Breakthroughs & Epicness ~ A 50th to Remember!

As I wrote in my December 29th, 2022 post before the new year began and in response to one of the words I received after I did the 2023 mantra word exercise:

“…’breakthrough‘ carried a particular resonance to the overall energy field I sense I’ll be navigating and so for now this word is feeling like my partner.”

That was the word I also received previous to the exercise, feeling that really big breakthroughs were going to be an ongoing part of my personal experience, alongside the collective’s, and especially with my big birthday hitting. This was underscored after several breakthroughs rolled continuously in since around our time in Playa Del Carmen in May of the previous year during the Full Moon Eclipse and especially during our Friday the 13th sacred Temazcal Ceremony – similar to a sweat lodge. Another sacred ceremony activated the next “breakthrough” energies on my birthday, but I’ll get to that shortly.

I also wrote a bit about my Chiron Return that ignited this new paradigm of reinvention through an organic, energetic excavation of sorts that has been reconfiguring my inner wirings. Coupled with stepping more into my Capricorn North Node (or Cappy, as I lovingly call it), it’s all supported a definite new embodiment morphing into shape. Without needing to detail anything further with those, the flow I have been creating has truly been key to the way of experiencing it all.

And, my 50th birthday did indeed herald the next wave of breakthrough shifts and even exploded in epic proportions with widespread reach.

As you might have heard, and from what I’ve been sharing, Lake Tahoe and the Sierra Nevadas have been receiving record-breaking levels of snow. In fact, we’re now making history here with this season being second only to the record held in 1952. I believe we’re only 20 feet or less from taking first place if these snow storms continue. And the snow and moisture ain’t a-stoppin’!

There’s been so much snow that our house nearly looks like an igloo and we had to do some major shoveling work a few days ago – Dave on the roof and me on the perimeter of the house creating a path to clear away snow and ice from touching the doors, windows, and causing ice dams at the top.

Dave has actually been on the roof a few times now, as rooftop challenges presented themselves for the first time ever. But we’ve learned a new system through trial and error with it. This epic snow season has added layers to our evolution and how to handle unexpected things we’ve never had before – which results in resiliency and wisdom for the days ahead – life tapestry lessons through threads that present themselves.

The amount of snow has also, to me, reflected deep shadow energy and highlighted the hidden. How we navigate through the core water/subconscious stuff is a game changer. And these days are bringing all of that to the surface whether we like it or not. Those of you who have done a lot of work and preparation ride through such conditions with greater fluidity – mirroring water’s nature – but you may still then have others processing their own relationship to the hidden that could trigger any remnants within, in order to help you anchor that work. The snow levels symbolize the amount of collective stuff that’s been stuffed and no longer will stay quiet. What will be revealed and blossom forth from the reveal and integration is still stirring in the collective cauldron. It will be interesting to see what emerges come Spring and beyond.

I don’t know how this year’s garden and landscape around us will look when all the snow thaws and melts – it will be a surprise to see who weathered the storms and what new energies want to birth – but I do know that even with any breakage and endings, new life will surely begin again.

As I said to my dear friend, Lisa of Lemurian Rose, “it’s an epic year with new learning curves!” to which she chimed in with whole-hearted agreement and we both had a good laugh about recent unfoldings.

Back to birthday updates, I really didn’t have any expectations around it, and in fact had no plans originally as I don’t like big parties and am happy with ringing in the new more low-key and organic, but when I received unexpected news that a special guest would be coming out for it, we did pencil in some plans. But Uni – my loving word for the Universe – had other ideas, and as usual were more perfect than the mind could detail and strategize out, AND were equally supported, as long as we embraced being in alignment with the ever-shifting energies.

And not only did we come to understand this theme of empowered flow, but it pointed at initiatory experiences that were calling for greater trust, resilient flexibility, and retrieval of personal power from all the work already done. It’s about all of it being here and now already and merely needing to be consciously engaged.

I will highlight some of the experiences over the last week or so, as they may support the shifts you’re embracing too. I would like to also add how hugely moved I was by the outpour of love I received from so many of my friends near and far AND for the major courage and kindness that some key players in my local celebrations embraced and showered me and each other with….it was, again, epic in proportions and I don’t even have the words to express about what they all went through in conjunction with my special day.

Last Thursday the 23rd and the day before my sweet friend’s arrival, Dave and I enjoyed a perfect ski day with sunshine and beautiful powder. Our short drive there gifted us coyote medicine, as another beauty ran across the road and made sure to stop at the end of the crossing street to ours so we could make eye contact.

This beauty felt grounded, bold and primal. You likely recall my sharing about the buoyant shape shifter, strawberry blonde coyote who bounced through our yard with joy and elvish mischief, so coyote energy was definitely being accentuated even though each held a different frequency, and did in fact not stop there.

That perfect day and the visitor seemed to be the calm before the storm and the messenger of resiliency that would be needed to navigate potential, upcoming challenges, twists and turns, or unexpected changes. Adapting to changes definitely was our strong suit for the week and like coyote, we embraced it all with playfulness, fluidity, and a deeper strength that emerged from our cores. It was also this very Thursday night that Desiree started her journey to us, all the way from Vermont – you likely remember her from my 2021 post, A Winter Solstice to Remember.

A red-eye’s long journey went seamless through her multiple connection flights, until she hit her last flight from LAX to Reno on the morning of Friday the 24th.

That’s when the first big storm hit – metaphorically and literally.

What timing for this storm and blizzard conditions that cancelled all flights into Reno. Desiree already had about an 8 hour lay-over to wait for that now-non-existent-flight, but being that this was her very first, ever solo trip in her life, she was at the precipice of the next phase of empowered Hanged Man kind of life shifts (think breaking old patterns, fully letting go, and strengthened metamorphosis), and I was about to celebrate my own huge shift with hitting 50 and what that was bringing into my own life with clarity and conviction, what was to come next would definitely be initiatory.

We were on it right away and while Desiree was in line and trying to get info and possibilities, we brainstormed and then followed through on a miraculous weaving.

It just so happened that friends of ours who lived at the north end of the lake were in the Bay Area because our friend’s mom had just arrived in San Francisco from overseas on Thursday – the same day Desiree began her travels. That trip was kind of a surprise and not long-term planned, but they had driven to the Bay Area Wednesday, staying at their second home there for the night, just to pick her up and planned to drive back to the lake Friday because they wanted to be with me for my birthday.

So, long story short, we made an inquiry to them and this is what unfolded. All flights to Reno were cancelled for the good part of the day and flights to other places like Sacramento and Oakland (the closest options) were either booked or not timely for our needs. EXCEPT for this ONE flight Dave found online that only had 3 seats left. He immediately starting to book it and got delayed with online issues that resulted in 2 seats getting taken and Dave snagging the very last one for Desiree. In the meantime, Desiree ran to a different terminal since it was on a different flight and got to the desk just as we booked it and they printed her ticket with confirmation we gave her – last ticket available. She flew into Oakland and our generous, compassionate friends picked her up and took her to their home where they cooked her a homemade meal and showered her with nurturing and nourishment, despite neither of them knowing each other. The roads into Tahoe were closed due to the conditions and even though they eventually opened in the late afternoon, they decided it best to wait out the night and drive fresh and rested the next morning – Saturday the 25th. So, Desiree stayed overnight with them and they had a beautiful time together with so much healing support all around that ensued. Again, first time any of them were meeting each other, but became close through it all. Desiree was amazing with all of it and maintained clear energy, flow, resiliency, adaptability, and self-care the whole way, which saw her through it without missing a beat. And our friends also demonstrated incredible flexibility, changing all of their plans (they were going to leave earlier to head back to Tahoe) in order to take care of Desiree and not have her stranded.

We learned not too long after new plans were in place, that the incredible woman who was going to be facilitating a special sound healing ceremony for my birthday celebrations, just so happened to also have been in LAX the same time Desiree was – we had no idea she was coming in just for this event. She, too, had her flights cancelled and rather than wait until the next day’s flights, decided to jump in her car to try to make it to Tahoe anyway. Dave had set up this sound healing with her for Saturday the 25th, so motivated by her desire to make that happen, as well as move her own power through the circumstances presenting themselves, she wasn’t giving up. We learned later how huge the journey had been to her own evolution, providing insights and shifts to add to the equation. After 29 hours of travels for her, which included sleeping in her car and getting stopped at closed roads, she DID make it to Tahoe later on Saturday. But because of all of this, the sound healing was switched to Sunday, February 26th, making it fall ON my birthday instead of the day before. Oh UNI!!!

Originally, the day before had been better for the key players in this, but Uni had other plans and wanted it to take place on the actual day of my birthday instead – potent and divine indeed! Luckily, we were all flexible and decided to embrace all of the stuff being thrown at us with trust, empowerment, no resistance, and true surrender to the path of grace. The result being divine alignment, as when we flow with changes and unexpected surprises, rather than try to control and operate on old patterns, then we come to see how truly supported every step of the way is with invaluable gifts revealed as we progress.

Meanwhile, as Desiree had her own epic nearly two day journey to get to us – her initiatory activation of the new – Dave and I made our way to my parent’s house for the first of my sweet birthday celebrations. The reason we had this set up for that day was because that was the only day we were planning to be down in Reno, so it made it easiest to celebrate with my family while there. My parents had prepared a lot of things so we were grateful for the bit of breathing room the weather allowed for us to still get there and be with them.

We, too, had challenging conditions to get through on the roads, but because of our timing shifting with not having to go earlier to the airport to pick Desiree up, we were able to take more time and had a little less weather to deal with. Originally we were going to get her and she was going to join the birthday surprises my parents put together for me, but we all went with the new Uni plan and it worked out beautifully even though the drives to and from were still stressful. That’s why energy work is my best friend and I never leave home without it, nor ever take any situation for granted. I use it for everything and hit all the angles to make sure we got it covered. You can bet the whole week was not only showered with snow, but Reiki and energy work too! Cocreating is one of our superpowers, so don’t forget the tools in your pocket and your part in the way things play out.

And speaking of showering, on the way to this first celebration at my parent’s house we were showered by Nature with quite the show of messengers in pairs that was indeed epic too.

In the open fields of the valley we crossed through, 2 giant red-tailed hawks sat perched in very near trees, the bald eagle couple that resides in this area were sitting together in their tree, 2 herds of wild mustangs were grazing on food foraged in the snow, AND 2 coyotes were running together through the herds of mustangs. Just wow!

The coyotes for some reason gave me a feeling of the Moon Tarot card where a dog and a wolf are depicted. There’s a sense of duality within coyote medicine to me between playfulness and wisdom, conscious and unconscious/hidden elements, trickery/challenge and good fortune/resiliency, etc. Seeing the two separate, different energy ones on the days leading up and now the two together…it just kept getting reiterated in their energy and of course as we approached the Full Moon of March 7th – yesterday.

Although we were all sad Desiree couldn’t join, we felt there was something divine unfolding with these shifts we were embracing and it all would reveal itself as we kept moving forward.

Birthday party time at my parent’s was still wonderly – hehe! – and my family went all out making it perfect for me.

From the gold and teal decorations where we sat to enjoy our delicious meal and cake, to the surprise Alice in Wonderland tea party themed table made just so I could be surrounded in my favorite energy down the rabbit hole, to the incredibly thoughtful and magickal gifts, and just the pure love and joy of it all – I couldn’t have felt more loved and celebrated.

I was so overjoyed, I put on all of the special jewelry pieces my family and Dave gave me together so that I was adorned in the magick and love each held. It was also a lot of fun too and made me giggle!

My mom made my favorites for lunch and my dad made my favorite for cake! Yum-me-oh-my!

Here’s a view of the inside of the four level scrumptious and moist vanilla cake with vanilla buttercream icing and a light lemon pudding filling, alongside just a few of my special gifts that included a Titania – Queen of the Faeries ring (No joke! That’s what it’s called – I didn’t make that up! The faery my name comes from) that my parents found me.

It was very special and memorable in all ways and made the day’s shifts and wild weather and roads, balanced out with whole body and soul nourishment!

The drive home in the dark was a slow one due to the ongoing storm, and we were so glad and grateful to arrive safely back to the house surrounded in protection and warmth, as well as relieved that our friends didn’t try to make it out that night, as the passes they would have come through would have been even worse in the dark.

Good rest for all saw us welcoming a new and calm day, while our friends made it to our house around noon to marvel at all of the last two days’ interwoven experiences. We shared some tea and muffins from the Wonderland display, together, to ground everyone – as of course my parents sent us home with tons of left overs to share.

Then our sweet friends who brought Desiree to us left, and after settling in we decided an immersion by the lake would be a great welcome to Tahoe activation for her, a way to anchor in the energies, and an igniting of what was to come.

It was a beautifully calm day, which made for a wonderful walk through the snowy fields and forest, coming to rest lakeside to take in the crystalline waters of Mother Tahoe.

We followed that up with a grounding meal – all of the delicious leftovers from mom and dad, which hit the spot and helped Desiree to be a part of the energies of that day. I then got to open the beautifully wrapped gifts she’d sent ahead from her and her girls (my honorary Vermont faery nieces), which truly sealed the day with sweetness.

Everyone got some great sleep and because things had been changed up with our original ideas for the weekend, we continued playing things by ear and decided on a relaxing kick off to my new cycle morning. That included a warm and cleansing soak in the jacuzzi, surrounded by the snowy landscape. It was still calm, which was a lovely birthday good morning!

We then made our way to the sound healing ceremony, just before 1pm, ending up synchronously with our friends being right behind us on the road who drove back down from the north end of the lake. Divine timing indeed that demonstrated the tapestry we were all weaving personally and collectively.

The ceremony ended up being two hours and was incredibly perfect for all of us – some of who this was a first experience for. Without going into too much detail about it, it was extremely powerful for everyone in their own ways and for me, it was an experience of literal shift in embodiment being reflected that I had felt, but now absolutely knew.

All I’ll say is that this was the first time I did not experience tears of any kind. I usually am either moved by some kind of healing release or overwhelmingly beautiful immensity that just has to flow through. And now, on my 50th, I was in a transmutational or alchemizing space – a third point or trinity that merges and is all of it and none of it. I had many visions and journeys of which I won’t go into, but with each resounding gong, in between the crystal bowls and other instruments, that penetrated to our depths louder and louder, my aura kept increasing into everything and I vibrated so large that I felt if the gong kept going I would likely no longer have a body to return to. And still, there wasn’t tears…simply accelerated vibration.

After the sound healing, people mentioned how powerful the gong had been and our facilitator said the gong was louder than she’s ever played it…I said with a giggle, “I think that was in part my doing, as I wanted it not to stop and to keep increasing.” I also received that the Cosmic presences who were surrounding this birthday ceremony had channeled through her the necessary vibrational frequency from beyond to assist my transition.

The sound healing ended with a beautiful sacred cacao ceremony made from first generation beans she brought with her on her travels back to Tahoe and that she added cinnamon she blessed the night before to. I had mine as is, only adding cayenne to fire things up, but she had an array of ingredients for others in case they wanted something different.

We ended with a circle blessing and each person got to state their name and a word or phrase that encapsulated what they felt or experienced from the ceremony.

Mine was, “expansive.”

If all I shared so far was it for my birthday, it would have been full closure perfection, but we did end up with more experiences and days of fun, wonder, flow, wild cards, and peaceful potency to come.

While the sound healing had been taking place, the calm day turned into the next snow storm, as if the weather increased with the increasing vibrations of the gongs. So, as we made our way to a delicious and grounding lunch to seal the ceremony in, snow continued to fall…feeling like faeries dancing all around with me on my birthday.

We enjoyed an incredible vegan Mexican fiesta, which had been my choice for a birthday meal and I got surprised with another vegan cake brought all the way from Berkeley. At lunch after birthday singing and candle blowing, our friend’s mom (another powerful facilitator herself) who joined us all the way from Germany asked me what I intended for this new cycle, to which I answered clearly. She added, “Then, it WILL be.”

The snow came down more and we ended up getting home just as it really started to hit hard all over again.

I found it interesting that this birthday begins a number 8 year in numerology for me, and we just so happened to have 8 people (one person was unable to make it due to the storms and changes) at the ceremony including the visionary who led us. I was so grateful Dave put this all together and that he found the sound healer/energy medicine worker, as not only was it the perfect experience I would have wanted for my birthday, but she and I both sensed a connection without having to speak any details. I look forward to the development of that friendship with her that Uni has put in motion already.

The next day, the storm continued, which offered another slower paced morning and time for phone calls. Because of the loss of time at the start of Desiree’s trip, we decided an extension to her stay was in order, as we sensed there was more that needed to take place and layers still wanting to come forth. So, rather than leaving on Tuesday the 28th, she secured a flight to return home on Friday March 3rd. I’ll spare you the details of how that all went down, but let’s just say that this trip was one that would call up her full courage to say, “Yes” and initiate one of the biggest shifts of her and her family’s lives. Equally so, it supported all of us who were connected, to reset our lives in profoundly new ways and not turn back. In some cases, literal doors were permanently closed, and only the open horizon ahead was found on the map of adventures to navigate.

No longer could old patterns and ways run the show. We would move into a new way of alignment where trust and courage of the heart would be the guiding forces.

We decided to immerse in the snow that day and did a big snow shoe at the very top of the mountain, which was invigorating and reflected that soul climb we were engaging. The newest blizzard began and we were covered in snow!

As we headed back to our car the storm increased and held us on the road for an hour, just 3 minutes from home. A truck had gotten stuck and needed to chain up, but we embraced the time, shared snacks, and it felt like it flew by. That evening was filled with crystal activations and Astrid getting in on all of it!

The next day, the storm continued (blizzard conditions were the name of the game since Friday) – yep my birthday storm was trying to match the energy of the big 50! On this day we decided to just jump into the back forest energies and stay home-based.

That didn’t come without faery fun though and fiery-forging-ahead-energies! Blizzarding away, the landscape was saturated with deep powder, so we took turns leading the way and breaking tracks since no one else was embracing the adventure.

Snow angels, giggles, and a lot of sweat later, we returned to find the house continuing to be engulfed in snow.

Just look at the mounds and the giant icicle I took down, as it reminded me energetically of Thor’s Hammer or a giant scepter fashioned by the ice faeries for the wizards of the forest. We would prevail, no matter the amount of challenges and unexpected twists and turns thrown our way!

And we arrived at March 1st, when the storm broke, gracing us with the next 3 days of calm and sunshine peeking its head back through, as is Tahoe’s signature vibration. It was decided that a journey back to my family’s house was in order, as there was important work to be done there. So, with sunshine on our sides and the storm elementals clearing the sky, I drove Desiree and myself slowly down the mountain to receive the next phase (Dave needed to stay homebound due to a procedure the next morning). We even got to see the wild mustangs and three giant red tailed hawks, which foreshadowed an energy connection we’d learn about that day.

I’m glad we did get the chance to go down, as the experiences that took place there were written in soul contracts and the stars that were confirmed in that night’s dreams. It made sense why this gathering had been rearranged, as there wouldn’t have been time previously for what this day had in store. This included a three hour Astrology, Tarot and energy reading from my brother for Desiree, which I supported and some powerful exchanges between her and my mom (especially) and dad. My parents also supplied us more yummies with another vegan lunch and homemade dessert.

The work Desiree is doing is an example of the power each individual has to affect the paradigm shifts collectively, as one moves through the core energy dynamics we’re in process of shifting – first mending duality and then creating the new and beyond together. Therefore, supporting one another is invaluable, as it has far-reaching effects. And the shifts each person makes, supports the shifts possible for others, relative to their journey.

With each liberated movement, a new possibility is created for others to step into and so on and so forth. I, personally, feel the release take place every time I learn of and observe others moving the energy in some way. Therefore, I celebrate each achievement and deepen my gratitude for the bravery others demonstrate because it helps me to also gain greater clarity and access on how to create what’s never been created before.

It also reiterates to me the value and power of keeping to the path I feel guided to, regardless of what’s going on around me or how out of place it may look or seem to others – also despite any curve balls thrown. I love and honor when others step into their power and next cycle – relative to their path – as it frees me and others to no longer hold that space – it’s a domino effect in all directions. Beautiful and powerful stuff!

The amount of small and big signs and confirmations along the way of our week together was beyond belief and way too much to detail here. Some of it too personal to share, but even without doing, everyone’s experiences, processes, and breakthroughs are shared collectively.

Thursday, the 2nd was our last full day together and after picking up Dave from his appointment, we met up with our good friend and wedding officiate for a vegan pizza extravaganza (shared 3 pizzas in fact!), followed by a gorgeous, long snow shoe by the lake, and ending with braving his unplowed neighborhood to share time and love with his sweet, elderly dog.

There were so many memorable and belly-laugh moments to that day, which included a literal Mr. Toad’s Wild Ride to get up Reid’s street. I’m not kidding. Cocooned by nearly 15 foot high snow walls, our car “Ruby” with Dave at the helm careened through the thick snow beneath her as we all held on with exhilaration.

It was a perfect reflection of and insight to current roads we’re all traveling and navigating.

On our way back home Dave got the idea to top the week off with something different and so we headed to one of the local casinos near our home to sample the specialty vegan menu at Hell’s Kitchen. We had no reservations on this full night, but divine timing snagged us three seats at the perimeter bar looking in on the restaurant, which ended up better than being inside for talking and feeling more spacious.

And what a send-off that meal was, as we sampled several dishes and enjoyed the most incredible non-alcoholic beverage ever.

Casinos are so wildly different and outside of our norm, which made this even more of a fun dip-in and way to work the under and hidden energies. Dave surprised us with giving us each a little play money ($10 each) for the slot machines, just for kicks and giggles. So, we went about finding the perfect machines, which wasn’t hard, as we were led to three that held the perfect energy that mirrored us individually and together.

I settled on the Mayan temple energy for my round and what a round it was! We were cheering, laughing, dancing, and roaring out loud as we watched the wheels turn and light up, with win after win! I and we had no idea how to play these, nor understood what the heck was happening, but literally within 30 seconds of playing, it all catapulted into my turning $10 into just cents from $60 by the end of a few minutes – that’s $50 of winning for my big 50th birthday. Not any huge win by far, but being just a coin machine, my first try, and just minutes of playing, it all felt too perfectly aligned and wildly exciting! It made sense it would happen here with my Mayan connection. As soon as I won what seemed the perfect amount, I cashed it out immediately and to top it off, as I printed the receipt I received a papercut. We all laughed more saying it was my “blood sacrifice” for it all. LOL!

This was Desiree’s first time ever to be in a casino, alongside her first time ever solo trip, so she got a huge kick out of it all, playing a bit too, and sending fun photos to her husband to share the experience.

She won a little too and Dave told us he wanted us to split the winnings and keep it – his intention all along. He wanted Desiree to have some extra money for a good breakfast the next day on her travels home and me to have some wallet cash. Very thoughtful and sweet on his part and his intention was honored – oh Uni! Dave’s always working his magick too.

The next morning we woke way before sunrise, leaving the house at 3:40 am to get Desiree to her flight. This was the last storm-free day, so it made the journey safe and easy as we wound our way through the mountain and valley. And off she went, beginning what would be another epic day of travels with even more twists and turns at the back-end. Without detailing it, let’s just say her two-day journey ended with a powerful and beautiful bang even with the yet-again-crazy curve balls, because it was all divinely laid out for her to just go with the flow, trust, and invoke her empowerment through.

And on my way home through the still-darkness of our street, ONCE AGAIN, there were 2 coyotes that crossed in front of me and then jumped off into the forest – incredible and full circle. I slipped myself back into bed at just after 6 am and dreamed away until waking to another snow storm and blizzard coming through. Oh the timing of it all!

There were a lot of firsts over the course of my birthday week for everyone and more than I’m sharing here that took place and got activated. It was a beautiful start to my new cycle and although everything ended up being a day-to-day unfolding of our going with the flow of the energy each moment, it was perfect.

I can’t thank everyone enough, both near and far, who was a part of the beautiful and supportive energy of this special celebration with me. I love you beyond measure! An extra load of gratitude to Desiree for coming all the way she did just for me and for going all the way with her own courageous embrace of her path for herself, her family, and for us all!

I was going to post this on the day of the Full Moon – yesterday – but I’m glad I waited because an impromptu ski morning took things to the next level that day that I wanted to celebrate with you. And I’ll save this for another time maybe, but I actually now have a full helmet of magickal stickers that I completed right after my birthday – perhaps their energy has lent to the following unfolding.

As you already know from my shares, this year we’ve had an epic Winter, the snow has been epic – the best I’ve ever skied, I had an epic breakthrough right before my birthday with skiing my truly first black diamond run on my own, and then on the Full Moon following my birthday week, things continued explosive for my skiing indeed (thanks Laura for that word – you’ll understand what I mean by that at the end of this post). 

Yesterday – my 41st ski day of this season – was the first day I actually felt like a real skier, although this season has been my biggest growth as far as skiing goes, taking me leaps and bounds past where I’ve been previously. With snow conditions on all time high and me feeling great, I went next-level expansive – for me. My skiing was the best I’ve experienced – strong, confident, flowing, and then I decided to do an advanced blue run that wasn’t groomed, although I didn’t understand just how not groomed it was until I was on it. It had thick powder and the biggest moguls I’ve been down for the whole first half to two-thirds of the way, which turned it into feeling like a black diamond. In the past I would never have even considered it and the few times I accidentally found myself on runs where smaller versions of this were, I was frozen with fear and struggled severely to get down.

The difference on March 7th’s Full Moon was that I had no fear, not even a racing heart like I did on the black diamond run, I knew somehow I could manage it, and I trusted. I just kept moving forward, stayed focused, and navigated the most aligned path, even though everyone before me, around me, and behind me was falling down due to catching their skis.

Those two things were the big breakthrough realizations for me – 1. That I chose this path on my own without fear and 2. That I got down it without incident, when other seasoned skiers kept falling – what?!

Actually, two men were talking about the run as I got to the top and was eyeing it. I heard them talk about how it hadn’t been groomed and looked pretty messy with a lot of moguls. They hesitated, but then went. I followed shortly after, but one of the men fell nearly immediately. I felt bad for him, as I went by and made sure he was alright. He got up as I continued and I heard him fall again with discouragement. A few others were down, too, not far from him. I didn’t know how I was doing it, but I was continuing to flow down, feeling strong, anchored, and one with the snow and mountain even though it was steep, deep, and bumpy (that’s what moguls are). I turned around a couple of times as I continued down and the others were still struggling, which made me feel for them, as I know how I’ve felt in the past.

I couldn’t believe it and yet I could. My Cappy was truly activated and I felt strong and resilient and celebrated hugely inside for the growth that had manifested. I kept saying out loud how grateful I was and how proud I was of myself. I never thought I’d be at this point and yet here I was. No expectations. Just embracing my own pace, perseverance, and repatterning, step-by-step. It was truly incredible for me to experience and means more to me since I know my journey with this.

For me, my North Node energy has come first through my physical accomplishments, as that’s where it resides in terms of my astrological birth chart. And from here, the rest of its reach will continue to trickle out with each step I take in those other directions too.

And so the tone of this new cycle anchors, showing me once again what is possible even when you have no idea how. This biggie birthday was truly just that and more! Many of the ways are not something I can explain or feel driven to even if I could. 

I wanted to add a note here about an unusual sighting of a mouse that took place on the mountain, as it spoke to more powerful messaging I feel can be a take-away. As we were on a ski lift up, I noticed a skier below us and a little creature running around his skis where he stopped. Dave saw it too and I said, “oh my gosh, it’s a mouse!” We were both in awe seeing this little one dash out onto the snow and move about near the skier who stopped and was being careful not to hurt him. Such an odd sighting out in the day on the thick snow, but obviously meant for the three of us to see him. This was the second time I was seeing a mouse recently, as one had run across the highway one night when I went to pick up Dave from the airport recently too.

This little one appearing on the snow in daylight spoke to me of having heightened awareness and sharp senses, presence, adapting to change on the way (messenger of change), observing and considering one’s surroundings in order to navigate with greater alignment, and the hidden being revealed. This little one wanted to be seen and his deliberate timing was also his potent message.

Someone else who loves to reveal messages and adapt to change in deliberate ways, is Astrid.

As you can see, she currently dawns a new symbol on her shape shifting fur – a circle that mirrors this Full Moon.

Astrid has been doing a lot of work behind the scenes, assisted Desiree with her shifts, and has been doing tons of collective crystal energy work. In fact, she’s been calling in and directing me to important crystal beings she/we need and even ones we’ve offered and still may offer. It’s an honor to cocreate with her. What a gift this has all been and that every day continues to unwrap in mysterious ways.

And if you’ve made it this far with me, I’m grateful to you for sticking there through all that is unfolding in the world, your own challenges and breakthrough experiences, and coming along for the ride with me, Astrid, and the collective at large during epic times indeed. We are weaving the tapestry with each of our threads and the more our individual lights shine, the more creative potential we open up for us to manifest.

Where ever you are and what ever you are feeling called to bring and sing through your heart, that path you navigate is the course worth following.

“The privilege of a lifetime is to become who you really are” — Carl Jung

This was a longer update since I’m posting more sporadically these days and since I am focused on my own movement of energy within the collective – our individual pieces are ever-more integral to the whole. If all goes as planned, I’ll be away on an extended birthday celebration vacation in about a week, so I’m not sure when the next touch-in will be. Although March is a potent month collectively, it’s a quieter one on my end. Many life changes are brewing behind the scenes.

Keep an eye out on the Creations & Crystals Closet, as there just might be new additions when you least expect it. For now there are 8 pieces remaining, which include an array of wearable crystals and potent spirit animal messengers that make invoking energy easy and magickal through daily adornments – I’m surprised some are still there, as I sense their people have made a connection. All in divine timing indeed. As always, payment plans available and reserving is an option too.

And last, I’m including cosmic faery sister Laura’s video update about yesterday’s Virgo Full Moon because of how it underscores some themes I highlighted and speaks to current energies we’re navigating our parts in. We always have synchronous messages pop through even without conversing about it. In this case, “breakthroughs” and the “Moon Tarot card symbolism” were big standouts, but also how she describes this Full Moon as “explosive” and I’m tuning in with “epic”. Moon energies are felt in the days leading up and also the ones following. I listened to her video while finishing the last part of this post and kept laughing each time a word popped up that I’d already written and especially giggled when she said faery at the same time I wrote that word. She shared a giggle with me when I told her this too, as we always mirror or compliment each other. Some other little synchronous hits popped through, too, as you’ll see.

Hope these shares are helpful during these times we’re navigating together. Big love from Astrid and me!!

About Tania Marie's Blog

Creating life as a work of art with a magick rabbit by my side. I remember my song. Do you? Artist, Author and Reiki Master Teacher with over 30 years' experience in creative healing arts and metaphysical studies. Tania inspires people globally to return to natural harmony, draw forth imagination to manifest dreams, embody creative empowerment, and live more magickally and abundantly from their most natural frequency – in essence, Tania helps you to remember your song.

Posted on March 8, 2023, in Uncategorized. Bookmark the permalink. 19 Comments.

  1. Whew! What an adventure. So glad you had such a lovely and loving birthday week! Also, cute to see you in the Mayan cardigan. Love you!

    • Also, thank you for sharing the synchronous video. That was fun, in real time.

    • WP is being tricky again. Anyway, thank you for sharing the video, too. Fun sync winks in real time!

    • You said it! Divine memorabilia lol! T 50th – an historical Winter to remember 🤣💫🤸‍♀️🥳 It was interesting that as a boundless collective Pisces that my birthday became a portal and vortex of transformation for others. The main challenges to me were dealing with road conditions and making sure everyone was okay. The sound healing set the tone for the path ahead…I didn’t want it to end. Thank you so much sweet L! For being there with me always in heart and for the gifts including the cozy cardigan that was part of the movement of energies that day. Love you too!

  2. I wish you a joyous 50th Solar Return Tania! If anyone can embody both exuberant enchantment and whimsy and incredible wisdom simultaneously, it is indeed you. I love your pet names like Uni and how breezily you seem to go with the flow and see the best in challenging situations. I appreciated Desiree’s journey. It remind’s me a little of my solo trip from Milan to Salerno, where the people I was set to stay with couldn’t be available, and my friend’s friend ( no one spoke English and I don’t speak Italian) met me at the airport and navigated my adventures in Southern Italy for a few days. Everything was handled on the fly and this was back before the days of internet and cellphones. I was so out of my comfort zone but realized later that all was well and I ( human me) am never in control. Love to you ❤ Linda

    • Super grateful for the lovely wishes and really sweet and special compliments Linda!! 💕 I feel your love pulse in my heart. Hehe! I’m giggling to know you love the names I have for all the big things around us.. it makes them to me more quaint and accessible, as well as like best friends along for the journey.

      Oh wow! Thank you for sharing about your experience in Italy! I love stories like that and Desiree’s. Isn’t it amazing what we used to accomplish even without all of these technologies? So much to glean from the myriad of experiences we’ve gone through over the years even just within this lifetime.

      Lots of love and gratitude to you!!! 💜

  3. Desiree Bergeron

    Awwwwwwww!!! This is pure amazingness!! You shared and captured all the epic-ness of these experiences in such a flowing, beautiful way…..all the pieces and connections and how they interwove through all the layers relating and interconnecting just perfectly!! I re-cried and re-laughed several times, energetically re-experiencing it all over again in an inter grating way!! So I am so deeply grateful for this huge gift of you putting this all together— it couldn’t have turned out more divinely aligned!! Thank you with all of my heart and soul!! My heart is still so full from everything I received, everything experienced!! Sharing all of the photos and stories with my kids and Craig has meant so much to both myself and them……so many treasured lessons in alignment and flow!! It’s a trip that gave to me exactly what I needed (as you know!) the whole journey there, the whole time there, and the whole journey back!! Forever anchored in my heart and soul written in the glowing language of love from every person that was part of it all!! I cannot say enough about all the unbelievable-ness and divine ness and miraculous ness~ but you already know and understand these things!! And like you said, I said YES to it all from start to finish…..and boyee did the Universe make sure I got more more more than I ever thought I could possibly receive//hold Uni just kept stretching me and opening me and pouring into me everything’s!!! LOL
    Beautiful birthday girl…….(youngest 50 ever!!) Thank you for holding space and co-creating//facilitating this all for me and with me!!!!
    AND, DAVE!!!!! I’ll never ever forget his amazing ness and hospitality AND sweet Queen Astrid💞Boojum and Sweetpea too!!
    I’ll never forget it EVER!!! 😌
    MUAH xx

    • THE END!!! 🤣🤭🤗🥳💫 LOL!

      I’m so happy you felt all the potency flow through again and anchor in all the changes ignited! So so proud of you! It will definitely go down in history … it’s 11:11 as I wrote that!!

      You are most welcome and thank YOU AGAIN!! FOR EVERYTHING YOU EMBRACED to be here with me! Muah!

  4. What an exciting and heart-filled birthday week. I’m glad you had friends, family, and nature to help you celebrate in grand style. Happy 50th Tania! 💥🍰💕

  5. I’ve spent a number of days trying to finish this wonderful piece of celebration, co-creation,

  6. Whoops! I was finished. Lol, synchronicities and the pulling together of community. So beautiful. Part of the journey out to you reminded me of my journey home after Christmas and all the ends and outs. The trust and knowing that we are held in loves arms. Thank you so much, and again happy 50th birthday. We love you.

    • Yes! You’re so right about that sweet D! I remember some of your story of that trip and also the divine opening and alignment for you to get home. You navigated that so brilliantly with embrace! And for the last tickets on the bus too after planes were not an option. Seems a lot of this keeps happening to help us know we are supported when we both align and embrace, while staying empowered. Thank you for all these powerful reminders and the birthday wishes! We love you too!!!

      • I was thinking and feeling the same, that it is happening allot now as long as we trust and play our part, knowing that it’s all working together for good. Huge hugs

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