Today always creates deeper presence for me because it was a day, twelve years ago, that I was taught the true gift of eternal being when my twin soul in rabbit body, Nestor, transitioned. Her passing was dramatic in every way, but that’s what a twin soul mirrors for you, the most resonant and most soulful depths that provide opportunity for greatest evolution.

She gifted me with expansion into knowing the true gift of life and death, the beauty in all contrasting experiences, and the alchemy of feelings. Truly too much to contain within words alone.

I thought that rather than post a photo that’s somber or brings up the past, I would celebrate Nestor with joy and how she truly ignited greater knowing of myself and how rabbits would continue to be a guiding force in my life with her as the brilliant star lighting the way.

This photo was taken in late January, actually not too far from her birth date of February 1st. We were celebrating my dear friend’s birthday and she and I dressed as bunnies. I made sure to wear a special necklace I had made to embody Nestor’s energy. It features a gray bunny, like her, with a star crystal at her third eye, surrounded by a cosmic landscape tapering into a crystal point.

She wanted me to continue on with our work and let love and inner child wonder expand within my heart, rather than allow the pain of her passing to close it and wither my life force away. She lives within and through me forever, but is free to be her expansive self without restriction.

She was with me for five extraordinary years only, but they made an ever-lasting impression that transformed my life and led me to now. This to include guiding me to each of the bunnies and my tortoise who came after her, including my life partner.

She’s promised I will never be alone physically or spiritually. I cherish Astrid because she, too, was a gift from Nestor and embodies so much of Nestor’s energy.

I’ve never been the same since she cracked open my heart.

Through death I was reborn.

Perhaps this message might be of some comfort and support in some small way as you are navigating these uncertain and challenging times. I know there has been much loss in the world and it doesn’t go without saying it brings great pain.

I just know that the greatest pain was not meant to hinder, punish, or stop life. There is alchemy within pain to know as experience – an experience that resembles the birthing of a star.