My journey has intensified, deepened, and expanded with rabbits. And although I am, and have been my whole life, strongly empathic to all animals and identified with them the most, making it imperative I change my lifestyle choices in all ways, it became evident that my calling and path was to be a voice for rabbits and all of life through my work with them. After having assisted Joy and Cosmo to move on, I didn’t really know how things would unfold and took time to just let things evolve naturally. Then one day around 3 months ago I began feeling like something was missing, making me realize that me without a rabbit just isn’t me, and then sensed a rabbit was coming and that I was ready.
And so I heard the call and listened.
This led me to start exploring SaveABunny’s website of available rabbits for adoption. SaveABunny is a non-profit rabbit rescue organization based in Northern California and is where I was led by my rabbit/twin soul Nestor to find Joy in 2008 – taking her home two days before my birthday in 2009. It’s about 3 hours and 20 minutes from our home in Lake Tahoe, so it wasn’t like I could just go over there, so I knew things would be a process.
As I explored the bunnies on their page of rabbits for adoption I was energetically drawn to one named Big Sur. There was no information about him like most of the others, except where he came from. I did notice that his ears were half missing though. So I wanted to touch in and find out his status and background.
This was the only photo I saw of him that began this whole journey, but his soul spoke through his eyes to mine and that was it.
It took a little while to hear back, as they are a busy, volunteer-only organization but then got info he was stable and learned more about his background.
I felt he was the one and so I then talked with Dave to make sure he was on board and ok with bringing in another bunny and he told me that if I feel it’s what I want and it’s important for me and my path then he supports that.
However, I knew we had a lot of upcoming travels coming and so I knew it wasn’t a good idea to adopt him until the travels were done, as I would want to establish solidity and be there to create the feeling of home and safety – not up and leave right away, which would feel like abandonment.
After asking about my options and exploring what I could do, we all decided the best was to just wait until my travels were done and come in at that time to adopt. There was no telling what could evolve in the meantime, but the thing I was being told was to TRUST.
There was a process unfolding and it wasn’t to be rushed, as there are many working parts and variables that can always shift at any moment these day and things do in fact change overnight, not to mention my travels would shift energies as well for me, as would the rapid changes I keep making create rippling shifts. So I waited very patiently, but quite anxiously.
While in Sedona I felt more solidified with everything and asked during my labyrinth walk on the Full Moon for clarity and support with the whole process for the highest good. It was in Sedona as well that I received his name – Zephyr, which means a gentle wind or soft breeze from the west (which he was….blowing into my life from the west coast area, west of Tahoe). It also means the Greek god of the west wind.
There was connection with avian bird energy with this name and meaning that are around me so much and Zephyr Cove where we walk all the time and I would think of him.
I made a full commitment by filling out an adoption form online and this spun things further into motion and declared my readiness and commitment out loud to the Universe to welcome in a new rabbit companion, as well as continue on with my path in a larger way. A lot of synchronous things kept happening and it felt in flow.
I also had a dream of him, which was telling and something I’d been waiting to see if that would happen, as all of my bunnies communicate that way (so does Gaia my tortoise). It is indication that we are able to telepathically communicate and that there is a bond there.
And he DID come to me in dream time, which involved some communication and me being with him while we were bonding and I rubbed his third eye and the area around his sweet ears.
I later also had another dream and the connection continued daily with feeling him so strongly and communicating to him with ease.
Then on Beltane I received confirmation of my appointment and time to go in and adopt him, which ended up being on June 20th Solstice at 1:30pm. Magick was at work indeed, as Joy departed to the stars on June 21st of last year and the Solstice this year would be at 9:24 pm Pacific Time for me, so right in the transition portal of it all.
Divine perfection unfolding for sure in full circle and the closing and opening of doors.
So a little about Big Sur, who for me is Zephyr (or Baby Z, as I lovingly call him by nickname when communicating to him – all of my loves receive tons of nicknames). Both of his names seemed to perfectly align with his watery and airy nature too.
Anyway, Big Sur/Zephyr came in from Salinas Animal Services in November 2016 and came to SaveABunny soon after. He is blind in his right eye and had bite wounds beyond his ears having been bitten off. He was treated and neutered, went on antibiotics, but healed very well.
When I first inquired they said he was stable, wasn’t on medication, and his blood panel hadn’t shown anything serious.
He’s been through a lot, but remains incredibly loving and sweet (remind you of anyone? – hint Cosmo) and likely was a breeding rabbit at a meat farm, which attests for his injuries from the horrible conditions of these cruel places.
Here’s a recent photo of him showing how well he’s healed.
I find rabbits to be unique in that they transcend or bridge several categories of animals.
They are domestic, farm, and wild animals and not only are seen as animal companions/pets, but also are farmed or hunted for their meat, farmed or hunted for their fur, and are one of the most commonly used and abused animals in terms of lab testing and experiments.
Not only have rabbits become synonymous with cosmetics animal testing throughout the world, enduring horrendous suffering in the name of “beauty,” but their image is the most recognized and used on cruelty-free labeling.
American Anti-Vivisection Society shares this article:
PETA shares this article:
Rabbit meat is being promoted as the new “super meat” although not as easily commercially produced on an industrial scale (thank goodness!) because of their weaker immune systems and overall die more easily, but is still being done. There are even crazy motivation and incentive articles like this trying to get people to do it more: 7 Reasons to Raise Rabbits for Meat
Just blows my mind.
Anyway, back to Zephyr/Big Sur.
After Sedona we were in Australia and upon returning from Australia I found out when checking in that he wasn’t doing so well. He’s had a couple setbacks, went into stasis and Marcy, the founder of SaveABunny just didn’t know in any definitive way what was wrong.
Either he was having medical complications solely, or he was depressed and this was causing issues.
So she asked me what I thought, as she was thinking of moving him to a different area and potentially seeing if he wanted/needed another bunny friend.
I told her to do anything she felt was in his highest good, as that was what was most important. It wasn’t about me. It was about him.
In the meantime I connected with him and communicated all of my thoughts and sent him energy, telling him I would be there soon to see him.
A little while after I learned he was doing better and had been moved to a larger area with even more light.
We then were in Austin and I checked in again two nights before going in to SaveABunny to see how he was.
I received a message that he was “OK” but that it really was hard to know.
What I didn’t mention is that when I first learned he wasn’t doing well I did some work around things for myself, as I knew I was being asked to go to another level. I allowed myself to be sad and although I had released things to the highest good from the get-go, and was open to him leading me to another bunny if in fact something didn’t work out for whatever reason, I still needed to go deeper.
And so I did.
I realized that when I was inquiring about him I was wanting there not to be any further major medical issues other than needing to take into account his blindness and ears, as well as emotional challenges he might have from everything, but I know at the core of me that my path is not about certainties and perfect scenarios and not about being afraid to take in an extremely challenged bunny, or any challenge for that matter in life, as the growth for me is in the difficult decisions and expanding my emotions and abilities beyond where I’ve gotten to so far. This is what I feel to be the balancing between love and mission I’m learning and is a huge cosmic focus too being worked out collectively, I feel.
And I did a lot of work around supporting him with what ever he needed and wanted that would be for his highest good and overall for everyone involved. I also, for the first time, opened to looking at other potential bunnies on their website, in case I really would be needing to take home another. And I asked him to lead me there, if so, and that I would have the clarity to be able to make the highest decisions. I also worked through my emotions, as I was saddened by hearing of his condition and potentially not being able to take him, or worse. I was ready for anything and asked that I’d have the strength to do what was right.
If you remember in my blog post Follow the White Rabbit I shared:
“Following the White Rabbit is where the journey begins…a reminder to take chances in life, follow your intuitive nudges and gut instincts, and let your heart and inner mind lead the way. A new way of feeling, thinking, seeing, believing, and being is just around the corner, or perhaps “down the rabbit hole,” leading you to a new opportunity and a whole whimsical “Wonderland” of unlimited possibilities and magickal experiences.”
And here I found myself following the White Rabbit – Zephyr – on a new journey of surprising twists and turns and magickal unfolding. I had no idea where this path would lead, how it would end, what was involved, but down the rabbit hole I went, following my heart and intuition, regardless. I just knew this is what I needed to do – tough as it might be.
This led me to Tuesday, 6/20, Summer Solstice, a big journey, and a surprise. Sweetly, my friend here in Lake Tahoe offered to go with me on this trip, which was such a blessing and I’m deeply grateful for. I had just planned to go on my own since Dave had to work, but having Sharon along was a gift and great support for the day. She even packed us a whole cooler of drinks and healthy snacks and food and captured some photos for me. I loved that it also enabled her to connect with and learn more about the bunnies too, which she loved.
This was my transition day of easing into my cleanse (which meant backing off of food, which I did) so everything she brought was perfect, as they were light and healthy and I ate just as much as I needed to sustain for the day’s challenges.
The drive wasn’t bad at all going and we arrived as Marcy was outside and immediately it felt like yesterday I’d been there (remembering the place, the street, her) even though it was a little over 8 years ago since I’d last visited. I’ve met Marcy in person 4 times now, but it always seems like yesterday.
Anyway, she brought us in and gave us the tour, introduced us to all of the bunnies briefly, and lastly I met Zephyr/Big Sur.
He was just as sweet as he was in our communicating and what I’d felt from him. Just a love bug and he just nuzzled into my hand. My heart melted.
I had already fallen in love with him, but that was solidified and deepened.
Well, the story takes a turn here, as we ended up being at SaveABunny for nearly 4 hours, which was totally unexpected. Part of that was in connecting with the bunnies, but a large part was due to me having to process things about the challenge I was presented.
To try and not extend this out too long, I had to decide if I should really take Zephyr or not, and which bunny I should take, if in fact I didn’t.
Well, after talking with Marcy and feeling things out with him more it was evident his condition is an unknown, potentially volatile one and his blood panel had shown kidney issues likely as well, he is still up and down in behavior and eating. He had also been moved to a larger pen area next to Amandine, who is a large, white and extremely conscious, nurturing, healer, mother bunny (pictured below).
He’d gotten better from his setbacks and stasis since moving next to her.
Marcy left it up to me, because she trusts me, but wanted me to know everything to make the best decision.
And in the meantime, she wanted me to tune into one other bunny, in particular, named De Ja Vu. But to feel out all of the bunnies, in general.
So I was introduced to De Ja Vu who was just to the right a bit of Zephyr. De Ja Vu has been at SaveABunny the longest (since 2015 – so 2 years) , other than Pee Wee whose been there since 2014.
No one has wanted to adopt her because she acts assertive right away and people, in general, unless they are feeling into things a bit more, look for the cute, snuggly, beautiful breeds, and not everyone is willing to put in the extra time and effort for “special needs”.
Although De Ja Vu does not have physical challenges, she is still a special needs bunny.
Anyway, she will grunt and charge at first, but you need to look beyond this and understand what’s going on, which isn’t all just her challenges, but what she’s reflecting, as she is sensitive to every energetic nuance. Not in a “I’m going to take this personally way” but as in noticing the shifts in frequencies immediately from your state of being, feeling, and mind, or the environment.
So I pet her a bit and then sat down, as Marcy gave her to me to hold, showing me how she likes to be held.
And I sat with her for quite a while, as she relaxed and we connected…and she started to vibrate and hum, which is like their version of purring. Marcy said this is like the best compliment from a bunny.
And I felt into her and her heart beyond the “stuff”.
Marcy shared with me about her, but left me to be with her and to connect. She and I both do Reiki and intuitively feel things and communicate with the bunnies, so she didn’t want to get in the way of that, but did share her feelings.
And so my process began and the challenges continued to appear for me to rise to.
The rest of my time was spent in contemplation, feeling into things, had conversations for mirroring reflection with those dear to me, and continuing to touch in with the bunnies.
Several times I had to remove myself from the space and go outside, as I needed to make sure what I was feeling was my own and that I wasn’t absorbing all the energies around.
My biggest contemplation faced was in having made a commitment to Zephyr and not wanting to break that unless he wanted me to, as I was ready to take him in any condition he was in if he wanted that, even if that only meant his being with me for a short while.
But it had to be because that was for his highest good and not simply to satisfy something within me or even just to keep my word, because unconditional and universal love is doing what is in his best interests and releasing any attachment and personal stuff.
So this was very emotional for me, as I loved him so much and really had to know what HE wanted and that he wouldn’t be hurt if I didn’t take him.
I loved all the bunnies in there for different reasons and could have taken any of them, but I also needed to have with me the one that was in their best interest, mine, and the path together for the highest good we’d be sharing through our work together and the journey ahead and its potential collective reach. As I am embarking on a lot of new and big things and the bunny with me would be an important co-creator in that.
This was no light decision.
And after tuning in, I did feel like Zephyr/Big Sur and De Ja Vu were the two bunnies I connected with most. Amandine, the other very conscious bunny next to Zephyr would have been one too, but Marcy might be keeping her (so she’s not available for adoption) and currently she’s Zephyr’s anchor. So, I don’t entertain things that aren’t possibilities currently.
I did hold another bunny named Mystique who was a sweetie too, but she didn’t feel to be aligned with the path I’m on and the further work I need to evolve through and do right now, although I felt so much love for her as well.
And “coincidentally” there just happened to be a rabbit that looked just like Nestor that was directly across from Big Sur/Zephyr and a couple of bunnies that looked similar to Joy. My little ones were all around me supporting the process.
So, I weighed and weighed and would go back in to connect with both of them – Zephyr/Big Sur and De Ja Vu.
And I asked Zephyr to show me signs and let me know.
What I was getting was that even just taking him on the long trip home would be stressful for him and then I had to think of his condition and being around cats at home and how that would stress him out and/or affect his sensitive health right now.
It did not feel good.
And when I saw him inside next to Amandine, although they were not in the same pen and not right up against each other by the gate partition, they were in fact communicating A LOT. There was tons going on between them energetically and it felt to be stabilizing, balancing, and helpful in his process – what ever that was to be.
How could I remove him from that and make unsettled what was settled?
It was not about me.
And in fact, De Ja Vu is an incredibly higher conscious bunny who no one could understand, but Marcy. She was in a similar situation of potentially never being adopted, like him (since he is a white rabbit with red eyes – people don’t like that much – and physically not perfect in visual and health). She has things to work through in an unseen way and someone would need to “see” that and realize what she has to offer too.
My intuition was telling me it was her, but I had a lot to process to get my emotions on board and balanced, as all of this was emotionally challenging for me. I began my grieving, as the knowing part of me just knew.
And this was reflected in my conversations with others, as I love hearing myself out loud for mirroring.
Eventually, I had the strength to make the call and decision out loud and told Marcy.
She was elated.
I then shared with her that I felt Big Sur/Zephyr was where he needed to be right now and that Amandine was helping and to take him away from that would disturb the balance and contentment he is starting to have. I shared that he and I would still continue being connected and work together but from afar. She was so happy to hear what I shared because it confirmed for her what she felt too about the two of them and moving him with her.
We both looked over at them and could feel the energy that was palpable. Marcy said she got chills and at the same exact time, so did I, and they continued for a while extending through our entire bodies.
Everything was in divine order.
And as Marcy began the paperwork for me to adopt De Ja Vu, I looked back over at Zephyr and his cute behind started vibrating and his tail wiggled. I’d never seen this. It made me smile. And I knew in our hearts he was still my bunny, but I would be entrusting his care to Amandine to nurture in his best interests.
Meanwhile, I will be sponsoring him to help care for his needs and continue in my commitment to him.
In this way I actually have two bunnies – one by distance and one who will be with me.
Throughout the day and during adoption, I learned more about De Ja Vu including likely having been bred as a meat and fur rabbit and having been in and out of three shelters/rescues already since very young, one of which being known to be a horrible place for the animals kept there – Solono County Animal Care & Services, later to be taken in by Marin Humane Society, and then coming to be at SaveABunny.
She’s still young herself, likely no more than 3 years old (it’s always hard to tell), according to estimates on her paperwork of her age upon arrival to the other places. And in fact, would only be turning 3 come this September. Zephyr is more like 8 or 9 years old.
Physically, she’s a gorgeous bunny, which I had no idea I’d be taking home (although they’re all gorgeous to me in their own way). I never go by visual alone, but see the spirit.
And another surprise was that she has dark fur, whereas I felt a white bunny coming to me – well he did and still is with me as my angel!
Her fur is actually all these shades of almost black, charcoal, silver, and even honey golden with patterns that will continue to shift as she molts. Her fur is actually reminiscent of obsidian – especially the gold and silver obsidian valued and honored by the Mayans and also reminds me of the Cosmos.
She’s a larger bunny, very robust, sturdy, strong, and physically in great health.
However, it is her internal world that requires special needs, which is actually more challenging since you don’t know exactly what you’re dealing with and can’t see it tangibly.
She has a fight mode and this runs deep along with other emotional things. Some is a test and teaching for anyone in contact with her because of her mirroring, but also is connected to getting to the heart of her and to see if you can break through to her core – be worthy of that, plus what she’s seen and been through that she feels to be holding grief over – eventually I hope for her to come to find peace and healing here with me.
She requires a lot of patience, presence, and tuning in to really understand and work through things with her.
But SHE will also be facilitating that work and working YOU, as not only is it her stuff, but also her mirroring yours. If you shift energy just one second, she immediately reacts. Definitely keeps you on your toes and you can’t approach her with any less than yourself.
She asks you to rise to your highest and to maintain that. Otherwise, you can’t meet with that part of her. She’ll grunt and charge with her front paws, or completely with her body if she feels something off, threatened, or simply wanting to test you to see if you’ll easily back off or not get the clue, or if you’ll stand in your strength like she does…then she respects you.
Marcy feels that she’s been waiting for that right person to see her and that she could work with, all of this time she’s been there and not getting adopted. It was emotional to watch the two of them say goodbye, as Marcy told her, “You did it” and also to hear the excitement from one of the regular volunteers when Marcy shared the news.
She asked her to guess who got adopted and when she said “De Ja Vu?” and Marcy confirmed, the woman literally squealed with delight and major joy, telling me how lucky we both were and that I will just adore her.
Well, I already do and I already appreciate and am grateful for the challenge she is providing me, as she feels like the perfect rabbit for me to help me to expand further and challenge and push all of me to go beyond. And I know she’s a super conscious healing bunny who has tons of magick to reveal and will be getting her Reiki training when she’s ready.
She’s also the first female rabbit I’ve had with straight ears, as my others were lops with floppy ears. Only Cosmo and her have had the straight ears. And also Zephyr.
She also REALLY epitomizes my blog I shared about rabbits being tiny ponies, as she sure is! She’s definitely a great therapy rabbit and masterful guide in terms of her mirroring abilities. Just like horses so beautifully and transparently reflect our true vibration, which aids us in taking responsibility for ourselves, this is the M.O. of De Ja Vu. She very attentively listens to the audible and inaudible and understands everything.
And she’s a little fire cracker too! Quite the bad a– bunny with both heart and power. I’d been concerned with her sensitivities that the cats could be too much, but Marcy said “Oh, she’ll beat the sh– out of them”. And she’s been right, as she showed them who’s boss the second she’s been home and they don’t mess much with her.
She’s already created her Queen’s realm. 😉
I feel her arrival with my cleanse/fast, which began fully the day after I brought her home on 6/21 (today is day 3 of 10) is perfect too and will reset the energy for everything together, as she goes through the integration process of being here with me and us.
And perfect timing of her arrival on Summer Solstice’s portal and in the wake of the New Moon tonight. New beginnings all around!
While I am still grieving not physically having Zephyr with us and allowing the emotions to do their thing, it is such a gift that couldn’t have worked out more perfectly in that I still feel he is mine and with me and like I have two rabbits instead of one.
As mentioned, I will sponsor him and intend to go back to visit for longer, as Marcy offered me coming for a weekend, and he and I will continue to stay in connection and he’ll still help with my writing as he has.
Plus! Having the two of them in my life feels so balancing with my sacred male and female energy in that he’s male and white and she’s female and dark/nearly black. So they’re like my Yin and Yang. It doesn’t get any better. 🙂
But of course De Ja Vu will not remain her name, but in fact there is meaning to that name for me personally, as she reminds me of Nestor a lot. She has a very similar essence to her and that regal and strong power. So she’s like a “de ja vu” to Nestor when I look at her and feel her.
Even her behaviors are similar with her racing around and jumping in the air in delight (doing her binkies), which makes me happy to see and know De Ja Vu is content here and feeling the joy of her freedom.
She’s been wonderful so far and immediately went right to her litter box, has been eating, and already challenging us to rise to the occasion.
And ended up being the perfect one to bring home, since I was only bringing one home at this time because we don’t have room for more and that is what felt right for me right now too. She is a one-person bunny and really doesn’t want or need other bunnies because she’s independent and territorial, so she is definitely a perfect familiar for me.
But she is the only one who has been a challenge to get the right name for, so I’ve taken my time to tune in. All my other loves I’d received the name on before they came home, including Big Sur’s as Zephyr.
Yet, she was going to take her time and like with everything about her, I’d have to work at it and be patient. But in the end, I discovered she was aligning her naming with the New Moon today.
Like other magickal things showing up between her and I, her name would be no different. I’d been tuning in the last two and a half days, but nothing was feeling right. Then suddenly this morning (interesting because I felt today I’d know), her name came.
And here’s the even more magickal part of it. I told Dave the name and he got this funny look on his face. He asked, “Did you tell me that yesterday?” I said, “No.” He then said, “Did I tell you that?” And I said, “No,” again.
I said, “Why?”
He said, “Well it’s really weird because last night while laying in bed suddenly that name came into my mind and I was thinking it would be good for her and was trying to think of where I knew it from.”
I smiled. I said, “I guess you did tell me then, but telepathically. We’re so connected! Aw, we named her together and got the same one. It is meant to be. She has spoken.”
And then I find out that it all happened on today’s New Moon SuperMoon in Cancer (which will be at its height tonight, here around 7:30 pm.)
Just like her name, she is so Cosmically and Divinely aligned, as not only did she come to me as a surprise on Summer Solstice, but now gave us her name on the New Moon. Lots more magick in store from her I’m sure!
After the name came I looked into its meaning and origin, finding it is Norse (also very connected for me) and means “divine strength,” “divine beauty,” and “beautiful goddess”. She embodies all of that for sure and reflects as a mirror to see within you too.
She already has nicknames of “Astro Girl,” “Star,” and “Astie,” – the last mirroring Nestor’s nickname of “Nestie.” And the numerology is connected to my birthday of the 26th, as her name breaks down to a 26/8, so we share that as well and continues to mirror the strength she embodies and is about balance and power and is very connected to Capricorn energy, which mom has lots of and is growing into.
Couldn’t be more perfect!
Astrid has been a surprise – a much welcome one – but not anticipated and so I’m flowing with that wonderful change.
But what a journey! And so much growth and expansion already. To think it’s only just begun.
I can’t even begin to express how rich this journey has been over the last 2 and a half months and that it just keeps getting even richer. There are so many layers to all of this, but it’s been amazing and incredulous, more than people would believe or imagine.
And now my sweet girl is with me and is the perfect familiar for this Faery.
She has an otherworldly and Cosmic essence that also blends with my own, but is very solid and balances Earthy energy too. I can feel how much we’re going to be doing together and she’s so amazingly strong and powerful already, I can’t wait to see what she brings forth as the days go on.
And, we’re like two little witchies with our matching hair colors too, which I hadn’t noted until both Marcy and Sharon pointed out, separately, and then I was like, wow….it was written in the stars once again.
I’m still waiting on some more of her fun bunny things mom ordered, to arrive and finalizing set up of her realm, but she’s been enjoying what’s here so far.
I look forward to sharing more updates about Astrid with you and how things progress.
Thank you all for the shared excitement and love.