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Get Busy Being
A writer writes.
An artist creates.
A human loves.
A rabbit hops.
A flower blooms.
A star shines.
Get busy BEING.
And it doesn’t hurt to have a magickal Peter Rabbit to remind you of who you are.
Embracing the Shapeshifter Within
The cosmic me
Shapeshifting is the ability to change physical form at will – changing one thing into another – or to shift the energy you are emitting from your physical body. This can be a full on transformation or could be an energetic morphing and merging that happens more subtly.
Shamans and medicine women and men are known to shapeshift, often times taking on the spirit or essence of an animal and able to journey into otherworlds.
And many in the otherworlds – the magickal and “unseen” realms – are shapeshifters too, slipping easily into different forms at will to move more easily amidst the worlds or simply to experience other forms, blend into their environment, or to show up in ways that would be of most benefit and support to those who they appear to.
The inner unicorn me – Laura pointed out that I reminded her of the essence of the Chariot Tarot card in the Robin Wood deck that has a black and white unicorn pulling the chariot, as shared below. This photo was “accidentally” snapped when I thought I was recording a video about the “inner unicorn”. The video didn’t show up, but the photo remained.
Robin Wood Chariot Tarot card
True, there are shapeshifters of another kind of energy that you may not resonate with, but simply because an ability that is available to all, if harnessed, doesn’t make it wrong or bad simply because certain beings may utilize it too. It again comes down to intent.
Shapeshifting can have different connotations to people depending on your perspective.
The mermaid/nymph me
Some people may see this as scary or even “evil” and yet if you think about it, since we are part of a collective soul and more than just the person we or others identify us as solely in this lifetime, it would make sense that, at the least, we could have some bleed-through of all of our “selves”.
And thus, anyone could shapeshift and there are many that do, especially if you are living an integration life, as many of us are, or if you are working at deep soul levels in your evolution.
The otherworld Faery me
Shapeshifters, or the ability to shapeshift is about being able to change your energy slightly and sometimes this can happen even unconsciously.
For instance, you may be engaged in something so heart and soulful that it activates a part of your dna and soul remembrance that shifts your energy in the moment to bring out different essence qualities in you that change your appearance, or that draw forth parts of your soul and other power lifetimes where you were utilizing these gifts more seamlessly.
And then you start to morph into what you looked like in that lifetime, or looking like an animal or being you’ve been as well, or taking on those physical traits that closely relate to this energy within you.
The rabbit me and the Egyptian me
So it can be a merging with an animal spirit, non-human spirit (cosmic, devic, angelic, etc), or another form of yourself from another dimensional time period. And this may be a bleed-through or it may be in order for you to do work that your current human form can’t.
You may even become an element, lake, mountain, rock, plant, mineral, or something altogether cosmic, etc. You can merge as anything that exists as consciousness since you are all things.
It’s a way that we move into the limitlessness and expansive eternal essence of our consciousness and step into more of our formless and shapeless selves that are boundless – knowing that we are all of these things.
The animus me (inner masculine) – I actually had a literal shapeshifting photo caught in the midst of shifting into this that was quite freaky cool, but I lost the photo.
Perhaps it could be seen as moving into the sacred “knowing” and collective aspects of self that are aligned with divine will, rather than “time” focused, ego attachment.
And yet, at any moment we can choose to move in and out and identify, at any moment, with which ever parts of that sacredness we desire, simultaneously aware that we are all and none.
I’ve been aware of this shapeshifting quality within myself for a long time, but it has increasingly been showing up, the more I’ve gotten in touch with my most natural, authentic essence and have deepened my integrative work.
The ancient Inca/Mayan/Native American Indian me
And so I find myself morphing in photos, looking different in almost every photo taken of me (sometimes that being quite odd how much I don’t look like the “me” I/you may know and yet looking more the “me’s” that I/we are), and it becoming more visually perceivable, rather than just energetically felt, by others.
I like to think of it as embracing all of my selves and moving more into the boundless experience, while making that a vulnerably revealing process that is natural.
The Sprite me
I’ve shared just a few of the photos that stood out recently revealing different “me’s”, but there have been so many.
Perhaps you have noticed this along the journey of my sharing.
Perhaps you have noticed it within yourself.
The many me’s
The Raw Majesty of You
As I explored the Grand Canyon’s rugged beauty, I reflected on the raw essence she mirrors for us to embrace within ourselves.
After returning from a hike in the canyon on our last day, taking a hot shower, bundling up in my cozies as my hair dried, and sitting down with a vegan hot chocolate, this is the message that came through.
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Inner Sanctum of Ecstatic Living ~ Some Words Before I Journey Deeper Within: A Farewell for Now
What I’m sharing in this post today comes from my last Newsletter, for the month of August, which I just sent out yesterday.
It’s the last one before I head off on my three month sabbatical, which begins on September 1st and goes through November 30th.
It’s an important one to share, although I will still be posting blogs up through August 31st, as it expresses my personal journey around this, which might mirror some of your own. But it is my last newsletter, since I do those monthly, only.
Since the people who read my blog and newsletter are very different, I’m sharing it here:
A Farewell for Now
What’s happening in my personal experience?
I usually share a lot of collective inspiration that channels through each month, sprinkled with how that relates for me. And while that will still come through this month, it will take place by you discovering your own reflections in a more personal note of sharing this time that perhaps you might relate to, or find a seed of connection with, in some way.
As you know, I will be taking off on my 3 month personal sabbatical beginning September 1st. That’s just a month away now and oh so much to do before then, as so much has been rapidly unfolding since I made that decision!
I will be completely unplugged and unreachable, as I venture into my little creative bubble and have the opportunity to be purely with myself.
On the one hand, this experience feels like a long time coming, and on the other hand, it is divinely aligned and couldn’t have happened any sooner than it is.
It also happens to coincide with some big life changes taking place – no coincidence – and so the timing couldn’t be better if I’d actually planned it, and yet of course we know I did. 😉
It has all been divinely guided by my intuition and inner heart knowing. And then completely trusted and unwavering in that knowing, although remaining flexible to the flow of energy so it would all be effortless, rather than feel like work or forced in anyway, and surrendering it with intention for the highest good of all concerned.
Since many of you have been curious and asking, I thought I’d share what’s going on in a more intimate way, as I feel that transparency and vulnerability is important to create more of the same reflections collectively.
Maybe you’ll see yourself somewhere in my share, since nothing we do is energetically isolated to just us, alone.
What has led me here?
This personal sabbatical is not one where I’ll be traveling off to explore, nor is it about sitting in meditation and stillness. It’s like a complete soul reset where I get to choose not only from a clean slate in this life, but a clean soul slate in terms of my collective soul.
I’ve shared with a few people that I’ve been what I call, “soul tired.”
This is not a physical tiredness, nor is it an energetic drain from overwork. In fact, it has little to do with my actual human body, and yet has everything to do with both my human and Earthly incarnations as a soul, on the whole.
It actually is not easy to explain how it feels, unless you’re experiencing similar, but needless to say, it is a simultaneous experience of feeling death and birth both upon me.
It is coming to a place of rest, peace, and recognition of all that has been in my Earthly lives, all that has culminated throughout my soul “history” here, and being conscious of it all, understanding what I have been awaiting myself to realize, while having integrated it as well.
At times that has felt heavy, like a mourning while I review everything and make soul decisions (which will now be moment to moment and day to day at a whole new level where anything profound can take place in an instant), sometimes overwhelming, a fully encompassing soul exhaustion that literally wants to remove myself from everything, frustration knowing I’ve had to fully put closure to everything on all levels with loving release while I have been so ready soulfully to move on for over a year and have been living in the new reality already, and yet peacefully embraced with understanding at the same time, while also like a huge ecstatic relief and excitement.
It’s a recognition and reverence for it all, and involves having reviewed my soul records, realizing the contracts really ARE done, I’ve paid my dues so to speak, I’ve even finished the extensions I gave myself and in some cases didn’t realize I was living on still without need to, and knowing from here on out, it’s all up to me in a very new and freeing, expansive way, as to what I want to create, engage in, and invest my life vitality towards.
It always has been freedom of will and choice and yet there was also a personal soul responsibility I had chosen to agree to with all of me, and contracts my heart were in every way committed to see through.
I’m one of those souls, like many of you, who have been more than around the block here on Earth, incarnating more times than I can count and in more forms than you can imagine.
Things took their shift at the end of 2012, involving coming to realizations of closure, but have been in a state of not fully grasping that for many of us, and a time period of integrating what that meant for each individually and collectively.
I’d say that it didn’t fully in embodiment hit me on every level until the end of Summer, beginning of Fall, of last year 2014, although was coming through loudly all of 2014 and end of 2013.
A series of potent dream sequences (which were happening in real-soul-time) took place during that end of Summer, beginning of Fall time period that not only explicitly gave me these messages, activated an upgrade, and offered me the most freeing and yet defining choice of my Earthly soul-existence, but have changed the way in which I live, see, feel, and experience things in all ways.
Now, I am looking at this vast and boundless “space” before me, much like the black background of this newsletter, knowing that I get to purely create in each moment, with very fulfilling release from any contract to fulfill, and only having the responsibility of my essence guiding me.
No longer is it about “holding space”, but is now about “creating space.”
What will this look like?
In terms of my 3 month sabbatical, as mentioned, I won’t be in meditative stillness or off venturing around the world, but rather, will be involved in ecstatic creation during this time, as well as ecstatic embodiment, which will carry through thereafter.
This is an experience to a level never have I had before, but it’s also one that comes from the immensity of soul credit built up from all of the committed work invested.
I think many of you can relate to the weight of what I share in that without necessity for detailing, because you’ve experienced this, or are realizing and experiencing it now, and perhaps hadn’t known how to put it all into words.
That doesn’t mean there won’t be new, exciting challenges and evolutionary paths to embrace, but they are done with flow, harmony, and in the grace of essence simply unfolding creatively each moment by conscious choice.
I prefer the word “ecstasy” to “bliss”, although they share similar definitions.
Some definitions of ecstasy include:
- rapturous delight
- an overpowering emotion or exaltation
- the frenzy of poetic inspiration
- an emotional frenzy or trance-like state, originally one involving an experience of mystic self-transcendenceSo, I will be venturing into the inner sanctum of ecstatic living, and during my 3 months “off”, I will actually be very much “on” in terms of full body activation.
This will be a time period of creative channeling based solely on where my heart is guided and nothing else.
I have several creative projects wanting to channel through involving writing, art, soul music/musical immanence, and animals – both Cosmic and Earth connected. This will also be a time period for resetting the soul button, spending quality time with my beloveds, and most of all having a new relationship with myself and life to see where I choose to go next.
Every moment being lived in the fullest, as if there may or may not be another tomorrow, as things are.
Decisions will also be made during this time, as to what things will look like upon my return from this renewing and invigorating bubble, as I will also be putting together the things that have spoken to me to share with you.
So, there will in fact be changes in store as to what offerings look like and what new things will be available for us to co-creatively engage in.
This includes, for me, a new life of greater simplicity and ease to take in everything in a whole new, yet most naturally-me way.
Loving life from the multi-dimensionally empowered perspective with utter freedom of will and choice at every turn. Cosmic me fully integrated with Earthly me.
I realized this was actually integrating visibly when yesterday a man stopped me while I was out waiting for friends to join me for lunch, to discuss my tattoos (I wore a backless top). I turned around and he proceeded to ask me what I do, sharing he was a “psychic”, only to stop in the midst of his sentence, leaning in and peering closer at my eyes and said, “You have stars in your eyes, did you know that?”
On the physical level he was speaking to the amber gold star-like burst around my pupils sitting in my blue/green eyes. But on another level, it then hit me that what I’ve been embracing embodiment of more was taking form, as he continued with “You Star People…”
What else is happening?
I also mentioned that my decision to take this 3 month time off also “happens” to coincide with some life changes that have been expedited quite rapidly since announcing this, and returning from activating in Indiana with Laura, reclaiming, acknowledging, releasing, and seeding in Sedona, as well as reconnecting with my essence with the horses in British Columbia. Not to mention the two big trips to Iceland and Peru I knew I had to take and did at onset of this year that kick-started it all.
I can’t begin to tell you all of the extremely magickal details that have been unfolding to manifest what is happening.
And, truth be known…I have simply connected with full heart, body, mind, and soul what I knew in my heart I wanted. Then, trusted implicitly, regardless of the hurdles that were around, or what appeared on the outside, and without need to know how.
My entire life has shifted in reflection to my personal shifts embraced. I know you know what I mean and have experienced how that works yourself.
EMBODY the change….SEE the change.
In a nutshell, one thing after another has continued to fall into place…and not just “any” place, but so divinely aligned it could only be the magick of essence embodiment manifest.
That said, in a matter of one and a half weeks, the house has been rented for three years to the most perfect, dear family and friends, this weekend the RV and car to be towed are all on their way here, all the upgrades will be started next week on the RV, I’m plugging through finalizing my work this month, the bunnies are loving best friends and both got clean bills of health from the vet through blood tests, etc. – so they’re ready to go, and amazing things keep showing up daily not only for me, but everyone I know around me.
It’s incredible how much has shifted. And while it seems overnight, it has been a process of continued belief, dedication, and moving forward.
No matter what I heard or any thing that would arise that seemed to halt things, I knew there was a reason and I knew it wouldn’t change what I wanted and saw happening. If a temporary road block appeared, I knew it meant to relax and realize that I was to be patient for a better and more aligned moment and experience that was on the threshold.
So, October 15th is the official hand-over-of-the-house-to-amazing-souls-day that will also be caring for my beloved Garden Tower and garden. And the beginning of October will see the move from house to RV. YAY!!
For now, we’ll be in an RV park in Orange County, until the next leg of the journey comes together and reveals itself. I don’t know how the next thing is going to happen, but I do know that it will.
This was what needed to be done first and because it wasn’t forced, but flowed with…waiting just for the precise moment to leap, it all came together seamlessly.
It’s a balance of intention without attachment or expectation, full embodiment of the new even though it isn’t here yet, flowing with the energy rather than forcing it, not allowing setbacks to deter you or discourage you, realizing the perfection of what shows up, and then courageously leaping when there’s a green light. Plus, don’t forget to intend everything for the highest good of all concerned to create the most harmonious and love-centered experience for everyone involved.
The Universe then supports you tenfold.
One step at a time…and it’s all about taking the steps without need to know how.
And I KNOW the rest is going to unfold once this all takes place.
So YES, I will be extremely busy this month of August, which is why I’m getting this very last newsletter out right away (coinciding with the potent Aquarius Full Blue Moon) before I head off on my sabbatical, as I’ll be working on projects I have to complete by August 31st, while starting to work on all that needs to be done for the life shift.
(While I’ve always been about the Moon, everything Sun-filled with juicy Golden Light has my attention these days…working with both the Shadow and Light for depth of integration and expansion.)
All of the preparations and getting grounded with these new life shifts will stem into my first month “off”, combining both my creative process with what I’m creating in a literal physical way, to mirror my heart’s desire of ecstatic living to support the inspirational channeling process.
Essence and heart focus equals collective service automatically.
Do I believe?
You’re darn right I do and I have all my life, despite any and all experiences I’ve been through.
It’s what has gotten me this far and how I’ve created what I have despite and because of all the challenges faced.
My belief in things is unwavering, despite what people think of me for what I believe, or even for how I choose to live my life.
And one of the things I believe in is you, too.
I wish each and every one of you your heart’s desires and hope to see you on the other end of my sabbatical, sharing in your own version of ecstatic living.
I look forward to sharing and connecting more then.
In love and creative magick,
Tania Marie
P.S. Remember I’m still available to discuss inquiries or questions through August 31st. So if there’s something you’ve been interested in knowing about or wanting to share, now’s the time this month to do so, as I won’t be available for the following 3 months after, beginning September 1st.
New Moon ~ New You
Feeling enchanted in the Faery forest of Big Bear
I don’t know about you, but I’m feeling an extra burst of enchantment emerging in my life, likely in part because I’ve been heavily immersed in Faery energy of late (moreso than usual, if you can believe that 😉 ). But also because I’ve been in process the last few months of doing what these two astrologers share in their energy take on tomorrow’s upcoming Cancer New Moon.
I like how astrologer, Cathy Pagano puts it:
“Since the New Moon is in a challenging aspect to Uranus in Aries, there is an opportunity to allow a new sense of yourself out…If you’re lost on a small island, you have to become the hero/ine of your own life. Let your archetypal identity come through and challenge yourself to make those changes that will give you the life you want and deserve…”
And astrologer, Robert Wilkinson adds:
“Just stay focused on how to demonstrate what your heart’s really into, go for whatever refreshes you and get the exercise you need, see things from multiple points of view, and be willing to transcend your old self, and graduate into a new realm of Being.”
For me, that “new realm of Being” is actually a deepening more into my truest soul essence like never before. There are always greater depths and expansion we can go to…after-all, everything is infinite.
My soul focus has been on going from joy to ecstacy…I personally resonate with that word, rather than bliss.
Since I’ve returned Sunday from British Columbia and the magickal time spent there at Epona Rise with the horses and Faeries, it’s like I’ve received access to another part of me that hasn’t been yet the time to bring forth, but is now taking form – permission granted, loose ends getting all tied up, slate clean, timing aligned, all systems go. Yay!
So, if you’re feeling like it’s time for a new lease on life, this is a great opportunity with the New Moon’s influence, to harness another level of self-love to take you there.
This Moon is a cleansing moon, full of feminine nurturing that can really support you into loving more of you, your feelings, and bring self-sabotaging illusions to light.
Stay on top of heightened emotions, fears, attachments, while gently and lovingly give yourself permission to gracefully let it all go.
Wishing you a beautiful New Moon beginning, as you allow yourself to be more fully you.
The Essence of You
I honor your blossoming journey and the sweet fragrance of your soul.
Every day your delicate petals unfurl a little bit more, revealing the essence of who you are.
What do you see when you peer deeply to the core of you?
I see an angel recognizing their reflection for the first time and awakening into the embodiment of that grace.
Paradise Is….
…and of heart, soul, and being.
It is also a choice.
That said, what’s paradise to one person may be another person’s prison.
One of the “definitions” of paradise is “an ideal or idyllic place or state”. So one might then wonder just whose “ideal” or “definition” are we envisioning when we think of a state of being or “place” we would like to be in?
Wikipedia defines paradise as:
“a religious or metaphysical term for a place in which existence is positive, harmonious and eternal. It is often compared to the miseries of human civilization: in paradise there is only peace, prosperity, and happiness. Paradise is a place of contentment, but it is not necessarily a land of luxury and idleness. Paradise is often described as a “higher place”, the holiest place, in contrast to this world, or underworlds such as Hell.”
In general, it’s considered a Utopian state without sorrow, suffering, and so-called “sin”.
And to many, that translates as an idea of heaven or some idyllic island oasis.
Nobody ever taught us that paradise could be the human state of being and the ability to have so many undefined choices and experiences.
Paradise is not really a location, nor a destination or level to attain to. These are just our ideas of how to achieve a certain state of being and experience that we’ve deemed more ideal and perhaps even more valuable.
That feeling you experience when you are on that exotic beach with the crystal clear, aqua blue water flowing around you, the palms swaying in the wing, the sun warmly kissing your skin, birds serenading you, and the silence calming your mind and nerves….this is a sample of what you can achieve in experience and embodiment, where ever you are and in any circumstance, if you know the way back to your true self so that you can have and appreciate each experience with the full capacity of what it truly has to offer you.
Paradise is a natural state of being in your essence…that experience of feeling centered, balanced, relaxed, inspired, and in harmony. It is you, being in flow and movement with greater ease and is available to you at any moment.
It’s not something to chase after and it’s not something outside of your human experience to attain by running away from yourself right here and now in your beautiful body.
It can also be when you are experiencing the things you have been accustomed to thinking are bad or painful, but you experience them from a place of embracing their value and with an understanding that they are expressions needing to flow through and take their course in the natural cycle of things. It may not “feel” so good, but that feeling has its place and can shift when we aren’t attached to judging and anchoring a defining limitation to it.
When you are focused everywhere else – in the past or on the future – worrying, stressing, having impatience, regretting, experiencing excited anxiety, then this as well can remove you from that state of being in the present. You latch on to everything else, without being able to see and experience what is here and now before you, which includes all things you as a human are able to experience.
Yes, granted they are all varying in their feelings, but that variety of feeling is part of the magnificence of your state of being.
Someone, at some point, decided that certain feelings and experiences were bad, not as valuable, wrong, unworthy, and even sinful. And from there, we began to accept anchored beliefs, as defining of our experiences. This conditioning created an inner turmoil where the parts of us that are naturally wanting to just “be” are at odds with and fighting the parts that want to control and beat them down. The result is imbalance, disharmony, and war that wreaks havoc within and without.
Whether you want to call it paradise, or simply being, it really is about that return to natural harmony…just like those beautiful, exotic locations remind you of when you bask in their flow.
However, the frigid snowy landscapes, fall trees without their clothing of foliage, a dry, desolate desert, or even the boiling magma beneath the Earth’s surface are all reminders of states of being in flow and natural harmony as well. They simply don’t think about it, nor judge it. And truth be told, they are all beautiful to witness in their own way.
These are just some ideas to consider that may be helpful to bringing you back to being in that state of mind, heart, soul, and being:
- be very present, realizing that where ever you are and whom ever you are with can be paradise if you are open to seeing and experiencing the gifts present all around and don’t have expectations to limit them
- those times you are doing what you love and feeling that sense of natural flow and joy are reflections of your natural state of being – paradise – remember that
- those times you are feeling out of sorts, uncharacteristically off, or weighed heavily in certain feeling experiences over others, realize these feelings are the threshold to understanding your flow – invite them to share their message, allow the feeling to move through, and recognize where you’re attached and unwilling to pick up anchor so that you can embrace the next wind approaching your sails
- when you feel thrown off balance, start to get stressed, very serious, and narrowly focused, take a moment to shift your gaze and look all around you – and if you are too overwhelmed, having anxiety, or feel fear, then shift your gaze to just in front of you – shifts in perspective, literally, can help you to breathe in more lightness and shift your mood
- find ways to laugh at yourself and find the humor in things
- share acts of gentle kindness with yourself and others that seem out of character, especially if you are stressed, and you’ll soften your current gaze
- as many times as you can, find something nice to say to yourself no matter how small you might think it is, as well as to others when they are off-balance – remind yourself of the nice things people have said to you
- find something to be grateful for, even if it’s the ability to walk, to breathe air, or to be alive
- move your body – dance, exercise, walk…whatever you can do to move the energy and feelings through you
- get out and be with nature – hug a tree, take a stroll in the woods, smell the flowers, let the sun shine on your face, welcome the rain to cleanse your soul
- lessen up on, and then rid yourself of, the “shoulds”
- realize that being human is holy and heaven on Earth is the realization of your state of embodying that
Accountability to Embody ~ Making Changes with Essence Integrity
I’ve learned that I simply don’t want, nor can afford, to put energy into things and experiences that no longer serve, and truly aren’t aligned with, what I’m guided to create from the essence of my natural frequency, as that not only affects my well-being, but my ability to be of greatest service for the highest good and to people who are also taking accountability in their lives.
Realizing where my time and energy would be better focused for that greater good supports embrace of Divine timing and flow of all things to take place, which creates that magickal alignment.
This also creates the basis for profound change that comes from within and stems from a more natural alignment with what is core to me, rather than a displacement of my desires to be in that alignment.
Like some of you, I have felt guided to withdraw physically from many things in order to actually be able to give more, which is through my own transmutation into who I am in essence.
This has involved, and will continue to involve, a lot of life readjustments, reorganization, review, and release, in order to focus on what is of most soul-benefit right now to be engaged with. It takes me on a journey through the shadows, as well as the light, so that I may bring a fuller depth of understanding to the choices I make and the creations that therefore will birth in greater wholeness.
One of my only outlets of connection, besides my work and personal life, is via this blog, where I share much of what feels important, inspiring, and creatively supportive to impart.
I share a lot of my personal journey whether literally or symbolically through my blog, as a means of support to others that I know go through similar experiences and might feel alone in that process, or like no one understands it.
It’s okay to change your mind, it’s okay to find new inspiration, and to admit you are feeling stifled even in the role others may respect and admire you for being in currently. This is a sign of growth and natural evolution. And as you let go of those “roles”, you are able to walk through new doorways of experience that provide the opportunities for expansive breath into new freedom that perhaps is less defined, but more expansively amorphous to what is energetically reflective of the nature of now.
I’m quite the shape-shifter that embraces change and I am willing to put that out there when it shows up, as I believe that change is the natural process of life and the one thing you can count on always being a part of it, whether you embrace it or not.
I’ve shared before that it has become increasingly important for me to shift gears and to let go of a lot of things that feel complete at this time in many areas of my life. This, in order to embody more of my essence and consciously create a new paradigm of experience I am called to, knowing that as I do so that it is the most responsible, accountable, and service related thing I can do by extension of BEING this.
This reflects in the expression of my creative life force/work I am called to do and also the life choices I make. So you HAVE seen, and WILL continue to see a lot of shifts in these regards from me.
For me, my original soul missions have and are coming to closure, which leaves me with expansive choices to make from a different essence place of myself. That is both exciting and can also invite much unknown that calls for greater courage, deeper trust, and full-on heart immersion, since this opens a wider realm of possibilities where things are revealed only moment to moment, as well as shift moment to moment.
That wasn’t quite the game before, as I did have foresight and an understanding of what I had set out to do. Now, I am really creating anew and in a state of reclaiming sovereign free will on a whole other level.
Much of what has been evolving for some of us in integration lives, is closure to a lot of what we originally set forth to accomplish, if in fact we’ve been doing the work. This has been happening increasingly since the last couple of years. And yet, in many ways, the realization of that hasn’t caught up for some, and in other ways some are caught in a perpetual, one-directional spiral, not realizing they have the ability to create a new spiral expanding out in many other directions.
And still yet for some, perhaps there is a place of comfort you’ve “arrived” at and are ceasing to stretch yourself into another level of evolution that has been nudging you.
Of course it’s well deserved to take a rest and break after much work I know many have been doing. But complacency and that sense of “arrival” you may have been pursuing, can be a hindrance not only to your own growth potentials, but to the collective at large.
Personally, I don’t feel okay with being complacent and just because I get to a place where I become really good at something I’ve been doing for a while and what people come to expect or connect me with, I know it is not for me to stay there, and to continue to step into another level to deepen and expand my experience, as well as to be of greatest service to others through that process and embodiment.
That may not be the case for everyone, but for me, this involves recognizing the time for allowing others to take over in some ways, and assisting them in that process to do so, and to move into another role of bridging things from the radiance of my “beingness”, which I nurture by supporting what is true to it.
Things are ready, and will become ready, BECAUSE of your willingness to release into more of who you are and into what seem like new realms, but truly are the most natural, core expressions of you.
In this way of opening to more possibilities and limitless expansion, you create doorways for others to access the same.
And this involves changing the inner landscape so that it is aligned with all that you hold dear, rather than focusing on the outer ideals you are trying to live up to, convince yourself you are reflecting, or feel compelled to project change ON to.
The inward journey of embodying who you really are in this moment, and bringing that forth, rather than trying to emulate what you feel you “need” to, or “should”, be doing – trying to come up with an idea that you try to fit yourself into – can be exasperating, draining, disappointing, and in the end will not produce the results you desire because they aren’t consistent with who you really are. This will be felt by others, whether consciously or subconsciously, and will also draw to you the energy that reflects this inner inconsistency.
It will also defeat your efforts to create change around you, as if you are not truly embodying that which you desire to see changed in others, you have already set yourself up for disappointment.
I believe that one of the greatest fears is to admit that we may not be who we really think we are. The same fear that others are demonstrating in not wanting to change in the ways you desire, is the fear within self that isn’t able to reconcile a similar inner discrepancy.
I think that what would be valuable to the process is a willingness to be honest with ourselves, to be open to honest feedback from others and their reflections of our inconsistency, and to be mindful of the type of energy we are putting out there.
I think a willingness to accept when it’s time to move into a new level of you is key and this can reflect in many ways, adding on dimensions and layers to what you currently do, or completely shifting into new aspects of yourself most currently reflective. I feel that the willingness to let go of control in any one area that we’ve attained or become good in, recognizing timing and how others are now capable and ready to step into those realms can be very beneficial. This will assist in living from true abundance and connection to your collective family, whom will be grateful for your honoring of their ability to step into their new roles you may be leaving.
I know there are times you may feel the need to be all things and master it all now, and yet we each have different and constantly evolving roles that are there to be honored throughout the course of our journeys, as well as carried out by others when we have a greater personal calling and better use of our gifts elsewhere. I’ve also seen the scarcity and ego mentality of people claiming certain attainments, that are unwilling to support others into their fullness or to help them to take over some of the positions they hold or may have held, as there is an attachment and fear not just of wanting to hold on to that status, but of fear to move into a new role where at first it will again be new in feeling and like starting from the bottom. This can all end up revealing a potential, false abundance mentality that has not yet truly been embodied.
Yet, if truth be known, in actuality the new role you release yourself into will be the most natural and most expansive you’ve experienced so far, if you can get past that old fear pattern that yes, is still hanging on, regardless of the conscious claims you make.
Because, let’s face it…it’s scary to move beyond something you know really well, right? But a little healthy fear is the catalyst for great change. It’s not the enemy…it’s indication of your desire for the new (or rather, indication of the more “you”), nudging you to get all your parts in alignment for the inevitable.
And imagine now, if you will, the people who are on their beginning phases of their more conscious journey, or in their own transitional phase into the next change, then.
Remember how it may have felt to you before you got to where you are now feeling very comfortable, and remember how you feel now if you in fact are being nudged out of your comfort zone to yet ANOTHER new leg of your evolutionary journey? When you remember this feeling, maybe you can then share a bit more compassion and let up on your desires to exert effort outside of yourself so that you’ll have more energy to put toward your own changes, which will reflect so beautifully for the people who will benefit from your desires and efforts embodied, rather than projected.
As one door closes, another opens…and the doors you close, are the opening doors for others, and vice versa. We are always in a connective process that triggers a collective domino effect. So when we make courageous choices to change, others are simultaneously ready and able to do the same.
Life is always an experience of wholeness….we are both leading and following, teachers and students, changing and awaiting change, fearing and desiring change…. at the same time. If you can stand in the place of acknowledgment, and detachment from identifying solely with any of these, then you can just be with the process naturally.
We each affect change and provide a catalyst for each other, but it stems from what is taking place within and then embodied, inside out. We are all on different journeys and different places along those journeys. Increasingly it is becoming important to act responsibly, consciously (awareness is power), and to be accountable for what you embody, as well as seek from within.
Make the changes that are true to you and not some idealized version of you, or as an act of defiance, or guilt. And if you don’t yet know what that is, then make a commitment to start listening more so you can hear the subtle voice of your truth amidst all the “noise”, which can be both obvious and not obvious.
“For those of you who have exited your cocoon, your new mantra is, “Change is not Fearful.” You have perhaps focused on either emotional or physical issues and now you are likely moving into the opposite to learn that change is not fearful – just a ‘new normal’. There will be a time when change will be perceived as joyful. But for now, you’re learning it just is.”…..
“Some of you wish to stop a bit and learn how to love yourself. That is fine and good. Love is key to new earth. But part of that self-love is accepting your shifts and those of others without many, if any, visible changes.
Perhaps you expect those of the light to have some sort of halo about them so that you can tag them as important to your transition. In searching for that halo, you have listened to that channel, meditated with that teacher and drifted from thought to thought – hoping this or that person is the one who would anoint you as of the light. Just as your parents once told you that you reached certain stages in your life by allowing you more freedoms and responsibility.
You look for parents or community members to tell you that you are growing, shifting, changing. When in truth, they know as little as you do about this shift. There is no guru or parent to give you the parameters of the new you – there is only you.”
~Brenda Hoffman
Surrender to the Courage of Your Wild Heart
At Machu Picchu
Surrender to the guidance of your heart and take courageous steps to be more vulnerable and connect more intimately and deeply with yourself, others, and all of life around you. Your life will shift immensely in reflection to these commitments.
When the heart is continually being conditioned by the mind, its voice and inspiration become stifled and confused, even when you actively try to engage it for its direction.
When you allow the mind’s influence to overpower the heart’s, you place limitations on the extraordinary source and well-spring of energy, vibrancy, guidance, intuition, and inspiration it can provide naturally. Not to mention, you hinder the joy and extraordinary experiences that could infuse your life if you had a clear path to your heart.
A wild heart is one that operates naturally, instinctively, and freely, providing direction from your authentic self and from the deepest passions and desires that stem from that truth. This is hidden between layers of “ideas” you have about yourself and the conditioned “desires” that you have come to learn.
Your wild heart will lead you back to your essence, and toward real liberation, satisfaction, harmony, and balance that stems from the core of your being.
Part of what is needed is to be willing to face and lovingly let go of old mental and emotional patterns, and the conditioning that reins you in from experiencing your own wild and free heart – taking time to repattern yourself back to who you really are.
It’s not a simple journey at first, but it does become increasingly more easy when consistently and actively engaged.
Afterall, it IS simply you returning to natural harmony. That may seem like a foreign experience right now, but it is the most natural experience there is. You’ve simply forgotten this.