I’m sharing this blog before the upcoming holiday, as we have my mother-in-law visiting this week and I won’t be back online for a while. For those of you in the U.S. who celebrate Thanksgiving, I am extending warm wishes to all of you and huge gratitude for being here at this time on Earth and for the connection we share that adds so much richness to my life. Expressing and recognizing gratitude is a huge game-changer for manifesting a more fulfilling life, so it can be beneficial to remember this beyond just Gratitude Day.

I celebrate and feel gratitude that I have a heart that is capable of limitless expansion and depth. I’m grateful for every day that it challenges me to be ever-more courageous. And when I engage it in vulnerable embrace and committed, responsible partnership, it provides me its breadth of invaluable gifts. There’s nothing more important to me than to be in that source center.

Things here continue to feel ultra expansive and energized with a fresh invigoration. As I’ve shared, my days are so different without Astrid physically by my side and yet also extremely expanded with her on the other side and still daily in my experience. My life is more rich because of her. Grieving is a human process and is very natural. I know my heart still grieves, but that grief is also the alchemy of love…and through the heart all things are made possible. It allows us to deepen into gratitude and to stretch our capacity for compassion and unconditional kindness.

I’m now experiencing life in a new way and what might have taken more time is now here to walk in. I will be brave like Astrid always was and say “yes” without need of having the details. I just know, and that is good enough for me.

I think that some of you are probably feeling similarly – entering perhaps a new field of experience and feeling more courageous than you have in the past.

These days we are beckoned forth in greater embodiment and embrace of our personal frequency. I find that the more each of us steps into that, the more we fuel other potentials besides the ones duality offers.

And the more we have compassion for others not able to feel that kind of courage yet or even the inspiration for it, and extend hands or at least keep our heart bridges open to them, we create a possibility – a door – a pathway, to seed the journey when they are ready.

Astrid has been such a bridge for me on many fronts and one of them has included a new role for me with the rabbit collective that I hold so dear to my heart.

I mentioned before how I got connected with Reno Rabbit Rescue after Astrid transitioned. I contacted the non-profit organization to see if they could use the supplies I had from her, which was a lot, and they said yes. This led me to meeting with the founder and a relationship has slowly evolved from there. I shared about the sweet Bunny Yoga event I went to recently, and was pondering where things would lead.

Because Reno is an hour away, it seemed I likely wouldn’t be able to have a huge in-person presence – especially in the Winter. And then the perfect role was presented that really lit my heart. I was asked if I’d be interested in taking on the position of Adoption Counselor since this could be done from home, online, and would be a way to utilize my skills and my passion. I was in process of answering, when an email came through inviting me to one of these sessions with the founder the very next day, so I could see what it was like and what it involved.

I ended up co-supporting the session with prospective new adoptive parents, and at the end I knew this was the thing for me.

And so, I now am Reno Rabbit Rescue’s new Adoption Counselor and I couldn’t be more honored, humbled, and grateful to be offered this important role. I will be doing online trainings with potential new parents who are looking to adopt rabbits through this organization. This includes training on rabbit care, health, behaviors, and overviews of all things rabbit, plus assisting in determining good homes for the rabbits in need.

I don’t take this lightly, as it is a heart-full responsibility. The organization is small and there aren’t huge influxes of rabbits, so it’s the perfect way for me to stay active with the beings I love so much while feeling I am making a difference by utilizing my skills and gifts.

Once again, I have Astrid to thank for knowing what would be in the highest good for all.

So that’s really special news on my end to share and one of the many things I am feeling extra grateful for that is adding to the expansion.

Alongside that, a lot of other new developments have been growing and helping me to grow.

I already shared about how Astrid also connected me with Mody Ra, in my last post featuring our interview together and through our reconnection in this life, we see that our paths are intersecting at this time for another role of support with shifts on Earth. We share in healing work we collectively do and I am also honored to be able to share his works now as a representative for my dear friend to help spread the work of his hands and the energy of these ancient stones to the people they are meant to be with in their roles for the collective. It is important to me to help others have access to as many channels that can help them on their path and to assist the collective’s evolution. I especially love to bring lesser known works to the forefront, as well as artists, because it helps to spread the love and allow everyone to shine. So this is another heart-driven new piece of my life I am grateful to be a part of and to be trusted with, as the energy of these stones is very ancient and sacred. It feels to be a continuation of lifetimes-ago work.

I haven’t had the time yet to update the new designated page I’ve created on this site for Mody’s work with other pieces, but have updated what remains of the first group of 11 skulls. There are now just 3 still looking for their cocreators and I also posted the addition of 3 of his largest pieces to date – the largest skull and dragon in the world are included – that are also awaiting their heart homes.

If you check back at the link below, in the coming days or week, there will be smaller carvings added to the page. These include some dolphin, goddess, Horus, Bastet, Sekhmet, and Isis carvings, as well as some Flower of Life charging plates. Right now I only had time to share them in my Instagram stories, so if you’re on there you can see those or go to my highlights to find them right now. As mentioned, with Dave’s mom here this week, I will not have much if any time to get more done.

Egyptian Skulls & Dragons by Mody Ra

But stay tuned for a few more episodes featuring Mody, as he’s headed back to Egypt and we have more in store.

And in other news, Dave and I just started a new Qigong and Tai Chi class at our community center a couple of weeks ago. It’s a ten session course and we’re enjoying it. It’s a combination of Tai Chi and Qigong, meditation, gentle rocking and stretching movements with breathing exercises that support balance, coordination, flow, and transition. This feels like a great addition to the changes we are implementing and part of our new routines with the home sanctuary and wellness room we just finished creating downstairs just in time for Winter. This space was always in an in between place and was more for Astrid as an extension to her fun play area. So, again she seems to have a hand in all things growth-oriented and for implementing new doorways.

And Winter is indeed around the corner, as we’ve been seeing snow dustings regularly here at our 6600 elevation, with a lot more hitting the mountain tops just above us.

Our last snow was between the night of the 18th to the morning of the 19th and the snow is sticking around at the top, creating ice-sculptured creeks with the frosty nights and cold days we’ve been having.

In between, we are enjoying those gorgeous Autumn days too, though, as you can see.

Winter hunkering down is feeling so exciting this year, for many reasons, which includes that invigorated energy I feel and all the heart-driven inspirations and projects.

I know not everyone looks forward to Winter, but if you are, what things are feeling extra exciting about it for you?

And if not, are there ways to light a little spark so that the darker days don’t feel so dim?

For some, holiday decorating and rituals and traditions can add some added warmth and bring out the inner child a bit more. For others, maybe it’s gatherings of friends or family, or extra time snuggling up with a good book or a furry friend. Are there new things you’d like to read, journaling you’ve put off, a fun project, baking or cooking to explore, or maybe a new restaurant or event in the area to stop in on and feel the spirit of connection at?

I cherish my quiet time and am looking forward to feeling into the extra stillness of the white landscapes that will soon surround us here and the expanse of the darker hours that beckon one into the Great Mystery just a little bit more.

And that leads me to dream journeys I’ve been experiencing recently and the return of the golden bear.

Dream time has been rich and a few of the dreams felt particularly potent to share, as they may speak to layers of your own changes or similar themes showing up.

A week or two ago I had this incredible dream where feathers were growing out of my crown. I won’t go into all of it except for the part where I discovered this. I noticed something at the top of my head peeking through and started to split my hair and then pulled at the tip of what seemed like a feather and ended up removing a full feather. I then saw that there were many more deeply rooted into my crown and kept pulling them out one-by-one. Small to large, feathers kept appearing and they were all different varieties and colors, starting out in more earthy colors and pheasant-like to then becoming more colorful and exotic. This felt like a huge spiritual transformation at hand and new experiences birthing with great expansive reach. I also felt an opening or channel telepathically opening that bridges Earth and Cosmos or flesh and spirit, so something evolving in this realm.

The next dream not long after that one, kind of takes off on that last part and again includes Astrid’s reach. I’m only sharing snippets, but the parts that were most interesting. In this dream I was sitting down with a journal and suddenly got the message from Astrid to just start writing questions down that I wanted answers to in the journal. So I did, and immediately following my hand continued to then start writing the answers. This was a form of channeling or auto-writing taking place, where I wasn’t doing the thinking or writing, but was simply embracing and allowing what wanted through and the messages were just streaming in quickly. Astrid was talking through me. Dave came over in the dream and I told him to watch, which he did and was surprised.

Then I slept with a new crystal called a Snow Rose from my friend Lisa of The Lemurian Rose and I shared this with her about the dream that night: “So far what I noticed is it seems to be going back and revisiting to rewrite things from early on in life. I have this feeling it may be course-correcting stuff if that makes sense.. bringing up and through things that may have had emotional impact that are most meaningful to now.. and maybe will continue with the next and next until current. I guess we’ll see.”

A couple of days later I was in a recurring dream/early life experience where I was having one of my waking dream journeys at night of visitations and trying to call out for my mom, but finding it difficult until I broke through the fear – this felt to be not only moving through old layers, but revisiting areas of my life that had those impacts I mentioned in the previous dream sequence to both rewrite and reopen what I once might have shut. All of these dreams are very much connected so far in what is being rebirthed.

This led to a very potent dream involving deep ocean and whales. In this one I found myself as me, but another aspect of me in the middle of the night out in the deep, dark ocean. I wasn’t covered in anything that would keep me warm and yet I was fine – I was in fact in more like a competitive or advanced swimmer kind of bathing suit with goggles and cap. There was a woman with me that I was not familiar with. For some reason we needed to get through miles of ocean to a big boat that was waiting. It was pitch black and we’d be going through the ocean abyss through the night. The woman was not able to do it, but I wouldn’t leave her behind. I tied a rope around me and her and I swam forward, pulling her along. I didn’t have breathing apparatus, but swam the whole way under the water, quite deep, and really couldn’t see anything as it was just darkness. Now and then an occasional shadow would appear as a huge mass in front of me and I could tell it was a huge whale. They were all around, but not in visible, clear sight. In fact many things were, as I could feel them, but not see them. The whales seemed to be keeping watch and guardianship as I kept moving forward guided by some intuitive inner navigation by sense and frequency vibration. Eventually I made it to the boat and the woman was so grateful. But when I got to the boat I was no longer just the human me. I was now whale, but in human body. I expressed my excitement and joy of having made it and going through some kind of transmutation, that I began hurling myself out of the water like a whale breaches. My body was in the same positioning as a whale with arms and legs held just like flippers and tail, yet I could thrust myself out of the water in and out just like they did with that power, and move in the water like them – all still as a human body without restriction and now becoming whale. There’s a lot to this, although I’m not interpreting all of these dreams here, but I found this interesting being in Scorpio season, emerged in that “deep alchemically transformative water that supports potential mastery of these shadowy depths” for us.

It was then no surprise that on the night of 11/16, as we were driving home, we encountered two large coyotes within about eight minutes of each other. The first one ran across the highway in front of us from the left. The second one ran across the highway in front of us from the right.

And on the very next day, 11/17, I encountered the return of the golden bear. You may recall the potent dream I shared with the golden bears at the end of December of last year. In that dream, one of the two joyous and exuberant golden bears ran toward me and we jumped in synchronized unison, landing at the same time and experiencing a space of incredible potency between us. Well, this last experience I want to end with was not another dream, but in fact a reality that manifested.

On that day I was sitting at my desk in my office on the garden and heard a honk on the street. I thought nothing of it and continued working until suddenly what sounded and felt like an earthquake, came banging and shaking the gate of the fence that sits just feet away through the sliding glass door. I turned and my heart started racing at what my eyes saw.

There before me was a big golden bear in the flesh. He or she had jumped and climbed over the fence and then jumped down landing right there on the other side of the sliding glass door looking at me. My heart wasn’t racing out of fear, but instead at this incredulous sight and surreal experience of an actual golden bear having jumped the fence and to be just feet away from me with only glass between us.

I say golden bear because even though this was in fact a black bear, his or her fur was gold and not black, as you can see. Dave was exercising in the room next to me, wearing ear plugs to listen to music, so I yelled out for him to look. He didn’t respond so I ran in the room and told him to turn around fast. The bear was now in front of the sliding glass door to that room and we both stood there looking at the bear, as the bear looked at us – again with only glass between the five feet separating us.

The bear was not in any aggravated state or uncomfortable. Just kind of ambling through. I think that the bear had been crossing the street and the car honked to get the bear to move a little faster. Then the bear decided to pay me a visit.

Anyway, Dave and I both watched with great interest to see where the bear would go and instead of hopping the other side of the fence to our yard to go directly into the forest, the bear decided to walk up our outdoor steps (at least 15 of them). But we had a gate at the top of the steps too. This didn’t deter the bear as he or she climbed up over them from the steps and plopped down onto our top deck.

Then proceeded ambling along watching me through the windows all across the back deck until finally went down the other side of the house (making now a complete perimeter of the house) and returned back to the street, likely to get back to the forest on the other side.

I was so caught up in the surreal moment that it wasn’t until the bear was at the top deck that I took the only photos you see in this post. I wish I had captured the bear climbing each gate and stairs, as it was quite the site.

I just so happened to have three golden bears right beside me while I was working at my desk when the golden bear jumped the fence – one full golden healer papa bear (who happens to have a rainbow nose, but it doesn’t show up in the photo), a golden citrine mama bear, and a baby quartz bear with golden healer inside her belly. Hehe! Golden bears galore!

It was a while until my heart stopped feeling exhilarated by this experience and it reminded me so much of my golden bear dream with that energy and the bear that jumps.

What ever it all means, there’s a continued feeling that things are in motion of big change despite what anything appears like, there’s a definite rewiring and renewal taking place even if just percolating or deep under the ground still, and dreams DO come true – another of those messages the very wise Astrid told me about the blurring of realities into One.

Warm wishes to all and lots of love!

UPDATE REMINDERS FROM A PREVIOUS POST:

Again, I haven’t had time for any major updating on my site, but will have some of my own special, crystal skull offerings upcoming – so keep a look out at this link in case I forget to announce them: Crystals & Crystal Skulls

And don’t forget that the online Reiki Certification Training modules are back for a limited time to support those of you wanting to take things to the next level with up-ticking your frequency and your ability to support self and others.

You can find those here: Reiki Certification Training

11/11 brought back a surprise and discount on the return of Sacred Tattoo Designs with 5 spots for these – I have 1 remaining: Custom Sacred Tattoo Designs

And last, an 11/11 special on Life Transition Support Sessions also went into effect since I’ll be finishing up with the last beautiful group of souls I’ve been working with near mid December, and so I was able to open 5 spots for either anyone who feels to continue or anyone who wants to begin, as this still feels aligned for me to be able to support and have time for – there are 2 remaining.

These are already offered at discount, but for anyone who feels called to continue working with me on new or existing focuses from the first group, I am going to offer an extra 11% discount on your choice of packages. Please reach out to me if you’d like to take advantage of this, as I won’t have the discounted option on the page below.

For anyone new who feels this Winter to be a time of hunkering down and focusing on things that feel key to the next part of your journey, here is the link to register:

Life Transition Support (to support and optimize any area of life that is in process of change)

Christmas is upon us shortly, and I do still have three ready-to-ship Magick Rabbit Ornaments that somehow haven’t found their homes yet. These could be great for your Yuletide decorations, Christmas gifts/stocking stuffers, and also as year-round adornments to welcome a little magick into your life.