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A Message That Will Change Your Life

As I sit here enjoying a nourishing breakfast and looking out on the sunlit, newly blanketed snowscape from our storm this weekend, a White-Headed Woodpecker taps out his morning message on the large pine tree and I finally have the uninterrupted opportunity to immerse in the video you find below. I received it just before the weekend, but I knew to save it until after my deep clean, refresh of the house was done so I was an open and clear slate to receive all of the beauty I sensed was in it.

My sweet friend, Lynne, from beautiful Astoria sent me this video and I wanted to share it here with all of you.

If you watch only one video, this is the one I recommend.

I’ll let it speak for itself.

Get the tissues ready.

February 2023 Energy Update with Lee Harris: Releasing Old Identities

Just a quick post to share Lee’s new Energy Update for the month of February. The main and first theme, of course, is spot-on for me – although not just a “February thing”.

Wonder which, if any, of the following themes he shares about might feel resonant for you?

Here are the themes of the month with timestamps included so you can easily get to one that jumps out at you or reference it later for revisiting:

  • Resignation from old roles, identities, and behaviors (01:59)
  • This is the very beginning of new stories on Earth and in your life (05:18)
  • Global control energy and density being uprooted due to ongoing disclosure + collective clarity (08:07)
  • A Focus on True Health (Health is healing) (11:31)
  • Energy conservation is a superpower (Gratitude and Peace reside there) (15:04)
  • February energy will support the creation of new actions and directions (17:18)
  • Making either the big changes or the little changes (inner and outer are always dancing) (18:53)
  • When in change – remember; The Process will show you the way. (21:49)

Facing New Terrain Head On & Ready to Shine On

Today I sense a more fuller share flowing through, as I keep feeling like I’m being called away and never know for sure how long of a break it might be until the next time I pop on. As I edge closer to my big shift birthday the feeling of my presence being guided elsewhere for some ungiven time, feels more imminent. Time will tell.

There’s a strong “reinvention” energy that continues to echo persistently in my heart and inviting stronger commitment from me. It’s a deepening experience that repetitively whispers, “things have come to a natural ending” and with that letting go, surrendering, and allowing deconstruction to ensue, is what I embrace.

I can’t tell you the countless ways I walk in spaces that reflect this message and offer me opportunity to strengthen my conviction and sense of knowing that “it’s okay” and “I’m in alignment” with what I understand. There have been, what I feel to be, little tests and great teaching experiences to all help me to feel solid with the release and to give myself permission to not only feel relief, but to know I deserve to move on and truly enjoy this terrain I’ve worked toward and landed in.

I experience days flying by like liquid lightning more than ever. It seems like I hardly do much in the 3D world and it’s already bedtime. However, I do know that so much is taking place in the other realms, as I cherish my sleep for that refresh from it all. That said, dreamland is always quite active, so although my body is recharged by morning, I feel my crown in overdrive. It’s not an overbearing experience, but more of a constant motion that breaks through the partitions to become more fluid – hence a bit of mushy mind takes place while I drop details in favor of an overall essence feel of things.

Speaking of dreams, I did in fact have yet another bear dream several days ago. I’ve lost track of how many bear dreams I’ve been having over the last couple of years, but it’s wild! This last one had a group of large brown bears (grizzlies) that seemed to be occupied with something on the side of a road, gathered together in a huddle and very focused while working on it. However, when I drove by in a car, one of them immediately broke free from the group and made a dash toward me to get me to stop the car and redirect my attention away from just driving in the direction of the road I was on. It was evident that he did not want me to leave without acknowledgment and in fact wanted me to stop, redirect, and join them in this new terrain. He definitely got my attention and I feel I understand his message.

Anyway, some super cool and magickal things have been popping up around the bear energy – including a wild synchronicity that brought through some rare, golden bear crystals (and more) that mirror my Golden Bears Dream through my amazing friend Lisa I’ve mentioned before whom I’m constantly tuned in with (excited to see how that unfolds). And of course, bears always link me with Arcturian energy. So, there is both an Earth and Cosmos essence that they embody and connect very much with messages regarding highest path/potentials. Just like rabbits connect me to various planets, including Orion, these planetary connections speak to the Cosmic multi-dimensional aspects within my being – and that we all encompass. I like to be aware of the layers that are streaming through and not just focus on one particular point of reference, as that feels to me like missing the bigger picture potential.

Where was I going with all of this? Not sure, other than to relay pieces of the ever-unfolding and interwoven tapestry that may speak to some of your own current experiences. So, in that vein, let’s see what else wants through.

My life is becoming increasingly organic and seamless in terms of stuff just happening and flowing without these hard returns between synchronous experiences and connections. It’s only when I stop to share something that certain threads pop out like when you pull something tight and the pieces sometimes go “boing,” but otherwise remain fluid and smooth if the balance is maintained.

I know it may not seem so, but I actually experience things much more simply than it sounds, as it’s only when I stop to write something that the details come out like this. Things happen really quick and like a telepathic snapshot that encompasses a lot in just one feeling. When I decide to relay that in communication, whether verbally or written, I then have to unwind it all and find many words to express that one blast of energy.

That said, I feel like the majority of my life is rolling along and isn’t caught up in details so as to support a smoother and more open channel for things. In that way, also, balancing out a part of my life that IS needing ultra focus and detail even more soon. Being on high with all of one way just isn’t healthy for me at all times, so there’s a definite partnering going on of flow and focus – perfect, considering my personal, astrological placements. It took me some time to figure out how to embody these in partnership, but I’m getting it!

Living in new terrain takes a bit of an adjustment period, especially when you’ve spent most of the memories you consciously recall, being in a similar role over and over that varied only by small degrees. So, I’ve been embracing being okay with enjoying the in between and nurturing the things that feel good to me – even if that is the golden state of pure enjoyment alone.

Creating peaceful harmony as one’s life purpose is purpose enough! 🙂

Synchronously, we are edging toward the Leo Full “Snow” Moon of the 5th – 5’s have been showing up on all-time high for me, even more so than they already do in repetition – and there’s a nudge toward owning that sparkly energy within and having fun with things that make you feel like the special person you really are. It’s not about shrinking back, but arising and feeling a surge of confidence in what ever decision, direction, and stand you feel reflects your authenticity, as that dynamic powerfully supports others to do the same. There’s a dynamic creative surge that you may feel ignite and help to motivate and direct the momentum of your desires, passions, and as a result, your highest path.

Personal integrity has enriched, collective impact.

That bold, forward-moving, and courageous energy has been prevalent and I’ve seen it reflected even in my chestnut plant babies, as well as my skiing realm.

I now have an eleven inch miracle, mini chestnut tree that has just taken off with the encouragement of the others to shine and reach! It looked like all four were actually going for it for a while, but some twists and turns took place bringing some to what appears may be the end to their greatest potential, and may result in only have one or two going strong in the end. Time will tell!

Some had shorter life paths, while others would go on much longer – each doing the best they could for the time they had. In many ways they also feel to be supporting the greater good, knowing who had the most resiliency and courage, while the others nurtured that. And overall, all of them encouraging each other to simply “do the best they could for as long as they felt was in them to do.” Rather than take away from others, they would give their best to the ones who could reach to new heights for them all. No competition, simply mutual cheerleading in recognition that “other” means “me” and vice versa.

And on the skiing front, I’ve noticed a giant leap take place this season – most recently in the last couple of weeks.

It all started at the onset of this year’s skiing adventures. I found myself suddenly wanting to upgrade my ski attire to more colorful and bright clothing. This was a totally new thing for me in this realm, as I’ve had more muted ski clothes and matching pant and jacket outfits. So much so, that I kind of blended into the white, grays, and icy blues of the landscape. I made no conscious connection to it all until recently.

Ski clothes can be quite pricy, so I opted for second-hand, nearly new or never, or hardly worn, pre-owned pieces I found at huge discount at one of my favorite online shopping platforms. In this way I was actually able to get a bunch of pieces for nearly the price of one outfit that could be cross-matched to other pieces to fit my mood or the temperatures of the day.

But more so, I was able to match my ski clothes to who I really am – someone who enjoys creative, bright colors and sharing her individuality and sunshiny outlook.

It made sense why the shift happened – I was becoming comfortable in this new “ski skin” and anchored in who I was with greater confidence. In no way did it mean I’d become an expert skier – NOT AT ALL! LOL! But it meant I had established a happy zone with who I was on the slopes, felt confident in my ability to navigate things, and wasn’t afraid to shine my unique way even if it wasn’t like others on the mountain, as I have developed my own style of skiing that simply works for me. I’m sure it will continue to evolve, but it’s a recognizable “T” way.

It made me realize that in my process, I had actually shied away and hadn’t wanted to bring attention to myself in the beginning. Now I had built myself up from the inside out with a lot of diligent, committed, repetitive practice, to assure myself the hurdle of this new terrain and innate fear were no longer insurmountable. I had arrived to a new comfort zone and therefore ready to shine on within this new realm for the first time.

It was a huge realization I had recently and an empowered embodiment I was grateful to integrate.

And so, some colorful, more fun ski apparel found their way to my days. I also like the fact that the bright hues make me “more seen” on other levels too, as I feel it adds to safer skiing to have people “see” me. I know far too well how my ability to be invisible has been both an effective and not so effective thing, as I used to have extremes of this in my past to the point of people not even seeing me in my car driving and wanting into my lane. If not for my awareness, many an accident may have happened.

I so don’t want that on the slopes, so this is a good change on many fronts.

It also brought bunny support and magick to me too!


Well, a couple of the pieces I picked out “just happened” to have rabbit energy in them. What more perfect way to kick off the Year of the Rabbit AND to know that bunnies ALWAYS “have my back.” The latter now being literal, as the back of one jacket and the back of one pair of pants have bunnies “on the back” – MY back! See what I mean?

LOL! I mean, “come on!!!” Uni (my loving name for the Universe) sure has a cute sense of humor. You can imagine my face when these pieces arrived and I saw these tags.

It’s like the rabbit collective wanted to make sure I knew I was covered and had “bunny senses” keeping a keen eye, ear, nose, thumper, whiskers, and instinct to what’s going on behind and all around me so that I could feel supported with my broadening ski horizons.

And that’s exactly what I in fact also do on the slopes…I turn into a rabbit and all of my senses go on all-time high. I never skip a beat between starting the ski adventure off with a full Reiki and Cosmic energy ritual, and then making sure I’m on highest awareness alert within and without, always checking in with myself and always activating both parts of my brain. I also maintain full, conscious coordination of my parts working together, since it’s not second-nature yet, because if I for an instant don’t, I can see how I could easily lose it. This is likely why by the end of the day I’m really ready for a deep sleep, as I’m exercising ALL of me and am “ON” for the entire time I’m skiing.

Not everyone may be like that, but it’s how I operate in the ski world to keep safe and to help myself gain that courage, ability, and make something that is not second nature, become more normal. When you don’t grow up skiing, it’s definitely been my experience that it takes more effort.

Anyway, I was floored by the rabbit energy showing up in my clothes and I’ve been amazed at myself for the pioneering energy this season has brought into my ski experience. I still only stick to intermediate blue runs or more advanced green ones, but I now follow my intuition and flow each day, as to which runs and just what I might find myself doing. I tap into the energy of the snow, the landscape at large, the energy of the people that day, the weather, how I’m feeling, and how my body, heart, soul, and mind are working in unison that day. Then, moment-to-moment, I let that guide me to which slopes I ride. I used to just stick to one section that encompassed three different runs. Now, I started exploring, adventuring, braving, and even “weeing” myself through runs and terrain that once were scary to me. I even do it on my own and get around half a mountain if the moment moves me.

I like to tell Dave, “I’m a freak without warning!” (like the line from 2 Live Crew’s song from the 80’s, but meant in a silly and endearing way – we actually say our cat Boojum is the same lol) because I just randomly show up, go places, switch gears, and do things not in my usual protocol – minute-by-minute. Dave will see me popping up all over the mountain and be surprised when I do. I’m no longer predictable. 😉

Nothing extraordinary to any seasoned skier, but HUGE to someone who had to work through fears.

The amazing snow powder this year – best we’ve had in years – has also been a huge partner in my expansion, as really amazing snow supports my flow. I have a perfect partnership with the snow, knowing when it’s in the space I’m in or not, and I make my decisions accordingly.

I’ve even found myself recently in situations that again have me helping others who are just beginning and have fear. Divine alignment places me in the right space where we come together and I’ve been able to offer my support to help get them through the hurdle of facing a steep slope and getting down safely. I recognize and understand fear, therefore I am able to say and do what is needed most in those moments. It humbles me greatly to be there with them, as I know what it would mean to me.

I do have to say how proud I am of myself and that’s all that matters. I don’t think anyone else would recognize the growth in this department, which is much more than skiing itself.

To face a steeper slope without trepidation.

To feel myself filled with courage in knowing I can manage the unknowns.

To actually try something new on my own without need of support.

To repeat harder, perhaps even ungroomed runs with moguls (piles/bumps of snow on the slope) and still say “wee” when I go around them.

Yeah. Did I say this is, “HUGE” ???

It’s all brought me to a new level and navigating new terrain.

Skiing has become a metaphor for so much and a guiding force for the fresh path I want to carve.

For me, growth isn’t about the climb up the mountain, but how to get down. This equates to the deconstructing process in order to rebuild. There are fears and unknowns to journey through when you are removing the comforts of what you’ve always known. The steps aren’t clear, therefore the way down is one turn at a time.

To go further asks for a total flip of perspective on progression. Rather than finding the positions of accomplishment to be defined by “higher,” they are simply new positions that might also require going “deeper.”

How you work alchemy is not always in a straight line, but just might be found on a parallel one, operating on a different frequency level of experience you get the opportunity to tweak.

Climbing to heights hasn’t been the challenge for me, as I’m really good at nose-to-the-grind and chipping away, a step at a time with patience and perseverance.

It’s about the exploration of new experiences that I can only get to by finding a solid way of maintaining equilibrium, exercising full awareness potentials, intentionally bringing every element together to work cohesively, and self trust, while still finding joy in each step regardless if I never have before – all reminding me of the Magician Tarot Card in a way.

I do that by flipping the usual track I travel upside down so that the familiar landscape is now made anew, challenging my brain to approach it differently, my senses to operate fully, and to understand that it only seems hard because those muscles haven’t been used in this way. But the muscles were always there to exercise and the track only changes in relation to the vibration we hold at any given moment.

Up. Down. Left. Right. Which ever you’re used to will make the others more foreign, but they’re all simply directional doorways the one heart within holds all the keys for.

I face the downhill with the same patience and presence the uphill climb involves, taking it in stride, with no pressure or time frame to fly at top speed. The snow makes the terrain a fresh journey layered over an old one, and this is how evolution looks – integrating old and new on a whole new level.

I continue to explore new runs on my own and even when I’m met with a surprise, I find myself with complete composure, knowing I can get down anything. Like what I experienced yesterday when going down a lesser known, steeper run on my own and discovering it wasn’t groomed, but I conquered it! And when Dave took me on what he called “one of the steepest runs of my career” that same day. That’s me, below, coming down the slope. I didn’t know he was taking a photo.

I just faced it head on, and knew I could do it. He actually told me I did great and that he was proud of me, as I would never have voluntarily gone down that in the past without freaking out the whole way.

I still may not look like a seasoned skier getting down, but I can get down and trust myself in knowing I can do it safely. In his words, he said I’m 25% better than I was 2-3 years ago. That’s saying a lot coming from him, as he’s such a good skier, but also was a confirmation of what I have felt for myself.

I no longer carry that fear when I look over the edge. Those edges used to create a very long pause for me. Now I just go, once I do a quick check in with myself. And so, other areas of new terrain can be met the same – with trust in myself I can carry myself through it.

I share this in hopes that it helps even just one person with their own fear journey. If you want to move through something it IS possible to learn how to manage your feelings, retrain yourself, and take back being the director of your life. And once you do start putting things into motion within one realm of your life, you’ll be able to exercise those skills and apply them to any others that pop up, as other opportunities are part of natural evolution.

I’m seeing this for myself and why skiing is so much more for me, especially at this time. The huge leaps I’ve made this season are timely to help me draw upon for the leaps upcoming in other offshoots of my reinvented life.

These days everything feels to be making a flip. In my own life, Dave and I reflect that perfectly, as our North Nodes are complete and perfect, complimentary opposites. What I’m leaving, he’s walking into. What he’s leaving, I’m walking into. It’s become SO clear recently, now that energies have anchored more for each of us. We are switching path roles and because I can see this, it helps me to let go even more and face the “down” slopes with greater confidence and anchoring of heart.

In other news, Winter keeps going strong here and temperatures have dropped to minus degrees at night, which hasn’t been experienced in years. I don’t mind it at all because we live in an area that gets so much sunshine even in the Winter, which is part of why we love it here and what makes this area unusual.

The snowy winterscapes invite my soul to embrace more, dream big, and believe it’s all possible.

On the recent New Moon, just the day before the Lunar New Year of the Rabbit, we were at the top of one of our favorite places with expansive views and Jack Frost’s realms all around us. It’s here that we stopped for a snack and I molded a little snow bunny in celebration of the fresh cycle igniting.

It was also here that my sweet chickadee friends were enjoying the warm sunlight and singing away. I so loved having them come sit upon my finger again. It’s such a gift when they decide to visit me on their own accord. I didn’t get any photos of them perched on my finger, but you can see them on the ground foraging for Nature’s yummies in between courageous and flirty fly-by’s and sweet encounters.

I am always so moved by these brave little, resilient beings and to feel their delicate feet and feather-light weight on my finger is testament to how hardy they are and that the only limitations that exist are the ones we believe in.

Perhaps I see a little bit of me in them and a little bit of them in me.

And speaking of celebrations, 2023’s have already begun, as we just concluded my mom’s big 80th with a sweet gathering of the family for a symphony performance, fun meal, and dad’s delicious birthday carrot cake creation.

My mom is a literal Earth Angel whose limitless heart, endless giving, childlike exuberance, astounding strength, and angelic grace is a gift to this world. I’m grateful for the resiliency she’s modeled so beautifully, helping me to know there’s nothing I can’t overcome.

Like the sweet chickadees I love, my mom is mighty in a tiny five foot three inch body. I love that we get to celebrate both of our milestones in the same year, less than a month apart – 80 and 50 twin powers activate!

A couple of my dear friends have also just journeyed around the Sun this past month of January, my brother’s birthday hits in less than a week, and mine not too far off – as we share a month.

And of course today – the first of February – marks the birthday of my beloved twin soul in rabbit body, Nestor. I can hardly believe that she would have been 20 years old if she were still on Earth. Oh, the changes she helped to be a catalyst in my life for. I honor her deeply, as she, too, was a powerhouse in a fragile body – it’s still a mystery how one so powerful can squeeze into such a tiny form. I love that she follows my mom with their birthdays just a day apart and both of them in that window of Imbolc celebrated between 1/31 and 2/2 – the midway point between Winter Solstice and Spring Equinox that denotes a time of change.

February just happens to also be “national adopt a rescued rabbit month” – again, how aligned is it that my birthday falls in this month too?

This is a full and exciting month for sure, including Dave about to go off on his own little adventure and my learning of a special surprise visitor heading this way for my big 50.

I’m not a party person, as I like more low-key things, so I’m only just starting to lean into some sweet ways I might want to enjoy my birthday weekend.

That said, I’m also taking a rain check on a trip for later in the year, although we put together a tropical escapade for March that definitely will provide some birthday energy activation to kick off the fresh cycle, since it just so happens to fall over the New Moon and Spring Equinox.

One day at a time though, just like I’ve been taking one turn at a time down the new terrain of my mountain voyage.

Everything is fresh when viewed through the heart.

Pulsing Stillness

Having just ignited our Aquarius New Moon on the 21st, followed by the Lunar New Year of the Black Water Rabbit on the 22nd and planets going direct recently, I have been feeling a powerful click in the energy field and noticed not only things moving differently in my world, but big time changes happening for others around me.

Some of those changes I noticed in others were bunny leaps of clarity and faith finally being taken after laying low and feeling unsure. And some of those changes being things people deeply desired yet were afraid to do, taking form supportively. So they happened to them because it was for their highest good, but came as a result of very strong intentions even if there was fear around action.

I also had some pretty cool manifestations and alignments happen in the last few days, and my own clarity around things. I imagine similar has been taking form for others too.

And in the midst of it all, I continue to feel the brilliant stillness so alive and potent, as she walks with me further yet. This, of course, continues to be both mirrored in Nature’s landscape around me and read aloud to me by the greatest storytellers, Earth and Cosmos.

This was sunset on the New Moon, which in person was SOOOOO different.

It began like soft magenta mirrored both in the sky and water, but then shifted into crimson red…so red and filling the sky and water so much that it looked apocalyptical and as if the sky was literally bleeding into the water.

It seemed perfect as an ending/beginning of worlds and realities.

The photos were taken near the start of the sunset by me (when we were at a lookout) and middle of the shifts by Dave (while I drove), since we didn’t want to keep stopping. And although the photos are beautiful, they shift the colors to more orange rather than the magenta and crimson red that literally looked like someone put on a red film deliberately across the lens of your eyes. The red eventually filled more of the sky and water as well by the end, but we just took it in as it was too hard to photograph.

It’s interesting to me that the colors didn’t want to come through on film, but it was so incredible that cars were stopped at every snowy turnout along our half hour drive home along the lake, with cameras snapping away at the sight.

Needless to say, the quiet of the scene and still waters were alive and pulsing.

You could feel the red liquid energy running through your veins.

I didn’t have much more than that, that I wanted to share today, and the video below.

It was created by the incredible Gordana “Nanshee” Heyden whom I’m grateful and honored to have connected with via Instagram, and her husband Christoph Heyden. Together they are an artist couple “heydenspace and “Nanshee Spirit” sharing their sacred connection and vision of Nature and Cosmos through their creative souls and the shamanic path they live.

In their words, “We have captured the peaceful beauty of Earth’s winter wonder near our home, and made visible what we feel, when we connect with the threads of our souls and the living spirit in all that is.”

The potency of stillness I described feeling is so tangible in this creation.

I’ll let their beautiful work of art and the key codes within each thread of it speak to you, as is your experience to have.

The Bravery of Belief

This is just a short post about the power of believing, having perseverance, and cultivating hope, as well as to share the completion of the piece I was working on.

Rather than speak a bunch on these topics, I’ll just say that I’ve been surrounded by reflections that underscore these themes and point to growth being an invitation that is much more intimate than one extended from outside of us alone. It is one that beckons from within us as quiet joy to cultivate a new frequency we can share as potential with others.

I feel strongly that we experience things based on the extent we want, or can stretch ourselves, to believe in their possibility.

When there’s something I really want, or would like to see manifest, I don’t allow the beliefs of others to hinder my own.

Astrid is also a strong proponent of the same, which is evident by her behaviors and the way she stretches herself to do what others wouldn’t think she could, or to do even what others might limit themselves from doing in situations she finds herself in.

She astonishes people with her ways, her ability to communicate, and to surpass limitations placed on not just rabbits, but animals altogether.

She also braves new frontiers and leads as a central figure even though her voice is silent unlike the rest of us – like trying to be friends, and communicate, with the cats (normally predators to rabbits), as well as making sure she’s keeping the family unit close by rounding us all up, and doing her best to raise herself to our physical level so she can communicate more equally and be seen as a soul rather than just a rabbit.

Her new thing is to run into our bedroom in the morning and hit the doorstop on the back of the door so that it loudly goes, “BOINNNGGGGG!” Her way of starting the day with deliberate intention and getting everyone up and hopping to things awaiting.

Her desire to communicate at the same level is part of why she likes to climb up on her castles and the couch – to meet us more on equal grounds. She sees no difference between us or the cats, and she’s absolutely correct.

She’s a big soul in a small 6.2 pound body, but has more bravery and belief than most any of us. She’s not deterred by anyone’s thoughts on how rabbits “should” be. She’s determined to help change our perspective about all consciousness, regardless of form.

I mentioned that we took home five chestnuts that Dave found, just before New Year’s Eve to see if we could grow them. I got them in good soil in a pot and followed some guidelines I read, but most importantly kept believing.

Four of the five had tiny sprouts when we found them. The fifth was with the others and looked very healthy, but hadn’t sprouted. We had no idea what would happen, but each day I talked to them, checked in, watered, and nurtured…especially with a lot of hope and belief. I had some grow lights I attached to their pot too.

We had some guests over recently as a send-off celebration for them leaving for several months and showed the pot to them. They were curious, but didn’t share our enthusiasm of the possibility. I heard a list of doubts rattled off, but they humored what they called, “a fun experiment.”

Well, since that day two of them are now 6 inches tall, as of just minutes ago.

The fifth one that hadn’t sprouted, doesn’t appear it was meant to. Two went gangbusters and the other two I haven’t given up on, as I can see they are pushing strongly and about to burst on the scene in a big way – at least that’s what I believe.

Those two share the kind of bravery and perseverance I feel Astrid has. Perhaps even…sometimes…me.

They had originally been the fastest growers, then their ends dried, but I didn’t give up on them. While the other two shot up like mini trees with glee, I’ve been encouraging these other two to keep on, keeping on. I don’t know yet the outcome, but I won’t give up on them.

I still believe.

And as for the other two, I’ve been starting to measure them throughout the day and am astonished at how rapidly they are maturing.

I literally watched them grow over half an inch in just a couple of hours.

The photos don’t do them justice, but they are now peeking up over the top of the pot and the other two have burst open the dry stems and are pushing up with gusto! Go baby go!!

Chestnut trees, as I mentioned in an earlier post, have become a symbol of perseverance and hope.

These little ones are certainly living up to their name.

Dave has mentioned to me not to invest too much of myself into them, as they’re still so fragile and unknown. Perhaps he doesn’t want to see me disappointed, but I live for doing all that I can do today. And today, I want my sweet plant babies to know I see them in their fullness as chestnut trees.

They’ve made it this far, so perhaps they might just keep merging hope with belief to match the reflection I’m mirroring to them. And even if that belief decides to remain in my heart, alone, there it will grow into the possibilities of more nows and tomorrows to create and expand upon.

Perhaps some of all of that is what I’m matching the reflection of myself right now.

Nothing is isolated to one-sided experience.

I know that between them and Astrid, and even the brave little chickadees I keep encountering all around this one ski lift I ride, I’m feeling encouraged to do the same with my own growth.

The landscape around me softly screams the same – from the harshest conditions emerges the greatest potentials.

I find that the incredible and unbelievable are happening more and more these days and refuse to keep hidden any longer for any of us.

And that leads me to the completed creation I shared in my last post, now ready to fly home.

Yep, that’s right. I did receive the message to release it to whom its meant to support.

Perhaps that is you.

Whether to just view it, or actually experience it in person…here it is now sealed with varnish and activated with crystalline keys to enter the gateway.

And if it whispers to that brave, persevering, and hopeful part of your own invitation for growth, more details, photos, and the way to bring it home await you at this link:

Portal of Potential

Gateways of Potential

Everywhere I turn I am reminded of our potential and hear the invitation to stretch just a little bit more.

There’s almost no need to write much about the messaging that comes through, as I feel the photos reflect a lot on their own – like the above one I snapped while out skiing on a beautiful day recently.

The sky was so bright that I couldn’t see everything when looking toward the vista, but I felt the energy before me and knew to just aim and snap. Later, I discovered the hearts filling the sky and hidden between the trees and terrain – reflecting to me the feeling I had of my heart expanding, as I took in the peace and brilliance.

I’ve always felt the heart to be the gateway to so much potential.

It heals. It integrates. It transmutes. It expands. It makes so much possible that otherwise seems out of reach.

That was the inspiration for the name, Emerald Bridge, many years ago – to represent the path and offerings I flowed through me.

I wrote this, at the time, about that:

Emerald Bridge, which was divinely inspired as a reflection of the Heart Chakra. The Heart Chakra is the source of powerful, creative and unconditional love energy that acts an energetic “bridge” and balancing integrator between opposites: body and spirit, male and female, persona and shadow, ego and unity, lower and upper chakras. It is symbolized by a lotus of twelve petals and the color green, with emerald as one of its associated gemstones that match its frequency. It is from this place of peaceful centeredness that love emanates as Divine power. And so Emerald Bridge (a compassionately conscious business) was born as a merging of body and spirit through the heart with visionary healing arts services that would help spread unconditional love across the globe. It’s been my hope to inspire a return to natural harmony within and without and to help cultivate authentic self-expression, bring people together in joyful co-creation, and support a remembrance and embrace of your own Divinity.

There may even be more hearts than I outlined below, but this gives you an idea of what was all around, even if I couldn’t see it with my eyes.

Love always awaits our presence. And it’s not a fluffy kind of love, but a unifying cosmic force that both hovers in a space in between and dances like crystalline snowflakes all around the energy field – potent, but untethered, grounded, but mutable, still, but boldly all-encompassing even in the tiniest of reflections.

When you try to define it, it disappears…melts away upon your desire to hold it close when its nature is simply to be.

The Heart Chakra feels to be a vortex of untapped territory, so vast that if we were to fully immerse into it we would find ourselves catapulted into a whole new realm and navigating uncharted expanse like Pilgrims of the Cosmos. But first we may need to travel through a Black Hole of unknown with the deepest trust ever fathomed.

The heart as a gateway to The Great Mystery.

We have yet, I feel, to fully understand this kind of love. And even to name it such, feels limiting. Yet, for now, our ways of connecting to it – the symbolism and reflections – the pieces of its alchemy – are keys to enter its gateway….and discover so much more.

Indeed other realms await us, and the winter landscapes I find all around me feel to echo pure, new terrain we have opportunity to explore and create from.

I love immersing in the stillness and purity of snow because it feels supportive of a reset and creating a sense of being neither here nor there – suspended in potential.

This was me on our recent Cancer Full Moon – such an opportune time for explorations within. And what greater space to explore than the vortex of your heart.

Note the heart portal block printed on my dress – actually a bone, arrow, and element print creating a meeting of spirit and flesh, and wood carved Hunab Ku earrings.

I do love to literally invoke doorways and intentional focus.

Hunab Ku Symbol is a gateway to life beyond, calling us to realign with the Cosmos and live in balance with all things. Also known as the Galactic Butterfly or One Giver of Movement and Measure, is said to represent all consciousness that has ever existed in this galaxy.

One might say it is harmonic resonance embodied and the creative impetus of potential as wholeness.

These days my focus has shifted and much of the time lingers in the spaces in between, while engaging anchors above and below, within and without.

I do not choose to only journey on the outskirts of this realm, nor in this realm alone, but to unite realms through the vortex of my heart and tweak the elements to create the alchemy of potential. To bridge all consciousness through One universal language is a frequency that beckons my heart to refine.

I use mirrors constantly to understand the depths and hidden riches contained in the secrets only whispered by outlanders to the spaces most inhabited.

The reflections we receive from each other are a beautiful mirror for us to see our wholeness when we don’t, and to realize our potential when we’re stretched.

Astrid is such a powerful mirror for me. She helps me to know myself better and to see where I am capable of more. She’s very good at the reflection process and even uses it effectively for herself.

I love her darker coat that has shades of everything in between, then lined with silver toes, tummy, and tail, as well as highlighted in her shapeshifter furry aura. She reminds me of silver linings, but also that depths are a beautiful journey when approached as an adventure.

The “courage of her/(the) heart is very rare”, but as Nicodemus from the Secret of NIMH imparts, “the stone has a power when it’s there.”

She’s also especially good at reflecting when it’s time to move forward and let go of parts of my life, especially in terms of my path and offerings. Astrid will often get restless, tug at my pant legs, nibble on my socks or slippers, chew her castle, or leave the room altogether to get my attention and let me know, “enough is enough…time to move on…hop to the adventure that’s been calling.”

She’s no stranger to change and reminds me not to dilly dally because life doesn’t wait. Something wonderful may be just around the corner, but one who decides to stay put, doesn’t have that potential to experience. Although all experiences are perfect, I do have a soft spot for the wonderly! So, off I follow my magick rabbit down every hole she jumps in.

She is a gateway by sheer embodiment and when I drop into the space of purely being with her, there’s a sense of transcendence unfolding in the timeless moment of all-encompassing heart energy.

I’m also so grateful for all the incredible mirroring souls I’ve had the honor to work with as students and clients over the years because they’ve helped me to listen even more deeply and constantly evolve. It doesn’t matter if I’m facilitating. I’m a constant student and receiver of the invaluable gifts each moment with them provides me as opportunity.

One of the reflections I’ve been receiving is how intertwined our ever-shifting paths are to each other, as I witness so many continuing to evolve and move into new spaces themselves. It’s a synchronized puzzle that brings space and piece together at just the aligned moment. We each support the opening of spaces just as others are ready to adventure in and strengthen them.

As example, I already mentioned how I’ve continued phasing out aspects of my previous work and offerings and saying “no” regularly – something that was harder for me to do in the past, but now feels like a reciprocating gift. And as I have done that, I’ve noticed others saying “yes” to similar spaces – ready to recreate it with the addition of their uniqueness. Each of our frequencies finding their new landing spots and no longer fitting the familiar ones.

Rather than hold tight to staying put and not wanting to give up what we’ve built, it’s a gift we provide each other in letting go and embarking on a new architectural adventure that the gateways invite us to experience.

I know far well what happens when I have one foot in and one foot out…or even two feet in, but one toe left behind. A little fracture, or splitting of experiences, takes place. I choose to bring ALL of me on board now and I know this is the way to create what I feel in my heart is possible. So, that’s why I’m making things clear with what I’m leaving in order to move fully on, as I sense the gateway is here and timing is of the essence.

So many things, like the Reiki training I mentioned recently, have been an ongoing part of my life. Teaching and sessions since 2007 and in recent years has been in an on-and-off-again phase, as I listened to collective needs. And, now, as my birthday’s new cycle approaches, I’m morphing with transformations again.

I’ll honor any sign-ups that have taken place before decisions are made on this, which I sense my birthday month will clarify. I will also have referral teachers ready to pass on to you, when things evolve as I sense. The link below has details if there’s been a strong sense our cocreating the Reiki journey together is important, and also provides reflections from others about the online training, in case they mirror something for you too:

Reiki Certification Training

I’m so grateful for the ongoing mirrors all around me. It’s not always easy to listen objectively, but it gets easier.

It also increasingly gets more fun.

I used to feel, like many of you I imagine have or do, that living on the outskirts of knowing was an unstable place to be. That wasn’t my nature, but the barnacles of voices and fears around me, attached nonetheless.

As I’ve examined and removed each barnacle, one at a time, the true terrain of my inner world has been allowed to enrich itself, sprout, and blossom without constraint of the other things growing in and around my own garden.

I’m grateful for the gifts those voices imparted, as what I grow now is more fortified because of them, and more resilient from the cross-pollination of hardy elements I was able to retrieve in the cultivation process.

My Aquarian and Mars energies don’t want to conform, although my Pisces energies love to find balance between any conflicts and easily morph with the here and now. I’ve always marveled at the dichotomies within that also stir a melting pot for potentials beyond and inclusive of either/or – collective energies we’re all exploring and refining into our own strand of golden thread.

However we each show up and choose to explore the web, I strongly sense the presence of incredible gateways before us at every new twist and turn…each opening and closing between intervals of tweaks and shifts in our frequency.

I’d like to now end with the little painting side project I mentioned in my last post, as it reflects the gateway energy prominently voiced in this one and is very special to me.

The vision for it came on the Full Moon of the 6th and I completed it on the 8th. Its manifestation was fluid and revealed the threshold before us.

As I mentioned, I felt the need to move creative energy during this transition period where I’m integrating the next phase, and what better way to honor and anchor that than with an actual gateway creation. It emerged, as a result of the sound channeling meditation I shared, “Opening the Stargates.”

This plain wooden tray came to me recently and Dave actually said, “maybe you can paint something on it,” which resonated instantly like a huge heart click.

A tray symbolizes new offers and opportunities. A tray with golden anything on it symbolizes rich rewards and invaluable and magnificent achievements that are possible to manifest from the opportunities presented.

Golden cosmic tree nebulas merging into a gateway to another realm.

Take a look at the details of this enchanted space and inner sanctum castle made of entwined roots and golden vines, the vast vernal landscape, and the merging cosmic rabbits leaping from one world to the other. One reflects the joy, sovereignty and expanse. The other peers at us with glints of invitation and mischievous knowing, even in the in between.

What are your takeaways from viewing the creation below that channeled through?

I took various photos of it – close-ups, full scope, and angles in different lighting reflect how it shifts and the golden paint comes alive depending on perspective.

The tray is 11 1/4 inches by 18 1/2 inches by 5/8 inch. It’s not complete, as I’m awaiting varnish to arrive to seal it properly so it can be used as a lightweight serving tray, as a potent holder on an altar where sacred objects can be placed, or can be displayed in a mini decorative, tabletop easel or sit atop a shelf or mantel.

I am also feeling I will affix tiny stones and crystals around the outer edge, once the varnish is set, framing the gateway as a form of activation that will be both grounding and uplifting in energies.

It wanted to be shared now, so I am posting it for anyone meant to see it.

I wasn’t sure if I’d be keeping it or offering it, but I’ll know once it’s complete and either way, I’ll post a photo of it in its final embodiment with any information on its possible availability then. That will likely be some time next week.

In the meantime, I hope it inspires your journey onward with heightened sense of wonderment for the potentials that lie on the other side of the gateways you are navigating an invitation to.

Dreams, Snow Enchantment & a Thank You

As big snow storms continue here, my nights also remain consistent in messages blowing through. Dream visitors reflect daytime ones with recurring themes that point in the same direction of hope, opportunity, and major life changes of promising potential.

I can’t help but feel that these themes are collectively woven, and not mine alone, although I do understand directly what they point to in my own life. A most recent dream helped reiterate that feeling, which I’ll share briefly in a moment.

I waited to share this post until today’s Full Moon, as the energy felt connected.

A series of nearly back-to-back dreams have brought golden bears, rabbits, tortoise, and frogs all carrying similar energies.

I already shared my golden bear dream. Golden bears in dreams carry meaning of transitional stages in life, harmony, and joyous spirits, where as the gold can also be linked to the higher/greater self, good fortune, and hope. The gold particularly stood out as that alchemical process one refines and transmutes. Perhaps a whisper of a Golden Era or the potential expansion that hovers within reach.

Rabbits showed up as well in personal storylines, but connected me and others in dreamtime too. Astrid, Nestor, and Cosmo were prominent bridge workers for heart healing in others. Of course, we are entering the Year of the Rabbit as well, which is thought to be one of hope. There is renewal, good fortune, and abundance in rabbit’s presence. And don’t forget that “spring” in their step that carries joy and promise.

I also had a visitation dream from my tortoise Gaia. Although she’s always working hard behind the scenes with her impeccable cosmic navigation, to have her more upfront was a sweet surprise. In the dream I found a tortoise that had her essence and I knew Gaia had returned. You might recall how she disappeared into Deep Earth years back. So, this felt significant of something with her work and the core being ready for the next phase, but also that it’s here already.

I then had a dream that I came upon a pond in the snow where many large spotted frogs were swimming and hopping about. One of them hopped into my hand and filled the size of my palm. Frogs, too, symbolize hope, good fortune, renewal, transformation, new beginnings, opportunities, making leaps, and major, personal transformation and life shifts.

Waking life abundance of turkey vultures, chestnuts, and chickadees have been on the same wave length. Turkey vultures brought to me patient renewal as a message. Chestnut trees have become a symbol of perseverance and hope. And chickadees sing of hope, good fortune, contentment, and bravery.

While there indeed is work ahead and layers of recreating and rebuilding to do, it feels promising if we can stay the course and summon up the courage and trust of the heart for the journey.

This brings me to the most recent dream that punctuated a collective tapestry message. It took place in the wee hours between the 3rd and 4th of this week.

In summary, the dream had me involved with others in what seemed like a significant tipping point potential, but not without concerns and uncertainty. I found myself in a large, dark community-like room that felt to be half inside and outside, with a group of people. There was the sense of something looming, a presence, or energy that was closing in, after a period of continuing to be held off by the people in the room. I found myself observing this energy and the people around me, as if I was assessing and trying to understand the relationship between them and what could be done to change things. In short, people were frustrated not knowing what more they could do and felt on the edge of hopelessness. Then something came to me. I shared what I was feeling…”If we bring the power of our gift together at the same time, this will change everything. We only need 35 people to do this together at once. But it must be done together. And what is meant by the gift that has power, is not the gift you think of easily about yourself or that you’ve been expressing more prominently in your life. It’s the gift you’re most humble about. The one you dismiss easily or don’t think it yet to be a power of yours.” I knew in the dream that I had no evidence or proof to provide the people of what was coming through and they did ask how I knew this…I couldn’t answer more than it just is a sense and that we didn’t have anything to lose in trying it. However, it was still not felt to be an easy task, as some people didn’t know what their power gift was, couldn’t see or acknowledge it, or were afraid to step into it. I could tell it partially gave them relief in theory, but there was still doubt and fear flowing strong in the emotional and subconscious realms. After that point, I remember people running about, trying to evade this looming thing or energy. The more they ran, the more it came. A elder man saw me and grabbed my hand, pulling me with him, and without words I knew he wanted to keep me safe. He took me through back hidden doors to this other room that went down secret passageways and into a hidden area behind the large kitchen. Back there, as we stayed in a separated reality, there was a sense of him nurturing me and the creative alchemy within me that was growing while things continued on “out there”. End of dream.

I always receive very specific numbers, words, places, snippets of exact flashes like remote viewing in dreams. The number 35 stood out. It points to significant and beneficial life changes that come with a transition and re-evaluation period, but the changes will receive divine support to help with the challenges that may come on that path.

The number 3 is about development, creativity, joy, optimism, spiritual expansion, and growth.

The number 5 is about significant changes, freedom, curiosity, adaptability, resourcefulness, and a bright future.

The number 8 – the sum of 3 + 5 – is about victory, overcoming challenges, prosperity, infinity, completeness, harmony, and also strength, material/financial abundance, and even professional success.

So when you put 3 and 5 together you have the support, spiritual guidance, and energy to help you to achieve dreams and be successful with endeavors.

Again, felt both collective and personal so I’m sharing, as I do with other things where one can draw upon more than meets the eye from the surface of stories told.

A word that’s come to me recently is refinement. One that also feels to carry weight for me this year and the course I’m navigating. Refining things as a form of purification as well.

And nothing could feel more purified than fresh, crystalline snow.

I mentioned in my last post that our recent snow shoe in the forest when we broke first tracks had us journeying through areas where many a gnome, creature, and being could be seen in the trees, but also the presence of unseen realms was strong. I shared a couple of those photos so that you could see for yourself if anything showed up while viewing them, but now I am sharing more and how my eyes see things.

I made these fun, quick images on Instagram, using these photos from that day to visually bring to life what I saw in the forms around me and the space between things.

I thought you might enjoy them and perhaps they will spark your imagination – putting you in the realm of curiosity and potential – a space we can invite in at any point in our day.

I know it’s tough out there these days…just as it is inside your heart sometimes to feel it all. We want answers, but sometimes we have to find that kind of resolve within ourselves alone. Sometimes the simplest of things can be the answer. Sometimes we may be asked to step into trust one more time and then we’ll see the next step, but not before then.

Is there something about yourself you’ve been afraid to acknowledge or that felt insignificant because it was more of a secret hope or wish that you wouldn’t dare allow yourself to state out loud?

Is there something others, society, or circumstances didn’t support about you, but it was once – even if just for a second that you dreamed – a passionate beat of your heart?

Like the snowy enchantment images I just shared from my own imagination or experienced reality – depending on perspective, is there something within you that rustles like a seed deep under the snow, mud, rock, and earth with desire to see the light no matter how silly, uncomfortable, or strange it might seem?

When we are willing to curiously and light-heartedly acknowledge these things, no matter how bizarre they may feel or appear, we find a new reality aligning to conspire with us, step-by-step.

I am willing to face the voices and fears with you to bring forth my power gift.

And together, I know that we can build and move realms, let alone mountains.

I know my way and childlike heart isn’t everyone’s way or resonance, but I’m still enlivened by the possibilities I sense.

On a side note, I wanted to send gratitude to those of you who reached out and shared such lovely messages about the sound channeling meditation I posted at the end of the year. I’m so touched to hear how it moved so many of you and helped release and open areas of your life you’ve been working through. It’s one of those things that works behind-the-scenes and can be revisited – each time peeling layers away. It was a way for me to share a piece of my multi-dimensional self with you and streams of the beyond that we are each connected to when we surrender.

Also, I completed many things in the last couple of weeks of 2022 and thought it was powerful closure to the year initiating a dear soul to the third level of Reiki in a Master Teacher attunement just 3 days before the New Year. I share this because although I’ve made these trainings available online except for the sessions together at completion of each course that are live, I’m not sure yet how long I’ll continue offering them. I may even remove them by my birthday – permanently or temporarily. Just something to keep in mind as I continue saying “no” to requests for past offerings coming in and I’m feeling into this one as far as if it still works with the new ahead for me.

I will keep up the Empowerment Series, which includes the Everyday Reiki workshop (great for people who’ve gone through all levels) for longer since they do not require any extra time on my part.

I’m currently working on a little painting, side project as a transition into the next phase that may actually become available as an offering upon completion. I love to move energy in the in between instead of just jumping from one thing to the next. There’s a huge energy shift I need to prepare for with the changes, so channeling creative energy feels supportive as a conduit of the new and making the move more fluid.

I have loved all that my life has been filled with up until now and how it’s connected me with so many incredible souls. I’m also loving the ability to recreate a new one.

Walking into a New Year with Fresh Perspective, Patience & Sunshine in My Heart & Feet

A new month and a new year begins. For us here in the Sierra Nevada it was a pretty dramatic shift, as a big storm came the morning of New Year’s Eve and didn’t stop until very early morning of New Year’s Day. It brought us three feet of fresh snow at our elevation and made for a quiet, cozy, and relaxing last day of 2022.

Up until that day we were receiving a lot of rain, on and off, for several days and a full downpour day just before things turned to snow. We’ve been grateful for a mild Summer of very little smoke, no closely threatening fires, and now a really good Autumn into Winter of rising moisture and snow pack levels.

In fact, we created a different kind of last week of the year for ourselves since the rain wasn’t optimal for certain adventures and our ski passes were blacked out anyway for the busiest week of the year. And on Thursday we actually traveled to Sacramento for a change of scenery and energy. We spent the late morning on a 5 mile walk along the river, followed by catching one of the last days of the Van Gogh immersive exhibit (it was ending on the 31st), and enjoying a yummy vegan lunch before driving back home.

This had us surrounded in mossy, mushroom, river rock, and tree landscapes, a lot of different kinds of birds, giant salmon, and misty air. We also found a lot of chestnuts on the ground, including many beginning to sprout. Dave picked up five of them with hopes we can grow them at home and later plant our little trees.

On New Year’s Eve we got them into a pot with good soil, tied it up with a bag, and away they sprout! Perfect symbolism for the end/start of years.

The stand-out to me from our river walk was the large groups of turkey vultures lining the trees at the edge of the river. Many of them airing their wet wings and just calmly watching us. There was even a group surrounding a Great Blue Heron and one in particular that I connected with. This is him.

Their message of patient rebirth is what stood out to me (personally and collectively) and that things would be morphing in mysterious ways.

The Van Gogh exhibit was interesting. The energy I received in processing his life experiences and art went along with the day for sure, and even the year. I didn’t recall most of the stories about him, as it has been 30 years since my Art History classes at FIDM. So it all felt fresh and looking upon his work was equally so, as well as brought up some poignant, but resolute feelings. So much of his story felt tied in with the collective’s process and how things are now releasing and moving into a different narrative potential.

Dave asked me to sit in the bedroom exhibit so he could take a photo, which is fashioned after Van Gogh’s bedroom at 2, Place Lamartine in Arles, Bouches-du-Rhône, France, known as the Yellow House, and so I did, as you can see below. I just so happened to feel like being incognito that day and other than the sequined bunny on my chest, I seemed to fade into the surroundings. I also felt like I was integrating and processing much of Van Gogh’s experiences.

Van Gogh painted three versions of the bedroom. It is one of his most esteemed paintings and a painting he wrote to his brother with great personal enthusiasm about, saying “I think this bedroom is my best work.” It is a reminder of the calm before the storm, as what followed is considered one of the most explosive periods in art history.

My favorite part of the exhibit was the immersive room where Dave and I laid in reclining chairs to take in the images and narratives that were all around us. This is a look at the room upon entering, before we tucked ourselves in to experience it.

I, of course, loved the sunflower rooms and Starry Night. Tree Roots, his last painting, was also quite moving.

We then woke up to a stunning morning on the 1st of 2023. At first everything was cast in hues of blue with peach clouds that increasingly lit up from the morning light, and then a brightly lit day showcased the land of white sparkling under a baby blue sky.

Our neighbor sent us this photo, wishing us a Happy New Year. It’s the view of our house through their cool little octagon window that has always caught my eye.

It was fun to see our home framed in a different perspective – octagons symbolize rebirth, renewal, regeneration, eternal life, and infinity.

To add a fresh jump start and outlook to this first day of the year, we were also the first to break tracks in our forest out back. Even with snow shoes, this made for quite the workout and took us triple the time it does to just do one mile since we were up to our knees, and sometimes thighs, the whole way.

As you can see, it was an incredibly beautiful day and the Sun was radiant with hope and brilliance, as we journeyed through the incredible landscape with many a gnome and creature shaped tree around us while we crossed bridges and creeks and meandered through the forest.

Many times the snow would fall from tree branches right behind us after we passed.

But one time it got us both from a big explosion of snow from up above and kissed my face and hair with powder, as Dave managed to get his hood on in time.

And speaking of the timing of clothing, I just had to share these two things that came to me in what feels like beautiful alignment too.

The first is a gorgeous, giant iron-on patch that I received for Christmas from a sweet little faery who knows my love for sunflowers. I knew immediately that it would go on the back of my fun, portal activation, denim jacket that I recently had adorned the large three front pockets with all of my favorite pins – kind of a blast from the 80’s past, as I used to wear pins on my jacket then of favorite musical artists. The message on the patch goes perfectly with my own path resonance and Sagittarius Moon, and matched Lee’s words I shared in my last post, ““Be a protector of joy and love on the planet, by being a creator of it.”

No matter if the Sun doesn’t shine, or if you can’t find anything to brighten up your day and life amidst the energies circulating out there, I will keep the Sun’s presence shining through my heart, come what may. It’s one of the things I was born to do.

The second item is a pair of shoes to dance through this new year of the Rabbit in and beyond. I stumbled upon these in a magickal way and brought them home at a third of the cost. I think the image and phrase speak for themselves:

“Run free little bunny, Run…Jump high little bunny, Jump…Spring will soon be here, So be happy little bunny, be happy!”

As we approach the watery, intuitive Full Moon in Cancer on the 6th there’s an energy around how you feel moved to protect all that you love and feel passionate about.

Thoughts may take you to reflect upon what’s important to you, why, and what you’re willing to do for it. This could be a great time for journaling or flowing ideas in some way. Drop into more of yourself and lean into knowing who you are and what your energy signature is here for. It needn’t fit some profound ideal. It need only be purely you.

And with the lineup of Retrogrades still going, this is an exceptionally good time for reflection and revision of goals and motivations.

Allow yourself to surrender and be with the feelings and thoughts that flow through without controlling things. Clarity will come in divine timing if you just let things be and allow yourself to connect with forgotten parts of yourself. Be gentle with yourself and others.

I’ll end this little step-into-the-year with Lee’s January Energy Update for those of you who enjoy his reflections.

Lee’s themes include:

*build your inner reserves as you rewire/recalibrate yourself

*ride the emotional release energy of the holiday season to consciously shed and create

*noticing where you are in terms of protection versus connection and which you need/want to focus on

*trauma layers are releasing more easily now, be part of your future in terms of allowing yourself to cocreate with the universe in the upcoming months or year ahead

*allow yourself to receive as well as give

*deepening heart intuition and how that looks

*envision a wise and embodied humanity – wisdom will be key in the years upcoming

Golden Bears & Hope Rabbits ~ The Earth is Full of Potential & So Are You

I knew I wanted to share one more blog with you before the turning of another year and so, here I sit feeling into what wants to come through.

I feel short on words, but big on feeling so it’s no wonder that I will be ending this post with a gift that is loaded in meaning, but absent of need to express what that is.

Until then, unless you bypass this intro to go straight there, I thought I’d share this fun, little word prompt that a friend of mine posted recently on Instagram and seemed to be a hit with others too. I’ll follow that up with a few thoughts on the year ahead and the feeling tone I’m ending this one with.

The word exercise is simple…just follow the prompt at top, soften your gaze, and then take in the block of letters below. Go!

What words showed up for you?

I just did it once because each time it’s going to be different and I trust the first energy stream that flows through.

My four word mantra that came through is:

Gratitude Change Breakthrough Miracles

It’s up to you how, or even if, you want to approach this. It’s just a light-hearted way to perhaps create an intention, energy focus, or mantra around your year ahead if in fact you hadn’t given it much thought as to what you feel this year to be about for yourself and wanted a little something to direct energy toward.

Intentions aren’t just something for one time of the year, but can be a check-in point with yourself whenever you feel you’d like to create more focus and/or commitment toward something. You can also upgrade your intentions at any moment, if you feel yourself shifting.

I know some people also like to focus simply on one “word for the year” and in fact in our recent meditation Meetup, this was something people were sharing in our last meeting of 2022. I didn’t have one in mind at the time, but I’ve since been feeling into things and revisited the four word mantra that in totality really DID resonate with me.

However, “breakthrough” carried a particular resonance to the overall energy field I sense I’ll be navigating and so for now this word is feeling like my partner.

In any event, 2023 is a big one for me and I can’t tell you how ecstatic I was to learn that my turning 50 would be paired with the Year of the Water Rabbit.

Although I’m a Water Ox by birth, we all know I’m part rabbit and that many of my Cosmic family and cocreators have all been, and currently are, in rabbit bodies. They support me tenfold and to feel the impact this year holds in terms of changes on so many fronts, I’m feeling extra lit by my rabbit kin.

I love that their energy will be supporting the collective at large too, as the Year of the Water Rabbit is said to be one of hope.

And alongside an incredible gift lineup of the perfect alchemy for this year that I received so sweetly from others, I also LOVE that I received several rabbit-themed gifts this Christmas to kick things off! These are just a few including rabbits slippers, a heated lavender rabbit snuggle bunny, a jackalope and Moon beanie, a rabbit holiday dress, a sweet ballet bunny in her warmup clothes (a faery bunny version of the ballet dancer me with great symbolism of dancing through this year’s new portals), and the three wise rabbits (instead of monkeys.)

I may have also baked half a dozen lavender chocolate chip bunny bread loaves on Christmas Eve too!

But personally speaking, not only will I be 50 this year, but Dave will be 60 (and in fact, he IS a Water Rabbit by birth – so this is his year), my mom will be 80, my parents will celebrate their 55th wedding anniversary, and quite a few others close to me have big birthdays, anniversaries, and new beginnings all igniting as well.

What the year looks like in terms of how I’ll be showing up here, or in general, has yet to be seen. That will reveal itself as the changes take form, so I am not placing parameters on anything and just allowing things to organically unfold.

I do continue to feel relief, I’m still loving the unearthed feelings and fears that surround the changes, and I’m feeling the perfection of exactly where I am.

And the more I do all of this, the more I am also able to extend greater depth of sharing the same toward others.

I can feel the paths to new doorways lighting up like neurons in my brain and each transmission carries valuable keys necessary for the next steps.

I loved finding this little tree on our snow hike the day after Christmas, lit up by the sun like a star at top.

Do you also see the faery portal on the tree in the background with a snow lock, or key, etched onto it?

Oh the wonders all around us.

And the mirrors too! Hehe!

Everyone spends the holiday season in their own way. Ours was a mix of warmth and love shared with family and peaceful intention and quiet cozy on our own.

Even the fur babies enjoyed their fun gifts and having mom and dad snuggle time. The Moon and Stars tunnel was a big hit with all three of them.

And Astrid was all thumpers for her Christmas extravaganza.

But their favorite part was just having us all together…hanging out watching the forest through the windows, opening gifts, helping mom with Christmas Eve baking and last minute wrapping, napping with dad while he reads, and cozy nights by the fire.

No matter what’s going on externally, the inner world is ours alone to experience the way we choose to and can never be taken away from us.

Our power is there and is determined by how we engage anything outside of it.

The inner sanctum of your heart is just that….a sacred place that you are the keeper, creator, and emanator of.

And speaking of the inner sanctum, I had an incredible dream about golden bears Tuesday night that felt like it emerged from that vortex.

In the dream I saw a mass of golden fur in a large ball across the field from where I stood on a porch. The mass separated and I realized there were two golden bears that had been entwined together. They separated and started running around playfully. Then one bolted all over…the smaller of the two, although both were quite large. There were other people around outside and the bear was running toward everyone, but without any threat. He was simply bursting with joy and running as a way to release the feeling of exuberance and wanting to share it. He reminded me of a dog running at top speed after a ball and returning it to his human with joy. I noticed the people were running in different directions away from the bear, even though he was bounding toward them with joy. The bear ran here and there and doubled back and straight at the other people on the porch, but they continued to dodge away and the bear just kept joyfully running. Some people seemed to just step out of the way so as not to collide with the bear, while others ran away. He then was directing his joyful explosion at me. I was at the end of the porch with the railing at my back and no where to go, so the bear would definitely have collided with me. Not wanting either him or I to be hurt or stopped in the momentum, and although the bear meant no harm, I decided to jump off the side of the porch to the ground since he wasn’t stopping and didn’t know the magnitude of his power and size. To my surprise, as I started my jump, the bear leapt at the same time. We were in perfect unison and divine alignment, as I started to descend after my leap up and the bear was able to jump over my head with just inches between us. We appeared like synchronized jumpers, keeping the momentum, and both landing in unison as well. The space of air we shared in our jump was this in between place that carried incredible potency. I landed on the ground filled with exhilaration and the bear continued on running with joy. I just remember the beautiful, thick, silky golden fur dancing like flames on these bears and how it dazzled and delighted me. The essence and meaning to me felt like alchemy for the year ahead, since I had been focused on things to come. Perhaps it may also have collective and wider meaning too.

Synchronously, it also came on the heels of having earlier that day listened to a 2023 message from Lee Harris where he stated, “Be a protector of joy and love on the planet, by being a creator of it.”

He went on to share how these energies of joy and love diffuse so much, are healing forces, and can break the spell of disconnection in the most powerful way, but are often dismissed. If others around you have a different narrative, or you keep noticing lower vibrational, doom and gloom narratives circulating, it will help you greatly to unhook the tethers to them, let go of giving power to them as the whole truth, and become heart consciousness in yourself.

There’s only hopelessness if you believe all is lost.

And now I’d like to end with a little gift to welcome in 2023 – The Year of the Water Rabbit.

It just organically unfolded. I didn’t know what was going to come through and wasn’t even sure if I was going to share it, but I knew I was supposed to do it and see what happened.

So, I started the record button and surrendered to the energy streaming through. The result is below and was done in one take without any prep other than a prompt to do so.

You may notice woven layering of different realms or frequencies building upon each other. You may notice portions to be somewhat familiar, as there’s a recurring melody undertone in parts I recall from past channelings, and then shifts into something that may spark remembrance, but is altogether different.

Is it a language? Is it just sound?

Perhaps it’s simply the language of the heart when the veils are dropped.

I’ll leave that to you.

It may be intense for some at times or it may find you only when the moment is aligned.

Sound channeling is a meeting of heart and spirit through the body. It’s a very intimate and vulnerable space to allow and surrender to the frequencies that want to move through.

Like the golden bear, I share the source of light and creative force within me for anyone who would like to dance in synchronized momentum together.

Yuletide Sound Channeling ~ Opening the Stargates

Impromptu layered sound channeling of star codes joined with a harmonic pair of crystal singing bowls that help balance, invoke conscious dreaming, receptivity and open a gateway to the subconscious and beyond. This was recorded on the eve between eves – after Winter Solstice and before Christmas Eve. Both times connected to a return to light and star energy. May new inspirations ignite and your courage be strengthened to emerge brighter than ever before. The gateways are open. The Earth is full of potential, and so are you.

Winter Solstice ~ Hibernating in the Luxurious Domain of the Soul

Another magickal Winter Solstice (here in the Northern Hemisphere) blows in like starlight on a snowflake and I find myself immersed in so many sweet visions, feelings, and thoughts on what this time of year means to me.

There is extra presence in everything I engage.

There is stillness that fills each breath and not just the in between pauses.

Art by Wendy Andrew

As I surrender to greater alignment with the seasons I know that restoration and replenishment are the whispers of Winter to my body’s rhythms, telling me I deserve the extra rest and feeding my spirit with the nourishment it desires.

Our ancestors knew this time well.

Art by Wendy Andrew

Winter brought us Great Bear Spirit’s wisdom of hibernating in the luxurious domain of the soul. More time indoors, with loved ones and in sacred intention, weaving stories and crafts as the creators that we are, immersed in ritual, resting, and receiving.

Warmth is a state of heart that comes through the sharing of our love, kindness, and creative magick.

You may recall last year’s celebratory reunion on this special day. And although this year will be a quiet one at home, we are going to honor last year’s fun by opening shared gifts between us and our Vermont Faerie Family today.

As I’ve written before:

Winter Solstice celebrates a return to light and provides a regenerative portal to honor the remembrance of this light that YOU are, for making those leaps in consciousness by moving within to shine your own light even when no one else around you is, and to “see the light” even when things get dark and you’re unsure of what to do, where to go, or even how to think or feel.

Through inward focus you can receive insightful guidance on the months and year ahead. Perhaps you might envision the light and inner fire of your heart and soul expanding and filling your entire body and emanating out and joining with the light of our Great Central Sun, allowing yourself to take up more space and be who you really are.

The Yuletide season is a celebration of brilliance, which is innate within us all by our very existence, and everything around us.

We are also approaching the New Moon doorway of the 23rd, which will be in the sign of Capricorn – the perfect bearer of this season’s message.

With a lot of Capricorn and other key connected energies to this time period in my chart, I always feel a surge of support around this New Moon and this one feels particularly defining.

So much has been woven together over the years to bring light to these new potentials individually and collectively.

We may have yet to know where things are headed, but when we drop into the navigational pull of our hearts’ compasses, there is where we can find the peace for the journey and trust we’re exactly where we need to be.

Peace sign I found on a ski run at Heavenly Mtn.

It’s also within our hearts that the spirit of Solstice can shine forth from.

For me at this time of year, and especially if I find myself at any holiday gatherings, I find my focus to be on the connective threads between myself and others increasing.

All the little things stand out to me as years move on, we all grow older, and I continue to evolve…I pay attention to the feelings, the essence, the details of experiences, people, the environment, and what’s most important to me. It all becomes etched in my heart.

The individual expressions, joys, shared stories, the warmth, the festive holiday touches, the unique differences embodied, the inner child flame I catch behind the windows to each soul, what makes others light up…I soak it all in, drop into the feelings being shared by those around me, and even drop into my Cosmic self observing it all as the brilliance of human expression and connection that make up the reasons why we find it compelling to bring Spirit into embodiment.

I step out of judging and defining and just open my senses to absorb the magnitude of life force beaming through the feelings and creative expressions of humanity.

My attention goes to the inherent beauty in it all and it makes me smile…many times also I find my eyes welling up from the stardust I seem to touch within the vortex of my heart in human body.

One of those moments was just a few days ago at the performance of Messiah by our local Tahoe symphony orchestra and chorus we have here at the lake. They always put on a lovely venue for this, with additional holiday song favorites the guests can join in on.

It’s usually held at a church here and this year was the fullest house yet. I happened to be sitting right in front with direct open connection to the artists and access for vibrations to pulse through every fiber of my being.

I was especially moved by the chorus singing O Holy Night – one of my all-time favorite pieces (I actually once used to play it on the piano many Moons ago).

It’s not the words or any belief system that this time of year or Christmas songs are connected with, but the melodies, tones, and feelings the pieces evoke – and the moving way that they are sung that affects me.

This particular one always touches every part of me and I found tears slowly flowing down my cheeks on Sunday, choked up by the present moment and feeling a unified synergy of everyone’s hearts and voices joining together at highest frequency and depth, singing like angels.

Stardust Lodge (note that “Stardust” is so bright you can’t read it)

In fact, that’s what I saw when I looked out at every individual – angels shining their passionate lights through song, together. Young and old alike…they were all simply light and exquisitely, glowing on highest voltage.

I get transported to a space looking on from outside of the Earth, and feeling the broadcasting of frequencies that beauty like this pulses out into the Cosmos and across all multiverses.

In part, it’s likely this expansion within that continues to open doors of experience for me. It’s extended both in waking and dream life – the latter increasingly connecting me to many people where I am receiving very specific details impossible for me to access otherwise about others and wider unfoldings through telepathy, remote viewings, and downloaded messages.

I’m also receiving snippets of clarity on things personally to my spirit journey that are stringing together like pages in a book I know I wrote once upon a star and am simultaneously writing, again. And while this is happening, the magnitude of current crystal beings surrounding me and Astrid is beyond explaining, but each of them holds codes to those pages unfolding. It’s in part, why we are more silent, as the inner world is loudly calling our focus to unlock and integrate.

Just a few days ago I found the most precious, pure and perfect little mouse in the snow on our deck. He was so perfect in fact and full of life force, I was convinced he was merely asleep and dreaming (interesting tie-in with dream prevalence for me), and almost felt like he was about to stir awake, as I rubbed him softly. Perhaps that was me sensing that death is not an ending, but a beginning and how energy never dies, but gives rise to something more in a seamless blink.

He immediately brought Fiver to heart – you may remember his story from a blog I shared in 2017 that I’ve linked to here in case you haven’t read it or would like to again. If you don’t read that post, I’m including the following excerpt from it because it speaks loudly to me around why mouse spirit has yet again found his way to me and what he means to me especially in terms of mediating worlds, things in transition, the bigger picture, and innocence and purity found in the crossover between cycles of endings and beginnings – deconstructing and recreating. All so divine with Solstice and the New Moon energies upon us.

Avia Venefica shares about Symbolic Mouse Meaning:

“Our ancient ancestors observed their affinity for ground-burrowing, and likened this to mice being ‘one with the Mother’ (Mother Earth, that is). This ground-loving behavior was also seen as a connection to the Underworlds (or Otherworlds, depending upon your source of reference). This kind of connection makes the mouse a kind of mediator between physical life and recycling life (spirit energies in transition). This Earth and Underworld connection continues in western, medieval Europe, where folk superstitions tell of mice possessing the ability to carry souls of humans who have passed from this physical life.

In Native North American Indian symbolism, tribes such as the Navajo established the mouse having governance over the southern quadrant of their medicine wheel, which represents a macrocosmic view of life. The southern quadrant of the medicine wheel holds sacred tenets such as new beginnings, connection with the Mother (Nature/Earth). It also represents youthfulness and innocence. Because the mouse is quite modest, and connected so closely with the Mother Earth, it has gained great prominence in this and other branches of Native wisdom.

Mice are incredibly prolific, as mentioned earlier, and can bear up to a dozen pups every four to six weeks. That’s a lotta mice. This is symbolic of fertility, abundance, and expansion. For example, a mouse in your awareness could be symbolic of your ability to mass-produce new births in the form of new ideas, development, creativity, social connections – any number of opportunities are available for us to give birth often and abundantly, the mouse is a reminder of that.”

I’ve found a few other mice before as well, but the prominence and synchronicity of Fiver’s and this little one’s arrival in my life came at nearly the same time of season, separated by five years. Fiver arrived on January 5th and this sweet one, I’ve named Jonathan Whiskers (for his whiskers stood out most prominently to me and felt like antennae to all the worlds/realms he travels), came to me just short of three weeks earlier.

In Fiver’s blog, someone shared a comment and this part of it I felt to copy and paste in here, as it may whisper something to you as well:

“…by sharing the story with us, Fiver is a teacher for me in terms of trust and finding a good place to be and for self-care and for surrendering to what must be in a sacred way with just right timing.

A beautiful reflection for Solstice and Winter don’t you think?

After energetically spending time with Jonathan Whiskers, I found him the perfect little box, gave him his own special crystal like Fiver received – this one being a tiny amethyst shard from our special giant master geode – and placed him in one of my outdoor garden tubs to keep him “on ice” so to speak until the ground thaws for me to bury him properly. His presence has yet again moved me greatly.

Like the dream journeys and downloads, the connective threads I drop into, and all of the heart opening experiences in this transitioning time in my own life and world-wide scene, Jonathan Whiskers again spoke to a part of me within him and him within me that can peacefully surrender into slumber and live on in the light of my birthing star. Like my seal friends of this past Summer also reflected, I am ready to let go and trust in the new cycle

The inner becomes the outer and the outer reflects the inner…each opening and download keeps demonstrating the transparency we are accessing, the more certain realities continue to crumble, and the eternal force that is in constant momentum.

It’s simply evidence of our collective connection and our true nature in its purity to be able to access any part of that web.

While the world evolves, the seeds of genius lie in the madness.

It’s like seeing the lotus in the mud.

The mud must be brilliant and pure in order to birth such brilliance and purity.

Let your greatness shine from your inner light alone.

Warmest Winter Solstice and Yuletide wishes!

May you create space for this time of restoration, sacred crafting and celebration of your brilliance.

I’ve laced this post with recent captures of the enchantment, beauty, and vibes that stir the Spirit of the season in my heart. The first two are by artist Wendy Andrew. I hope you can feel the essence of this season through them and that they might caress the seeds of your New Moon hopes in the most nurturing of ways.

What speaks to your heart in terms of something you would like to craft and/or cultivate more of, be it a project, new venture, or a particular aspect of your life (emotional/mental/physical/spiritual realm)?

Beaming out my light with yours to ignite that flame!

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