The Wound Is Where the Light Enters You – You CAN Find Joy Again



Today is a special day I commemorate with love and honor of the being that has taught me the true meaning of unconditional love, alchemy, magick, authenticity, and reminds me daily of my chosen path. Nestor, aka Nestie (as she embodies both Divine Male and Female), transitioned 5 years ago today. The number 5 has always been an auspicious and potent number between the two of us, and so this year-mark seems poignant.

You’ve heard me share much about Nestor in many a blog, so today I just want to share how life transitions carry with them a powerfully beautiful message, despite how painfully tormenting it can be to the human heart when it takes place unexpectedly.

In the moments she released from this Earth plane, she gave out a cry that simultaneously embodied the pain and the joy of that transition. “Pain” in that breaking from the 3-D world and how that feels in physical release, as well as pain for the totality of leaving behind an experience she so cherished with me and the pleasures of Earthly gifts.

And “Joy” in that release into the expansive, boundless, and powerful experience of the Universal being she truly is where she is free to do so much more service than she was able to do in a tiny restricted body, can be with me where ever I am, and she can travel the Universe to continue her beautiful integrative work for the collective.

In her duality of pain and joy experience, I came to “live” the experience of how the two exist simultaneously, bringing my studies of duality and integration, and the idea of “no boundaries” nor judgments, into full flesh knowingness.

And for me, it is through the greatest pain I have ever, and likely will ever, experience – my twin soul released from this plane of existence – I have been able to find what she always wanted for me – the heart of Me.

In place of my shattered heart, birthed a new one that continues to blossom infinitely. Where she experienced a “death,” I was reborn. And this is the natural cycle of All That Is. Destruction and creation are one in the same and not wrong or right. They simply ARE and through the darkest of experiences, there will always be light.

When your experience becomes thickly enveloped and you feel you are clamoring around, lost, beaten, scared, and reaching and straining your eyes to try to see, this is the time to stand naked and raw amidst this black ocean so that the liquid light of your heart can shine from within. It will then soon permeate into the fluidity and guide you from your core, bringing the wisdom to understand and transcend the limited perspectives that only serve the feeding of fears.

Although you can’t see her, Nestor is ever-present beside me and within me, and together we continue our heart mission, unified.

I know many of you are going through “dark night of the soul” experiences and have lost loved ones and feel there is no hope. We each have our own experiences of things like this and it is relative to each, but I can say, having been through my own years, in this life, of torment, pains, confusions, loneliness, loss, endless emotional cycling, challenges…that you can create that peace and you can come to trust, hope, love, and refuel passions in greater, more expansive ways than you ever imagined.

Part of it has to do with be willing to let go, surrender, and allow yourself to receive and open to the possibility that joy DOES live on the opposite side of the same pain coin you are holding. We have the ability to flip the coin when we are ready to say yes.

The wound is the place where the Light enters you. ~Rumi 

The human heart has a way of making itself large again even after it’s been broken into a million pieces. ~Robert James Waller 

As my sufferings mounted I soon realized that there were two ways in which I could respond to my situation — either to react with bitterness or seek to transform the suffering into a creative force. I decided to follow the latter course. ~Martin Luther King Jr. 

There is an alchemy in sorrow. It can be transmuted into wisdom, which, if it does not bring joy, can yet bring happiness. ~Pearl S. Buck

Our wounds are often the openings into the best and most beautiful part of us. ~David Richo 

What happens when people open their hearts?…They get better. ~Haruki Murakami


About Tania Marie's Blog

Creating life as a work of art with a magick rabbit by my side. I remember my song. Do you? Artist, Author and Reiki Master Teacher with over 25 years' experience in creative healing arts and metaphysical studies. Tania inspires people globally to return to natural harmony, draw forth imagination to manifest dreams, embody creative empowerment, and live more magickally and abundantly from their most natural frequency – in essence, Tania helps you to remember your song.

Posted on April 27, 2013, in Uncategorized and tagged , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 6 Comments.

  1. A beautiful post in many ways. I was touched myself. Sending you many warm, loving hugs and blessings ❤

  2. Melinda Houston

    Yesterday 05/01/13 I had to make the decision to let my dog boy, “Friday” go…He came to me 13 years ago in a cardboard box in a Jack in the Box parking lot. (Probably should have named him Jack but his name came to me in a dream)
    Anyway, I needed to read this blog/post today. It helps…

    • i’m so sorry to hear about your sweet Friday. sounds like you had a beautiful connection. sending much love and peace to your heart. i know he is with and around you always. love you sweetie.

  3. Melinda Houston

  4. Reblogged this on Tania Marie's Blog and commented:

    Although today is not the day in which I both lost and found my true self and most cherished soul – a day I hold in reverence each year since 2008 – I felt guided to reshare this blog post I wrote two years ago.

    The nudge to find this post is twofold.

    For one, yesterday I shared a lunch with someone dear to heart with whom I’ve shared a full circle experience in life with since I was 16 years old. And while we ate and caught up on our lives, this story that was the tipping point in my own, ended up being shared. I’m always amazed at how often this story comes through and how much it ends up touching so many people’s lives and hitting a chord.

    For more about the story you can read it at this link, if you haven’t already:

    And two, I know that many souls have been transitioning and I have recently been in contact, and working, with so many that are challenged with feeling stuck in suffering and pain for varied reasons, and have a hard time giving themselves permission to experience release and joy again, let alone imagining that there is a way through the dark.

    There is and you can.

    I know this, not just in theory or concepts, but through actual experiences.

    Suffering is a choice and one we can release ourselves from when we allow our perspectives to be expanded, we open to a new and profound understanding, we release judgments, we give ourselves permission to feel whole again, and we allow things to work themselves out rather than feel we need to punish or correct things, as the only ones we end up punishing is ourselves.

    Life goes on with or without us…the Universe doesn’t judge or label things, energy keeps flowing. So why do we decide to buck that and build a dam within us to stop what is natural from moving through?

    There is actually profound sense to the seemingly senseless.

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