Monthly Archives: November 2014
Guardian of Sacred Wisdom ~ Owl Tattoo Design
This was such an amazing piece to be a part of co-creating with my client. Not only do I absolutely love owls, but the energy that presented itself when channeling this piece is very meaningful to me to be able to create.
I can’t share enough how honored I am to find out that not only will this piece grace his skin, but is going to be the cover of his dissertation, with an inclusion of my description I shared with him, in an appendix to it.
I’m blown away and feeling deeply moved with so much gratitude.
This design was completed on the 11/11 portal, which again is one of those powerful synchronicities that seem to always take place along this sacred design journey.
I had very little to go on in terms of information provided, so I was able to just tune in to what I felt in the words that were shared with me, in between the words, and beyond the words. This brought me to a very expansive energy and presence wanting to birth forth.
I knew how much owls meant to my client and I wanted to bring to life one that would embody the elements that were dear to him, while not being static, as in just sitting there. This led me to create one with wings wide open, as if in flight, or just lifting off into flight (wing power being embodied in it for energetic strength and expansive consciousness). This also reflected how my client loves the “quiet stealth of their flying” as he put it, so this reiterated my vision.
I also had an area to work with on the forearm that created a more narrow space it would sit and while was told it was okay to wrap around if need be, it was important to me that it mostly fit facing forward seen in fullness. This became interesting, as I wanted movement and to see the wings, but didn’t want them fully wrapped around where you couldn’t appreciate them upon first glance. I also didn’t want an owl just sitting there with wings to its side.
There will be a bit of wing wrap to the sides in the area we were working with, (in terms of tip and upper/outer portion of them) but since wings are like our own arms (arms and hands are connected to the sign of Gemini, the Air element, and communication), then this seemed energetically fitting to create some expanse, movement, and flow around.
The owl’s eyes are so important to me as well, and so I wanted an owl with those powerful “windows to the soul” in a partially forward facing position so that you could see both eyes, but with a bit of that “looking off into the distance” quality, creating the visionary essence that they carry.
There is a sense of stillness and grace, even in the fluidity of motion…very empowered, even regal in a way, and yet with humble integrity and peace.
Another thing that stood out to me was my client sharing how he loved that owls were a “global” bird, found all over the world. From onset, this immediately brought to vision me seeing the owl holding Earth within his powerful talons, as if bringing his gifts of ancient wisdom to the collective, teaching us how to live in natural harmony with her, and acting as her guardian and peace keeper, as well as communicative bridge of unity.
Owls also symbolize intuition, magick, they reveal the hidden realm, help us have keen awareness within silence, and signify an old soul and mastery – so energetically I wanted the whole piece/owl to embody this essence as well.
I was then being led to Native American Indian symbolism when I was tuning in, but I was also getting this feeling and vision of a labyrinth. In researching I discovered that the labyrinth was a common Native American Indian symbol that they used to represent life as a journey and our infinite, eternal nature, and that along with other symbolic mandala designs they created, the labyrinth mandala was one of them.
Focusing on the labyrinth mandala is a way to understand that life is what you make it and the way we choose to live it, determines the degree of freedom and expansiveness we experience.
“Every step of the journey is integral to the path of wholeness that you are on. It is ever-changing and ever-perfect, taking you to your own sacred center and back out into the expansive reflection found there. At times you may need to call upon your intuition and creativity, engaging receptivity and courage when deciding to enter the journey to center or not – the way in is the way out.” – something I recently wrote about labyrinths in an article.
This all reiterated my feeling, which went along with the energy I was receiving to make a part of this sacred design. So the labyrinth was added, centered between the owl’s wings, as if they energetically hold this “portal” of life evolution and experience when they fully expand with the breath of freedom the owl soars through the sky with. It felt to be a key gateway that is created from recognizing and embracing our sovereign free will, and then putting that into responsible and accountable action throughout our lives, in every experience, and with all of life that we encounter. Our choices not only have impact on our own journey, but will create how that journey evolves at large in collective connection.
And lastly, to create movement and flow, the addition of the dancing energy that entwines, threads, and holds all of the integral key pieces of this story together in an alchemical current of mutable rapture, emerged.
If you would like to partner in co-creating your own sacred visionary piece of artwork or tattoo design to embody the empowerment you desire, you can contact me at tania@spiritualskin.com.
There is currently a waiting list, and a monthly limit of only 6 additional clients I can take alongside that. You can easily make your deposit at the link provided below to embark on this journey in partnership with me.
For more information about the process and pricing please visit: Life Changing Tattoos
Some people have preferred to read my book, Spiritual Skin ~ Sacred Tattoos: More than Skin Deep, especially if they are new to sacred tattoo designs, before embarking on this journey.
If you are drawn to learn more about sacred tattoos you can order a copy of the book here: Spiritual Skin
It is also available in Kindle format here: Spiritual Skin
You can also order your personal copy here: Signed and Inscribed Copy of Spiritual Skin
Ocean Musings
“It is not the length of life, but the depth.” ~Ralph Waldo Emerson
“Because there’s nothing more beautiful than the way the ocean refuses to stop kissing the shoreline, no matter how many times it’s sent away.” ~Sarah Kay
“A visit to the ocean for me is cleansing, recharging, and nurturing. It supports me into my expansiveness, guides me lovingly into the abyss, and activates a remembrance. It’s a place I can go to surrender to life and allow feelings to flow. There is no need for answers, only a willingness to let go into beingness.” ~Tania Marie
One Lovely Blog Award
I would love to express my gratitude to Linda of litebeing chronicles for honoring me with this One Lovely Blog Award. It was such a sweet surprise. I have so enjoyed our connecting via the worldwide web and your unique and thoughtful posts that probe an exploration of wider perspectives. I love how you share what you’re divinely inspired by in the moment. This is a well deserved award for you!!
Congratulations and thank you dearly for the nomination. It is an honor to be recognized with all of these wonderful people and bloggers.
That leads us to the rules, which I don’t so much enjoy, but with gratitude I embrace the journey so that I may recognize and honor others that touch my life and the lives of so many.
Rules for One Lovely Blog Award:
Thank the person who nominated you for the award. – done!
Add the One Lovely Blog logo to your post. – done!
Share 7 facts or things about yourself. – about to, see below!
Nominate 15 or so bloggers you admire and inform the nominees by commenting on their blog. – coming up shortly after my personal facts!
7 Things About Me (I added 2 additional – I liked the energy of 9 for a full cycle – to provide some insights you might not know):
1. I’m a walking dichotomy of very distinct opposites that on the surface may seem not to make sense, or wouldn’t if you fully knew me, but are the holistic fabric of my essence.
2. I recognize myself as in this world, but not of it.
3. Freedom, exploration, creative energy, expansiveness, and independence are vital to who I am – music and sound are like the breath of life to me.
4. If I had to give up any of my senses it would be my eyesight, as for me, I “see” the most when I close my eyes, reminding me of when I was legally blind and saw the world as it was real to me – flowing energy without definitions. Other senses become heightened, including intuition and telepathy, when you don’t rely on your “eyes”, but see with your “inner eye”. I wouldn’t mind giving up words either, since telepathy would take care of that as well.
5. I identify with Rabbits and the Cosmic magick of their essence. They share the embodiment of paradox and contradiction and identification with Ancient Mystery, and the Sacred Creative Powers to destroy and recreate transmutationally.
6. I embrace the shadow with reverence and value raw “realness” and natural harmony.
7. The Faery Rules are very near and dear to me, especially “A Person’s Word is Bond” – (some of the only rules I like, including Cosmic Laws)
8. I’ve been married more than once and have no intentions of legally doing so again.
9. My personal choice to be vegan, almost 9 years ago now, was a spiritual one that is consistent with who I am in essence and energetically what I hold most dear.
My 15 Nominations (in no particular order). This is the main reason for my accepting this nomination, as I want to recognize some of the very lovely souls and blogs out there. I completely understand if any of you don’t resonate with following the guidelines and haven’t the time to do so. You still all have “One Lovely Blog” and deserve having that known:
- I likely am not supposed to, but I’m also nominating litebeing chronicles for my above mentioned reasons: http://litebeing.com/
- I love, love the depth, dreams, and fairy tales of http://dreamrly.com/
- http://symbolreader.net/ knows the way to my ever-symbolic heart
- The powerfully potent http://stormiesteele.com/
- Sweet insights of http://kimgosselinblog.com/
- The colorful, creative, and artsy http://segmation.wordpress.com/
- Deep reverence for the full disclosures and magick of http://laurabruno.wordpress.com/
- The beautiful music of http://kmihran.wordpress.com/
- The musings of https://bluebutterfliesandme.wordpress.com/
- The photography of http://photopaulm.com/
- The genuine purity of http://reikidawn.wordpress.com/
- The raw and vulnerable poetry of http://heartshapedeyes.wordpress.com/
- The rich insights of http://sophiaschildren.wordpress.com/
- The mystical depth, reverence for Earth, and poetry of http://etherealnature.com/
- The magick of http://wytchymystique.com/
I hope that you will take some time when able, to visit each of these lovely blogs and explore what they have to share for yourself. Congratulations to all of you and truly, to every one out there that so vulnerable and courageously shares their passions, insights, and uniqueness through your blogs. You are all so LOVELY! I wish you all abundant loveliness throughout every moment of your colorful journeys.
Tree Wisdom
Magickal Tree in High Park, Toronto I found on my visit there in 2013
“For me, trees have always been the most penetrating preachers. I revere them when they live in tribes and families, in forests and groves. And even more I revere them when they stand alone. They are like lonely persons. Not like hermits who have stolen away out of some weakness, but like great, solitary men, like Beethoven and Nietzsche. In their highest boughs the world rustles, their roots rest in infinity; but they do not lose themselves there, they struggle with all the force of their lives for one thing only: to fulfil themselves according to their own laws, to build up their own form, to represent themselves. Nothing is holier, nothing is more exemplary than a beautiful, strong tree. When a tree is cut down and reveals its naked death-wound to the sun, one can read its whole history in the luminous, inscribed disk of its trunk: in the rings of its years, its scars, all the struggle, all the suffering, all the sickness, all the happiness and prosperity stand truly written, the narrow years and the luxurious years, the attacks withstood, the storms endured. And every young farmboy knows that the hardest and noblest wood has the narrowest rings, that high on the mountains and in continuing danger the most indestructible, the strongest, the ideal trees grow.
Trees are sanctuaries. Whoever knows how to speak to them, whoever knows how to listen to them, can learn the truth. They do not preach learning and precepts, they preach, undeterred by particulars, the ancient law of life.
A tree says: A kernel is hidden in me, a spark, a thought, I am life from eternal life. The attempt and the risk that the eternal mother took with me is unique, unique the form and veins of my skin, unique the smallest play of leaves in my branches and the smallest scar on my bark. I was made to form and reveal the eternal in my smallest special detail.
A tree says: My strength is trust. I know nothing about my fathers, I know nothing about the thousand children that every year spring out of me. I live out the secret of my seed to the very end, and I care for nothing else. I trust that God is in me. I trust that my labor is holy. Out of this trust I live.
When we are stricken and cannot bear our lives any longer, then a tree has something to say to us: Be still! Be still! Look at me! Life is not easy, life is not difficult. Those are childish thoughts. Let God speak within you, and your thoughts will grow silent. You are anxious because your path leads away from mother and home. But every step and every day lead you back again to the mother. Home is neither here nor there. Home is within you, or home is nowhere at all.
A longing to wander tears my heart when I hear trees rustling in the wind at evening. If one listens to them silently for a long time, this longing reveals its kernel, its meaning. It is not so much a matter of escaping from one’s suffering, though it may seem to be so. It is a longing for home, for a memory of the mother, for new metaphors for life. It leads home. Every path leads homeward, every step is birth, every step is death, every grave is mother.
So the tree rustles in the evening, when we stand uneasy before our own childish thoughts: Trees have long thoughts, long-breathing and restful, just as they have longer lives than ours. They are wiser than we are, as long as we do not listen to them. But when we have learned how to listen to trees, then the brevity and the quickness and the childlike hastiness of our thoughts achieve an incomparable joy. Whoever has learned how to listen to trees no longer wants to be a tree. He wants to be nothing except what he is. That is home. That is happiness.”
~Hermann Hesse, Baume. Betrachtungen und Gedichte (Trees. Reflections and Poems)
Ask the Heart ~ Lee Harris
Floating Autumn leaves and bubbles down the water toward the falls at the Getty Museum Garden
“The heart needs its healing and will not rest until it has it. Why? Because the heart is you and you need your healing. The heart is the seat of your soul, the core of your soul. It is the leader of your experience on Earth. Even though it is greatly aided by all of the other colors and energies you possess, it dictates the flow, the mood, the set-up of your day.
The experiences you create and manifest will both serve and respond to your heart. And where your heart is not being served, where you are ignoring its needs, you will find yourself stumbling from difficulty to difficulty – created for yourself in order to remind you to return to your heart. And when you return to your heart, you will see your life and your ideas will not be that different. But with heart energy behind those ideas, they will be in truth for you and so far more successful, far more in flow and, far easier to manifest.
Diving into the heart each morning is a solution for many of you at this time of great change. When you find yourselves thrown by your hearts on a daily basis, distracted from life or pulled out of what you are doing by your feelings. Your feelings are the most important thing for you to attend to at this time. If you allow your feelings and their requirements when they rise to be present in your life, they will pass through. If you fight or suppress them, they will hang around for longer because they need to be served – and released.
Grief and sadness do not belong to you. You have to let them go. Joy and happiness do not belong to you. You have to let them go too. Life is a kaleidoscope that you agreed to be a part of – it will become more peaceful. There will be far less human pain and struggle the more you progress, but the attachments will lead you astray. Not from your path or your truth, for if you allow yourself to be led by attachments, you are learning from that experience. There is no wrong turn you can take. All is your creation. If you no longer wish to be led astray from your heart’s desires, needs and your heart energy – allow yourself the experience of this exercise.
By giving your heart this attention each morning, a greater level of relationship will automatically be reached within you. It will give many of you great stability, especially on days when you are experiencing struggle. you will work with the energies that need attending to within your heart in a concentrated form so that they do not need to be manifested in your life. You will have dealt with the bulk of the energy each morning. Sometimes you will find the energy will be dissolved and you will return to peace by the end of the exercise.
Do not be alarmed by whatever you find in your heart each morning. If you find sadness, accept it for it will not be there forever. It will move. It always does. Sometimes it takes longer and that is fine. Just allow and accept. When you begin to allow and accept the heart, it moves forward fast and your experience of peace comes faster, deeper, truer and more felt than ever before.
This is the key to your soul evolution – this heart energy – this heart power you possess.”
~A Zachary Channel by Lee Harris, Energy Speaks Vol. II
“I have no right to call myself one who knows. I was one who seeks, and I still am, but I no longer seek in the stars or in books; I’m beginning to hear the teachings of my blood pulsing within me. My story isn’t pleasant, it’s not sweet and harmonious like the invented stories; it tastes of folly and bewilderment, of madness and dream, like the life of all people who no longer want to lie to themselves.” ~Hermann Hesse
Garden of the Goddess ~ Sacred Tattoo Mandala Design
It’s always an interesting challenge when I’m presented a piece to create that incorporates an already existent tattoo. With this design, I was to create something that integrated what you see at center – the Pentagram with Celtic Knot inverted triangle and the Moon phases.
From there, I wove the rest of the journey, incorporating my client’s essence and aspects of herself she wanted to draw forth for the new leg of her journey, as well as to bring to the surface in a more empowered way.
I told her immediately that I was feeling to create something ethereal and graceful, yet powerful, embodying a sacred and empowered Goddess essence. I also wanted it to have both an Earthy and mystical energy, combining balanced sacred geometry, but with a flowy, organic quality that is unique and feminine, actively creating itself in the moment.
It turned out to feel very Faery in essence and almost like a stained glass window or lattice work effect…so it’s like a vision peering into the soul essence of who she is and her intricacies – very tender and vulnerable, but regal and intentfully strong. A beautiful weaving of who she is, like an illuminated star blossom.
Immediately when I started tuning in, I received the Peacock, Moth, and Star Jasmine and the rest wove itself as I wanted to tie in qualities that would enhance the tattoo she already had, and also work with its essence, so that it looks like it was meant to be and not pieced together.
Overall, I feel like it’s a portal into this enchanted Garden of the Goddess (or Empress/High Priestess). So magickal!!
I love when my clients are open to what flows through, realizing there is a reason that something they may not have considered, shows up. This client had shared a couple of things that she resonated with, but they did not energetically do so for me when I tuned in, at least not in literal ways, or particularly for this piece. They were not matching the essence of the design and what wanted to come through, so I was guided that there was another way to bring about the energy in a more subtle and feminine flow that worked in alignment with her current tattoo.
For instance, my client had shared resonance with Elephants, and while a very powerful symbol, felt heavy, even if done in line drawings that she liked, and not as intricate and beautiful to her layers and this sacred feminine quality that ended up being created. It also didn’t energetically feel to fit with her current tattoo and I don’t like to just add things together that have no connective factor…I wanted it to blend and feel like one unified piece.
And the Tree of Life she also was drawn to came out in sort of an energetic/abstract way through this piece, rather than literal like so many other people have. There is a quality of entwined and wrapping branches from the six-pointed, organic star that bloom/grow from the center, which is like a Heart Chakra Lotus, because it has 12 petals. So the family connection and her roots are at the core of her being and heart, and are the connection of unity for her. The branches, rather than purely straight, bend like vines in this lattice work, showing her resiliency and strength to flow in any situation. And the branch-like vines double as the Star Jasmine vines, from which they grow as well – so many layers of symbolism, as you’ll continue to see.
Anyway, there is so much to continue to find and unravel in the piece. Here are some of the aspects included:
Personal Empowerment Mandala: (feels like the mandala is fluid and moving, so it is not static, although created with sacred geometry – has a flowing quality that recreates itself each moment as she shifts and changes) Mandalas are geometric figures representing the Universe. In this case, she is the Universe and this empowerment mandala is a reflection of the very “fabric” of her You-niverse – the core of her being and aspects of her higher self to help her to move more gracefully into expressing that. The mandala will help to focus her energy in a way that is connected to her authentic self.
Peacock: the Peacock was a surprise to her, although she resonated with and loved the energetic symbolism of them always. I find it powerful when things are revealed to my clients about themselves that they hadn’t fully thought of, or that sneak up on them. Often the very reason things at first sit a bit odd, is because they haven’t yet fully embraced this part of themselves it reflects, or the responsibility and power it might bring up for them. The Peacock has a very regal essence and is both humble and yet stands with dignity and strength. There is a tenderness in its eyes and a feeling of honoring and respect, as well as flowing grace. I just wanted hints of the peacock coming forth, so two gorgeous flowing tail feathers delicately peek through one end, as the Peacock emerges from the other. Almost as if this mandala is a dimensional portal where things manifest from and come through as it shifts into the right elements to create alchemy. And all of the things you find in the piece are qualities of her essence and wholeness that are peeking forth and emerging more, as she steps into her fullness and power. From elegant, Earthly being, majestically and gracefully reigning over the gardens of life, they transform into an other-worldly, Phoenix-like creature soaring magickally through the limitless sky. Peacocks symbolize many things including integrity, the beauty we can achieve through showing our authentic colors, guidance, protection, holiness, nobility, vibrancy, help on your spiritual path, breath of new life into your experience, rejuvenating self-esteem, expansion of your creativity and imagination, and courage to show up as your unique self. They also symbolize glory, vision, watchfulness, royalty, spirituality, awakening, immortality, refinement, beauty, desire, enjoying life, generosity, longevity, compassion, sensuality, immortality, and expansiveness. In Buddhism the peacock symbolizes expansive consciousness and is representative of the all-compassionate goddess Kuan Yin. The eyes of the peacock feathers symbolizing the omniscient essence of the soul that is all-seeing and all-knowing. As a royal status, peacocks represent the realm of the Empress and High Priestess. Being a solar animal peacocks express the essence of vitality, radiance, glory, stimulation, life, health, and invigoration. Alchemical traditions compare the resurrecting Phoenix to our modern-day Peacock, bestowing the symbolism of renewal upon it.
Moth: (there are two on the right top and left bottom at a diagonal) Moths are nocturnal. They symbolize dreams, shadows, otherworldliness, secret knowledge, higher awareness, psychic awareness and enhancement, inner knowing to navigate through the darkest hours of our lives, faith in uncertain shadowy times, vulnerability, determination, wise and balanced use of concealment – blend in when necessary and adjust and adapt when needed, attraction, subtlety and subtle allure, intuition, determination, navigation by lunar energy and light (feeling), vigilance in following your path of light, keeping your vigilance, adjusting your course accordingly to indications sensed rather than drive forward without heeding signs…
Star Jasmine: Jasmine remind you that all is in Divine order with the Divinity of your existence. (they remind me of nature’s stars and worked symbolically and aesthetically so beautifully I felt) They are simple star-shaped, five-petaled blossoms – ethereal and magickal. White Jasmine is both known as poet’s Jasmine and the “Queen of flowers.” They have an intoxicating fragrance that draws in hummingbirds, butterflies, and humans alike. Jasmine flowers symbolize many things to many different cultures. Some of these include love, romance, modesty, sensuality, amiability, nobility, grace, and elegance. However, the Jasmine also holds strong spiritual and religious significance, as it has been a constant symbol of divinity and hope. They felt like the perfect magickal touch to this piece, both of nature of also like star blossoms, tying in the star pentacle you have on your tattoo, and your own integration of cosmic and earthly essence. They float like the illumination the moths are instinctively and intuitively following to stay on their path/which is you and your instinctive clarity guiding you. Some of the star jasmine are entwined in the flowing Celtic knots of the mandala, as they speak of integration and the many layers you have, how all things are connected and integral to the journey.
Hexagon: The mandala took on a 6-pointed design, which holds a very potent and beautiful quality. The number six is also significant and felt meaningful for her. It represents harmony, balance, soulful integration, perfect union, communication, sincerity, love, beauty, truth, enlightenment, naturally revealing solutions for us in a calm, unfolding manner, delicate diplomacy in sensitive matters, reliability, home, family, lighting our path in areas we require spiritual and mental balance, and encourages compassion and forgiveness. It is connected with the very powerful Hexagon and Merkaba.
Star Essence: the total piece has the essence of a star symbolism, as well as a blossom…or rather I’d say – a star blossom. Her current tattoo nestled as the center of this organic flower that then emanates, opens and reveals more layers to itself as it blossoms.
Celtic Knot: found in the branching vines are used to tie in with her tattoo at center, creating the essence of eternity and continuity.
If you would like to partner in co-creating your own sacred visionary piece of artwork or tattoo design to embody the empowerment you desire, you can contact me at tania@spiritualskin.com.
There is currently a waiting list, and a monthly limit of only 6 additional clients I can take alongside that. You can easily make your deposit at the link provided below to embark on this journey in partnership with me.
For more information about the process and pricing please visit: Life Changing Tattoos
Some people have preferred to read my book, Spiritual Skin ~ Sacred Tattoos: More than Skin Deep, especially if they are new to sacred tattoo designs, before embarking on this journey.
If you are drawn to learn more about sacred tattoos you can order a copy of the book here: Spiritual Skin
It is also available in Kindle format here: Spiritual Skin
You can also order your personal copy here: Signed and Inscribed Copy of Spiritual Skin
Courage to Explore the Darkness
The Dark Path by Chrissie Chan
Everyone has talent. What’s rare is the courage to follow it to the dark places where it leads. ~Erica Jong
What can we gain by sailing to the moon if we are not able to cross the abyss that separates us from ourselves? This is the most important of all voyages of discovery. ~Thomas Merton
Reiki Workshop & Retreat Reminders for Today & Tomorrow
Just a couple of reminders for today and tomorrow.
Today is the last day to register for this Friday, November 14th’s Reiki 1 & 2 Accelerated Workshop here in Costa Mesa. For any past students, I will also need to know if you are intending to join.
For more information on this workshop please see this link for details: Reiki 1 & 2 Accelerated Workshop
Tomorrow, 11/11 is the last day to take advantage of the early registration discount on July’s upcoming Horses & Reiki Retreat at Epona Rise Retreat Centre in British Columbia. You can receive $100 off by simply placing your $300 deposit by end of tomorrow to hold your space. You then have the option of easy monthly payments.
For more information on this retreat please see this link for details, which also includes links to book your spot: tinyurl.com/eponarise
Remember that this is the last Reiki Retreat being offered, so if you’ve wanted to experience a full immersion partnering us with these amazing beings, Nature, and the nature of you, this will be one of the most unique and powerful opportunities to do so.
Due to the nature of this work, space is limited.
December 31st, 2014:
And don’t forget that you can receive $200 off your Sacred Journey to Peru in March, if you register with your deposit by 12/31.
All details and registration can be found at this link: Walking the Path of the Great Central Sun
The Quest To “Be Of Service” Can Become A Disruption To Your Life
Something that I often hear from people is that they feel they need to be doing something more, they are in constant search for the “bigger” service they are “supposed” to be doing, and they seek these answers in all the outside ways they possibly can, awaiting to be told the magick answer and/or to arrive at some glorified outcome.
There is this heavy self-judgment these people carry of feeling they are not doing and giving enough, sometimes self-sabotage in not recognizing what is already before them, and lack of gratitude and enriching satisfaction that isn’t being realized, which comes from the journey itself…not the arrival.
The mind throws these thoughts at you of not being “there” yet – where ever “there” is – and so it creates all of these false pretenses and illusory time constraints that create anxiety and throw you off balance, resulting in missing out on the here and now.
And in the midst of it all, they deny themselves of receiving, which is where more giving is able to come in. They are also in this constant working “at” it phase, rather than focusing on remembering the connection within to Source is always present.
Yes, you may be what is known as a “lightworker” and yet there are so many attachments to definitions of what that means and how you must appear or live up to that role and mission.
Don’t allow this to become a deterrent, obstruction, or disruption to your life. Relax into the perfection of where you are in this moment and start to shift your perception to embrace a wider picture of how you ARE already being of service, giving so much, and living out the current role of that along your journey.
There is this tendency to idealize only certain roles, positions, and “work” as being of service in this “lightworker” way.
There is the tendency to play the part, but not actually “be” the part, in order to try to “look” like you’ve arrived somewhere that doesn’t even necessarily exist.
There is the tendency to have envy towards others in roles you feel equate to these definitions, and to deny yourself and others any worthiness of the roles you uniquely have that play out in different ways.
There’s a tendency to negate all of the ways you already ARE sharing your gifts with the world.
And there’s the tendency to jump quickly into something before you are ready, to fulfill these “needs” and then wonder why nothing feels different, why nothing is happening/manifesting, or why you have the same, if not more challenging things to manage because you jumped too soon.
Service is a word that is deeply misunderstood, I believe. Especially when it comes to the realm of “lightworkers” because there’s a tendency to glamorize it into a certain category, which is idealized in New Age communities of thought. And then, people throw everything to the wind and begin to judge themselves, their lives, and each other, for not living up to these “ideals”. Not to mention, immediately want to run to create this “service idea” into a business model.
I often hear people saying, “I want so much to be of service to everyone, the world, and I have so many gifts to offer.” Then they either set out on a quest to find the answers to what they need to be doing to fulfill this mission and/or start prematurely diving into creating a whole business plan and business cards to start passing out.
That may work in some cases where people have been consistently doing the work, but to truly be of service, it is something you embody, rather than a role you play and it can evolve, but likely is already taking place exactly where you are right now. And once you start viewing your life in any role you are in, as being of service, then things will naturally evolve into the next phase of the journey rather than forcing yourself into wearing a costume that simply won’t feel natural to yourself and to the people you are trying to be of service to.
You can be of service as a cashier at the grocery store, as a good neighbor, a mother, father, sister, or brother, as a sales rep, co-worker, librarian, best friend, or a hermit living in a cabin off in the woods….It’s about how you interact with life and every living embodiment of consciousness that shares this experience with you – human, animal, plant, mineral….
We’ve spoken of ego before, but there is also spiritual ego that is quite prevalent even when we think we’ve moved beyond all of that and are now in our “service” roles. Spiritual ego plays out in many ways, which includes the “I want to be of service” and rushes into all of the business planning to start creating the role for that to play out in. Yet, if you initiate this too soon, you may find yourself rushed into something that you either are not ready for, or find that you don’t attract any responses from.
It’s not something to judge, if in fact this has happened, as it’s a gift and message that is helping you in not doing something prematurely. Remember, anything you have within you that isn’t yet integrated, is exactly what you will attract in the clients and people who come to you for work.
Life saves you FROM things you’re not prepared for, or will SHOW you exactly what you’re not prepared for. There’s no need to force things and try to prove something because when you step out of alignment with your natural timing, you’re going to experience things to teach you so that you can get back into alignment.
That’s not to say that there aren’t times perhaps that you hold yourself back and can step up things in terms of more responsibility. It’s merely to say that if you are consistently operating from embracing gratitude for being of service at all times in your life, regardless of what role your work takes on, then things will seamlessly shift and there will be no separation between your work and your personal and every day life.
What’s most important is to live your life CONSISTENTLY with undefined love and compassion, honor, accountability, humility, and service. And that involves how you relate with, speak to, greet, and interact with every single person in every situation along the course of your day, every day – always seeing them through eyes that recognize their reflection of yourself and all of humanity and how they, too, have their own journeys and challenges that are within your potential to energetically shift in that split moment of interaction, both for yourself and them.
If you truly want to be of service and live a life of service, you have that ability and opportunity right now by living this, without need for a business model. Although your work may naturally take that form at some point, or evolve even from the work you currently are doing in this vein. Again, your life and work need not be separate or judged as lesser or greater than.
This is part of the reason I’ve shared with people that ask me if I have a meditational practice, that my life is a walking meditation. I simply don’t see the separation anymore. Everything is an extension of who I am in the moment. And although I’ve taken steps and created processes to get to this more seamless experience, after a while, it becomes natural and without need for deliberate separateness. No part of life is different than any other, if you are embodying and being.
Whatever job you currently have (especially a non-spiritual one) is an opportunity to be of service to the people around you and that you interact with through it. And in fact, it may actually be the most enriching way to learn to be of service, as you are being prompted by a variety of situations that likely trigger you in challenging ways, and those challenges are the perfect training ground to truly be loving, to demonstrate listening integrity, and learn humility.
Challenges are not to be avoided, but to be transmuted.
When you live in service to everyone, no matter what “job” you have, you will naturally attract people who seek your gifts through the genuine encounters you have daily. And that happens without need for a business model, as things will naturally evolve from there.
Chasing after or forcing anything is a clear indication that it either isn’t the thing for you, or you’re out of alignment and the timing is off. When you are in your natural frequency of emanating and embodying the qualities of service, that come from an authentic place of being loving from the inside out, you will draw to you, your vibrational matches.
Life becomes that of living in anonymity and without thought of what you think all these ideals need to look like. You relax into your life and recognize all of it as valuable and integral.
Life becomes abundant because you release attachments to what abundance is supposed to be, and you learn to serve the world through your natural expression, rather than aspiring to serve the world by some definition of that.
And even if you spend a lot of time alone, you are still being of service, as the person you are serving right now, is you. And, by embodying that example, you are vibrationally reaching the collective.
With perspective shifts, your whole life shifts, and you live with more deliberate knowing and enrichment, which then will evolve seamlessly, consistently, and divinely.