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Whimsical Wednesdays Dragons & Mythical Beings: Releasing Primal Patterns & Revealing Dreamscapes – Part 3
Today’s blog post concludes the intuitively guided series of connected dreamscapes that felt important to share, as they are layered with coded messages beyond what I’m even reflecting in interpretation. I’ve been sharing them after having integration time and letting them process behind the scenes, so in fact today’s dream is actually one I had on the night of Tuesday 2/2/21 of last week. You can read or revisit Part 1 and Part 2 at the links provided.
This dream is a little bit different and also connects my most recent sacred tattoo design project I’ve been working on, as you’ll see – I love how everything is always interconnected and aligned in timing.
On 2/2 the dream took me through a sequence of really big magick happening. I can’t even begin to describe what all was unfolding, but it was layered and all-encompassing, spanning across the Earth collective, but in a multi-dimensional way. I remember looking down in my hands and seeing a book in them that I received from an unknown/anonymous or unseen source. All I saw on the cover was, “Part 1,” in large lettering. I saw that there were two other books that had been given to two other people and theirs read, “Part 2 and Part 3” in the same big lettering. I remember knowing one of the people who had the second book – a student of mine – and the third was someone more distantly connected, but connected nonetheless.
Telepathically I was given the message that the books contained alchemical instructions for collective change, woven into story form. We each had been given the books because they were part of our path to help decipher, invoke as embodiment, and share/spread.
Then big animals appeared – again like in Part 1 – but this time singularly and slowly. The first I remember seeing more clearly was some kind of giant, ancient bird-like creature. I said an inward message on a telepathic level to whom ever was making them appear that was something like, “These others are not enough (referring to the animals being sent my way). If you want more from me you’ll need to bring on more.” Then that bird-like creature mutated into a huge dragon with an energetic force like nothing else. I had no fear. I was ready for something I felt was coming next.
The dragon infused me with its energy. I’m not sure if it blew it into me through its etheric, fiery breath or if it just transferred it through the strength of its emanation, but it was so massive in strength that I was pushed back a few steps by the thrust of its power. And as I stepped back, keeping solid balance without falling over, my legs sunk into the Earth with their touch and where I stood, a deep hole was created beneath me by the energy I now had within and that made me heavier and larger energetically than my small frame would otherwise seem to embody. The dirt felt very cool and soft – almost light like flour. The hole created by the energy impact was like one a dragon or dinosaur might be able to create with thrusts of their weight and power. So, it was as if the dragon and I had become one.
The dragon then told me that it was time to use all of my powers to support the collective. I was to activate all of my inner parts and then transfer them to others so we could create change – create the next Earth experience.
An ivory tipped wand appeared in my hand, which looked exactly like the one I have and was holding in some of the photos from my Winter Solstice Visual Spell to Activate the Light Within blog. I was then waving the wand and pointing it at person after person, transferring and activating within them, the same within that was awakened from the activation transferred to me.
And the dream ended, or that’s all I remember.
Of course the giant and prehistoric animal theme carrying both primal and primordial energy continues to weave through with the ancient bird-like creature and the dragon. And although there is some personal messaging in this and the other dreams, there is still the collective symbolism shining through.
Simplistically, the three part books spoke to the three part blogs, but in more complexity they feel to foretell that there may be three parts or processes collectively to go through, as the Earth evolves into this new paradigm. They also feel like different groups of souls that will be involved in each layer, in their own time, or coming of age based on the gifts they carry. Each person given a book felt to represent each of these soul groups energetically, so they were simply coming through an individual as a symbol of that energy. The three parts also felt like a personal message layered in there that has to do with my individual path and work to be shared, as its own piece.
The multi-dimensional big magick happening at the beginning feels like the alchemical process we’re involved in that will continue to expand and reveal itself.
I really loved the part where I said, “If you want more from me, you’ll need to bring on more,” referencing that what was being given so far although impressive, simply wasn’t enough. This spoke not just to my own courage and readiness for the bigger stuff, but as a representative of one of the groups, or collective at large since in fact these feel like collective dream messages, that we are all saying on some level that we’re ready for much more. “Give me all you got.” 😉
Enter the powerful dragon.
The dragon infusing me with its energy felt once again to be a DNA activation, much like the T-Rex of Part 1 had done through my crown chakra.
The hole beneath me felt like a deepening and grounding into greater embodiment and while larger in energy, the dirt remained soft and fluffy…So, in fact the core, root, and underground layers we’re peeling away are not as dense and sticky moist as we thought, but instead are easier to move through and lighter than we would have imagined, once we penetrate the outer layers protecting the soft, vulnerable core.
Things only seem hard, impossible, or slow, but in fact once we embrace our authentic powers, then the process can be lighter than we imagined.
The hole in the Earth felt like a transformation to the surface of things, morphing into a new terrain of experience that runs deeper than meets the eye.
The two of us becoming one – dragon and me – is a transmutational merging of energies, as well as the difference between a dragon slayer and dragon master.
The dragon slayer sees herself/himself to be separate from the dragon and that all it stands for in its primordial ways is something to fight, conquer, or destroy. These are the enemy. So the two will always be separate and one will always lose or win in a vicious, repetitive circle.
The dragon master sees no difference between the dragon and herself/himself and all that it stands for is a part of both of them. Therefore there is no enemy. Nothing to fight, conquer, or destroy. Only something to embrace, love, and understand for its value. So there are no longer two – only One. And they merge more powerful than either ever was on their own.
So my facing the dragon without fear and taking in its fiery energy transference, spoke to that transmutation into wholeness of power. Again, feeling much more collective than simply something I was individually going through and yet creating a trickle effect by doing so, myself.
The dragon saying it was time to use all of my powers and inner parts and transfer them to others spoke to me how we keep being told that the time is now. That what we’ve been waiting for and whom we’ve been waiting for is here now…is us. And there’s no greater time than to bring forth all that you are, shine your light, and by doing so will be supporting others to do the same. Transfer the power to one another through your individual gifts. Share the nuggets of awareness, spread the love, speak the language as only you can, through your specific frequency. Realize that every bravely kind encounter activates something within each other. This change from the inside will create the change on the outside.
The wand was an activation of awakening to everyone encountered. It speaks to being a conduit for love and awakening thread to thread of the tapestry, each in their own way. Some perhaps more visual and outwardly active, and others behind the scenes or quietly active. It also seemed to reiterate or confirm the guidance I received in sharing that Visual Spell blog to help activate the light within. Although this dream came after that, there is no time in the dream world and one might even say that this dragon dream experience was before that one and what I did through that Winter Solstice blog was a result of the activation transfer and message received “later.”
I find the primal or primordial energy thread in these dreams to be an alchemical key to our collective unfolding. And they are showing up in waking life as well. There have been other smaller confirmations of dinosaurs, dragons, and ancient winged creatures, but far too many to document all, so I focus on the main ones that speak louder. As I shared about the T-Rex statue and Dinosaur Museum sign confirmations in Part 1, the primal energy of Boojum our male cat in Part 2, and for Part 3 the waking life confirmations of these came through my recent sacred tattoo design project, as well as a close encounter in the forest.
The former being another first for some “Spiritual Skin” creations.
Synchronously, I’ve been working on a pair of sacred dragon tattoo designs for a mother and daughter. Each to have their own dragon and energy, but connected via some of the elements woven into the designs. The daughter is a Fire Dragon and the mother is a Water Dragon in Chinese Astrology. We added their birth or chosen flowers, symbols and Runes for their elements, the Moon and Sun/Fire Ball, and some connective Runes for both of them along with a touch of Cosmic Starry essence. (I might share more photos/info in another blog post upcoming.)
One is a Water Dragon Fae Queen and one is a Fire Dragon Empress.
This project was commissioned long before the dream and the timing of their creation was in order of completing the ones before them. This placed the dragons at the time, and integration after, of the dream. Fire and Water feeling especially potent to the alchemy of merging these powerful elements. Every time I work on a design it not only feels important for the person it is created for, but always carries collective support as a portal of activation on all fronts through that individual’s activation.
Much like the message of the dream to share the power with others that we activate within ourselves.
Then there was the close encounter, which took place this past weekend. We went snow shoeing after and during snow storms where we are in very fresh, deep snow. We have a huge forest and mountainous area right behind the place we’re staying, much like at home where we can hike or snow shoe out the back door.
We took some photos along the day’s adventure, which included this one:
It felt like a deliberate, perfect structure and the energy was strange. I was wondering in the back of my mind of what creature might have made it and often joke with Dave about Sasquatch on our hikes. We found some odd tracks that led to this structure that were not human. We thought perhaps a large animal had made its way through the very deep snow by what they appeared like…maybe a moose. It was a very quiet day and we could hear the trees creaking in the wind and no one else out, unlike the last weekend where we had come across several people. I had a strange feeling, but couldn’t put my finger on it.
Then I posted the photo, not thinking more of it, and a magickal friend of mine in Ireland relayed that it was an actual Big Foot/Sasquatch structure and that according to “experts” the cross marks the perimeter end of their territory. I used to watch many of the sightings programs back in the day, but had forgotten much of these kinds of details. Then two more confirmations of the same information came in from separate sources. It confirmed the feeling I had and while many might not believe in these beings or think they belong in the mythical creatures category of fireside storytelling, there are those of us who feel otherwise being that we live in a multi-dimensional world where portals, different timelines, and otherworlds merge. These make anything possible.
Regardless of fact or fiction, the connection that was brought to awareness of a primitive and primal creature with ancient or prehistoric connections, still held the theme of these dreams.
Now the energies and encounters were crossing dream into waking life and the merging of hidden into the light continues.
Interestingly, a few days after the dragon activation dream, I had a wedding dream. The dream was my own wedding happening all over in a different way, but again what’s mine is yours, so to speak. 🙂 It was being orchestrated on some other level from behind the scenes (much like I felt ours on Summer Solstice was) and being taken care of and put together without my having any part in it, but showing up. It was taking place in an expansive space with many people and an other-dimensional feel to it. I remember thinking this is odd, I’m already married, already had the wedding, but it was happening on a different plane of existence parallel to the other.
This isn’t Part 4, but a new beginning from all of this – a merging of parts, like the marriage of yin and yang partners, a symphony of new and primal/primordial notes, the partnering of elemental dragons within a family, and dream and waking life as one.
I believe we will continue to experience more cross-overs the more we create bridges through the portals of our hearts. Then we’ll realize separation is a choice and not a given.
Please take or leave what you choose from any of this. I share as I’m guided. I’m just being my part.
Ask Astrid Fridays: Releasing Primal Patterns & Revealing Dreamscapes ~ Part 2
As promised, today’s Ask Astrid blog is the sequel to Wednesday’s Part 1 that shared the same title. It involves a precognitive dream I had about Astrid a few days after the collective dream involving the wild and prehistoric animals I chronicled in that post. I didn’t realize at first that the same theme ran through it until days later, as I continued interpreting and integrating the message. There were of course personal energies involved, but they reflected the bigger picture moving through me, and as a result, also moving through Astrid since she and I always go through similar things even if in different ways.
I often have some of my clearest and most telepathic or precognitive dreams come through my rabbit companions – on and off Earth – as well as my Russian tortoise, Gaia. I remember one many years back where Nestor let me listen through her ear and I journeyed through it to where my parents lived (far away from me at the time) and heard an exact conversation they were having, which I relayed to them and got confirmed the next day. It was her way of showing me that the telepathic lines were open to receive clear messages through our connection and through telepathy itself.
From then on, the telepathic channels between me and my beloved soul companions who once did, or currently do, inhabit animal bodies have been opened and I receive powerful messages to assist the shift of times through my personal experience of it.
That kind of profound dream experience has happened with Nestor, Joy, Cosmo, Gaia, and of course, now, Astrid.
But this dream I had last week was a psychic one, and what unfolded in waking life ended up having the connection to the theme from the previous one. I didn’t know until a couple of days later that it would turn out to be precognitive, but it did indeed foresee what was going to happen to Astrid and its immediate effects on both of us.
In the dream I saw Astrid after some kind of incident/accident had taken place. I didn’t know what the particulars were of how, but the result was finding her with the tip of one of her paws cut off. I remember feeling horrified about it and although it was cut off, I didn’t see evidence of blood, but could see inside as if it were hollowed out from where it came off. I looked around for a towel to wrap it in and remember having difficulty trying to figure out what vet to take her to for like an hour, as I was stressing over my sweet girl’s condition. That’s all I remember.
I woke the next morning feeling bothered by it and relayed the dream to Dave, as I usually do when I have very clear and detailed or odd ones. He told me it was just a random dream, as his way to assure me.
Well, a couple of days later, I’m woken in the middle of the night by noise downstairs. My intuition and mom instincts know immediately that it’s Astrid dashing around the living room like crazy, as a result of being spooked by our male cat, Boojum. I get out of bed because I can hear her continue freaking out and running about, and start to head down the stairs when in the dimly lit corridor I see her shadow sprinting up the stairs and the sound of her nails on the wood clambering and sliding about from her speed. She’s in flight mode and when she gets scared like that it’s hard to center and calm her for a while. The only thing she knows – that any rabbit or prey knows – is to run like heck and escape at all means. When she sees me she doubles back down the stairs leaping several steps at once and appearing to take a sliding side tumble (or at least that’s what I could make out in the shadowy dark), not expecting me to show up, and then turns back around and passes me, while heading under the bed upstairs to hide.
All I remember is being horrified by the sound and sight – just like in my dream – as I’m just thinking about her injuring herself while running blindly.
I continue down the stairs just to see if my instincts had been right and there was Boojum, sheepishly sitting upright in front of the opening to her pen, as if to say, “What? I didn’t do anything.”
I knew that he’d entered her area in the middle of the night to steal some hay or water while she was peacefully just laying there in her meditative/off-planet mode, as she does, and when she realized he was there it was too late. It felt like a stealth attack and her prey instincts put her in flight mode, feeling like she was threatened by this sneaky predator moving in the shadows nearby.
I immediately ran back upstairs to check on her and found her huddled under my side of the bed, scared. I talked to her calmly and was worried, wondering if she was alright.
I went to the center of the room in front of the bed and laid down to wait for her to come out and she did. That’s when I noticed her lifting her front right paw up now and then, as if it was tender to put weight on it. And then she stopped to sit and lick at it and groom her face and the paw. This was on and off now and then. So of course I panicked, thinking she may have broken, fractured, or sprang her paw.
I was a mom mess at 2 am.
Like I’ve done in the past with my babies, I decided to lay there on the floor with her all night if necessary. I remember once spending the entire night, awake, under the bed with Nestor when she was sick, in order to see her through the night.
So I grabbed my pillow and wrapped a towel over me (all I could find quickly) and laid by her side in the dark while administering Reiki and calling forth all of my healing energies and help. I did this for about two hours and she stayed next to me laying mostly still and only moving a few times in different positions. When she did move she was still lifting or licking her paw, but grateful for my presence, the energy, and my talking her through the fear to a place of centered calmness again. You can be assured I gave my all for love.
She nosed me a few times and after the last time she did so, she then made her way back down stairs, saying, “Thank you and I’ll be alright now.”
I felt her telling me she wanted me to get some rest, so I made my way back to bed, falling asleep while sending her more healing energy and praying for the highest good to unfold the next morning. I only slept a couple of hours.
I woke and checked on her immediately and she was doing her normal routines, eating, drinking, pooping – all signs we rabbit parents look for because they are crucial to their well being. But on rare occasion I still saw her pick her paw up slightly or lick it. Not often, but even if once, it’s enough to warrant worry.
I couldn’t see anything and there wasn’t any blood anywhere. I didn’t want to poke and prod too much in case of anything being broken. So, I felt that taking her to a vet was the better option than my digging around. The challenge being that the next day we had to leave to travel to our new location, it was a Friday, and we were in a small mountain town.
I searched online and found a local vet, five minutes away, but didn’t see anything about them treating rabbits or exotics. I looked up where we were going next and DID find a vet that treated rabbits there and had great reviews about their rabbit knowledge and care.
While I wrestled with what was in her best interests – waiting to get her to a rabbit vet, or taking her in immediately to a vet that didn’t treat rabbits, I went upstairs to get ready in case I needed to leave right away while I asked for a sign and the highest good to be clear.
As I made my way to the second floor, my eyes were directed to something tiny on the corner of the stairs. I bent to pick it up and discovered the puzzle piece needed.
It was Astrid’s nail – the whole thing! I know her nails because she has dark blackish-brown ones and they are very thick. So now I knew that she had lost a full nail in her frantic clambering on the stairs in the middle of the night. Oddly, there was no blood on it, her paw, or the carpets or stairs, and the end where it came off was hollowed.
So far, all of this mirrored my dream – the tip of her foot cut off (in fact turned out to be her nail), the hollowed out area where it came off was how the nail appeared, as well as no signs of blood. The towel I looked for in the dream to wrap her in seemed to end up being the towel I wrapped myself in for the two hours I laid with her and yes, I did spend time trying to figure out which vet was best, as I weighed all the options and played out the scenarios and how they would affect Astrid in the long run – just like how in the dream I stressed for an hour about the same.
Finding the full nail with hollowed end posed the concern that I might not be able to see the site of where the nail came off and it could get infected, and that with this kind of pressure to rip it off, perhaps she might have a broken toe or some other kind of damage.
I decided to call both vets. First the rabbit vet where we were headed to get their thoughts. They agreed that if I could get her in right away it would be better, to avoid potential infection. Problem was we’d be traveling Saturday, so couldn’t get her in that day and both vets were closed on Sunday, so Monday was only available at the new place. But to me, that was just too long to wait and wonder, or have things potentially go wrong. Still, I made an appointment there just in case, as they had barely any spots open, while I continued to assess the situation.
I then called the local vet to ask if they saw rabbits, see what they thought, and to relay the incident, as to me it felt like something that could be assessed even if not expert with rabbits being that dogs and cats can also lose nails.
To my luck, the technician that answered was very sympathetic to the situation, has had many rabbits of her own, knows how to handle them, and knows quite a bit about them. She asked the doctor if she’d see Astrid even though it’s not her specialty and the doctor was more than accommodating. She relayed that if any extra advice or meds were needed that the doctor would confer with rabbit vets she knew in other areas. They were completely full that day, but said if I could drop her off in the next half hour after their scheduled surgery that morning, they would fit her in in between the appointments that day and watch her for us in the meantime.
So, I took her right away. I was sad to have to leave her for a few hours, especially since we were traveling the next day, which meant she’d have to be in her traveling case two days in a row. I also didn’t like leaving her with an injury by herself, but with the pandemic, curbside drop-offs and pick-ups are the only way anyway.
Of course I spent those long hours away from her thinking of her, telepathically talking to her, and sending energy while I calmed myself down in the solitude of the mountain on a ski run all by myself awaiting the doctor’s call.
And I got the best possible news. The doctor called and confirmed that she had torn off the nail, but there was no redness, no blood, no swelling, or any signs of inflammation or tear to the skin surrounding it. Although it was a relatively new injury, it all looked fine. The soft inner part of the nail stub was still there (why I saw the hollowed out bottom portion of the nail) and she said that’s why her paw is sensitive. She said it’s like if we cut our nails too short and that sensitivity we’d experience. So if she happens to touch it a certain way, this is why she will pick it up or lick it, as it’s tender. But the good thing is, it is not a weight bearing toe that she lost it from. So this is why there’s only occasional tenderness experienced.
And, she examined the foot and toe and felt no breaks in the bone so didn’t feel it necessary to x-ray her. Even if her toe had been fractured, it simply would have to heal on its own, as there’s little they can do and she said that rabbits heal pretty quickly in this regard. That actually was the case for the human/part rabbit me 😉 as I’ve broken my toe and both feet in recent years and there was no setting involved – just natural healing time to mend.
The doctor noted the same as I did that Astrid didn’t seem to be in any major pain except for the random tenderness, which had already decreased since the time of first impact. We both agreed that meds didn’t feel like the right option since she continues with all of her normal behaviors, is moving around normally, and there’s no sign of infection beginning. Meds can mess with their digestive systems and eating behaviors. So, I was told to keep an eye on her and if any behaviors change or I notice infection beginning, her not able to stand on the paw, or bad odor from the paw (sign of infection), to bring her in immediately. The nail will eventually grow back and once it starts in a few weeks, it will grow strong around the inner soft part and she’ll be good as new. This vet said they actually weren’t going to be open this weekend at all, but told me to call her and she’d come in just for her, which was very sweet. Or, I could take her to the rabbit vet in our new location.
I went to pick her up and she was so happy to see me and go back home. She continued on with normal behaviors and I hardly saw her pick her paw up, if at all, and the next morning we were on the road with Astrid on my lap in her carrier doing amazing as she always does.
We arrived at our new place where we won’t be leaving again for four weeks, so it’s the perfect settled time to allow her nail to heal, while there’s a good rabbit vet close by if needed, and for both she and I to integrate all of the energy themes streaming through.
And it didn’t take her long to get comfy in her new surroundings. I was grateful to find there to be no stairs in the new place, wall-to-wall carpeting so it would be soft on her paws, and a cozy compact home for the family to be all close together. Since getting here I haven’t actually seen her lift or lick her paw like she was anymore and she’s continued with all normal behaviors. In fact, she’s zoomed around with exuberance, binkied, and flopped harder than I’ve ever seen her flop (even Dave remarked he’d never seen her do this) – all signs of one happy, healthy, secure bunny. And she’s continued to have a fully open pen 100% of the time with mutual trust between us.
She’s even found her new throne.
Don’t you just love all the cute, eclectic western boots surrounding her and the bears, moose, and fish on the ottoman guarding her that connect with the animal messenger theme of Part 1 and with how I keep mentioning the recurring appearance of bears in my dreams, the sighting of the moose a few weeks ago, and my being a Pisces (the fish, who inhabit the watery emotional depths of the sub and unconscious).
The boots feel to reflect the spirit of independence, confidence, endurance, the American dream, traditional values, and visions of the old South West. They also speak to New Frontiers and having a dream you’re not afraid to go after. And while they were the beginning of freedoms for some, they also stomped on the freedoms of others.
Astrid LOVES this chair so much and will sit in it while we watch movies at night, lay in it sometimes awaiting us to come home from our outdoor time, and sits in it at night while we sleep. How do I know that? Because I can see both the chair and her pen space from where I sleep at night and can see her shadow and silhouette of her ears peacefully sitting on her throne listening to the silence of the night darkness.
It’s a great vantage point for her to stay centered and aware of all that is around her. Perhaps assisting her to be more present and conscious with expecting the unexpected.
It’s been a huge relief to see her bounce back immediately and on her way to healing. It’s also been so beautiful to see her pick right back up and build upon all of her enhanced connective, joyous, and expansive behaviors she’s evolved into on this journey. The cats have even been hanging out with her more. We’ve witnessed more nose-to-nose encounters with Boojum and Sweet Pea hanging out with her under the bed.
And as for the tie-in with Part 1, indeed there is the connection to releasing primal patterns that came through the actual experience itself that Astrid went through.
She had a moment of vulnerability, like I did the day I could feel the streaming through of collective anxiety, and then got overwhelmed by the oncoming primal energy that Boojum in his predator and very raw, primal behaviors embody. He’s not a super spiritually focused soul, but instead has come into this life to be more base and core focused in his experience of life – to feel the sensual aspects of physicality, luxuriating in ego-based immediate needs, and being instinctual and survival motivated. In this way, he reflects to me Astrid’s T-Rex.
Boojum didn’t mean to harm Astrid, but the primal energy he carries was a trigger to the core prey essence that is embedded within Astrid’s DNA, even if she IS conscious of more. And when we aren’t present and grounded (she is often integrating and journeying off-planet or in the in between realms), then things can knock you off balance very easily. They can take you by surprise and cause trigger reactions instead of having the ability to respond with more presence when you are embodied and centered.
The wild and prehistoric animal dream in Part 1 spoke to the clearing initiation for big change coming through the purging and releasing of old core energies. These collective pools of untamed, primitive and survival mode instincts have been unconscious for so long and are now surfacing in order to integrate them more consciously through compassionate embrace.
On some level Astrid called this experience up in order to move through more of these patterns and releases, just as I was working through them after the dream, and we all are worldwide.
As I mentioned, we also seem to help buffer the energy for others, the more we each can work through the energies, and I feel that Astrid did her own share of that buffering in taking on the old prey/predator, victim/perpetrator energies. On a soul and higher self level, she wasn’t afraid to face this fear – one of the greatest she would have as a prey animal. And played out this triggering experience in order to move through it, just as I have been facing the fears of the mountains through skiing every day these past weeks so I can integrate the core patterns more of these unknown terrains and these vulnerable spaces.
And rather than have something really horrible happen, it was only her nail – the tip of the foot that represents Pisces, watery, unconscious energies (like the ocean the animals ran to in my previous dream) that broke off. But it was not a vicious or horrible injury. It was one that evoked tenderness, both in helping to remember the value of the incident and the energies through physical tenderness, and to represent the bridge to wholeness and healing – through a tender heart and more compassion and kindness.
This was demonstrated by how she’s held no ill feelings toward Boojum or either cat, when she could very well have gone into defensive mode with charging and grunting and running them off when they come around. She could also have allowed the old triggers to consume her and put her in fear mode, but neither happened.
Instead, I’ve seen her AND the cats both engaging one another more since we arrived to our new place and without animosity or fear. They have been sitting closer, edging into each other’s spaces, seeking to be with one another, and Astrid has even allowed Boojum to sit at the back of her throne above and behind her while she sits in it, with both of them at peace. There’s even been a lot of super cute engagement on Astrid’s part where we witness her literally hopping in front of Boojum back and forth, asking him to play with her.
Just as I wrote in Part 1, “the interaction confirmed for me that these energies only hurt us if we try to run from them, dismiss, fight, or even deny them. There’s a sense of their wanting acknowledgment and understanding of their place within the framework.”
Although Astrid was thrown into a core reactive place of panicked fear when Boojum startled her, it was evident after the two hours I laid with her doing energy work for the highest good that night, that she had moved through things and integrated it with my support.
We are both deepening into being bridges of compassion for the collective purging, as best we each can. And while the DNA redesign that we’re all experiencing is hugely transformative, it feels like it can be integrated with greater ease than one might think. It asks of us to be open to the possibilities, to expect the unexpected, surrender to tenderness, and to trust that things are in divine alignment for the highest good of all concerned.
So, Part 2 was about a revealing, precognitive dreamscape that prepared me for the unraveling of Astrid’s literal experience to release primal patterns. On some level, the dream helped me to process things on the subconscious levels so that I could be more present for her.
Yet, at the same time, it was a shared experience of releasing primal patterns, as I feel everything Astrid does as if it’s my own, and so we went through it all together. I got to have my triggered reactions to it all, breathe my way back to centering and empowerment, and together we harnessed love to walk us through it. Not to mention, I was able to look at my own old patterns of judgment or fear around these energies through those raw emotions that took place at 2 am in the full darkness of the night.
But when brought to light in the dawn of the day, the shadowy figures, horrifying sounds and sights, and raw fears all softened to reveal the heart’s resiliency through compassion and willingness to understand each part for what it is.
Of course there is so much more I could express about all of the symbolism that took place through this experience, but you may be able to uncover those pearls for yourself.
I actually thought that this would be the conclusion to this theme desiring to be channeled through, but in fact on 2/2/21, three nights ago, I had another dream that wants to be shared and within that dream I was specifically shown three parts. So, I guess there’ll be one more.
White Turkey and a Dream ~ The White Theme Continues & Pairs Up with Rabbits
This morning I was reminded of my dream from the night before last, which felt important and followed in the theme of “white” that has shown up QUITE A BIT, as you’ll see below – this time being a huge white turkey. Dream time has been rich and layered again and although I dream all the time (well we all do even if we don’t remember), the ones that linger with me usually hold significance I feel that I’m meant to know and/or continue to process and bring forth into the light of day.
Sometimes I remember every detail and sometimes just the main parts or essence that are significant.
This is just a brief share of the simple part that stood out most of that dream.
I found myself at a sanctuary – a rabbit and turkey sanctuary, that is. They were all running around loose and free together and I was walking among them.
The turkeys were all white. They were all beautiful, large, and plumply healthy.
They intermingled with the roaming rabbits and it was such a wonderful, ethereal, and magickal sight to see in these open fields, much of which was like golden oat or something and the rabbits seemed to blend well with the fields.
The next thing I remember was one of the turkeys stepped forward to me. He or she was HUGE! The turkey was about my height and round and plump with perfect soft white feathers and fanned tail.
The turkey opened its wings and drew me in, our chests and hearts connected, as it then wrapped its wings around me and hugged me close and snug, sinking me softly into its thick plumage.
I felt an energetic exchange and igniting or activation take place in that embrace – heart to heart.
And that’s all I remember.
I have since made the connections to the meaning for me personally about this, which takes into account the new journey that I’m on and the creative projects I’ve begun down the path of, so it may not all fully be clear to others what that would be.
If you do have your own insights, I’d be more than happy to hear what this visual brings up for you in connection with turkey symbolism the white turkey, or any of it. It IS fun to interpret dreams or explore different perspectives!
It is also very interesting how many white animals and symbols have shown up in dreams, meditations, and waking life at significant periods of time.
Here are some past links to those you might enjoy when you have time and/or want some reading material:
Soaring Through a New Shade of White – this about a white owl
Divine Surprises ~ Following the White Rabbit Blew Zephyr in & Cosmically Aligned Astrid – not only about the real life white rabbit, but I dreamed of the white rabbit as well, leading up to this
White Butterfly, Garden Delights & Magick Ovens
Running With My Dreams ~ A Little Nudge from White Horse
Blythe Intaglios ~ A Journey Deeper Into Origins & a Message of Hope – this link includes my visions at this sacred site that included an indigenous man on a white horse, White Buffalo and White Buffalo Calf Woman
Unicorn of the Sea ~ Dream Message from the Narwhal – about a white narwhal
Sacred Initiation with the White Mountain Wild Horses of Pilot Butte, Wyoming – although this one isn’t about a white animal, it took place on White Mountain and was a very sacred experience with wild horses – two of which at the end appeared to us deliberately with white markings on their third eyes in the form of a heart and diamond
Ants, Ankles & Aquarian Energy ~ Personal Dream Messaging with the Collective in Mind
I had a dream that stuck with me a couple of nights ago. It involved ants.
I always marvel at how much animal spirit guides in particular show up for me, as well as show up when I do sessions for others. They are indeed one of my strongest connections.
I thought to maybe share the dream when I had it, but then didn’t.
However, when another dream two nights ago came up around something similar, and a friend of mine mentioned ants as an addition to a sacred tattoo, I thought I’d share.
So in my first dream, I dreamed about ants and my ankles.
I don’t know how this fit into context of what I was dreaming, but that isn’t important, as the part I remember is what I feel is key.
In the dream I remember looking down at my ankles and seeing ants underneath my skin, as if my skin was translucent.
They were moving about through them and some coming down slightly at the area where my ankles connect to the top part of my feet.
They were larger than normal, but then some started to really grow and become the size of about an inch and a half with bulbous black bodies.
And as they grew, big tumor-like bulges and bumps emerged on my ankles where they were moving under, swelling to the size of their growth.
The bubbles of swollen skin where these large ants were moving under, felt as if they might at some time burst once they got too big.
The rest of the ants just kept moving about through my ankles, doing their thing.
That’s all I remember from that night, but then two nights ago I, again, dreamed of my ankles.
No ants this time, but the continued focus on my ankles felt significant.
In this dream I was actually in Montana and found that one of my tattoo artists who has done some of my work was living there. I decided to ask him if he had time to fit me in, which he did. I didn’t actually know what I was getting until he asked.
Then I asked him to make some Mehndi designs on both of my ankles to balance with the tattoos I already have there and to match with the one on my hand he’d already done.
And we started playing with the ideas on the flow of that.
That’s all I remember.
In medical astrology, ankles are connected to Aquarius, as Aquarius rules the lower legs including calves and ankles.
Medical astrology is a way to connect parts of the body you have challenges with, to the energies of signs and planets, which will help you connect more with the meaning of how this challenge is conveying a message to you.
I happen to have two placements in my chart of Aquarius:
Jupiter in Aquarius in the 1st House and Venus in Aquarius in the 2nd House
I also happen to have deeply bruised my ankle back in August (I can still see some discoloration there with slight tenderness) when we took our first RV trip out to the Vegas area, as my ankle got caught in the car door that closed on it because we were parked on an incline.
Needless to say, I’ve been monitoring this area and energy and to have it come up so potently twice in dreams definitely had me reflecting deeply again.
I share things in this way to help you to see how you, too, if you don’t already, can dissect and explore your own meanings and messages in life to help interpret when things show up, how they do, dreams, symbolism, animal spirit guides, etc.
It just takes the willingness to observe, be open to the reflections, be curious, do a little investigation, and be willing to take the time to delve into engaging your own creative faculties and power.
So this is what I did and do.
Since Jupiter in Aquarius is about expansion, ease, luck, and abundance of and with the energies of being innovative, independent, insightful, unconventional, altruistic, and having this in the first house means that bringing that energy through comes in ways of the self, my personality, and who I am and identify with that others then would see me as, then this translates as my having the need to be, and an ease with:
freedom, thinking outside of the box, always willing to try new things, unafraid to step away from tradition or to be different, to be a pioneer with discovering new ways, perhaps eccentric, very artistically and spiritually inclined, leading, wanting to make the world better for everyone, work independently, but for the greater good, and will find luck and remain joyful, confident, expansive, and optimistic when I consistently use my visionary skills and innovative energies in life and work.
Much of the work I will feel called to do and the ways in which I think and feel could be ahead of its time since it is future focused and looking at ways to create a better world for the collective at large.
The second house is our relationship to our physical existence on Earth and how that translates in our self worth, values, and our inner and outer resources, as well as relates to the type of work we do/our career, and money.
Having Venus in Aquarius in my second house conveys as a love for beautiful things and creating beautiful and unusual things, an ease and gifts with music and the arts, a flow of money in and out, and all things Aquarius I shared above would be my natural ways of expression through my work in these areas. It also lends to being peace-loving, balanced or in constant focus of wanting to create balance and harmony, soft spoken with peaceful and healing speaking skills, self growth being a focal and important part of life, and fulfillment and reward in experiences in life for me are when I am able to be the Aquarian energies through my work without restrictions.
All of this background reveals what a focus on my ankles would all point to.
The catching of my ankle in the door as a wake up call and reminder that these are the ways and energies that make me who I am and how I operate most beneficially not just in terms of my own inner peace and fulfillment, but in terms of what I have to offer to humanity and the collective.
That made sense at the time, as it was just as I had taken my sabbatical, which was meant to focus on my creative, visionary projects, although at the time was on hold due to getting things situated with the move and new RV life.
I was needing to walk through a new door and being reminded that this part was key to harness in its truest form now, as the next leg of the journey would be about a deepening into who I truly am in all ways.
Timing was/is of the essence, I felt and even the small delays, although necessary to implement, were to keep in check as to not totally deter me.
So then to the current dreams….another reminder, but also reiteration that my choices of letting go of most everything I’ve been doing in terms of my work and expressions would be transforming greatly to mirror the new embodiment of this energy in all ways.
This leading me to know that it is crucial to my own life force, not to mention my ability to truly serve the collective from my authenticity – since that is one and the same, especially so with the Aquarian energies – to follow the strong impulses, inner guidance, and messages that my work must change and what I feel a need to bring forth through my creative self expression is necessary.
Where I felt complacent and boxed in, I would now expand and be free to explore the visions of my heart and guiding inspirations.
Where I had structures or guidelines to still somewhat stay within, I would have none but the essence of me channeling through.
In the first dream, the ants so much mirror this Aquarian energy to me.
Ants are very focused on doing their part with an extremely industrious energy, but they are simultaneously part of a collective community that is innately built in to why they do what they do.
Each ant knows their place and they fulfill their individual duties that each only can do, as a means of serving the whole.
They do this patiently, with great stamina, and in cooperation with one another – team work is their powerful medicine, yet it comes with knowing their part and respecting and honoring the same within each other.
Ants are also great architects so they demonstrate to us how we can construct our dreams into reality with great precision and persistence.
They message us that if we align our body, mind, heart, and soul to the intentions of our dreams and goals, infused with patience then we can create the reality of our dreams.
Mastery of patience is key and letting go of ego running the show so that we come from a place of inner truth and equality.
In this way ants are great humanitarians and so very much link to the Aquarian values. They give unconditional love freely.
And to me, having the ants under the skin in my ankles, growing and ready to burst out, really means to me that this energy and that ants are literally the veins of my existence and their energy is in my blood.
Synchronously, I’ve also been saying over and over that the energy I feel is like a volcano ready to passionately pop and flow – and which is why I had to follow the energy and make the necessary adjustments in my life and work in order to align with it, with me, and ultimately with the collective energy at large.
These little ant hill mounds under my ankles were swelling with big ant hearts and bodies.
They remind me that with continued patience all things that I feel called to newly birth, if taken one thing at a time and patiently, will all come to fruition.
The dream was not one of discomfort or pain…it was not violent or scary…it was simply these ants/this energy making itself known and supporting my decisions and commitments I’ve made.
They are also telling of my “antsy” energy within that I have been managing while putting into place the supportive elements and environment for this new work.
So, again, they are reminding me to take one step at a time…to hold the vision I see of the future, yet move with patient flexibility within each leg of the journey. To be mindful that there will come times of working with others and that my strength of will is what will see me through, which will need to be exercised not just in the process of patient creation, but also in keeping to the commitments without interruption.
Ants showing up can indicate a time of honing in on your gifts and special talents, to consider the role you have, and ensuring you are making the most of those natural gifts – always staying in tune with knowing how it fits in with the whole and seeing it as an expression of unity that takes into account the person and larger picture together.
They also help us to realize that even if we think our part is small, or what we have to contribute isn’t some grand idea in the scheme of things, that it is still essential and necessary as our contribution to that unity.
Ants work instinctively to build their future, but with much vision. And so, too, do we have the instinctive knowledge of how to slowly build our dreams, create life as a work of art, and be the architects of our lives.
Perhaps it also came up because I’ve had to stand strong behind these commitments to honoring the energy and my boundaries recently with a lot of requests that have come in for work I have moved away from for now.
Like the ants, I know the role I need to keep focused on so that exceptions can’t be made and although my heart is one that would be tugged, I am being shown that there is a timing and purpose beyond what it may seem that this new path is important to keep moving forward on.
I don’t want those ants to become so large that they in fact may inflict pain or unwanted challenges in my life if I do not heed the message.
I’m grateful I have come to a place of recognizing these things and that I’m strong enough in my knowing to lovingly be firm, knowing how that best supports the collective as an example.
Ant asks: Are you sacrificing your dreams and parts of yourself for something or someone else? If so, you may need to re-evaluate things to ensure you are not veering away from your path.
And then there was the second dream of the Mehndi tattoos.
Although I am not literally getting more tattoos, I have in the past considered Mehndi designs in this area.
However, I take it symbolically that this again is a strengthening and empowering of the energy of my ankles, which I’ve described above. And although I may not wear literal tattoo designs there, I in fact do have sacred symbolism etherically supporting that realm.
Mehndi is “intended to be a symbolic representation of the outer and the inner sun. Vedic customs are centered on the idea of awakening the inner light.”
And so it seems this dream was about awakening and embodying that inner light of my unique expression through the artistry of my soul expressing forth at this time.
Even though these are not the only ways one could interpret these symbolisms, as that is something one must feel out as the right meaning for themselves, you can see how intricately you can uncover and explore your internal messaging to assist you in understanding yourself and your journey more.
Some of it is part research, some of it is part intuition and creative thinking from multiple perspectives.
I share this to empower each person to do more of their own self explorations and not needing to always ask someone else to interpret the messages, as truly you are the one who really knows the way to interpret it to the resonance of your own truth. Someone else can only provide suggestions and possibilities, but ultimately even those aren’t the answer, as if you don’t want to “see” the message you still won’t hear it.
For myself, I’m grateful for my willingness to explore and the desire to look at all possibilities. I’m also grateful to the ants for their messages of support, and to my dreams that always reveal just what I need to know.
I know, like myself over the years, many of you overlook your own nudges and intuitive feelings simply because of the lack of self trust, which is something many, if not most, are all together working on strengthening back into its power once again.
And this ultimately will affect the whole, just as each ant doing its part is always in the innate mind set of unity consciousness while doing so.
Perhaps our friends the ants have a message for you today too.
Tania Marie 