Monthly Archives: January 2017
The Tree Beckoned & I Followed
Yesterday the snow called and we headed off on a snow shoeing adventure in the deep, fresh powder along Taylor Creek in South Lake Tahoe.
No footprints had yet to touch this winter wonderland and the only signs of life were the trees bowing to the presence of the snow, the creek rolling swiftly by and spiraling over rock beings that welcomed the water’s caress, crystals sparkling in the white blankets all around, and a wood pecker who was intuiting where to create a portal in the tree he had chosen.
This stillness was loud and the solitude was welcoming.
Incredible surrealism enveloped this enchanted realm, as we made our own path through the magickal forest and over an arm of the creek, traversing a tree limb packed with snow that provided a bridge to the “other side”.
It was there, off path a bit, that a lone giant caught my eye. I veered off the path I’d been following behind Dave, as it beckoned me closer, which meant making my way through thigh high snow.
After getting about half way, I noticed Dave was far ahead and knew I should catch up, so I told the tree I would be back.
We stopped where the wood pecker showed up at the foot of a tree, feeling that was the place to turn around and so we made our way back and I told Dave we needed to return to the magick tree I’d found, as I promised.
This time I went the whole way, hearing the tree call me to step inside. Once reaching the tree I discovered there was a deep hole to step down into, as the snow had piled up outside of it. So in I stepped without hesitation, knowing this is what it had desired.
Dave captured the journey within this portal, along with many little orbs that filled the inside of the tree, with one larger one showing up.
Some almost look like snow, they are so white. And yet it was not snowing and I was inside the dark shelter of this giant.
If you peer closely you can see all of these tiny orbs moving around inside from frame to frame, from top to bottom of the portal, all around me, some on me, and then the much larger one above me.
This is why the tree beckoned, for my Faery friends and the Nature Spirits awaited.
Activation complete.
Magick abound.
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
There are whispers of magick everywhere, if you listen.
The Illusion of Becoming
Those moments, however brief, where the stillness of a quiet happiness pervades your inner sanctum, is like a sweet fragrance completely engulfs you and permeates your aura. These are the moments you cease longing of any kind and are in complete presence of contentment, just as you are, here and now. Most of the time, most everyone seems to be in the process of “becoming” – a process that is never-ending in its pursuit. To become successful, to become accomplished, to become well-known, to become complete, to become a healer, to become a doctor, to become certified or degreed, to become a published author, to become a business owner, to become an athlete, to become a musician, to become an artist, to become a mother, to become a father, to become a friend or lover, to become excited over hurdles conquered, to become sad over losing someone or feeling defeated….to become.
In all of this, “now” has been forgotten and does not exist. So many what if’s, but, striving, excuses, and denial of what actually is….who you are. Life exists in the shadows of becoming.
There are no what if’s…there’s only right now.
Self acceptance is a stranger, as nothing seems to mean anything until and unless you get all of the above. Then, and only then, you think you’ll love and accept who you are.
But this is an illusion. It’s all devised to keep you away from your true power….to love yourself.
Now, there’s nothing wrong with growth and continuing to embrace new parts of your evolution.
There’s nothing wrong with saying you’re following divine timing and aligning with the flow of energy.
But these can all be very ingenious self sabotaging ways to make up excuses to be and do you in this moment.
I’m all for listening to signs and not acting rash or being late on making moves, but I think this “it’s not the right timing thing” has been over-used and over-abused by us all, especially “light workers” as is a term often used by some.
I simply don’t accept it as the truth anymore. As, truly there isn’t a wrong choice to be you right now. Where ever that leads is exactly where you need to be.
Could it avoid something or get us there faster? Sure, but it might also just be perfect right now.
If I had done things different in the past then I wouldn’t be me now, but if I had done things differently in those moments I’d also be exactly where I’m supposed to be and perhaps be in an equally beautiful and amazing, but different, experience of the now.
I don’t feel any of it is wrong or right, or better or worse.
Timing might just be another “becoming”.
Nothing is ever going to be enough if you’re not enough and embraced as complete in this moment, no matter what choices you make or what you do now.
Longing will be your best friend, if life is focused on becoming, and all of life will be a longing for something and you’ll leave this life still longing and find out in the end that your best friend really made you feel quite lonely.
The idea of becoming can be a life-line and mask for some…an excuse even. Some people thrive on having something always to strive to become and feel empty if there’s nothing, so they look for the next fix for becoming.
All the while this becoming is a detour away from self. Although you think it is supporting you, it is actually distracting you from the power you have at the center of your being right now.
You fear that center because it is empty of your love.
You work at becoming to feed that love, but you find out that all of this becoming is like a grand feast in celebration of the dead, not the living. And when you discover yourself alone gorging on this feast, it will be a greater terror than admitting right now that you are afraid to just be you.
You are afraid that you’re not enough and yet you’ve always been and always will be better than enough….Create more moments of that quiet contentment within yourself and know that all that you desire to be, is already right there within you, as desires are simply projections for us to recognize the brilliance we embody.
Then embrace each choice and action from that stillness of peace and everything you do will always be in divine alignment.
~ Inspired by an excerpt from a recent book I read, Star Woman, that felt important to share and so this is a paraphrasing and personal inspiration of these words.
Awakening A Fairy – Iron Fairy Magick
Sharing this blog post again, as Miss Brook has been very active and so have the magickal energies. Awakening a fairy is like awakening the innocence within. This is Brook – Fairy of Bougainvillea whom I brought to life and set free a little over 3 years ago by following the fairy guidelines and sprinkling her golden green magick fairy dust she came with. I gifted her a fairy wand and fairy portal so she can travel in and out of realms and bring other friends along too.
You can read all about her and the story behind the Iron Fairies in my blog post from three years ago. Perhaps the number “3’s” symbolism has something to do with this coming up again as well.
Everything in my life reflects the integrity of my heart and the wonder that remains there, regardless of what others think.
If you’ve lost the wonder perhaps this share might spark a twinkle of joy or hope for you.
Merging & Creating New Realities
Things have been becoming more and more like my inner experience and outer one are merging…the imagination and physical becoming one…my Cosmic essence and Earthly existence integrating…the surreal reality I know of as where I live/experience mostly, manifesting in tangible reflection. And the vivid expression of different versions of reality we each create, showing itself clearly. This is happening now and the magick is palpable and available to us all. What will we choose? seems to be the running question.
This was the view yesterday morning, which as you can see is out of this world and as if IÂ woke up on another planet.
The environment all around us would shift between full white out, as cloud veils fully immersed us at 7500 elevation, making it as if we’re up in the heavens or floating in the Cosmos.
Everything created a new world and reality, mirroring the surface of another planet, New Earth, or perhaps a portal to the beyond.
This continues to reflect in so much around me right now including a couple of new crystal beings that have become part of the family, including this crystal and orgone dragon that mirrors the essence of the view above.
She was birthed in the Netherlands as an Angelic Crystal Protection Dragon created by another Pisces artist I instantly was connected with.
Almost full of selenite, azeztulite, golden rutilated quartz, citrine, amazonite, serpentine, rose quartz, emerald and metal, she holds the perfect frequency for so much in my life right now.
I especially love this photo I captured of her in the snow, as I took her out to absorb the sun and magick of the crystalline essence outside.
So amazing how the environment and light draws forth different qualities, not to mention the varying layers of the crystals’ embodiment. This even completely shifts their coloring to light and dark, mirroring the light and shadow aspects within all.
Especially apparent in the crystal sister my dragon has, as you can see between the photos above and here below.
And speaking of selenite, this golden ray selenite cosmic blossom, which is a replica of what I’d seen in a dream of a crystal coming to me to work with has become inseparable from my dragon (whose name I know she will be revealing to me soon once we have time to deepen into one another).
My other cherished golden ray selenite blossom, as you may remember, had exploded when I made a big life shift and hit the reset button on my life, leaving me with three smaller, equally beautiful, blossoms and some shards I’ll be integrating into a creation, but knew it meant another crystal was on the way. When the dream took place, I knew it was one very similar to this and in fact was.
Although the one in my dream was a larger crystal, I believe it foreshadowed the “largeness” of her energy, rather than literally a large crystal. And also about stepping up our own energy into being bigger than we ever have been and no longer shying away from who we really are or the gifts and power we have.
Combined in partnership with my dragon, they are quite the cosmic power duo….Neverending Story, Narnia, the music of Narsilion (all N’s, including Netherlands, the magickal faery place my dragon birthed) all come to mind.
But mostly they remind me of my origins and essence.
How much I feel in my “element” these days and yesterday was clearly a reflection of that and the reality I see and am grateful to be able to share with others to help bring the love, beauty, harmony, and magick to all.
Yes, there are other realities we can choose. This is the one I choose to experience and create.
Where in your own life do you feel like shifts are happening and asking of you to align more with your essence?
How might you take different steps in your life toward creating the reality you desire, rather than focusing energy, fight, or defiant denial against the ones you don’t want?
And how might you love all of these parts of you more so that you can become empowered and experience greater compassion reflected back?
I hope you enjoy a little “peace” of this reality I captured to share. What a glorious day it was from start to end, including our time snow shoeing, as seen here, scaling along the powdered mountain edges at 8500 elevation.
Couldn’t have concluded more cosmically than with a shooting star last night.
And of course I made some more intentions of the reality I want to continue to create.
Presence within your center and embracing softer versions of your responses and gaze upon life can shift you into new realities of your choosing.
Cancer Full Moon’s Invitation to Emotional Wholeness & an End to Suffering
With Cancer Full Moon energies abound, the thing that stands out most to me is a focus on the emotions and emotional field and the very subtle and loud messages that have been trying to get our attention here. There’s this huge potential for immense opportunity or major challenge that can manifest as a critical point – in either case a turning of the tides is at hand by vulnerably and transparently embracing the flow of your watery depths and being honest with where your resistance, denial, repression, defiance, defense, and refusal is so that you can make those breakthroughs.
This calls to mind something I recently read that feels in alignment with this and important to share.
It speaks to “suffering” and the language and dialogue, not to mention beliefs, we use daily to keep us small, victimized, martyred, sabotaged, excused from responsibility, and/or in a continuous spiral of confusion and hopelessness…..It’s about how suffering can be another mask we wear that taints our entire life.
Here is the message:
“Emotional suffering is a big disguiser, a mask. Suffering can be kind of arrogant belligerence with which you agonize through life. Take off that mask, and the person has lost her main occupation. So no matter what she accomplishes, she will be wearing that false face. She will simply give it another name.” ~Star Woman
In what ways do you claim suffering as your role in life?
Perhaps there is a new perspective in which you can approach your life experiences and arise.
In any case, your emotional responses and feelings – your mental reactions and portrayals of your emotions – can provide you answers and be the key to unlocking your freedom.
The way through them IS to go through them with personal integrity, which may sometimes include inviting in and being willing to receive support and reflections from others.
The challenge takes place when we stop short, attach to a particular emotion, and decide to set up camp there and grow roots.
With this Cancer Full Moon, let us embrace the gifts of the feminine and bring her into her authentic power.
Grateful Reflection & Unwavering Hope ~ Choices that can Make all the Difference
Although we moved out of our house in Orange County and into the Magick Bus in early October of last year and did a couple of small trips, we didn’t officially begin the grand adventure until one year ago to this very day. As I look back on this past year, although doesn’t seem like a very long time, I’m in awe of how much energy we moved and how transformed my entire life – I am – is since then because of that choice. It feels like lifetimes of experiences took place, and in actuality they did, not to mention a full, literal rebirthing.
It is one of the best and most profoundly shifting choices made in my life and completely supported hitting the much needed reset button for my path.
When I reflect upon my life, I can easily pinpoint the pivotal choices and time periods that changed everything in big ways, and this is definitely one of them…in some ways, may be the game-changer in my world finally bringing me to the place I always believed and never lost hope of all the years of my life since a child, knowing it wasn’t until my later years -forties – that I’d truly return to myself and receive the benefit of all the committed work I focused on in a life of growing up very fast.
Only now to return to the innocence of the inner child that I devoted myself to preserving and freeing fully, which took on a lifetime of maturing quickly and inviting in lifetimes of integrating and traveling through the darkness.
It’s empowering to reflect back and recognize the growth and change you have made. To see how it all makes sense even though at the time it made none at all.
I recently have gifted myself many symbolic and tangible things in celebration and have fully embraced self nurturing like never before. I have felt it to be like a birthday celebration every day, which seeing my birthday 2/26…2:26…226 showing up constantly over the last year has reiterated, as a reflective message from All That Is resetting the button cosmically.
And yesterday, when I saw 2:26 again, after all that has taken place these last few days and weeks, it felt not only like a personal renewal, but one collectively, as so much is shifting for us all, even if you can’t see it yet.
We are even currently experiencing that very wet and cold winter I, and others, had felt would be coming…with flowing abundance of water for many areas that have been in need here in the West.
Tons of rain and snow fall abound and it is like a huge cleansing, refresh, reminder, and like healing tears asking of us to remember these watery depths that are needed as a part of the journey and in knowing your wholeness and to have reverence for the journey.
Great creative potential and fertility comes in the embrace of feeling and emotion, in being willing to walk hand-in-hand with our shadow, welcoming change, and being flexible and mutable with our thoughts, beliefs, feelings, and actions so we can fluidly align with harmonic resonance.
Where ever you are right now, allow yourself to be more gentle and loving with all of it….to flow, to free yourself a little bit more, be more fluid, reward and enjoy life, reflect on those things knocking at your heart, love where you are, find ways to not judge or compare, and embrace the energy before you. Things are not always what they seem.
I know for myself that I have a ton of creative projects to manifest, and yet embracing the flow of energy has been most conducive to how these will not only come to be, what has been needed to keep shaping them, but is aligning with the ebbs and flows of collective energy…the pulling back of the rubber band at the right moment so that when released they shoot with great force, momentum, and focus….
For example, I’m now on my third revision of my book so far and I haven’t even finished it yet. I love how when you honor stepping away, there’s always a reason that presents itself…and each time it’s continued to infuse a whole new layer to the inspiration channeling through – reflective of more that I open up to as well.
I am not even in editing mode, I’m just being guided to rework the layers of myself, experiences, energies, collective at large into a renewed version of what that is in the now channeling through without frustration or questioning.
It’s become much more than originally started as and I love that too, as I’ve never had any attachment whatsoever to what was coming through or how it had to be.
I never even knew/know the story until it channels through.
I never edit, just write…I never judge it….just express it.
These revisions remind me of how I paint with layers over layers and the person viewing the painting will never know what is infused literally under the surface of the painting image they see, but they will feel it.
It’s also like music and sound channeling, where layers get harmonized together.
And with each expression of art, there is intention, energy, experience, feeling….that weaves into those layers too.
I’ve been in my joy with this and that is the only thing that matters. And I couldn’t be in that place of experience without everything I’ve experienced, the processes, the learning, the growth, and the choices made and honored.
I encourage everyone to find that passion you can just be you with and flow passionately with, without any attachments, judgment, boundaries, and goals except simply to express yourself and what you can’t not share because it is your breath of life.
And don’t lose hope, as the miracles often happen just when you thought there was nothing left to hope for.
I remember just before the Magick Bus came into our lives, I experienced a year of feeling and knowing the endings in all ways very profoundly and that completion translated as a choice in how I wanted to reset…and at the time without vision of what I see now, it felt like a cosmic return was in order. So I allowed myself to go to the depths of those feelings, mourning, explorations in depth, and found one answer in it all that could mean renewal here on Earth.
It meant letting go of everything I’ve known and been, taking a leap of faith, and being willing to face a new adventure of discovery from a completely fresh slate no longer tied to all that was (this life and beyond).
I was willing to take that leap and chance, to see what I could conjure up in the process of relaxing into creating a new relationship with nature and the nature of me.
And that choice led to here with a plethora of inspiration and knowing there are still yet some things I feel passionately compelled to bring forth while here. And they mirror my heart alone.
So I’ve risen to the occasion of creative power to not only create anything I want, but to recreate a new reality of experience at large. Something available to us all.
“Like water, be gentle and strong. Be gentle enough to follow the natural paths of the earth, and strong enough to rise up and reshape the world.” ~Brenda Peterson
To Journeys Ending & Beginning ~ Full Heart of Gratitude
So many incredible, awe-inspiring, synchronously magickal, and powerfully shifting experiences have been taking place in rapid alignment, it’s truly hard to put into words how it all feels. “Harmony” is the most resonant I can get with one simple word. During all of this Raja Seraphina, my Crystal Skull, has found her new guardian and Fiver has found a new family…both beginning new journeys in their eternal beingness. I just wanted to take a moment to express immense heart and soul gratitude to everyone who has so generously shared their love, stepped up, and taken time to be a part of the journey we are weaving together, and relative to this post, for those of you who responded to Raja Seraphina and supported Fiver.
I’ve been literally “knocked off my rocker,” as I put it to one dear friend last evening, with the amping up of “wow” experiences that continually and consistently take place and this has especially been so with both Raja Seraphina and Fiver.
I’m still in awe of how Fiver, as one friend put it, literally “jumped worlds” and like “he was planning it all along”. To see him fully released from pain in his last moments, his body restored, and how he leapt upon the quartz crystal to rocket him through the portal to the Otherworld where his journey would continue, still gives me chills and if not for capturing it on camera, I’m not sure others would believe me.
He has touched us all in so many ways, which goes to show us that everyone and everything no matter how small, has great impact and meaningfulness. It is up to us to “see” and embrace the sacredness in it all.
It’s no surprise that Fiver’s journey became entwined with Raja Seraphina’s, as it was in the days he was with me that R.S. came to peaceful closure with her own journey of connecting to her new guardian.
The day of peace they both shared enabled clarity of messages to come through to both them and myself in receiving them.
There is too much to R.S.’s story and the also amazing things that took place in her decision making process, as well as how she relayed her decision to me, to share here and of which some is personal to her new guardian and connection with myself and R.S.
But in the end, she spoke in shamanic riddles to decode, manifested literal appearances shared between myself and her new guardian of an animal spirit guide journeying between us both, provided us both with signs that were puzzle pieces to each other, and dream messages that “wed” us together in bonded sisterhood and Earth guardianship.
Her timing also could not have been more perfect in utilizing Mercury Retrograde to do her searching, exploring, reviewing, and tuning in with everyone. Not to mention her decision coming at the end of it and official, soul contractual agreement to take place on her appointed day of 1/11/2017 (1-11-1 portal) which will also be in the beginning illumination of 1/12’s early morning (PST) Cancer Full Moon – all divinely in perfection.
To add to that, it isn’t arbitrary that her new guardian is located where I’ll be journeying to shortly, which enables the transition of Raja Seraphina, between us, to take place in person so that she will not have to be shipped (something we both felt was not in her best interests) and makes the exchange much more aligned as a sacred ritual we can share.
I find great peace in knowing both Raja Seraphina and Fiver are in loving company and exactly where they are meant to be.
What has been overwhelming in a most beautiful and surprising way was the amount of response received with both experiences, and especially in the case of R.S. I was so in awe of people stepping into their power, claiming it, and knowing of their roles and paths that bring to light the gifts each has.
I was grateful I did not have to make the decision and was able to detach and allow R.S. to do the work, as everyone who showed up is incredibly amazing, gifted, and powerful in their own right….each having very important roles and equally special.
I know Raja Seraphina was equally moved, which is why she demonstrated her compassion and honor to each of you, not only tuning in extensively, but did healing and activation with each of you during the process, which many of you shared with me. It was astounding how she touched you all and I know that it was her way of showing mutual reverence and encouraging each of you to continue with your path and to know that you are recognized and honored for your roles that continue regardless of her being with you physically or not. Her love is collective and can be called upon if in need.
There will be another being that will show up for you, or another manifestation of how you can do the work you felt called to do. So keep alert to the signs and continue to follow the guidance you are messaged in your heart and soul.
Thank you again SO very much to everyone. I know deeply in my heart and soul that our journeys will continue to entwine themselves.
With love to all and special thanks to Raja Seraphina and Fiver for opening our hearts and encouraging us to be all that we can be.
Fiver
Two nights ago this precious soul’s journey became entwined with mine. Fiver is his name, which immediately came to me when I embraced my role as his guardian, caregiver, and bridge worker to support his soul’s choices. The name, Fiver, comes from a favorite story of mine – Watership Down – the name of a fragile, but powerfully gifted rabbit with psychic insight who initiates the journey of his fellow rabbits of the warren to their safety and freedom with his gift of vision and sixth sense. Five also happens to be my favorite number since I was a child and the energy it carries of big, swift, and sometimes surprisingly good change is fitting.
Very unfortunately Fiver became badly injured by our cats, but I managed to save him in the middle of the night when I woke and knew what was going on. It was not the first time, as another of this little one’s family was not as lucky about a week or two ago. That first incident took place on an ominous night where we felt a 5.7 earthquake that had rumbled from within Earth 70 miles away, and two large aftershocks. Following the earthquake, the incident with the mouse took place and then I went into a dream awareness state where it felt like a parallel reality had been cracked open by the earthquake and there in our place and walking through our room was a woman with short blonde hair who thought it was her place and didn’t understand why we were there.
This has happened before in our Orange County home where a parallel reality of a man living in our house on another timeline began to appear to me and my rabbit Joy and we would both feel his presence after my night experience of him walking past our bed just like this woman. And I would smell cigarette smoke in my room at various occasions when there was none. My room in that home seemed to be the nucleus and portal, which became apparent when I hung my painting, Once in a Blue Moon, on the wall of my two rabbits, Nestor and Joy, and that same night I woke seeing elves, faeries, gnomes and the like crawling out of it and running through the house.
Needless to say, shifts continue here and two nights ago Fiver was part of another one when he decided to emerge….likely, in part, he came in to seek warmth and food, but he and I have discovered much more of our connection through this sad yet seemingly deliberate unfolding.
Little Fiver was quite traumatized, as you can imagine, and badly injured on his lower half of the body, unable to use his back legs (not sure if his lower back was also injured or just his legs), which reminded me right away of my sweet rabbit Cosmo.
I immediately made him a warm, soft bed in a cookie tin that first night and put some food in it for him.
I found it amazing that at one point yesterday he was sitting up and I watched as he placed one hand over one of his legs that was injured (and exactly where there appeared to be a bruise/darkened area at his joint), and then his other little human-like hand over the other far worse off leg.
I swear he was giving himself Reiki or at the very least was trying to heal and ease the pain in his legs. Incredible!
The next morning (today) he was still with us and had moved to the opposite side of the tin, ate a bit, and pooped. I helped prop him up and gave him more fresh food. He seemed to love bread crumbs the best and heartily ate and drank for the first half of the day and pooped and peed. That was a good sign.
He was still very anxious, but after giving him a lot of Reiki and others sending him some too, he seemed to calm down nicely and then went into a slumber, only stirring a bit here and there. He seemed to be slowing down and needing to rest. I felt he was in preparation and the energy had provided him the peace to be able to process everything and get to a centered place.
I had called the wildlife care facility up here as soon as they opened in the morning yesterday, who provided me my slim options. They said, in all honesty, with wild mice that are brought in, they will euthanize them and feed them to the hawks and falcons they have in their care there, as normally they buy mice for this. Or, I could care for him.
While the euthanizing part sounded like a potentially peaceful option, if Fiver wanted that, the rest he picked up on and it felt traumatizing to him (despite being part of the circle of life) so when I checked in with him he gave me an immediate “no”.
The situation in general, with the cats, the idea of the hawks (spirit guides of mine as well) all again reiterated the nature of things, but also helped me to continue deepening with this and heal more of the natural tendencies to judge it. As while I embrace it, understand, and know the bigger picture, a part of me knows this “nature” has evolved and wasn’t always “the way”. There’s no coincidence as to why I am drawn to rabbits (and also have had tortoises), as it feels more to be of this harmony, and yet I continually draw more to me that invites wholeness regardless of the human reality I am involved in currently.
To truly love, one must love all the ways that All That Is expresses loving itself.
Anyway, upon further inquiry with Fiver, and presenting him his options, he opted wanting to stay with me and receive the love and comfort, which to him outweighed the pain.
I wholeheartedly supported him and he’s been with me ever since.
I spent most of my entire day yesterday caring for him and being with this “heaven on earth” majesty all around me that was so surreal it overwhelmed me and was the perfect essence to blanket us in, not to mention created such a beautiful world for little Fiver to experience – or was it that his energy and our connection was being mirrored in our surroundings?
It was a day of stillness and peace.
And I enjoyed seeing him enjoy his food and feeling cared for.
I’ve checked in time and time again and he continues to want to stay. It’s my commitment to honor his guidance above all else, knowing the importance of honoring a soul’s wishes, as well as the path that has been chosen between contracts made in the bigger picture, overall.
I kept him fed, gave him water which he also sipped, and had him next to me all day no matter where I was, giving him love, Reiki, and little rubs as he slept.
I wasn’t sure he would make it through the night, but did have him next to me to sleep, alongside all of my crystals to support him. Nestor, Joy, Gaia, and Cosmo, my loves who have transitioned already, have been supporting the process and await him whenever he decides, to help guide him lovingly on the other side.
Between all of us we have a bridge created to assist him on both ends and this is part of the message I’ve continued to received with all I’ve experienced with my animal companions and all of the animals that cross my path and come into my life, is that I am one who is here to help animals cross over and I’ve been in “training” so to speak to fully embody the unconditionally compassionate and detached place where I can love them fully, deepen my communication with them, and do what is in their best interests and highest good solely.
And this has deepened my connection to how much my soul is invigorated by the exchange and care I am blessed to give and have with these beautiful and powerful souls in animal bodies. Animals are everything to me and to have the honor of this place in supporting their transitions and soul path choices is one I do not take lightly, but fully embrace with overflow of love.
It is also in preparation for a near future-me manifestation that is in process of coming to be step-by-step.
But, as mentioned, there are layers to Fiver being with me. And one connection is with Cosmo, since he is very much reflecting the same special needs that he did.
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I had to take a break, as little Fiver has just passed right next to me as I’ve been writing of this beautiful experience with him.
I will continue now….I needed time to support that, honor the moment and him, and do the energy work to help. Oh, such sweetness he’s brought.
It seemed as if last night that could have transpired, but his strength amped up this morning, despite not wanting to eat. It felt like he was testing out his limitations as he was deciding and that he had been doing soul searching last night, as well as receiving all of the support from those guiding him and the crystals.
Fiver had refused all food and water this morning, but kept wanting me to rub him and comfort him, as his body was starting to prepare.
He moved around quite a bit and his body started looking much better and rejuvenated, his eyes keeping open rather than closed like they were pretty much all day and night before, and even had used one of his legs, which was not possible before.
I’d placed a small quartz point in with him, as well as a black tourmaline.
I kept him close and kept comforting him, never more than inches from him at all times.
A friend, literally minutes before his passing, had offered to do some gentle Qigong for bruising and broken bones. He was open to this. I understand now why he wanted it.
Suddenly, he had begun to move around looking more like his mouse self, but filled with peace and strength…and he got up on all fours, which he had not been able to do, although was trying all morning, walked a bit, then was able to push off his back legs and do a little mouse jump a few inches forward.
Incredibly, where he jumped was DIRECTLY over and centered above the tiny quartz point I had placed in there – the point facing toward his head and almost like he was riding a crystalline rocket to the Cosmos, as you can see here (I was so wow’d I’d immediately grabbed my camera, as it was incredulous).
He was alert, beautiful, and stood there exhibiting his fullness and how he once used to look for about a half to three quarters of a minute with his once limp legs now holding him strongly.
Both Dave and I had witnessed this. And then he suddenly went stiff and his spirit left, leaving him to sink softly upon the quartz point – his resting place and conduit to travel to the Beyond.
I knew he was gone.
It was without struggle, without noise or anquish, it was without any feeling of stress…It was simply like he literally was whole, released from pain,had a surge of energy, and took to flight, just as I’d seen earlier with a Raven that had messaged me outside the window and did the same.
I gently picked him up and placed him in my palm with my other loosely around him. I blessed him, did energy with his Chakras, and guided him to his friends awaiting him.
I placed him for now gently in his bed and covered him with a little cloth blanket. I will prepare a proper burial for him.
He looked and felt like a little, precious angel in my hands and his body had completely rejuvenated…his fur looking so lovely in comparison to the day before and his limp, lifeless legs looking strong in the position he now came to rest in.
What an honor. What a gift. What a healing and soul embodiment he has provided.
I had missed caring for my little ones and Fiver returned that deep soul joy and love I had an empty space with. And with the clarity he helped me to anchor and realize within myself and how this is my path and will continue, I feel this greater peace and wholeness…a deep healing and soul retrieval once again.
This dear little mouse, who had his own path I assisted, and lavishing him with love and comforts he’d never known, helped me into expanding bigger by claiming parts of who I am and affirming I’m on path.
Avia Venefica shares about Symbolic Mouse Meaning:
“Our ancient ancestors observed their affinity for ground-burrowing, and likened this to mice being ‘one with the Mother’ (Mother Earth, that is). This ground-loving behavior was also seen as a connection to the Underworlds (or Otherworlds, depending upon your source of reference). This kind of connection makes the mouse a kind of mediator between physical life and recycling life (spirit energies in transition). This Earth and Underworld connection continues in western, medieval Europe, where folk superstitions tell of mice possessing the ability to carry souls of humans who have passed from this physical life.
In Native North American Indian symbolism, tribes such as the Navajo established the mouse having governance over the southern quadrant of their medicine wheel, which represents a macrocosmic view of life. The southern quadrant of the medicine wheel holds sacred tenets such as new beginnings, connection with the Mother (Nature/Earth). It also represents youthfulness and innocence. Because the mouse is quite modest, and connected so closely with the Mother Earth, it has gained great prominence in this and other branches of Native wisdom.
Mice are incredibly prolific, as mentioned earlier, and can bear up to a dozen pups every four to six weeks. That’s a lotta mice. This is symbolic of fertility, abundance, and expansion. For example, a mouse in your awareness could be symbolic of your ability to mass-produce new births in the form of new ideas, development, creativity, social connections – any number of opportunities are available for us to give birth often and abundantly, the mouse is a reminder of that.”
All of this rings in for me on more levels than I can express here since it would make this a very long post.
Fiver definitely whispered many things to my heart and soul and the symbolism of his tiny, but mighty mouse soul spoke deeply in a way only one so innocent and pure could for me.
Mice also remind us of being ultra aware, seeing what is right before us, and then to take action in alignment with that. They want us not to neglect things we might overlook, nor to scatter our energy, and to stay aware of everything going on to avoid dangers and pitfalls. In this way we can get ultra focused. In this way they are showing us the path to the bigger things, by focusing on and discerning the little things in the moment, adapting, and remaining determined.
Thank you Fiver, for the sweetness you embody, for the love and healing that you nurtured my heart with, for the confirmation of my role, for reaffirming and keeping me laser focused on the path I’m now on, and for infusing abundant inspiration to the prolific creative projects I have in the works.
You are honored and will be physically missed, but I am grateful to have you as a soul guide joining with the rest of our family, that is now yours too.
To hold you Fiver in my hands – so beautiful that you are – and caress your cheeks, head, and injured, fragile little perfectly imperfect body was like touching an angel’s wings.
You are my angel of hope sweet Fiver, forever more.
Winter’s Breath
Yesterday the snow storm stopped and left an incredible otherworld of snowy wonder all around us. Perfect for snow shoeing and immersing in winter’s majesty. We have the Tahoe Rim Trail just a minute’s walk from our place so away we went into the deep, powdered, snow blanketed forest on the edge of the mountain. The stillness and magick was breathtaking and such a gift, as the snow was untouched, leaving this enchanted realm all to ourselves to explore. Even the braids that I wore had come undone and became frosted over making me feel like a true Snow Faery. At one point I catapulted myself backwards into the fresh snow and left my mark as such. I hope you enjoy this walk through another world with beings all around.
The first couple of photos are of the banisters to our stairs just outside our front door covered in snow like long pine cones and a glimpse of our snow covered car. The last photo is this morning’s sunrise of hope and promise.
A Powerful Night & A Beautiful Day
Last night was powerfully supercharged, so much so I was up for about 3 hours full of energy surging through me and my mind racing while the storm continued outside, there was an ominously mysterious glow through the windows of gold on the snow all around, and my Crystal Skull was next to my head, as usual, on the nightstand beside me. I knew Raja Seraphina was actively connecting with everyone that has stepped forward as potential new guardians. And this was reiterated with some messages from people sharing so this morning, even people who had only seen her photo, but hadn’t messaged to be her guardian. So, it’s no surprise the power went out last night too.
This morning I awoke to breathtaking beauty all around…Powder blue and white powder everywhere. And not in the least bit tired, but full of energy and new ideas.
Up high where we are we’ve gotten 4 feet of snow.. Lake level about 2 feet.
Nothing like sunny days nearly year round, dry cold, powder, and four seasons.
This Winter baby and Snow Faery Bunny loves this surreal, otherworldly reality that surrounds and inspires me.
As for Raja Seraphina, she is working intently with each person’s soul signature. I am basically leaving her to her thing and only checking in every now and then to see where she’s at in her process. It seems she’s moved through a lot quickly (evident by my being up while feeling her) and is now focused on three souls she’s exploring more deeply.
Thank you for your patience with her and thank you to those of you who embraced your role and stepped forward.
While she continues her tuning in, I will be out tuning in with Nature.
I LOVE how everything around me reflects the purity, majesty, and grace of her essence…So it’s like delving into the realm within her that she’s projected without.