Sunday I had planned to work, but I instead followed the spontaneity impulse and headed off to the mountains that were calling. More and more I surrender and trust where I am led in order to allow for the possibility of something greater, than I could have imagined or tried to contrive, to take place through following the inner nudges. I also end up experiencing how this trust supports a higher good because of my faith in it. My work, me and more always greatly benefits when I stop, listen, and follow through on the guidance felt.

I have felt the fears, scarcity, lack, frustration, insecurities, and doubts around in the air. And to that, I honor what you may be feeling, but also want you to know, that like everything, this is only temporary and can be relieved by continuing to give yourself to mindfulness in your life and each day being a little more lovingly courageous than the day before – opening yourself to a more intimate experience of yourself, others, and all of life consistently.

Magical, almost sea-cosmic blossoming plants growing from the rocks and dirt. So surreal – reminded me of the planet Pandora’s magical vegetation in Avatar

My day on the mountain was a day of transcendence. It provided much time for reflection, surrender, moving through challenges, and coming out freer than when started. There were literally times on the way down that I felt the lightness of my body and couldn’t feel the earth touching my feet with each step, although I was making contact with it. It was just as if energy was moving through energy and I floated tenderly in that space where they met.

On the way up, I had moments of feeling fully my higher self peering through my temple body I had chosen and at any moment I could easily move in and out and leave if so chosen. I could also sense the vastness of my soul and how much larger it was than the body it was in, making me feel almost like a giant when I was peering through my physical eyes. This in turn gave a sense of even more gratitude for this body that allows my soul to embody formlessness into form – not feeling trapped in the body, but in partnership with the chosen form that facilitates the experience chosen.

1500 year old tree at the summit top

It all puts much in perspective and brings me closer to the freedom where realities all intersect and can be ridden at any time.

The day also was very physically challenging as we went up the few thousand feet to the summit top of Mount Baden-Powell at 9500 elevation, but became another impossible turned possible! The path from start to finish climbs in steep continual switchbacks. I have discovered recently that I have a condition that is a cross between symphysis pubis dysfunction and sacroiliac join dysfunction – but mostly residing in the pelvic area. This has been evident for years and began when I was in high school with a circulation issue that showed up in numbness from walking uphill that was loosely connected with this and developed more later, especially due to injuries. The numbness would take over my legs completely to the point I could not walk when it happened until it subsided and circulation returned.

Me at the summit in complete surrender

Later, it turned into a very challenging joint issue mostly in the pelvic region. Anyway, needless to say, it never is an issue unless becomes exasperated from doing heavy leg lifting of any kind and uphill rigorous walking or hiking that stresses the area, even stretching the legs too much.

I don’t think anything of it until I experience the debilitation and then it is up to me how I choose to roll with the feeling. I am one who believes in the meaning behind everything and why things show up in our bodies and I can see the layers of how this would have developed when it did in my youth and how only isolated things can trigger it that all connected to old and limiting ways of operating. It doesn’t always show up, but certain circumstances and physical conditions can bring it on. However, the very clear distinction between the climb up and the flight down, were symbolic to me – the hard working, strip yourself of everything in order to get to the goal realizing that perhaps what you are striving for was attainable through the ease of floating in surrender that can just as easily take place from any vantage point and neither up or down are better or worse..each having their value and gifts to provide.

Once again, I like to always live out symbolism to truly come to understand and embody the meaning of things and this time it felt not just for myself personally, but that I was embodying a collective symbolism enacted out through this experience of opposites. And then, integrating some of the other in each while experiencing it, in order to shift it into a new way of going through it all as a whole, rather than an old way.

Again, very subtle shifts in perspective and weaving in new surrendering that through each physical experience took me to the end, into transcendence where they each “could” exist and yet didn’t because I could be in a different position of observer that was unattached, unaffected, and yet still aware and part of the whole journey.

Hint of deer in the forest you can barely make out between the trees (our view from where we were hiking briskly down)…how we came to even see her is a mystery other than following an instinct to turn while walking and directly be guided in resonance to where she was

It’s very complex to delve into the specifics, but let’s just say that they aren’t even necessary to know, as the reality I am explaining is one that resonates in the vibration of “is.”

Yes, anything is possible (I full-heartedly know this to be so and created that reality on this day again) and you can achieve whatever you set your mind and heart to when they are focused in alignment together, but there are always more than just two ways to approach things and not every challenge is one you have to take to prove anything. The places we could greatly benefit from challenging ourselves is in opening our hearts more, being more vulnerable, courageously being in our wholeness consistently, and opening to our creative power.

And all things can be metaphors for your life.

Deer with cell zoom, and still she is faintly present amidst the trees

Upon the decent down the mountain after, precisely at my very special 4:44pm timing a deer angel appeared in the trees. I knew the time, as the second our attention, for some odd reason made us turn to find this statuesque beauty standing in silence hidden in the trees, I looked at the time on my cell when I reached to snap a photo. I immediately sent gratitude to this blessing. Synchronously, we had just been wondering minutes before, what animal creatures inhabited these forests besides the few chipmunks and birds we’d seen. 🙂

It was a beautiful day all around. The stillness of the mountains and the surrender I gave to the entire day was exactly the medicine and alchemy needed.

I so relate to John Muir and his understanding and connection of nature, life, the cosmos…

“The mountains are calling and I must go.” John Muir

Nature has a way of teaching us the greatest life and Universal lessons.