“The Indian philospher J. Krishnamurti once remarked that observing without evaluating is the highest form of human intelligence. When I first read this statement, the thought, ‘What nonsense!’ shot through my mind before I realized that I had just made an evaluation.” ~Marshall Rosenberg
I am a constant observer of life, of consciousness, of everything in and around me. It’s something that came very naturally to me from the onset, as an introvert. Perhaps many of you can relate.
Although I was always very quiet, I was actively very present and it wasn’t the kind of quiet that disappeared and shriveled back into the corner of a room, but a quiet that held a strong presence because I was fully engaged with everything and everyone around me, just not engaged in speaking much.
I was observing and listening, which continues to be my preferred experience of life.
So people were still very aware of me and actually to the degree where they would think I said things, when I simply was standing in my own energy, energetically conveying more than words alone can.
Of course that changed over time to involve more speaking, and communicative engaging, hence my stepping into a guidance/teaching role, but that constant observer has only increased over the years and I still would consider myself quiet, speaking only when the energy and experience moves me to.
The last few years has increased this observational experience for me and lately I’ve noted that I’m doing it 100% of the time in a heightened way. It’s not something I tell myself I’m going to do, or that I need to do…it simply just happens.
Observing, to me, is being very present, paying attention, watching, listening, and feeling all that is going on, on and under the surface, and doing it all without attachment or need to judge and evaluate what’s being seen in those moments of observing. It’s just really about opening to the experience of what is going on without interference.
And I find that when I truly am in that place of unattached observing, it expands my experience to such a degree that I then shift into the multi-dimensional me and it completely alters my reality.
I’ll then continue by exploring this and open to the unlimited potentials of perspectives, as well as feel into how things make me feel, what gets brought up from the other parts of me, and allow myself to go into each part to see what truly aligns with the nature of who I know myself to be as an expression of Source and with the experience I am moving into.
I felt called to bring this up, as lately while I’m moving into a new experience of myself, things around me have been calling my attention to observe very deeply, which includes the messages I see and hear that people are sharing and promoting, how others, especially prominent figures, are engaging their current roles, and keeping an eye on the wave of positioned dynamics along the spectrum of shifts taking place.
I experience what I feel it to be telling me about where things are headed collectively and since everyone is a reflection of me, especially so if there are people directly in my experience I’m experiencing regularly, how what they are expressing aligns or not with the experience I’m feeling led to transmute into. At the same time, feeling into any triggers and what those have as message for me…much of the time I find it teaching me to go deeper into my observation and to remain unattached and unconditional, and also reiterates to me what my personal role and path is in response to what these represent.
I feel for the shared undercurrents and I feel for the diverging streams.
I listen to the messages that even may have one time been my own, and how the now calls for expanded creative evolution.
“People’s minds are changed through observation and not through argument.” ~Will Rogers
So I will use everything/one as gauges to what I do and don’t feel to be personally resonating with the current energy frequency I feel in my experience, so that I may then find the gifts within all of that to both weed and seed.
I find that takes place a lot within the realm of the more spiritually focused, “new-agers”, yet I’m always observing all, as integration of everything is key to me.
That includes nature, animals, weather, events, people, emotions…you name it.
In some ways I feel this particular realm has come into the spotlight a lot because I’ve sensed the complacency of it, feeling that a destination has been reached when there is no actual end, and also expansion into more of the same keeps happening – just wearing different clothing.
It’s a realm I had also felt very comfortable in for a time, but feel I personally need new clothing, as the ones I had (quite literally and symbolically, as I’m getting rid of my actual wardrobe for my upcoming move) don’t “fit” me anymore.
I also feel the tension of duality, where more has not been realized possible.
It is the realization of that more, the incredible connection to imagination, that fuels my heart.
And perhaps that is simply my own journey and experience, but all I can share is MY own experience.
So, I remain an observer, riding the waves of consciousness, knowing that many of my ideas and feelings don’t sit well with the human heart and mind all of the time, but that has become a peaceful place to be for me now.
No longer do I feel isolated, alone, disheartened, or swayed by this, as it would have affected me in the past.
It’s part of the reason for my taking three personal months off, after having gathered much through observation, coming to understand what messages and energies I do and don’t resonate with, what I do and don’t feel is right for me in how to be and show up in life, or even how I share myself with others, and listening to the guidance that now is the time to turn that observation inward ever more so.
One can end up going so deeply within that you emerge without – in a new reality.
So observing includes being an observer of myself always (which is why I usually have several voices of dialogue in my head at any given time), and realizing always that I want to pave my own way where the only gauge is the presence of observation to All That Is within the truth of me.
I’ve realized that when everyone seems to be getting on a particular bandwagon (which I’m seeing much of), that’s indication, if I haven’t already, to get off the bandwagon.