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Best Friends Become Teacher & Student ~ Joy & Cosmo’s Reiki Journey Begins
This was happening last evening, and has been happening recently. I couldn’t be happier to see my soul friends communing so peacefully together.
They’ve both come a long way and with patience and doing things the way I intuited would be best, knowing each of them, rather than following anyone’s guidelines on their bonding, it seems to have paid off.
Joy’s fears have dissipated to nearly non-existent. She only gets the occasional tension when Cosmo makes fast moves. It’s unintentional, as his injury causes him to make wiggling worm moves and he’s also like a little torpedo at times, but he doesn’t mean any harm by it. But sometimes if he moves fast and gets excited to connect with her, she may back off or stand in tense mode until I pet them both and assure them of each other’s intentions and bring them back to being grounded again, which happens quickly.
I explain to Joy that Cosmo has an injury and so he moves differently, but also that he only wants to give her love. And I explain to Cosmo, that Joy doesn’t understand the fast moves and so maybe he can try to dial back and try to move a little more slowly.
They both understand and listen and then everyone’s back to peace.
But it’s been beautiful to see them connecting so tenderly in the last several weeks through the pen, as they touch nose to nose, and when I have them out together on the carpet. I have begun this last week to take Cosmo out in my office, which was always deemed Joy’s domain and only peaceful, sweet connections have been made. I used to just bring them together in the family room, but felt they were ready for connecting in the central energy zone of the home, which is my office – the nucleus of creation.
And Joy has been wonderful not having an ounce of trepidation about it. At times just goes about her own thing and doesn’t even care. And at other times engages him sweetly like last evening when I snapped these photos.
I had placed Cosmo right next to me by my desk on a blanket, so I could see him out of the corner of my eye and keep watch on everything. Not long after I did, Joy came jumping over and they were head to head and remained as such for a good 10-15 minutes without moving from this position, other than the occasional teeth grinding from both of them, which indicates they are comforted, happy, and peaceful. And occasionally a few little readjustments where it seemed Cosmo was lovingly nudging Joy.
I knew that they were communicating and this seems to be the way that they like to do this, is third eye to third eye, as they do it all the time. A lot was being transferred between them, as they went into this comfortable trance-like mode, telepathically transmitting from one to another. Cosmo, mostly receiving, but then giving Joy loving nudges in between, no and then.
Joy has indicated previously that when both of them were ready, she would be teaching Cosmo Reiki, and so the preparation has begun.
Joy is a Reiki Master Teacher too and very proud to pass along the teachings she received from Nestor who is also a Reiki Master Teacher. Oh the beauty of the cycles of life!
I’m so excited about this, I can’t contain my “joy”. I couldn’t be more proud of Joy for all she has overcome and for what an amazing teacher she is and will be to him. And I am excited for Cosmo and what this will mean for him and their relationship, as well as so proud of how far he’s come and how he’s learned to honor and respect Joy, with her caring example and instruction.
I still like to be present with them and not leave them alone, as I feel my presence assists the process while I gentle caress each of them in intervals as they commune. And as the third integrating piece, I help keep things grounded when any little things move the energy off kilter a bit.
But last night was beautiful to witness.
To say that I love these two is an understatement. They mean the world to me.
May the Long Time Sun Shine Upon You ~ Earth & Sun Nurturing for Cosmo
Yesterday was a good day for Cosmo. I took him to his therapy appointment to receive his Veterinary Orthopedic Manipulation or VOM, which is a hand held device called a spinal accelerator or activator that works on the spine and joints to take pressure off the spinal nerve. He immediately was sitting up more straight and moved around for a longer period like a bunny without an injury, which impressed his doctor.
Of course he eventually tired and fell, but he was having a good and strong day where he was able to sit up and move around in greater intervals.
This is normal in the process of healing, to have good and bad days, and to hit plateaus as well. This was a good day and the doctor told me to keep up what I’m doing with the Reiki and Crystal massages, as it’s all doing him well. We also discussed some other things we could implement, which led us to talking about grounding Cosmo and connecting him more literally with the Earth.
I love this doctor because he’s into, and encourages, all forms of healing modalities and spirituality, which is awesome, so we have a lot to talk about and are on the same page about everything. He believes in a holistic approach to therapy and it makes me feel like Cosmo’s in good hands and my own approach is being honored. Even Cosmo’s other doctor who provides him acupuncture, understands Reiki and believes in energy work, so I feel like we have a good team going that really care about him AND who are on the same page with me.
Anyway, we discussed it being a good idea to take Cosmo outdoors for a bit and provide him some time to get his feet on the Earth, touching the dirt and grass to help ground and balance, as well as be a way to receive healing energy and a surge of nurturing recharge from his Earth Mother.
So, yesterday I did just that.
It’s been beautiful here weather-wise recently, so it was nice and sunny and warm as I brought Cosmo out back to the garden. I let him explore on the deck a bit and then I took him to the grass where I laid with him and watched as he connected to his natural surroundings.
To say it was moving is an understatement. He was almost overwhelmed with joy and love. Usually he moves about a lot, just as he was on the deck, but once he was on the grass and dirt, he just sat there and hardly moved at all. He listened to the birds, felt the sun on his face and body, and the Earth beneath his feet, and just absorbed in gratitude.
So much gratitude that in fact he started licking me a bunch to thank me and I was so teary eyed, and still am right now reliving it.
I let him sit there feeling the energy surge through his body, as I looked on with loving warmth overflowing in my heart. He was able to sit up straight the whole time, since he wasn’t moving about and so it was incredible to see him in his full glory in these natural settings.
Just another example of how important our connecting with Earth and our natural surroundings, including receiving the light of the Sun into our own light soul is and can benefit our healing and wholeness. Whether human, animal, plant, mineral….nurturing these relationships to Nature are essential for natural harmony, health, and well-being.
The photos you see are a few I captured of his experiences yesterday. Just look at how he glows.
Bringing him outdoors and having the sun shine on his face also gave me a chance to see more about his magickal, huge windows-to-the-soul eyes. They appear black or very very dark brown, but in fact in the sun’s light they are this beautiful warm brown with golden accents!
I will continue implementing more outdoor supervised time with him each day to add to his therapy. I’m glad and grateful that this inspiration arose from talking with his doctor.
His doctor always says to me, “you’re my hero” when I come for visits and he says he shares about Cosmo and me to some of his colleagues. But I always say, “Cosmo is my hero”.
I share a special song with each of my beloved soul companions, and the song below has become mine and Cosmo’s.
It first arose one night when I was holding him on my chest and heart chakra. He was laying there, as I massaged his back the entire time with one hand and the other cradling him. His head was nestled between my neck and face to the left and each of his arms wrapped around both sides of my neck – his heart laying on mine. He fell asleep as I massaged him and music played in the background.
He would then stir, just like a baby and lick me profusely on my neck and face, then fall back deeply asleep. This went on for an hour – intervals of licks when he stirred and then returning to a comforted deep sleep – and would have continued had it not been for my needing to get to bed myself. But while this went on, the song below started playing and I just filled with joyous tears of love as I cradled this dear soul on, and with, my heart.
When I saw him outside in the sun, and he was licking me with gratitude, all I could hear playing was this song and I was singing it in my head and heart to him….
“May the long time Sun shine upon you…all Love surround you…and the pure Light within you….guide your way on”
A Gift of the Cosmo(s) ~ Awakening the Sacred Mother Within
It’s hard to say just who is receiving the most from this union between my newly adopted bunny and myself, as it has been both a flow of giving and receiving in equally enriching, but different ways.
Since Cosmo has come into my life, things have definitely shifted, not just in the day-to-day routine, but in my inner realm, as well as with the dynamics at home.
But first, an update on the little Cosmic bunny….he continues to thrive and makes strides all the time. I never know what I’ll see next, as it’s a surprise each day what will evolve from his journey.
He’s currently receiving a combination of therapies that include:
- Out-of-home acupuncture and a non-invasive, non-painful technology called Veterinary Orthopedic Manipulation or VOM that provides an alternative, non-surgical approach to spinal disorders and lameness (a hand held device called a spinal accelerator or activator that delivers its force to the subluxated vertebra thereby reducing the subluxations by providing motion into the fixated or subluxated joint and by taking pressure off the spinal nerve) – especially safer for a very tiny, delicate bunny body than regular chiropractic physical adjustments
- Along with at-home therapies including crystal healing, Reiki massage, and physical therapy of leg extensions and 6-10 runs on his 8-foot therapy ramp
And like with any healing process, he has some excellent, exciting moments, and then some just normal days where not much new shows up. However, the excellent moments indicate to me that things are shifting, and there is hope indeed to keep fueling!
On the 3rd (the day before the Full Blood Moon Solar Eclipse) was an example of one of those excellent days, which was mirrored again yesterday. Cosmo suddenly started laying on his opposite side (the side he normally stays away from doing so because it’s painful). And he stayed laying on it for a couple of hours, which also enabled him to sprawl out in an extended, relaxed position that allowed him to sleep so sound and comfortably.
This was so sweet to see because normally he sleeps in a partially upright position on one side and his head just kind of falls as he falls asleep. So to see him all sprawled out and looking so comfy made me so happy. And then he would get up and go eat on his own, able to sit up properly and move around like a bunny without an injury and then back to sleep all sprawled out again.
He did this again yesterday, as I mentioned, directly after I gave him a long Selenite Crystal healing with Reiki session, as he fell asleep on my chest.
I’ve had to have the vet give him a sanitary shave on the right side where he lays because his fur had become so badly matted and nothing I did was helping at this point. I’ve never had to handle a situation like this, so every day is a learning curve and now I have a new regime of extra care in place to ensure no more matting takes place. (This happened/happens because he lays on one side all of the time, due to pain, and pees on himself. Even as much as I changed out pee pads and washed him, he’d already had too long of a build up from before he’d come to me.)
With the help of my friend Kelly, I got a couple of new products to try, once his hair grows back, to implement along with the daily brushing after each bath and drying. This is a combo of “Static Shmatic” all natural spray to use with brushing, and Lumino Diatomaceous Earth to keep the areas dry in between. But, since I am at home with him daily, I change out his pee pads every time he pees, and bathe and blow dry him every morning.
The staining you see on his lower body in the photo is normal, due to urine, but eventually when he’s better, this will go away in time when he’s not laying on that side all the time. It’s the same with paws.
Most bunnies you see have yellow paws because they are kept in cages and stand/sit/sleep in urine, but Joy has no urine staining whatsoever because she is free to roam, is potty trained, and I have a special, gentle screen that sits on her litter, so she isn’t soaking in pee while she eats her hay, and doesn’t hurt her delicate feet either.
Cosmo’s fur has actually become much brighter than when he first came to me and he is so much more vibrant in spirit in general.
Every night I also give Cosmo a Reiki massage up and down his spine and on his legs. The few times I haven’t been able to, I immediately see the difference in his ramp runs, directly done after. He will drag the painful leg more and not use it normally at all. But when I massage him, as I did last night with him falling asleep on my chest like a little baby again, he does really well.
And last night was one of the amazing days where he was running, using both legs nearly equally, and wouldn’t fall over at the ends. He was able to do this last night the whole time he ran his 8 runs. Sometimes I see just a burst of good leg use in the first 2 or 3 runs before he tires, but all of his runs were really strong last night.
And recently, he had another really awesome night where I didn’t have to pick him up and turn him around to get on his ramp at the end each time. He actually was able to do that all on his own and followed my voice, as I called to him to meet me on the other end! Incredible.
These bursts come and go, but they are all super promising, and along with his great appetite and a lot of loving encouragement and extra double time I’m starting to devote more to his Crystal and Reiki massages (as they really seem to benefit him greatly along with the rest), I am super encouraged we’re getting a good momentum going for something bigger eventually.
Since he’s only been here for 2 and a half months, I think that’s pretty excellent progress nonetheless!
And along the way, what I’ve noticed is that it’s not just about this healing journey that we’re partnering in, but it’s about so much more!
Joy is doing really awesome with him and there has not been any fighting or agitation between them at all. We still take it all slowly and never leave them unattended together without separation, as I can tell that my encouragement and sometimes placing a Crystal with them helps, but there seems to be a peace truce and mutual respect developing. In the process, Joy has also come to like being held so much more, which is an added gift bonus!
She lets me pick her up easily now when I transport her for bonding time back and forth, or just when I move her while cleaning in my office, and she also enjoys just cuddling for a while with mom before she decides its time to explore and she doesn’t seem to have the panic she used to have. So she’s definitely seeing from watching me with Cosmo, that bunnies don’t always have to have their ultra defense mechanisms on when someone loving them is tenderly connecting.
That’s a huge deal for any bunny (let alone Joy, whom like my Nestor, has always had issue with this) that has that fight or flight, prey-fear conditioned in them on such a deep level. And that’s not to mention, what ever other personal stuff they each have gone through or how they’ve been treated in the past, or simply how freedom loving they are.
But wait…it’s not just about the bunnies and their amazing evolutionary journeys, but it’s about what mom is receiving too, not to mention all the people and other animals they have touched and inspire along the way – love hearing those stories. <3
That brings me to the title of this post, “Awakening the Sacred Mother Within”.
As mentioned when I began, we have both received in enriching ways from this union. My life, while lovely and blessed, got an extra infusion of specialness when Cosmo came into it. There is never an end to the expansive ways our lives can be touched, deepened, and enchanted.
Although I will never be a mother in the sense of birthing my own child, nor have the desire to, Cosmo has truly awakened that Sacred Mother within me in a very new way.
I don’t believe one has to actually birth a child from their womb to have this experience, although it definitely is one of the very rich ways to know this aspect of self as reflection of our Earth Mother’s own blessings in this regard. But, nor would one necessarily need to have any form of children to know this part of a woman that simply IS due to her being a woman.
The alchemy of the Sacred and Divine Feminine and Mother is an innate essence for us to remember is within us and to embody, reawaken, activate, and bring that forth in shining glory without shame, guilt, fear, or judgment. We can awaken it through the act of self-love, through the channeling of creativity and nurtured passion, through sacred ritual, through our sexuality and sexual alchemy, and through the intimacy of relationship to all that is within the deep recesses of our most ancient, rich, inner mysteries.
That said, I have experienced another level to my own Sacred Feminine and Mother with this union between Cosmo and I. I have explored the many other ways, and continue to deepen those experiences, to deepen my own personal relationship to this aspect of myself. But it wasn’t until Cosmo that I have had the chance to truly know the aspect I hadn’t explored, which is that of this mother to baby relating and connection that he has invoked.
While I have, and had, other animal companion children, and they indeed were and have been cared for like my children, they’ve been more like partners, best friends, and co-facilitators in my life. Cosmo, while he is his own magickal soul with gifts still revealing themselves to me that will come more into play soon, and is another dear soul friend, he truly is the only one I feel is my “baby”.
I have many nicknames for all my little ones that constantly shift, but he’s the only one I say “my baby” to.
The dynamic is different. And in his embrace of his role, I am able to embrace my own.
Now, of course I’m in a human body, but a very much larger part of me is much not human in several regards. One of which is my identification with animals, since I’ve been one so many times. My brother actually, since I was young, has always called me an animal and referred to my hands and feet as paws. LOL!
But all silliness aside, for me, it feels as if he truly is a baby I’ve birthed. And likely we have that connection from a time removed from this particular, focused period of time, but it’s there. I have these instincts where he is concerned that I know is like that of a mother and baby that goes beyond just our soul companion connection.
And every moment I get to spend with him, even if it’s the rigorous routines others might tire from, I am thoroughly enraptured with, loving any time I can spend with him especially holding him close to my heart on my chest and helping to soothe his pains. I feel like I’m exactly where I need to be, time stands still, I don’t feel I need to do anything else, and actually would be happy just taking care of him.
I love bath time and I love holding his hand when I take him in to his appointments, reassuring him I’m right there. I love waking to see how he did in the night, and I can’t wait to see him when I return home from anywhere, feeling sad to leave him, but also knowing the separation is good for growth and expanding on our telepathic connection.
And if you see us in the afternoons and evenings, when he lays cradled in my arms and falls asleep on my chest as I give him his Reiki and Crystal massages or even just cuddle him, you’d swear you were seeing a mother holding her newborn after nursing, or just putting their baby to sleep for a much needed nap, the way he looks just like a baby against my chest with his little hands and head safely cushioned by the warmth of my skin.
I feel like the only time Cosmo really sleeps best is when we’re cuddling, and he can relax and feel nurtured. And guess what? He’s nurturing me right back.
He’s helped to bring another layer of balance to my life, connection with my inner child AND inner mother, and softened, as well as strengthened the abilities I have to share with him and others – all adding to the layers of richness I’m experiencing opening to in my life in bigger ways right now on many levels.
With his added presence, my own presence is shifting and much is being supported to birth into being from this Sacred Womb of Creation within me that is being nurtured, embraced, enjoyed, honored, and celebrated.
It is also this time period where much of my innate gifts have been revealing themselves more and much more of my natural essence is deepening.
There’s simply a greater sense of knowingness that comes in knowing myself as a reflection and extension of our Earth and Cosmic Mother.
The energy I feel aligns very much with the sacred tattoo design I posted, “The Cosmic Dance” that is awakening the great healer and creator within me – the essence we all have innately within each of us.
Cosmo has such a beautiful, clear, yet enigmatic male energy, which also has been new to me to partner with in terms of an animal companion. He has a dynamic energy, vibrant, huge all-seeing starry eyes, very alert ears and senses, a courageous heart, powerful action force (we call him the human torpedo the way he bursts through his ramp run with energetic gusto), has a strong presence and will fight for himself, and yet is tender and love-expressive with constant velvet licks and kisses, and the desire to be close and snuggle his head on and under you. When he’s excited, he falls all over himself, twists and rolls on his back, wiggles like a worm, and can’t get to you soon enough. Nothing will stop him from what moves him with excitement and what he wants to create! He wriggles through and through with eternal rhythm like that of liberating and fiery Shiva.
I love having two magickal bunnies in the physical with me, and a third watching over us. And am ever-grateful for what all of them gift me in their own special ways.
This newest gift of a more profound experiential Sacred Mother embodiment has been such a blessing that along with the tremendous shifts I’ve experienced with my recent sacred journeys, and from the support of all the new Crystal friends, elixirs, and new energy channeling through me, has indeed been like a transmutational rebirthing all culiminating near, on, and around my actual birthday this year.
Just when you thought you had received so much, you receive some more. 🙂 Thank you for this dance, Cosmo.
Full Moon Celebrations of “Joy” & “Cosmo”
Another Full Moon is upon us so quickly, once again. Indeed time is speeding up and becoming the seamless moment.
Today’s Full Moon in Virgo, balancing out Sun in Pisces, may find some of you feeling a bit out of sorts, combined with some of the other planetary placements going on. And yet, what I’ve come to embrace in my life is remembering that change can be uncomfortable, but that isn’t a gauge of things NOT working. Quite on the contrary, it reflects that things are actually in process of shifting and the degrees to which you feel discomfort or flow with them, are subject to what you deem important enough to embrace or fight.
We’re constantly being asked to have greater patience, flexibility, flow, resiliency, openness, gentleness with ourselves, and conscious awareness of aligning synchronicities that are trying to get our attention, while adjusting things to find the productive balance that reflects each given moment.
Mystic Mama shares:
“With the Sun in Pisces and the Moon in Virgo, let’s call forth a feminine softening to help us flow, grace to help us be more compassionate with ourselves and others, and healing as we gently move into our wholeness.”
This is much what I shared feeling upon returning from Iceland…this softening into a greater sense of my essence and wholeness that felt empowering.
Divine Harmony shares these things I find also especially resonating presently:
“So we are in a powerful lunar cycle territory with a focus on endings and new beginnings and how to navigate from point A to point B with as much grace, ease and humor as we possibly can…Finding that tenuous balance between action, assertion and taking a stand- and being able to be aware of others, their needs and realize that we aren’t the good ones doing everything right, while others are the bad ones doing everything wrong is key to sanity right now. The Truth lies somewhere in between and this week the journey is navigating from the head- which is judgmental, discerning and discriminating- to the heart, which is all encompassing and has both a soft Love and a fierce Love. When we can hold both of these oppositions and bring them together in a form that works together- we will find dramatic shifts in our inner lives, outer lives and relationships…The best use of this Full Moon can be about harnessing the potential for self-adjustments, inner work and healing. Virgo is the virgin, but the original meaning of the word did not mean woman who never had sex. It means woman who owned herself and was whole unto herself. So the Highest potential of this Full Moon is moving towards profound healing and wholeness– within as well as without in the form of relationships (and the key is knowing that the inner informs the outer).”
What are you experiencing? I know some have been in a bit of an upheaval, others coming out of that, and still others feeling “in the flow” and as if their life is just beginning in the way they always knew would, but felt on hold until now.
In the midst of all of this, I am indeed experiencing a greater wholeness and richness in life, while much is transitioning in and out of it. And would identify with the latter renewal sort of energy that has long felt promised by the work I was engaging throughout my life.
Cosmo in his new physical therapy 8 foot long runway that supports him upright to walk the length. He is good at doing it back and forth until he tuckers out, with or without reward. Here is getting one 🙂
Cosmo, my sweet bunny companion has been one of the rich gifts showing up that has been aiding this process in my life and all those around him. His presence has helped bring extra magick to the magick already present, creating a greater completion and balance.
The dynamics simply between him and Joy demonstrate much of this profound healing, acceptance of flow, assertion of boundaries, times for soft and fierce love, personal adjustments, endings of parts of oneself, beginnings of new parts, and the seamless place the two meet that create the emerald bridge of wholeness.
All of this has directly rippled out to the rest of us in the household and has been a guiding force in how I then engage others by mirror of what this is engaging and inspiring me to embody.
Physical therapy orthopedic runway for Cosmo – 8 feet long 5 inches wide and 10 inches high with carpeted bottom. Dave made this to help him while I was away. So awesome!
While I was away I was strongly connected to both Joy and Cosmo, seeing and feeling them with me daily and reminding me of the energy they each teach me and help me to integrate. Being a Pisces, I know the challenges of balancing the Virgo and Pisces energies and this has been something that has been deepening in integration recently.
Cosmo has brought an added peace to my sometimes overhauled masculine energies. His peaceful integrated male energy has been softening and soothing for that, while also reminding me what I know about gentle strength.
And Joy’s energy and shifts in response to all of it have been mirroring my own and supporting that process, while also reminding me of how to honor what is healthy and supportive to my balanced well-being, which can then be relaxed in the mystery of feminine beingness, as a result of doing so.
A lot of this feels like the energies around this time period and Full Moon.
Bunnies and Kitties all hanging out while mom is away. Cosmo has a special baby pool tub that is portable to give him a place to feel safe and to rest without potty accidents 😉
And it is on this Full Moon that I am so deeply happy to announce that adoption of Cosmo is moving forward officially!!!
WEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!
As you remember, we’ve been fostering him, with hopes to adopt. The only factor truly was in wanting to make sure both bunnies were going to be okay with everything, as I did not want either of them to be unduly challenged by added stress that would torment them and their own paths and needs in life.
More Bunny and Kitty fun
Before I went away, I felt this was coming, but while away I would receive updates on the little ones and my bond with each was deepening through our connecting via distance, edging things into greater solidifying feeling of this.
I saw how well they were doing and even with some skirmishes, it was all really healthy and balanced.
Cosmo receiving his acupuncture session and hooked up to the electrodes. He loves feeling the energy move through him, going into zen mode, and is doing really well with this.
After long discussions, tuning in, and also receiving feedback from my dear Laura Bruno, who had so generously gifted me animal communication sessions with the bunnies as part of my birthday gift, it became fully clear that the time was at hand.
And so I’ve already started the process today on the Full Moon and likely by tomorrow or end of week it will all be official!
So no more will I have to refer to him at any time at the vet or in other communications, as Blizzy. He will be able to fully be Cosmo on every level, which I am so happy to know he is grateful for and appreciative of my recognizing who he REALLY is and what his name REALLY was.
So Cosmo will be a permanent part of the family. No more will I be referred to as the foster parent when I see the vet, nor will I need to receive authorization for things with him. We will be a sovereign family unit and he will have a forever, safe, loving, sacred home here where he will be honored and cherished for the soul that he is.
Joy likes to hop in the pool tub with Cosmo
I am so in love with him, as I equally love my precious and amazingly brave and compassionate Joy who has offered to support him with Reiki and at the right timing will become his Reiki Master Teacher, just as Nestor has been a teacher to her, passing on her lineage.
I love all the souls in my life in animal baby bodies on Earth and beyond. There is a different connection, purpose, and relationship to each that has its perfection.
Cosmo has enriched all of our lives here in so many ways. And this team of him and Joy feels like a power duo in cultivation. Combine that with the ever-watchful and supportively guiding Nestor and Gaia and there is much magickal mischief to be had.
Sweet Pea curiously watches Joy and Cosmo in the pool together
This official declaration feels very appropriate to my return from Iceland birthday celebrations and before embarking again to Peru. Something energetic about it bridging these energies and solidifying things feels potent.
Baby Cosmo in dreamland all tuckered out after his physical therapy
And the commitment to this role along our shared path, as a complete soul family in every sense of the word, feels somehow balancing, integrating, and healing to the essence of who I am…and speaks to the Virgo/Pisces wholeness energy right now brought to forefront.
Feeling very celebratory these days and this is another continued and cherished birthday gift – the kind that will keep on giving!
So Many Things To Be Grateful For ~ Bunny Love Update & More
This is turning out to be the best birthday month celebration. So many wonderful gifts, surprises, and blessings abound.
And these are just the icing on the cake, as there are endless blessings I am in awe of each day, from the seemingly tiny, to the obviously large things to be grateful for that are all around me/us every day. Even the fact that we breathe in these temple bodies that are miracles in and of themselves, is a huge blessing often taken for granted. Not to mention we are capable of experiencing the gamut of feelings and possibilities we often judge when they aren’t the ones we deem more valuable. It’s ALL a gift! And it’s all about perspective.
But on top of these wonderful daily blessings it seems birthday celebrating has begun in this month of purification and love.
I just learned that my Garden Tower is on its way, as shipping began today and will arrive this month. So any other backers of the New Garden Tower Project will be excited about this too!
In exactly two weeks I’ll be flying off to Iceland, where I’ll be over my birthday celebrating in Faery style – a long awaited dream manifested by pure intention and synchronous alignment. Yes, dreams do come true! I’ve never done something like this for my birthday, so it feels significant.
Sweet little Cosmo (my little spirited lover bunny) came into my life almost 1 month to the day, before my birthday, mirroring Joy’s (my other little angel) pre-birthday arrival 6 years ago.
A new crystal baby came to me yesterday when I was out getting a crystal for Cosmo (more on that below), after receiving my yearly birthday coupon from a metaphysical store around the corner here that I’ve been connected to for over 20 years.
And major energetic shifting in such an expansive, positive way is taking place, which includes instant manifestation energy in high gear (are any of you also experiencing this?), and exciting new horizons blossoming or getting ready to blossom from seeds planted intentfully.
But one of the most exciting things came yesterday evening, when Cosmo did something absolutely amazing and just truly took my breath away.
Let me back up briefly on what led up to this.
Two days ago, in the afternoon, I was talking to my family on the phone and sharing about Cosmo and how he’s doing, as they call every day to check on him – so sweet! My mom already has his photo in a frame on her special shelf in the family room at their house, next to all the animal soul grandchildren she has/and has had through me and my brother. Neither my brother nor myself will ever have human children in the biological sense, so these are our children/grandchildren/family.
Anyway, I was talking with my brother about other spiritual healing to administer with Cosmo, besides all of the protocol holistically, physically, and energetically I’m doing. We talked about the root cause of spinal/lower back injury and different affirmations and intentions I can say to him and embody for him. Of course, for me saying it isn’t enough…so I have implemented singing them to him. 🙂 and then we talked about crystals and my brother reminded me about a couple of them that are excellent for spinal and back challenges – Selenite and Black Tourmaline. Selenite is also good for the kidneys, which is great since Cosmo had some issues there in the past as well.
I had a Black Tourmaline, so immediately after the call I brought it to him and held it at the base of his spine administering healing. I left it in with him for a while after too.
But I didn’t have Selenite anymore, or couldn’t find it. I remember how amazing Selenite had been in the past when I used it for healing support on people I knew with back/spinal challenges. Knowing I had my birthday coupon for the metaphysical store around the corner, I just knew they would have the perfect Selenite for me.
So yesterday I go into the store with the intention and knowing of finding this Selenite, and perhaps something for myself for my birthday. I looked all over and could find nothing except two Selenite candle holders, but that wasn’t good for doing healing work on his back.
So I asked the woman at the counter if she had any Selenite. She was very sweet and said, “why yes, we had just one left and it should be out there on the floor.” She then added, as she was looking around with me, “someone had come in yesterday afternoon wanting Selenite (same time I had been talking about it with my brother on the phone and put out my intention to get one), and I showed the piece to them and after a while they decided they didn’t want it anymore so I put it back out on the shelf here somewhere. Unless, someone got it last night.”
I smiled while she said this thinking about instant manifestation and how this Selenite I knew was for Cosmo and when I’d made that declaration I’d find one at the store, things aligned to make it remain there until I arrived.
We ended up finding the Selenite in a more hidden place on the shelf, and again I smiled, knowing it had been saved for Cosmo.
And when I saw it, it was perfect! She handed it to me and I said, “yep, that’s the one! I knew there was one here waiting for me.” And I told her about how it was for my bunny.
It’s about 2 and a half inches, oval in an egg shape, but smooth and flat like a river stone, making it perfect to hold in your palm and place on the area or run it smoothly over it.
I then was called to look in this case behind me and there I saw my birthday gift – a Lapis Lazuli Cosmic Egg! So cool both Cosmo and I would have our own connected Cosmic Eggs!
I’ve been very drawn to Lapis now for a while (something new for me only in the last year and half or so) and to find an egg was so cool, as I love the energy and symbolism of the egg. The Lapis egg feels so perfect for this time period in my life, but the piece itself is so beautiful and like a galaxy swirling in primordial eternity. There’s something very important about this Lapis egg I feel, for me.
But I haven’t gotten to the exciting part yet.
So, after feeling the perfection of all of this, I went home and cleansed and charged the Selenite and brought it to Cosmo. He immediately sniffed it and then sat completely still absorbing the energy as I ran it along his back and spine where the injury is. I just did this for a couple of minutes, not wanting to overwhelm him with all the energies he’s receiving.
But what happened about an hour later was magick!
I saw him out of the corner of my eye from my desk, moving around in his pen. It almost appeared like he rolled quickly on his back and then flipped himself up. And then next thing I know he had sat himself upright ALL ON HIS OWN!
He has NEVER done that! I always sit him up to help him balance and get used to that, then he’s able to sit that way a while, or maybe even move around a bit that way. But he FULLY sat himself upright and began cleaning himself on the side that is always laying on the ground and that he drags. He has never been able to bend that way and clean himself, WHILE balancing himself upright. But he did this and was able to hold it for a few minutes. Then he seemed to lose balance, but sat himself back up again, and again…He did this three times in front of me, able to get up on his own and continue grooming himself, bending on this weakened side.
AMAZING!!!
Whether it was the Selenite, or all efforts combined so far, it was truly a miracle!
He hasn’t done it again since, but I believe with continued, consistent efforts, we’re going to get there. He DID last night, after his physical therapy time, lay straight and sprawled out balanced, like he also has NEVER done and the way bunnies like to lay. So indeed things are shifting and THIS is the most amazing birthday gift!
I was so excited, I just had to share.
Here’s a VERY short video (but I thought it worth sharing his progress) of one of Cosmo’s moments caught on camera from one of the first days we started his cart therapy – so literally just a few days from coming home with me. I only got a few seconds of him moving around before he got tuckered out, but this was also after his cart session, so I think he deserved a rest. It provides just a hint of his progress for you. When it goes black, I had put the camera down to help him back up, but he was tired, as you can see. Still wiggling those little legs around though!! I call him the wiggle worm 😉
He’s actually gone much longer than this on his own, but this shows you how he’s progressing hugely from being fully paralyzed!! WEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
One Little Rabbit With One Giant Heart, Helping To Change The World & Each Life He Touches
My life has changed over night, since the arrival of a new bunny love. Just this Sunday I went to pick up Blizzy (his rescue name), a nine year old special needs rabbit, from the adoption event at Petco in Pasadena, facilitated by Bunny World Foundation.
His previous foster family brought him to the event so that I could take over his care.
This has all been sudden, but as change is a constant in life (more so in mine I think because I welcome and flow with it) once again I find everything evolving in beautiful and unexpected ways.
How did this all come about? Well, I would say magickally. I’ll share a little on why.
I mentioned in earlier posts how rabbit energy has increasingly been showing up and due to several dreams, I knew that I wanted to do more for rabbits, as they are so dear to my heart. I do already have an amazing little one, Joy, who is a powerful healer and potent being all around. And I have had two other bunnies in my life, including the magickal Nestor.
After the dreams I knew I wanted to be more active in helping rabbits, so I started volunteer work at a local rescue just a few minutes from my house. Rabbit energy continued to expand and envelope my life from there. Then one day, a week and a half ago, a friend tagged me in a post on Facebook from another rabbit rescue in Los Angeles, Bunny World Foundation.
They had just come into receiving two infant rabbits that were in need of care, with a traumatic story as to how they were now there on their own without mother and two siblings that are no longer on this physical plane.
My friend, like most people, knows that I’m a bunny person, or crazy rabbit lady 😉 I constantly see posts like these and normally I will focus my action in sending healing energy, but for some reason I felt compelled to contact the organization and offer even more direct help. I felt drawn to care for them to help them get strong and healthy so they could then be adopted. I sat there and wrote my email, but hesitated hitting send.
On some level I felt something more from this action I was taking and it was like a soul pause taking a moment to check in on making the definitive decision of responsible commitment on a level I was unaware of consciously, as I’m an all or nothing person. I don’t know the meaning of half a–sing things.
So after a minute or two I finally hit send.
It took a couple of days, but I then received an email from the head of Bunny World Foundation, and the rest unfolded from there.
They had found a woman that specialized in infant care, as the infants needed special tube feeding you have to be trained for, but Lejla (the head of Bunny World Foundation) and I ended up having a long conversation connecting about so many mutual things, including knowing the woman who runs Save A Bunny, where I adopted Joy from. We concluded the call by my saying I’d love to help out in any way I can and asked if there was anything special she needed help with.
And then she told me about Blizzy (named this because he reminded his rescuer person who was caring for him when he came to the Human Society of an Oreo Blizzard).
Blizzy was in need of a new foster home, as his current foster family was no longer able to care for him. They’d been looking for the last few months for someone and it was crucial he find a home that week.
And of course, here I come along at the right time….I now know that he had called out to me, just as Joy, Nestor, and Gaia had, and I heard his call.
A little about Blizzy’s background – He was dumped at the doorsteps of Humane Society’s Hollywood Office in a cardboard box with NOTHING in it. He had some physical issues that they took care of right away. Everyone said he was the sweetest bunny they’d ever met because he loves being held and giving love.
He became somewhat of a celebrity bunny, as the new ambassador for the Humane Society International – End Animal Testing Campaign in China with actress Zhu Zhu as the first Chinese celebrity to ever speak out about animal testing in China – with Blizzy in her arms.
Then Blizzy became paralyzed from the lower back down about five months ago and is without use of his back legs. The extent of what happened and what his condition is, is something I am looking into, as I have a first appointment today to help get a handle on his situation and how best I can help him.
For now, we do have a long and patient journey ahead, not just in getting him strong again, but also in integrating him with my bunny, Joy.
I am not at liberty to go into more background on him, but needless to say I realize why he is with me, and I promise to give him the best care and love possible. If all goes well with the bunny bondingg, he will find himself a forever home here with us, and I will officially adopt him. But my first concern is to get him in the best possible shape and understand what is possible in terms of treatment, rehabilitation, surgery, etc.
He is in need of daily baths since he has lost ability and training in using his litter box, so he pees on himself. I am devising several creative ways to assist with this and perhaps at some point may be able to train him back into litter box use, or there are other options I’m working on right now for him. For now, he just pulls himself along with his front legs and his back legs twist under him to the left, dragging behind. I do see some slight movement in his little legs though, and he spreads his toes when I wash him, so I am hopeful that something could shift, as spontaneously as it shifted to where it is currently.
Either way, I will provide the best care I can give him and ensure he has the happiest life possible, full of love.
I’m also needing to get him on a normal feeding regime, and helping him to feel peaceful in the transition.
Joy is on soldier patrol, since she isn’t used to another bunny infringing on her boundaries, but I have to say she’s handling things still quite well despite her expected aggressive behavior and she is getting more calm as they spend time sharing space.
She will often sleep right by his pen near my stereo where the music is playing. And she is eating normally and behaving normally otherwise, but she has a lot to integrate too.
For now I have Blizzy in a pen in my office so that he is safe and out of harm from her or the cats, and the protective cover on the bottom handles his inability to use his litter box. In this way Joy and Blizzy can see each other and smell each other, but they can’t get at each other. I did have to get ingenious however, as they need to be able to see each other, but not interact yet in terms of being able to get paws and teeth at each other through the bars.
It took me some frustrated-to-tears moments yesterday to creatively figure this out, as I tried some things. I needed to fix this issue right away so that the bunnies weren’t getting stressed, as when Blizzy was curious to see Joy, she was aggressively attacking at the bar. So, I surrendered and had a good cry, asking for an idea.
I then got the idea to devise an outer perimeter with the second pen I had (good thing I had these on hand from years ago when I was training Joy). So I formed a geometric shape around the already octagon shaped pen (a bunny bagua), tying it at corners to create distance in areas that separated them from contact and at the few corners they meet, they have double bars making it not possible to get at each other. Phew!
The plan is to let them get used to each other in this way for a couple of weeks and then we will begin the bonding process slowly introducing them in a neutral zone (first outside of the house at the founder’s home) and then working on it in neutral zones in the house), baby step by baby step.
Being that I work from home and am with them all day really makes a difference, as the three of us are in my office together and I am able to play soft, beautiful music for them, which is having a wonderful calming effect on everyone. Plus, I can take care of immediate needs.
Right now I have Blizzy on a two-times-a-day bath schedule, morning and evening where I wash him in the sink and then dry him in a towel, holding him, while singing to him and giving him Reiki and gentle strokes. Although today is a three day bath day, as any time I notice he is getting soiled I want to make him more comfortable indeed, plus he has to go to the vet soon.
He is such a lover, licking me all the time, and although I know he is frustrated and has some pain (I am getting him meds today), he is still such a happy, strong soul with an amazingly brave and beautiful spirit.
I love seeing him peacefully sleeping and love caring for him. I don’t see any of it as a burden or stressful, but rather take pure joy catering to his needs, and am grateful for the richness he is bringing to my life. I know that he has much to give and teach us. I’ve literally spent the last two and a half days fully focused on him, as taking care of him and aiding the bond with Joy is the most important thing right now to me.
He’s already helping me to shift things in my own life that I’ve been wanting to, adding another element of sweetness and grace, and is touching a chord in my heart that is once again being expanded and deepened.
I love my time bathing him and helping to keep the energetic focus on wholeness and positivity, not wishing to look backward and dwell on what has been, but focusing on what is now and what we can create together.
I will be implementing holistic care, energy work, as well as taking the steps possible, physically. Physical therapy is likely part of the protocol. We are also seeing about potentially getting him a cart/wheelchair so that when he’s stronger and the two rabbits bond, that he can get himself around.
We’re also thinking about diapers as a potential, but I want to discuss all things with the doctor first before implementing.
I’ll know more about things once I’ve done a round of doctor’s visits at the vet and get a hold of his records.
In the meantime, he’s my special little boy and I know that while Joy on a physical level is having some challenge with the energy, that she is also doing her all to integrate her own balancing and supporting him with her powerful healing energy as well to help him.
So that’s where my energy has been focused and I think I now have a good little regime in place so that the rest can all be integrated and balanced back in.
If I don’t post as much at times, you’ll know why though, as this little one and having both bunnies peaceful is priority.
I will say that, like with all things in my life, there is no randomness about it. I sensed this was something big for me…a mission in fact. And that was reiterated the day I picked him up. On my way out a hawk was sitting on the light post giving me the support, and on the way home, another. But while driving, a dear friend called that knew I was on my way to get him and she was sending me love and support. I said out loud to her, there was just something about this that I knew was so much bigger and I used the word “mission” to describe it.
And right after we got off the phone, a song came on and the words said, “it’s more than just a mission….” and at that exact simultaneous moment, I was just crossing over “Mission St.”
I got chills and knew in my heart everything was in divine grace.
On the way home, just as I did with Joy and Gaia, I put on mantras and sang to him…calming him at a cellular level.
I’ve referred to him as Blizzy in this post, but to me this is not his name.
I know him as Cosmo – a name that means the whole Universe (from Cosmos), as well as order, harmony, beauty, completeness…the Universe as an orderly, harmonious whole. 🙂
I knew the moment I heard what he’d been called up until now, and saw his photo, that the first thing that needed to change was his name. It was not energetically supportive.
I didn’t know the name that truly was his, feeling that would come to me when the time was right. And that time was just three days before he came home. The name actually came to me magickally through the Orcas from my dream I posted about.
And after that I remembered that Cosmo, just like Joy and Nestor, was a name I had said in my late teens in high school that I would name a little one in my life that came to me as a boy. Those were the only three names I remember stating out loud with knowingness that I would name animal companions that might come into my life.
And now here he is.
Until he is officially adopted, I don’t know that his name can be changed, but to me he is Cosmo regardless.
Cosmo is such a courageous and spirited soul. He amazes me at how his will and love has carried him through to where he is. A remarkable feat for anyone, but for a delicate and sensitive being like a rabbit, it’s truly one of those miracle stories that moves your heart in inspiring ways.
I will share more, as the journey evolves. Right now, just taking it one day at a time, and with increased love flowing each day.
Learning of his situation and also experiencing the beauty of this experience from its larger picture place, has brought both tears of deep sadness and joy. I literally feel like a different person in just a matter of two days and continue to experience the shifts this is all creating in my own life, not to mention these two sweet ones’ lives.
It’s so interesting to look at the two of them. Joy is gray and white. Cosmo is black and white. They both have spotted markings. Joy is a lop eared rabbit and doesn’t have the greatest eye sight or ability to hear (one of the effects of breeding to create lop eared rabbits by humans). However, she is super-sensitized and her sense of smell and all other extrasensory perceptions are highly, highly attuned (inner senses), although has the power and assertion when needed. Cosmo is a straight eared rabbit and highly alert with both hearing and sight (outer senses), although is a sensitive bunny and very tender.
They are both very sweet, highly attuned, and are simply pure love.
We are so blessed and how grateful am I to have these two angels who so beautifully embody sacred feminine and male energy.