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Whimsical Wednesdays ~ The Artist’s Corner: Christmas Whimsy is a Family Tradition
As today is Whimiscal Wednesdays, I couldn’t think of a more whimsical way to share what is in my heart and how I live every day from the innocence of my inner child than to share a glimpse into our day yesterday. While it’s true that I have never let go of the the little girl within and don’t go a day without a bit of silly and imagination, in part this is also because of having a family that does the same.
There are many things my spirit carries forth into embodiment simply by way of essence, but my parents have instilled much of the same in me because they, too, have never stopped nurturing their inner child and “living life as art.” Neither did my French grandfather who is the one I often mention having been the one to encourage the artist part of me. We have a lot of family members who have enjoyed continuing on in the ways of the inner child’s artist, thoroughly enjoying life, laughing a lot, and finding ways to bring beauty more to others.
We are truly grateful for this and even though, like any family, we have our ups and downs and challenges, I truly believe that having this little part cultivated and in tact, has supported moving through life with more hope, resilience, and desire to keep re-imagining anew.
Both of my parents are artistic and creative as well in their own ways, and both love to have fun, giggle to tears, and enjoy creating beauty around them. This includes creating an enchanted Winter Wonderland in their home that rivals Santa’s North Pole home and toy shop. In fact, every holiday they go all out with decorating from their childs’ hearts.
My dear Faery Laura has mentioned having had a word for 2018 and a new one for 2019 – “thrive”, and while I wouldn’t say there’s only one for me, I would say that “storybook” often comes to mind when I think of the theme I’ve been cultivating in my life and “whimsical” is another I have truly become extra fond of.
When put together, I feel 2019 to continue anchoring in more of both of these and that my life is unfolding and embodying a storybook that I’m singing from my whimsical heart.
Because of this, I felt so strongly that yesterday I would wear my Alice in Wonderland dress to my parent’s Faeryland home to celebrate Christmas, as it would be a way for me to immerse more fully into this wondrous journey I’m creating and embarking on.
I truly felt like the little girl that I am, now walking hand-in-hand with the woman I’ve become. There is no separation.
And I loved being surrounded by the beauty and enchantment my parents create, the warmth they exude, and the love that emanates from all that they share.
I didn’t take photos this year of the entire house, but I assure you every room is themed with Christmas Wonderland delight!
We spent a lovely day that was filled with a full vegan feast they lovingly made for us, opening sweet and thoughtful gifts, watching Christmas animations – Nestor the Long Eared Donkey (a fav of mine and how my twin soul rabbit, Nestor, got her name) and one we’d never seen before – The Life and Adventures of Santa Claus (which was very magickal too), and sharing about the old ways and how life once was so different and simple. This to include stories of my parents when they were children growing up – one in a small, cobbled-street village at the foot of a castle in the South of France and the other in the old Italian parts of Hoboken, New Jersey.
We were then sent home with a huge care package of goodies to last a week – no cooking for me weeeeeeeee!
Before we ventured off to their Otherworld, Dave and I had enjoyed a mystical morning Christmas skiing. A fog covered the slopes, creating mysterious pockets to journey through on our descent. It was such a cool experience and coupled with Christmas Eve’s snow storm while skiing, a full rainbow that day, and a small misty rainbow portal yesterday, I felt magick consume me and offer more hope to a New Year filled with potential of greater peace and joy.
I hope everyone had a beautiful Christmas and holiday and I wish each of you a little whimsy and sweet delight, as you think about the ways you might want to create this upcoming New Year from your inner child’s creative heart.
Christmas Reflections & New Stage of Life
It’s been a big week so far, beginning with warm celebrations at my family’s house in Reno for Christmas, some completions, and a huge day today for Astrid. I was able to complete my office, except for a new sliding glass door and three special things to hang, which meant it was time for the reveal to her. And boy was it the best day of her life, and my life with her, yet! She had a huge day of joyful tears, soulful release, and courageous leaps – quite literally!
This mirrors me, as I’ve been reflecting on all that has completed and is about to begin in my own life, which was reiterated by the Tarot cards I pulled on Christmas.
My family and I always pull cards at the holidays to see what current theme is streaming through and what the New Year holds for us. All of them were very accurate, and mine were no exception to that.
They spoke to the rebirth taking place for me, an inner calling surfaced, release from all karmic ties, and everything coming together in my life story as I reach a significant stage on my journey.
Synchronously, the last week or so I’ve had an influx of people inquiring for services I have let go of and items I used to offer. To all of them I politely said no, but shared my gratitude for the reflections. It’s become much easier to do this, as I get the clearest yet about myself and what I want and don’t want.
As I felt into the messages of the cards, it was such a relieving confirmation and when I saw Astrid’s joy today and felt and heard her own release and depth of gratitude, I knew we were riding this new path together in all ways. Her feelings were mine reflected, and vice versa.
I will soon share a post on Astrid’s explorations and fun in our new shared room, which got its name a few days ago.
For now I’ll just share this one tiny peek of her in one of her play areas, standing tall and proud, and want to express the touching moment for us.
After she explored a bunch, she returned to the center of the room where I sat. Normally when she’s excited, she’s very interested in doing her own thing and will jet off if you come to her. But this time she came right to me and I put my hand on her head and caressed her softly, as we shared words.
Her eyes softened and lids lowered and she melted into my hand. All I could hear and feel was her joyous release and appreciation.
Like me, she’s had a long, hard journey.
Like me she’s waited patiently and kept going and believing, even when there seemed no hope.
Like me, she is experiencing the best time of her life now and receiving reflections of all the work she’s put into things, come to fruition…finally.
I could see her past and all she went through to get to this moment…how she waited for the right time and person to adopt her.
No one would and kept passing her by because they couldn’t “see” her.
She waited nearly three years, which is a lot for a little rabbit, as all of her friends at the rescue got adopted and left her behind.
And now, here she was, being gifted a magickal rabbit playroom fit for the queen that she is.
It was all overwhelming for her in a beautiful full circle way.
I felt both of our hearts open wider and our connection deepen, as we both shed tears of gratitude.
I knew her journey, as it mirrored so much of my own.
I’ll share again more in an upcoming post, but today was a huge day for us both. And on top of that, she learned to go up and down the big staircase all on the same day.
I knew she could do it, but thought it might take longer.
Astrid proved her bravery, as within a couple of hours she was up the stairs. And just a bit ago, she made it down.
It was such a cute process….the down that is, as she kept coming to me to help her. She kept nosing my ankles and then tugged on my pant legs with her teeth, to help. So I gave her a pep talk and went to the stairs to show her how. It took a little while, as she kept checking the first step down and then circling to regroup. And then it was done.
Today was a BIG day for both of us on so many levels. Speaks to the New Year to come!
Here are some photos from our lovely Christmas we all shared as a family, which was festive, fun, and full of giggles and yummy vegan feasting! Grateful to have parents that support our vegan lifestyle and always make, buy, or search out vegan restaurant options for us. My brother (who is absent in the photos due to camera shyness, but far from absent in the shenanigans shared) is vegan and was actually vegan a few years before I even knew what being vegan was. Both my mom (makes the entrees) and dad (makes the desserts) got in on the vegan creations and sent us home with care packages and apple dumplings to enjoy for the mornings.
Grateful also to have Faery folk as parents, which brings to Christmas and all holidays the magick I love.
The painting hanging here in their living room is an original by me of Venice that I painted while living in Sedona in 1997 – my first major painting I ever did – as an anniversary gift to my parents (it replicated a photo from their trip there, with a little “T” twist)
Such warmth shared all around! And wonderful gifties too!
I hope everyone that celebrates Christmas enjoyed a warm, peace, and love filled one and that the holiday season (however you celebrate or don’t) was a perfect reflection of you.
Faery kisses to all!
Cultivating Inner Child Innocence
One of the things I’m grateful for and cherish most about my family is that my parents have always cultivated and kept alive the essence of the “inner child” for us. This is likely why they remain eternally youthful, both in appearance and expression, as they continue to play, be silly, laugh A LOT, and have fun always. My brother and I have continued in this vein, never fully growing up and keeping our innocence in tact, despite all that we’ve gone through in challenges.
Yesterday my parents came up from Reno to visit and we got to share with them our Forest Portal backyard, which was fun. My mom and I were two little Faeries, arm-in-arm, walking together along the path the whole way and me helping my mom across the creeks.
We stopped in the meadow where the light was dancing magickally, lighting things in gold, to take some fun Faery photos.
We peeked out from the grasses with mischievous joy and then rolled in endless laughter when my mom’s foot kept sinking into this dirt pile and couldn’t get back up!
I wrapped my arms around her to pick her up and we were stuck there in giggles until tears, unable to move for a while. Dave caught these fun photos of us.
The rest of the photos are of our walk and captures on the path, including some of the beauty, and our home on our return back.
Here are some words I’ve shared in the past about the power of the inner child and innocence.
Many of us have forgotten about our own inner child, or have lost it along the way, and in doing so, do not remember the power of hope and believing. Nurturing the imagination is vital and contains the ingredients necessary for manifestion. Anything you can envision and feel, IS possible.
When we realize that we have the power to manifest miracles in our lives, I believe we will responsibly learn to co-create. Whatever we choose to believe, is what our reality is. But if we don’t even know how to believe anymore or how to hope and dream, or how to choose consciously, then we are missing out on what life could be.
Doing my part is simply and authentically about expressing who I am, as a cohesive thread in the collective consciousness, through the unique form that I have to share (as we each uniquely have an expression of gifts to share with the world). In embracing ourselves and allowing that which we have inside to flow to all, we can create much beauty.
I have always resonated with children and animals, understanding that they hold a key to healing on a deeper level. Their naturally loving, expressive, playful, connective, and instinctual natures are important ingredients to integration. We have lost our innocence and natural ability to feel and to trust in our knowingness, as a result of forgetting our essence and from being out of tune with our bodies’ natural rhythms. Children and animals love us regardless of what we look like or how we may behave. They know what it means to love unconditionally and that is all they hope of us – that we will love them unconditionally.
Children are powerful in their vulnerability. In their innocent self expression, they emanate an aura of invincibility. To be vulnerable is to be powerful. Vulnerability is a sense of trust and the willingness to express yourself freely and without inhibitions. As we grow older, we lose our innocence and vulnerability, in place of self control and judgment. In a sense, we lose our authentic power.
Recapturing our child-like exuberance, opens the flow of joy and the electric energy of life to surge through us. To go farther than you ever thought possible, daring to explore the depths of your imagination, is truly being alive.
Dare to have fun, explore, laugh, love, believe, and dream. The world is yours to create. What do you want your life to look, feel, sound, taste, and smell like? Indulge your senses with your imagination…..
The child within awaits your loving recognition and nurturing, which in turn will unlock the door to your authentic and magickal experiences that await you.
Inner child work has always been a powerful seed “key” to creating change. And when done with unconditionally loving courage, can be the impetus for empowering yourself in unlimited ways.
We all have a child within that is in need of our loving acceptance. No matter how strong and self-reliant you think you are, there is a time for tender vulnerability in everyone’s journey that is needed to cultivate a garden that your child-like heart can creatively and expansively blossom in. This will provide astounding results in your current experience and with all that you intend.
As adults we carry with us false beliefs from the past that as children we learned to believe. A lot of that includes the things that we were taught was “wrong” with us and so the greatest rejection living with us today is the one to, and of, ourselves with these beliefs.
Listening to and softening our inner dialogue to embrace the perfection of all that we are, is a needed part of our daily practice. It is important to know ourselves to be whole and forgive ourselves, as well as revel in the quirky beauty that our inner child has to share.
Loving your inner child will support healing the darkest experiences by shining light on the beauty that was always there. This opens doorways that the Universe will support you with when you are willing to partner with it.
Faery Down Under Part 1: A Warm Welcome to Australia with Family, Food, Wildlife Magick, City & Coastal Explorations
I had a little time this morning upon waking before we head out on our hiking and explorations today and thought I’d share a little summary of things experienced on my four days so far while it’s fresh and also since I won’t be doing a big trip blog at the end – wow it seems like so much longer, as it’s all been so rich. My three-flight-connection journey went well and synchronous, as I traveled to Australia on the Full Moon in Scorpio and I haven’t experienced any jet lag, oddness with being a day ahead, or challenges in any way including driving on the opposite side of the road than I’m used to. It’s all been seamless and comfortable – a very easy shift that likely is in part due to my mutability, but may also speak to a resonance of being here before beyond this life.
I’ve shared all of this via Instagram and reshared to Facebook, so this will be a bit of a repeat to anyone on those platforms, but I felt to share it here too for my blog community and for my own sort of travel journal memories, so it’s all in one place. I will only be sharing a few fav photos, however. The rest you can see at those social network links, if you haven’t already.
Upon arriving we spent the day in the city of Melbourne (which is beautiful in Autumn right now), walking everywhere and really feeling the culture here and enjoying the great vegan food and entertainment.
We visited the Eureka Skydeck 88, which is the highest viewing platform in the Southern Hemisphere, as well as sat in on one of the very old churches at evening mass with the choir singing, which was lovely.
Vegan restaurants are plentiful and the amount of options and quality of food rivals LA for sure. We enjoyed TONS of yums for lunch and dinner at Smith & Deli, as well as their sister restaurant, Smith & Daughters, and even got to enjoy local, live jazz music at the jazz place next door to the restaurant, where we secured a reservation for a table while waiting for our dinner spot to open.
Our next day was an exploration of the Melbourne’s countryside, which took us on a vortex drive through eucalyptus, gum trees, and ferns, having us spiral in the forests and parks, which was quite interesting and landing at a beautiful hike through the bush, which was just gorgeous.
And after it was family time, as I mentioned, I have family here I’ve never met.
So we got to spend the afternoon, evening, overnight, and morning with my family just outside of Melbourne. This is family whom we learned about in the early 90’s for the first time.
My dad’s family is from Sicily and they had spread out to several areas long ago. Some staying in Sicily, others settling on the East Coast of the U.S., Argentina, and Australia. Family members never having met including brothers and sisters. My Great Great Uncle and his family were who I got to meet for the first time and just days before his daughter’s 70th birthday – my third cousin who shares a birthday with Cosmo, my bunny – as well as his 102nd birthday. My uncle’s wife is 95.
He is the Uncle of my grand father who passed recently at almost 98 I believe. They were only 4 years apart. They all speak Italian and hold memories of life we can’t imagine. It’s incredible how much they have been blessed to experience.
My third cousin’s daughter and family were able to join too – she’s my fourth cousin, as well as my third cousin’s brother and wife. Her daughters were so very sweet and even invited me to join them in the living room to have a tea party and color with them, which I thought was adorable.
I can’t tell you how incredible it all was and how much I love these people, feeling I’ve known them forever. It was emotional to leave. Feeling like I’ve retrieved another part of my soul and expanded my heart with parts I didn’t know were missing.
My third cousing, Nella, who will be 70 tomorrow (well tomorrow here) was just the best. She reminded me of my mom actually and I was so strongly heart connected to her immediately. We both said it was incredible how strong our connection was and picked up as if I saw her yesterday. We learned a lot about each other and shared a lot of intimate things in the short time together. We will definitely be keeping in touch and I’ve learned that my parents, because of my coming here, just like with our trip to Alaska, are now planning a trip to hopefully visit the family in October this year. I know they will have an amazing time and I feel my mom and Nella will be like two peas in a pod, like she and I were.
I learned that Nella has taken up painting and other arts and crafts, as well as volunteers a lot. So we have that in common. She gave me a pair of earrings she made, and I got to see all of her beautiful artwork she’s been making. She taught herself via Youtube videos. Her daughter Olivia loves gardening and has wanted a Garden Tower to add to hers, which I shared about having, and so we chatted about a lot of things we both enjoy and she and her husband, as well as the rest of the family were so interested in our being vegan, loved my tattoos, and everything I do. Such warm welcomes all around. Olivia and her husband Liam have actually watched films like Earthlings and it has shifted their own course of action with their food choices for them and their two little girls.
The whole family grows a lot of their own vegetables, as my Great Great Uncle has land four times the size of Nella’s and all vegetable and fruit garden. And Olivia has a garden as well where they grow much of their own vegetables.
My 3rd cousin Phil, Nella’s brother, actually attributed my Great Great Uncle, Carmelo’s being 102 to eating so many vegetables. Apparently, and I’m not sure if I’m remembering correctly who, but it may have been Carmelo’s Grandfather or Father who lived to 105.
I have relatives on both sides of the family who have all reached mid to late nineties, and some 100’s, so I guess it runs in the genes. When Nella saw she me was floored I was 44. She said, “I thought you were no more than 25!” LOL! She, herself, looks in her 50’s like my parents, despite them all being in their 70’s and she said, “it’s in the genes.”
Nella’s husband, Vic, is an artist in the garden. They have a lovely large yard with bonsai trees, flowers, fruit trees, and more.
I was so amazed by the incredible bonsai collection he has. He took me to tour their garden sanctuary where I found hundreds of gorgeous, nurtured and cultivated bonsai. So amazingly beautiful! I have never seen anything like it anywhere. Some he’s loved and cared for for 40 years! They are so incredible that someone actually stole 4 of his most prized bonsai trees. Luckily his insurance company reimbursed him, but sad to put all those years of love into your babies and have someone take them.
I was so incredibly touched by my family we got to spend time with in every way including how welcome they made us in making all vegan food for everyone to enjoy, picking up all kinds of things for snacks, and trying new recipes. Nella was amazing with her culinary skills. We were so spoiled and had more food than we ever have.
She made things like sweet potato and squash patties, an eggplant, peppers and tomatoes dish, a chickpea and lentils dish, a vegan pot pie, fresh baked bread, (tons of sides), and a coffee chocolate cake. We also had huge spread of options for breakfast including cereals with rice milk, fruits, toast, jams, peanut butter, crumpets, coffee, juice, tea….my fav was the crumpets which I had about three of. One with avocado and walnuts, which she recommended as a tasty combo, and the others with peanut butter mostly and a little jam.
It was a fabulous time and celebration and so perfect that we were there for Mother’s Day with Nella, who reminded me a bit of my own mom, but such sweet timing to be with her to share the love.
It was challenging to leave. I just kept snuggling Nella as many times as I could. We will definitely be keeping in touch on Skype when I return home and I also got her daugher’s email to keep in touch with, as well as my Great Great Uncle’s phone number, as apparently he loves to talk on the phone. His accent is thick in Italian and Nella’s husband is thick in both Italian and Australian. So it really is both incredible and takes presence to listen, as it should be.
We are forever in each other’s hearts.
After visiting my family we had another wonderful experience visiting our kangaroo brothers and sisters. My family told us where we’d be able to experience them freely (not at a zoo) and they were right. It was such a magickal and incredible experience walking among them in the wild with cockatoos and other wild, beautiful birds flying around. What magnificent beings they are. And to be so close to them was such a gift. So human-like and powerful.
Until then we’d only seen dead kangaroo on the side of the road, as they are like deer who wander at dusk and cross the highways. So sad, but what amazing creatures they are.
I also love all of the wild, tropical birds here. The rainbow lorikeets, parrots, cockatoos, and the huge magpies. The songs in the morning are just beautiful and the cawing is such a nice feeling.
I’m sure locals might find some of this annoying, or simply the norm, but it is such a gift and I never tire of the wildlife anywhere, even in my own backyard. Everyday is a miracle and magickal whenever I see any animal, no matter how often. But to see new ones just adds to that magick for sure!
After our kangaroo introductions and connections, we set off up the coast, as our journey will be taking us to Brisbane. We’re taking the longer route along the coastline and stopping along the way. So far we spent time in Metung and are now in Tathra, with so many other seaside towns like Eden, in between.
All so gorgeous and we’ve just been booking places along the way, which has been incredible finding the most amazing Airbnb’s on the water.
Upon arrival in Metung, greeted by our Airbnb host, who was so sweet and helpful, we had the chance to explore the town and had an amazingly magickal sunset experience by the water surrounded by black swans.
It was surreal and they even gifted me 18 feathers, so I’m really feeling the enchantment and their medicine.
We also had a rare sighting of the ring-tailed possum on our way home, which is only seen at night, if at all. I think the animals are coming out to greet us, which I’m so touched by.
This current place in Tathra we’re staying in is stunning, reminding us of our place in Lake Tahoe with the expansive 270 degree view of the ocean all around. It sits atop a cafe and actually is for sale. Wheels turning…. 😉
We’ll be setting off for some hiking today, as we’re surrounded here by gorgeous beaches and National Parks…so we’ll have the best of both worlds here, exploring all day in this Heaven on Earth.
And that’s an update for now. Only four days so far, but all feels incredibly important and just as I suspected, a bit of soul retrieval going on here for sure, with heart and spirit nourishing, and definitely a lot of inspiration and heart expansion to infuse into my writing and life.
Feeling very grateful and blessed for sure.
Christmas at the Faery Folks’ Magick Castle
Yesterday we spent our first Christmas celebration of the season with my family at their Faery wonderland home and on this day we also surpassed our 27 hawks and a transitioned owl we saw on Thanksgiving with seeing 32 hawks and an owl taking to flight. Incredible! The night before I was visited by my rabbit, Joy, who was sending me a message, as my little ones often do, asking me to “listen” to something coming. And her message received reiteration when we pulled up to my parent’s house and directly across the street their neighbor’s Christmas decorations included a huge lit up word on their front window – “JOY”. Joy’s Earthly birthday just so happens to be on Christmas Eve, so I’m keeping an “ear” out, just as she showed me in my dream. I’d also picked up a collection of small crystals at the store before heading to my parent’s house, which I’ll be using in some home-made and nature-potent magick tools and relics I’ll be creating come the New Year. Anyway, I’d forgotten my cell at home, so only had my small Nextbook laptop to snap some okay photos of just some of the enchantment at my family’s home. My parents are big on decorating throughout all the seasons and holidays of the year and truly enjoy making things magickal, warm, and inviting with each room having a theme -there’s Toyland, Traditional Christmas, White Winter Wonderland, Santa’s Village, and more. I forget how many Christmas trees they have, but it’s a lot! And their collection of Santas and Nutcrackers surpasses what they actually put out in the house (this collection includes our first Nutcracker, which was actually mine from a child that was not only my secret boyfriend and “prince” while growing up, but had been my Nutcracker when I starred as Clara in the Nutcracker ballet I did when a little girl). I found it interesting that the photo of the nutcrackers below has this odd yellow band of energy that crosses through their crown chakras – no that’s not a painted stripe on the wall hehe! We had a really fun and cozy gathering, sharing nurturing gifts all around, and we returned home stocked with meals and goodies to carry us through until we depart Thursday for Southern California for our continued Christmas celebrations. Mom made a Greek-themed Christmas dinner and dad did his usual gourmet baking of mincemeat pie (loaded with apples, cranberries, raisins, candied ginger and more), cranberry spiced oatmeal cookies, rosettes, and apple dumplings. I even had a chance to snuggle up to Santa himself, and whisper my wishes into his ear. 😉 And my brother gifted us with some astrological readings, which confirmed and empowered the transitions I’ve made in my own life recently and connected the dots with big a-ha’s as to why I have recreated my life as such. Grateful for the love and magick that pervades my life.
Wishing everyone some holiday warmth and enchantment, but above all peace to your hearts. From my family to yours, I share these photos with love.
Me and Santa – I was wearing my original vintage “Beatrix Potter” Peter Rabbit sweater and Faery rabbit with crown necklace to connect with my bunny loves
Oops! There I am in the portal mirror 😉
White Winter Wonderland room with tree that sits next to the original painting I created of a Venice scene from their trip there, which I gifted my parents as an anniversary gift
I love the staircase, which is Toyland, where my parents line one staircase with poinsettias, another with Santas, and the top with Nutcrackers, with the Toyland animals and tree on the first landing (includes several stuffed bunnies and bears, which used to all be mine)
The portal glass-etched door shows up in the peacock painting
Odd yellow band of energy across the crowns of these magickal nutrackers. The far right one is the first, original one that I danced with as Clara.
You can still see that band of yellow behind the tree, which is where the nutrackers are on the top landing…this is my dad’s mini desk tree of his loft office
Mystical Forest Alchemy ~ Family Integration & Rewriting Energetic History
My mystical forest view this morning from my creationspace
It started raining on and off yesterday while my parents came to visit for the first time, which created a cozy space for our family reunion, but also seemed symbolic of emotions and deep cleansing and renewal.
It then started raining in the night and continues this morning consistently. It sounds and feels so wonderful in our RV surrounded by the forest.
There is a snow storm coming tomorrow and Sunday.
RV living creates a greater appreciation for Nature and the changing seasons and weather because we’re right in all of it, always.
And at times like this it feels like a little warm Faery cottage on wheels or Hobbit home, if you prefer. 😉
And it was times like yesterday that will be etched in my heart’s memories.
It was the first time my parents got to see our RV and to meet Cosmo.
Both were special to share with them, but there was one particular moment that will always be dear to me and etched in my mind.
It was when I handed my mom my precious baby to hold.
None of this being any different than what a mother feels when she hands her biological baby to her own mother for the first time.
I had all the same feelings in doing so and watching him in her arms, as I showed her how he likes to be held. Then watched him snuggle up to her and lick her chest with dad looking on, caressing him as my mom held him.
There was that full circle feeling and too many different layers of emotions and thoughts to even put into words.
We enjoyed a nice afternoon and lunch visiting. I made them my potato leek soup, as mom helped in the kitchen and we talked of different things, including my connection with Cosmo and the things I do to care for him, how I understand him, and how his care is my priority above all else, showing me what is truly important in life.
I could see her wheels turning and feeling and seeing how I now really understood the bond she feels with myself and my brother and all that she has gone through in her life out of that love.
And she nodded in confirmation to all I shared saying, “That’s what you do when you have a child.”
Cosmo was once again spreading his magick.
And while this was a way of me seeing myself in my mom, my mom also gets to see herself in me, as I am not the traditional mother and teach her the importance of balance and also caring and nurturing the self.
I have become a mother, enjoying cooking, being in my home, caring for my children and partner, but I am also integrating my gifts into service beyond the home, continue traveling extensively on my own and for my work, and following my heart by doing the things I love and that nurture me.
I have added layers to the role of women in our generational line…which has taken much strength on my part to break out of the mold.
We sat on the couch after lunch and I showed her my new Tarot decks, deciding we should have her pull a card from the Faery deck, which she did.
It was the perfect card for my ever-giving mom:
Her Special Place ~ basically speaking to a need for solitude, quiet, creating a sacred place for yourself and giving healing and love to yourself.
And so here I sit in my own “Special Place” embodying the energy of my truth and gifts, as a bridge for her to her own. Just as her beautiful motherly heart has been integrated into my own life by her loving embodiment.
The rain in these mystical forests is flowing its alchemy and I feel the ancients watching on, as we change the course of energetic history, shift our DNA, and create a new way of being.
Tania Marie 