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Standing in the Light of Who You Are ~ Winter Solstice & The Holiday Season “Light” Inspirations & Updates

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tania marieStanding in the Light of Who You Are

I am not a big holiday celebrator, as I believe every day should be special and celebrated. However, as an eternal child-at-heart, I do love the sparkly magick, crisp air, white winter wonderlands, smell of pine needles, holiday spices, and wood fireplaces burning, as well as childhood tales of flying reindeer, elves, Santa, and talking woodland creatures that are as alive and real in my heart now as they were then.

I find beauty and enchantment in every season and in every daily experience.

Christmas, in particular, calls to mind colorful twinkling lights that remind me of the bright stars in the Cosmos, pixie dust, crystalline beings, and of course the sparkle of light that dwells within each of us and patiently awaits our igniting into full, glowing, embodiment.

As we welcome another new cycle of changing seasons with the approaching Winter Solstice (for the Northern Hemisphere and Summer Solstice for the Southern Hemisphere), we find another year’s cycle coming to closure and a new world of possibilities available. This provides a supportive time for making those leaps in consciousness by moving within to shine your own light, as the outer light lessens on this upcoming shortest day/longest night of the year.

There is so much openness available to each of you and it is up to each individual how you choose to embrace this or not. It’s an opportunity to completely reinvent yourself and your life and to do things more differently than ever before, which will take the courage of being willing to shine your light even if no one else around you is.

I remember how much I shied away from myself in my earlier years growing up and through college. I was afraid to fully shine my light, although was aware that I was different – I guess I just didn’t want to increase that. This was something that was learned through conditioning and “past” triggers, as when I was a very young child (up until age 6), I stood in my light whole-heartedly.

But despite my efforts, people recognized my differences regardless of how much I diminished my light in hopes of not wanting to stand out. On a soul-level, it was impossible for me to fully shut down, as like it or not, I knew better. I just tried not to know.

I remember silly things like not wanting to wear heels because my friends were shorter and it would make me tower above them. I would even hunch myself a bit to fit in. I remember never raising my hand with answers in my college courses, as I didn’t want to appear like I knew everything when there were blank stares from others who really didn’t know. So, I stayed silent, looked away, and pretended I didn’t know either.

I purposefully kept myself smaller, afraid of my own power and afraid to shine.

I didn’t realize then what a disservice this was to others, let alone to myself.

But one of my very intuitive college professors caught on to this immediately when I was 18 and 19. He knew I knew and started calling me out on it, asking me the questions directly after both the class and I would sit in dumbified silence. And I of course, replied with the answers.

He wrote me a personal note on one of my term papers that I kept to this day. This is one section of a full page that he wrote me:

…”Do not let your peers keep you from always doing your best. Don’t listen to those who would try to pull you down to their level of performance. You have been given talents and abilities and along with those, the responsibility to encourage and inspire others to do more and reach heights of excellence they never thought possible.”… 

“REMEMBER: Compete only with yourself, avoid critical comparison with others’ achievements. Discover your God-given gifts and develop them for service to others.”

I think his words carry a lot more weight than I even realized then, although I obviously saved that paper because they cut to the heart of me. He was setting the tone for what was to come in my life.

I never forgot his words or him. Thank you Mr. Cufflin, wherever you are.

I believe his words speak to each of us and are reminders to never diminish yourself for any reason and to have the courage to shine your light, which in turn will inspire others to do the same simply by your embodiment of it.

Although different hurdles to shining my light more and more would come up after that, I began to realize it was about committing to a greater responsibility and vulnerability that would release me from the worse challenges, confinement, discomforts, and pains that actually came from trying to hold myself back – consciously or unconsciously. And so, I embrace change with love in the face of fear, with fear becoming my strongest ally.

Through this Winter Solstice “gateway” you can be mindful of this turn of seasons to be more soul driven and truly embody the source of light that you are. You may feel called to go within more, be in silence, or take some moments to honor this flowing change of life cycles in whatever way speaks to you.

This may seem challenging when the calendar fills with holiday invites, things to do, places to go, and people to see. But it’s increasingly important that you honor and celebrate yourself and do things in the name of your truth so that you can continue to be an inspiration for others. Perhaps creating a sacred space or ritual act to honor the remembrance of light that you are, reflected by this Solstice.

This is a time to “see the light” even when things get dark and you’re unsure of what to do, where to go, or even how to think or feel. The promise of increased and expansive light is always just ahead. Welcome your inner illumination to throw the light of understanding and compassion onto the rich gifts all around you and within you. They are not always the obvious and may be in the form of things you’ve come to fear, turn away or hide from, and want nothing to do with.

What scares you most? Now breathe into that fear with your heart and explore the perspective that the fear is your most loving teacher that knows your purest potentials that you’ve forgotten. Yes, you ARE that powerful.

BE the Christmas Star that guides the way on your journey and lights the crown of your human temple with the infinite source from within your fertile and abundant existence.

However you choose to celebrate this Solstice and the holiday season, I hope you will (if you haven’t already) start celebrating your soul truth by standing in the light of who you are.

I’ve had a lot of symbolic white showing up for me in the past few months through dreams and visions. This is the reason I was drawn to choose this particular newsletter template, although I have been more focused on the clear light.

White symbolizes purity, cleansing, innocence, clarity, new beginnings, wholeness, truth, enlightenment, awakening, and protection.

This is the place I find myself immersed in, as I shed my own light on all things seen and unseen, which may also feel symbolic of this Winter season for many of you.

However, it is actually “clear” light that is the highest vibratory state. All frequencies of light have their place, but clear light (without coloration and diamond-like in essence) is the “innate vibratory expression of the most elevated consciousness”.

It is this clear light that embodies All That Is without definition.

It is Everything and Nothing. As are we each, Everything and Nothing.

In Infinite Love

November Thoughts ~ Becoming a Butterfly


Photo I captured of an enchanting butterfly in Key West


Wow, I received such a deeply touching and beautiful outpouring of messages from so many people yesterday that receive my monthly updates via newsletter on this month’s share, that I felt guided to post it here for those of you that follow along via blog solely and don’t receive my newsletter. It seems I touched a chord with a lot of souls that shared in the experience of what I was inspired to write about my own.

I’m really grateful for all of the beautiful expressions shared with me, the loving support, and the amazingly courageous hearts you are all embracing on your own journeys.

Below you’ll find the introductory thoughts to November’s newsletter. If you would like to receive these monthly, you can sign up here: Newsletter


We’re already almost a week into November.

The eternal moment is continuously catching up to us.

It has never been more evident to me how time simply does not exist in any way that might have at once felt comforting to try to measure.

Although I might speak about past, present, and future, it is merely to help demonstrate an understanding of things in a more collectively accepted way.

That said, it is not my way.

Nor are many things.

What is my way?

This is an important question I find myself always asking, and increasingly at present.

How about you?

I am often checking in with who I am right now, what I want, what is of value to me, what I can’t live without, what my heart is sharing and wants me to hear, where this all leads, and what I must do to remain true and reflect the things most soulfully vital and dear to my essence that I know.

It is often a solo journey that takes multi-dimensional twists, sometimes dark, many times scary, can be quite challenging and take time to explore with integrity, is mixed with pains and joys, and yet is the most enriching experience I know…that of knowing and loving myself fully.

As all things change, so must I, but the way in which I shift is simply in reflection to who I most am that I’ve learned in that moment to release and accept into being.

Every day someone new may seem to emerge from the self-imposed cocoon, but at the core it is always just me…perhaps someone you haven’t yet known because she reveals herself like a slowly unfolding blossom, with each new layer discovered.

And every moment I have the ability to decide to become a butterfly, again and again.

Sometimes that takes me on a journey through the void, like now, where faith, trust, courage, and strength are the only friends I may commune with in order to cultivate soul preservation and truest reflections of responsible service, collectively.hope for the flowers

One of my favorite books, so happens to be one that my dear friend, Cliff, who recently transitioned, had gifted me. It is titled, “Hope for the Flowers.”

Anyone who really knows me, knows that I am, and always will be a child at heart. I find enchantment in all things, especially the uncomplicated and pure, and this book I feel so beautifully speaks to the fundamentals we face in discovering what is truly of value in life in the most simple of ways anyone can grasp, without need for fancy words, hidden meanings, and challenging concepts.

One of my favorite passages is this:


“How does one become a butterfly?” she asked pensively.

“You must want to fly so much that you are willing to give up being a caterpillar.”

“You mean to die?” asked Yellow, remembering the three who fell out of the sky.

“Yes and No,” he answered. “What looks like you will die but what’s really you will still live. Life is changed, not taken away. Isn’t that different from those who die without ever becoming butterflies?”

“And if I decide to become a butterfly,” said Yellow hesitantly. “What do I do?”

“Watch me. I’m making a cocoon. It looks like I’m hiding, I know, but a cocoon is no escape. It’s an in-between house where the change takes place. It’s a big step since you can never return to caterpillar life. During the change, it will seem to you or to anyone who might peek that nothing is happening – but the butterfly is already becoming. It just takes time! And there’s something else! Once you are a butterfly, you can really love – the kind of love that makes new life. It’s better than all the hugging caterpillars can do.”


Do you find yourself in the void, cocooning, and in process of emerging anew? If so, you are definitely not alone.

While the holiday season is fast approaching, and thoughts turn to the hustle and bustle of parties, gifts, friends, family, and gatherings…creating anxiety or short-tempered stress to do it all right and to provide what we think abundance means, perhaps it’s a time to approach the season in a new way.

A way that honors who you are and the lasting values and innate abundance already available in the love of your heart.

Love yourself and all others as the reflection of that love, responding to others as you would want, and have wished, to be responded to.

It’s not the “things” in life that make it worth living. It’s not what we “need” from others that creates lasting wholeness. It’s the love for your life and all that you are, that is what brought you here in the first place and will create the experiences you most cherish.

In Love and Creative Magick


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