world” me fully. It was lovely.”
When we recognize the power and reflections that the natural world, animals, and the magickal realm have to offer for us, this can support us into understanding, remembering, and embodying who we really are.
Unicorns symbolize innocence, purity (reflected in its horn and snow white appearance), childhood, grace, mystical healing powers, mystery, intuition, magick, love, wonder, and seeking of natural truth.
They actually embody the balance of both male and female energies – the balance of yin and yang.
One horn represents unity and transcending duality and as it sits on the Crown Chakra it is the Spiritual Gateway and Portal to Divine Consciousness and Harmony.
Unicorns help make your dreams a reality – taking you on a freeing ride beyond limitations and beyond the wildest parts of your imagination.
They are masters of the light and transformation who can bestow the gifts of magick to those who are pure of heart, or who commit to a life of pure expression.
These mystical beings help us to believe that anything is possible and support us to do what is thought to be impossible.
This is done through their ability to see and go beyond your fears, limitations, and the illusions that have been constructed. They will actually test us with illusions in order to help you to pass through the veils and clearly onto the path of your dreams.
You then find yourself more easily opening to infinite possibilities with the ability to see clearly and with the wisdom to guide you there.
As they walk between worlds, the realms of the seen and unseen, and move through dimensions, they help you walk through fabricated walls to the other side of the illusory boundary.
They are shape-shifters and remind us of our ability to be flexible and adaptable to the energy currents flowing through.
Unicorns are like shooting stars that have fallen from the Cosmos to enchant our world and take us into the beyond.
Do you believe?
If not, Unicorn is here to remind you.
As I embark on my new journey I will keep my baby Unicorn close to my soul child’s heart as a reflection of my power of belief while I walk into the unseen realm of my wildest passions and imagination.
A return to innocence indeed.
Magickal Manifesting ~ Living In Alignment
So yesterday we took a little stroll along the beach directly across from our RV site, on the other side of Pacific Coast Highway.
I began the walk with my bare feet in the sand and water – feeling my water nymph energy.
And as we strolled I found little treasures.
First, this sweet little white feather that reminded me of one from an angel’s wings with its soft, ethereal quality.
Then, this lovely little sea green piece of sea glass shaped almost like a heart.
We stopped to read a sign about the rest of the beach being private and off limits since there were houses sitting right at water’s edge.
So we paused there a moment and captured another photo of the peaceful beach that has mirrored our stay here in Malibu – serene and providing full solitude – when a wave came crashing in behind me and soaked my lower half as I squealed with delight.
We then proceeded to walk back and I decided to put my flip flops on to dry my feet a bit before heading to the car.
But the ocean wanted to play.
And more waves kept crashing around me.
The next one giggling as it took my right flip flop with it.
I tried to retrieve it, but it kept pulling it out farther than my reach each time.
It was teasing me and I laughed.
I then turned to Dave and said with an oh well shrug, “I guess I don’t need that anymore.”
And I surrendered to continuing on without my flip flop.
So we continued toward the little hill to the car when Dave stops and picks something up from the next wave that came through and says, “Look, the Universe gave you another”.
I looked in his hand and saw a black flip flop.
He handed it to me and I looked at it seeing how it looked very similar to mine, but different, and when I measured it up against my left flip flop it was the same size!
The part that cradles the foot had a little grooved design, where mine doesn’t. The shadows and angle of the photo might be deceiving, but it did match the footprint size perfectly.
It was also the exact same materials, thickness, and comfort in the rubbery foot bed, with same material for the part between toes and around foot.
You can see it here.
I immediately said, “The ocean and Universe are sharing how we are always taken care of and supported. We can manifest anything we need and are abundant beings.”
Attachment to things blocks the flow of receiving more and potentially better things for our highest good.
Letting go opens a portal for manifesting the new.
Worry, fear, stress doesn’t create more of what you want, but may actually repel it and create more of what you don’t want.
The ocean was playing with me, but in her play she was demonstrating a big lesson for life in this small, seemingly insignificant “coincidence”. 😉
I’ve had things like this happen a lot in my life and have heard the same from people I know. Some of their stories also involving the ocean, in fact, and washing things up on the beach that they needed and wanted right when they thought about it because they were also in alignment with life at the time.
In my own life I’ve had things happen like finding the exact amount of money in a parking lot by my car that I needed for something just laying there in bills without anyone in sight, opening my shopping bag when I was in high school upon return home and finding a little black skirt in my perfect size that I had wanted, but couldn’t afford to get with my school clothes budget, manifesting trips without any work on my part but knowing I was meant to be going for reasons larger than myself, an angel appearing in human body to help me with a flat tire when I was alone on my own, to even ducking out of a mandatory-half-of-my-grade speech in middle school I just for some reason didn’t want to do and honored that for the first time in my life (I’ll have to share that full story another time) and no one knowing I didn’t do it, but an “A” appearing in the teacher’s grade book for me.
We all have stories of these magickal little ways that life demonstrates how we are always supported, provided for, and can manifest anything needed (life lived abundantly).
This happens more often when we are living in alignment with ourselves, being more in our essence, and stepping into a more gentle, freer space of letting go, supporting ourselves, trusting, and believing.
My little story is just a simple and fun one, but the message is meaningful and clear.
At least that was my interpretation and perspective on it.
I find that makes all the difference too.
What’s your perspective?
Farewell For Now ~ I’ll Be Offline September 1st Through November 30th
I thought about how I could likely write a really long post as this last one before I head offline on my 3 month sabbatical, but am guided to make this brief and instead share a simple message to leave with you in the form of the video below that speaks a message of the heart.
While it seems like long that I’ll be gone, with the way time moves like a flash, before you know it I’ll be back again, although much will have transpired not only for myself, but I know for each of you as well.
When I return I’ll share about my process and experiences during these months away, and will look forward to catching up on yours.
A few simple reminders as I leave, along with clarity on this time away, as I’ve received a lot of messages where it seems people haven’t understood what this time means for me or some of the services I offer.
This three month personal sabbatical is about just that….it is for personal things, of which involve creative projects, personal nurturing and listening within, and now also a physical transition from house to RV living, which just so happened to coincide with this time off, but was not planned as such.
I am NOT embarking yet on the grand RV adventure, although perhaps might do small jaunts here and there for several days or a week at a time, but I’ll still be stationed in Orange County at a beach-side RV park, until further pieces unfold. It’s all a process. In the meantime, I’m so looking forward to simplified living and following my heart.
I won’t be online, so basically off-grid to everyone, and unable to answer messages, emails, and questions. I am basically creating a Tania bubble without distractions or energetic pulls.
In terms of services, they will all (at least the ones I will continue to feel called to offer) be available when I return beginning December 1st. I will be offline September 1st – November 30th.
There will be new offerings upcoming in the time I return that will continue to evolve and be presented at the times I feel guided to offer them. I’ve gotten hits on how things are evolving and so I’ll be sharing that little by little when I return. I may also be shifting gears with focuses, as I am following the energy of the collective’s needs, coupled with my own energetic shifts, so greater emphasis will be placed on specific offerings, as well as new ones that have shown up, as mentioned.
In terms of sacred tattoo designs. I’ve received an influx of messages in the last few weeks, right before heading off. So to clarify those questions being asked, please visit this link, below, for more important information on details about working with me on co-creating a design when I return. It addresses the waiting list that is now at Januray 2016, upcoming rate changes, and how you can still schedule a design with me while I’m away:
Answers About Sacred Tattoo Designs For While I’m Away
I’ve already been asked to teach a Reiki 3 Master Teacher workshop in December when I return and a Crystal Magick workshop, so I’ll keep you posted at that time on those and their dates here locally from a new location.
I’ve also been asked to offer other things and been needing to support people and the energy showing up in myself in different ways. So I’ll put that into play and/or bring them to you more upon return.
I may also know then, more about the evolving plan for the adventure. Right now it’s a day-by-day process that calls for trust, patience, and listening for the alignments.
When I do return, I’ll be sharing and working from my new abode on the RV. The new space will create its own shifts with things.
While I’ll miss connecting with you, honestly, I am very excited to have this time to myself, as it is much needed and being integrally guided.
That experience of feeling comfort with physically removing myself and being on my own more or altogether, comes from having a sense of peace within myself, and also knowing and experiencing the unity and love no matter where I am and if I’m alone.
I know that distance never separates us, regardless, as the connection is always experienced in the heart and soul no matter where one is on Earth or beyond. A good reason for, and exercise in, practicing telepathy! 😉
Telepathy is something I use constantly with my dear friends, clients, animal companions, and souls off-Earth, and especially my Faery sis, Laura. She and I are always going through mirroring things (whether exactly or in relative ways), or experiences that balance out one another at different spectrums that unite, despite our rarely ever connecting in person or even by voice on the phone. You can likely keep up with energetic things that may be evolving with me during these three months, by following along her journey at her blog. 😉
I’ll leave you with this video message, shared with me today by my Cosmic brother, Amaru, whom I’ve journeyed with in Peru and beyond. A perfect, simple, and beautiful expression of what I feel in my heart.
Here’s to it really being a good day…EVERY DAY that you are alive in your body on Earth.
In love and creative magick always.
See you soon.