Just a quick reminder I’ll be away starting today through Sunday for an extended Christmas break in the Desert. I’m looking forward to spending my version of the holidays at a remote little retreat spot next to the Pacific Crest Trail.
I will likely be sharing short inspirations while away, but basically won’t be back to things until Monday the 29th.
In the meantime, remember there are a few dates to keep in mind that are coming up. These include:
December 31st – Sacred Journey to Peru – the last day to receive $200 off your trip – Full Details & Booking can be found at: http://tinyurl.com/sacredperujourney
January 1st – Crystal Magick Workshop Early Registration – If registered by 1/1/ 2015: $275 (save $50) – After 1/1/2015: $325
January 11th – Reiki 3 Master Teacher Workshop Early Registration – If registered by 1/11/2015: $575 (save $75) – After 1/11/2015: $650
Love and magickal blessings to you!
Last weekend while walking the San Joaquin Wildlife Sanctuary, three rabbits ran across the path directly ahead of me. Two of them were little cottontail rabbits and the third was a much larger rabbit, in comparison, pictured here in the images I captured.
The first two scurried a long more quickly, although hesitated in the bushes for me to have an eye-to-eye, but the third, larger rabbit, lingered to connect more intentfully.
There was something about seeing three and how two were smaller, but seemed equal in energy, and the third was the largest and seemed to embody not only a bigger energy, but one that brought all of their energy together and held its space with very present wholeness.
I love the energy of three and its integrative, creative power.
Three also symbolizes growth, magick, intuition, expression, versatility, pure joy of creativity, celebration, Goddess energy connected and reflective of the Empress in the Tarot, overcoming duality, manifestation, complete cycles, and flow.
Synchronously, I have been graced with three rabbits in this lifetime, I wear the Triple Rabbit Symbol as a sacred tattoo on my right arm, I am a number three by birth in numerology, and I am often talking/teaching about triangle energy and its potent symbolism in terms of how to create alchemy and transmutation when working with light and dark/shadow.
The Triple Rabbits (or sometimes known as the Triple Hares) are so powerful and represent the Trinity.
The three Rabbits I have had in this life include Twinkie – the first, whom I only had for a few months when I was about 12 years old.
He is the only male animal companion I’ve personally ever had, as even my parakeets were all female.
Then there was of course Nestor, and now Joy.
Interestingly, at my parents house while visiting them last week, my brother and I were looking through old photos and I found the only ones I have of Twinkie (pictured here).
It brought back bittersweet memories of him and I realized the powerful symbolism in the colors of the rabbits that have been in my life.
Twinkie, as you can see in the photos, was pure white (again that white symbolism showing up and how perfect that my white rabbit was a male, as white symbolizes the male/yang energy): Soaring Through a New Shade of White
Nestor was all shades of light and very dark gray.
And Joy is an integration of both white and gray. 🙂
Which brings me to the magick of today.
Not only is today, or rather this evening, one of my most cherished, enchanting nights of the year, but this day also holds a very special and precious place in my heart because it shares a celebration of the birth of my dear soul companion, Joy Julianna.
Today is sweet Joy’s birthday. She celebrates 11 years (another alchemical and potent number symbolism) of this Earthly life’s cycle, although she is an ancient soul.
Joy carries with her the energy of purity, joyous love, gentle power, tenderness, serene wisdom, and childlike laughter and wonder.
She is also a beautiful integration of energies, which she embodies so gracefully.
Joy is a powerful soul that constantly gives of herself to the higher collective good, works with the magickal realms, has a 6th sense like nobody’s business, is a channel between Earth and Cosmos, and shares her love and support with me without limit.
She is my daily companion who sprinkles the enchantment and power she embodies into everything we create together, which is everything in my life.
And, she is a literal and symbolic representation of this integration life for me, and reflects the processes that I have been journeying to embody.
All of my companions have been this for me, and continue to, even from beyond the Earth plane.
But today I honor Joy.
She is Christmas Eve.
She embodies the magick.
She is pure alchemy incarnate.
And every day I love her more.
According to an ancient Sardinian legend, the bodies of those who are born on Christmas Eve will never dissolve into dust but are preserved until the end of time. ~Grazia Deledda
I have always had a soft spot for the Christmas season…the colorful twinkling lights, decorations, smells, trees, magickal animals, elves, Santa, snow, cozy fires, glowing candles, bright stars and starry nights, and LOVE abound! It’s one of those times that reminds us of connecting with our inner child, to dream and believe, to see through eyes and hearts of wonder, share our love with everyone in peace and harmony, and recognize the beauty in and around us.
Christmas Eve was a night of song that wrapped itself about you like a shawl. But it warmed more than your body. It warmed your heart… filled it, too, with melody that would last forever. ~Bess Steeter Aldrich
May the loving melody of today resound eternally in your heart.
May you always believe, have the courage to dream, and may the Christmas Eve magick and child-like wonder be with you all year round.
And may you have Alchemy in 2015!
DON’T FORGET!! The end of this month and 2014, is the last day to receive $200 off our upcoming Sacred Journey to Peru.
If you’re feeling called to join, you just need to place your deposit by the end of December 31st to receive this savings.
You can then do your balance in payments after that.
There’s also July’s Horses & Reiki Retreat to keep in mind if you’d like to receive your Reiki certification training, as well as receive the support and guidance of the Horses at Epona Rise for this journey and beyond. We’ll have more to share about this experience, as we approach.
FREE gifts for everyone who joins either or both experiences with us in 2015.
All details found at the links, where you can also directly register. If you have questions please contact me for assistance.
As mentioned in the post about my time in Joshua Tree over the long Thanksgiving weekend and visiting the Integratron sound chamber, White Owl appeared while integrating the sound bath experience, and she has been very energetically present with me since. And interestingly, a very closely connected friend of mine recently shared how White Owl flew above her when she was meditating with the Moon, the night before Solstice.
Perhaps White Owl is abound for others too. I do know many that have connections to Owl, so it would be interesting to know how many have been visited by White Owl recently, given the journeys people have been on recently.
Some of the images you see here I have on my cell phone for now, to see and connect with each day so that I can continuously reflect on White Owl’s message.
In the vision I experienced in the Integratron, White Owl appeared before me and lingered, looking piercingly into me and then opened its wings, much like this image you see above and remained as such for a couple of minutes.
Again, that white symbolism appearing, like the White Jaguar and White Conch from my dreams. White symbolizes purity, cleansing, innocence, clarity, new beginnings, wholeness, truth, sacredness, enlightenment, awakening, protection, is traditionally associated with death more than black, and connected to male/yang energy.
And yet, this white feels to be a “new” white, experienced from a completely different and more all-encompassing perspective. More on this later.
I also yesterday just received a magickal Christmas gift in the mail (symbolizing my connection with and energy of Joy and Nestor, as well as the Sacred Feminine) from one of my dear cosmic friends, and along with it a sweet Opalite, which is a milky white, iridescent stone (reminiscent of moonstone with its opalescence). White again!
This is a “stone of eternity”, supports understanding of the true self and spirit to assist in freeing the spirit, imbues the knowing that one can soar higher than thought and reach any dream, teaches being and exploring within, that there is a wisdom in all things, brings peace, gentleness, and serenity, helps one to face hopes and fears together with acceptance for growth, attracts light and angelic beings, and embodies the message, as Katie Jacqueline shares, “I am inside you, all around you and as you are, look within and you shall find me, you shall never be alone, as I shall never be without you” – all of this so energetically synchronous and connected with the messages and energy of all that is around me right now.
And so it seemed aligned to explore the White Owl more today on this, as tomorrow I will be heading back to the desert for the long Christmas weekend – this time out in White Waters, just skirting Palm Springs – and may revisit the Integratron where it all began. If so, I am curious as to what will show up.
Another synchronicity – on 12/12 when I visited the Gem Faire here with my friends, my friend Steve had been drawn to some little stone Owl statues because the Owl is an important spirit guide for him, which we connected in a session I once did for him. I was called to check them out with him and discovered they had just a few white marble ones! Of course I knew one was to come home with me, and did. And a darker grayish/brown one went home with Steve – he and I now have two connected crystals in our families.
I immediately was drawn to the one you see here, as it was the only one that had a slight cock to its head and felt alive and with personality (you’d likely not notice unless placed side by side with the others). But she was so sweet that I took her home.
Upon bringing her home I explored the stone more and feel that it is actually white onyx marble. She has a beautiful darker black grain on the back of her head that flows from her crown to her root/end of wings.
This is very synchronous given that white onyx “is associated with linking the base and crown chakras to have balanced energy throughout the chakra system.” 😉 And I love how the black is merging through the chakras of the white owl, as life force and vitality…one needing the other to “be”.
White marble is a more common and plentiful stone that comes in a variety of colors, but when I explored its properties it felt perfect. As a “common” stone it also provides “good common sense” with in all areas of self, heart, home, and others.
Marble is a crystalline stone, with each piece as unique as snowflakes. They were formed millions of years ago in the depths of Terra and are very helpful to gain great clarity and heightened states during meditation.
Marble also supports serenity, mastery, total dream recall, tantric activities, and actualizing thoughts into being. It provides access to unused portions of the brain, is cleansing (including physically to blood and skin), aids with increasing flexibility in life on all levels, strengthening of self control, character, and mastering of thought, physically and emotionally protective, and supports greater stability and grounded structure physically, mentally, and emotionally.
It’s a very balancing, centering, grounding, securing stone that is used frequently in Feng Shui within the home to stabilize weaknesses and places of insecurity, as well as in Naturopathy and Homeopathy.
I have slept with my new friend under my pillow and she sits on my desk with me daily.
All of these energetic connections tied to White Owl and its essence.
Along with embodying all of the general owl symbolism, White Owls are also considered messengers of the gods or underworld, messengers of change and transition, appear as a sign of things to come, are guardians allowing us the ability to see with clarity past fear and illusion, to see in the “dark”, and see what is hidden to others, and can mean that you’ve attained more wisdom recently and that you’re evolving/maturing.
There are legends of the White Owl for many ancient peoples, but to the Mayan it is a messenger of warning that things are far off balance in the world and change is imminent and necessary now. The need for spending time communing with Nature is not a luxury, but a must in returning things to natural harmony and to transcend the dominance of fear, damaging ego, and imbalanced male dominance.
One of the main messages of White Owl that stands out to me is that of personal evolution that she seems to herald. This seems heightened for me at present, and very symbolic of this year of 2014.
Owls message change. The White Owl, sanctity.
This all reflects in things I shared yesterday in my 2014 Blog Challenge post, but specifically this one thing I wrote, which is about something I lost, stands out:
“I lost my innocence in place of a new-found, undefined purity that is anchoring from my explorations and which I didn’t realize existed, but is even more precious and empowering to me.”
I feel like the White Owl is a reflection of a deep, subtle, but most essence part within me that is voicing itself and wants a voice. It feels to be an inner knowing, something I’ve hidden from myself but no longer is contained out of fear, is being freed and released. She also feels to reflect the inner perception I blocked as a child, but is now being welcomed despite how raw, dramatic, and clear the truths I see are and this has increased my ability to smell out any subtle form of deception or manipulation, conscious or unconscious.
I think she mirrors that silent observer I’ve mentioned becoming more and more of these days, who is highly engaged and present, but does so through energetic embodiment.
The White Owl that is present within seems to also bring news of something to come that is in process of actualizing, reminding me/us to trust our intuition, and is there to help us learn about ourselves in the deepest sense. Awareness and openness to the message without fear is the best approach, as Owls are magickal, protective, way-shower beings (some connected to extraterrestrials) that can help us to navigate the “winds of change” and to remember we are the ones we’ve been waiting for.
White Owl also represents an ability to see past deceit and illusion, providing guiding support during confusing times. When they appear, they bestow an ability to see beyond what others perceive and to see the things usually hidden to others, and ourselves, which includes the true motives people have.
Since Owls see in the dark, the White Owl brings a piercing illumination that can only be experienced if one has merged with the darkness to such a degree that you gain a totally new perspective that is spiritually endowed.
I do feel that things are being revealed to me and I’ve been much more attuned to listening and being discerning, where my Pisces nature would have boundlessly plunged. And this has provided more balance and harmony.
Because I often feel without limits, and can feel others as if I am them, White Owl not only demonstrates to me that I am in process of honing my skills better, but that I am being supported and guided with this intentionally.
Definitely a period of greater maturity that feels to have taken root in my life and is anchoring the power and greater stability of “emotional intelligence” or “emotional wisdom” that has been a lifelong cultivation.
I have increasingly been seeing and feeling a lot that I don’t have answers for, but I also don’t have a need to explain or to know the why’s behind what I personally know for myself. That’s all we can do is know our own personal experience. We can’t know another’s fully, although may understand based on foundational similarities, and we also can’t make someone “get it”, nor do our processes work as “the way” for others.
Since we are limitless by nature, there are limitless ways of experience and limitlessly creative ways to journey through those experiences. And so everything becomes a guide and opportunity for exploration to find that way for you.
White Owls have also been known to guide people from life to the otherworld. Traditionally, Owls are messengers of physical death, but also symbolic of major and important life transitions and change that are currently happening or about to happen.
I seem to keep receiving that message through much of the things around me. So I do know that, at the least, the largest shift to date is underway and upon me, and drawing in a greater life adventure – what ever that means and looks like.
And this does not feel exclusive to me either, but collectively we are in the midst of something new and the kind of change that will take place through intentional, creative action.
Since symbols are not solely personal, but also impersonal and collective, Owls offer us insight about the experiences of transition at hand or that are needed. This could mean personal transformation, but since all things are connected, it is tied into collective transformation.
So their presence assists us in being actively, co-creatively, and presently engaged with the process, rather than having things happen to us.
It’s definitely necessary to pay attention and observe what is showing up in your life, to listen to the winds of change, and flow with the ease of release Owls bring to our lives so that we can let go of the old that no longer serves, and welcome the new that only comes when we do so and in the form that most serves us when we are unconditionally open and detached from the form it needs to be in.
There is a definite presence of creative potency soaring through, I sense.
While white may be one half of duality, it, like black, also feels to be like a blank slate from which to create from when one has cycled back to reclaim what they symbolize, but from a new perspective.
When we forged ahead with our desire for spiritual enlightenment, we left behind parts of ourselves that we didn’t want to face, denied or hid from ourselves, or that we weren’t capable of working with then. Yet, in order to move beyond things currently, these need to be addressed and are the very things we keep seeing/feeling as harsh realities around that affect us deeply.
A new white is needed…A new black as well. And from our exploration of them fully, we will be able to realize the value within them both, and how we can utilize their fundamental empowered ingredients to create the new alchemy necessary to transmute to what’s available next.
I am feeling how I’m able to bring in and continue integrating the productive aspects of the white/yang/Sacred Male into the black/yin/Sacred Female now to hone in on their powers in partnership and reverence of one another. All of this white showing up, to me, is signifying this transmutation taking place.
It may appear to others as the “same” white, and yet it is not at all. It’s kind of like the Fool Tarot Card who “appears” as the Fool to most, and yet is quite something else instead. That is the ironic joke, as he/she is and is not the Fool at all, depending on the perspective.
When I was a little girl, it was white horses that first drew me. Then they became black for a greater portion of my life. And recently I’ve journeyed to white again, but it is from this new perspective of revisiting and reclaiming that which I left behind, in order to embody my wholeness and most authentic power. This comes from having ALL of our parts present and honored.
This white is not the white of before, but a transmuted white that takes the old and is alchemically creating something new. And as it transmutates with the new black, there are limitless, empowered shades one is able to explore from detached perspective and boundless things one can create.
But it is in the clear energy that we will recognize all of this. Be able to be in any of it, but not of it. Move in and out. Experience and explore. And do it all without attachment, and the most unconditionally loving energy we have yet to know.
In essence, the things we create will be of both and neither white or black, embodying the most potent, clear, diamond essence energy in their harmonious merging.
Photo © 2014 Faye Skyes, all rights reserved.
So many things keep coming up white these days in symbolism – will share on another one tomorrow – although last night was all about the black “seahorses”.
I love the mystical purity of this beautiful image captured by Faye Skyes (perfect name for the photographer who brings us this photo) and shared by Great Smoky Mountains National Park on their Facebook page.
As they share:
“Winter solstice brought a white rainbow to Cades Cove yesterday. The white rainbow, more commonly known as a fog bow, is similar to a rainbow, but appears in fog rather than rain. Because of the very small size of water droplets in fog, a fog bow has only very weak colors. If the water droplets are especially small, and the fog bow appears totally white, then it is called a white rainbow.”
Thank you to another of my sweet friends, William, for sharing this.
They sure do!! And a much welcome gift to feast my eyes, heart, and soul upon today.
I have a thing for bridges and bridge symbolism – hence my creative entity name “Emerald Bridge“.
Each of the bridges shared in the article are all SO magickal and powerful in their own way (I could write my feelings on each of them and what they invoke quite easily), but for some reason the one that is really potent and consciousness altering for me right now is the one featured first and last, located in Rakotiz Brucke, Germany (also the one I chose to feature here.
Thank you to my dear, sweet friend Shay for his always thinking of me and sharing enchanting things like this.
I hope you, too, find yourself transported to another dimension, or simply finding your integrative way to wholeness through these bridging portals.
To take the journey please visit:
Much love and gratitude to Linda of Litebeing Chronicles for putting together this challenge that provides the opportunity to reflect on, and embrace gratitude for, everything the year has presented in our lives, celebrates one another and the journeys we individually take that are uniquely inspiring, and seeds the year to come, providing a springboard into uncharted, more expansive waters.
After Linda invited me to participate in the Blog Challenge – Present Your Gifts – I chose today, December 22nd, to share my personal reflections in answer to the five questions she asked us to consider. I felt the day after Winter Solstice’s New Moon would align with shedding “more light” on the reflections I would explore.
Photo by photographer Kurt Arrigo off the coast of Malta – Caters News Agency
Interestingly, in one of my dreams last night I was swimming in ocean water that was in an underground chamber that had circular tunnels that curved around so you could not see ahead. It seemed that I was able to breathe underwater, mirroring an ability I literally and briefly had once when I was about 10 years old.
And as I was comfortably swimming in the water, I saw a smaller black horse with long mane and tail, gracefully swimming underwater ahead of me.
It looked to be a miniature version of a full-sized adult horse, perhaps about three feet across. It gave new meaning to “seahorse” and I remember thinking that in the dream experience, wondering about and revering these “seahorses” (there were two) showing up literally as Earth-bound horses swimming/dancing effortlessly in the ocean, breathing underwater.
As one black “seahorse” disappeared around the tunnel ahead, the other would emerge from the tunnel behind me – an inner journey of synchronous alignment, divine timing, and trusted synergy.
They seemed to swim in and out and stayed just ahead of me, enough to be able to experience their exquisite dance beneath the water’s surface, but just out of reach to keep their mystery and dark beauty elusive and free, as they should be – admired, beloved, honored, respected, integrated in reflection, and recognized for their enchanting inspiration and power, but not meant to be contained, held, owned, or attached to in any way.
Their free-spirit and sovereign free will was not in any way to be broken and they embodied that knowingness so naturally and powerfully. Horses have always been one of the symbolic representations of myself that I have both identified with and literally experienced in my soul “history”, so it was meaningful to have the sacred duality of my shadow selves displayed in this underwater realm and duo that played off of one another, to demonstrate the effortless transmutation into something of and beyond both.
It was not very “light” beneath the water, but just light enough to clearly see these black beauties gliding with empowered ease and grace – mirroring the messages in the post I shared yesterday “Peace Within…Peace Without” and more, as well as bringing the increased illumination from the darkest of days into experience.
I found this dream to be very empowering and “illuminating”, while also reflectively symbolic of this year for me, which seemed perfect to begin this challenge with sharing and allowing you to take from the dream symbolism what speaks to you.
Here are the five questions that Linda asked us to explore and share, with the answers that have spoken through me in reflection:
Which lessons did you learn?
I continue to learn that listening to my intuition – that very subtle, whispering voice of truth – is vital and can bring about greater harmony – I’ve made a promise to make it my best friend.
I continue to learn about exercising greater discernment of energies, especially the subtle ones, and through the willingness to explore experiences, both challenging and of ease, I am fine-tuning my natural flow, which increasingly and more efficiently aligns me when I do.
I learned that I don’t “need” anything (continuing to simplify and release in my life) except to be true to and honoring of my essence, since this simultaneously honors the greater/highest good, and that everything is simply a choice I can experience in what ever way that I decide to create the journey of my life in each moment. I’m learning how to make that a less challenged journey without judgment.
I continue to experience the lesson of all answers being within me if I embrace and face raw honesty with myself.
I learned that things I thought I used to want, I really don’t, and that is a huge release and return to peace for me. This has come through continued deep exploration, mirror work, rewiring, pattern and conditioning release, realization of empathic absorption, and willingness to say no to that which does not serve me, hence does not serve others – or rather that I don’t “need” in “that particular way” to serve me, since everything has a purpose.
I learned how true it is that I: love my freedom and expansiveness, have the need to explore, will never fit a definition someone may try to categorize me in, thrive on change and constantly will do so in big ways, will never “grow up”, and have absolutely no fear of death or worry over what might happen externally, as I have connected to that eternal peace.
I learned, after my trip to Alaska, how ready I am to move on and either live somewhere else, or move around as am called to.
I learned that now is truly “my” time and I get to recreate myself every moment in the light of the joy of my heart and am no longer bound to a particular mission or karmic closure I’ve been committed to fulfilling.
I’m learning more and more what true unconditionally, detached love and compassion feels like and welcome more expansive realizations, which I have been increasingly having that are tightening the seams more cohesively and consistently to this web of experience. Until so, I engage the challenges to exercise this more. I’m grateful for my dear Russian Tortoise, Gaia, in helping me with this, this year, and for being an example of the authenticity of my own soul that mirrors hers.
I continued to learn more about my personal processes that work for me, understanding they aren’t for everyone, and am finally really experiencing the reality of being a “conscious” creator of everything in my life from the tiniest to largest experiences on a grander level. This has me being an observer of experience most of the time.
I learned that there is a completion, release, and invitation available to me from this Earth plane spiral when I am satisfied I’ve been here long enough and turn my gaze from Earth to the Stars.
I learned the depth of my love for our sacred Terra and why I have been returning so much here (releasing myself from repetitive cycles), but this year I began to integrate my Cosmic essence in a much larger, consciously engaged way and feel this will only increase come 2015, which heralds things I can only imagine, but also don’t need to know right now.
How did you serve others?
It was 2014 that truly drove home and brought thought and action together in terms of not only understanding, but more integratively “being” the new possibilities that open the doorway for collective change. It became very clear how the embodiment of consistent practice and action of my presently experienced authenticity and essence, as well as exercise of bringing concepts into actualization in my own life, and living in my natural frequency no matter what is going on around me, are the most powerful, responsible, and far-reaching ways to serve others.
I feel that this has really taken deeper root this year and how I feel I have been of greatest service beyond any of the individual “services”, individual support, or offerings I have provided of my individual gifts, as all of these are extensions of embodying my essence and become more deeply experienced and effective based on this.
This in part is why in many ways I have gone more inward, not only to explore greater depths that will assist this process, but also because I am realizing, more and more, the power of just “being” without need to vocalize, although am being even more energetically vocal in the presence of a clearer and more empowered frequency that facilitates by virtue of its innate emanation.
In doing so, I have found that you can hold the deliberate and intentional space of who you really are and what you have come to understand as your empowered experience, which then supports and provides others more opportunity to choose, and do, the same for themselves. And they do so not because you tell them to, convince them you know “the way”, try to force or manipulate them, etc., but because the bridge to their divinity has a strong and clear light to support that choice with greatest energetic opportunity that you anchor and mirror for them.
It holds the space of wholeness from a place of true unconditional love and compassion that realizes the most responsible and loving thing to do is not to enable others in their temporary experiences of being off-kilter from their own natural frequency. At times that may mean holding your energetic ground, taking a courageous action or an empowered vocalization of YOUR truth -not from a place of telling others what they should feel like and where they should arrive to, but helping them to feel more expanded by virtue of your own expansion. This, I feel, is the most effective and efficient propulsion for change.
And when done in the true knowingness of this, there is no attachment to a result of how you may or may not have received a response because you release judgment, embrace responsible love, and continue shining your essence nature.
What blessings did you receive?
These are countless and come in such a variety of forms from the seeming smallest of things to the largest that I could never list them all, since I see everything as a blessing even when they are things that challenge and trigger me or the people I love. So, rather, I will say that the greatest blessing has been an increased experience of conscious connectedness in a way that mesmerizes and astounds me by its seamless perfection, as well as an increased clarity of essence. And this just gets bigger by the day, moving me to soulful chills constantly.
Along with this connectedness has been the bringing together, and alignment, of the most beautiful and dearest soul loves that are most present in my life right now and have infused this year for me with their presence, support, and influence. I can’t tell you how you each are cherished and likely some of you will never, in this lifetime, fully know the extent of my love for you and how special you are.
Was there something you lost that turned out to be a blessing in disguise?
I lost the need to know anything and the ability to psychically know the future, realizing I already do on some level and can just enjoy the journey now.
I lost who I was in place of who I am, which brings personal authenticity into my experience to share now.
I lost and continue to lose old limiting ideas and definitions that shaped some sense of illusionary security, which could be scary not having any gauge to navigate by or cling to, but I now find exciting and am enjoying the blank slate to courageously create from every moment.
I lost my innocence in place of a new-found, undefined purity that is anchoring from my explorations and which I didn’t realize existed, but is even more precious and empowering to me.
I lost my need to explain myself, which used to strengthen my voice, but it now brings me greater inner peace, strength, and sense of self to embody that voice.
I lost attachment, which used to be a byproduct of conditioned connection, but am now able to love from the expansive, limitless place of my true heart.
Did you receive any “gifts” in terms of powers or skills?
This year was the biggest yet for channeling clarity, telepathy, and psychic senses. It has also been a big year for transmutational processes happening more naturally and instantly, which makes it hard to explain the process to others since it also is individual I believe. My ability to trust myself has grown. My connection and communication to both Earth and Cosmos increased tenfold. My relationship with animals and crystals grew profoundly in our interactions. And, overall, my energy expanded and deepened, while the theme of personal evolution catapulted beyond what I think I even have consciously grasped.
But the biggest gift likely is in coming to know myself and my processes really well so that I no longer suffer, I’m able to easily move in and out of things, I’m never debilitated anymore by pain or challenge, and when collective energies intensify, I never experience the same reality others do. That is huge and I am hugely grateful.
The next post in the 2014 Wrap-up will be from Sindy Simms at https://bluebutterfliesandme.wordpress.com/
Even though all of the dates are filled for December, if you’d like to also join the challenge and share your story, Linda has mentioned being open to extending the challenge into January.
Thank you again Linda for igniting this reflection. I hope others will also, if you don’t already daily reflect and find gratitude for your journey, feel prompted to explore these questions for yourself and see where they lead.
Yesterday I took a walk through the San Joaquin Wildlife Sanctuary not far from home. The intentional journey circled around several large ponds and meandered and spiraled through paths lined thick and dense so only what was immediately ahead could be seen because of the constant turns creating blind paths.
This calls forth insight that stems from inner illumination where no more than what is necessary to see in the immediate path is possible or needed – something challenging to embrace when all we want is answers and yet this desire for answers stems from a state of suffering we have decided on some level to allow.
It’s hard to realize that we do not need to know anything but what is before us in this miraculous moment, which we take for granted due to the inability to release ourselves from the bondage of spiraling suffering we have been uncomfortably accustomed to live with, and conditioned in many ways to accept. In some cases, unconsciously perpetuating this for reasons beyond the human emotion’s comprehension. And yet there is an ironic symbiosis to the seeming and frustrating madness.
This called to mind how we are to embrace each step and moment without expectation or attachment, but simply the trust that is imbued with unseen and undefined promise that can take flight at any moment we recognize that our wings were never irreparably broken – they were simply unrealized.
It was a chilly, gray, and somber day that called for silence and an inner stillness that heralded today’s Winter Solstice. Even the birds at the sanctuary were quiet and quite still. They too seemed to embrace the inner world, welcoming the potency of this illuminating darkness.
Life and Winter can seem stark, firm, and cruel. And yet, somehow Nature does it with such grace.
What does She know that we have forgotten? What does She reflect that we are unable to see?
Perhaps our “need” to see something more than the astoundingly crazy beautiful miracle of this very moment, no matter how it appears and feels, is our own created prison. Perhaps our defining beliefs, both personally and collectively accepted, limit our ability to understand the sacred creation at hand. And yes, perhaps our emotional attachments, while so enrapturing, have also placed boundaries on our limitless expansion when they don’t meet desired expectations.
Maybe renewal is already within this very moment…the moment the unconditional light of understanding and inner illumination is lovingly and gently ignited by our true openness to its presence, here and now, accessed within and by our innately powerful selves.
We are encouraged every day by everything around us to understand these simple truths and to embody them as naturally as All That Is around us does.
Nature and the nature within each of us constantly demonstrates, reflects, and communicates what people seek in answer.
It is BOTH in the light and the dark, neither or either, and in them, but not of them – simultaneously.
In the attitude of silence the soul finds the path in a clearer light, and what is elusive and deceptive resolves itself into crystal clearness. ~Mahatma Gandhi
In stillness the world is restored. ~Lao Tzu
Lake Tahoe
Tomorrow we enter a new cycle of changing “seasons of life” with the approaching Winter Solstice coupled with a New Moon. This provides a supportive time to honor the remembrance of light that you are, for making those leaps in consciousness by moving within to shine your own light, and to “see the light” even when things get dark and you’re unsure of what to do, where to go, or even how to think or feel.
As I wrote earlier this month, “The promise of increased and expansive light is always just ahead. Welcome your inner illumination to throw the light of understanding and compassion onto the rich gifts all around you and within you. They are not always the obvious and may be in the form of things you’ve come to fear, that you turn away or hide from, or want nothing to do with.”
Chani’s insightful share delves into understanding the energy of Capricorn that this New Moon and cycle spirals into our life – something close to home for me, as I have a Capricorn Ascendant and Mars ruling it as well, which keep my Pisces nature in check and balance (more so these days since I’m integrating/embodying my Capricorn North Mode), but also provides some challenging mountains for the Goat in me to climb and some bottomless oceans to explore both as Pisces fish and Capricorn fish serpent.
Since Capricorn is a sea goat (half goat/half fish serpent), she provides us all with the capability at this time to really make some momentous shifts in our life if we embrace the courage she offers us.
As Chani shares:
“Given that Capricorn is mountain-goat master with fine deep-sea diving flippers, this sign can both scale the heights of the outer world or dive down to the depths of the inner one.”
I giggled at her mentioning Capricorn having an “Eeyore-like reputation”, which is misunderstood, given my stuffed Eeyore has made a reappearance in my life and I’ve been infusing him with love after bringing him forth from the shadows of a box in a cabinet in the garage.
I’m also a Winter baby, being born in February, so what Chani describes here is not foreign to the nature of what I’m always intentfully exploring, although not easy:
“To say that this is a time to remember to bring the light back into our lives is not to turn away from what is difficult, in fact difficult is where the light is strongest most times. Conflicts create sparks and sparks lead to roaring fires. Remember that we are dealing with Capricorn energy which does not shy away from difficult work or roads that look to be a challenging route.”
Lake Tahoe
I spend much time delving into the challenges and dark with a now unwavering knowing that the light of my own heart will see me through anything, no matter the depth or recurrences of the “dark night of the soul” experiences that cycle around through out life. It wasn’t always that way, but each time the light grows stronger and the transmutation becomes easier, understanding the reflections mirror the nature within myself to be loved. The darker times become welcomed friends rather than the enemy to fear. They also become more gentle and begin to mirror Nature’s effortless and graceful cycles the more we consciously accept their hand in the dance.
This is something available to us all and a way we can deepen our collective compassion and unconditional love and kindness toward everyone from the understanding of this process and our connection to everything and everyone.
You can read Chani Nicholas’ full article here that explores these energies of the Winter Solstice and New Moon from a personal and collective perspective:
Winter Solstice & New Moon in Capricorn: Light Workers
